@@iv8923 that is your opinion, this is her feelings and they’re 100% valid. It’s not ignorant to describe something you went through honestly. What’s immature is acting like this to be honest with you.
I listened because I thought this person would have done the work to become healed and talk about the positives of life after suicide, which they did not. That’s so irresponsible.
@@NickyZag It’s not irresponsible to talk about how you feel. She’s hurting. Yes she’s laughing and joking about some stuff that “normal” people don’t laugh about but that’s called ✨trauma response✨. Also you can’t “become healed” what’s done is done you can’t fix or heal anything. The only thing you can do is to learn how to deal with it.
you guys preach about loving and supporting people dealing with mental health issues until you see someone actually dealing with mental health issues. it seems like a lot of people here only deem the happy endings worthy of being heard
YEP. They love to use all the buzzwords and therapy talk to make themselves feel better like they have moral superiority. But god forbid you're actually a mentally ill person with real symptoms everyday, suddenly it's too "triggering" and we shouldn't be allowed to talk until we're "healed" enough. What a crock of shit.
The WHOLE POINT of this show is to hear from and practice empathy for all kinds of different people, yet every week commenters find a reason to criticize the speaker. Not all victims are perfect and "fully healed" from their traumas, and you can choose whether or not to listen and what to take from it! I appreciate hearing different stories every week, even when I disagree with certain things the speaker says, because I'm appreciative of the exposure to so many different walks of life
Yes, you are correct but in this specific episode, she is GLORIFYING suicide. Think of anyone that comes across this episode contemplating doing it and hears her say she loved the feeling and misses it to this day!! Anyone struggling can easily be influenced. There should , at minimum, be a warning or something in the beginning of this story/other stories on this channel. Or stop the glorifying of it when it starts. It’s not mature, it’s not safe and it’s def not cool and by her tone and laughing and constantly saying “period” “bitch” “slay” is so gross Edit: she also is still taking the sleeping meds she claims she took to o.d The fuck?!
Its insane to me how some of you clicked on this title, and then got triggered. Idk how much more of a warning you couldve asked for. This podcast was beautiful. You all want a happy ending, but this guest is still healing and still on the journey. Also as someone who is scared and terrified of death and what it would bring, this perspective brought me so much peace.
People like my self who have made attempts in our life we are most likely to pass away from suicide. When you live a life full of pain and like your soul is being ripped out from inside you and like your being eaten alive by a bear ( life) all you want is to be dead.
Yes. My best friend and them are so similar it’s uncanny. They had the exact same experiences. They even look similar. My best friend lost their life in 2021 due to suicide after attempting twice in the past. Third time they were successful. I just hope that Bri can find happiness again. I really miss my best friend, and I hope that Bri can hold on and see that life will get better
@@Sideshowbrooke And what if life never does get better? There is no guarantee of relief in this existence. Maybe for some people who have the luxury of experiencing happiness, but that luxury is not afforded to all. We just continue to prolong our own suffering just to make those around us more comfortable and happy.
As someone who has survived losing a loved one from suicide, hearing her describe the peace she felt after taking her life brought me to tears. I really hope those who are considering to keep going, but I’m somewhat relieved knowing that my friend finally was able to find peace. Please keep going and thank you for sharing your story.
thank you so much. i appreciate you and i am so sorry for what happed... im just very glad that you're still here even after going through that feeling. i can't imagine.
I think the internet is not used to seeing someone who is not fully recovered and someone who may never recover or may not survive. Not everyone can get thru it, we also are used to seeing her vids where people have had these things happen so long ago but she’s really young. The internet is sensitive and emotional, everyone gets “triggered” so easily by what she’s saying because they aren’t dealing with their own emotions and don’t know who they are yet. I respect this vid. It’s different and can be hard to watch, and she’s definitely unwell. This is her life and her reality whether you like it or not or are triggered by it
Until a teenager (or many teenagers) listens to this and uses it as an excuse to try something similar based on her glorification of death and actually succeeds in dying…
@@NickyZagthen let’s stop talking about suicide and mental illness all together, censoring real shit like this is only going to make people feel more alone which will lead to more suicide. stop policing people’s thoughts and lives cause they’re not what you’re used to hearing it’s fucked
@@NickyZagif a teenager kills themselves or self harms after hearing a story as horrific as this, the people around them are doing them a disservice. They are sick and need help and have likely needed it for a long time.
This is a very important interview. No, she's not healed, and yes, she is glorifying suicide, or at least death. But people need to hear from people with this mindset. Doctors, parents, and friends need to know that their patients, their children, their friends may be feeling like this. Is it shocking? Yes. Is it triggering? Extremely, and I think Dev needs to be more diligent about giving verbal trigger warnings at the beginnings of videos. But it's also a perspective that very much exists and needs to be heard, especially if we're serious about mental health awareness.
As someone who deals with (nearly constant) suicidal ideations, listening to this was so unhealthy. I was hoping to hear someone who talked about hope after suicide attempts and about healing. Instead, what I found was justification. So the small % of me that found comfort in hearing someone talk about something I can relate to is overwhelming outnumbered by the % of me that now has to do hours of therapy to try and “undo” the justifications she gave to the depressed part of my brain. And I’m in my 30’s and have a huge support system and access to great therapeutic resources. Image those who don’t…
She’s not fucking glorifying suicide get a grip. She’s being raw about it. Not everyone who makes attempts or has attempted sits there and says “ I regret it I’m healed now” nah we make jokes and laugh about it because we can it’s how we deal with our pain and that we want to go.
Yeah I’m 57 minutes in and at this point and I don’t think she is glorifying suicide at all. She is telling her perspective on how she feels and how she is moving forward with suicidal ideations. I usually listen to Devs podcast in my patrol car when I am patrolling for my city police department. A lot of the people on her show help me understand people I may come in to contact with on a call for service or anything else.
The people calling her immature clearly do not understand trauma. The title of this video is not “I’m healed and fixed” like come on she never once said she didn’t need help or what she did wasn’t serious. Her mannerisms and nonchalant tone can be her way of coping she didn’t have a great childhood so as an adult it’s not uncommon for adult who had a traumatic childhood to have childlike traits especially if they feel safety to do so in adulthood. Coping mechanisms are normal for everyone I myself laugh when I am talking about traumatic things to my therapist no what I’ve been through is not funny but making it a joke makes it so much easier to talk about and say out loud. Y’all are acting like this isn’t a heavy thing to speak about. Give grace.. be kind.
unpopular opinion but her parents were 100% enablers. the timeline got a little blurry but they allowed her to abuse drugs and alcohol in her teenage years? i really hope she heals and finds herself in life.
that was my main take away as well esp w the thing abt getting addicted young so you don’t have to when you’re an adult it’s so sad how the cycle of abuse continues
It is very clear to me that a lot of people clicked on this video to hear how this hoping to hear how this person turned their life around and how they're doing better and are very critical that this is not what they found. this is Bri's story and it is incredibly important to hear this perspective to fully understand the realities of suicidal ideations for many people. to understand their true emotions is how we can better understand the support that they need. the title is a trigger warning in and of itself, and it is not Bri's responsibility if you're unhappy hearing how they feel.
