Gemma I love your channel my dad died from althzimers and took care of him for five years and he didn't know me in the last year and it broke my heart I know he is know in a better place and is happy with my mum as you said I can also feel like my dad is with me and guiding me the right thing to do love your channel take care Gemma ❤ ♥ 💙
as a mother, I can honestly say that if my daughters would feel they got a new lease of life after I passed away, that would make me smile the biggest smile up in heaven
@@rachlouise1398 Will be two years on the 27th of this month that my dad died and I'm sure they are happy when they see us smiling and try to live without them as they miss us like we them and they know it's hard but it has to be done.
@@rachlouise1398 I;m so sorry Rachel, 100 percent, guaranteed, i wouldn't want my daughters to be sad for too long, Life is for the living so live it babes!!
@@kindnessisfreebutpriceless4319 @rachel Gilbert bless you , truly , emotional outpouring is hard to do, so openly and in such honest realness. thinking of you xx
Please don’t ever apologise for being human, having feelings & talking to us about your dad! We’re all hear for you & to listen to you, I hope you’re doing okay? Hearing your story about your dad being better 1 week then bad again the week after reminded me of my grandad, keep your head up girl, I always message my grandad on Facebook when I wanna tell him anything or what him to know anything, do whatever you wanna do to help give you some closure hun & don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t write to your dad or speak about him *sending virtual hug* 🤗💞
"If the mountain seems too big today, Then climb a hill instead. If the morning brings you sadness, It's okay to stay in bed. If the day ahead weighs heavy And your plans feel like a curse, There's no shame in re-arranging, Don't make yourself feel worse. If a shower stings like needles And a bath feels like you'll drown, If you haven't washed your hair for days, Don't throw away your crown! A day is not a lifetime, A rest is not defeat. Don't think of it as failure, Just a quiet, kind retreat. It's okay to take a moment From an anxious, fractured mind. The world will not stop turning While you get realigned. The mountain will still be there When you want to try again, So climb it in your own time ...and love yourself 'til then." By Laura Ding - Edwards
Only 5 mins in but needed to pause and write this. Different circumstances I know, I've not lost a parent, but my 4 year old son passed away 8 years ago from a life long illness that was hell to watch him go through. Seeing him in pain & suffering especially at the end destroyed me. When he did pass away after a week of palliative care in hospice, I felt so guilty feeling relief. It was like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. Of course the pain of losing a child was and is absolutely beyond comprehension, but I didn't realise how much watching him suffer had built up on me. That relief of knowing he was finally out of pain and no longer suffering was so intense. And I felt so bad everytime I would describe that to people as they would take it the wrong way and think I was relieved he had gone. I would have given anything for him to still be here but not suffering the way he did and being so poorly. Your feelings are completely valid and I absolutely understand them as I've felt them. I am crying along with you. Sending you a big hug Gemma, you are amazing 💜
I am so grateful to see emotions. We think it’s better to hide them but it’s not, they’re what connect all of us living on this planet in this moment ❤️
catherine thompson not at all, I had been waiting on a 5 mins countdown to watch another yt vid and then the notification can just as it started and I was on Gemma in a flash😂💗
Your Dad must be so proud of you, I bet he’s watching over you and thinking what an amazing inspirational daughter he has, who brings so much joy to so many others. Sending love and hugs Gemma, take care xx
My Dad has cancer and I’m going through exactly what you said, I’m constantly worrying about how long he’s got left like it’s very much a ‘when’ it’ll happen not ‘if’, it’s awful but I’m so grateful you mentioned that and it’s so reassuring seeing you coming out the other side and being so strong ❤️
Yeah, my dad passed of cancer in April , I miss him every day . Never appreciate the value of a moment, until it becomes a memory. I’m the same. sit there talking to his pictures all day, then I ask dad what I should do in a situation. I feel like he guides me. 🙏😘 xxx
I had the same experience with my Mum, the hospital told her she had about 6 months and she lasted 4 years! And although I’m so grateful for that extra time, it was full of heartbreak seeing her deteriorate and wondering when the day would come. You are so right! When she passed it was devastating but I did feel a sense of relief, and that’s okay! ❤️
I’ve just discovered your channel. What you said about your dad is exactly how I feel about my mum. It was so bad living with the anxiety and pain of seeing someone you love slowly deteriorating and when she died it was heartbreaking but relieving in a way. I think that when you lose someone that important, the worst thing that could possible happen, has happened. So afterwards it’s almost like you have nothing to fear. Like you do get a new perspective. You are more resilient, you’re stronger. It makes perfect sense. Your feelings are valid. I feel them too ❤️❤️
Had to stop the video to comment again! I just wanted to say that my brother passed away 4 years ago with a brain tumour and I can completely relate to the feeling of when they are gone you can take a little bit of happiness from that just knowing they aren’t in pain anymore! Please if anyone is going through similar just know it’s a completely normal feeling and their lives should be celebrated and you shouldn’t feel shame or remorse for feeling happy about it! Glad you have spoken about it Gemma, you are an inspiration to many 💖🥰xx
I’m 53 and absolutely love your vlogs, you always make smile while watching ❤️ My heart goes out to you for the loss of your dad but don’t ever apologise for how your feeling it’s completely normal to have good and bad days, your dad will be very proud of you ❤️
You don't need to make everyone happy if it sacrifices your own happiness and causes you stress. Sometimes the best things come from things unplanned. We all appreciate your videos, and no one here would want you to be stressed making videos for us. Otherwise you won't be enjoying it anymore if you get so stressed. We all love and appreciate you and you're human and nothing is black and white, so your videos don't need to be anything but what you want them to be and what you feel you can deliver, not pressured to deliver. ❤
Oh, Gemma, I can never get bored of your vlogs. Whenever I’m in a down mood I rewatch your vlogs. They’re always so comforting! Luv u ❤️ also weekly vlogmas is plenty to satisfy us, do not worry. It’s more important to take care of yourself!
