Brittany - thank you; thank you; thank you for your words! I am so glad to hear you're feeling better and have recognised that sometimes our attitudes are our barriers to happiness. Please let me tell you a few things about myself. I was born in late 79 and so will be 44 later this month. I've lived in Sydney all my life. I've wanted to be a girl as far back as I can remember. I've got numerous anecdotes from childhood and adolescence. When I was about 22, I started to DIY transition with oral contraceptives. I was still living at home with my parents and when my mother discovered this, her freakout was severe enough for me to stop taking the pill and to disavow my trans identity. I tried to move through life, regardless. I trudged through my PhD at a tortuously slow rate - whatever success would come my way would sting as I felt alienated from this masculine figure to whom people referred. About fifteen years ago (when I was stuck trying to complete my PhD), I started to put weight on; reaching on approx ten kilos per year, bringing me up to about 150. I managed to get back down to 140 once the obstructive sleep apnea and PhD were addressed. Still, I couldn't bring myself to care for the body I did not want. My wife and I married in 2021 after a fifteen year courtship. Committing to her in this way helped me build the confidence to better interrogate my unhappiness. At first I thought I hated my job, or couldn't forgive myself for a past long gone, but as I sought to delve deeper into my fears, I realised that I'd make a mistake in my internal identity - cis men don't suffer from gender dysphoria but once I could recognise myself as a trans woman then the pieces really started to fit. My lovely wife is supportive of my transition and glad to see me happier. My friends are likewise, and transitioning in my workplace will be no problem at all. My plan for my parents is to dress in man drag for as long as its practical. I'm seeing a gender therapist and yesterday I had my first appointment with a gender affirming GP. The doctor has flagged that it might be a good idea to also consult an endocrinologist, and I agree that this seems prudent. We did the baseline tests yesterday and I'll wait to hear further. In an ideal world, I am hoping that I might be able to continue my weight loss journey at the same time as beginning to medically transition. While I am obviously overweight to a considerable extent, my blood sugar; cholesterol; liver function etc is well within a healthy range. Perhaps you'll know what I mean when I say that while he was quite indifferent to his body, she has a much deeper and sincere commitment to good health. If there's any advice you have there then I am all ears. Still, even if you have nothing to say, please know that is incredibly heartening to watch your videos and to learn something of your journey. It inspires me to become my best self. I wish you all the best, and please don't lose sight of the wonderful parts of your journey. I don't know you but if I had to guess, based on my life, then I'd say you've had enough despair to last a lifetime - while you should not fear the negative feelings, remember that the feelings pass and that there's always more than one way to look at things. Good on you, Brittany x
Thank you for your comment and sorry it took me so long to respond. Wishing you all the best in your transition. I don’t post as much as I used to. I think that is part of the transition into becoming ourselves. Thanks again, Britt.
Thank you for your channel and love your presentation. 58 and started HRT 2 months ago. I am still in disbelief Kaiser is letting me do this - wanted all my life. I am presenting as a post-menapausal female and probably doing the pant suit and long skirt thang but do lots of contruction, motorcycle riding and other "manly" odds and ends around the house so more likely tomboyish. Makeup is still an impenetrable mystery and source of frustration and thank the gods for Goodwill. Just want to carry this through with some grace and dignity and if I can carry it off half as much as you then I am content. Some already know, most don't. Will probably loose some people but always will leave the door open. You give me such hope.
Be happy and enjoy your journey to becoming a beautiful - sexy woman. After GCS surgery you will feel happier. All the girls that I know who now have a vagina that functions are loving their lives. Hope all goes well for you in the future x
Hi Brittany So happy for you sweetie so glad your journey is still working out you will still have good and bad times no doubt but you should be proud of where you are now you are going to be the beautiful woman you are thank you for sharing your thoughts does help tc sweetie Donna xo
It's interesting Brittany how we perceive reality, what is and what isn't ,in fact we make our own reality, how we perceive ourselves is true to us.Not only do others try to make us believe what they think is correct reality but sometimes we confuse ourselves because of all the negative/false thoughts created by a "man made" reality-you are more than all right you are perfect as you are in whatever form you wish(just like fashion)Hope your feeling better soon.xx
It's so wonderful looking at you now...how satisfied & estatic you feel...I can completely get your strong vibes of how happy & set free you are now absolutely! I know this because I am exactly of your age & at your dark stage where you were some months ago, extremely Dysphoric as I feel now having allmost (fluctuating) feeling of Dysphoria over 4 decades or more. I feel I am just an invalid nobody ,living my life in limbo in some very different country with no support structure, absolutely no friends ( in isolation) , neither did i marry & without any deep pocket in financial constraints too. It's allmost end chapter for me. So I feel so good for you when you make your videos, announce your life updates & let everyone know how Great & positively life changing your Transition have been been to touch your life so strongly that you feel now so happy & so estatic always. I am honestly so so happy for you of how wonderful, beautiful & happy a woman you are now. I wish you all the Best for your life forever ! 👍👌❤️✌️
@@brittany4832 sorry if I have caused you any distress...that was least of my intention. I just went with the flow, maybe I have gate crashed & party pooped your Happy moments that you were sharing with such enthusiasm...I am extremely sorry for that. Btw, we had many a times interacted at Reddit...& I am a follower there & here too ! Wish you the Best forever ! ✌️
Brittany - thank you; thank you; thank you for your words! I am so glad to hear you're feeling better and have recognised that sometimes our attitudes are our barriers to happiness.
