Poor Bden tries so hard to make it through the end of the song before he completely breaks down and it looks like he's so pissed off at himself through the whole song....
+oddlydrawnlittlememories Yes. On Ryan's 21st birthday he went to NYC to celebrate it with his girlfriend. The rest of the band couldn't be there because they were too young, apparently (IDK about Jon really), and they were all in Seattle for an upcoming show. However, in the middle of the night, Ryan left his girlfriend to fly back to Seattle to spend the rest of his birthday (despite it being the next day) with Brendon. We wouldn't have known if it wasn't for a fan who was able to find them and get a picture. Ryan was in the same outfit and everything. The fan said she saw them in a restaurant together, alone.
I don't give a crap whether this song is about Sarah, Ryan, Dallon, some random person, drugs, a carpet, rocks or a flipping sneeze or something, I just want Brendon to know that he'll be okay. Even though this was three years ago, we're all here for him. I want to give him a hug and never let go. Jesus, this man makes me want to throw up from all the feels. And I love it.
Yeah, fun theories are fine, but his wellbeing should be the main concern, and people need to see where the line between reality and outlandish assumptions lie. Plausible/canon= "Ryan and Brendon were very close friends", only a fun theory= "they were romantically/sexually involved". None of these facts and speculation should be reason to ignore and neglect the main fact that he is upset.
Even if Brendon never had a crush on Ryan, you could tell he really loved him as a friend. He now acts happy that he's his own band, but again, you can tell he definitely misses Ryan still sometimes today.
Personally I think they were in love with each other in the music sense, like ryans lyrics and brendons vocals were holding them together. Because I think ryan said once he had things to say but not the voice to say it with until brendon cane
The last "woah" his voice sounds so broken Have you noticed that whenever he cries during a song he looks so fucking pissed? Is he trying to replace his feelings or is he just mad at himself for crying...? I just want to hug him
hes probably taking his sadness out with anger? if that makes any sense, like its understandable, he is hiding it under anger and loads of motion and shit to let it out i guess
soft hearts, electric souls i think hes just disappointed in himself for crying on stage. you can tell before he starts crying he starts moving really quickly and a lot more so i guess hes just trying to shake off whatever hes feeling
Oh I had to go back and listen for that but I can't blame him bc 1: I think he's basically sobbing and 2: that's kind of a hard song to sing even if you aren't crying. I thought the voice crack was cute, though. 😊😁
While I know it's foolish to think that everything is about Ryan (because not EVERYTHING is), this whole song and this performance makes a lot more sense when you apply their history to the lyrics. It could just be a coincidence, but it fits almost too perfectly. Edit: BTW don’t take this too seriously, it’s just a fun ship, but is likely completely fictional or so far in the past that it doesn’t matter anymore lol
me: ahhh sarah and beebo are sooo cute! they're goals and I wish I could have a romance like them!! look at how he looks at her!! also me: rYDEN what ever happened in cape town??? who's the fragile capricorn??? why did ryan leave NYC just to spend his birthday with brendon??? omg when the day met the night and casual affair iS PROOF. brendon you can't hide
Me: ryden is so fake it was probably just a joke or something Also me: WHAT HAPPENED IN SEATTLE AND MYRTLE BEACH OMFG WHAT ABOUT CAPETOWN RYDEN IS SO REAL
overlord Brallon isnt real. tf is wrong with you? Dallon is happily married and so is Brendon. Meanwhile saying that Ryden WAS real isn't wrong because Brendon and Ry weren't married at the time.
people whos saying "its not ryden maybe its a family issue or his metal health" yeah i think so too but really casual affair about mental health/family problems its about an affair dammit no im not saying its about ryden okay? its just if its about mental health/family problems then why would he break down while singing a song about an affair????
i had a dream last night that bden cam out with a song called "We'll settle in Seattle", and i went on tumblr, and every ryden shipper was freaking out. then #Ryden was trending on twitter. then i woke up and i was really upset because i actually thought my dream was real. :-'(
god, this always hurts my heart seeing him so angry. you can tell he tries to hide it and play it off as part of the performance but there is something so on edge about him the entire time. that is someone who is angry and sad and scared and doesn’t know what to do about it.
