ASMR for People with Autism 🦋

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  • Опубликовано: 20 янв 2025

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  • @zeneiasasmr
    @zeneiasasmr  Год назад +11895

    Hello guys!🦋
    In case you didn’t know, I’m a qualified professional/teacher/childminder for kids with autism! Lately, I’ve been practicing ASMR on them and they’re loving it! So today, I decided to use my techniques on you ( suitable for adults and kids ! ). I completely understand that autism is having so many spectrums and some people may not enjoy this video. Too bright, too slow, too fast etc. that’s why I’m also making custom asmr videos for kids or adults with autism, adhd etc. hope you enjoyed from the bottom of my heart x🫶🏼💞 ( I find myself enjoying filming videos like this more. Let me know if you’d like more videos like this! )

    • @Kostas.V_
      @Kostas.V_ Год назад +49

      Firstt❤❤❤

    • @kerttukaroliina9343
      @kerttukaroliina9343 Год назад +142

      youre amazing ❤

    • @StefaniaCotorceanu
      @StefaniaCotorceanu Год назад +150

      You're a really kind and lovely person! I'm so glad that I discovered your channel!!! ❤️❤️

    • @dp-ec3rr
      @dp-ec3rr Год назад +79

      Off course we want more videos like.that!!!! It was very relaxing and enjoyable ❤❤❤❤😊

    • @100wangyirenbiased2
      @100wangyirenbiased2 Год назад +47

      Yes definitely!! This was so relaxing

  • @vanthonvenus
    @vanthonvenus Год назад +7676

    i really like how she doesn’t stare directly into the camera the entire time and kind of looks just to the side of it, eye contact always freaks me out during anything and this really helped with relaxation. highkey the only asmr video directed to people with autism that i felt got down what our needs are when it comes to asmr.

    • @zeneiasasmr
      @zeneiasasmr  Год назад +1114

      I know how important it is, even for me it’s so awkward sometimes. So I prefer to look at the objects or just other part of the screen and give some privacy and safety! So glad you noticed, thank you sweetheart!🩷🤍🫶🏼

    • @0rgan_g1rl
      @0rgan_g1rl Год назад +79

      Eye contact freaks me out to, it makes me feel extremely anxious

    • @picture-of-grace
      @picture-of-grace Год назад +62

      eye contact is always an issue cuz I do actually sometimes like to look at people's face when they talk but I can only do it when they're looking away from me otherwise I instinctually avoid looking at people when they're looking back so this video is cool I don't have to worry about that :)

    • @aledlast7153
      @aledlast7153 Год назад +9

      So so true

    • @Νικολ-ι9ψ
      @Νικολ-ι9ψ Год назад +7

      ​@@zeneiasasmr είναι πολύ σημαντικό που μέσα σε αυτό που κάνεις νοιάζεσαι και για αυτόν που το βλέπει και δείχνεις το ήθος σου. Μπράβο που δίνεις τόση αγάπη

  • @vega5233
    @vega5233 Год назад +3941

    Humming, no eye contact, no harsh sounds, repeating words and she actually "interacts" with us, this is all i ever asked for

    • @clOwnmaggotz
      @clOwnmaggotz 10 месяцев назад +17

      so true

    • @sociallyineptsnapper
      @sociallyineptsnapper 9 месяцев назад +48

      For me repeating words is pretty overstimulating. I thought most of us were like that but I guess not.

    • @0x.mei1
      @0x.mei1 9 месяцев назад +1

      @Mels-ANGEL-BABYagreed!

    • @xoxooogilmoreeaa
      @xoxooogilmoreeaa 7 месяцев назад +4

      @@nrieei love it personally

    • @TaylaChisholm
      @TaylaChisholm 7 месяцев назад +1

      yesss (also, love ur pfp)

  • @puppiesgacha2948
    @puppiesgacha2948 Год назад +3582

    I'm not autistic but I have ADHD and sensory issues. This was really helpful. Most ADHD and autism related videos are made to just keep attention and treat you like a child. They also are often ill informed (I saw one, not naming anyone bc I'm sure they didn't mean it, where it was just constantly speaking in baby voice while saying not to zone out. None of it focused on sensory issues or anything) so this was really nice. I feel understood. I don't feel weird in this because you're treating the viewer as a regular person

    • @Krazy-8fangurl
      @Krazy-8fangurl Год назад +165

      BRUH SAME. The baby voices always get me💀💀

    • @lonelyone-hs8jw
      @lonelyone-hs8jw Год назад +149

      I got baby voiced a few times IRL
      my instincts to backslap were strong. 💪

    • @Elliethatloveslumity
      @Elliethatloveslumity Год назад +26

      @@lonelyone-hs8jwsameeee. 😭😭😭😭

    • @Duskypawsz
      @Duskypawsz Год назад +28

      I have a sensory processing disorder and autism, I have a friend with adhd also❤

    • @KKdosenotcare
      @KKdosenotcare Год назад +6

      Same

  • @Jacebanana
    @Jacebanana Год назад +11251

    Lets talk about your GREAT details
    - she's giving options
    - making hand motions
    - shes not staring right in the camera
    - keeping interactive questions
    - shes giving color sequences
    - making details on background context
    - she's making games to play
    - making stimulating sense factors
    - seperating colors and shapes
    - shes repeating things as well
    keep on doing what you do best girly!! Fully supporting you :)

    • @zeneiasasmr
      @zeneiasasmr  Год назад +1178

      Ohh I’m in tears. Thank you so so so much, lovely soul!🥹🩷🫶🏼

    • @Jacebanana
      @Jacebanana Год назад +62

      No problem!!

    • @blythetaylor4063
      @blythetaylor4063 Год назад +242

      I was wondering WHY this worked so well for me in comparison to other asmr videos! Lol thank you. I hope she makes more, this level of attention to detail and care is so important, rare and appreciated.

    • @sillyfluffysheep
      @sillyfluffysheep Год назад +17

      Staring even if it's not in person bothers you??/gen

    • @somethingwithbungalows
      @somethingwithbungalows Год назад +40

      @@sillyfluffysheep ik I’m not them but yeh sometimes

  • @sweet_bruiser5144
    @sweet_bruiser5144 Год назад +7923

    As someone who's autistic, I struggle a lot with asmr feeling "asymmetric." The humming following the same pattern and reoccuring and the back and forth sounds were so wonderful for me! You didn't repeat "orange" more than "green" etc, which I found super nice. I know not everyone with autism will have the same experience, but for me I liked this a lot!