Thank you for being so open and vulnerable about your father. He was a great father, this is why you have such precious memories. My father is still alive; he was never there for me and I certainly don’t have great memories. Celebrate your amazing father ❤️
Dear Gemma! I have never been as productive working and keeping life at home well as since I have started watching your videos! You are now my favourite youtuber. Thank you for all the cozy vibes, inspiration... you are exactly the content that I needed to find on youtube. I cant wait for new videos! Love you!!
Nobody expects you to vlog daily, honestly grief isn't just the immediate aftermath it's times when you are reminded of that person in the things you do. You have to think about yourself and self care, give yourself the time you need to heal and when you feel up to it, well we'll all be here supporting you whether that's now, Christmas or in the years to come. You're doing a grand job and I bet your Dad would be so damn proud
Absolutely love your videos! Never click on anything else as fast. Do what makes you happy. You motivate my self and so many people every day. It’s normal been up and down and having bad days. Just remember it’s okay to not be okay and accepting that makes you feel better in the long run! Such a amazing and strong girl and your personality is amazing. Jaime is lucky to have such a intelligent strong women by his side. Keep being you. Your amazing 💛
Oh my god literally what you said about ur dad and being in a better place, seeing someone so fit and strong then become a different person because of an illness is heartbreaking and I’m with you !!! Xx love you Gemma xxx
So much love for you Gemma, love your videos and vlogs. Thanks for sharing your feelings about your dad and his passing.......totally get what you say about a new life! My mum passed away nearly 15 yrs ago as sad as it was it was a relief not constantly worrying about and knowing she was no longer suffering. xxx ❤️💞
I love this chill vlog,I’ve been trying to live in the present recently and it’s really helped me. Please don’t apologise for crying we’re all here for a shoulder to cry on that’s what friends do their there for u in in your highs and lows and I think this vlog really sent that message out. Also don’t worry about the vlogmass I know what ever u do you’ll make me feel in the most festive mood. Before I started watching your vlogs I didn’t feel as festive and motivated as I do now you’ve opened my eyes up so much and I truly think your my guardian angel. Love uuu 😘😘x
Please don't put yourself under too much pressure you are so wonderfully honest, both my parents are terminally ill and I find just my normal day hard so what you do is amazing sending you love and support x
Oh Gemma, I’m sending you so much love 💗 I felt the same way when my mum passed last year, it was so unbearable watching the cancer take more and more of her from us and knowing she was in so much pain, she couldn’t even sleep towards the end. About a week after it happened I had a vivid dream where my mum walked downstairs after a nap and I asked her how she felt and she said “I feel great, I’ve had the best sleep ever”, and from that point some of my sadness turned to relief. I’m so glad you’ve had that realisation, it doesn’t make the grief go away but it shows you that there is a path forwards out of the darkness. You’ll be okay my love xx
Hi Gemma. Glad to see you are taking the lessons from such a difficult time. I have lived a slower paced life for almost 6 years and I love it. I hope you get time to smell the roses now. Holiday sounds eventful! X
My nan has had dementia for 9 or 10 years and it has broken my heart seeing her decrease and now she is just a shell and it doesn’t feel like her any more. She is in a home now which is best for her. I miss her so so much. I cant remember her much before the disease but i do remember her showing me and my sister how she would do her makeup and taking out her contacts. The little things are so important. Xxx thanks for the support xxx
Visit her as much as possible because once she's gone, it will eat away at you. She might not look herself but inside somewhere, she remembers but just can't communicate everything.
Your are absolutely normal and human! My children just lost their father to cancer. Your feelings are yours and getting them out is so healthy actually. All my love to you Gemma. ❤️❤️
I see this in myself too. Especially as I’ve gotten older, I always have to plan everything in advance so that I feel more in control of my life. The problem with that is when things go wrong, it affects me more than it would have done if I didn’t set too many expectations of how I want things to go. It’s a hard habit to break! Deepest condolences to you Gemma with your Dad ❤️ You’re doing amazing ❤️
Gemma I am so so sorry for your loss. You are such a lovely girl and I love watching your videos. I just wanted to say that you obviously had a very loving relationship with your Dad - you got to spend so much precious time with him and make so many beautiful memories which will last you a life time. Your dad would definitely want you to be happy and be excited for the future! Thank you for your lovely positive videos - but don’t feel that you always have to be positive! Life isn’t always perfect and everyone has ups and downs! Sending love, Julia xx
Bless you for saying its ok to feel relief. Its the hardest emotion to feel when you loose a loved one. A beautiful friend of mine said that to me after I lost my mum to cancer. Its been 10 years theres not a day that goes by I don't think of her. And I do talk to her. Big hugs to you kia kaha (strength be with you). Just know they always want the best for you. You are an inspiration and at 41 I'm stoked to have found your channel.
Don’t apologise Gemma you’re human and going through a delicate time it’s good to let out those emotions doesn’t matter if it’s on here or in private. Often viewers forget that youtubers are human beings and can be so judgemental about everything. I’m liking this unplanned vlog 🥰
i feel you losing my mum to lung cancer last year and tgen my dad got diagnosed with a different form of Lung cancer just as we entered the palitive care phase with mum the last few years been hell . 💞 you are such a beautiful soul
Of course its okay for you to do weeky vlogmas!! Dont ever feel like your letting us down, your mental health and yourself comes first and if your not feeling up to something then thats fine. We love you very much, keep smiling xxxxxx
Congratulations on 300k!!! and heres to many more!! Take time for yourself and for your family this holiday season. We just want to see you and be there for you, whether that's on the daily, 3 times a week or once a week. Keep your head up and keep your heart strong. We love you always x
Gemma darling grief is so hard 💕 but he is still with you and will guide you. I too lost my dad and today should be my sons 18th birthday. Stay strong. Laugh cry. Just be you 💞💞💞
Oh my heart. You poor thing. I haven't even finished this and I just want to give you a big, long hug. I can't imagine your pain, but however you choose to deal with it, is ok. There is no wrong way to grieve. We all have our ways of coping. Thank you for still thinking of others during your hurt. Gemma, you are a true gem. All the love ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
You are the best a ray of sunshine in my life! Don't ever apologise for the perfectly normal human emotions, it took me years to start feeling normal after my mum passed away, sending you lots of love and hugs ❤ 🤗
sweetheart, your vlogs are amazing ! We all love you. So sorry for your dad and. If you need to cry, than cry ❤ You are the best in the world Ps. I prefer weekly vlogmas than dayli ones 😘
Best vlog yet. Gemma seriously im so happy to see you make up free natural and happy. I myself realised last year that everything I do is pointless no one cares if I wear make up on the school run or if I leave my hair u washed 1 more day. Also coming to terms finally with my size 16 figure after 3 children because I obsessed with food and calories it ruined everyday for me. Now I relax about it all and I smile more than ever before xxx
You will never be boring. Watching your videos is like sitting down with a friend, you are never boring, you are real... probably the most real person on here. That is what makes you so endearing to so many who watch you. I lost both of my parents on the same day. I never thought I could overcome that pain and loss, but it turns into something different, more tolerable as time goes on. Your dad is absolutely with you and always be. You are his legacy - he wants you to be happy and find happiness in your future. Look for him in small ways, tiny messages and small tugs at your heart, that is him. Life is not some cosmic accident, and death is not really that mysterious. He is with you always.
