This song and video is extremely personal to me. As a child I was physically and mentally abused. Which caused me to become extremely depressed and suicidal. I always thought that I was the problem, that I must of done something so wrong to deserve that type of abuse from a person who was supposed to love me and didn’t see any other way out. It’s the reason I started wearing makeup because I thought if I looked like a different person ,I would become a different person. A person that stands up for themselves. I somehow made it out alive and so grateful everyday that I did. If you or anyone else that you know is going through something similar please make a stand or be a friend because you could save a life. -Remington Leith
When I was younger and my Parents were having one of their fights I'd either go hide with my Sisters or if they weren't home I'd shut myself in the coat closet and cover my ears, after they got divorced and my Mom married my Stepdad they'd rarely fight but when they did it was the same thing I'd run and hide in a Closet and cover my ears until the screaming stopped or put in headphones and turn the volume up, still to this day I'm 26 and I hear yelling or arguing from anyone it's like a Switch and I'll just try to find someplace to hide out until it stops. I've had many attempts in my life and I've gotten to the point where I'm just passively Suicidal I don't want to die I just don't want to live in pain and fear anymore and at times it feels like there's only one option
So many times, over my fathers gun, I was thinking how little my life mean to me and had to say to myself, that "I can´t leave my pets alone...". Now I am saying over my gun "I can´t leave my husband with our cats and mortgage alone, he won´t be able to handle it". But in same time another voice is telling "Just do it, he will be better without you. You lost your job. You can´t have a baby, but he can and he wants one so badly, but he can never toss you away, so it is yout duty to set him free".
in may of 2020, i was more depressed than i’d ever been. someone i had considered to be my friend had done something truly terrible to me and i felt alone. i felt like i couldn’t talk to anyone because of that on top of being under quarantine. the week i found palaye royale i had spent hours crying and begging for my life to end. i found palaye by chance, this video came up and i found a new community. one that made me realize i wasn’t alone. the album came out and i had something to look to for joy and for a moment to forget what was going on in my life. i’ve heard people say before that a band had saved their lives and i never thought i would say that, but this song and this album and this band did save my life. over a year later i am still so proud of you guys and all you have done and will continue to do. thank you🖤❤️
Thanks for sharing. People do care even if they don't show it. I feel for you. Idk u but u would be missed if u weren't here. Life is precious and as such should be cherished. Keep ya head up, there's always dark before u can see the light. Stay alive.
Lyrics ❤️ So sick and tired of being alone So long, farewell, I'm on my own I'm sorry mom, I've got to go I dug this grave I call my home My life don't mean that much to me So I'm living for you Yeah, I'm living for you And you can't stand the sight of me So what's the point of this Fucked up catastrophe? I'm waiting for my time to start As I waste it As I waste it I pop the pills to waste some time As I'm faded As I'm faded This shit messes with my head The only home I know is my bed Too lazy for suicide I just watch the days pass hoping to die So sick and tired of being alone So long, farewell, I'm on my own I'm sorry mom, I've got to go I dug this grave I call my home So sick and tired of being alone So long, farewell, I'm on my own I'm sorry mom, I've got to go I dug this grave I call my home Daydreaming of my funeral Like who would show, bet no one would go Hey dad, would you show up for me now? Just to bury your little boy in the ground You broke my heart when you left me Was just waiting Was just waiting I pop these pills to waste some time As I'm faded As I'm faded This shit messes with my head The only home I know is my bed Too lazy for a suicide I just watch the days pass hoping to die So sick and tired of being alone So long, farewell, I'm on my own I'm sorry mom, I've got to go I dug this grave I call my home So sick and tired of being alone So long, farewell, I'm on my own I'm sorry mom, I've got to go I dug this grave I call my home I dug this grave I call my home I dug this grave!
They don't want you to keep living in the pain, they want you to fight the pain and eventually get out of misery because they care about you and don't want to lose you.
Yeah they just want you to live so they don’t have to suffering from the lose. That’s extremely selfish when they can’t even feel and care your pain, and force you to live and fight alone
@@timerman52Most suicide aren't actually from a planned death. These are impulsive actions from being somewhat overwhelmed and triggered by a small spark. These people turns a blind eye to the signs till it's too late.
It is the most selfish act one can do and ur a piece of shit if u do it. There are a few exceptions but for the crybabies who are just depressed and mentally pathetic ppl no excuses for that shit
I agree completely... and yes. it perfectly expresses the state of this young persons mindfulness and not heartless, just less Heart and more Spirit. Beautifully done. 🤔🎶🎼🎶🕺🏃💥💃💃✊☝🤞🙏😎💞
*Smashing Pumpkins:* "Farewell and Goodnight" *My Chemical Romance:* "So long and Goodnight" *Palaye Royale:* "So long, farewell" MCR was heavily inspired by Smashing Pumpkins. Palaye Royale was heavily inspired by MCR. I'm not saying this is an intentional reference, but the pattern is beautiful.
I get depressed but I never get suicidal. But I just want to say that whoever else is struggling out there, just know that you're not alone. We're in this together. P.s. I love Palaye Royale so much!
@@user-unlckshmf вы сейчас пытаетесь сказать, что эта песня нравится только суицидникам? Интересно, выходит, что фильмы про маньяков смотрят только маньяки, а нормальные люди предпочитают сопли с сахаром? Ай, как однобоко. П.с Ромео и Джульетта - тоже про суицид, если что. Но нравится абсолютно всем
@@CineraryFairy Ромео и Джульетта была всегда была про любовь,про какой там суицид....по такой логике-в любом фильме чел умирает от собственной руки-фильм про суицид...браво!
"The only home I know it's my bed" That lyric, THAT LYRIC, summarize perfectly what it's like to have deppression or anxiety. When you are sourrounded of shit, of a sadness so deep that touches your soul, the only thing that comforts you it's your room, your stuff, and above all, your bed.
this song is so haunting. its not like their usual 'hard guitars, screaming lyrics' this song is hauntingly mellow with very dark undertones in the melody and lyrics edit: for anyone who might take this comment the wrong way, I meant it as it's a good change from what they usually do and its very well executed
@@AikaKitsune Oh Gosh! Don't speak like that... They have each other and they are brothers. None of them would do such thing. Oww horrifying. Still sad for Chester :(
As someone who recently turned 15 and has gone through so much physical and mental abuse from my parent, this song is really personal to me. Honestly if I was a character in movie, this would totally be my theme song. So thank you #PalayeRoyale for making this masterpiece
People who don't know them: "Palaye Royale are satanists" Me: "Ah, yes, they've got songs about gun violence and abuse awareness. Totally satanic." Palaye Royale saves lives. I just wanna reiterate.
Just found their music today, been binge listing since. I'm so confused. Who the hell thinks they are satanists? Kinda dark, but definitely not satanic.
I can't stop thinking how Sebastian must have felt when he heard this song for the first time as a big sister and being the person who took care of my little sisters most of the time I can relate to him so much and I know he has been the father figure to both Remington and Emerson I can't even imagine how he must have felt when he heard what his little brother been through and imagine him dead.. shit I just teared up
I was just thinking like about both Emerson and Seb how they must have felt both for this song but also just them all growing up together.... my heart aches for them all.
In an interview Em said that Sebastian was a sort of father figure to them, so yeah... it must be very difficult to both of them listen to this song. I can also imagine that they went through the same type of abuse and that make my heart broke so much.
@@ginevrasmeriglio4241 I know I watched that interview Remington - not in that one just genera l- say it too that's the reason why I thought about Sebastian
Exactly why i prefer to create my family, full of people i choose to love I hope you already have yours too Brazilian hugs for you ❤🇧🇷 (and sorry for the bad english lol)
To anyone who relates to this song hard... I’m sorry. Free virtual mom hugs. Edited to add: Holy crap!! Thank you for all the likes!!! Free hugs for all! 🫂🫂🫂🫂
Fucking hell, this almost made me burst out crying. This was the song I heard by them, and I was in such a horrible place. It just perfectly described my depression and feelings of rejection/isolation. So many of their other songs just describe depression so well, and so beautifully. I immediately fell in love, obsessed, and this song plus the rest of theirs severely helped me get through it.. and start to regain strength. 💕
@@shavawnirvine5419 art can be amazing therapy. I write when I’m struggling. It really helps. Sorry you were in such a rough spot, hope things are better now. Extra virtual mom hug for you.