Please let me tell you a few things about myself. I was born in late 79 and so will be 44 later this month. I've lived in Sydney all my life. I've wanted to be a girl as far back as I can remember. I've got numerous anecdotes from childhood and adolescence. When I was about 22, I started to DIY transition with oral contraceptives. I was still living at home with my parents and when my mother discovered this, her freakout was severe enough for me to stop taking the pill and to disavow my trans identity.
I tried to move through life, regardless. I trudged through my PhD at a tortuously slow rate - whatever success would come my way would sting as I felt alienated from this masculine figure to whom people referred. About fifteen years ago (when I was stuck trying to complete my PhD), I started to put weight on; reaching on approx ten kilos per year, bringing me up to about 150. I managed to get back down to 140 once the obstructive sleep apnea and PhD were addressed. Still, I couldn't bring myself to care for the body I did not want.
My wife and I married in 2021 after a fifteen year courtship. Committing to her in this way helped me build the confidence to better interrogate my unhappiness. At first I thought I hated my job, or couldn't forgive myself for a past long gone, but as I sought to delve deeper into my fears, I realised that I'd make a mistake in my internal identity - cis men don't suffer from gender dysphoria but once I could recognise myself as a trans woman then the pieces really started to fit.
My lovely wife is supportive of my transition and glad to see me happier. My friends are likewise, and transitioning in my workplace will be no problem at all. My plan for my parents is to dress in man drag for as long as its practical. I'm seeing a gender therapist and yesterday I had my first appointment with a gender affirming GP. The doctor has flagged that it might be a good idea to also consult an endocrinologist, and I agree that this seems prudent. We did the baseline tests yesterday and I'll wait to hear further.
In an ideal world, I am hoping that I might be able to continue my weight loss journey at the same time as beginning to medically transition. While I am obviously overweight to a considerable extent, my blood sugar; cholesterol; liver function etc is well within a healthy range. Perhaps you'll know what I mean when I say that while he was quite indifferent to his body, she has a much deeper and sincere commitment to good health.
If there's any advice you have there then I am all ears.
Still, even if you have nothing to say, please know that is incredibly heartening to watch your videos and to learn something of your journey. It inspires me to become my best self. I wish you all the best, and please don't lose sight of the wonderful parts of your journey. I don't know you but if I had to guess, based on my life, then I'd say you've had enough despair to last a lifetime - while you should not fear the negative feelings, remember that the feelings pass and that there's always more than one way to look at things.
Good on you, Brittany x
Thank you for your comment and sorry it took me so long to respond. Wishing you all the best in your transition. I don’t post as much as I used to. I think that is part of the transition into becoming ourselves. Thanks again, Britt.
Thank you for your channel and love your presentation. 58 and started HRT 2 months ago. I am still in disbelief Kaiser is letting me do this - wanted all my life. I am presenting as a post-menapausal female and probably doing the pant suit and long skirt thang but do lots of contruction, motorcycle riding and other "manly" odds and ends around the house so more likely tomboyish. Makeup is still an impenetrable mystery and source of frustration and thank the gods for Goodwill. Just want to carry this through with some grace and dignity and if I can carry it off half as much as you then I am content. Some already know, most don't. Will probably loose some people but always will leave the door open. You give me such hope.
Be happy and enjoy your journey to becoming a beautiful - sexy woman. After GCS surgery you will feel happier. All the girls that I know who now have a vagina that functions are loving their lives. Hope all goes well for you in the future x
Thank you. I hope you are right 😊
Hi Brittany So happy for you sweetie so glad your journey is still working out you will still have good and bad times no doubt but you should be proud of where you are now you are going to be the beautiful woman you are thank you for sharing your thoughts does help tc sweetie Donna xo
It's interesting Brittany how we perceive reality, what is and what isn't ,in fact we make our own reality, how we perceive ourselves is true to us.Not only do others try to make us believe what they think is correct reality but sometimes we confuse ourselves because of all the negative/false thoughts created by a "man made" reality-you are more than all right you are perfect as you are in whatever form you wish(just like fashion)Hope your feeling better soon.xx
you are beautiful gorgeous amazing and wonderful xx
So happy to see that smile I know and love. So proud of you sister mine😘
You look amazing Brittney ❤❤❤❤❤
Congratulations on 21 months. You are looking great! 😊
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@@brittany4832 so nice video
It's so wonderful looking at you now...how satisfied & estatic you feel...I can completely get your strong vibes of how happy & set free you are now absolutely! I know this because I am exactly of your age & at your dark stage where you were some months ago, extremely Dysphoric as I feel now having allmost (fluctuating) feeling of Dysphoria over 4 decades or more. I feel I am just an invalid nobody ,living my life in limbo in some very different country with no support structure, absolutely no friends ( in isolation) , neither did i marry & without any deep pocket in financial constraints too. It's allmost end chapter for me. So I feel so good for you when you make your videos, announce your life updates & let everyone know how Great & positively life changing your Transition have been been to touch your life so strongly that you feel now so happy & so estatic always. I am honestly so so happy for you of how wonderful, beautiful & happy a woman you are now. I wish you all the Best for your life forever ! 👍👌❤️✌️
That is very kind, thank you ☺️. I hope you find happiness as you too deserve it.
@@brittany4832 sorry if I have caused you any distress...that was least of my intention. I just went with the flow, maybe I have gate crashed & party pooped your Happy moments that you were sharing with such enthusiasm...I am extremely sorry for that. Btw, we had many a times interacted at Reddit...& I am a follower there & here too ! Wish you the Best forever ! ✌️
@@indiglo97 not at all.