It's so many little things. Kids at the park, your best friend's mom, that one birthday party you went to and realized other families are different than yours, your boyfriends family when they do more for you than your own family. The list is endless
Or the feeling when your family is having a "good day" and you just wish it could stay this way instead of the chaos, darkness, misery & violence that takes over...
This song is so good, this is one of the few songs that almost perfectly captures how it feels to be around people who have loving families and being happy for them while also grieving because all you wanted growing up was a family to call your own. It sucks being so family oriented while having a shitty family, you know deep down the people you consider family don’t see you in the same way and you feel as if no one ever will until you’re married into another family or you find others who also don’t have a family. I still can’t accept live because I thought I found an adopted family just to be discarded later down the line because I didn’t want to do drugs and party all the time. I wanted to break the cycle and make a better life for myself. I managed to make it to college it’s all I dreamed of as a kid, but i had to give up my old life and everyone I loved for it.
What is honestly crazy about this song is that you consider this your “Demo” version of it, this would be like seventh demo to final product version if I had done it, if I even could make something this good in this first place. Also makes it exciting for what the final version may hold! ❤
Absolutely adore this song, I have CPTSD as a result of childhood trauma and sometimes you really don't realise the other life exists until you witness it. I thought it was only in movies.
I discovered this song from an edit on TikTok and I'm so glad I did because I've been absolutely obsessed with it and has been stuck in my head all week.
This is my best Christmas present!!! I’ve been listening on repeat over and over and over!!! I’m OBSESSED!!!!! Absolute perfection!! Thank you thank you thank you thank you!!!
My birthday is tomorrow and it's always such a harsh reminder if the mom who didn't want me and the step mom who never let me forget it.. I needed this song right now.... Thank you
This song shines a spotlight on the void you feel when you come from childhood/generational trauma. It gives a voice to those who had to survive instead of thrive. May God bless those who relate to this song. I hope you find the people who will love you right. 🙏
Absolutely beautiful song! When I heard the snippet on TikTok I fell in love with it immediately and I’ve been binging all of your music all day! You have such a bright career ahead of you ❤
Wow, just had this come up on my feed, can't believe you let me talk to you all that time and you didn't tell me you were famous lol. You deserve it, your lyrics are as lovely as you are Erin. Have a wonderful Christmas x
Almost 2 years no contact with my family. This song makes me cry everytime it hugs that lonely feeling I always have around other families… but also narcissistic parental abuse..
This couldn’t have come out at a better time. I’m currently lying in the spare bedroom of my partners parents house, and they all love each other so much. What I wouldnt give to live like them
This song is everything. The feeling I have listening to it. I can't only imagine how it felt to write this. It's helping me so much to heal. Thank you for sharing this beautiful piece with us! ❤
I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH!!!! pls if anyone has songs like this with similar lyrics let me know!! i wanna make a playlist of the feeling of having to watch your partner have loving parents wishing you had that !!!!
This song hits like no other, and your lyrics resonate with me so much. Not sure I will ever get over the line “we’re the product of love we do not receive”🥹😢❤️
Soooo beyond happy I came across your beautiful soul on my instagram. Your voice is like angels singing to my soul ❤ thank you for putting your soul and heart out for all of us to relate and love you ❤️🔥
i just saw an arcane edit on tiktok with au power and jinx to this and i dont know whether i'll ever know happiness again, awesome song
Same
same!! found this song through that edit too
Omg same but I went to look for it but I couldn’t find it anymore 😢 Do you guys have it saved?
Same, it hurt so much… i needed more
This song 😱. It so perfectly describes how lonely you feel/out of place when you’re surrounded by people who have loving parents
Literally, strangers, co workers, friends, lovers. I cannot relate to anyone.
@@jenniluv664 Exactly!