Even if Ryan and Brendon were just friends, they were still close enough in each others' hearts that Brendon broke down during a song about him *in Seattle, where they had performed one of their last DVD-recorded liveshows*
It's great how everyone just assumes it's about Ryan, and not maybe something difficult happening in Brendon's life at the time, such as a family problem or other issues. Or his struggle with his mental health. Or maybe it's the intensity of the song and the emotion behind the lyrics. We tend to jump to conclusions and say every time Brendon shows emotion it's about Ryan but we don't know. I'm not saying it isn't, I just think it's a little unfair sometimes.
Molly Smith Thank you! Not every emotional breakdown Brendon goes through is about the split that happened in fucking 2009. People are so caught up in this ship that they think every time Brendon shows a hint of sadness it's about Ryan like Jesus Christ. He could've been going through something 😑
Nope, he was obviously trying to hide his emotions. It’s human nature. You will try to hide your emotions, it was clear that he was crying. He even went off stage for a while, then came back on saying that he was sorry and the song gets him emotional.
But that's what he dose when hes sad, he tries to cover it up by acting angry and shaking his body. He did the same thing when he was upset while preforming Northern Downpour. Once he started getting upset he tried to get ride of his emotions by getting angry instead. I don't know if he was crying or not but every time i watch this he seems so obviously upset to me. Why? I don't know. But he looks and sounds upset.
Im crying I legit can't at the end he looks so broken and he legit is still trying to carry on throughout the song and the last woah was just heartbreaking.
This makes me just wanna break down crying. Seeing Brendon trying not to cry is so upsetting to watch. I just wanna hug him. Also, when Brendon is choked up, he still sounds heavenly. How?!
Tbh he just seems tired from the entire concert, I mean like, concerts have alot of singing ya know? ALSO: he said the album wasn't about anything that actually happened, he said that him and Sarah talk alot about celeb crushes and what an affair would be like so he most likely is in deep thought having a panic attack thinking about what if Sarah is cheating or something ya know? Like maybe he Is imagining "what if my song actually happened" I may be a ryden shipper but, c'mon guys, there's other people in his life ((SARAH!! She's so precious oml)) and not only that but he just seems tired, and needs a break. After all, that song is so hard to sing! Anyway sorry yall, just my opinion don't slice me for standing up for brendon ?? ((I dunno what to call it?)) Even tho I love Ryan so fucking much GAH I love Ryan
So I'm a big fan of Panic!, hense my name and picture, but I only really listen to their music and don't know much about the actual people in the band or their history (I know the basics like the two break ups) so can someone explain to me what Ryan has to do with this?
***** I don't think Brendon's someone who just puts random stuff into his work that doesn't even belong there. Him and Ryan are similar in that sense and that they both don't like to stay with one thing for too long, cause that'll just mess up the feeling of something special "losing the feeling of feeling unique".
oh my god sometimes i forget that a lot of songs are written based on true stories, then i see the emotion that they perform with and it tears me to pieces
My theory is that when Ryan was together with Keltie, Brendon and Ryan had an affair. When Keltie found out she was naturally very upset, and Ryan felt bad and wished he had never done it. Now, I think it wrecked Ryan, being around Brendon. Every second he spent with him reminded him of what he did to Keltie. Now Ryan either was still attracted to Brendon and felt bad about it, or he felt like a disgrace being around him, but he couldn't take it anymore. So he left the band. Or, Brendon said something along the lines of "now you're single, we can be together" and well, that's insensitive. And maybe Ryan got really mad and had a huge fight with him, causing Ryan to leave the band. Or maybe Ryan wanted to, but was scared to. (scared to admit he likes boys or scared of what other people will think) Whatever happened, it was bad. And I think Brendon regrets whatever happened too. My guess is that he just wants Ryan back as a friend, because he misses him a lot.
I think Ryan's the one who would refuse to go public. Cause Brendon has no problem saying "I'm pansexual." Till this day, Ryan is private af and has never admitted to being attracted to men. Which I don't blame him for. He's had a harsh life and he hates public scrutiny.