I think the most beautiful thing is when someone turns their pain into art or in what they are talented with Instead of suiciding. The inner wound of father abandonment goes deep into the soul.
I so can relate....my parents should have be the last 2 people on earth to ever have kids!!!! our father didn't want my sister or myself but wanted his son, our mother married my molester, then had my brother quit high school so he can financially support her, she allowed my underage sister to get married to a man that divorced her and left her nothing but the clothes on her back and their son!!!!
"My life don’t mean that much to me , So I’m living for you" this song hits way too close... I'm living because I don't want her to suffer, I'm literally going to college just cause she wants me to
это очень хорошо..нет... ЭТО ИДЕАЛЬНО! Сама музыкальная композиция очень хороша я уж не говоря про посыл и смысл. Она пробивает до мурашек сколько бы раз это не слушал. Видно что песня действительно сделана с душой.
It is sad to know how much families destroys future lives of their children even not noticing it. I had the same situation and I know what is like to be on a place of this litlle boy (1:51). You just sitting there, hearing angry screams, trying to hold on and eventually becoming absolutely indifferent to everything and everyone around you.
TW: Emotionally Abusive Father mention(just in case): Wow, I literally cried watching this. I just recently started going to therapy and my therapist made me realize that my father really was so emotionally abusive. Almost all of my anxiety and other issues is rooted in how he treated me, my older brother and my mom when I was young. The parents fighting hit so fucking close to home. I have such foggy memories that I can just barely of my parents fighting that still fuck me up. I never wanted to admit that what he did was abuse, even though it clearly was looking back. But I was a kid, and didn’t understand. And my father was emotionally abusive, a narcissist, and manipulative. He lied and said horrible shit about my mother and her side of the family to manipulate me, Even now, I can’t handle people fighting or loud noises because of him. Palaye Royale has been such a help for me and one of my biggest coping mechanisms, especially recently as my mental health has started deciding more. I met you guys last year in Baltimore and you were all so fucking sweet and amazing. So, thank you guys. So much.
Im so proud of you for taking the steps going to therapy and admitting what hurts to you. You’re on the right path, love and there are many that relate to you. Much love, A soldier of The Royal Council
this. I've gone through not the same, but a very similar experience to what I understand you have. you aren't alone and now I don't feel so alone either. thank you for sharing your story it means a lot
I think it's no often mentioned that one of the worse things about abuse is when the victim can't realise that they're being abused, even if it happens clearly in front of us, sometimes because it's about a person who you got along pretty well and you shared a lot of personal moments. That doesn't justify the fact that they treat you and make you feel like shit (at this point I'm sharing my experience), but you don't do nothing because you love that person in a way. In my case, time made me realise that a lot of my shit was because I was held down by that person, like I wouldn't meet anyone except for him because, according to him, no one was as important as him, therefore there was no point apparently. Now I can assure you by looking back, I actually hated him, but I didn't want to admit it. Now I'm in a much happier place in my life, even though it's hard for me to keep going, but I'm not looking forward to cease any time soon.
this hits me. as a severely closeted trans guy, hearing my parents insult me because of my wardrobe choices and my short hair, coupled with so many other issues in my life, i feel this. These lyrics are my exact thoughts "Too lazy for a suicide, I just watch the days pass hoping to die" "Daydreaming of my funeral. Like who would show bet no one would go" "The only home I know is my bed"
Don't worry about peoples views . You know who you are and it's up to you to show that to the world . People will always love you , and if people can't love you for you , who needs them . You will find your tribe and the people who really care . Best of luck with your Transition and any other issues your having . I don't know you but I Care . Be safe and let yourself be loved ♥️♥️♥️
This song really does keep me going. It hits on a lot of things in my life that I feel have shaped me into this person I hate. If I could restart, I would in a heartbeat.
Never really listened to this band before till last year… he is very beautiful singer on how he views his life . So ppl do not really know till they see it for themselves or lived it. Please pray for the ones that don’t have anyone ❤️
~Too lazy for a suicide My life's quote to be honest UPDATE : Wow guys, thanks for all these likes and hope you all get through all that shit. You are not alone❤️
Did anyone else notice the name of the field that he is digging his grave in is called "soldier field"? They call their fans soldiers of the royal council. "I dug this grave I call my home." WE are his home.😭
This song has helped me a lot lately, I have been stuck in my head so much thinking about how I grew up in a home that was not a safe place. It made me realize that I used so much to help me forget everything feeling like I was alone watching my own life pass by me. It gave me the push I needed to get back up and try again because I am not alone going through this. Thank you for helping me be here today , thank you for saving me so I may help others with this
"Look at him, he's a coward" Ohh boy, that one hit different. *PS: Although those words hit different, he was right. I was a coward. Without him, I wouldn't be the man I am today and I'm glad he is the way he is.*
A "coward" boy who grew up He didn't take his life He didn't put other people down He created in a world of destruction He inspired those who lost hope He gave people a reason to smile He gave people a reason to laugh He gave people love and hope when they were alone He trusted people He helped make sure we don't leave That "coward" is no coward, he's a savior. He saved me at least. I wish I could thank him.
remington, this is a masterpiece. as someone who has gone through a similar experience, i thank you so much for making a song about it, it feels like im less alone with this. so glad that you were able to make it through to today
i’m not crying, i’m not crying i- i won’t say i have a similar experience but i do understand the feelings of rejection when your parents fight and you have no reason to think it’s not your fault. and it never has been our fault. i mean, not the kid’s fault. i can understand some of the things in here but i hate knowing that you’ve been through all that shit, but hey, you survived. so everyone can. sending emo love to everyone > 🖤
We all do somehow i guess. " to lazy for a suicide' thats my last 10 years. And i have some pills on my table right now ...No joke. And i dont get even high anymore. Wasted.
I used to get hit a lot by my father, and since he didn’t have a job, he was able to always do it when my mother wasn’t home, and therefore get away with it, (I’m an only child). I didn’t tell anyone until I was 14, because he told me, that it wasn’t abuse but instead just discipline and that it was my own fault for being disobedient. I also got bullied a lot by this group of girls in school, who claimed that they were just my friends, even though they called me names, locked me into a locker and told everyone else lies about me, when I told my father, he said that I was just a coward for not standing up for myself. When I finally told everything to a psychiatrist after a long battle with anorexia, she confronted my parents. My father said that I was just a filthy liar, and nearly no one believed me after that. So this song also hits right at home with me.
Every word in this lyrics hits so hard, its just so real. And the music video which shows all the traumas from childhood… It really helps me, because I know I’m not alone with what I feel and what I experienced. I’m working and fighting for myself, I really wish that someday I will feel safe and happy
i noticed the place he calls home is the field called THE SOLDIERS which means his fans are a huge part of his ;ife. In the field we notice his brothers and his girlfriend, Monica Ollander. Basically... I think the way he falls into the grave (graves=eternal sleep, received eternal peace) means he finally found the place he calls home, with his brothers and soulmate. And the Soldiers of the Royal Council. Update: thank you so so so much for agreeing. I am an attentive person and I notice things extremely easily.
Oh jeez. I didn't put that together. I was wondering why the grave was in a football field. I didn't notice the field was called soldiers. Dang that makes sense now.
im so sorry you were treated the way you were when you were younger, we can’t change the past but you’re changing the future- some people take their abuse and turn into bad people that hurt others. you’re such a unique individual, and chose to stay true to yourself which in turn inspired so many others in the process. this song is so raw and emotional and i’m sure it hit so personally with many members of the royal council. by simply being yourself, you’ve helped so many helpless people including myself through the same struggle. i’m so, so proud of you for sticking to being yourself and even prouder that you were strong enough to still be here with us today. you’re a gift to the world, remington. please never forget that because we royal council will always be here to support who you are.
