Have I Killed Anybody
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- Опубликовано: 11 июн 2024
- #KIA #Combat #Ukraine
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Timestamps -
0:00 Intro
1:05 Denny Tran
1:46 Hiwa
2:47 Lorenzo Orsetti
3:20 Rashid
5:32 Fedekar
7:23 Darav
8:54 Cecilia
10:02 Cudi
11:03 Hospital Staff
12:08 Sores
14:25 Ethan
18:10 Shepherd / Jericho
21:12 Chief
22:07 Nechir
24:49 Pezz
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I’m Ethan’s Mom…Thank you so much for honoring each of these heroes/warriors… and the words you spoke about my son, my oldest, at only 21!! I cried through this entire video. Watching him boxing…he was going to go into amateur boxing before he started doing Parkour, and then we moved and he left for the Marine Corps. He was a perfectionist in everything he did. He was so mature and wise beyond his years. I miss him SO VERY MUCH!!
I’m in a family group through the Weatherman Foundation, with Shepherds Mom. Shepherd is from a city not far from where we lived in So Cal. They all had warrior spirits…God gifted each of you guys with that!!! TRUE HEROES THROUGH AND THROUGH!
Oh, a quick correction, Ethan joined the Marine Corps just 4 months after he turned 17! He was homeschooled and had finished all of his requirements with straight A’s… We knew the Marine Corps was where he wanted to go, to follow in his Great Grandpa and Grandpas footsteps, so, we signed him over.
God bless you!
17! I only had one person in my boot camp platoon who was 17, out of 95 people! I learn something new everyday, straight A’s makes sense, he was a perfectionist in everything out there as well, as I mentioned, it only makes sense. I’m so glad you watched this, he meant so much to everyone around him. Sooo glad you’re connected to shepherds family too, it’s a small community, and those who were called home to god all live in our hearts forever. We will see them again one day, I’m praying for you all constantly ❤️
@@CivDiv Thank you so much! He actually came in the top 3 at Boot Camp with all of his combined scores… not that he even cared. He was just glad to make it to the top of the Reaper with double pneumonia and get his EGA and be called a Marine! We even met a guy here where we live who served with Ethan’s Commander in the Army. He even knew Sores from when he served in Syria… such a small world! He now does NGO aid missions to the frontlines in Ukraine. He’s a local Attorney and was an Army JAG.
Anyway… thank you for sharing your heart!!! Ethan would hate all of this attention, BUT, he so DESERVES EVERY BIT OF IT!!
@@lesliehertweck A hero and inspiration
So sorry for your loss. Reading your comment made my eyes well up. Wishing hope and light to you.
You clearly raised an amazing son well done
Denny Tran was in my Boot camp platoon, he slept 1 bunk over and up. We were 1st bat, delta 1089. He is missed by our platoon.
Rest in peace Denny.
Did he die from that amtrack that sunk? And the higher ups didn’t even try to rescue them.
@@ugabuga1361 No it was a motorcycle accident.
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Boi you on a mission
He's not talking to us. He's talking to them. We are just here listening.
It's tough losing friends. I hope you reach out if it ever gets to hard. The memories will never go and you'll never stop thinking about them. Glad you did this video. It probably helped you a lot.
Take it easy, rest and take care.
it sucks that people do this not for them but for views.
@@JuanCollins69 Did you not listen to the last few words of the introduction?
@@thecriscokidd290 yapping about it on RUclips? Yeah it’s not about them. It’s about money
I don’t go into detail with some of these stories, but I’ll be honest that I carry a lot of guilt with some of these deaths. Again, this is a video meant to honor their names. When veterans are asked if they killed someone, many of them think back at friends they failed to talk to about trauma when they needed help, or situations where we failed to act in courage to save someone. There’s more names to be mentioned, but these are the ones I wanted to speak about. Thanks for listening, and I hope you get what I mean. I’m doing good, but I worry about the family and friends of the people I mentioned more. Keep them in your prayers, thanks
Damn, beautiful vid civ
It's not your fault man. Each and everyone is simply a hero. Thank you all for your service. Don't let the weight bare heavy on them giant shoulders man
I’m so sorry for your losses. They all served well. 🕊️❤️
survivors guilt is awful, something i've also had to learn to live with, just through very different situations. It's not your fault, that's the one thing to remember even though it's so hard to. Thank you for your service and rest in peace to all of the fallen heroes.
