This song makes me think about how i never really let myself be a kid. I always remember looking at kids younger than me in school and thinking "wow i was that small at that age. I looked like those kids. I was so much younger than i felt." It makes me sad. I wish let myself enjoy being a kid. Now im 19 and i feel like i actually have to start trying to plan and get my shit together. Partly because i never did in highschool cause i was trying to take care of everyone else. I wish i enjoyed things that were age appropriate instead of doing drugs and hanging out with people older than me to escape my emotions and trauma. But i also know at the time that was the only way i knew how to handle it. Its so wierd. If anyones 14 or younger or 15 or 16 or 17 reading this please know you dont have to feel like an adult or act like one. Dont let people call you immature its okay to be immature. Please try to appreciate where you are in life. getting older is easier and harder in alot of ways. Things are rough. Dont be too hard on yourself, and dont listen to people who are too hard on you. And if you feel like you have to be an adult because the adults around you arent taking care of you, im so sorry. Try to make friends who can support you and who you can talk to, or a guidance counselor or teacher. Try to find people around your age you can trust who look out for you. Youre allowed to feel like a kid and want/let other people take care of you. You deserve to be cared for. You shouldnt have to feel like you have to handle it all yourself, and i hope you dont have to. Wishing everyone the best.
what a reflectiveness- now, you must allow yourself to be 19. it's still okay to be immature and to be easy on yourself. to many, if you're 19, you're still a kid
the way you write makes me feel like i’m worth something. you’re very important yourself dont forget that, you’ve shared a lot and i love you. you deserve to be loved:)
How are you doing now in life. I was in the same boat in highschool. Got viciously bullied by kids in my class and the upperclassman. And i resorted to smoking weed and hiding myself. You and I are the same age too. And I just completely agree. Our upperclassman failed us by making us grow up early. Public highschools in America are a literal fucking nightmare. The teachers literally do not care about the students and it leaves room for all these racist, mean, prideful teenage boys to do whatever they want with no consequences. Seriously the amount of bullying, SA, and racism that just gets swept under the rug is insane. Kids don’t change and stay strong and listen to the first comment. It’s not your job to grow up. It’s going to be really hard. Speak up when you can, be respectful, and stay weird/different.
My friend passed away 2 weeks ago and this song was in one of his playlists I was going through. I’ve cried and cried and cried to this song thinking of him. He died at 13, a few months before his 14th birthday. It’s such a treasure to get to listen to music he loved, even though the songs he liked were often sad. Rest in peace Micah. I love you forever buddy ❤️❤️
this was one of the first alex g songs i heard, when i was a sad 14 year old. it’s been 2 years and he’s still such a powerful musician and influence in my life. much, much love.
I had to find the yt video to this song JUST to discuss this with someone. Like wtf, why is it sooo good? This is WHY alex G's a god. He has such an ear for the type of music he plays. Its only 4 chords but it makes my whole heart and body ache.
when i was 12 and saw everyone around me change i didnt really feel like a boy, i wanted to be as beautiful as the girls around me. now im 14 and all i want to do is grow up so i can become a girl.
I was 14 when I realized that I wasn't a girl. I'm almost 19 and so much has changed and I've been able to do things I could've never imagined being able to do then. I'm not done transitioning or as far as I'd like to be yet, but I promise that you'll get to grow up as pretty as other girls and life won't seem as suffocating anymore
i wanted to be a girl when i was 14 but my family was super religious and conservative so i spent my teenage years completely miserable and wanting to not be alive all the time. once i become an adult i transitioned and once my family saw how happy i was they came around and now i'm super close to all my family. i'm 27 years old now and my life is great. it feels so good not having to pretend anymore.
I must come here and listen to this song at least 5 times a day. It's perfect, and Alex G is a towering genius who will destroy us all (in a good way).
Im 19 years old and im going to be a war veteran after this war ends? I keep thinking about how unfair life is, i used to think it wasnt so bad but recently its getting a little harder to see when my friends keep dying, im too young to go to a memorial service i think. Im just 19.