Reagan Gaynor right I was listening to some punk rock and this ad poped up I immediately went to the song very catchy gonna buy every album now great music thank you RUclips
As someone who's still struggling with childhood trauma, this hits me right in the core. I feel the lyrics and I feel for Remington. But also for Sebastian and Emerson. Don't really know what to say, but I feel this song and it's definitely one of my favourites now. Thanks to this band for being so open and honest through their music.
I'm so sorry for what you had to go through, I know how hard that is!! But believe me, you are such a strong person and you deserve the best in life! ❤
i'm here before the premiere, (listening to floral & fading) with popcorn, tissues and dr pepper. i will edit after watching :-) edit: i'm sobbing so much i couldn't even move to get the tissues. i dont know what to say. this was amazing but also im crying so much
"Daydreaming of my funeral, like who would show, bet no one would go." this line hit me very hard cause this is what I would do every night before bed while I was extremely depressed while I also made plans on what would be the quickest way to go out. *Edit* I want the people who see this comment to know that it does get better. Life may fluctuate between good and bad but please hang on to the good memories and the reassurance that the good will come back. 2020 is a pain in the ass but hey, you made it this far so why not keep going. tell 2020 (or whatever you are facing) that it won't break you. You are strong and you are worth fighting for. Please believe me.
@@kimifydesigns Thank you so much for that! You have no idea how much that means to me. I am glad that you are in this world too and I hope you know you are appreciated. Stay strong friend.❤
in freshman year of college my boyfriend text dumped me and blocked me on everything after I had known him since freshman year of high school and with him knowing he was my only support system I had. I was already somewhat depressed when he dumped me and afterwards it got like 40 times worse. i had never self harmed before this but I started doing it and even took like 20 ibuprofen tablets right before work after seeing him for the first and last time after the break up. my biggest thought I had at this time was knowing if I killed myself my body wouldn't be found until it started to smell because no one ever cared enough to talk to me, not even my roommate who's boyfriend and been verbally abusive to me for a while with her full knowledge. depression really sucks huh?
I am so sorry Remington you had to go through that and I know what you mean because I was abused too many years or almost whole my life... But this music video and song, and you means a lot for me right now ! Thank you you speak about that. Sending love and hugs ! x
These boys saved my life. This song has been on repeat since it came out for me. I haven’t listened to any other music, only this song. I found out about these boys in July 2017. I was at such a low point in my life, I was going to end it. I was prepared and I was playing music loudly. It was on a Spotify radio and Too Many People came on. I stopped and listened. I cried and asked myself why I was doing this. Palaye Royale inspired me to not do it. I was self harming nearly everyday and it took me a while but in September that year I stopped for good. I haven’t self harmed now in 2 years and 6 months. I’m the happiest I’ve ever been and I was so close to meeting the boys when I was on a exchange trip to Madrid two days ago. These boys stopped me from doing what i now consider the unimaginable. This song is so beautiful and these lyrics hit close to home but they remind me of what I’ve overcome to be as happy as I am today. I love you boys with all my heart. My parents are grateful to you as well. They constantly tell me that they don’t know what changed in that July but they say you saved me and I agree with them. I owe you boys my life. I can’t believe I’m about to turn 18 in August when i never though I’d reach 16 let alone 17. I have your posters on my walls and your music in my heart. I love you boys and I can’t wait to meet you in the future to thank you in person and give you all hugs. I am truly grateful to you. I’m the happiest I’ve ever been and I am about to go to uni to start my dream career. You saved me and I love you xx
Kathrin Dick WOW. Thank you for your words and we apologize about not being able to get to play in Madrid for you and the wonderful Spanish fans due to coronavirus. We promise we will make the show extra special in September. You have a family with us and you are loved. x
When the little kid turned into Remington I was just like “oh...o h...*oh*” and realized it’s a song about their father. More specifically I think it’s that his father thought Remington (and possibly all three of them but specifically rem) was “too feminine” (from the dress and the father calling the boy a coward) and how it pushed Rem to self harm and depression (and possibly a suicide attempt). My thought is that in their other videos, it’s always been the three of them taking on an issue but maybe it being focused on Remington with his brothers and the group of people symbolizes Remington feeling like they’re outsiders looking on the issue. Emerson seems to stand up and possibly try to help? But we don’t actually see any action taken. It’s an interesting video for sure that outlines issues with abuse and the various issues that come from it along with dealing with depression (as seems to be a running theme in most of their videos).
When he has the rest of the band and that girl in those group jackets with Emerson smoking is it supposed to symbolize being an outsider? Maybe being bullied during school because he was "different"?
@@ivyhawk7776 yeah! Maybe it's suggesting that Remmy thought that if the version of himself that his dad didn't like (his true self) wasn't there and he became what his dad wanted... Then his family would be happy and perfect
this hit real close to home. my dad was never verbally or physically abusive so I thought I had a good childhood until my parents divorced a few years ago and I realized how he is so manipulative and kinda brainwashed me when I was younger to be anxious, look down on people, and be homophobic. Kinda had to get to a breaking point and go to therapy before those things were fixed, specifically the anxiety one because I was always terrified of travelling and leaving home. thanks Remington, you truly mean the world to all of us❤️
I didn't understand there were other types of abuse than physical until I was about 7 and had already endured a few years of mental/emotional abuse from my dad. When I was 22 or 23 I really started digging into my mental state and unearthed a bunch of side effects from dealing with that for a decade and a half. I still haven't spoken to a therapist but I have had some insane realizations. I totally understand looking back on what you think is a normal, even pretty good, childhood just to finally realize how fucked up you are and why.
I love how this comment section is becoming a therapy session. I spread a lot of love for you guys, stay safe loves and remember that the Royal Council is there for you all.🖤🖤🖤
Hey, I don't know you but your life matters and you are precious and lovable. I'm so sorry for your loss, fuck this virus. If you can, reach out for help! *virtual hug*
How are you? Are you ok? Listen, you can't pick your family, but you can pick your friends. The Royal Council are your friends and we are a family. I am rooting for you. You are important and you matter. I am here to talk, if you need it.
This song has been oddly comforting for me these last few months. I lost my big brother and this was one of our favorite songs(we were very similar I many different ways) he told me once it’s like they heard his inner monologue and made a song and music video out of them. As much as it breaks my heart it helps me to know this song helped him and I can feel close to him even tho he’s gone
1:51 Genuinely got shivers watching this part... It's so well choreographed. Seems like truly genuine rage in the family. This situation (not exactly disagreements between the parents, but screaming in the house) is probably exactly what led to me having depression. Can't wait to get out of this hellhole
Seeing the evolution of this band is truly incredible. I'm so sorry u had to experience the trauma, but the way u express it is a damn masterpiece. This hit home
I have only lived these passed year for my sister we are the only family we really got and if I go she’d follow. Thinking of taking such an amazing person with me who deserve nothing but the best hurts. So I live to see her grow
okay i LOVE this song, but did anyone else's heart drop while their body had a weirdly uncomfortable/scared reaction to the parents fighting? no just me? shit
I can really relate to this song. I haven't been abused, but I've been emotionally neglected by my parents. I have a lot of problems with my mental health, but they just ignore it and pretend like I'm perfectly fine. My friends and I aren't as close as we used to be, and I haven't had a close, close friendship in a really long time. I feel like all of this is my fault and I self-harm because I feel like I deserve it. Thank you so much for this song, it really means a lot to me.