@@jenniluv664 same
I’ve never seen a more truer comment, you end up feeling like an outsider that doesn’t belong anywhere
@@katrinadumot5762 Yeah! Feels like everyone else is part of a club you can’t gain access to
i am the #1 stan of this song
I'll settle for being her #2 I guess ❤
“AND I GREW UP INTO SOMETHING GOOD SOMEBODY WHO COULD SWALLOW LOVE” IM IN TEARS😭😭😭😭😭
The sickening obsession of wishing you were like their perfectly wrapped, healthy family. 🥺
It's so many little things. Kids at the park, your best friend's mom, that one birthday party you went to and realized other families are different than yours, your boyfriends family when they do more for you than your own family. The list is endless
Or the feeling when your family is having a "good day" and you just wish it could stay this way instead of the chaos, darkness, misery & violence that takes over...
This song is so good, this is one of the few songs that almost perfectly captures how it feels to be around people who have loving families and being happy for them while also grieving because all you wanted growing up was a family to call your own. It sucks being so family oriented while having a shitty family, you know deep down the people you consider family don’t see you in the same way and you feel as if no one ever will until you’re married into another family or you find others who also don’t have a family. I still can’t accept live because I thought I found an adopted family just to be discarded later down the line because I didn’t want to do drugs and party all the time. I wanted to break the cycle and make a better life for myself. I managed to make it to college it’s all I dreamed of as a kid, but i had to give up my old life and everyone I loved for it.
I hate to hear that your chosen family did that, they should want what's best for you regardless of if it's the path they are on or not.
I'm proud of you and the sacrifices you made.
i don’t know that i have ever heard a song that made me FEEL things the way this one does
consumption as a metaphor for love always ate down so hard im absolutely in love
Please please put on spotify.❤
I can’t stop crying. Nostalgic pain & a shuddering feeling of relief to finally feel so truly understood & it’s music to my ears.
Girl thank you!!!!! I kept replaying it on TikTok in mt car. I love you. You made thousands of people feel like someone can understands them
You somehow re-traumatised me and fixed me in one go. Thank you.
38 yrs old and I've never been able to describe the difference in our worlds. This. Is. Everything. I've. Needed. For. Years. ❤❤
truly CANNOT wait for this to be on streaming so SO obsessed
What is honestly crazy about this song is that you consider this your “Demo” version of it, this would be like seventh demo to final product version if I had done it, if I even could make something this good in this first place.
Also makes it exciting for what the final version may hold! ❤
“Your mother said im always welcome to visit to take second helpings i said no thanks im so full of resentment that i learnt to fend for myself” 💔😩😭
erin i’m rolling off my bed shaking violently passing out this is a masterpiece
oh hello
so cool to know im seeing a brilliant artist before they make it big 💗
Absolutely adore this song, I have CPTSD as a result of childhood trauma and sometimes you really don't realise the other life exists until you witness it. I thought it was only in movies.
I discovered this song from an edit on TikTok and I'm so glad I did because I've been absolutely obsessed with it and has been stuck in my head all week.
this song devastates me and I’m here for that
“Thank you queen Erin” we all say in unison
This is my best Christmas present!!! I’ve been listening on repeat over and over and over!!! I’m OBSESSED!!!!! Absolute perfection!! Thank you thank you thank you thank you!!!
The way this song is going to go on repeat now is insane. I love this song! Thank you for sharing it!
I feel like this song just changed my life 😭♥️♥️♥️♥️
My birthday is tomorrow and it's always such a harsh reminder if the mom who didn't want me and the step mom who never let me forget it.. I needed this song right now.... Thank you
This song will forever live in my head, its amazing
PLEASE put this on spotify!!!
i'm late but erin!!! i love you and your brain so much. truly a force to be reckoned with WE LOVE SILVER SPOONS!
I NEED THIS ON SPOTIFY
Thank you for this. You're gonna help a lot of people heal
its been out two days and i’ve listened to it like 20 times
The amount of healing through your song. Good job, sis.
Beautiful song ❤️🔥💯🥹
i didn't know i needed this song until i heard this song
This song shines a spotlight on the void you feel when you come from childhood/generational trauma. It gives a voice to those who had to survive instead of thrive. May God bless those who relate to this song. I hope you find the people who will love you right. 🙏
Absolutely beautiful song! When I heard the snippet on TikTok I fell in love with it immediately and I’ve been binging all of your music all day! You have such a bright career ahead of you ❤
Wow, just had this come up on my feed, can't believe you let me talk to you all that time and you didn't tell me you were famous lol. You deserve it, your lyrics are as lovely as you are Erin. Have a wonderful Christmas x
insanity this feels like listening to it for the first time all over again
I’m speechless. You will make it so big, I’m glad to be here early.