Your strength is admirable Gemma. And thank you for sharing your experience of dealing with this grief. It has helped me as I’m sure it has many others ❤️
All the feelings you described are completely normal and understandable. When you loose someone you love who has been very ill for a long time there is a feeling of closure, and you can grieve but can also move on from that uncertain & upsetting period. I’m pretty sure you dad would be so proud of your strength and also would want you to move forward and make the most of your life after his passing ❤️
I feel your pain so much Gemma the way you articulate your feelings is so special and heartwarming too. My Mother suffered for 5 years to cancer and the relief feeling that she was free of pain helped our family cope. You will miss him forever but one day as you take the journey through your grief the sun will shine for you again and the tears will be replaced with wonderful memories of your special Dad. Hugs💞💞
Gem, we all love you, don't feel pressured into doing anything. We all love your video's. You are not letting yourself down at all. You do you hun. We will all love it either way. Sending lots of love xx
Hey Gemma, I understand those feelings completely. I lost my Granny in 2017. She didn’t have cancer but she was getting older and her health was deteriorating. Her mental health was bad too. In her last years, she would always say upsetting things about wanting to go and feeling useless and like a burden because she had lost her ability to do anything she cared about anymore. We had to help her do everything. She was my best friend in the entire world. She was more of a parent to me than my own parents. In the end, she was in end of life care and we were just waiting and it was so hard. She could barely even speak and talking and making others laugh was her favorite thing in the world. The end of life care info booklets the hospital gave us said that sometimes they are holding on until they feel like they have permission from their loved ones to go. So in the last few days, she was sleeping and I hugged her gently, trying not to wake her, and whispered a thank you, I love you, I don’t want you to go because I’ll miss you, but I know you’re ready to stop suffering and you might be waiting for my permission and the biggest thing I’d ever want for you is to be happy again, so you can go when you’re ready. She opened her eyes and gave me the biggest hug she could with the little strength she had left. I know she’s still with me and I still talk to her in my head. I heard somewhere energy cannot be created or destroyed, it’s just transferred from one source to another and that is why I know she’s still with me, protecting and loving me, always, and so is your dad. He understands everything and wants you to be happy. He will never leave you. Thank you for talking about grieving. I wish I could have found someone to talk to when I was in the beginning of the process. I can tell you, it gets easier. When he comes up in your mind, let it flow and feel what you need to feel. I also see little signs from her often, like camellias blooming (we would always pick them for each other), certain smells, etc. I think it’s their way of showing us they’re still with us. ❤️
your inner strength is stunning, truly in awe of your wise emotional maturity and your truth and the capability discovered within, that so many of us really struggle to even consider that we can cope,let alone do so with a strength you really did not think you had, and we surprise ourselves, I often think, that is a strength that is within us anyway, but it's improvement comes to us, comfortably so, as a gift almost ,from our treasured souls . anyway, please know you are seriously so very special, x
Only just watched this. So much of what you said resonated with me. My husband passed away in 2016 from melanoma. Grief is a roller coaster and so unpredictable. Thank you for having the courage to talk so honestly about this personal experience.
You are coping with your loss really well because you choose to share your feelings and that is important. As time passes the good times you remember will come to you more readily than the last few weeks of his life. He would be very proud.🌸
My nan passed away last year after finding out she had an incurable brain tumour and she deteriorated very quickly after the diagnosis and it was awful seeing someone who lived such a healthy lifestyle deteriorate each day and look so sad. It broke us all. The worst part is I never got to say goodbye properly. I WENT INTO LABOUR with our second child on the day of her funeral, I was so upset and stressed by it all and worried that our daughters birthday would be a sad day for everyone but my mum always says its not a sad day it’s a special day because my Nan would have been so overjoyed to meet her.. I always believe they are connected. 💛
I literally bawled my eyes out at the beginning knowing how it feels to lose someone who you love & adore. I lost my dad a week after my birthday just before the country went into lockdown after a few month aggressive battle with lung cancer & he really was my best friend. You bring me so much hope and love when I watch your videos and he is always going to be so proud of you 🤍 xxx
I’m new to your Channel but am already obsessed! I lost my Mum when I was 24 and she was 52 not a day goes by that I don’t miss her, sometimes you just need your Mummy or Daddy and when they’re not there it’s unbearable. Life your life with no regrets have fun, relax and enjoy being a bright beautiful intelligent young woman that you are. Sending you love xx
Pls do not worry about daily Xmas vlogs. The first time of anything without a loved one can be very painful just take your time and look after yourself. You got to 300000 for a reason. We love you xxx
You should enjoy things because we all enjoy watching you. You get us all so motivated to look after our selves and our homes. Your lovely and keep it up. Love Helen xxx
That's how you know how much you love someone to let them go and not be here for own needs. I lost my dad I was a little older than you and he was sick as well and it was heartbreaking to watch him suffer, it's not selfish say you have a new lease on life is that you have a new appreciation on life there's a difference. Losing someone you love can make you have so many emotions never apologize for having your heart broken and something you had no control over ❤️
Yes I have the same here in southern Ireland, so many haunted places, including my shop, I hate being there on my own. I always try and leave before the rest of the staff. On rare occasions I'm there on my isn't it's so scary as I hear all sorts in the kitchen I just prey and self protection and then all is well. Theres many areas here haunted I see all sorts in the evenings on my way home, that disappears infront of my eyes so scary. As not all people can see the things, as my staff dont see or hear the things they dont believe. But I know theres some people who can sense the things not everyone has the 6th sense. May God protect us all from the things.