Somebody Nobody thank you for sharing your story, i hope you're doing better now. i've been struggling with selfinjury for three years, and recently its at its worst. we can get through it together (:
Hope u are doing good Remeber that us all the fans are here to support everyone and the boys please take care and you can count with us 💖 ( srry if i make any mistakes or if i have bothered u )
People can't be trusted these days. I've gone through same shit and still going through it. Music keeps people like us keep going. I don't have any close friends either, the ones I had always betrayed and left for no reason. The world can be a shitty place most of the times but always remember if you're good, you fucking deserve to live and make this shit better for others. The only thing you should never lose is your good heart. Leave the world with a smile on your face. Leave the world like a hero when your time comes, doesn't matter if you're alone even at your funeral. Keep moving Keep living You've always got yourself!🤘🏻
This song gets me thru the day, I live in an abusive household and I've struggled with depression and suicidal thoughts for over 9 years. Having something I can relate to helps a lot. This band saved my life
I have BPD this hits so hard (ha of course it would) but in my episodes when I’m trying to cope, before (undeading myself) how I’d miss all their music
Anyone else completely freeze when the parents start yelling at each other? Just waiting for it to be over or escalate, you never know which it'll be...
This song and video is extremely personal to me. As a child I was physically and mentally abused. Which caused me to become extremely depressed and suicidal. I always thought that I was the problem, that I must of done something so wrong to deserve that type of abuse from a person who was supposed to love me and didn’t see any other way out. It’s the reason I started wearing makeup because I thought if I looked like a different person ,I would become a different person. A person that stands up for themselves. I somehow made it out alive and so grateful everyday that I did. If you or anyone else that you know is going through something similar please make a stand or be a friend because you could save a life.
-Remington Leith
Remington, I'm so sorry you had to go through that, but I'm really excited for the song, I can already feel that it's going to make me cry
so proud of you all and super excited for the new era X❤️🖤
I'm so proud of you! Happy that you got this all through but also very sorry that you had to go through that:c. Love you x
Im thankful you came through the other side of it all and are here still.
I’m so proud of you and I can relate. Love you ❤️
"too lazy for a suicide" hits very differently when you actually used this exact wording to describe your situation SO many times
Life is so hard sometimes. We now it, you have to ve harder. You have our support, we will fight together
This was felt from me
the EXACT words
Or too scared
So you just waiting for death
When a song is so deep they give you a help line
They do this on so many good songs yet they literally put you on hold 😭
@@easternoodles7058 oof...
I came today because I knew it was there
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It hits hard when you think you hear your parents fighting again but you then realise it's just the music video
I'm sorry to hear that
hope the situation with your parents is better, or at least you're moving out
@keroseme Fuck i feel that
When I was younger and my Parents were having one of their fights I'd either go hide with my Sisters or if they weren't home I'd shut myself in the coat closet and cover my ears, after they got divorced and my Mom married my Stepdad they'd rarely fight but when they did it was the same thing I'd run and hide in a Closet and cover my ears until the screaming stopped or put in headphones and turn the volume up, still to this day I'm 26 and I hear yelling or arguing from anyone it's like a Switch and I'll just try to find someplace to hide out until it stops.
I've had many attempts in my life and I've gotten to the point where I'm just passively Suicidal I don't want to die I just don't want to live in pain and fear anymore and at times it feels like there's only one option
Had me looking over my shoulder and tensing up and I'm not even at home.
“too lazy for suicide i just watch the days pass hoping to die”
the definition of my life
Same
So we have the same
Same here
😂💀💀 i mean… i guess, yeah.
same
“My life don’t mean that much to me so I live it for you”
it’s just so honest and true for people who deal with suicidal thoughts and depression
It sure as hell applys to me. Probably because I am depressed and suicidal
Yeah its like 100% true
lmao the main reason I'm alive is because I promised my friend we'd stay alive together
So many times, over my fathers gun, I was thinking how little my life mean to me and had to say to myself, that "I can´t leave my pets alone...".
Now I am saying over my gun "I can´t leave my husband with our cats and mortgage alone, he won´t be able to handle it".
But in same time another voice is telling "Just do it, he will be better without you. You lost your job. You can´t have a baby, but he can and he wants one so badly, but he can never toss you away, so it is yout duty to set him free".
That line hit me deep.
in may of 2020, i was more depressed than i’d ever been. someone i had considered to be my friend had done something truly terrible to me and i felt alone. i felt like i couldn’t talk to anyone because of that on top of being under quarantine. the week i found palaye royale i had spent hours crying and begging for my life to end. i found palaye by chance, this video came up and i found a new community. one that made me realize i wasn’t alone. the album came out and i had something to look to for joy and for a moment to forget what was going on in my life. i’ve heard people say before that a band had saved their lives and i never thought i would say that, but this song and this album and this band did save my life. over a year later i am still so proud of you guys and all you have done and will continue to do. thank you🖤❤️
The quarantine fucked my inner world. I felt you🙌
you speak for many of us 💖
👍
Thanks for sharing. People do care even if they don't show it. I feel for you. Idk u but u would be missed if u weren't here. Life is precious and as such should be cherished. Keep ya head up, there's always dark before u can see the light. Stay alive.
@@teodoraplop1196 thank u kind friend
Lyrics ❤️
So sick and tired of being alone
So long, farewell, I'm on my own
I'm sorry mom, I've got to go
I dug this grave I call my home
My life don't mean that much to me
So I'm living for you
Yeah, I'm living for you
And you can't stand the sight of me
So what's the point of this
Fucked up catastrophe?
I'm waiting for my time to start
As I waste it
As I waste it
I pop the pills to waste some time
As I'm faded
As I'm faded
This shit messes with my head
The only home I know is my bed
Too lazy for suicide
I just watch the days pass hoping to die
So sick and tired of being alone
So long, farewell, I'm on my own
I'm sorry mom, I've got to go
I dug this grave I call my home
So sick and tired of being alone
So long, farewell, I'm on my own
I'm sorry mom, I've got to go
I dug this grave I call my home
Daydreaming of my funeral
Like who would show, bet no one would go
Hey dad, would you show up for me now?
Just to bury your little boy in the ground
You broke my heart when you left me
Was just waiting
Was just waiting
I pop these pills to waste some time
As I'm faded
As I'm faded
This shit messes with my head
The only home I know is my bed
Too lazy for a suicide
I just watch the days pass hoping to die
So sick and tired of being alone
So long, farewell, I'm on my own
I'm sorry mom, I've got to go
I dug this grave I call my home
So sick and tired of being alone
So long, farewell, I'm on my own
I'm sorry mom, I've got to go
I dug this grave I call my home
I dug this grave I call my home
I dug this grave!
Thaaaanks
This band deserves the world and nothing less I swear
the world is a terrible place.
Barbara Petrov no, ppl is..... but not all of them
AGREED
The world and then some
Universe**
You'll Be Fine: "Cause mama say don't go"
Lonely: "I'm sorry, mom, I've got to go"
:'(
Carter Atwell you are “on your own” just count in how meny songs is this prase
awww :(
“Suicide is so selfish”
The selfish thing is that you want the person in pain to keep living that pain
They don't want you to keep living in the pain, they want you to fight the pain and eventually get out of misery because they care about you and don't want to lose you.
very much agree... the person is asking for help in silent yet they just turned a blind eye but then would call it selfish..
Yeah they just want you to live so they don’t have to suffering from the lose. That’s extremely selfish when they can’t even feel and care your pain, and force you to live and fight alone
@@timerman52Most suicide aren't actually from a planned death. These are impulsive actions from being somewhat overwhelmed and triggered by a small spark. These people turns a blind eye to the signs till it's too late.
It is the most selfish act one can do and ur a piece of shit if u do it. There are a few exceptions but for the crybabies who are just depressed and mentally pathetic ppl no excuses for that shit
damn he sang through heart and we can feel it in his voice
based on real experience after all
This Song perfectly shows emptiness, loneliness, sadness, it touches my heart
Agreed
Try hurt by nine inch nails, the creep factor of that song is fuckin haunting
I agree completely... and yes. it perfectly expresses the state of this young persons mindfulness and not heartless, just less Heart and more Spirit. Beautifully done. 🤔🎶🎼🎶🕺🏃💥💃💃✊☝🤞🙏😎💞
It touches mine as well.