YT keeps censoring this so not sure if anyone will ever read it but here goes…I was awarded a Navy and Marine Corps Achievement Medal with a Combat “V”. I had EAS’d from the Corps after doing multiple Deplyments to Iraq (x3). I served with 1st Marine Division, 1st LAR as an infantryman (0352/0351 (retrained to serve as an assaultman after we left our LAV-AT vehicles behind because there was no more armor threat)). Anyway, I never really told my parents about much of what occurred in Iraq. I was going to school using the GI Bill living at home when a package arrived. Inside it contained the medal NAM (with “V”). It also contained the award citation. My parents opened the package before I did and read it. It was pretty graphic about what the award was for. Talked about “eliminating enemy insurgents” multiple times. It’s a long story but I led a fireteam that k** led four men in a building. I personally set a M67 fragmentation grenade on one of those men (he was pinned and trapped in rubble at the time). We had reason to believe he was “de ath gripping” a grenade at the time. I sh *t him a few times with my LT’s pistol but it wasn’t actually ki* * ing him because I could only put rounds in his a ** and leg (only thing that was exposed when we were unburying him from the rubble. We could hear him crying and gurgling bc he had a sucking chest wound already from previous 25 mm fire. and try to angle the rounds toward vital organs which to me was just making him suffer more which I did not want so I used a gre nade. The gren ade blew him in half. My team ki* *ed the remaining men. I also in a separate incident engaged an enemy RPG team while sitting on fire watch of our LAV-25 during Operation Steel Curtain. The 25 mm bushmaster is a deadly deadly weapon system. Those men I watched through the thermals as their bodies went from “hot” to “cold” on the thermals throughout the rest of my fire watch. My LT was awake and in the turret by the time I engaged. He was a good officer. He wrote me up for the award and it just wasn’t “approved” until after I had EAS’d from the Corps. I am unique among Americans. Not many… even infantryman like myself… know for certain that they have ki* *ed people. Ki* *ing is something that never leaves you. I would k* ** again if my life was threatened or my family or my flag etc but it’s something you can never forget. It’s not something that is fun or easy. It’s a tragedy even when it’s the enemy. People are people. Just like the Marines that were ki* *ed on our deployments. Thank you for this video.
RIP to your fallen brothers. You guys are the definition of selfless
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My Grandpa was a Marine in WW2. Fought on Guadacanal and several other of the tough island battles. We lived with Grandparents for awhile. Didn't have a dad and Grandpa was my world. He would take me to the beer store for his beer runs. He'd let me have a swig of his ice cold Budweiser in a glass bottle. Take the blade out of his razor so I could shave. Just a good man.
I was probably 6 or 7 when I started learning about WW2 and all the heroes that served. I excitedly asked Grandpa if he was in The War. He told me yes and that he was a Marine in the Pacific.
My excited kid self was in awe of the my Grandpa who I already loved.
Next question out of my mouth was , "Did you kill anyone?"
The hurt on his face is still with me today.
He kind response was "Chris, that's not a question you ask a man."
Vets, Be good to yourself.
Get help.
I'm in therapy at the VA right now.
It has been good for me.
If you can't do it for yourself, do it for your Brothers.
They need that example in their own fights.
I understand...my uncle served in Marines, Pacific theater, WW2. When I was a kid I asked him what he did in the war. He just stared off into space for a few moments and then quietly replied, " I survived." He never discussed what happened during the war, not even to his wife, my aunt.