Why not I watched and totally relate you lot need to get a grip. Maybe we wouldn’t feel that way if we wasn’t being eaten alive by pain. And being treated like we’re fucking attention aburdens to everyone 🙃
I’m 18 gonna turn 19 on June 28th. For me my life has been miserable from the start.My situation is hectic, my life is a mess. Things are bad at home. I have no future. So it’s better to end it.
Yall love convos about mental illness but get weirded out when someone shows symptoms of their very real mental illness. Mental illness isn’t easy listening. It’s very real for so many of us.
i’m glad that at the end she already said that she’s way more grateful for things, she’s still got a long way ahead and she still needs more time healing, but i think she’s really trying her best and working hard on herself. people tend to forget that it takes time to heal and that you’re not gonna be fully healed in a year. i wish her all the best
I appreciate this story. I just don’t really think she was ready to tell it. It’s really jarring to hear her talk so fondly about the feeling of de@th.😢
That isn’t for you to decide. I attempted 10 years ago and the feeling was something I’ve never ever felt again, it was the most at peace I’ve ever been. I don’t think telling our genuine experiences glorify suicide, there is SO much more to it, but we get to go on knowing that someday when we do die, it isn’t as scary as we once thought. It’s easier to go on knowing the end isn’t so bad.
@@LittleRodent88so you don’t think someone who is suicidal watching this wouldn’t be more inclined to try after hearing her go on about how peaceful it was??
@@sun_on_my_nose I heard it, and I said I appreciated it. Doesn’t mean it wasn’t hard to hear. That wasn’t the gotcha you thought it was. Have a good night.
Thank You for allowing this young lady her authentic voice without censorship. Brave of her. Hope she endures happily. We need all the animal lovers we can get.
As someone who has worked with several people similar to Bri; them being suicidal, glorifying death, severe self harm etc, I really appreciate this perspective. Since this perspective is rarely seen unless you work in a psychiatric hospital like I do. I want to be clear that I totally agree with him, patients with those kinds of issues basically ALWAYS get worse when they're hospitalized. And thankfully the hospitals where I'm from don't seem to work the same way at all. Honestly I was quite horrified first time I met a person similar to Bri. But the more I worked with them the more I started to understand the glorification, realizing it was the escape and fantasy that was alluring to them. I've sat next to people who had bit severe wounds, or cut, and the obsession with their own blood and just wallowing in the darkness of it all. It is a very "odd" side of the story when you haven't felt it or been near it at all. Thank you for this very important episode just found this show and I am in awe of all the stories, perspectives and people we meet here.
Idk about this episode. As someone who has gone through the same things - I totally sympathize. They have done and said nothing wrong - but I feel like this specific conversation is glorifying suicide in a way. Talking about how amazing the feeling of death is. Hopefully no one who could be triggered by this watches. They seem like they need much more help and weren’t ready to talk about this publicly
Yes, agreed! She has a long healing road ahead of her, and I’m happy she is making progress. Joking around is cool and all (definitely a coping mechanism I use) however the overall message wasn’t pro-life. This is a heavy topic and glorifying de@+h is NOT CUTE! Healing, growing, thriving.. is cute!
@mai6553 I'm 31, I say these words but I know they aren't meant to be used for serious things. I would never say my suicide attempts were "slay" that just common sense. But she's 22. Her brain hasn't fully developed yet, and sadly it may not cause of the damage so she gets some grace I just found it odd to use slang in that way. If she ever talked to a therapist this way I feel like they might baker act her
My hearts broken for her but also.. I’m so proud of her and how how she has worked to be okay for the ones who care and love her.. also thank you to dev for not judging and just letting her talk and also love how she can still have a personality even though that was some fucked up shit ! Wishing you well gf
Not true. Being vegan means you dont exploit, torture, kill animals. So you drink oat milk, coconut milk and whatever milk if you like but definitly no milk from a mother for her baby who feels the same love and pain. Also nothing else that imeans horrible suffering for someone else.. @@mai6553
we often hear from people who are healed and doing better so hearing from someone who is still on that non linear path of healing makes me feel less alone. I relate to this person so much.
Despite her worry about the jumping around storytelling style, I find it really cool. When I imagine Bri’s life story unfolding it makes sense that it’s splotchy and messy and imperfectly told
The people judging them is gross, just because she said she liked the feeling of death doesn’t mean she’s bonkers.. people that have nde even without suicide all say the same things. It’s calm and peace and you feel warm and surrounded by love who wouldn’t wanna stay in that rather than earth?
“I was chillin when I was dead” That’s such a valid statement. I understand her and I can understand this feeling. I’m not glamorizing and encouraging this (obviously) but I just…. Get it. I wish Bri the best. If you’re reading this, you’re still super super young! As a prior 23 year old, 25/26+ my mind did a whole mental shift. I hope you can find some light in life ❤ it will be the little things that get you through for sure.. sometimes it’s cheese, sometimes it’s a latte, sometimes it talking to a random person. I wish you light, excellent vibes for 2024🎉❤
I think we need to allow people to tell all parts of their story. Living with the weight of knowing how comfortable death can be as compared to how painful life is is HARD. It can make those with depression even more unable to move past suicidal ideations. The key is finding things in life that are worth sticking around for. There’s so much left to see and live through in this life. So many positive experiences, and so much comfort. We’ve only got one go at this world as us. I hope she finds peace in this world. I’ve only just started to become more settled and happy at 26, and I still have a long way to go, but if I can turn it around anyone can. Much love to all of those who struggle with similar things.
Unfortunately it’s not that simple because if someone wants to go they will go and nothing no one can do about it. It’s selfish and cruel expecting those who are living unbearable amounts of pain to stay just because people want them to live. It’s like expecting an adult who’s got no quality of life to keep on living because we want them to stay because it’s sad. No one has a say over wether someone chooses to live or die and death by suicide will always happen because life is cruel and unless the world is a better place and people are better people it will keep on happening. Can I also say we don’t care about only having one go at life we don’t even want this one and we didn’t ask to be here we got put here out of no choice. You really underestimate those of us who are mentally unwell how much we have made peace with death.