@@The-EnderBee ppappppppppñ♧♧
*Smashing Pumpkins:* "Farewell and Goodnight"
*My Chemical Romance:* "So long and Goodnight"
*Palaye Royale:* "So long, farewell"
MCR was heavily inspired by Smashing Pumpkins. Palaye Royale was heavily inspired by MCR. I'm not saying this is an intentional reference, but the pattern is beautiful.
I would like to give I a like, But I'm scared of breaking that perfect 200
A lot of their earlier music is like a mashup of MCR and Buckcherry but they're starting to deviate into a more unique sound and I love it.
I want to like this comment but it has 599 likes xD
So long, farewell...
AUF WIEDERSEHEN GOODBYEEEE
@@extendoduck LMAO STOP I KEEP THINKING THE SAME THING
I get depressed but I never get suicidal. But I just want to say that whoever else is struggling out there, just know that you're not alone. We're in this together.
P.s. I love Palaye Royale so much!
Same. Thanks. I am failing a life deciding exam repeatedly. But still i try every year with new energy by convincing myself.
yeah, alone together
Песня: О Боже, я хочу умереть
Ютуб: предлагает номер горячей линии
Я: просто тащусь с этого парня и этой песни)
Наслаждаться этой песней уже что-то да говорит ✌️
@@user-unlckshmf вы сейчас пытаетесь сказать, что эта песня нравится только суицидникам? Интересно, выходит, что фильмы про маньяков смотрят только маньяки, а нормальные люди предпочитают сопли с сахаром? Ай, как однобоко.
П.с Ромео и Джульетта - тоже про суицид, если что. Но нравится абсолютно всем
@@CineraryFairy Ромео и Джульетта была всегда была про любовь,про какой там суицид....по такой логике-в любом фильме чел умирает от собственной руки-фильм про суицид...браво!
Реальность: номера горячих линий не работают и только для вида (по крайней мере в моей постсовковой стране)
@cypherpunk 01 без негатива,но я даже не понял на какой вопрос ответил неизвестный мне шизоид
"The only home I know it's my bed"
That lyric, THAT LYRIC, summarize perfectly what it's like to have deppression or anxiety. When you are sourrounded of shit, of a sadness so deep that touches your soul, the only thing that comforts you it's your room, your stuff, and above all, your bed.
that is a lyric, not a verse, but yes. that is something that a lot of people who experience depression feel. no doubt.
That is so true I have depression and I've been through a lot of shit in my life.. and all that makes me happy is my bed and my music so yeah
Asking Alexandria-" Alone In A Room" feeling depressed & anxiety ugh. I know how that feels..
Yes im only comfortable in my room or late evening in my house kitchen, because in thoese places I can be alone relaxing without nobody stalking me.
the sun prevented me in bed, and I covered myself with a blanket. Long time in bed
this song is so haunting. its not like their usual 'hard guitars, screaming lyrics' this song is hauntingly mellow with very dark undertones in the melody and lyrics
edit: for anyone who might take this comment the wrong way, I meant it as it's a good change from what they usually do and its very well executed
I like the screaming and the guitars though this is beautiful aswell
I know, it's so different but they did it very well
I like when bands try to do heavier music.. but the last time I heard a song like this was... Heavy by Linkin Park.
I loved the melody and it’s amazing
@@AikaKitsune Oh Gosh! Don't speak like that... They have each other and they are brothers. None of them would do such thing. Oww horrifying. Still sad for Chester :(
Anybody in 2024 ??
Bro it's only 4 years old so of course people are still here 10/10
Yep me
I’m trying sd.
THEREEE!
OFC
As someone who recently turned 15 and has gone through so much physical and mental abuse from my parent, this song is really personal to me. Honestly if I was a character in movie, this would totally be my theme song. So thank you #PalayeRoyale for making this masterpiece
People who don't know them: "Palaye Royale are satanists"
Me: "Ah, yes, they've got songs about gun violence and abuse awareness. Totally satanic."
Palaye Royale saves lives. I just wanna reiterate.
Totally agree, also awesome pfp!! Full metal Alchemist is awesome!
@@chloethepooh123 Thanks! Glad you like it.
Just found their music today, been binge listing since.
I'm so confused. Who the hell thinks they are satanists? Kinda dark, but definitely not satanic.
@@SackTheBaggins some people in twitter do. Btw, welcome to the royal council :)
@@CmmnWrldDmntn huh, mind boggling they would think that.
Thanks for the welcome :)
I can't stop thinking how Sebastian must have felt when he heard this song for the first time as a big sister and being the person who took care of my little sisters most of the time I can relate to him so much and I know he has been the father figure to both Remington and Emerson I can't even imagine how he must have felt when he heard what his little brother been through and imagine him dead.. shit I just teared up
oh my god I didn't think of that... as a big sister yeah that thought wrecks me
I was just thinking like about both Emerson and Seb how they must have felt both for this song but also just them all growing up together.... my heart aches for them all.
In an interview Em said that Sebastian was a sort of father figure to them, so yeah... it must be very difficult to both of them listen to this song. I can also imagine that they went through the same type of abuse and that make my heart broke so much.
@@tintinelliot yeah me too I focused on Em and Sebastian to see their reaction it broke my heart because I can relate to both em, sebatian and rem
@@ginevrasmeriglio4241 I know I watched that interview Remington - not in that one just genera l- say it too that's the reason why I thought about Sebastian
This song hits me extremely deep from my entire childhood ever since I was born. I didn't really have a loving supporting family.
❤❤hang in there! i hope it gets better for you very soon.
Exactly why i prefer to create my family, full of people i choose to love
I hope you already have yours too
Brazilian hugs for you ❤🇧🇷 (and sorry for the bad english lol)
To all my friends listening to this song, the world is a better place with you in it.
Dont give up! I wont even though its hard sometimes.
To anyone who relates to this song hard... I’m sorry. Free virtual mom hugs.
Edited to add: Holy crap!! Thank you for all the likes!!! Free hugs for all! 🫂🫂🫂🫂
hug accepted
Fucking hell, this almost made me burst out crying. This was the song I heard by them, and I was in such a horrible place. It just perfectly described my depression and feelings of rejection/isolation. So many of their other songs just describe depression so well, and so beautifully. I immediately fell in love, obsessed, and this song plus the rest of theirs severely helped me get through it.. and start to regain strength. 💕
@@shavawnirvine5419 art can be amazing therapy. I write when I’m struggling. It really helps. Sorry you were in such a rough spot, hope things are better now. Extra virtual mom hug for you.
when you said "MOM hugs", im crying AAAAAA thank you
Thanku
The shoveling is actually a metaphor for Remington unearthing all of our deeply buried childhood trauma
Γεια..!
Επιτέλους μία ελληνίδα που ακούει palaye royale
@@candyninja2722 γειαα :)
Τους αγαπώ απλά🖤😍
Let's build an army! Λέω palaye royale και είναι όλοι με μια έκφραση του τύπου "who??"
@@crazyechelon3 Ακριβώς.. το ίδιο με Black Veil Brides, MCR, Motionless in White, SWS κλπ Ας μη μιλήσω για BMTH που όλοι τους ξέρουν ως Pop 😬
Πόσο σε νιώθω δε μπορείς να φανταστείς...the pretty reckless, crown the empire, icon for hire, get scared, sixx:a.m κανένας
I think the most beautiful thing is when someone turns their pain into art or in what they are talented with Instead of suiciding. The inner wound of father abandonment goes deep into the soul.