1:44 "my name is sandy I'm 14 years old, my insides are changing and right now I just wanna grow up...." I have never connected to a line so much as a transmasc ever. I remember being 10 and feeling my chest starting to change, feeling the pain of it all, mental and physical, feeling dirty and wrong but knowing *why*. I remember being 12 and getting my first blood, feeling like the world was coming down around me, not understanding why it hurt so bad and why there was so much blood and why it had to happen to me. I remember being 14 and wishing my chest would shrink, that my voice would deepen and my hair would grow in different places. I just wanted to grow up so I could be a boy, so I could finally have the right body. I still just wanna grow up, I wanna grow up right, I want to give this body away because it isn't right.
@@inyoGuts. why do you feel the need to be an asshole? like... it was my interpretation of a song, it was how I felt when I listened to it, that's what music's about, interpretation. why do you feel the need to police someone's interpretation and thoughts about a given song? also, you could have just ignored it, scrolled past it. actually, better yet, I think you would have had to click on the comment to see the whole thing cause of it's length, meaning you had to put effort into reading it and then leaving rude comments. so you, a random stranger on the Internet, went out of your way, scrolling through the comments of some music video, finding my comment, reading it, only to be a dick. why don't you just leave people alone? why don't you let people be to interpret things and express themselves as they wish? I wasn't bothering you, you didn't have to read my "yap fest", you don't have to agree with my interpretation, do you? your probably not gonna read this, you'll actually probably respond saying something like "I'm not reading all that" if I've gauged you as a person correctly, but oh well, I'm a yapper, and you're some asshole who hides behind a screen and is mean just for shits and giggles.
i remember the first time i found alex g. i was absolutely trapped because we share the same name (artist my name isn’t sandy.) i was 12, excited, and happy. i thought that someday i could genuinely be a somebody, well that may not be a time for me to say anything considering i’m only 14 but i just wanna grow up. i want to push forward and be somebody but i’ll take my time because nothing good can be rushed:). thank you sandy alex g.
My name is Sandy im 14 years old my friends say im ugly but my dad says im the prettiest thing x5 my name is sandy im 14 years old somwtimes i hate you but right now i just wanna go home x5 my name is sandy im 14 years old my brother says he hates me and says satan is his masterrrrr my name is sandy im 14 years old my insides are changing and right now i just wanna grow up x 8
I remember when I was younger my oldest sister was the stereotypical edgy sibling and how she used to physically hurt me. I had a bad home life so I remember thinking that I would immediately get out when I turn 18, I wanted to grow up so badly anyways 10/10 song, I can ugly cry to it. Definitely recommend!
My name is Sandy I'm 14 and this songs pretty much applies to me Although my friends never said I'm ugly, my brothers never said they hated me but hey maybe they have when I wasn't around who knows:/ UPDATE 12/03/22 I'm 16 now:)) glad to say i don't really resonate with the song so much anymore. I've been thru some shit but I've grown, moved on, and learned so yah heehee thank you for all the replies i appreciate them🫶🏼
i know how this feels. i can tell you from experience that it gets better. i was 14 and sad and scared and this song was my anthem. i’m 17 now and stuff gets so much better. you’ll grow up and love and love and love. get away from everything as soon as you can.
When I was five I had a friend in my gymnastics class named Sandy who was around the same age as me, maybe a little older. Turning 14 in a few months now, and I'm hoping she's doing alright.
This song resonates with me in a very odd way. The first set of lyrics always hit home, because I think I want to be a father when I'm older. I've thought the struggles of parenting, but I want to give a kid the opportunity to grow up in a better home than I did. I'm also trans (ftm) and gay (mlm). The idea of what I'd like to be called by my future kids has helped me figure out my identity. Anyhow, I love this song and it's personal meaning to me.
this woke a lot of sad fourteen year old memories
pls delete this comment❤ thanks
Same, my friend. Maybe one day, we’ll heal.