    • @zeneiasasmr
      @zeneiasasmr  Год назад +659

      I’m so so so happy!!!! More videos like this will come soon!🥰

    • @beaniebabieasmr5951
      @beaniebabieasmr5951 Год назад +321

      yes! i am autistic and have ocd and that kind of assymetry in other videos reallly bothers me too!

    • @lunarya3820
      @lunarya3820 Год назад +98

      Yees! I struggle too with asymmetry on asmr

    • @renny2198
      @renny2198 Год назад +194

      especially when they tap on something more on one side more than the other. it drives me insane

    • @evieanne407
      @evieanne407 Год назад +67

      I’ve never seen someone with the same thing! Nice to hear I’m not alone

  • @mothymothh
    @mothymothh Год назад +387

    I am 13 and autistic. I also have insomnia so I use asmr to sleep. This.. is AMAZING!! The humming, different tones of voice, i love it

  • @jut_dwaetoucher
    @jut_dwaetoucher Год назад +22382

    I’m autistic and usually I don’t like “asmr for autistic people”, because a lot of the time it’s just the creator treating us as if we’re a child, which I don’t like at all. But this video was completely different, I didn’t feel like I was being treated like a kid, I felt understood and not overstimulated which doesn’t happen a lot, so thank you :)

    • @zeneiasasmr
      @zeneiasasmr  Год назад +3570

      I’m so so so so happy and glad to hear that. Sending hugs xx🤍🫶🏼

    • @indieoregano
      @indieoregano Год назад +1303

      Agreed! So often we're infantilized but this video didn't do that at all. The symmetry (for example, not saying green more than orange), precise movements, enunciation of every consonant and vowel, minimal eye contact- it's all things that I can't find in other videos "for autistic people" because they aren't actually made for us!

    • @melly4600
      @melly4600 Год назад +227

      ​@Oregano they are made with the INTENTION to be for y'all. While you say they arent made for you and others with autism, you are leaving out the people WITH autism that did enjoy the videos which you claim "not to be made for us"

    • @Random_Cable69
      @Random_Cable69 Год назад +30

      I agree

    • @azari_osaka
      @azari_osaka Год назад

      ??? are children not people? maybe yr just not the target age demographic for the autism asmr videos yr watching.

  • @strangetoad4317
    @strangetoad4317 Год назад +939

    AS SOMEONE WITH AUTISM THE FACT SHE TOOK OFF THE BLUE DOT FROM THE ORANGE RELAXES ME SO MUCH, I always notice small things that make the entire video unenjoyable

    • @theipadkid712
      @theipadkid712 Год назад +15

      Yes me too!

    • @sirnobodys
      @sirnobodys Год назад +23

      yeah like there's these posters in my school where there's hands and they are like 99% colored in and I get so anooyied just because there's a small amount of white space left and nobody understands and I'm like BRO XD

    • @Idrinkthebloodoftheguilty
      @Idrinkthebloodoftheguilty Год назад

      I noticed that the yellow sun didn't have any lines on the right side 😢

    • @Nanaj_thebestt
      @Nanaj_thebestt Год назад +3

      yes, I was really troubled about it

    • @somerandomwolftherian
      @somerandomwolftherian Год назад +1

      Fr

  • @jessrh8kp
    @jessrh8kp 8 месяцев назад +256

    Can we all js take a min to appreciate that she:
    - didn’t treat us like a child
    - didn’t stare directly into the camera
    - gave options so we could choose
    - did hand motions
    - repeated things
    - she gives colour sequences
    - gives clear instructions
    - does gentle movements
    - focuses on our senses
    - separates shapes and colours
    - turns things into fun games
    Tysm for doing this it was so relaxing and calming for me! I didn’t feel overwhelmed or overstimulated at all! And I didn’t have a sensory overload bc of ppl using lots of different triggers, instead u did it on at a time , slowly and calmly, which I appreciate very much! ilysm i will always support u!

  • @Jasperino_
    @Jasperino_ Год назад +5032

    I am 14 and autistic, this actually makes me feel right, instead of overstimulated, thank you

  • @fqirydstx
    @fqirydstx Год назад +1124

    i don't have autism but reading the comments of how you've really helped people and made them feel understood makes me so happy 🩷

  • @mel0nixd
    @mel0nixd Год назад +208

    Every time she starts humming I feel like I'm in heaven. I never thought asmr would sound nice if someone hums but omgg

  • @erinisatree9970
    @erinisatree9970 Год назад +1467

    I love the humming, soft repetitive actions calm me down so much. I wish more asmrtists did that

  • @dani-qi7vu
    @dani-qi7vu Год назад +1558

    i really like how she didn’t switch up triggers every 30 seconds like other asmrtists and like narrated everything she did in a way. everything flowed perfectly and she really got me to relax and be able to fall asleep after watching.

    • @xartefx7155
      @xartefx7155 Год назад +7

      other asmrtist do it cuz of ppl like that have adhd, stop comparing

    • @57ActiveTurrets
      @57ActiveTurrets Год назад +37

      ​@@xartefx7155 They aren't comparing in a bad way! Just a nice statement, they're just pointing out something that Zeneia thought of to cater for those with autism!

    • @Jacebanana
      @Jacebanana Год назад +12

      They're not comparing, they just like how she let triggers stay for a little while longer!
      People with autism tend to go through these "obsessions" where they like a certain thing for a period of time!
      Its okay if you didn't know this, I'm just helping you understand what they mean 🙃

    • @pupinia_s
      @pupinia_s Год назад +2

      ​@@Jacebananai think what youre reffering to is a hyperfixation? :)

    • @LegendarySpaceRipper
      @LegendarySpaceRipper Год назад +1

      Obsession with most things. With figurines, one would be obsessed with Pirates of the Caribbean for a bit and then go to Starlight or Harley Quinn and find it hard to go back to the previous one. Same with comics or films. It is like you have to be in a different mindset. Although I like mixing up the characters.

  • @serendipity0xx
    @serendipity0xx Год назад +1085

    I don't think I have autism, but this was surprisingly soothing in a way I've never experienced before. This is definitely one of my favorite asmr's I've come across. ❤

    • @myspectre
      @myspectre Год назад +26

      Same!