Iram Akhtar I hear u on that I’m from west of Ireland Galway. Now living in Boston I always sense things feel things. Honestly believe it’s something Irish people have in them. always drawn to spiritual
This is why we love you Gemma. You’re so real , pure , genuine with the most humble way about you. You’re dad would be so proud of you. Keep shining and being you✨🍁
I’m not sure if you will see this but, I know exactly how you feel, my dad passed away to cancer about 3 weeks ago and watching your videos does genuinely help me get through the day/ week. I don’t really speak to close people about it but watching you talk about how you feel makes me feel better almost as if I was talking to you about it. Thank you Gemma❤️
Love you and your chanel however sweetheart there is no such thing as perfect and theres no need to be sorry for grieving ypur dad (totally relate) give you self a break from mrs plan all and live for the moment coz you only get one crack of the wip (in life) it ant no dress rehearsal sending love and strength my love xxxx
Also never ever ever feel sorry or feel bad for not doing something. All of us want nothing more than for you to do what you feel you can. We are never going to be upset or disappointed in you so I really hope you can stop putting so much pressure on yourself. Life can really give you a kick in the ass sometimes but just know you have soooooo many people who want to be here for you and support you through everything.❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Please be careful when you’re exfoliating and be gentle, a coarse exfoliator isn’t actually that great for skin and does more harm than good. If you want a good exfoliant use a chemical exfoliant. Studied skincare for 2/3 years, and you’re skin is too gorgeous to harm Love this vlog and your vids
Crying is good for the soul Gemma. Oh wow they are always with us, I have a little Robin that comes to me most days now, find so many feathers & see so many butterflies. They are a part of us& that's their way of letting us know they are with us. Its tragically beautiful& so comforting 💛🌅✌
My grandma died 5 years this New Years my family and I never know that she had cancer she didn’t either I miss her everyday there is a days where I feel her the same with my grandad who died 2 years ago I never got to say a Proper goodbye to either of them Christmas Day is always really hard that was the last time I got to see her alive.
Aaaaw you poor love. I've lost many loved ones from various things but everything you said struck a chord so I assume that means its "normal" grief is definitely a process with lots of levels , sadness, anger, relief, more sadness, more anger , numbness ... etc. Eventually the gaps between the tears get longer and the memories make you smile instead of cry . Lots of love sweetheart xxx
Aww Gemma! Im so sorry you've lost your Dad, and especially to cancer, Cancer is Brutal! You do not never need to apologise! Let it out, speak about your Dad! Tell your stories of him and be so proud, as he will always be of you! Hell always be with you, so don't ever worry! I lost my mum when I was 7 to cancer and My Dad at 12 of a heart attack and there has never been a day since I don't speak or talk to them or think of them! Loss is a journey and takes along time to learn to live with! I am 43 now! So take all the time and do everything you need to do, its all right. Sending you lots of love! He will be looking down on you ever so proud!❤️xx
Omg do not ever be sorry for showing your emotions hun. I really hope you are ok. Your so brave to come on here and talk about it. Sending love to you and your family. Xx
Gemma your amazing and a very strong girl. I watch all your videos and I admire you. Your dad is proud of you I’m sure and looks down on you and is with you every step of the way. 💕
gemma,i literally binge ur christmas videos in august hahahah i love ur content! 💗💗
Gemma we are human we are fragile and strong at the same time 💜 love you wish you the best! 🍀🐱♥️
Gemma I love your channel my dad died from althzimers and took care of him for five years and he didn't know me in the last year and it broke my heart I know he is know in a better place and is happy with my mum as you said I can also feel like my dad is with me and guiding me the right thing to do love your channel take care Gemma ❤ ♥ 💙
as a mother, I can honestly say that if my daughters would feel they got a new lease of life after I passed away, that would make me smile the biggest smile up in heaven
My mum passed away three years ago and this just made me cry! I like to think that’s how she would feel ❤️
@@rachlouise1398 Will be two years on the 27th of this month that my dad died and I'm sure they are happy when they see us smiling and try to live without them as they miss us like we them and they know it's hard but it has to be done.
@@rachlouise1398 I;m so sorry Rachel, 100 percent, guaranteed, i wouldn't want my daughters to be sad for too long, Life is for the living so live it babes!!
@@kindnessisfreebutpriceless4319
@rachel Gilbert
bless you , truly , emotional outpouring is hard to do, so openly and in such honest realness.
thinking of you xx
@@HandleForElleJay Thank you beautiful x
This is the “Gemma is so fricking pretty” button 👉🏻
Edit: I’ve never go this many likes thank you! 💕
Please don’t ever apologise for being human, having feelings & talking to us about your dad! We’re all hear for you & to listen to you, I hope you’re doing okay? Hearing your story about your dad being better 1 week then bad again the week after reminded me of my grandad, keep your head up girl, I always message my grandad on Facebook when I wanna tell him anything or what him to know anything, do whatever you wanna do to help give you some closure hun & don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t write to your dad or speak about him *sending virtual hug* 🤗💞
I know I wasn't the only one shouting "stop saying sorry" at their screen.. 😔 Gemma, never apologise for grieving 💖
"If the mountain seems too big today,
Then climb a hill instead.
If the morning brings you sadness,
It's okay to stay in bed.
If the day ahead weighs heavy
And your plans feel like a curse,
There's no shame in re-arranging,
Don't make yourself feel worse.
If a shower stings like needles
And a bath feels like you'll drown,
If you haven't washed your hair for days,
Don't throw away your crown!
A day is not a lifetime,
A rest is not defeat.
Don't think of it as failure,
Just a quiet, kind retreat.