R/im14andthisisdeep
This song makes me think about how i never really let myself be a kid. I always remember looking at kids younger than me in school and thinking "wow i was that small at that age. I looked like those kids. I was so much younger than i felt." It makes me sad. I wish let myself enjoy being a kid. Now im 19 and i feel like i actually have to start trying to plan and get my shit together. Partly because i never did in highschool cause i was trying to take care of everyone else. I wish i enjoyed things that were age appropriate instead of doing drugs and hanging out with people older than me to escape my emotions and trauma. But i also know at the time that was the only way i knew how to handle it. Its so wierd. If anyones 14 or younger or 15 or 16 or 17 reading this please know you dont have to feel like an adult or act like one. Dont let people call you immature its okay to be immature. Please try to appreciate where you are in life. getting older is easier and harder in alot of ways. Things are rough. Dont be too hard on yourself, and dont listen to people who are too hard on you. And if you feel like you have to be an adult because the adults around you arent taking care of you, im so sorry. Try to make friends who can support you and who you can talk to, or a guidance counselor or teacher. Try to find people around your age you can trust who look out for you. Youre allowed to feel like a kid and want/let other people take care of you. You deserve to be cared for. You shouldnt have to feel like you have to handle it all yourself, and i hope you dont have to. Wishing everyone the best.
Thank you
what a reflectiveness- now, you must allow yourself to be 19. it's still okay to be immature and to be easy on yourself. to many, if you're 19, you're still a kid
the way you write makes me feel like i’m worth something. you’re very important yourself dont forget that, you’ve shared a lot and i love you. you deserve to be loved:)
Damn you made me cry man 😭
How are you doing now in life. I was in the same boat in highschool. Got viciously bullied by kids in my class and the upperclassman. And i resorted to smoking weed and hiding myself. You and I are the same age too. And I just completely agree. Our upperclassman failed us by making us grow up early. Public highschools in America are a literal fucking nightmare. The teachers literally do not care about the students and it leaves room for all these racist, mean, prideful teenage boys to do whatever they want with no consequences. Seriously the amount of bullying, SA, and racism that just gets swept under the rug is insane. Kids don’t change and stay strong and listen to the first comment. It’s not your job to grow up. It’s going to be really hard. Speak up when you can, be respectful, and stay weird/different.
My friend passed away 2 weeks ago and this song was in one of his playlists I was going through. I’ve cried and cried and cried to this song thinking of him. He died at 13, a few months before his 14th birthday. It’s such a treasure to get to listen to music he loved, even though the songs he liked were often sad.
Rest in peace Micah. I love you forever buddy ❤️❤️
this was one of the first alex g songs i heard, when i was a sad 14 year old. it’s been 2 years and he’s still such a powerful musician and influence in my life. much, much love.
how have you been after these two years?
@@david-wq3jt grown up a lot... crazy how that works isn’t it? still come back to this song tho and i still love alex’s music
how time flies😢
hope you're doing well
hows it going now??
0:54 happiness sounds like this
So true
I had to find the yt video to this song JUST to discuss this with someone. Like wtf, why is it sooo good? This is WHY alex G's a god. He has such an ear for the type of music he plays. Its only 4 chords but it makes my whole heart and body ache.
...and the rest of the song is refined, purified depression. Great contrast
@@WDHAGN its really just 2 chords
That guitar after the chorus is gorgeous
sandy should get new friends...?
Kyland yeah I should
If only it were that easy.
Sandy can’t find new friends🥺🤔
everything is okay after hearing this
❤️🔥
when i was 12 and saw everyone around me change i didnt really feel like a boy, i wanted to be as beautiful as the girls around me. now im 14 and all i want to do is grow up so i can become a girl.
I was 14 when I realized that I wasn't a girl. I'm almost 19 and so much has changed and I've been able to do things I could've never imagined being able to do then. I'm not done transitioning or as far as I'd like to be yet, but I promise that you'll get to grow up as pretty as other girls and life won't seem as suffocating anymore
i wanted to be a girl when i was 14 but my family was super religious and conservative so i spent my teenage years completely miserable and wanting to not be alive all the time. once i become an adult i transitioned and once my family saw how happy i was they came around and now i'm super close to all my family. i'm 27 years old now and my life is great. it feels so good not having to pretend anymore.