Most kids have asked that question, and met the same answer. I know I did.
Most kids have asked that question, and met the same answer. I know I did.
Most kids have asked that question, and met the same answer. I know I did.
Most kids have asked that question, and met the same answer. I know I did.
Dude, this video brought a tears to my eyes, just listening to you talk and the immence respect you had for each one of them is increadible.
I just lost my best friend to suicide. Neither of us ever served, both civilians. I attended his funeral and said my goodbyes 3 days ago. I saw this pop up and decided to watch it on a whim. I dunno why but watching this brought me a little bit more closure. Thanks for sharing your stories, I hope all mentioned are at peace.
I am sorry for your loss.
I’ve lost two friends the same way including my best friend 6 months ago. All I can say is don’t let it consume you. You still have a life to live you don’t need to die that day as well. Live on for them let them see the world through your eyes. Sending love❤️
Condolences mate and power to you.
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Happened to me two years ago. It is hard to lose your best friend, particularly in this way. Just remember you were there for him more then anyone else. It gets better, take care of yourself.
Thank you for sharing the stories of people who passed, may we never forget them.
Thanks a lot for commemorating Sores and Ethan. I've had the pleasure to met and work with them, amazing guys,
Ethan showed me around in school and was definitely a friend to have. Nicest kid . So sad when we heard the news. RIP HERO . He was also a parkour legend for those who don’t know. He has a lot of buddies up with him so he’s not alone
Never ask a woman if she’s pregnant, even if she’s in the maternity ward… never ask a vet if they killed anyone. Basic stuff. If you earn the answer, they will tell you. I’m not a veteran, but some things you can’t unsee, friends you can’t revive. Don’t let popcorn curiosities make people relive things while they are trying to do their day. PTSD is not a joke
An old Detroit firefighter once said, "I wish my mind could forget the things my eyes have seen."
@@bradleypryor5586 thank you for your service.
You can ask then. You don't have to "earn" their answer. They are not this self righteous group above reproach.
@@handled99 didn’t even infer that, let alone say it. People don’t know how to walk with respect and wisdom. 🤷♂️you do you, I’ll do me
@@greenman4508 Of course you gonna do you. I don't even know you lol.
Man, never ever disregard your mental health. You're a good person, I know you struggle like everyone else that's dealt with combat, just make sure you get the help you need and don't let yourself stop getting the help you need. I know it might be expensive but in the long run it's all worth it.
He's not a good person, he went to go fight someone elses war for internet credibility. The more that westerners stay out of the war, the quicker it will be resolved, and the sooner there will be peace. Just like in Vietnam and Afghanistan. Stay out of the business of foreign lands.
I cannot emphasize how much I love how you did this. To memorialize all the people you've lost in your life with this video, it's truly something I'm sure they all appreciate. Dude, don't ever forget you're a really great guy, never doubt that in many ways I strive to be just like you, please don't die man.
Listening to this makes me so emotional. Thank you for sharing who they were. They will live rent-free in my heart. Simper Fi Brothers You are the real Heroes😭 I can't imagine the brotherhood and connection you guys had...
Thank you for sharing these storys and thank you for your service to humanity. What you do on and off the front is appreciated by many. You're a hero man.
Jesus this hit super hard, thank you very much for sharing this deeply personal and inspirational document Civ
I really appreciate this. I've known a lot of vets and this is a common thread. Many people who have walked this path have a line of ghosts walking with them.
While it is absolutely a touchy subject and everyone deals with loss differently its still incredibly important to speak about their experience.
Not only does the act of sharing stories honor the fallen but it can also help the individual bearing the weight of their loss cope and carry on effectively.
Their actions deserve praise far and wide and you sure as hell don't need to carry that weight alone.
Thank you for setting a great example and thank you for telling us how great these people truly were.
I never knew them but I miss them too.