I think what she means about missing dying is the fact she was calm for once she felt at peace in that moment which is a hard feeling to get back regardless of how she got that feeling
This story is so important, I think it's really good that Bri recognized that while she 'misses' that feeling she would never do this again because she knows how much it would hurt her family and friends. I don't think it's glamorizing it I think it's the reality of her life and that's the point of this show - for people to learn about others and what they are going through. The strength she has is incredible and I wish her all the best.
Also choosing to watch a video called TAKING MY OWN LIFE and blaming the guest for triggering you is……Wild……yall have to stop watching things that you know are gonna trigger you. It’s really sincerely not their fault, they’re talking about their own life and experiences bro…
after she said “i miss it”, wow, i am praying for her to receive the help she needs and to have a really good support system because it is so scary she feels that way now. i can’t finish this episode now, she’s no where near healed and it’s a hard watch.
hey :"~)! i am doing much much better and not having any of those thoughts anymore, don't worry haha! i meant i miss it as in i miss the peace i felt.. that's all! :~)
For everyone saying she is glorifying suicide, yes, maybe she is. BUT She is NOT the only one describing death as a „good“ feeling. Maybe she hasn’t healed and matured at all, but maybe she is also telling the truth about how death feels like in general. Many people that experienced death, wether it’s because of suicide or other circumstances, describe it as something peaceful and when they came back they actually felt sad and not ready for life. I think her feelings about death need to be validated as much as the feeling of someone glorifying life. Yes, life is hard. It’s not easy. Some people lose the spark for life and we need to hear them out too. I hope she finds a way to find peace in her life and not in her death.
I think this would've been better served more than one year out from the event, and after a lot more recovery and maturing. I'm used to these stories having a much more stable resolution at the end. I was left still really fearing for Bri's life while she doesn't seem to at all, and I don't know how much the internet - especially impressionable, unstable, depressive people - need to hear about the euphoria of succeeding in s*icide...
Nothing against her but I couldn't watch her long enough to make it to the "conclusion." She couldn't tell a coherent story or avoid shitting on various people (Christians, her friends, cops who helped save her life, etc.) throughout her interview. She still strikes me as having no insight & needing mental healthcare. I have therapy twice a week due to extreme trauma. Sometimes we need to get healthier before we start trying to share our trauma with others. She needed to tell this story from start to finish to a couple friends because coming on & fumbling through a podcast. I worry she is still a danger to herself.
Thank you! The title literally insinuates hard topics being discussed... People need to realize that just because a video didn't go how they wanted it to, that they don't HAVE TO voice their frustrations with it. Like, not every video is going to please you. It's pointless to waste your time commenting..@@Natasha_-_
I didn't watch this video with the hopes that it would "please me" and I was not triggered by it. There is nothing pleasing about many of the stories on this channel, but a good majority of them are told by people who have a lot more mental maturity about whatever experience they're sharing than does Bri. It's perfectly ok for me to say that I believe some things don't belong on the internet, and this is one of them. I am both a mother and have persistent depressive disorder. I can see this young lady from both angles and I really, really hurt for her. I think she needs a tighter circle of support and recovery before she gives the story to an audience of at least 400,000 people who could be influenced by her claims of euphoric self death. I don't expect at all that that will have any influence on whether the video will stay up, but I have just as much right to share my concern as you do your...whatever you feel about this story.
this one... this one got me. hearing them describe how all they wanted to do was call for their mom brought me to tears. I'm so glad they're still with us. thank you so much for sharing these stories; this display of strength is awe-inspiring.
I love how they mannage to have a very open conversation about topics that are often very very hard to think about much less speak. and i think this story is important to hear.
Her maturity level is like a -50. She needs more time to heal and understand the reality of what she did/went through. It’s as if she’s still a 13 year old. I do truly hope she finds love, comfort and happiness.
Can I also just throw in besides the brain damage and drug use - if she was sexually abused and any trauma from family can also damage your memory/brain. Sort of like how DID/OSDD works. Your brain gets stunted at certain times because ~trauma~. Unfortunately I share this all too well.
@@greenpeacesign420 keep it to yourself, babes. People are healing here, not being perfect speakers and presenters of their own trauma and life experience. This isn’t a novel, and people aren’t edited like the Reddit stories on smosh for ffs.
I had a hard time watching this video in full because of how she was almost promoting suicide and telling people how amazing it was and how she still wishes for it. This worries me for young audiences who may be watching and thinking this is a green light to do the same. I usually love all videos on this channel but this one I was a little shocked that it was posted or not edited at some parts about glorifying suicide and how amazing death is. Of course I feel for her and it hurts watching someone go through this 😕 I wish the best for her and overcome the obstacles that trauma has brought her in her life.
Same it was making me uncomfortable. I was kind of wondering why she wanted to be on the podcast when she clearly isn’t healed and still needs a lot of help. I’ll be praying for her.
I can’t watch the rest of this because it’s very obvious she is extremely immature, unstable and still needs a lotttt of help. I hope that she gets the help that she needs and succeeds in whatever she wants to do in life 💜
I know it may not be what we want to hear, depth wise, and yes, everything is still pretty fresh for Bri.. however I really appreciate Bri’s RAW way of expression because this is a reality for many people. We don’t always have to hear the rainbows and butterflies at the end of every story.. this is very real too. This also deserves to be heard. Someone still navigating through deep pain. Shit, I am too. It also helped me make a little more peace with death honestly. Because.. well we’re all going to die anyway. So thank you Bri for being authentic & sharing your voice with us however it came out. 🫶
all of you shaming the guest for sharing their experience- with multiple trigger warnings and the title alone- is why people don't share and probably why it is so hard to recover after attempts and SI. Keep that in mind next time you go keyboard warrior it out and think of how bad that person is hurting ❤
She needs to share this story with a therapist and trusted friends and family who are in a space to hear this and process it appropriately, not the world wide internet of anyone and everyone with various degrees of mental health issues who could be unbearably triggered by her glorification and justification of suicide and death. She is brave for telling her story, but irresponsible for sharing it before she is healed and can provide perspective of someone whose done the work to overcome the suicidal ideations and can be a role model to others by giving them hope on the other side of suicide attempts. All this did was make suicide appealing
this girl is way too immature to be telling her story yet. mental illness/suicide is real and should never be glamorized. and the way she talks about god and police officers and cussing constantly shows her immaturity. hopefully she matures and heals.
people show their trauma in different ways, just because you would show it different doesn’t mean she’s immature or less than, if cussing while talking about attempting suicide is immature you need to find a new definition of immature.