I must come here and listen to this song at least 5 times a day. It's perfect, and Alex G is a towering genius who will destroy us all (in a good way).
Here’s a reminder:)
This aged beautiful
this song is insanely beautiful. Alex G is the messiah.
the kingdom is not to come, it's already here. But people do not see it
alex gesus
yaaaass
Alex G backwards is Jesús Christ
Im 19 years old and im going to be a war veteran after this war ends? I keep thinking about how unfair life is, i used to think it wasnt so bad but recently its getting a little harder to see when my friends keep dying, im too young to go to a memorial service i think. Im just 19.
it’s gonna be okay, I believe in you. you may not know me but I am here for you.🫂
damn i used to listen so much in middle school i wish i could remember how i found it
Just turned 17 yesterday,but right now i just wanna go home... 😣🥺👉👈
1:44
"my name is sandy I'm 14 years old, my insides are changing and right now I just wanna grow up...."
I have never connected to a line so much as a transmasc ever. I remember being 10 and feeling my chest starting to change, feeling the pain of it all, mental and physical, feeling dirty and wrong but knowing *why*. I remember being 12 and getting my first blood, feeling like the world was coming down around me, not understanding why it hurt so bad and why there was so much blood and why it had to happen to me. I remember being 14 and wishing my chest would shrink, that my voice would deepen and my hair would grow in different places. I just wanted to grow up so I could be a boy, so I could finally have the right body. I still just wanna grow up, I wanna grow up right, I want to give this body away because it isn't right.
I RELATE TO THIS COMMENT SO MUCH ❤❤❤
yap fest over one line is crazy
doesnt even correlate either
@@inyoGuts.
why do you feel the need to be an asshole? like... it was my interpretation of a song, it was how I felt when I listened to it, that's what music's about, interpretation. why do you feel the need to police someone's interpretation and thoughts about a given song?
also, you could have just ignored it, scrolled past it. actually, better yet, I think you would have had to click on the comment to see the whole thing cause of it's length, meaning you had to put effort into reading it and then leaving rude comments.
so you, a random stranger on the Internet, went out of your way, scrolling through the comments of some music video, finding my comment, reading it, only to be a dick.
why don't you just leave people alone? why don't you let people be to interpret things and express themselves as they wish? I wasn't bothering you, you didn't have to read my "yap fest", you don't have to agree with my interpretation, do you?
your probably not gonna read this, you'll actually probably respond saying something like "I'm not reading all that" if I've gauged you as a person correctly, but oh well, I'm a yapper, and you're some asshole who hides behind a screen and is mean just for shits and giggles.
@@inyoGuts. it just an interpretation lol
i remember the first time i found alex g. i was absolutely trapped because we share the same name (artist my name isn’t sandy.) i was 12, excited, and happy. i thought that someday i could genuinely be a somebody, well that may not be a time for me to say anything considering i’m only 14 but i just wanna grow up. i want to push forward and be somebody but i’ll take my time because nothing good can be rushed:). thank you sandy alex g.
I just came here to talk about the guitar at :55. Like wow.... What a beautiful chord structure... Its fucking mesmerizing
thats what it sounds like when they just wanna go home
My name is Sandy
im 14 years old
my friends say im ugly
but my dad says
im the
prettiest thing x5
my name is sandy
im 14 years old
somwtimes i hate you
but right now
i just wanna go
home x5
my name is sandy
im 14 years old
my brother says he hates me
and says satan is his
masterrrrr
my name is sandy im 14 years old
my insides are changing
and right now i
just wanna
grow up x 8
How do I keep finding new Alex G songs after years of listening to him?
same
such a lovely thing to fall asleep to
This perfectly represents my childhood
I remember when I was younger my oldest sister was the stereotypical edgy sibling and how she used to physically hurt me. I had a bad home life so I remember thinking that I would immediately get out when I turn 18, I wanted to grow up so badly
anyways 10/10 song, I can ugly cry to it. Definitely recommend!