It's okay to take a moment
From an anxious, fractured mind.
The world will not stop turning
While you get realigned.
The mountain will still be there
When you want to try again,
So climb it in your own time
...and love yourself 'til then."
By Laura Ding - Edwards
I really liked this 🥺 thank you 😊 😍
Lovely thank you 🙏
Wow, loved this.
Beautiful and forgiving 🥰
Hope your ok love you Do not worry Gemma Christmas is on its way x
Only 5 mins in but needed to pause and write this. Different circumstances I know, I've not lost a parent, but my 4 year old son passed away 8 years ago from a life long illness that was hell to watch him go through. Seeing him in pain & suffering especially at the end destroyed me. When he did pass away after a week of palliative care in hospice, I felt so guilty feeling relief. It was like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. Of course the pain of losing a child was and is absolutely beyond comprehension, but I didn't realise how much watching him suffer had built up on me. That relief of knowing he was finally out of pain and no longer suffering was so intense. And I felt so bad everytime I would describe that to people as they would take it the wrong way and think I was relieved he had gone. I would have given anything for him to still be here but not suffering the way he did and being so poorly. Your feelings are completely valid and I absolutely understand them as I've felt them. I am crying along with you. Sending you a big hug Gemma, you are amazing 💜
Wow, this broke my heart, can't even imagine the suffering you and your family have gone through. Sending all my love and compassion your way. ❤️
You are amazing!!!
Omg,good blessed you!
I’m so sorry! All my love ❤️
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Who else loves her loooooong vlogs? It’s kinda like watching a cozy movie 🤎🏹
Same!💕
Me too! 🤗
Yesss 🤎🧸
Yes!
I am so grateful to see emotions. We think it’s better to hide them but it’s not, they’re what connect all of us living on this planet in this moment ❤️
So much love to you Gemma 💕 just know you’re the calm in so many peoples storm right now 💕
Everything stops when the Gemma Louise miles notification comes up 🧡
it sooo does,i have her on in the kitchen with me when im cooking,am i a weirdo but she feels like a friend!
catherine thompson not at all, I had been waiting on a 5 mins countdown to watch another yt vid and then the notification can just as it started and I was on Gemma in a flash😂💗
Your Dad must be so proud of you, I bet he’s watching over you and thinking what an amazing inspirational daughter he has, who brings so much joy to so many others. Sending love and hugs Gemma, take care xx
My Dad has cancer and I’m going through exactly what you said, I’m constantly worrying about how long he’s got left like it’s very much a ‘when’ it’ll happen not ‘if’, it’s awful but I’m so grateful you mentioned that and it’s so reassuring seeing you coming out the other side and being so strong ❤️
Molly Sables ❤️❤️❤️
Sending you love and strength girl!! ❤
Love to u, i lost dad wen was 11 n mum died April n couldn't go to funeral life sucks doesn't it my love x
Same, with my mum
Naezies Sending you love, we’ll get through this ❤️❤️
Yeah, my dad passed of cancer in April , I miss him every day . Never appreciate the value of a moment, until it becomes a memory. I’m the same. sit there talking to his pictures all day, then I ask dad what I should do in a situation. I feel like he guides me. 🙏😘 xxx
I had the same experience with my Mum, the hospital told her she had about 6 months and she lasted 4 years! And although I’m so grateful for that extra time, it was full of heartbreak seeing her deteriorate and wondering when the day would come. You are so right! When she passed it was devastating but I did feel a sense of relief, and that’s okay! ❤️
me too when i lost dad but more because i didnt want him to suffer and it was quick.....i miss him so much.x
Sorry for both of your losses 😞💓xx
Who else feels like they need their dose of Gemma every single day cz i do
I do
I’ve just discovered your channel. What you said about your dad is exactly how I feel about my mum. It was so bad living with the anxiety and pain of seeing someone you love slowly deteriorating and when she died it was heartbreaking but relieving in a way. I think that when you lose someone that important, the worst thing that could possible happen, has happened. So afterwards it’s almost like you have nothing to fear. Like you do get a new perspective. You are more resilient, you’re stronger. It makes perfect sense. Your feelings are valid. I feel them too ❤️❤️
Had to stop the video to comment again! I just wanted to say that my brother passed away 4 years ago with a brain tumour and I can completely relate to the feeling of when they are gone you can take a little bit of happiness from that just knowing they aren’t in pain anymore! Please if anyone is going through similar just know it’s a completely normal feeling and their lives should be celebrated and you shouldn’t feel shame or remorse for feeling happy about it! Glad you have spoken about it Gemma, you are an inspiration to many 💖🥰xx
I’m 53 and absolutely love your vlogs, you always make smile while watching ❤️ My heart goes out to you for the loss of your dad but don’t ever apologise for how your feeling it’s completely normal to have good and bad days, your dad will be very proud of you ❤️
You don't need to make everyone happy if it sacrifices your own happiness and causes you stress. Sometimes the best things come from things unplanned. We all appreciate your videos, and no one here would want you to be stressed making videos for us. Otherwise you won't be enjoying it anymore if you get so stressed. We all love and appreciate you and you're human and nothing is black and white, so your videos don't need to be anything but what you want them to be and what you feel you can deliver, not pressured to deliver. ❤
My mum and dad both had cancer so i now . It's not easy. But dont hold in your emotion. Love and hugs
Sending love to you and your sweet family ❤️ take good care
Oh, Gemma, I can never get bored of your vlogs. Whenever I’m in a down mood I rewatch your vlogs. They’re always so comforting! Luv u ❤️ also weekly vlogmas is plenty to satisfy us, do not worry. It’s more important to take care of yourself!
Thank you for being so open and vulnerable about your father. He was a great father, this is why you have such precious memories. My father is still alive; he was never there for me and I certainly don’t have great memories. Celebrate your amazing father ❤️
So excited to watch this video! Loving all the autumnal content lately! Can’t believe there has been 3 uploads this week!!! 🍂✨🤍🍁
Dear Gemma! I have never been as productive working and keeping life at home well as since I have started watching your videos! You are now my favourite youtuber. Thank you for all the cozy vibes, inspiration... you are exactly the content that I needed to find on youtube. I cant wait for new videos! Love you!!