*"So the mess that we´ll become leaves something to talk about"* Watching this really hurts, but imagine how he felt in that exact moment, losing him and realizing that you can´t go back, you just have memories, reminding you how happy you were but also that he´s not with you anymore.
Hey, a casual affair That could go anywhere And only for tonight Take any moment, any time A lover on the left A sinner on the right Lay in the atmosphere A casual affair (Hush-hush, don't you say a word) Lay in the atmosphere A casual affair Break involuntary ties A secret so the spies Could never find us out Stay for as long as you have time So the mess that we'll become Leaves something to talk about Just lay in the atmosphere A casual affair (Hush-hush, don't you say a word) Lay in the atmosphere A casual affair Lay in the atmosphere A casual affair (Hush-hush, don't you say a word) Lay in the atmosphere A casual affair
I'm so confused because he's obviously crying yet we can barely hear it (only at the end where his voice gets choppier and choppier but he still sounds so good) idk how he does it he is a god he it the god bow down to your queen and god Brendon Urie. For real though this was hard to listen to because for us fans who know him so well we know that he'd be crazier on stage and would be messing with his voice so we know something is off but still omg
Poor Brendon, he probably just loved Ryan as a friend. But now that they don’t talk as much it probably hurts both of them. They probably loved each other like brothers. Poor Brenny 😭😭😭
if you listen VERY closely at the last chorus of the song you can tell that the microphone is echoing whatever he sings. You can tell he was crying at the last "oh- woah" part you can hear that he absolutely broke down. *my heart i-*
I swear this conspiracy gets my brain working. Very new PATD listener, here. Like three months new, and my take is that B is gay; like full out gay and had a major crush on R, who at best is bi-curious. What ever happened, the moon aligned and met the sun, etc., they, R and B, started fooling around. This is YOUNG love; maybe first love for B and they are stuck together in a band, on the road, writing songs. You know those first loves cut deep, guys...Watching old footage of them, it seems that B is very touchy feely for R and a lot of the times, not all, R is cringing away or moving away from B. I know you guys have seen some of those videos where B is going in for the kiss and R jumps out of the way or dodges it or pushes B away. It happened in a couple of interviews, as well. And always, after R pushes, flinches, or gets out of the way, B looks hurt and or mad. B probably felt like a dirty little secret and that hurts my heart because he seems like a wonderful guy. I won't comment on his marriage but he does sing about how love is not a choice. So if he is gay, the wife knows.
I'm not okay. Seeing him break down like that and shaking his head so hard that it looks like he's trying to get the thoughts out of his head completely and utterly breaks my heart. I just hope that whether he was crying because of Ryan or something else going on, that things get better and he doesn't have to feel bad about showing sadness in front of us.
hear me out... “a lover on the left, a sinner on the right” lover=brendon sinner=ryan some people think brendon is the sun...the sun symbol is on the left...and the moon symbol is on the right.
Okay, three things. One, Ryden was real and the government knows it. Two, that last echoing "OoooOOhhh" was heartbreaking, it's almost a sob and I am not okay with that. Three, I noticed that he's shaking his head around a lot, and I don't know if that's something he normally did but it looked like he did it because he was shaking away tears. And that makes me doubly sad and angry here because I don't ever want Brendon to cry.
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Brendon is just headbanging the sadness away
Josselyn like tyler joseph x2
Mood
@@Its_e_my_dudesfr
Poor Bden tries so hard to make it through the end of the song before he completely breaks down and it looks like he's so pissed off at himself through the whole song....
Sam Clark ikr it breaks my heart. like he thinks about everything that has happened and how he maybe messed up.
He breaks down. In Seattle. During a song about a casual affair.
Yep.
what's up with Seattle? did something happen that had to do with Ryan?
+oddlydrawnlittlememories Yes. On Ryan's 21st birthday he went to NYC to celebrate it with his girlfriend. The rest of the band couldn't be there because they were too young, apparently (IDK about Jon really), and they were all in Seattle for an upcoming show. However, in the middle of the night, Ryan left his girlfriend to fly back to Seattle to spend the rest of his birthday (despite it being the next day) with Brendon. We wouldn't have known if it wasn't for a fan who was able to find them and get a picture. Ryan was in the same outfit and everything. The fan said she saw them in a restaurant together, alone.