This song should've been more viral it truly opens peoples minds to be kind to everyone no matter what 😞
A piece of advice, if you can’t give a good future to your kids.. DON’T make them!
i think following antinatalism is better
I so can relate....my parents should have be the last 2 people on earth to ever have kids!!!! our father didn't want my sister or myself but wanted his son, our mother married my molester, then had my brother quit high school so he can financially support her, she allowed my underage sister to get married to a man that divorced her and left her nothing but the clothes on her back and their son!!!!
Sometimes parents wanna give a good future to them but society fucks them up and things out of their control
Wish my parents would have taken this advice
@@lizsmith1796 bro wtf
"My life don’t mean that much to me
, So I’m living for you" this song hits way too close... I'm living because I don't want her to suffer, I'm literally going to college just cause she wants me to
I'm sorry☹️
I'm sorry, and also same
Same...
@@lauraday6853 we have the same last name
Same and I'm sorry...
это очень хорошо..нет... ЭТО ИДЕАЛЬНО! Сама музыкальная композиция очень хороша я уж не говоря про посыл и смысл. Она пробивает до мурашек сколько бы раз это не слушал. Видно что песня действительно сделана с душой.
Это ты еще Татьяну Буланову не слушал
These guys are so underrated!!! My daughter introduced them to me. Awesome band!
"Hey dad would you show up for me now, just to bury your little boy in the ground"
Lindsey Cline that line hits so hard
It really does hit hard...
It is sad to know how much families destroys future lives of their children even not noticing it. I had the same situation and I know what is like to be on a place of this litlle boy (1:51). You just sitting there, hearing angry screams, trying to hold on and eventually becoming absolutely indifferent to everything and everyone around you.
@@vadim_voron yea that part made me panic a bit because i thought it was coming from irl
that line always fucking hurts
TW: Emotionally Abusive Father mention(just in case): Wow, I literally cried watching this. I just recently started going to therapy and my therapist made me realize that my father really was so emotionally abusive. Almost all of my anxiety and other issues is rooted in how he treated me, my older brother and my mom when I was young. The parents fighting hit so fucking close to home. I have such foggy memories that I can just barely of my parents fighting that still fuck me up. I never wanted to admit that what he did was abuse, even though it clearly was looking back. But I was a kid, and didn’t understand. And my father was emotionally abusive, a narcissist, and manipulative. He lied and said horrible shit about my mother and her side of the family to manipulate me, Even now, I can’t handle people fighting or loud noises because of him. Palaye Royale has been such a help for me and one of my biggest coping mechanisms, especially recently as my mental health has started deciding more. I met you guys last year in Baltimore and you were all so fucking sweet and amazing. So, thank you guys. So much.
Im so proud of you for taking the steps going to therapy and admitting what hurts to you. You’re on the right path, love and there are many that relate to you. Much love, A soldier of The Royal Council
this. I've gone through not the same, but a very similar experience to what I understand you have. you aren't alone and now I don't feel so alone either. thank you for sharing your story it means a lot
Stay strong u are doing the best for you the royale council loves and adores you
Im here for you. We dont deserve such parents
I think it's no often mentioned that one of the worse things about abuse is when the victim can't realise that they're being abused, even if it happens clearly in front of us, sometimes because it's about a person who you got along pretty well and you shared a lot of personal moments. That doesn't justify the fact that they treat you and make you feel like shit (at this point I'm sharing my experience), but you don't do nothing because you love that person in a way.
In my case, time made me realise that a lot of my shit was because I was held down by that person, like I wouldn't meet anyone except for him because, according to him, no one was as important as him, therefore there was no point apparently.
Now I can assure you by looking back, I actually hated him, but I didn't want to admit it. Now I'm in a much happier place in my life, even though it's hard for me to keep going, but I'm not looking forward to cease any time soon.
This song hits every box how I often feel. It is also a certified banger that goes on repeat.
Эта песня слишком лична не только для Ремингтона... Она будет близка каждому человеку, который видел некоторое дерьмо в этой жизни....
😂😂😂😂😂
Ага, канешна
this hits me. as a severely closeted trans guy, hearing my parents insult me because of my wardrobe choices and my short hair, coupled with so many other issues in my life, i feel this. These lyrics are my exact thoughts
"Too lazy for a suicide, I just watch the days pass hoping to die"
"Daydreaming of my funeral. Like who would show bet no one would go"
"The only home I know is my bed"
hello. i too am a trans boy, out but supremely fucked up in many ways, i don't know you but i love you and you aren't alone
Don't worry about peoples views . You know who you are and it's up to you to show that to the world . People will always love you , and if people can't love you for you , who needs them . You will find your tribe and the people who really care . Best of luck with your Transition and any other issues your having . I don't know you but I Care . Be safe and let yourself be loved ♥️♥️♥️
Giuliana Trotta I UNDERSTAND AND I LOVE U
I'm in the same situation :(
you’re going to be ok and there’s so many people who love you and will accept you for you are. keep pushing through ❤️❤️❤️❤️
I can already tell that this is going to wreck me
Update: IT WRECKED ME
River Royale you okay?
it’s been like a day chill
It wrecked me too 😭
I'm dead as fuck! This is a big mood 😂
River Royale yungblud. And hopefully, you’re ok now
This song really does keep me going. It hits on a lot of things in my life that I feel have shaped me into this person I hate. If I could restart, I would in a heartbeat.
Never really listened to this band before till last year… he is very beautiful singer on how he views his life . So ppl do not really know till they see it for themselves or lived it. Please pray for the ones that don’t have anyone ❤️
~Too lazy for a suicide
My life's quote to be honest
UPDATE : Wow guys, thanks for all these likes and hope you all get through all that shit. You are not alone❤️
Same bro
Same
Sad 200 people can relate to this :( edit 500:( late 2020 edit 3000.
@@zsaz4453 Truly
Same
Did anyone else notice the name of the field that he is digging his grave in is called "soldier field"? They call their fans soldiers of the royal council. "I dug this grave I call my home." WE are his home.😭
this is such a cute thing. i love them too much.
Omg
😤
Wow this is very interesting. Hello from Russia, I love you all
It still hits home
This song has helped me a lot lately, I have been stuck in my head so much thinking about how I grew up in a home that was not a safe place. It made me realize that I used so much to help me forget everything feeling like I was alone watching my own life pass by me. It gave me the push I needed to get back up and try again because I am not alone going through this. Thank you for helping me be here today , thank you for saving me so I may help others with this
"Look at him, he's a coward"
Ohh boy, that one hit different.
*PS: Although those words hit different, he was right. I was a coward. Without him, I wouldn't be the man I am today and I'm glad he is the way he is.*
A "coward" boy who grew up
He didn't take his life
He didn't put other people down
He created in a world of destruction
He inspired those who lost hope
He gave people a reason to smile
He gave people a reason to laugh
He gave people love and hope when they were alone
He trusted people
He helped make sure we don't leave
That "coward" is no coward, he's a savior. He saved me at least.
I wish I could thank him.
I do not get how a father can say this to his son.... He is a just a kid.... men can cry... and they should show their emotions... not just women....
facts💀
Fr mannn
My dad’s a lot like that to.. but Remi is so strong for making it through. It’s hard.
remington, this is a masterpiece. as someone who has gone through a similar experience, i thank you so much for making a song about it, it feels like im less alone with this. so glad that you were able to make it through to today
It's amazing when you are clicking on random videos and land on one that hits deep af. Needed this.
This whole video is a pure piece of art
If you've been this low before, you know this song hits different and swings to your gut like a baseball bat. I love it.
I feel you
Yep sure does. Been there many times
It really does
This song is hitting me like a freight train I relate too hard to this and it’s kind of scary.
Strawberry Fairydust it brings back memories I wish to forget. But I’m glad it does cause if I forget them I might repeat them.
i’m not crying, i’m not crying
i-
i won’t say i have a similar experience but i do understand the feelings of rejection when your parents fight and you have no reason to think it’s not your fault. and it never has been our fault. i mean, not the kid’s fault. i can understand some of the things in here but i hate knowing that you’ve been through all that shit, but hey, you survived. so everyone can.
sending emo love to everyone > 🖤
Thank you for the emo love🖤
Rylee Dun you’re welcome!
hey, thanks ❤️
This song just hits differently.. and goosebumps all the way. Thank you for this masterpiece. Truly amzing 🫶🏻
"Too lazy for a suicide,passing days hoping to die"this.