3 uploads in a week! Gemma you truly spoil us 🥰✨
Nobody expects you to vlog daily, honestly grief isn't just the immediate aftermath it's times when you are reminded of that person in the things you do. You have to think about yourself and self care, give yourself the time you need to heal and when you feel up to it, well we'll all be here supporting you whether that's now, Christmas or in the years to come. You're doing a grand job and I bet your Dad would be so damn proud
Just woke up & perfect timing aswell! Still under the quilt & blankets super comfy & cosy & the best part... 1 HOUR VLOG 1 HOUR😍😍😍
Absolutely love your videos! Never click on anything else as fast. Do what makes you happy. You motivate my self and so many people every day. It’s normal been up and down and having bad days. Just remember it’s okay to not be okay and accepting that makes you feel better in the long run! Such a amazing and strong girl and your personality is amazing. Jaime is lucky to have such a intelligent strong women by his side. Keep being you. Your amazing 💛
Oh my god literally what you said about ur dad and being in a better place, seeing someone so fit and strong then become a different person because of an illness is heartbreaking and I’m with you !!! Xx love you Gemma xxx
Your vlogs are amazing best on RUclips in my opinion I love your planned vlogs so Cosy!💗
Don’t ever apologise about getting upset, your grieving and will for a while. Xxx
This was honestly one of my favourite vlogs of yours, I didn't want it to end! I love how unplanned it was! You seemed so natural and relaxed.
In Germany we actually have duvet covers with zips. some come with zips and some with buttons.
So much love for you Gemma, love your videos and vlogs. Thanks for sharing your feelings about your dad and his passing.......totally get what you say about a new life! My mum passed away nearly 15 yrs ago as sad as it was it was a relief not constantly worrying about and knowing she was no longer suffering. xxx ❤️💞
I love this chill vlog,I’ve been trying to live in the present recently and it’s really helped me. Please don’t apologise for crying we’re all here for a shoulder to cry on that’s what friends do their there for u in in your highs and lows and I think this vlog really sent that message out. Also don’t worry about the vlogmass I know what ever u do you’ll make me feel in the most festive mood. Before I started watching your vlogs I didn’t feel as festive and motivated as I do now you’ve opened my eyes up so much and I truly think your my guardian angel. Love uuu 😘😘x
Please don't put yourself under too much pressure you are so wonderfully honest, both my parents are terminally ill and I find just my normal day hard so what you do is amazing sending you love and support x
Best thing about Sundays 🥰🥰 aww gemma don't ever apologise for crying 💔 we are all here for you ❤ xx
Awww I am truly sorry Gemma you are a beautiful soul
Oh Gemma, I’m sending you so much love 💗 I felt the same way when my mum passed last year, it was so unbearable watching the cancer take more and more of her from us and knowing she was in so much pain, she couldn’t even sleep towards the end. About a week after it happened I had a vivid dream where my mum walked downstairs after a nap and I asked her how she felt and she said “I feel great, I’ve had the best sleep ever”, and from that point some of my sadness turned to relief. I’m so glad you’ve had that realisation, it doesn’t make the grief go away but it shows you that there is a path forwards out of the darkness. You’ll be okay my love xx
Hi Gemma. Glad to see you are taking the lessons from such a difficult time. I have lived a slower paced life for almost 6 years and I love it. I hope you get time to smell the roses now. Holiday sounds eventful! X
My nan has had dementia for 9 or 10 years and it has broken my heart seeing her decrease and now she is just a shell and it doesn’t feel like her any more. She is in a home now which is best for her. I miss her so so much. I cant remember her much before the disease but i do remember her showing me and my sister how she would do her makeup and taking out her contacts. The little things are so important. Xxx thanks for the support xxx
Visit her as much as possible because once she's gone, it will eat away at you. She might not look herself but inside somewhere, she remembers but just can't communicate everything.
Your are absolutely normal and human! My children just lost their father to cancer. Your feelings are yours and getting them out is so healthy actually. All my love to you Gemma. ❤️❤️
I see this in myself too. Especially as I’ve gotten older, I always have to plan everything in advance so that I feel more in control of my life. The problem with that is when things go wrong, it affects me more than it would have done if I didn’t set too many expectations of how I want things to go. It’s a hard habit to break!
Deepest condolences to you Gemma with your Dad ❤️ You’re doing amazing ❤️
Gemma I am so so sorry for your loss. You are such a lovely girl and I love watching your videos. I just wanted to say that you obviously had a very loving relationship with your Dad - you got to spend so much precious time with him and make so many beautiful memories which will last you a life time. Your dad would definitely want you to be happy and be excited for the future! Thank you for your lovely positive videos - but don’t feel that you always have to be positive! Life isn’t always perfect and everyone has ups and downs! Sending love, Julia xx
Bless you for saying its ok to feel relief. Its the hardest emotion to feel when you loose a loved one. A beautiful friend of mine said that to me after I lost my mum to cancer. Its been 10 years theres not a day that goes by I don't think of her. And I do talk to her. Big hugs to you kia kaha (strength be with you). Just know they always want the best for you. You are an inspiration and at 41 I'm stoked to have found your channel.
Don’t apologise Gemma you’re human and going through a delicate time it’s good to let out those emotions doesn’t matter if it’s on here or in private. Often viewers forget that youtubers are human beings and can be so judgemental about everything. I’m liking this unplanned vlog 🥰
i feel you losing my mum to lung cancer last year and tgen my dad got diagnosed with a different form of Lung cancer just as we entered the palitive care phase with mum the last few years been hell . 💞 you are such a beautiful soul
Of course its okay for you to do weeky vlogmas!! Dont ever feel like your letting us down, your mental health and yourself comes first and if your not feeling up to something then thats fine. We love you very much, keep smiling xxxxxx
Watching you do put the duvet cover on the duvet literally had me giggling 😂 that’s made my week! You’re literally my favourite 🥰♥️
Congratulations on 300k!!! and heres to many more!! Take time for yourself and for your family this holiday season. We just want to see you and be there for you, whether that's on the daily, 3 times a week or once a week. Keep your head up and keep your heart strong. We love you always x
Gemma darling grief is so hard 💕 but he is still with you and will guide you. I too lost my dad and today should be my sons 18th birthday.