Watched all the way through. Truly inspirational, this entire episode. I’m glad to know, even a small part, of these heroes. It’s great to see your observance and attention to detail - your appreciation for these important people. You honor their memory by sharing their humanity, their mettle, and their passions. They’ll live forever through all of us; and I hope you’re proud to know that you’ve done them a great deal of good by memorializing them in such a succinct way.
Thank you for sharing the stories of your friends/brothers & sisters. All I want when I die is for someone to care enough to let the world remember me, like you’ve done here. These sound like some amazing people you had the opportunity to serve with. It was both heartwarming and chilling to hear sores’ voice message. Sounds like a truly caring friend.
My God, all of the Civ Div videos have such a deep feeling to them all and although most of the things you speak of are simple to understand, they require a huge depth of feeling to comprehend what you have experienced, what you have lived through and are still living. You are strong!
Watching this my heart broke for you and the ones you lost. I understand now why it's such a touchy subject. My grandfather never ever talked about his time in WW2. I now understand why. Thank you. ❤
You did bring tears to my eyes.
The amount of respect you have for all theses soldiers, medicals personels who died is so honorable. Hope for you to have a peacefull life.
As a retired, career firefighter/medic, it's like being asked, "what's the worst thing you've ever seen?" I have said, "do you really want me to share that with you, because you won't like it." I try to focus on the good that I have done and the good men & women that I have served with. Stay safe young man.
No, it would be like asking a firefighter if he ever hosed down a fire.
What a fine tribute this is to these great people. Very important I think. I had to pause several times and do something else because this is very emotional to watch, it really hits me right in the gut.
Beautifully done, man. Thanks for sharing these guys with us. All the respect in the world to you and your brothers.
Thank you for your service. I thank you greatly.
I wanted to ask you this for a long time..thanks for the video brother, know it wasn t easy to make this vid about the brothers in arms..RIP to everyone of those heroes
Nicely done. Way to honor these folks memories. Thanks for sharing.
I have no words. Thank you for this. God Bless...
So humble in your descriptions of these amazing people you've had the opportunity to serve with. I can feel the depth of your words. Keeping them in your heart and continuing to serve causes you feel about, is how you honour them.
I've seen many of your videos, and although there's no action in this one it just became one of my favourite ones. People forget warriors have emotions, but you're pretty good at speaking about them. Thank you
I know that you were working with YBS in Sinjar. My cousin also worked with them and he was a commander in YBS, but unfortunately the Turkish planes bombed him and killed him in 2020. His name is Zarathustra Şengali. You may have known him.
Lol, Turkish Air Force jumpscare enjoy gbu's
This was really heart warming to see you commemorate your fallen comrades. My prayers go out to their families and friends who loved these people.
Thank you for this video. It means a lot that you would share your stories and impacts your fallen brothers have on you. It also means a lot that you would be vulnerable and show us this side of you and the conflicts you've been apart of. May their names be remembered and their legacies cherished by those whom they've impacted.
Tran had that smile that just makes everybody’s day a bit better.
Man, this is wholesome. There's a shinning purity in you. I've been a follower of your channel since the very beginning. I knew there was something especial in you. I'm not trying to flatter you, I simply believed it and this video confirms it.
Keep on the good fight brother!
This is my favorite video. The memory of the fallen men had me in tears. I loved to hear about their contributions and their character.
Great video. Thank you for sharing and helping to keep their names alive.
Thank you for sharing your precious memories and these wonderful people with the rest of us, Civ Div.
I’ve lost a few people in my life and I’ll remember it sometimes and get a weird existential dread. I cant even imagine what it’s like for you to lose so many brothers like you did. Life is short, make the best of it and remember those that have died warriors.
Man, you have a serious about of deep and important content that you have posted but this really touched me. Made me think about many people that I've known who have passed, thank you
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thanks man, been following the channel for a bit, this hit harder than I thought it would.. never been in such situations but I guess at least a thanks is welcome for what you and your mates have been doing.. also partly for my country as well.. cheers man! good luck!