    • @CandyFoxxleDoesYT
      @CandyFoxxleDoesYT Год назад +34

      yeah same, i dont have autism (diagnosed) but i love this so much

    • @kashmire05
      @kashmire05 Год назад +45

      same I have ADHD and there's a whole plethora of fast and aggressive and overstimulating "ADHD" asmr videos that usually sound the best for me, but I was curious of this video and this is very different to the fast ones I prefer but I really like how gentle the triggers are and yet still keeps you focused and engaged till the end. Very impressive!

    • @noelle4098
      @noelle4098 Год назад +21

      @@kashmire05I so agree! As someone with ADHD I hate the ones for those with ADHD but I love her ASD videos so much! They aren’t as overstimulating and are very relaxing but still keep me focused.

    • @theraiderka5749
      @theraiderka5749 Год назад +1

      So same!

  • @thisbluewall6263
    @thisbluewall6263 Год назад +3953

    i am autistic and this video was wonderful!
    some details I noticed that I enjoyed were:
    -no eyecontact but still paying attention to use
    -humming !!!!
    -engaging talk/activities
    -simple triggers, no harsh noises
    -narrating your way through the videos
    -engaging questions
    -doing more than just tapping, using lots of hand gestures and whispers
    -not changing the triggers too frequently
    probbaly more that i didnt notice but this was lovely, thank you for being accommadating!!!

    • @ZoruaLightning
      @ZoruaLightning Год назад +112

      Thank you for this, I didn't notice any difference between this and regular ASMR except for humming and I was looking for a comment like this.

    • @aayasemayoi
      @aayasemayoi Год назад +125

      the repeating too!!! i reallyreally liked the repeating with the 1 2 3 4 and the humming always being the same

    • @filastron
      @filastron Год назад +27

      the narrating and humming!!!!

    • @Jacebanana
      @Jacebanana Год назад +15

      Yup! There is also a bit of info I may have missed in my breakdown! Thanks for explaining other things, I bet it really helps other people !! 😊

    • @alexbird9262
      @alexbird9262 Год назад +20

      Me being a music student too I noticed that when she was humming she always stopped on Sol (do, re, mi, fa, sol)

  • @Brittany_2010
    @Brittany_2010 Год назад +3191

    My autistic son was having such a hard time falling asleep tonight and this video really helped relax him. Thank you so much ! 💕

    • @zeneiasasmr
      @zeneiasasmr  Год назад +245

      Couldn’t be happier!! Enjoy!🥰

    • @emily_thegamer1472
      @emily_thegamer1472 Год назад +32

      It's so wholesome how parents of autistic children come on and talk about their special needs and love them no matter what. ❤ Most family's I've seen just abandon their autistic child and its sickening

    • @Kuntfetti
      @Kuntfetti Год назад +3

      @@emily_thegamer1472yeah my dad lied to me for 12 yrs and pretended I didn’t have autism cuz he said I would use it as a “excuse” :(

    • @NAT_RAT18
      @NAT_RAT18 Месяц назад

      I belive the same thing is happening to me but with adhd :[

  • @stasibunny8186
    @stasibunny8186 7 месяцев назад +47

    Taking off the one blue dot just shows how much you actually understand Neurodivergent people and not many people would have thought about how distressing it could be

    • @5staropinions
      @5staropinions 5 месяцев назад +2

      i noticed this too! whenever things mix in such a small way, it really bothers me, i think it's great that someone finally isn't uninformed!

  • @scp-682-cu6
    @scp-682-cu6 Год назад +2516

    This?
    I smiled. The colors made me smile. The word repetition calmed me. The humming made me happy.
    I haven't been diagnosed with autism, but I share several of the symptoms. I tend to relate to and find comfort in content for those on the spectrum. Thanks for the safe space.

    • @ElvishRae
      @ElvishRae Год назад +115

      This, in the same boat and the video is so nice

    • @60s70s.Loverr
      @60s70s.Loverr Год назад +74

      the humming was my fav

    • @beth8191
      @beth8191 Год назад +51

      i relate to this so badly, i gonna watch this video all the time

    • @MilaLangslet
      @MilaLangslet Год назад +25

      Yeah Same here except I have adhd and spd but my family is starting to question my diagnosis.

    • @MaxHill-zd5uq
      @MaxHill-zd5uq Год назад +11

      I relate to this comment so much ive re watched this video so many times its my comfort video

  • @X_GL1TCH_X
    @X_GL1TCH_X 9 месяцев назад +20

    As a mainly non-verbal individual who doesn't see why people talk much, the singing was so calming, I adored it. I love it when people sing or when I sing, it is a lovely sound and you've made me so happy, thank you 🫶

  • @starrydew
    @starrydew Год назад +2691

    I dont have austism, but i was intrigued by the premise, so i decided to watch. its super relaxing! scrolling through the comments, youve helped a lot of people and it makes me happy ❤❤

    • @zeneiasasmr
      @zeneiasasmr  Год назад +205

      Honestly it’s unbelievable! Thank you so much!🩷🫶🏼

    • @jordandcaf
      @jordandcaf Год назад +57

      Put my thoughts into words

    • @isabellabelonia7231
      @isabellabelonia7231 Год назад +23

      I was actually about to say that!

    • @siregne4343
      @siregne4343 Год назад +43

      I am not autistic, but I found this to be really satisfying. Usual ASMR's don't work for me

    • @Notideaff
      @Notideaff Год назад +1

      Yo

  • @tessab.6351
    @tessab.6351 Год назад +995

    A lot of other people have already said a lot, but the thing I liked most about this as a fellow autistic adult, was the fact that you announced what you were going to do way before you did it and during it would explain what and why. Giving options that were between a few things instead of a lot, literal discriptions etc! Thank you! Love from the Netherlands

    • @zeneiasasmr
      @zeneiasasmr  Год назад +62

      Oh such a heartwarming comment, thank you so so so much!🤍🫶🏼

  • @IzabelaAnzhelina
    @IzabelaAnzhelina Год назад +1174

    WHEN SHE REMOVED THE BLUE DOT FROM THE SLIME>>>>>>>>>>>

  • @nep_tunezz
    @nep_tunezz Год назад +722

    This actually is genuinely one of the best videos for me as someone with autism Its really hard to find asmr videos that dont have "bad textured sounds" or dont over stimulate me so this was really nice!
    Thank you :))

    • @inksansbutangsty7984
      @inksansbutangsty7984 Год назад +24

      I relate to this so hard. I hate watery sounds so every part but the banana part in this video was perfect for me :DDD