Stay strong. Laugh cry. Just be you 💞💞💞
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Oh my heart. You poor thing. I haven't even finished this and I just want to give you a big, long hug. I can't imagine your pain, but however you choose to deal with it, is ok. There is no wrong way to grieve. We all have our ways of coping. Thank you for still thinking of others during your hurt. Gemma, you are a true gem. All the love ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
You making your bed was the most funny thing ever!
You are the best a ray of sunshine in my life! Don't ever apologise for the perfectly normal human emotions, it took me years to start feeling normal after my mum passed away, sending you lots of love and hugs ❤ 🤗
sweetheart, your vlogs are amazing ! We all love you. So sorry for your dad and. If you need to cry, than cry ❤ You are the best in the world
Ps. I prefer weekly vlogmas than dayli ones 😘
Best vlog yet. Gemma seriously im so happy to see you make up free natural and happy. I myself realised last year that everything I do is pointless no one cares if I wear make up on the school run or if I leave my hair u washed 1 more day. Also coming to terms finally with my size 16 figure after 3 children because I obsessed with food and calories it ruined everyday for me. Now I relax about it all and I smile more than ever before xxx
Making my cuppa and porridge so I can enjoy this properly ❤️
You will never be boring. Watching your videos is like sitting down with a friend, you are never boring, you are real... probably the most real person on here. That is what makes you so endearing to so many who watch you. I lost both of my parents on the same day. I never thought I could overcome that pain and loss, but it turns into something different, more tolerable as time goes on. Your dad is absolutely with you and always be. You are his legacy - he wants you to be happy and find happiness in your future. Look for him in small ways, tiny messages and small tugs at your heart, that is him. Life is not some cosmic accident, and death is not really that mysterious. He is with you always.
That’s exactly how I put my bedding on 🙈 also, don’t put any pressure on yourself to do daily vlogmas 🤍
Your strength is admirable Gemma. And thank you for sharing your experience of dealing with this grief. It has helped me as I’m sure it has many others ❤️
Can’t wait to watch💞 love your vlogs the most
All the feelings you described are completely normal and understandable. When you loose someone you love who has been very ill for a long time there is a feeling of closure, and you can grieve but can also move on from that uncertain & upsetting period. I’m pretty sure you dad would be so proud of your strength and also would want you to move forward and make the most of your life after his passing ❤️
I’m glad I’m not the only one that makes the bed like that lol. X
I feel your pain so much Gemma the way you articulate your feelings is so special and heartwarming too. My Mother suffered for 5 years to cancer and the relief feeling that she was free of pain helped our family cope. You will miss him forever but one day as you take the journey through your grief the sun will shine for you again and the tears will be replaced with wonderful memories of your special Dad. Hugs💞💞
The old Gemma was lovely but I love the new mindset. I wish you the best for the future and I hope you can find peace x
I love that Tilly doesn’t know how much she is helping you through this difficult time in your life - a little fluffy angel xx
“Shes a waterproof cat”😂🐱love your vlogs!
Gem, we all love you, don't feel pressured into doing anything. We all love your video's. You are not letting yourself down at all. You do you hun. We will all love it either way. Sending lots of love xx
Hey Gemma, I understand those feelings completely. I lost my Granny in 2017. She didn’t have cancer but she was getting older and her health was deteriorating. Her mental health was bad too. In her last years, she would always say upsetting things about wanting to go and feeling useless and like a burden because she had lost her ability to do anything she cared about anymore. We had to help her do everything. She was my best friend in the entire world. She was more of a parent to me than my own parents. In the end, she was in end of life care and we were just waiting and it was so hard. She could barely even speak and talking and making others laugh was her favorite thing in the world. The end of life care info booklets the hospital gave us said that sometimes they are holding on until they feel like they have permission from their loved ones to go. So in the last few days, she was sleeping and I hugged her gently, trying not to wake her, and whispered a thank you, I love you, I don’t want you to go because I’ll miss you, but I know you’re ready to stop suffering and you might be waiting for my permission and the biggest thing I’d ever want for you is to be happy again, so you can go when you’re ready. She opened her eyes and gave me the biggest hug she could with the little strength she had left. I know she’s still with me and I still talk to her in my head. I heard somewhere energy cannot be created or destroyed, it’s just transferred from one source to another and that is why I know she’s still with me, protecting and loving me, always, and so is your dad. He understands everything and wants you to be happy. He will never leave you.
Thank you for talking about grieving. I wish I could have found someone to talk to when I was in the beginning of the process. I can tell you, it gets easier. When he comes up in your mind, let it flow and feel what you need to feel. I also see little signs from her often, like camellias blooming (we would always pick them for each other), certain smells, etc. I think it’s their way of showing us they’re still with us. ❤️
your inner strength is stunning, truly in awe of your wise emotional maturity and your truth and the capability discovered within, that so many of us really struggle to even consider that we can cope,let alone do so with a strength you really did not think you had, and we surprise ourselves, I often think, that is a strength that is within us anyway, but it's improvement comes to us, comfortably so, as a gift almost ,from our treasured souls .
anyway, please know you are seriously so very special, x
Only just watched this. So much of what you said resonated with me. My husband passed away in 2016 from melanoma. Grief is a roller coaster and so unpredictable. Thank you for having the courage to talk so honestly about this personal experience.
Congrats on 300k 🥳!!!
You are coping with your loss really well because you choose to share your feelings and that is important. As time passes the good times you remember will come to you more readily than the last few weeks of his life. He would be very proud.🌸
My nan passed away last year after finding out she had an incurable brain tumour and she deteriorated very quickly after the diagnosis and it was awful seeing someone who lived such a healthy lifestyle deteriorate each day and look so sad. It broke us all. The worst part is I never got to say goodbye properly. I WENT INTO LABOUR with our second child on the day of her funeral, I was so upset and stressed by it all and worried that our daughters birthday would be a sad day for everyone but my mum always says its not a sad day it’s a special day because my Nan would have been so overjoyed to meet her.. I always believe they are connected. 💛
you are phenomenal.truly.