@CivDiv, dude this helps me process losses of my friends who died at the frontline. Thank you
Thank you, just thank you. Hearing you talking too, not about your fallen mates would have a profound effect on such a wider audience than you might think. I'm a nobody with no military background, but I absolutely respect the shit out of people like yourself, not just the fact you served, its the fact I can see pureness in you and the way you talk. Thank you.
Yeah, when he was describing the guy he trusted because of his pureness and the look in his eye I wondered if he had any idea he was describing himself too.
Thanks for being a real person to us. Love you Brother.
This is a good vid Civ Div. Good to get to know and see the faces of true super heroes. Thank you bub.
I hope and know when you pass on people will have beautiful stories to tell about you just as you have told here. I can feel your loss and heartache throughout all of this video. You've honored these people well, you are a good person! You have done right by telling their stories.
I woke up. Sunday morning in England UK. It's cold, but sunny, to watch this. You are very open in your opinions of yourself and others. Different to alot of soldiers. We can be quiet. Overly serious. Your experience is fascinating. Like a walking history of modern conflict. These men and women are now going to be remembered through this video. Which is your requiem to them.
Thanks CivDiv 🙏God Bless
I'm glad you got to meet so many cool and inspiring people - you treasure their memory and honour their life ❤
You did good sharing these stories with people, may they rest in peace and always be remembered
Damn dude, this was a heavy one. May their names be remembered and their stories live on.
Stay safe Brother, I never ask Vets about their Tours of Duty or what happened there, the only thing that matters is they survived and we're still free. God Bless all those who served and are serving now.
Just remember that you are very appreciated by someone. ✌️💯👍🇺🇲
Absolutely love this video, what a beautiful and honest way to remember and honor these heroes. Thank you for sharing
Beautiful & important.
Thank you for honoring everyone, her biji ❤️🙌
thank you for talking about this
man im in my 40s but this vid made me cry like a baby. i feel you man,
Thank you for sharing your accounts of such valiant people.
Thanks for sharing that. Im not sure I could expose myself to the world like that. I wish you the best going forward
its weird csuse a few weeks ago i was wondering and thinking about you, and i was curious cause of all the footage you make sure to keep it youtube friendly, so ive always wondered. buts its not something as me, whos seen people come back, gonna ask that. ill gladly wait for you to anseer it for us like you did, thanj you CivDiv. youve done so much for so many people! RIP to all your brothers that you lost. keel you head up man!
Love you man, you're doing great things
Thank you for sharing your stories, and thank you for your service.
Beautiful video man, undying respect to you and your brothers
What an awesome memorial for these brave warriors. RIP and know that your brothers will never forget you.
Rest in peace to all named in this video. Brave souls who died in combat. Their legacy will live on in everyones hearts. You are loved and missed by all whom know your tale.
Rest in peace to all of the heroes. So inspiring and motivating, you guys do such an important job for all of us. Thank you for everything ❤
Hey bro; you’re an inspiration to me in a struggling time. Thank you for sharing their stories.
07 to all of the people civ div mentioned here much love civ div much respect for sharing such a deep personal experience what these people have done for you you are doing for all your viewers by sharing your experiences
Bless you for keeping their names alive. 🙏🏻
Some amazing tributes thank you for sharing these legendary soliders with us brother! Gone but never forgotten 🙏🏼🕊✌🏼
Knowing all these fallen heroes.. its insane you haven't fell yourself.. Glad you're still with us and able to keep these guys' memories alive. From a Navy vet, I commend you.
The first friend I lost to war was Borhnson, a buddy who was next to me in basic training at infantry school, because we were all in alphabetical order. He was hit by an IED.