I just found this and it's been on loop since
erin this is genuinely INSANE i need this song injected into my bloodstream
🎉 I have been listening to the demo from discord and I am so happy that its on RUclips now 🎉
Love this song!!!!
I can’t even explain how beautiful your lyrics are, they speak so much truth. I relate to so much of what you wrote, thank you for making this song!
Erin you’re insane this is seriously good
This healed something in me. Thank you 🫶🏻💫
oh the bridge insane insane insane u are incredible
beautiful song
what a song
Silver spoon my beloved
Almost 2 years no contact with my family. This song makes me cry everytime it hugs that lonely feeling I always have around other families… but also narcissistic parental abuse..
Ughhh I’ve been waiting for to long I love this song
I wish children didn’t have to grow up in homes without love.. 🌸💕
This needs to be released asap, us lonely kids need this ❤
This couldn’t have come out at a better time. I’m currently lying in the spare bedroom of my partners parents house, and they all love each other so much. What I wouldnt give to live like them
This song is everything. The feeling I have listening to it. I can't only imagine how it felt to write this. It's helping me so much to heal. Thank you for sharing this beautiful piece with us! ❤
Thank you for including lyrics 💜- the hard of hearing music lover
Btw your voice gives me chills and I can’t wait to see where you go in 2025 🦋
I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH!!!! pls if anyone has songs like this with similar lyrics let me know!! i wanna make a playlist of the feeling of having to watch your partner have loving parents wishing you had that !!!!
you’re insane I love this
if I had to pick one song to me a soundtrack of my life, it would be this. This song makes me feel so many things..
This song hits like no other, and your lyrics resonate with me so much. Not sure I will ever get over the line “we’re the product of love we do not receive”🥹😢❤️
Yesss!!!! Girl I will be watching on repeat ❤ I was waiting for this 😫
I NEED THIS ON SPOTIFY PLSPLSPLSPLS
I downloaded discord and SoundCloud just for this song and I have played it on repeat since then. I’m OBSESSED 😍
Same! My kids made fun of me because I was asking them how to work discord. Just to listen to this song.
You need to put this on Spotify 😩
This is so amazing. You’re incredibly talented. My new favourite song
This is so good, I got up at 4:22 AM and rushed into the next room to yell, "YOU HAVE TO LISTEN TO THIS" to my partner and now we both have it saved.
This song hits me so hard
love this song so so much erin!! you are definitely one of my favourite artists i've discovered this year, so proud of you 🤍
this ate
omg im completely in love with this song i cant stop listening to it
GO ERIN GO!
wow this is sooo freaking amazing!!!!!!
This song perfectly encompasses both sides of me & both sides of my childhood.
yes yes thank u for this!! beautiful i can’t believe u posted it
Been in repeat for days!! I'm so excited for the release soon!!
Such an incredible artist and song
you’re ethereal this is everything :,)
Heart stopping, beautifully and disgustingly wonderful!! Thank you for this ❤❤❤
Soooo beyond happy I came across your beautiful soul on my instagram. Your voice is like angels singing to my soul ❤ thank you for putting your soul and heart out for all of us to relate and love you ❤️🔥
when your italicized 'oh' moment is not when you fall in love but when you realize you're probably traumatized
i love this so much
I LOVE LOVE LOVE TIS SONG
my fav song ever
you're such a star
unreal 🪽
I love this song sm!!!
incredibly mesmerising
I love you sm queen
Obsessed.
Obsessed obsessed
TikTok showed me the story, but the story made me sit still and listen.
Silver spoons and butter knives 🤌🏻😭
only if this would be on spotify. : (((
memorized already ❤
you’re gorgeous angel i love this & i love this song so much
This is sooo good
Forever proud of you ❤
Awesome, yes, a woman of great talent. Work with Ben Bohmer was really nice. Keep on keeping on, the world is at your feet.