    • @Kshahrewa_r
      @Kshahrewa_r Год назад +4

      This is so real- There's some sounds I just...can't

    • @lemonmeringue1448
      @lemonmeringue1448 Год назад +3

      The "bad texture sounds" they kill me every time. I feel like every time I start getting better, coming down from a freak out, or come down from being overstimulated I get hit with an uncomfortably sticky sound. Eggh 😢

    • @heatherteasdale9229
      @heatherteasdale9229 Год назад +6

      oh god, usually wood-on-wood sounds, or fingers brushing over wood. absolutely hateful sound

    • @ohDearMe.
      @ohDearMe. Год назад +1

      Fabric sounds/touching fabric with fingernails or teeth are my worst nightmare! Glad to know I'm not the only one! :)

  • @gloaming.
    @gloaming. Год назад +757

    I'm an autistic adult (31), and I was having an incredibly bad sensory day where I could.. feel my skin too much? Touch was being over stimulated, to the point feeling a breeze, or even my own clothing was feeling so awful. I happened across this video, and honestly this helped me so very much, in a short amount of time! Lovely video, thank you ♥

    • @jeremyfrost2636
      @jeremyfrost2636 Год назад +47

      I hate that, when my sense of touch gets like really heightened. Happens to me often enough that it's problematic. Sorry that happens to you too.

    • @mary-janereallynotsarah684
      @mary-janereallynotsarah684 Год назад +14

      Do u ever get hyper ticklish with fabrics?

    • @jeremyfrost2636
      @jeremyfrost2636 Год назад +7

      @@mary-janereallynotsarah684 I do!

    • @fawning.
      @fawning. Год назад +19

      I hate when that happens. Only some fabrics make me comfortable (the softish, thinner ones, idk how to explain), and almost all others make me so uncomfortable. When I’m having a bad sensory day my headphones save my ears, but nothing can really help the skin.

    • @gloaming.
      @gloaming. Год назад +7

      @@mary-janereallynotsarah684 No, for me it's more stinging, like a sunburn.

  • @spoketothemoon
    @spoketothemoon Год назад +104

    dude as an autistic person.. I loved this. My bsf showed me it and now I’ve been listening to it for the past week even when like not going to sleep

    • @Ryxin_Chanalt
      @Ryxin_Chanalt 7 месяцев назад

      My bsf also showed me dis! I luved it! :3

  • @ZayhnNichii
    @ZayhnNichii Год назад +1543

    My little sister has autism and I put this on the tv so she could watch it. She responded to every question smiling ☺️❤️
    Thank you for making this

    • @Idk.whoiam.
      @Idk.whoiam. Год назад +30

      Same ^^

    • @Shark_enthusiast10
      @Shark_enthusiast10 Год назад +18

      my sister did that for me too it's nice to see other people with similar experiences

  • @xXIronPeachesXx
    @xXIronPeachesXx Год назад +786

    Also kudos for keeping your expression neutral positive, not smiling but not glowering is a difficult face to master and you would give brief smiles as you spoke to really let us feel like we have the option to express our faces or not. It's hard to describe but it's like how cats get nervous if you stare at them but not if you look bored. I don't feel like I'm expected to emote as a call and response, instead that you are opting to emote at us not with us and keep our internal narrative comfortably separate

    • @zeneiasasmr
      @zeneiasasmr  Год назад +124

      I’m almost in tears. Thank you love…

    • @Emilyhill0987
      @Emilyhill0987 Год назад +31

      You explained it perfectly! Her expression made me feel like I could actually relax because I can recognize even though she’s not smiling, she’s okay and not angry or upset.

    • @starsrgorg
      @starsrgorg Год назад +5

      i was thinking this during the video, it calmed me how she didn’t look bored, but wasn’t like too excited to where it was stressful if that makes sense. it felt very calming and the visuals and subtle audios in the back were perfect!

  • @mang0sundae
    @mang0sundae Год назад +42

    I don't have autism but this really just makes me calm and most asmr doesn't do that for me i realy liked the humming and how you didnt really make lots of harsh noises and changing triggers quickly it was so calming!!

  • @hangingrei
    @hangingrei Год назад +829

    As someone with autism, this was an amazing watch. I usually get bored after watching asmr if there isn't much going on, and when I do find one I can focus on it's usually very aggressive ASMR (which although I like, my ears hurt after a while).
    This was a perfect combination of calming, stimulating, engaging, and just overall tingly. The textures and sounds were amazing. The sounds were soft yet loud at the same time, which I LOVE!
    Genuinely, this is probably my favorite ASMR video. Thank you so much for making this ❤️

    • @zeneiasasmr
      @zeneiasasmr  Год назад +46

      I’m so touched. Thank you from the bottom of my heart…🫶🏼🤍

    • @CAPTAINCHRISHD
      @CAPTAINCHRISHD Год назад +4

      I have autism too brother, high five

  • @yoinkiezoinks
    @yoinkiezoinks Год назад +1357

    0:00 - spiky ball
    2:00 - playfoam in packet
    5:02 - playfoam out of packet
    6:49 - spider song
    7:29 - banana toy
    9:22 - butterflies
    12:30 - pop it
    14:13 - air drawing
    17:34 - spider song
    18:35 - putty

    • @kookiemonster9709
      @kookiemonster9709 Год назад +27

      Its a pop it btw not poppet (no hate)

    • @yoinkiezoinks
      @yoinkiezoinks Год назад +34

      @@kookiemonster9709 yes, sorry I think that was autocorrect lol. Thanks for pointing it out :)

    • @itsfern_
      @itsfern_ Год назад

      thank you for this ❤

    • @wecouldhavebeenus
      @wecouldhavebeenus Год назад

      ty

  • @rottedbug
    @rottedbug Год назад +110

    it's like you're stimming FOR me!! this is so nice, thank you for your inclusive content

    • @mary-janereallynotsarah684
      @mary-janereallynotsarah684 11 месяцев назад +7

      Oh that's it! Lol I was wondering why I felt so comforted by this. 😂

    • @dulcx_24
      @dulcx_24 9 месяцев назад +2

      This is so true!

  • @teaganinglehart
    @teaganinglehart Год назад +509

    I can REALLY appreciate the fact that when you asked us to close our eyes, you told us that you weren't going to touch us. It's only one sentence, but I really felt understood.
    I can tell that you put so much thought into this video, and it means so much ❤❤❤

    • @jeremyfrost2636
      @jeremyfrost2636 Год назад +29

      Agreed, that moment was really good and demonstrated a very strong understanding of autistic people.