+oddlydrawnlittlememories Also, one time (I'm pretty sure) Ryan tweeted "One day we'll settle in Seattle"
+Brendon Urie Oh. Wow. Thank you for informing me on that, I'm going to go cry now
+Brendon Urie also, who did you have to kill for your username!?
You can see him gradually break down and I'm not okay about it??
I love your username.
(do you promise)
tho I'm not okay about it either
i cant take your comment seriously bc of your name im sorry
shiro arts badly okay same
I don't give a crap whether this song is about Sarah, Ryan, Dallon, some random person, drugs, a carpet, rocks or a flipping sneeze or something, I just want Brendon to know that he'll be okay. Even though this was three years ago, we're all here for him. I want to give him a hug and never let go. Jesus, this man makes me want to throw up from all the feels. And I love it.
Thank you. Everyone here only cares about ryden evidence instead of Brendon's wellbeing.
Yeah, fun theories are fine, but his wellbeing should be the main concern, and people need to see where the line between reality and outlandish assumptions lie. Plausible/canon= "Ryan and Brendon were very close friends", only a fun theory= "they were romantically/sexually involved". None of these facts and speculation should be reason to ignore and neglect the main fact that he is upset.
@@azariacordova2848 also, maybe he's sad because of what fans say about them (sorry I'm years later)
Even if Brendon never had a crush on Ryan, you could tell he really loved him as a friend. He now acts happy that he's his own band, but again, you can tell he definitely misses Ryan still sometimes today.
You're every where
YES! I ship ryden but I don't really think they were dating. They loved each other anyone can see that.
THANK YOU FOR BEING THE VOICE OF REASON
Personally I think they were in love with each other in the music sense, like ryans lyrics and brendons vocals were holding them together. Because I think ryan said once he had things to say but not the voice to say it with until brendon cane
Megsandpotatoes yeah he said that Brendon's voice called attention to itself or something like that
The last "woah" his voice sounds so broken
Have you noticed that whenever he cries during a song he looks so fucking pissed? Is he trying to replace his feelings or is he just mad at himself for crying...?
I just want to hug him
Aww me too it makes me so sad seeing him break down like that AND I FUCKING LIVE IN SEATTLE
hes probably taking his sadness out with anger? if that makes any sense, like its understandable, he is hiding it under anger and loads of motion and shit to let it out i guess
soft hearts, electric souls i think hes just disappointed in himself for crying on stage. you can tell before he starts crying he starts moving really quickly and a lot more so i guess hes just trying to shake off whatever hes feeling
soft hearts, electric souls He's trying to hide the fact thats he's crying,he doesn't want us to know that he's crying.
His scream in the end has ME screaming
The way his voice cracks at the end ;___;
When he sang the last woah it made me cry
honeyymlkie i felt that in my soul i wanna die
evangeline s a m e
Oh I had to go back and listen for that but I can't blame him bc 1: I think he's basically sobbing and 2: that's kind of a hard song to sing even if you aren't crying. I thought the voice crack was cute, though. 😊😁
I rate this performance 708/10
AHH
*****
I WAS WAITING FOR SOMEONE TO GET IT
fUUUUCK MY HEART CAN'T TAKE THROAM REFERENCES OMFG
Bang. Crash. Smoke. The sounds of my heart.
Why. No no no
I'm crying so much because
1. ryden will forever be real
2. brendon crying just makes me cry
WaiT WHY DID HE GET SO UPSet?? What's w this Seattle shit i must understand
I was just gonna comment that, but I have no need ;-; #Ryden
1. Ryden is fanservice.
2. Don't jump to conclusions unless you have proof. Brendon crying isn't proof.
Brandon Urine
1. How do you know it was fan service?
2. I'm sure they were making a joke
Brandon Urine what in tarnation
He was trying to hide it but he could not hold it you can tell when he starts head banging
While I know it's foolish to think that everything is about Ryan (because not EVERYTHING is), this whole song and this performance makes a lot more sense when you apply their history to the lyrics. It could just be a coincidence, but it fits almost too perfectly.