Little jumbled but same thing
3:09 The dude did a "death" gesture with his drumstick... The tiny details
wow
yes, I also noticed and found their attention to that incredible
Oh, yeah, I saw that. I just didn't pay attention to it. 😂
that was badass af idk why tho
he aslo did it two more times afterwarsd
Literally the best band in the world .X
Royalcouncil. trash.x wrong
Not the best but still cool
twenty one pilots
@@greekrockwell They are a lot closer
That tune in the end made me cry.
at 1:50 I legit paused the video so fast, and my head _jerked_ toward my door because I thought it was my parents' voices...
I think the most haunting lyric is “I’m sorry mom I’ve got to go” I can’t tell you how many ‘notes’ I wrote starting like that as a teenager
this song hits way too close to home. while i’m not abused, i’m still depressed as shit. i’m sorry Remington had to go through all that.
We all do somehow i guess. " to lazy for a suicide' thats my last 10 years. And i have some pills on my table right now ...No joke. And i dont get even high anymore. Wasted.
I used to get hit a lot by my father, and since he didn’t have a job, he was able to always do it when my mother wasn’t home, and therefore get away with it, (I’m an only child). I didn’t tell anyone until I was 14, because he told me, that it wasn’t abuse but instead just discipline and that it was my own fault for being disobedient. I also got bullied a lot by this group of girls in school, who claimed that they were just my friends, even though they called me names, locked me into a locker and told everyone else lies about me, when I told my father, he said that I was just a coward for not standing up for myself. When I finally told everything to a psychiatrist after a long battle with anorexia, she confronted my parents. My father said that I was just a filthy liar, and nearly no one believed me after that. So this song also hits right at home with me.
@@Webster020 🤗🤗
storys like that, from alot if people i know, and mine at the top...god gives a fuck or Nietzsche us right idk idk.imo.
@Tercy Dabady i did alot bad shit i guess i deserve it
Every word in this lyrics hits so hard, its just so real. And the music video which shows all the traumas from childhood… It really helps me, because I know I’m not alone with what I feel and what I experienced. I’m working and fighting for myself, I really wish that someday I will feel safe and happy
This is a sad happy song.. love it
I LOVE YOU MY PIRATE, VAMPIRE, AND GENTLEMAN
i noticed the place he calls home is the field called THE SOLDIERS which means his fans are a huge part of his ;ife. In the field we notice his brothers and his girlfriend, Monica Ollander. Basically... I think the way he falls into the grave (graves=eternal sleep, received eternal peace) means he finally found the place he calls home, with his brothers and soulmate. And the Soldiers of the Royal Council.
Update: thank you so so so much for agreeing. I am an attentive person and I notice things extremely easily.
Nathalie Turi omg I didn’t even notice Monica 😳🥺
Oh jeez. I didn't put that together. I was wondering why the grave was in a football field. I didn't notice the field was called soldiers. Dang that makes sense now.
@@kahlahutchcroft sometimes overthinking comes in handy
@neamht07 yeah
Thanks this is all I think about now😂
All stages of my life have felt this way! Thanks for putting it into words! What a poetic song and video!
so proud of this community and remington hes dealt with so much and the royal council i just want to say im proud of you all even a year later
im so sorry you were treated the way you were when you were younger, we can’t change the past but you’re changing the future- some people take their abuse and turn into bad people that hurt others. you’re such a unique individual, and chose to stay true to yourself which in turn inspired so many others in the process. this song is so raw and emotional and i’m sure it hit so personally with many members of the royal council. by simply being yourself, you’ve helped so many helpless people including myself through the same struggle. i’m so, so proud of you for sticking to being yourself and even prouder that you were strong enough to still be here with us today. you’re a gift to the world, remington. please never forget that because we royal council will always be here to support who you are.
This song is the only ad I haven’t ever skipped it’s such a good song
Reagan Gaynor right I was listening to some punk rock and this ad poped up I immediately went to the song very catchy gonna buy every album now great music thank you RUclips
Same
This song was an ad, before I watched The Ghost Inside's "Aftermath" video.
When I got this as an add I literally almost cried,I love this song
This was an ad??? Damn RUclips Australia got some catching up to do
This is great song that finally feels right, existing but not living just watching everyday go by, nothing and nobody caring about you.
This song explained everyway I felt and feel that I couldn’t put into words
As someone who's still struggling with childhood trauma, this hits me right in the core. I feel the lyrics and I feel for Remington. But also for Sebastian and Emerson. Don't really know what to say, but I feel this song and it's definitely one of my favourites now. Thanks to this band for being so open and honest through their music.
Yes indeed. Its one of my favorites as well.
Yes me too
I'm so sorry for what you had to go through, I know how hard that is!! But believe me, you are such a strong person and you deserve the best in life! ❤
Kind of off topic but Remi looks adorable in that dress
Frrrrrrrr
Omg yeah, he looks so hot in that dress!
TRUTH
YAS
Is there a artistic significance to the dress at all?
I used to listen to this song when I was at my lowest. Now I came back here with new thoughts and new point of view on my life :)
Congrats!
"the only home i know is my bed" nailed it for me right there.
i'm here before the premiere, (listening to floral & fading) with popcorn, tissues and dr pepper.
i will edit after watching :-)
edit: i'm sobbing so much i couldn't even move to get the tissues. i dont know what to say. this was amazing but also im crying so much
"Daydreaming of my funeral, like who would show, bet no one would go." this line hit me very hard cause this is what I would do every night before bed while I was extremely depressed while I also made plans on what would be the quickest way to go out.
*Edit*
I want the people who see this comment to know that it does get better. Life may fluctuate between good and bad but please hang on to the good memories and the reassurance that the good will come back. 2020 is a pain in the ass but hey, you made it this far so why not keep going. tell 2020 (or whatever you are facing) that it won't break you. You are strong and you are worth fighting for. Please believe me.
Glad you are doing well. STAY STRONG! This world deserves you!
@@kimifydesigns Thank you so much for that! You have no idea how much that means to me. I am glad that you are in this world too and I hope you know you are appreciated. Stay strong friend.❤
For this motivation you deserve to be in a better world than this. Keep it up :)
@@tekato6694 Thank you so much!! This means the world to me! Seriously. I hope life is treating you well and I hope you are staying strong!
in freshman year of college my boyfriend text dumped me and blocked me on everything after I had known him since freshman year of high school and with him knowing he was my only support system I had. I was already somewhat depressed when he dumped me and afterwards it got like 40 times worse. i had never self harmed before this but I started doing it and even took like 20 ibuprofen tablets right before work after seeing him for the first and last time after the break up. my biggest thought I had at this time was knowing if I killed myself my body wouldn't be found until it started to smell because no one ever cared enough to talk to me, not even my roommate who's boyfriend and been verbally abusive to me for a while with her full knowledge. depression really sucks huh?