    • @scp-682-cu6
      @scp-682-cu6 Год назад +16

      :( Yeah. I don't think I'm autistic, but it calmed me to hear someone respect my boundaries even if it's only a video. I don't like touch unless I explicitly allow it.

    • @scp-682-cu6
      @scp-682-cu6 Год назад +6

      ... OMG cool pfp

    • @lheartheathersss_
      @lheartheathersss_ Год назад +9

      And how she said it won't be loud!

  • @celibattanteetcelicharmante
    @celibattanteetcelicharmante Год назад +515

    "you can tell me or just think about it" THANK YOU OMGG i never know what to do 😭

  • @kashmire05
    @kashmire05 Год назад +53

    I dont have autism, I have ADHD, and while I usually prefer my fast and aggressive and extremely stimulating ASMR vids especially on in the background to focus on my work, I was curious of this video and was pleasantly surprised at how gentle the triggers are and yet she kept me completely focused and engaged till the end. I never finish ASMR videos, I never finish ANY videos because I have the attention span of a goldfish but this was soothing and oddly really enjoyable for me! I'm glad to see more videos like these that are specialized for neurodivergent people because we are the most affected and sensitive in the sensory department, which is the main point of ASMR.

  • @RAHHHXDD
    @RAHHHXDD Год назад +477

    I'm fourteen and autistic.
    You've used such great sensory advances in this with noise , touch and colours. I think you're one of the best asmrtists out there. This was amazing :) 💗

    • @zeneiasasmr
      @zeneiasasmr  Год назад +38

      Oh thank you from the bottom of my heart!🥺🤍

    • @RAHHHXDD
      @RAHHHXDD Год назад +6

      @@zeneiasasmr Thank you 💗

    • @mars4451
      @mars4451 Год назад +2

      I totally agree! I’m fifteen and autistic :)

  • @lillytsp5704
    @lillytsp5704 Год назад +2801

    I don’t have autism but this is the most relaxing asmr video I have watched ❤️

    • @zeneiasasmr
      @zeneiasasmr  Год назад +189

      Wow! So so so glad!🥰🫶🏼

    • @luciejancova6846
      @luciejancova6846 Год назад +43

      Same ❤️

    • @Lunardevil66666
      @Lunardevil66666 Год назад

      @@luciejancova6846 me too

    • @sunnyy-o0347
      @sunnyy-o0347 Год назад +36

      mhm I was about to say

    • @CamelSupplier
      @CamelSupplier Год назад +45

      ​@@sunnyy-o0347 off topic, but I'm absolutely losing my mind over your pfp. It's so funny to me and I have honestly no idea why

  • @OVERSTIMXLATEDXX_
    @OVERSTIMXLATEDXX_ Год назад +33

    I felt relaxed
    I was not overstimulated
    I didnt feel as if i was being treated as if i was a 4 year old
    My ears didnt hurt
    My eyes didnt hurt
    I think this is the best autistic asmr ive watched
    Edit = I had to edit it because everyword was misspelled

  • @sicko033
    @sicko033 Год назад +164

    As someone with autism it's nice that you sort of look to the side. When someone looks me in the eyes it feels like I have to work hard, since I naturally don't want to keep eye contact. And that still applies to videos. So I appreciate it

    • @zeneiasasmr
      @zeneiasasmr  Год назад +9

      🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼

    • @Binx_v
      @Binx_v Год назад +3

      Yes, this honestly, sometimes i cant watch asmr videos cuz the eyecontact makes me uncomfortable and then i cant relax

    • @kaleidoscopecatsz
      @kaleidoscopecatsz 7 месяцев назад

      @@Binx_vrighttt me too

  • @werewolfsbane
    @werewolfsbane Год назад +497

    im autistic and i really loved this. for some reason, you always mentioning that things are safe really calmed me down! even though logically i know stuff like that is safe, it really eased my anxiety

    • @bagofrazors2934
      @bagofrazors2934 Год назад +16

      Seeing this comment acted as reassurance in a weird way. I can’t tell you why I enjoy this. Especially when my usually means of relaxation is (this May sound odd I understand) is death or doom metal music. Yet I can’t take my eyes off of this video. It’s relaxing, and comforting, and idk why. But “for some reason” was sort of my first thought. This comment isn’t articulate I apologize.

    • @alexdoorn234
      @alexdoorn234 Год назад +10

      ​@@bagofrazors2934ha I understand being relaxed and comforted by metal music. I could have a song on with growls and just fall asleep during it. However I listen to symphonic metal and power metal among other sub genres.

    • @m_217
      @m_217 Год назад +3

      ​@@alexdoorn234 Omg same !!! I love symphonic metal and powermetal

    • @bagofrazors2934
      @bagofrazors2934 Год назад +1

      @@calgabrielzeroday a lot of people take pleasure in metal but it also feels like that relaxation is something you have to experience to completely understand. Whether it’s catharsis, atmosphere, stimulation, etc music has always been my go to and I have invested much time in making it. Rn I’m really into gothic rock. Gothic rock and demos from The band HIM are on consistent rotation.

    • @jeremyfrost2636
      @jeremyfrost2636 Год назад +1

      @@bagofrazors2934 Your comment was plenty articulate enough, I understood everything you said. And I like metal too, so rock on. 🤘

  • @Autistickid9atyourarea263
    @Autistickid9atyourarea263 9 месяцев назад +56

    I'm a 10 year old with autism, I absolutely LOVE this🩷

    • @solartab
      @solartab 7 месяцев назад +1

      i'm 10 too but i don't have that but my cousin i think does

    • @Autistickid9atyourarea263
      @Autistickid9atyourarea263 7 месяцев назад +1

      @@solartabwhy? Does she still or have the symptoms? (Not all autistic ppl like me stim)

  • @ChynauniqueASMR
    @ChynauniqueASMR Год назад +3250

    This video was so tingly 💖🫶

    • @zeneiasasmr
      @zeneiasasmr  Год назад +377

      CHYNA, you’re joking. Thank you so much hun~~ you’re absolutely amazing🫶🏼🩷✨

    • @ignoreme_.123
      @ignoreme_.123 Год назад +10

      700th like!