I have to say I agreed with some others here. I don’t feel like this should have been an episode. This girl clearly still needs a lot of help. Her glorifying her death can’t be helpful to anyone who is struggling with suicidal thoughts. I really hope she heals and finds happiness. She will be in my prayers 🙁
Just because she hasn’t had the time everyone else has to recover etc. doesn’t mean her experience is any less. Everyone is different and feels differently but this is her story and no one else’s.
Bri you have a sweet beautiful soul. I am only 18 minutes in and I have to walk into work, but I wanted to mention that a part of recovery and healing is helping others. You have great potential to connect with others and help them from a very dark place, and in turn that can help you heal. Keep going… Even if it is just moment to moment. Give yourself grace. ❤
Just finished it and I do feel bad for the guest, but I also thought they were a bad guest, there was no depth or purpose to their story and I feel a lot was false or exaggerated and in the end I did not believe them at all. They have an addictive personality, they were getting drugs for free, they were addicted to weed, cocaine, xanax, alcohol, cigarettes, fitness, they had an eating disorder yet passed over everything and now come across completely fine - no struggle, no experiences shared or nothing. Definitely the worst podcast on the channel so far and an extremely questionable guest.
I definitely agree, no they weren’t in their shoes but they can say their opinion just like you can choose to not like it, both are okay and you can both live and go on about your lives and choose to not let it affect you….
Yeah this guest was definitely not ready to talk about this subject in a productive manner, especially since they look back on being dead so fondly. It’s almost like they are trying to be as triggering as possible. Super dangerous conversation to broadcast on the internet, especially since they discuss suicide so flippantly.
Watching this as someone who hasn’t harmed themselves or attempted, but still feels so much disdain living their day to day life, this episode was really comforting in a way. I assumed this was gonna be another story of a failed attempt and someone changing their lives around, but hearing that they miss that short lived moment of not being here … It feels like I’m the only person who wishes they weren’t here, and couldn’t fathom how others are still livinggggg.
It’s so sad how many bad things can happen to one person. I’m so glad that she’s still here to talk about it and spread awareness. I wish the best for her for real, she deserves the world.
i litterally love the fact that she had the confidence to talk about these strong issues ,, watching this video helped me so much more then i think you guys realize i am so beyond happy for you and keep up doing best for you bri ! i'm so proud of you cus i know it's hard !
Just wanted to say that it's very important to never mention in detail how you tried to take your life. Never give amounts of meds, name meds or anything in that similar line. It gives vulnerable potentially mentally ill people ideas and is not safe. I think she is extremely brave to share but definitely think this should be considered for future episodes
I agree with this 100%, I’m someone who sh’s often and has su****al thoughts a lot, so when this person mentioned how they attempted, it gave me ideas. thank you for sharing this point of view
Defiantly a weird episode listening to her glorify being dead. I really hope this girl is still getting help. The way she talked about all this sounds was very unsettling
@@daishamaxwell461 true but you don’t want to be glorifying it, think about the kids that are considering this and watch this episode looking for help and then they hear how awesome it was to be dead, that could push them to actually do it. That’s all I’m saying
@@grayhills6794 true but you don’t want to be glorifying it, think about the kids that are considering this and watch this episode looking for help and then they hear how awesome it was to be dead, that could push them to actually do it. That’s all I’m saying
this episode is very iffy and i don’t doubt their pain at all, but wow. taking your life and eds and sh is not “slay” and the glorification of this all is insane. also the constant use of misused AAVE made this episode extremely hard to listen to
the whole vibe i got from her is that she’s extremely lost. her entire personality seems to be derived from internet trends which is so sad because there’s really no way to heal unless ur authentically urself and aware of your real identity
This story touched me. I currently struggle with severe chronic depressive disorder and have to take medication everyday. I've never attempted suicide but I have fantasized about ending the constant mental pain and how nice it would be to just be at peace and to be nothing but quiet and dark. Hearing your story helps me know that I'm not alone and coming from someone who still currently misses the feeling of dying say that there are moments in life that make her feel that she's still glad to be alive makes me feel like I can find happiness too ❤ thank you for much for sharing Brianna ❤❤❤❤
I agree. Sometimes people take the liberty to judge others when they have no business doing so! This podcast reaches out to so many different types of issues, and people which is wonderful. Someone may be going through something very similar, and will reach out for help!❤
It seems like things that are hard for all of us feels extra hard for them. I hope they can find peace in life and things get easier. Kuddos to their family - this is a nightmare to live in and many parents may have given up by now.
I don't think she was ready to tell this story. I don't wanna speak for her, but she came across to me as she is still dealing with alot and is still suicidal. i worry that her choice in words might encourage others to do the same. hope she's ok.
i found it helpful to put the volume low and play it out loud (no headphones). i really struggled to watch bc of the mouth noises but this made it somewhat better
I hope they continue to heal, especially if they miss the feeling of death, i know there is no being fully healed, but i hope that one day they don't have to miss death and find a sort of peace in living.
nobody can except herself. she needs to do the healing steps, but there are also people who are so severely depressed that they can’t heal. i really wish her the best and i hope some day she will be ready to heal and i hope that she can heal
Some people are not taking in the fact that she is not fully healed yet, everyone has their own ways of healing. She probably can only talk about her life this way due to feeling awkward or just coping with Humor. Not everyone is perfect.
I empathise with this woman so much, my 1st suicide attempt was when I was 12 too! I grew up in a very violent household and I tried to kill myself to stop the fighting. I grabbed the pull down light switch in the bathroom and tried to hang myself with it. The switches in England have a safety clip on them that I didn't notice, but of course, the clip activated and released the pull switch and I fell down. The fighting didn't stop and I didn't stop wanting to garner the attention to stop it, I now find it hard to deal with confrontation, loud bangs scare me, I have severe PTSD, severe anxiety and severe depression. (All now diagnosed) I was "fine" for a series of years until there was a very large trigger, which made me spiral to the point where I would go to a bridge near our house and stand there waiting for the traffic to go by below, with my eyes closed and listen to the rush of wind and cars to try and soothe the want to die. I started doing a mental health course and finding correlations between me and triggers and I went to the doctors and they got me into therapy very quickly, put me on a high risk register, and I did CBT. Best thing I'd ever done. On another note though, she seems like she needs some more help to deal with her mental health issues. ❤❤
I understood how she felt so deeply when she talked about mainly having dreams about the psych ward and mental hospital not even the attempt itself. I felt that on another level
Dear Bri, I'm glad you are here. Stay here, the world needs intelligent, compassionate people like yourself. Good that things are better for you now and that you are beginning to feel love for yourself. As you said at the end you do have a purpose and giving love feels so good. I also love the fact that you are vegan, it shows your big heart. Wish you the best!
hey guys! i also just wanted to mention that i just finally realized what meds they were. it's not my sleeping meds! that's all i just wanted everyone to know :")!