I'm surprised ignorant people would ask you such a painful question. You rose to honor those that sacrificed. Respect
to be a tiny bit fair those kinds of stories are always interesting. That being said not everyone will gladly tell you them and you'd think in modern times where PTSD is way more known people would know not to ask.
its interesting, i think people should just wsit, like civ div is prob a good dude to talk about to it if you grt to know him, I’m sure he would talk to you about it explain things and explain how it would feel and I’m sure most guys would most guys need a little bit more time saved has a civilian mindset still of I’m not sure how to put it, but he still in his head of I’m a human, and I can protect people. So he’s gonna probably want to tell people a little bit more than others you know?
I was honestly always curious only because in movies they portray the first kill as a really big shock. Like is that real? Or it's different for everyone. I'm going to be honest I asked someone once who was a soldier this question and that was the only reason I asked. I didn't want any details or anything. Just my curiosity got the better of me to fact check something trivial.
you usually only see the good in people when they pass away. true words. thanks for this video, it makes me think a lot
If moistcritikal joined the military
It's hard to watch this without shedding tears. RIP, defenders.
Thank you for sharing these people's stories, their legacy will live on through you.
You're reminding me of stories i heard from Colonel Spain. Thanks for the rememberance and sharing these with us.
I'm no warrior, and I'm ignorant to the horrors of war. I have no stories to tell, but I'm honored to hear and remember the stories of you and your comrades. Thank you.
I cried through most of this video.respect to yourself and your fallen comrades.
I usually have a short attention span so often times I end up skipping some videos or just leaving them to play in the background. But the way you tell your stories is very captivating to me. I’ve watched some of your videos from beginning to end without leaving the video.
I can't even begin to imagine what you've been through. Thank you for your service.
War takes the best of us. All of these men and women seem like they were incredible people. May they rest in peace now.
This was a tough watch. I truly understand survivors guilt. I carry the same baggage, just under different circumstance.
Thank you for introducing me (us) to so many heroes.
As I have stated before, your content is the most real shit on RUclips. Thank you for the dose of reality. Heroyam Slava!
Thanks for this video. You have a great way of showing remembrance to these brave souls. Thank you for your bravery.
Just gotta say thanks! I always love watching your videos.
I Could see you are in Vietnam right now. Have fun man, you deserve every single seconds relaxing here. Love
I’m good friends with Pezz’s brother, Ant. I’m going to send this to him as I know he will massively appreciate it. Chris Pezz was a British Infantry Vet, A rigid soldier to the highest tier, a sound guy and a mega ally bloke! May he rest in peace, see you in the re-org🫡
What an ally bastard, rest in peace.
thanks for making this video, lot of praise, thanks for all the good work you done
Man ive watched alot of your content, and i have zero experience in the military but......yet......on a human element i related to this video, you doing something great man for real, im looking forward to a future with your channel in it
this was one of the most heartfelt and wonderful set of testimonials for brothers in arms that I've heard in years. God bless you man. I pray that you will retire old, gray, and fulfilled in ways you did not imagine. sending good vibes from the Philippines. my daughter and I have been wishing you well since the van videos and your younger YPG days
Rip to the fallen. Til Valhalla brothers.
Ethan, you were a fucking hero. I miss you kid. We'll see each other again one day.
i wasnt expecting it, but this is one of the best videos on youtube. i think i will definitely change a couple things after watching this. thank you and heroyma slava!!!
I appreciate how you did this. I often get a sense that people use death for clout, overstating relations on social media. This was well-done and does not seem exploitative. All my love to them, their friends and family, and also you.
They will never be forgotten
love this, sorry for your losses
May the Earth keep these warriors. Thank you, for what you do Civ. It's beyond appreciated.
Thank you for sharing and keep your brothers in arms "alive" - Beside thanks for your service and dedication for higher cause.
This also brings up an interesting point. Is that many soldiers fight for years without ever killing or sometimes seeing the enemy. And that's okay because they are still fighting so many things like the elements, stress, language barriers, the difficulty of military life. Now I am not in the military so maybe I can't speak on it. But I feel like what matters is less so how many people you kill, but more so how many people you save.