Edit: BTW don’t take this too seriously, it’s just a fun ship, but is likely completely fictional or so far in the past that it doesn’t matter anymore lol
@Maddie Mitchell nope. This one was brendon.
@Maddie Mitchell brendon said he wrote it a couple years prior and idk someone did the math and it hit 2006
me: ahhh sarah and beebo are sooo cute! they're goals and I wish I could have a romance like them!! look at how he looks at her!!
also me: rYDEN what ever happened in cape town??? who's the fragile capricorn??? why did ryan leave NYC just to spend his birthday with brendon??? omg when the day met the night and casual affair iS PROOF. brendon you can't hide
mEe
actually my life right now, im way too obsessed
@Tahiyat Chy bc ryro x bden = ryden
@@learningrat6708 omg-
did anyone notice that he shaked his head so hard to stop crying, like tyler joseph? oh god jesus christ nooo
D:
The ending literally made me so sad
During Nearly Witches: Saltier than the dead Sea
Casual affair: loses it
Me: ryden is so fake it was probably just a joke or something
Also me: WHAT HAPPENED IN SEATTLE AND MYRTLE BEACH OMFG WHAT ABOUT CAPETOWN RYDEN IS SO REAL
ME
sAME, I SHIP IT BUTI DONT
my dude i live in myrtle beach and ive been to the house of blues where they played
me
What happened in capetown?
holy shit I though this was gonna be like when he performed northern downpour in 2011 but he is straight up bawling here I want to hug him
same :((
we must know The Ryden Truth™.
what truth? you mean the truth that ryden isnt real and brallon is???
Brendon Urie yo this ryden shit was real as fuck
Celery Branches meh maybe it was 8 years ago but not anymore
Brendon Urie well yes of course i don't want to force anything on them
overlord Brallon isnt real. tf is wrong with you? Dallon is happily married and so is Brendon. Meanwhile saying that Ryden WAS real isn't wrong because Brendon and Ry weren't married at the time.
The last "Woah" hurt me
Me too
@2:45
;-;
people whos saying "its not ryden maybe its a family issue or his metal health" yeah i think so too
but really
casual affair
about mental health/family problems
its about an affair dammit
no im not saying its about ryden okay?
its just
if its about mental health/family problems then why would he break down while singing a song about an affair????
i had a dream last night that bden cam out with a song called "We'll settle in Seattle", and i went on tumblr, and every ryden shipper was freaking out. then #Ryden was trending on twitter. then i woke up and i was really upset because i actually thought my dream was real. :-'(
Oh noooo :'( These dreams are the worst, you're like : whyyyyyy when you wake up
+Maëlle Mermaid yeah they suck... 😢😭
Abby!! Late reply, but I would punch myself to sleep again.
That must succc
o u c h
I don't care what the Brallon shippers say, Ryden was real.
Yess
***** I don't think of it as "Ryden" I think of it as two of his friends left to do something else so and it would be sad to lose a friend.
+Rhi yeah sure thats probably it but why not Ryan?It could be
***** We dont know that,but there is a rumor.You can let us fantasize ya know?imagination is a magic place :)
***** I dont really appreciate your sarcasm but its okay :)
god, this always hurts my heart seeing him so angry. you can tell he tries to hide it and play it off as part of the performance but there is something so on edge about him the entire time. that is someone who is angry and sad and scared and doesn’t know what to do about it.
Jennie White almost like he's trying to psych himself out of a panic attack.
Settle in Seattle.
oH OH NO NOAPE NOT TODAYBSATAN
11 YEARS OF THAT JOURNAL ENTRY DUDE
Even if Ryan and Brendon were just friends, they were still close enough in each others' hearts that Brendon broke down during a song about him *in Seattle, where they had performed one of their last DVD-recorded liveshows*
It's great how everyone just assumes it's about Ryan, and not maybe something difficult happening in Brendon's life at the time, such as a family problem or other issues. Or his struggle with his mental health. Or maybe it's the intensity of the song and the emotion behind the lyrics. We tend to jump to conclusions and say every time Brendon shows emotion it's about Ryan but we don't know. I'm not saying it isn't, I just think it's a little unfair sometimes.