Hi bri, just wanted to saying thank u for sharing ur story, especially during an age where people froth at the mouth to post terrible things behind the comfort of anonymity. Life will always have its ups and downs, but it’s good you’ve reported feeling better these days. Take care!
@@jessalyn2468this just shows how old she actually is. In her brain. It just shows her drug abuse didn’t let her develop mentally and has her stuck in her 12-16 year old stage.
I really don’t like it when podcast hosts don’t tell the guest to spit the gum out. I’m literally unable to listen to it lol. The mic quality is almost too good so now I’m supposed to listen to her chew gum the entire time?
It’s pretty concerning and scary to hear about how the parents were providing them with drugs and alcohol when they were underage, especially knowing their mental health history.
This story is so relatable. Somehow though the process of the triggers leading to remembering the nightmares of my past have simply left me incredibly grateful for the life I live today. If you were to tell me not only would I live, but i would LOVE my life. Pshh i would have thought that was crazy. But here i am! Props to this guest for the vulnerability in sharong their experience.
I feel for her but she’s got so much maturing to do for herself,and that alone would also be a part of healing, I feel like she jokes about it to help her through it but she still seems afraid to actually accept what happened, and she also seems very entitled to what she believes in but constantly is putting others down for their beliefs or what they say. This episode was definitely frustrating to sit through the whole way!
Mental health patients are treated in such a dehumanizing way in Tennessee. I went to 2 psych wards in TN and both times just made me was to kms more and try harder next time. One of them was FOUR HOURS away from my house and thankfully they let my mom transport me. For me the reason was because that was the nearest one that had a bed open and when you attempt suicide they have to find you placement no matter how far
you all talk about supporting people with mental illness but when a mentally ill person starts talking you all put them down. I really enjoyed the rawness of this episode, you don't get to hear about these thoughts often. It's a new perspective and all I wish for Bri is that he will somehow find peace through life and start to heal and that's what all of you should be doing.
I remember meeting Bri at Play Nashville! Him and Andi are some of the best people ever! They are so sweet and I’m so glad I met them! I remember making Bri a heart out of a dollar bill and seeing his excitement made my night!!
My daughter took pills and was extremely non-chalant about it. It took her several years to finally come to grips with what she really did that day and why.
To those saying things like “it’s really triggered to hear…” I highly suggest you do not click on videos titled “I ended my own life”
but no one thought it would be delivered in the most ignorant immature way possible
@@iv8923 that is your opinion, this is her feelings and they’re 100% valid. It’s not ignorant to describe something you went through honestly.
What’s immature is acting like this to be honest with you.
I listened because I thought this person would have done the work to become healed and talk about the positives of life after suicide, which they did not. That’s so irresponsible.
@@iv8923real life doesn’t have a trigger warning womp womp
@@NickyZag It’s not irresponsible to talk about how you feel.
She’s hurting.
Yes she’s laughing and joking about some stuff that “normal” people don’t laugh about but that’s called ✨trauma response✨.
Also you can’t “become healed” what’s done is done you can’t fix or heal anything.
The only thing you can do is to learn how to deal with it.
you guys preach about loving and supporting people dealing with mental health issues until you see someone actually dealing with mental health issues. it seems like a lot of people here only deem the happy endings worthy of being heard
YEP. They love to use all the buzzwords and therapy talk to make themselves feel better like they have moral superiority.
But god forbid you're actually a mentally ill person with real symptoms everyday, suddenly it's too "triggering" and we shouldn't be allowed to talk until we're "healed" enough.
What a crock of shit.
literally. thank you so much.
as a mentally ill person myself this girl is annoying
@@braeden563 not saying she ain't annoying cuz she is but the point still stands
🎯🎯🎯
The WHOLE POINT of this show is to hear from and practice empathy for all kinds of different people, yet every week commenters find a reason to criticize the speaker. Not all victims are perfect and "fully healed" from their traumas, and you can choose whether or not to listen and what to take from it! I appreciate hearing different stories every week, even when I disagree with certain things the speaker says, because I'm appreciative of the exposure to so many different walks of life
Thank you 🙏🏼
Good point.
you get it!!! thank you
Yes, you are correct but in this specific episode, she is GLORIFYING suicide. Think of anyone that comes across this episode contemplating doing it and hears her say she loved the feeling and misses it to this day!! Anyone struggling can easily be influenced. There should , at minimum, be a warning or something in the beginning of this story/other stories on this channel. Or stop the glorifying of it when it starts. It’s not mature, it’s not safe and it’s def not cool and by her tone and laughing and constantly saying “period” “bitch” “slay” is so gross
Edit: she also is still taking the sleeping meds she claims she took to o.d
The fuck?!
Do you think she considers herself a victim?
Its insane to me how some of you clicked on this title, and then got triggered. Idk how much more of a warning you couldve asked for. This podcast was beautiful. You all want a happy ending, but this guest is still healing and still on the journey. Also as someone who is scared and terrified of death and what it would bring, this perspective brought me so much peace.
The way they mention how death was the best feeling... I feel so strongly like they're going to attempt again
People like my self who have made attempts in our life we are most likely to pass away from suicide. When you live a life full of pain and like your soul is being ripped out from inside you and like your being eaten alive by a bear ( life) all you want is to be dead.
Yes. My best friend and them are so similar it’s uncanny. They had the exact same experiences. They even look similar. My best friend lost their life in 2021 due to suicide after attempting twice in the past. Third time they were successful. I just hope that Bri can find happiness again. I really miss my best friend, and I hope that Bri can hold on and see that life will get better
@@Sideshowbrooke And what if life never does get better? There is no guarantee of relief in this existence. Maybe for some people who have the luxury of experiencing happiness, but that luxury is not afforded to all.
We just continue to prolong our own suffering just to make those around us more comfortable and happy.
i'm living for other people currently. but deep down im hoping that one day i will learn to live for me too.@@oldankh
@@Sideshowbrookebless your heart 🫶🫶🫶
As someone who has survived losing a loved one from suicide, hearing her describe the peace she felt after taking her life brought me to tears. I really hope those who are considering to keep going, but I’m somewhat relieved knowing that my friend finally was able to find peace. Please keep going and thank you for sharing your story.
thank you so much. i appreciate you and i am so sorry for what happed... im just very glad that you're still here even after going through that feeling. i can't imagine.