    • @burntpup4719
      @burntpup4719 Год назад +4

      we up but you down

    • @DokiDoki-H3art
      @DokiDoki-H3art Год назад +7

      @@burntpup4719huh-

  • @Labyyrinthe
    @Labyyrinthe Год назад +172

    I'm 17 years old, I'm autistic and this ASMR for people with autism was actually amazing, it didn't make me feel overstimulated and I fell asleep! and the "i'm not gonna touch you" i love You:(💗

  • @nicolawickens6457
    @nicolawickens6457 Год назад +32

    She treated us so well, I cried💕❤😭

  • @soakhkwn1646
    @soakhkwn1646 Год назад +138

    i’m obsessed with the humming/musical aspect in this. as a person currently pursuing an autism diagnosis this brought me an immense amount of comfort. new subscriber!

    • @annecorrie_
      @annecorrie_ Год назад +1

      Im in the same boat! I have a test scheduled but they couldn't get me on until February of 2024. Until then im doing as much research as possible and learning as much about myself as I can.

  • @Mentallymuzz
    @Mentallymuzz Год назад +479

    I’m 20 and I have autism and I absolutely loved this! It’s so comforting knowing people actually care to cater to our community without infantilism, thank you so much!

    • @kenziebrownn
      @kenziebrownn Год назад +2

      I’m 20 and have autism too!

    • @dreamofdystopia
      @dreamofdystopia Год назад +1

      i’m 20 and autistic as well, so so grateful to have creators like this!! definitely a video i’m going to revisit.

  • @Hexagonal_record
    @Hexagonal_record 7 месяцев назад +10

    The humming makes me feel really safe for some reason... Idk why, it just feels nice.

  • @f1refli3zz
    @f1refli3zz Год назад +85

    As someone with autism, I love how you’re able to be sensitive and interactive without treating the viewer like a child. You’re able to include different textures and sounds without me feeling overwhelmed. It’s both calming and stimulating and I love it:]

  • @Jaykadoodle
    @Jaykadoodle Год назад +268

    Im 16 and on the spectrum and I have to say this is probably one of my new favourite asmr videos, the humming especially was my favourite

  • @benjiterminator
    @benjiterminator Год назад +8

    I was having a mental breakdown and was looking for something to calm me down and this poped out. I didn't know what to expect cuz i don't watch asmr videos often or if i do i don't finish them and turn them off after few minutes.. But I watched the whole thing and even if it would be longer i would watch it to the end. It made me feel really safe and comfortable. Thank you :]

  • @thedarkmonarch
    @thedarkmonarch Год назад +134

    I'm not autistic myself, but my older sister is. I can see things in this video such as the neutral expression that is very well done and would help her. The balancing between left and right is perfectly done, and you made sure each color felt like it was said the same amount of times and for the same time even if the words were different. Perfectly done!
    Edit: also the very slight white noise helps balance everything and keep even more stability which is nice.

  • @deeznusr
    @deeznusr Год назад +171

    i dont have autism but really so glad that people with autism and nd people are being more included into things like this! :D and youre a real professional at that, not like some people who keep making videos like “asmr for people who have adhd” while holding no understanding of adhd itself, its really frustrating really!

    • @zeneiasasmr
      @zeneiasasmr  Год назад +58

      Oh I really understand what you’re saying! Taking advantage of words like “autism” and “adhd” for content and views without knowledge is really annoying and misleading. Stay tuned for my ADHD video soon!!!!!🫶🏼🤍

    • @deeznusr
      @deeznusr Год назад +3

      @@zeneiasasmr yesss so excited thank you a lot! ^___^ ❤️

  • @thatantagkinnie26
    @thatantagkinnie26 Год назад +38

    As someone who has ADHD(diagnosed) and Autism(in the process of being diagnosed) this video is genuinely so relaxing and calming. It’s the perfect thing to watch after having an anxiety attack

    • @thatantagkinnie26
      @thatantagkinnie26 Год назад +3

      Also I just noticed there was a tiny bit of blue foam in the orange foam and for some reason I can’t stop thinking about it 😂 2:24

    • @BURNlNGSPICE
      @BURNlNGSPICE Год назад +5

      ⁠@@Superstarr_,, If they're in the PROCESS of being diagnosed that does not mean they don't have autism ,, ??? I'M autistic as well , you don't _need_ a diagnosis

    • @BURNlNGSPICE
      @BURNlNGSPICE Год назад

      @@Superstarr_Probably the stupidest thing i've heard

    • @BURNlNGSPICE
      @BURNlNGSPICE Год назад +4

      @@Superstarr_ Yeah , but if you're over here as someone who isn't even a professional telling someone they don't have it just because they're _getting_ a diagnosis , it's
      really shitty .

    • @guidv7450
      @guidv7450 Год назад +1

      ​@@BURNlNGSPICEyou DO need a diagnostic. Self-diagnosing just because you have certain symptoms of autism is completely sick. I don't know if this person is autistic or not, but while they are still in the PROCESS of diagnosis, this person shouldn't go around saying that they have autism.

  • @cloverxndkwnwjrniwn48728
    @cloverxndkwnwjrniwn48728 Год назад +113

    I've demonstrated a lot of symptoms of autism but haven't been diagnosed yet and i really like
    1. It wasn't fast and aggrieved
    2. I could still play attention because of what was happening
    3. The imagery (aka you and the background) isn't crowded and it reminds me of fluffy things (a comfort feeling)
    4. I didn't get overwhelmed and stressed out
    5. the humming was pretty cool and made me feel more welcome
    6. Narration to triggers
    7. Changing triggers slowly (i deal a lot of stress to fast changes)
    8. VISUAL TRIGGERSSS
    9. You weren't staring into my soul
    Ps tysm
    Usually a lot of asmr stresses me out sometimes but this one was way more calming

  • @aspen1588
    @aspen1588 Год назад +51

    i can almost never watch asmr videos tailored to autistic people because the asmrtist usually just treats the viewer as if they were a child. this is absolute perfection! the way that your expressions never sway too far from neutral makes me feel like I don't have to emote, and i SO appreciate how you never look directly into the camera. you and this video are both treasures.

  • @Im.B0r3d_rawr
    @Im.B0r3d_rawr 4 месяца назад +4

    As someone with autism, the fact that I don't feel pressured to answer it loud, and i can think the answer in my head is so calming

  • @jaybaxx
    @jaybaxx Год назад +58

    I am in my 20s with autism and I have been watching ASMR since I was 14. I have found with newer technology some ASMRtists use harsh sounds, but this was incredibly relaxing and tingly. I was able to maintain focus the whole time, whereas sometimes I get bored or anxious due to some of the triggers or the sounds with other videos. You are doing awesome!