Molly Smith Thank you! Not every emotional breakdown Brendon goes through is about the split that happened in fucking 2009. People are so caught up in this ship that they think every time Brendon shows a hint of sadness it's about Ryan like Jesus Christ. He could've been going through something 😑
Its Not A Bad Dick it's not 2009 anymore. He has a wife. Let him be happy. Get a grip.
Clorox Bleach thank you!! Glad someone agrees
no leave.
Madi H wait when did he say that
Beebo don't cry,craft
oh my fUCK NO STOP PLZ
... *protip*
*_THE PHANDOM IS HERE_*
I I all I can say is
...they gave the people what they wanted..
panic! concerts look so sick i wanna go to one so badly
They are so good. He's just a magnet. You can't stop watching him.
this makes me unbelievably upset my god
I honestly don't know if he's crying. He sweats a lot & it stings when sweat gets in your eyes. To me he just seems sweaty & pissed off. 😂
I did it again he had a bit of Ryan Ross in his eyes
Nope, he was obviously trying to hide his emotions. It’s human nature. You will try to hide your emotions, it was clear that he was crying. He even went off stage for a while, then came back on saying that he was sorry and the song gets him emotional.
But that's what he dose when hes sad, he tries to cover it up by acting angry and shaking his body. He did the same thing when he was upset while preforming Northern Downpour. Once he started getting upset he tried to get ride of his emotions by getting angry instead. I don't know if he was crying or not but every time i watch this he seems so obviously upset to me. Why? I don't know. But he looks and sounds upset.
I think he might have been having a panic/anxiety attack.
I did it again he came out afterwards and said something like “sorry I got a little emotional there” so I think he was
maybe he had a Panic! attack
my heart hurts
😂😂😭
Panic attacks aren't funny
Anastassia Haynes can u just take a pun???
😂😂😂😂 You are an amazing person!!!
Chloe 💀😂👌
he headbangs to hide the pain
wow look at dallon
so pretty
fINALLY SOMEONE NOTICED
I agree
the end makes me want to bawl my eyes out for 4 hours. I just wanna know what's fucking with him so much.
Eva Lowry MY H E A R T
Ryan ross
Im crying I legit can't at the end he looks so broken and he legit is still trying to carry on throughout the song and the last woah was just heartbreaking.
i guess the affair is not so casual after all?
holy fuxk this was a year ago but goddamn you won this
Do you have the song he played after this recorded? I really want to hear his explanation.....
AHHH I WISH !
He headbanged the crap out of himself to try to stop crying 😂 my poor Brendon
Once he starts singing you can tell something is up- his voice is already unstable from the start, and this is Brendon Urie we're talking about
I cry when I hear that soft, choked out sob at the end okay :,)
ryden seattle theory + brendon breaking down in casual affair while in seattle, uHM
THE END LITERALLY BROKE MY HEART. I just want to hug him. god I love this man so much I don't want him to hurt ever
This makes me just wanna break down crying. Seeing Brendon trying not to cry is so upsetting to watch. I just wanna hug him. Also, when Brendon is choked up, he still sounds heavenly. How?!
Tbh he just seems tired from the entire concert, I mean like, concerts have alot of singing ya know?
ALSO: he said the album wasn't about anything that actually happened, he said that him and Sarah talk alot about celeb crushes and what an affair would be like so he most likely is in deep thought having a panic attack thinking about what if Sarah is cheating or something ya know? Like maybe he Is imagining "what if my song actually happened"
I may be a ryden shipper but, c'mon guys, there's other people in his life ((SARAH!! She's so precious oml)) and not only that but he just seems tired, and needs a break. After all, that song is so hard to sing! Anyway sorry yall, just my opinion don't slice me for standing up for brendon ?? ((I dunno what to call it?))
Even tho I love Ryan so fucking much GAH I love Ryan
that broken scream in the last second will never not rip my heart in half
OH MY GOD !! Brendon was so f*cking broken towards the end, like he was reliving the past.
Im not crying. Your crying, yea that's what it is. 😭 it's so sad to see brendon crying, singing casual affair, in Seattle. MY FEELINGS!!
He goes from being energetic to crying and that last woah he sounds so hurt and I'm tearing up you can literally see him lose it
I'm crying, he's crying, Ryan's crying we are all crying...