I think the internet is not used to seeing someone who is not fully recovered and someone who may never recover or may not survive. Not everyone can get thru it, we also are used to seeing her vids where people have had these things happen so long ago but she’s really young. The internet is sensitive and emotional, everyone gets “triggered” so easily by what she’s saying because they aren’t dealing with their own emotions and don’t know who they are yet. I respect this vid. It’s different and can be hard to watch, and she’s definitely unwell. This is her life and her reality whether you like it or not or are triggered by it
Until a teenager (or many teenagers) listens to this and uses it as an excuse to try something similar based on her glorification of death and actually succeeds in dying…
@@NickyZag that’s her reality man
@@NickyZagthen let’s stop talking about suicide and mental illness all together, censoring real shit like this is only going to make people feel more alone which will lead to more suicide. stop policing people’s thoughts and lives cause they’re not what you’re used to hearing it’s fucked
@@NickyZagI mean that’s their right
@@NickyZagif a teenager kills themselves or self harms after hearing a story as horrific as this, the people around them are doing them a disservice. They are sick and need help and have likely needed it for a long time.
This is a very important interview. No, she's not healed, and yes, she is glorifying suicide, or at least death. But people need to hear from people with this mindset. Doctors, parents, and friends need to know that their patients, their children, their friends may be feeling like this. Is it shocking? Yes. Is it triggering? Extremely, and I think Dev needs to be more diligent about giving verbal trigger warnings at the beginnings of videos. But it's also a perspective that very much exists and needs to be heard, especially if we're serious about mental health awareness.
As someone who deals with (nearly constant) suicidal ideations, listening to this was so unhealthy. I was hoping to hear someone who talked about hope after suicide attempts and about healing. Instead, what I found was justification. So the small % of me that found comfort in hearing someone talk about something I can relate to is overwhelming outnumbered by the % of me that now has to do hours of therapy to try and “undo” the justifications she gave to the depressed part of my brain. And I’m in my 30’s and have a huge support system and access to great therapeutic resources. Image those who don’t…
people dont realize that humor is a coping mechanism to deal with depression
She’s not fucking glorifying suicide get a grip. She’s being raw about it. Not everyone who makes attempts or has attempted sits there and says “ I regret it I’m healed now” nah we make jokes and laugh about it because we can it’s how we deal with our pain and that we want to go.
Yeah I’m 57 minutes in and at this point and I don’t think she is glorifying suicide at all. She is telling her perspective on how she feels and how she is moving forward with suicidal ideations. I usually listen to Devs podcast in my patrol car when I am patrolling for my city police department. A lot of the people on her show help me understand people I may come in to contact with on a call for service or anything else.
@@NickyZagWomp Womp.
The people calling her immature clearly do not understand trauma. The title of this video is not “I’m healed and fixed” like come on she never once said she didn’t need help or what she did wasn’t serious. Her mannerisms and nonchalant tone can be her way of coping she didn’t have a great childhood so as an adult it’s not uncommon for adult who had a traumatic childhood to have childlike traits especially if they feel safety to do so in adulthood. Coping mechanisms are normal for everyone I myself laugh when I am talking about traumatic things to my therapist no what I’ve been through is not funny but making it a joke makes it so much easier to talk about and say out loud. Y’all are acting like this isn’t a heavy thing to speak about. Give grace.. be kind.
You put this perfectly!❤
unpopular opinion but her parents were 100% enablers. the timeline got a little blurry but they allowed her to abuse drugs and alcohol in her teenage years? i really hope she heals and finds herself in life.
that was my main take away as well esp w the thing abt getting addicted young so you don’t have to when you’re an adult it’s so sad how the cycle of abuse continues
This. My mom would take my ass to detox / rehab
It is very clear to me that a lot of people clicked on this video to hear how this hoping to hear how this person turned their life around and how they're doing better and are very critical that this is not what they found. this is Bri's story and it is incredibly important to hear this perspective to fully understand the realities of suicidal ideations for many people. to understand their true emotions is how we can better understand the support that they need. the title is a trigger warning in and of itself, and it is not Bri's responsibility if you're unhappy hearing how they feel.
DO NOT WATCH THIS EPISODE IF YOU ARE SUICIDAL or DEPRESSED.
Oops
@@SoulxSpectre😭 mf said “oops” shit I’m depressed rn and I’m chillin cuz I know I ain’t got shit to do it with
Why not I watched and totally relate you lot need to get a grip. Maybe we wouldn’t feel that way if we wasn’t being eaten alive by pain. And being treated like we’re fucking attention aburdens to everyone 🙃
I’m 18 gonna turn 19 on June 28th. For me my life has been miserable from the start.My situation is hectic, my life is a mess. Things are bad at home. I have no future. So it’s better to end it.
To late
Yall love convos about mental illness but get weirded out when someone shows symptoms of their very real mental illness. Mental illness isn’t easy listening. It’s very real for so many of us.
i’m glad that at the end she already said that she’s way more grateful for things, she’s still got a long way ahead and she still needs more time healing, but i think she’s really trying her best and working hard on herself. people tend to forget that it takes time to heal and that you’re not gonna be fully healed in a year. i wish her all the best
I appreciate this story. I just don’t really think she was ready to tell it. It’s really jarring to hear her talk so fondly about the feeling of de@th.😢
That isn’t for you to decide. I attempted 10 years ago and the feeling was something I’ve never ever felt again, it was the most at peace I’ve ever been. I don’t think telling our genuine experiences glorify suicide, there is SO much more to it, but we get to go on knowing that someday when we do die, it isn’t as scary as we once thought. It’s easier to go on knowing the end isn’t so bad.
@@LittleRodent88have died, this is accurate. The peace & painlessness specifically are what I remember. "Coming back" was brutal.
@@LittleRodent88so you don’t think someone who is suicidal watching this wouldn’t be more inclined to try after hearing her go on about how peaceful it was??
@@sun_on_my_nose I heard it, and I said I appreciated it. Doesn’t mean it wasn’t hard to hear. That wasn’t the gotcha you thought it was. Have a good night.
@@LittleRodent88 I completely 100% understand your valid sentiments. That still leaves me with my own.
Thank You for allowing this young lady her authentic voice without censorship. Brave of her. Hope she endures happily. We need all the animal lovers we can get.