Nanny would be so proud ❤️
I literally bawled my eyes out at the beginning knowing how it feels to lose someone who you love & adore. I lost my dad a week after my birthday just before the country went into lockdown after a few month aggressive battle with lung cancer & he really was my best friend. You bring me so much hope and love when I watch your videos and he is always going to be so proud of you 🤍 xxx
305k subscribers well done I remember when you wanted to reach a much smaller number x
I’m new to your Channel but am already obsessed! I lost my Mum when I was 24 and she was 52 not a day goes by that I don’t miss her, sometimes you just need your Mummy or Daddy and when they’re not there it’s unbearable. Life your life with no regrets have fun, relax and enjoy being a bright beautiful intelligent young woman that you are. Sending you love xx
Loving the vlogs 😍
Pls do not worry about daily Xmas vlogs. The first time of anything without a loved one can be very painful just take your time and look after yourself. You got to 300000 for a reason. We love you xxx
I used Limewire omg memories 😂🤣 I mucked up my computer so many times 🙈 x
You should enjoy things because we all enjoy watching you. You get us all so motivated to look after our selves and our homes. Your lovely and keep it up. Love Helen xxx
Clicked so fast 🥰❤️xxx
That's how you know how much you love someone to let them go and not be here for own needs. I lost my dad I was a little older than you and he was sick as well and it was heartbreaking to watch him suffer, it's not selfish say you have a new lease on life is that you have a new appreciation on life there's a difference. Losing someone you love can make you have so many emotions never apologize for having your heart broken and something you had no control over ❤️
I live in wales I love wales but there are lots of “haunted” places around here a lot of dark dark places
Yes I have the same here in southern Ireland, so many haunted places, including my shop, I hate being there on my own. I always try and leave before the rest of the staff. On rare occasions I'm there on my isn't it's so scary as I hear all sorts in the kitchen I just prey and self protection and then all is well. Theres many areas here haunted I see all sorts in the evenings on my way home, that disappears infront of my eyes so scary. As not all people can see the things, as my staff dont see or hear the things they dont believe. But I know theres some people who can sense the things not everyone has the 6th sense. May God protect us all from the things.
Iram Akhtar I hear u on that I’m from west of Ireland Galway. Now living in Boston I always sense things feel things. Honestly believe it’s something Irish people have in them. always drawn to spiritual
i live in wales too
This is why we love you Gemma. You’re so real , pure , genuine with the most humble way about you. You’re dad would be so proud of you. Keep shining and being you✨🍁
Yes 1 hour while I get ready 🤩🥰
I’m not sure if you will see this but, I know exactly how you feel, my dad passed away to cancer about 3 weeks ago and watching your videos does genuinely help me get through the day/ week. I don’t really speak to close people about it but watching you talk about how you feel makes me feel better almost as if I was talking to you about it.
Thank you Gemma❤️
Love you and your chanel however sweetheart there is no such thing as perfect and theres no need to be sorry for grieving ypur dad (totally relate) give you self a break from mrs plan all and live for the moment coz you only get one crack of the wip (in life) it ant no dress rehearsal sending love and strength my love xxxx
Also never ever ever feel sorry or feel bad for not doing something. All of us want nothing more than for you to do what you feel you can. We are never going to be upset or disappointed in you so I really hope you can stop putting so much pressure on yourself. Life can really give you a kick in the ass sometimes but just know you have soooooo many people who want to be here for you and support you through everything.❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Please be careful when you’re exfoliating and be gentle, a coarse exfoliator isn’t actually that great for skin and does more harm than good. If you want a good exfoliant use a chemical exfoliant.
Studied skincare for 2/3 years, and you’re skin is too gorgeous to harm
Love this vlog and your vids
Crying is good for the soul Gemma. Oh wow they are always with us, I have a little Robin that comes to me most days now, find so many feathers & see so many butterflies. They are a part of us& that's their way of letting us know they are with us. Its tragically beautiful& so comforting 💛🌅✌
Don’t ever apologise we love you!
Are you still friends with Sophie, missing her in the vlogs.❤️
There's no way that friendship suddenly ends, they've been super close for years
VioletxPurple Didn't you see the last video?
There still friends , Yes its strange but there still friends;)
Gemma its not cliche to feel your dad’s presence, its beautiful 🍁❤️🍂sending you all the love and blessings.
My grandma died 5 years this New Years my family and I never know that she had cancer she didn’t either I miss her everyday there is a days where I feel her the same with my grandad who died 2 years ago I never got to say a Proper goodbye to either of them Christmas Day is always really hard that was the last time I got to see her alive.
Aaaaw you poor love. I've lost many loved ones from various things but everything you said struck a chord so I assume that means its "normal" grief is definitely a process with lots of levels , sadness, anger, relief, more sadness, more anger , numbness ... etc. Eventually the gaps between the tears get longer and the memories make you smile instead of cry . Lots of love sweetheart xxx
This was a fab vlog! Thank you Gemma 🤍🤍🤍 loved seeing what you do day to day, your little beach trip etc xxxx
Aww Gemma! Im so sorry you've lost your Dad, and especially to cancer, Cancer is Brutal! You do not never need to apologise! Let it out, speak about your Dad! Tell your stories of him and be so proud, as he will always be of you! Hell always be with you, so don't ever worry! I lost my mum when I was 7 to cancer and My Dad at 12 of a heart attack and there has never been a day since I don't speak or talk to them or think of them! Loss is a journey and takes along time to learn to live with! I am 43 now! So take all the time and do everything you need to do, its all right. Sending you lots of love! He will be looking down on you ever so proud!❤️xx
Omg do not ever be sorry for showing your emotions hun. I really hope you are ok. Your so brave to come on here and talk about it. Sending love to you and your family. Xx
Gemma your amazing and a very strong girl. I watch all your videos and I admire you. Your dad is proud of you I’m sure and looks down on you and is with you every step of the way. 💕