The last “woah” he choked out...it hurts to even hear that
i'm crying because brendon is crying help
SAME:((
*_be careful if they get too friendly_*
you can see how he is trying to be happy, then it evolves into anger, and then finally sadness. poor B.
the broken "woah" at the end made me cry.
This video genuinely breaks my heart😭💔
So I'm a big fan of Panic!, hense my name and picture, but I only really listen to their music and don't know much about the actual people in the band or their history (I know the basics like the two break ups) so can someone explain to me what Ryan has to do with this?
google it
found a tumblr post: infinitewall.tumblr.com/post/140565614766/seattle-lore
Just want to add that the intro of this song is from an anti-gay propaganda film.
***** I don't think Brendon's someone who just puts random stuff into his work that doesn't even belong there. Him and Ryan are similar in that sense and that they both don't like to stay with one thing for too long, cause that'll just mess up the feeling of something special "losing the feeling of feeling unique".
Oh shit, I thought your channel picture was Brendon fucking Brendon but then I read the background xD
WHY AM I WATCHING THIS AGAIN AND AGAIN
WHY AM I DOING THIS TO MYSELF
This was really heartbreaking to watch him trying to be strong for the audience. Oh god I can feel his pain of losing one of his best friends.
oh my god
sometimes i forget that a lot of songs are written based on true stories, then i see the emotion that they perform with and it tears me to pieces
The echo after the last word broke my fucking heart, threw it on the ground, stomped on it, then through it off into the grand canyon
My theory is that when Ryan was together with Keltie, Brendon and Ryan had an affair. When Keltie found out she was naturally very upset, and Ryan felt bad and wished he had never done it.
Now, I think it wrecked Ryan, being around Brendon. Every second he spent with him reminded him of what he did to Keltie. Now Ryan either was still attracted to Brendon and felt bad about it, or he felt like a disgrace being around him, but he couldn't take it anymore. So he left the band.
Or, Brendon said something along the lines of "now you're single, we can be together" and well, that's insensitive. And maybe Ryan got really mad and had a huge fight with him, causing Ryan to leave the band. Or maybe Ryan wanted to, but was scared to. (scared to admit he likes boys or scared of what other people will think)
Whatever happened, it was bad. And I think Brendon regrets whatever happened too. My guess is that he just wants Ryan back as a friend, because he misses him a lot.
I think Ryan's the one who would refuse to go public. Cause Brendon has no problem saying "I'm pansexual." Till this day, Ryan is private af and has never admitted to being attracted to men. Which I don't blame him for. He's had a harsh life and he hates public scrutiny.
*"So the mess that we´ll become leaves something to talk about"*
Watching this really hurts, but imagine how he felt in that exact moment, losing him and realizing that you can´t go back, you just have memories, reminding you how happy you were but also that he´s not with you anymore.
this video is one of the reasons i don't ship ryden as a joke (well i kind of do ship it as a joke but i do think it was actually real!)
I just want to hug him
Hey, a casual affair
That could go anywhere
And only for tonight
Take any moment, any time
A lover on the left
A sinner on the right
Lay in the atmosphere
A casual affair (Hush-hush, don't you say a word)
Lay in the atmosphere
A casual affair
Break involuntary ties
A secret so the spies
Could never find us out
Stay for as long as you have time
So the mess that we'll become
Leaves something to talk about
Just lay in the atmosphere
A casual affair (Hush-hush, don't you say a word)
Lay in the atmosphere
A casual affair
Lay in the atmosphere
A casual affair (Hush-hush, don't you say a word)
Lay in the atmosphere
A casual affair
I'm so confused because he's obviously crying yet we can barely hear it (only at the end where his voice gets choppier and choppier but he still sounds so good) idk how he does it he is a god he it the god bow down to your queen and god Brendon Urie. For real though this was hard to listen to because for us fans who know him so well we know that he'd be crazier on stage and would be messing with his voice so we know something is off but still omg
Aww he really broke down at the end 😭😍 I love u Brendon
I DONT EVEN CARE WHY HES CRYING BUT I DONT WANT HIM TO CRY POOR BBY
Poor Brendon, he probably just loved Ryan as a friend. But now that they don’t talk as much it probably hurts both of them. They probably loved each other like brothers. Poor Brenny 😭😭😭
I am not okay.I Am nOt okAy. I AM NOT OKAY
(i promise)
if you listen VERY closely at the last chorus of the song you can tell that the microphone is echoing whatever he sings. You can tell he was crying at the last "oh- woah" part you can hear that he absolutely broke down.