As someone who has worked with several people similar to Bri; them being suicidal, glorifying death, severe self harm etc, I really appreciate this perspective. Since this perspective is rarely seen unless you work in a psychiatric hospital like I do. I want to be clear that I totally agree with him, patients with those kinds of issues basically ALWAYS get worse when they're hospitalized. And thankfully the hospitals where I'm from don't seem to work the same way at all. Honestly I was quite horrified first time I met a person similar to Bri. But the more I worked with them the more I started to understand the glorification, realizing it was the escape and fantasy that was alluring to them. I've sat next to people who had bit severe wounds, or cut, and the obsession with their own blood and just wallowing in the darkness of it all. It is a very "odd" side of the story when you haven't felt it or been near it at all. Thank you for this very important episode just found this show and I am in awe of all the stories, perspectives and people we meet here.
It’s just real, we never hear this raw side of thought.
My point exactly, it's eerie and uncomfortable but it's raw and honest.
i appreciate this episode being raw and uncensored.
Idk about this episode. As someone who has gone through the same things - I totally sympathize. They have done and said nothing wrong - but I feel like this specific conversation is glorifying suicide in a way. Talking about how amazing the feeling of death is. Hopefully no one who could be triggered by this watches. They seem like they need much more help and weren’t ready to talk about this publicly
I was going to say the same thing.....
Yes, agreed! She has a long healing road ahead of her, and I’m happy she is making progress. Joking around is cool and all (definitely a coping mechanism I use) however the overall message wasn’t pro-life. This is a heavy topic and glorifying de@+h is NOT CUTE! Healing, growing, thriving.. is cute!
Not gonna lie! I had such an urge to cut after her saying how amazing it was. Sometimes I miss the feeling.
I totally agree she was almost bragging about how nice it felt to almost pass away ….really strange way to tell your “redemption” story
They’re telling their experience, their truth. The episode comes with a trigger warning.
So weird listening to Gen Z talk about traumatic events, it's so Slay and period.
Called evolution babes, grammar and pop culture changes over time, it only sounds weird if you’re old and or close minded 😢😂
@mai6553 I'm 31, I say these words but I know they aren't meant to be used for serious things. I would never say my suicide attempts were "slay" that just common sense. But she's 22. Her brain hasn't fully developed yet, and sadly it may not cause of the damage so she gets some grace I just found it odd to use slang in that way. If she ever talked to a therapist this way I feel like they might baker act her
@@anastaisiawhalen5332its her experience to joke about though?
@wasalLETS that's fine. And it's fine for the world to perceive how they want.
What are you even saying
I feel so bad for her. She needs help. If she still claims she misses the feeling of dying. 😢
For anyone who is suicidal at all this is not the episode to watch!
Many describe death as feeling peaceful
My hearts broken for her but also.. I’m so proud of her and how how she has worked to be okay for the ones who care and love her.. also thank you to dev for not judging and just letting her talk and also love how she can still have a personality even though that was some fucked up shit ! Wishing you well gf
She just said she was vegan then said her fave soup is egg drop soup 🫠
There’s a whole sect of vegans who eat eggs and butter or honey. I thought this pod cast was about listening and open minds to differences?
Not true. Being vegan means you dont exploit, torture, kill animals. So you drink oat milk, coconut milk and whatever milk if you like but definitly no milk from a mother for her baby who feels the same love and pain. Also nothing else that imeans horrible suffering for someone else.. @@mai6553
@@mai6553 yeah, they're called vegetarians, not vegans lol
@@mai6553 Do the meaning words mean anything to you? That’s vegetarianism
we often hear from people who are healed and doing better so hearing from someone who is still on that non linear path of healing makes me feel less alone. I relate to this person so much.
Despite her worry about the jumping around storytelling style, I find it really cool. When I imagine Bri’s life story unfolding it makes sense that it’s splotchy and messy and imperfectly told
The people judging them is gross, just because she said she liked the feeling of death doesn’t mean she’s bonkers.. people that have nde even without suicide all say the same things. It’s calm and peace and you feel warm and surrounded by love who wouldn’t wanna stay in that rather than earth?
“I was chillin when I was dead”
That’s such a valid statement. I understand her and I can understand this feeling. I’m not glamorizing and encouraging this (obviously) but I just…. Get it.
I wish Bri the best. If you’re reading this, you’re still super super young! As a prior 23 year old, 25/26+ my mind did a whole mental shift. I hope you can find some light in life ❤ it will be the little things that get you through for sure.. sometimes it’s cheese, sometimes it’s a latte, sometimes it talking to a random person.
I wish you light, excellent vibes for 2024🎉❤
I think we need to allow people to tell all parts of their story. Living with the weight of knowing how comfortable death can be as compared to how painful life is is HARD. It can make those with depression even more unable to move past suicidal ideations. The key is finding things in life that are worth sticking around for. There’s so much left to see and live through in this life. So many positive experiences, and so much comfort. We’ve only got one go at this world as us. I hope she finds peace in this world. I’ve only just started to become more settled and happy at 26, and I still have a long way to go, but if I can turn it around anyone can. Much love to all of those who struggle with similar things.
Unfortunately it’s not that simple because if someone wants to go they will go and nothing no one can do about it. It’s selfish and cruel expecting those who are living unbearable amounts of pain to stay just because people want them to live. It’s like expecting an adult who’s got no quality of life to keep on living because we want them to stay because it’s sad. No one has a say over wether someone chooses to live or die and death by suicide will always happen because life is cruel and unless the world is a better place and people are better people it will keep on happening. Can I also say we don’t care about only having one go at life we don’t even want this one and we didn’t ask to be here we got put here out of no choice. You really underestimate those of us who are mentally unwell how much we have made peace with death.
I think what she means about missing dying is the fact she was calm for once she felt at peace in that moment which is a hard feeling to get back regardless of how she got that feeling
This story is so important, I think it's really good that Bri recognized that while she 'misses' that feeling she would never do this again because she knows how much it would hurt her family and friends. I don't think it's glamorizing it I think it's the reality of her life and that's the point of this show - for people to learn about others and what they are going through. The strength she has is incredible and I wish her all the best.