  • @love.shines.the.brightest
    @love.shines.the.brightest Год назад +37

    the amount of people with autism who are happy with this video makes it a 100 times more wholesome. Thank you for this video, it helped a lot🌟

  • @julietpowell9880
    @julietpowell9880 Год назад +7

    As someone who has been diagnosed with OCD, anxiety, and some other stuff I've looked into an Autism diagnosis as I match most symptoms and it runs in my family. I immediately liked this video since I have trouble finding asmr videos I like, and tend to rewatch the ones I like over and over lol. I love you asking questions and don't switch between triggers to fast. Thank you for making this for my usually over/ or under stimulated brain.

  • @victorialeahh
    @victorialeahh Год назад +62

    The humming is what did it for me. My mind wandered but the humming brought me back. It’s amazing, I love this so much.

  • @jennandcherries
    @jennandcherries Год назад +111

    Not looking straight into the camera is such a different experience. I’m autistic and I get very uncomfortable a lot of the time with ASMR but this is great ✨

  • @PonyGirl2371
    @PonyGirl2371 7 месяцев назад +5

    I don't have anything diagnosed, but I love this, mostly because you keep changing what you are doing not that fast and not staying with the same asmr for like 4 minutes

  • @hiicupz
    @hiicupz Год назад +146

    I love how even though you are a popular asmr creator with over 100k subscribers you still make a point to reply to comments and interact with viewers :) I am not autistic, but as someone with a family history of autism and aspergers, this is a genuinely amazing video. Great work 💕

    • @zeneiasasmr
      @zeneiasasmr  Год назад +25

      Thank you so so so so much! Even if I ever reach higher numbers, I’ll always be so thankful to all of you guys and try to interact ~ it’s such a precious time for me🤍🫶🏼

    • @hiicupz
      @hiicupz Год назад +1

      @@zeneiasasmr ❤️

  • @gwenculver1040
    @gwenculver1040 Год назад +64

    I’m 21 with autism and honestly this is the only ASMR I’ve watched that’s both engages me and relaxes me at the same time. This is perfect because I’ve been feeling overstimulated more than usual lately and this made me feel a lot better. Thank you!

  • @sabrinassns
    @sabrinassns Год назад +13

    As an autistic person, this genuinely made me smile. The spikes bit at the start was soooooo brain tingling :D I also love the “tschuk” noise that she makes, I find it soothing.

  • @amyyydd1052
    @amyyydd1052 Год назад +156

    As a mum with a daughter with autism and work in childcare , this is very good way of doing these videos , very descriptive , simple words and lots of visuals and sensory items ! Not to mention it’s absolutely so relaxing as always ! ❤

  • @sylva.s
    @sylva.s Год назад +64

    I LOVE THIS SO MUCH it’s moving at a perfect pace (usually asmr videos focus on certain triggers for too long so i only watch previews) and it feels so immersive omggg i don’t even have autism but this is amazing

  • @IzabelleDahlmann
    @IzabelleDahlmann Год назад +3

    I have autism and adhd so this video is perfect for me! You repeat almost every word which makes it easy to focus on what you are saying.
    You also treat us (or the camera) with respect and not as toddlers. You are awesome❤

  • @Wallflower905
    @Wallflower905 Год назад +33

    This is genuinely the most relaxing and pleasant asmr I have ever watched, I was diagnosed with autism at 17 last year. And normally the “asmr for autistic people” from other creators make me cringe because their so patronising but yours is so amazing and the repetition is just incredible and I just love it so so much, you should definitely hum and sing more in videos you have a beautiful voice.

  • @mercePotter
    @mercePotter Год назад +78

    my sister is 12 (shes autistic) and she loves this video,she couldnt fall asleep last night and you helped her fall asleep,thank you for creating this

  • @ilanelsen8321
    @ilanelsen8321 8 месяцев назад +2

    Your videos really make me feel special and empowered as an autistic person myself. I love how you keep a pace that is just right for me and my brain doesn't have to overwork itself. Colors are very soothing for me to watch and you definitely make sure there's not too much going on. You don't infantilize your viewers which is a very good thing. These videos are definitely my favorite way to unwind. Thank you so much.

  • @maycagonzalez5968
    @maycagonzalez5968 Год назад +213

    As an autistic woman I absolutely loved this! 💗

  • @SillygoofyJerem
    @SillygoofyJerem Год назад +174

    i dont have autism but this is so relaxing 🤭
    i also love how she doesnt look directly at the camera the whole time, im scopophobic so i really appreciate it 💛

    • @SaturnTheRattyRaccon
      @SaturnTheRattyRaccon Год назад +3

      Don’t mean to be rude, but what’s scopophobic?

    • @leesohees
      @leesohees Год назад +4

      @@SaturnTheRattyRaccon i'm pretty sure its like a fear of being stared at or watched

    • @SaturnTheRattyRaccon
      @SaturnTheRattyRaccon Год назад

      @@leesohees oh

  • @unclesuns
    @unclesuns Год назад +4

    Your videos are only things that make me still carry on in my uneducated environment. Idk general ppl are so mean to ppl with disabilities:( I don’t really want to think my disabled but broo im trying my best in I always failed in socialization and ppl always joking and bullying me for that . Im so tired sometimes but tysm for being my safe space

  • @when_the_pawn
    @when_the_pawn Год назад +202

    Δεν ξέρω άλλα άτομα στο φάσμα τι λένε αλλά αυτό είναι από τα καλύτερα βίντεο asmr που έχω δει εδώ και μήνες. 💕

  • @soudaphobic
    @soudaphobic Год назад +17

    I really like how she kept things repetitive and explained everything , it helped keep me grounded and focused. it's not too loud or too bright I really enjoy this as a teenager with autism :>>>

  • @a_person14
    @a_person14 10 месяцев назад +2

    I watched this with my younger brother with autism. He felt so much more relaxed (he was having off-task behaviors earlier). Thank you for this!