*my heart i-*
ohmygod this makes me so sad poor beeb
tbh I'm here for both ships but Ryden makes me cry and like I'm 100% sure with it in like Brallon where I'm more like 75% something may of happened
oh my god the ending yes just rIP MY HEART IN HALF
*slams hands on table* WHAT HAPPENED IN SEATTLE AUGUST 30th, 2007?!
you can't headbang away the pain
This makes me cry so much I really really just want to give him a hug
At 2:06 you can see his face screwed up because he's trying to stop crying... when I saw that, my heart broke
One day we’ll settle in Seattle
i'm literally crying why are you doing this especially in the end and omfg
fuUUUck im actually in tears my heart feels so heavy just seeing him gradually breakdown
2:04/ 2:10 beautiful
I cried when I started to hear him cry. It's okay beebo we can cry together
This is my favorite song and I just... Just... FUCKKKKKkkKkKkKk
me too fren, me too.
the last 'woah' sounds so broken :(
This is breaking my heart I need a moment-
I swear this conspiracy gets my brain working. Very new PATD listener, here. Like three months new, and my take is that B is gay; like full out gay and had a major crush on R, who at best is bi-curious. What ever happened, the moon aligned and met the sun, etc., they, R and B, started fooling around. This is YOUNG love; maybe first love for B and they are stuck together in a band, on the road, writing songs. You know those first loves cut deep, guys...Watching old footage of them, it seems that B is very touchy feely for R and a lot of the times, not all, R is cringing away or moving away from B. I know you guys have seen some of those videos where B is going in for the kiss and R jumps out of the way or dodges it or pushes B away. It happened in a couple of interviews, as well. And always, after R pushes, flinches, or gets out of the way, B looks hurt and or mad. B probably felt like a dirty little secret and that hurts my heart because he seems like a wonderful guy. I won't comment on his marriage but he does sing about how love is not a choice. So if he is gay, the wife knows.
I'm not okay. Seeing him break down like that and shaking his head so hard that it looks like he's trying to get the thoughts out of his head completely and utterly breaks my heart. I just hope that whether he was crying because of Ryan or something else going on, that things get better and he doesn't have to feel bad about showing sadness in front of us.
I’m gonna cry Brendon no 😭
When I’m about to cry I literally cannot keep it in, I have no clue how he’s keeping it in so well during most of the performance.
hear me out... “a lover on the left, a sinner on the right” lover=brendon sinner=ryan
some people think brendon is the sun...the sun symbol is on the left...and the moon symbol is on the right.
Wendy Villatoro no it’s ryan bc ryan cheated on his wife
eternal bliss ryan isn’t married, b is
cruelsummer i know lmao i meant gf sorry!
@1:10 There's that heartbreakingly sad smile he always does when he's trying not to cry.
Ryden is real.
The brendon urie shakes head when feeling attacked
wait...did he actually break down at the end or was he just pretending?
From what I remember I think they took a break after that song and he came back wearing... less then he was before.
I was at this concert and he explained later that he got a little emotional during this song! That's why his voice cracks at the end.
Was there an interview somewhere or did he talk outside?
Underground Pyro No, he came on stage again after the break and another song and he explained it then.
I don't recall that. Ah well, it was months ago. Can't wait till they come again!
Don't cry, Beebo.
Craft.
“one day we’ll settle in seattle” - ryan ross
this is my favorite thing ever
Okay, three things. One, Ryden was real and the government knows it. Two, that last echoing "OoooOOhhh" was heartbreaking, it's almost a sob and I am not okay with that. Three, I noticed that he's shaking his head around a lot, and I don't know if that's something he normally did but it looked like he did it because he was shaking away tears. And that makes me doubly sad and angry here because I don't ever want Brendon to cry.