My name is Sandy I'm 14 and this songs pretty much applies to me
Although my friends never said I'm ugly, my brothers never said they hated me but hey maybe they have when I wasn't around who knows:/
UPDATE 12/03/22
I'm 16 now:)) glad to say i don't really resonate with the song so much anymore. I've been thru some shit but I've grown, moved on, and learned so yah heehee
thank you for all the replies i appreciate them🫶🏼
i know how this feels. i can tell you from experience that it gets better. i was 14 and sad and scared and this song was my anthem. i’m 17 now and stuff gets so much better. you’ll grow up and love and love and love. get away from everything as soon as you can.
Please don’t ever assume hate when you don’t know. It’s a dangerous game
itll get better sandy. being a teenage girl is hell, but things brighten up after a while. much love
another Sandy who is 14 here I’m so shocked we have a lot in common
@@moonwhale2435 hi, moon! I'm 16 now😭 but I'm glad that we have things in common🫂 i wish you sm love and happiness !!
Oh God I can't stop crying
I'm still crying tf
"my dad says in the prettiest thing" yikes, the fatherless-ness be hitting HARD after that one 😭
i think im in love
Béatrice Lepage love you are in, you think.
I want to go back and catch time in a glass jar.
That's so beautiful. Pure poetry.
When I was five I had a friend in my gymnastics class named Sandy who was around the same age as me, maybe a little older. Turning 14 in a few months now, and I'm hoping she's doing alright.
This song resonates with me in a very odd way. The first set of lyrics always hit home, because I think I want to be a father when I'm older. I've thought the struggles of parenting, but I want to give a kid the opportunity to grow up in a better home than I did. I'm also trans (ftm) and gay (mlm). The idea of what I'd like to be called by my future kids has helped me figure out my identity. Anyhow, I love this song and it's personal meaning to me.
as a 14 year old, this song really kicks in deep
listening to this song while you're still 14 hits different.
My name is Raymond
Im thirteen years old
Everyone thinks I'm ugly but *he* says I'm the prettiest thing.
Prettiest thing.
i wish i was 14 again
this is lovely im so glad i found this
I think this is my favorite song ♡
hooked
im waiting for my flight at the Benito Juarez airport in México, i was so boried, now im so happy :)
I’m 14 and this hit me hard-
Same
This song is heartbreaking. Brilliant though.
when i was 14 i felt like crap all the time but now im ok
i love alex g sm
I thought this was the dude from Eric's Trip the first time I heard it.
love this song
so fucking good
What tuning is this ? It doesn't sound like standard. But maybe I'm trippin.
DADF#Be
d major
@@steventellstrom3632 correct
song matches me perfectly
The first couple of lines makes me so sad
lowertown gang wya
i hope people know he covered this from them because I love lowertown
@@wiizard101 are u sure he covered this from them ? google says that lowertown's sandy was released in 2019, but this video is from 2014 :0
@@Kit-zq3yj oh mybad i didn't know 😔
Yeah Alex def wrote this lol slapped his name right on the sucker
im 14 years old and i want to be a kid again
lovely
i will cry
Urgh so good
i feel like ill never grow up
this song reminds me of how my groomer made me feel
quisiera volver a tener 14
0:03
same
play it at 0.5 speed
Matthew Funke sounds like a$s
Thank you for suggesting this!
Give him a gold star I would only make his babies no one else's
me too alexg
Hey Sam ❤️
oh shit hey
Oh shit
#ilovealexg
My name is sandy¡
what album is this off of
it was released solo as his first song
Marley Morales tyy
Jake Goldas it's on RULES i think
@@ilse1126 it's a bonus track on Rules
I know a artist named sandy
Not Alex g someone else
alex needs some new friends