This song just broke me... Thank you for the release
I am so sorry Remington you had to go through that and I know what you mean because I was abused too many years or almost whole my life... But this music video and song, and you means a lot for me right now ! Thank you you speak about that. Sending love and hugs ! x
These boys saved my life. This song has been on repeat since it came out for me. I haven’t listened to any other music, only this song. I found out about these boys in July 2017. I was at such a low point in my life, I was going to end it. I was prepared and I was playing music loudly. It was on a Spotify radio and Too Many People came on. I stopped and listened. I cried and asked myself why I was doing this. Palaye Royale inspired me to not do it. I was self harming nearly everyday and it took me a while but in September that year I stopped for good. I haven’t self harmed now in 2 years and 6 months. I’m the happiest I’ve ever been and I was so close to meeting the boys when I was on a exchange trip to Madrid two days ago. These boys stopped me from doing what i now consider the unimaginable. This song is so beautiful and these lyrics hit close to home but they remind me of what I’ve overcome to be as happy as I am today. I love you boys with all my heart. My parents are grateful to you as well. They constantly tell me that they don’t know what changed in that July but they say you saved me and I agree with them. I owe you boys my life. I can’t believe I’m about to turn 18 in August when i never though I’d reach 16 let alone 17. I have your posters on my walls and your music in my heart. I love you boys and I can’t wait to meet you in the future to thank you in person and give you all hugs. I am truly grateful to you. I’m the happiest I’ve ever been and I am about to go to uni to start my dream career. You saved me and I love you xx
Kathrin Dick WOW. Thank you for your words and we apologize about not being able to get to play in Madrid for you and the wonderful Spanish fans due to coronavirus. We promise we will make the show extra special in September. You have a family with us and you are loved. x
you're lucky💘hope the best for all of us🙏🏻
Alex Lol Palaye Royale are amazing, I love them so much! Sending love
This made me tear up, I'm so glad you're still here
Rain Glow I didn’t mean to make you tear up! I’m so happy honestly. I’m glad I’m still here too, much love back bubba💗
When the little kid turned into Remington I was just like “oh...o h...*oh*” and realized it’s a song about their father. More specifically I think it’s that his father thought Remington (and possibly all three of them but specifically rem) was “too feminine” (from the dress and the father calling the boy a coward) and how it pushed Rem to self harm and depression (and possibly a suicide attempt). My thought is that in their other videos, it’s always been the three of them taking on an issue but maybe it being focused on Remington with his brothers and the group of people symbolizes Remington feeling like they’re outsiders looking on the issue. Emerson seems to stand up and possibly try to help? But we don’t actually see any action taken. It’s an interesting video for sure that outlines issues with abuse and the various issues that come from it along with dealing with depression (as seems to be a running theme in most of their videos).
I think Get Higher is definitely connected to this one. Likeeeee if you look at the lyrics it's the same story essentially
When he has the rest of the band and that girl in those group jackets with Emerson smoking is it supposed to symbolize being an outsider? Maybe being bullied during school because he was "different"?
Or ya could just read what Remington posted in the first place below the video 🤷♂️ just an idea
@@ivyhawk7776 yeah! Maybe it's suggesting that Remmy thought that if the version of himself that his dad didn't like (his true self) wasn't there and he became what his dad wanted... Then his family would be happy and perfect
A W I agree
No matter how much my life changes, I'll always end up here.
this hit real close to home. my dad was never verbally or physically abusive so I thought I had a good childhood until my parents divorced a few years ago and I realized how he is so manipulative and kinda brainwashed me when I was younger to be anxious, look down on people, and be homophobic. Kinda had to get to a breaking point and go to therapy before those things were fixed, specifically the anxiety one because I was always terrified of travelling and leaving home. thanks Remington, you truly mean the world to all of us❤️
My parents divorced when I was 4. I feel u
I didn't understand there were other types of abuse than physical until I was about 7 and had already endured a few years of mental/emotional abuse from my dad. When I was 22 or 23 I really started digging into my mental state and unearthed a bunch of side effects from dealing with that for a decade and a half. I still haven't spoken to a therapist but I have had some insane realizations. I totally understand looking back on what you think is a normal, even pretty good, childhood just to finally realize how fucked up you are and why.
I get not realizing how manipulative your dad was
I love how this comment section is becoming a therapy session.
I spread a lot of love for you guys, stay safe loves and remember that the Royal Council is there for you all.🖤🖤🖤
Royal Council?
Maria D always here for you honey
@@Maria_D_
what fans of Palaye are called
@@spencer9580 oh cool
@@ginevrasmeriglio4241 thanks
Few months ago i tried so hard to run away from my demons. But thanks to this song. They hugged me again. 🥀
Это было классно. Это идеально это даже не описать словами .
My Dad died April from Coronavirus. My Mom hates me, always has, always will. Brother and Sister died years ago.
This song hits fuckin hard man.
Hey, I don't know you but your life matters and you are precious and lovable. I'm so sorry for your loss, fuck this virus. If you can, reach out for help! *virtual hug*
i wish you the best, you deserve the world and to be happy and loved
Keep fighting man. I wish you the best.
sending love :( *virtual hug*
How are you? Are you ok? Listen, you can't pick your family, but you can pick your friends. The Royal Council are your friends and we are a family. I am rooting for you. You are important and you matter. I am here to talk, if you need it.
It's 5:46am for me now, the sing premieres at 6am - the things I do for love
Same here!
same but I actually woke up because of my cat and then opened youtube... couldn’t be happier of this coincidence
This song has been oddly comforting for me these last few months. I lost my big brother and this was one of our favorite songs(we were very similar I many different ways) he told me once it’s like they heard his inner monologue and made a song and music video out of them. As much as it breaks my heart it helps me to know this song helped him and I can feel close to him even tho he’s gone
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Genuinely got shivers watching this part... It's so well choreographed. Seems like truly genuine rage in the family. This situation (not exactly disagreements between the parents, but screaming in the house) is probably exactly what led to me having depression. Can't wait to get out of this hellhole
When instagram's ads have taste in music...
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im never gona get tired of remington in that dress
This song for some reason brings me comfort when feeling down
this is my comfort song
Seeing the evolution of this band is truly incredible. I'm so sorry u had to experience the trauma, but the way u express it is a damn masterpiece. This hit home
palaye royale constantly breaking gender roles without making a fuss out of it >>>>
Believe it or not most people live their life without making a big deal on Twitter about it....I like those people
I’m just lonely and depressed so I relate to this.
I have only lived these passed year for my sister we are the only family we really got and if I go she’d follow. Thinking of taking such an amazing person with me who deserve nothing but the best hurts. So I live to see her grow
okay i LOVE this song, but did anyone else's heart drop while their body had a weirdly uncomfortable/scared reaction to the parents fighting? no just me? shit
Me too
yh i did to is that bad lol
Me too
same
i only had it because i know what it’s like
I can really relate to this song. I haven't been abused, but I've been emotionally neglected by my parents. I have a lot of problems with my mental health, but they just ignore it and pretend like I'm perfectly fine. My friends and I aren't as close as we used to be, and I haven't had a close, close friendship in a really long time. I feel like all of this is my fault and I self-harm because I feel like I deserve it. Thank you so much for this song, it really means a lot to me.
Somebody Nobody thank you for sharing your story, i hope you're doing better now. i've been struggling with selfinjury for three years, and recently its at its worst. we can get through it together (:
Hope u are doing good
Remeber that us all the fans are here to support everyone and the boys please take care and you can count with us 💖 ( srry if i make any mistakes or if i have bothered u )
Remember we love u and are here for u and things will get better. U probably hear that a lot but it’s pretty true. Also I will b ur fren 🥺☺️
People can't be trusted these days. I've gone through same shit and still going through it. Music keeps people like us keep going. I don't have any close friends either, the ones I had always betrayed and left for no reason. The world can be a shitty place most of the times but always remember if you're good, you fucking deserve to live and make this shit better for others. The only thing you should never lose is your good heart. Leave the world with a smile on your face. Leave the world like a hero when your time comes, doesn't matter if you're alone even at your funeral.
Keep moving
Keep living
You've always got yourself!🤘🏻
I hope you're doing ok. The royal council is so glad we have you with us and we'll always support you
This song gets me thru the day, I live in an abusive household and I've struggled with depression and suicidal thoughts for over 9 years. Having something I can relate to helps a lot. This band saved my life
I have BPD this hits so hard (ha of course it would) but in my episodes when I’m trying to cope, before (undeading myself) how
I’d miss all their music
Anyone else completely freeze when the parents start yelling at each other? Just waiting for it to be over or escalate, you never know which it'll be...
Same, I hate conflict and fighting. It made me uncomfortable