  • @Elisabethonline
    @Elisabethonline Год назад +217

    I wasn’t sure about the humming at first but I actually really like it! Great video :)

    • @zeneiasasmr
      @zeneiasasmr  Год назад +16

      Glad you liked it!!🤍🫶🏼

    • @boy-si4sh
      @boy-si4sh Год назад +15

      OMG SAME because most of the time I don’t like it but it was really nice

    • @genera1013
      @genera1013 Год назад +15

      Yeah! I think it was because it was the same tune each time

  • @FknDakoda
    @FknDakoda Год назад +14

    I’m not officially diagnosed, waiting on results, but no Eye contact, no loud noises that are too textured or hearth, repeating colors and asking optioned questions, the humming, all of it was so nice I can’t thank you enough for this

  • @rqqxt
    @rqqxt 9 месяцев назад +2

    the most wonderful part of this is the humming and the no eye contact. this is the best autism asmr i've ever come across 💕

  • @itsenaj
    @itsenaj Год назад +48

    Omg girl, the humming, soft speaking, and whispering mix gave me tingles right away.... 🤯🤯🤯

  • @weonlyhavethemountain
    @weonlyhavethemountain Год назад +34

    you are amazing, i am a autistic 12 year old who struggles everyday. you relax me and im happy that asmrtist like you exist, not babying or treating us different, i love this video alot and it relaxes me. your singy voice really makes me happy and the humming. the colors and the little games and the explaining things too me makes me feel safe. thank you.

    • @microwavecheese1239
      @microwavecheese1239 Год назад +4

      I also enjoyed the humming a lot I found it very soothing :)

  • @Chaos_Fantasmic
    @Chaos_Fantasmic Год назад +234

    Reminder: you don't have to be Autistic to enjoy this :)

    • @whatthegnarpy
      @whatthegnarpy Год назад +3

      It's meant for ppl with autism hun

    • @whatthegnarpy
      @whatthegnarpy Год назад +5

      We struggle a lot let us have smth for ourselves..

    • @Saturniaaa
      @Saturniaaa Год назад +35

      ​@@whatthegnarpy that dosent mean its for autistic people only ANYONE can enjoy this

    • @whatthegnarpy
      @whatthegnarpy Год назад

      @@Saturniaaa as i can tell ur prolly neurotipycal. u dont know how much we struggle so stfu

    • @caraloveslouis
      @caraloveslouis Год назад +25

      @@whatthegnarpyyeah, it was made with autistic people in mind but that doesn't mean it's for exclusively us

  • @tibbycat333
    @tibbycat333 Год назад +21

    the humming is so incredible!!!!!! this is the tingliest video i’ve ever watched omg!!!!! as an autistic person i absolutely loved this omg !!!!!!!!!!

  • @58kay
    @58kay Год назад +102

    i dont have autism but the humming sound is EVERYTHINGG !! it’s so calming omg 💟💟

  • @rookdoeswhatheywant
    @rookdoeswhatheywant 8 месяцев назад +9

    i love how when y one blue dot in the orange, you just pointed it out and said “ lets take it off “ and you did! not sure why but that part made me happy :))

  • @boy-si4sh
    @boy-si4sh Год назад +21

    When it comes to asmr for people in the spectrum, no one ever thinks to include repetition. I absolutely love the patterns/reoccurring triggers/repetition ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

  • @gingy_gingy
    @gingy_gingy Год назад +27

    i must admit i very hesitantly clicked on this,, many videos i’ve seen “made for autistic people” in the past have not been the best experiences, but i actually ended up loving your video ! coming from a very picky autistic person, i think you did an amazing job !! this is definitely going on my favorites playlist 💗

    • @z0mbie_s1ut
      @z0mbie_s1ut Год назад

      Omg we have the same pfp lol

  • @poppysasmr
    @poppysasmr Год назад +8

    As an autistic asmrtist, this is honestly one of the best videos I’ve ever watched, everything was perfect!!! ❤️❤️

  • @fabricofdreams.
    @fabricofdreams. Год назад +109

    I'm not sure whether I have autism, I've never been diagnosed but I've been suspecting it, this is such a comfortable atmosphere 🥰 I think the kids you're teaching are lucky to have you 💜

  • @Medumrare
    @Medumrare Год назад +7

    The speed, the triggers, your humming. Everything was just perfect for me personally and I hope everyone has the same experience with this video!

  • @Kostas.V_
    @Kostas.V_ Год назад +12

    1.000.000 VIEWS ZENEIAA! 🥳
    PROUD OF YOUUU! ❤️
    KEEP GOING! 🫂

  • @65theworldisending66
    @65theworldisending66 Год назад +10

    As a not autistic , but adhd-having person this honestly really helped me tbh. Thanks, I love how you touched everything you were holding. It kinda made me feel like I didn’t have to, and it just soothed me. Plus, I like the fact you aren’t switching triggers every 20 seconds, as many asmrtists do. I also like how this wasn’t treating me as a toddler, & overall you presented a really good and visually pleasing asmr video. Thank you

  • @ajmatz1379
    @ajmatz1379 Год назад +32

    i am 15 and on the spectrum for autism :) when i’m watching asmr i usually get bored with whatever is happening and switch to a different video but this one kept my attention up and also really relaxed me! thank you so much

  • @ackbb
    @ackbb 11 месяцев назад +1

    I have high-functioning autism, and I love watching these videos to fall asleep. I absolutely love the humming especially. It makes me so tingly and relaxed and these videos keep my attention and make me feel seen. Thank you and keep up the great work!

  • @KaitheGuy6
    @KaitheGuy6 Год назад +65

    as an autistic person, i want you to know that this helped me sleep. thank you. ❤

  • @extremelysleepyperson
    @extremelysleepyperson Год назад +8

    5:27 THAAANK YOU FOR TAKING OUT THE BLUE DOTTTT IT JUST ITCHED SOMETHING IN MY BRAIN IN A NON GOOD WAY THANK YOUU

  • @Rachel-cn9uk
    @Rachel-cn9uk 7 месяцев назад +2

    i'm not diagnosed with anything but this is probably the best asmr i've ever heard, the humming, repeating sounds and interactions is just amazing

  • @Y0urL0calBl0ndie00
    @Y0urL0calBl0ndie00 Год назад +26

    I’m autistic and very picky about my asmr choices so I loved that you didn’t stare into the camera because a big difficulty I have is making eye contact so with other asmr it’s uncomfortable to me bc we’re staring at each other and I love how you repeated things evenly because I get bad anxiety if things aren’t even so thank you for this I loved this and when you took that one blue dot out I audibly gasped it made me so happy