For a lot of people the thing that keeps them away from taking their lives is knowing how much it would hurt you loved ones
Also choosing to watch a video called TAKING MY OWN LIFE and blaming the guest for triggering you is……Wild……yall have to stop watching things that you know are gonna trigger you. It’s really sincerely not their fault, they’re talking about their own life and experiences bro…
after she said “i miss it”, wow, i am praying for her to receive the help she needs and to have a really good support system because it is so scary she feels that way now. i can’t finish this episode now, she’s no where near healed and it’s a hard watch.
hey :"~)! i am doing much much better and not having any of those thoughts anymore, don't worry haha! i meant i miss it as in i miss the peace i felt.. that's all! :~)
@@briyoncegreerI’m so glad u are doing better!! You have been through so much at so young 😢
For everyone saying she is glorifying suicide, yes, maybe she is. BUT She is NOT the only one describing death as a „good“ feeling. Maybe she hasn’t healed and matured at all, but maybe she is also telling the truth about how death feels like in general. Many people that experienced death, wether it’s because of suicide or other circumstances, describe it as something peaceful and when they came back they actually felt sad and not ready for life. I think her feelings about death need to be validated as much as the feeling of someone glorifying life. Yes, life is hard. It’s not easy. Some people lose the spark for life and we need to hear them out too. I hope she finds a way to find peace in her life and not in her death.
I think this would've been better served more than one year out from the event, and after a lot more recovery and maturing. I'm used to these stories having a much more stable resolution at the end. I was left still really fearing for Bri's life while she doesn't seem to at all, and I don't know how much the internet - especially impressionable, unstable, depressive people - need to hear about the euphoria of succeeding in s*icide...
Nothing against her but I couldn't watch her long enough to make it to the "conclusion." She couldn't tell a coherent story or avoid shitting on various people (Christians, her friends, cops who helped save her life, etc.) throughout her interview. She still strikes me as having no insight & needing mental healthcare. I have therapy twice a week due to extreme trauma. Sometimes we need to get healthier before we start trying to share our trauma with others. She needed to tell this story from start to finish to a couple friends because coming on & fumbling through a podcast. I worry she is still a danger to herself.
@@princesskileyraei mean it’s always fuck cops and christian’s. he didn’t lie when he said that stuff.
Then use discretion when watching this kind of stuff if you are easily triggered. This is why they have trigger warnings.
Thank you! The title literally insinuates hard topics being discussed... People need to realize that just because a video didn't go how they wanted it to, that they don't HAVE TO voice their frustrations with it. Like, not every video is going to please you. It's pointless to waste your time commenting..@@Natasha_-_
I didn't watch this video with the hopes that it would "please me" and I was not triggered by it. There is nothing pleasing about many of the stories on this channel, but a good majority of them are told by people who have a lot more mental maturity about whatever experience they're sharing than does Bri. It's perfectly ok for me to say that I believe some things don't belong on the internet, and this is one of them. I am both a mother and have persistent depressive disorder. I can see this young lady from both angles and I really, really hurt for her. I think she needs a tighter circle of support and recovery before she gives the story to an audience of at least 400,000 people who could be influenced by her claims of euphoric self death.
I don't expect at all that that will have any influence on whether the video will stay up, but I have just as much right to share my concern as you do your...whatever you feel about this story.
this one... this one got me. hearing them describe how all they wanted to do was call for their mom brought me to tears. I'm so glad they're still with us. thank you so much for sharing these stories; this display of strength is awe-inspiring.
I love how they mannage to have a very open conversation about topics that are often very very hard to think about much less speak. and i think this story is important to hear.
Her maturity level is like a -50. She needs more time to heal and understand the reality of what she did/went through. It’s as if she’s still a 13 year old. I do truly hope she finds love, comfort and happiness.
i get where you're coming from but don't forget that this person got brain damage from dying + probably some more from severe drug abuse
@@personperson3629true, but she did it to herself. And she did come on here knowing that people will have their own opinions about this.
Why do you think she's immature? Genuinely asking
@@nicoler8084 the way she talks about something so serious and her mannerisms
Can I also just throw in besides the brain damage and drug use - if she was sexually abused and any trauma from family can also damage your memory/brain. Sort of like how DID/OSDD works. Your brain gets stunted at certain times because ~trauma~. Unfortunately I share this all too well.
She sounds very immature. I hope she seeks help and recovers soon.
I agree. Around 17 minutes after hearing her talk so poorly about the very people trying to help her I couldn’t keep listening.
@@greenpeacesign420 Agreed, very hard to listen to. She seems very lost. I hope she watches this and reflects a little bit.
Yea… your right.
@@greenpeacesign420 keep it to yourself, babes. People are healing here, not being perfect speakers and presenters of their own trauma and life experience. This isn’t a novel, and people aren’t edited like the Reddit stories on smosh for ffs.
Agreed:/
I had a hard time watching this video in full because of how she was almost promoting suicide and telling people how amazing it was and how she still wishes for it. This worries me for young audiences who may be watching and thinking this is a green light to do the same. I usually love all videos on this channel but this one I was a little shocked that it was posted or not edited at some parts about glorifying suicide and how amazing death is.
Of course I feel for her and it hurts watching someone go through this 😕 I wish the best for her and overcome the obstacles that trauma has brought her in her life.
Same it was making me uncomfortable. I was kind of wondering why she wanted to be on the podcast when she clearly isn’t healed and still needs a lot of help. I’ll be praying for her.
exactly!! if i would have heard this even months ago it would’ve took away my anxiety towards what happens after committing.
I can’t watch the rest of this because it’s very obvious she is extremely immature, unstable and still needs a lotttt of help. I hope that she gets the help that she needs and succeeds in whatever she wants to do in life 💜
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Same
I know it may not be what we want to hear, depth wise, and yes, everything is still pretty fresh for Bri.. however I really appreciate Bri’s RAW way of expression because this is a reality for many people. We don’t always have to hear the rainbows and butterflies at the end of every story.. this is very real too. This also deserves to be heard. Someone still navigating through deep pain. Shit, I am too. It also helped me make a little more peace with death honestly. Because.. well we’re all going to die anyway. So thank you Bri for being authentic & sharing your voice with us however it came out. 🫶
all of you shaming the guest for sharing their experience- with multiple trigger warnings and the title alone- is why people don't share and probably why it is so hard to recover after attempts and SI. Keep that in mind next time you go keyboard warrior it out and think of how bad that person is hurting ❤
She needs to share this story with a therapist and trusted friends and family who are in a space to hear this and process it appropriately, not the world wide internet of anyone and everyone with various degrees of mental health issues who could be unbearably triggered by her glorification and justification of suicide and death. She is brave for telling her story, but irresponsible for sharing it before she is healed and can provide perspective of someone whose done the work to overcome the suicidal ideations and can be a role model to others by giving them hope on the other side of suicide attempts. All this did was make suicide appealing
this girl is way too immature to be telling her story yet. mental illness/suicide is real and should never be glamorized. and the way she talks about god and police officers and cussing constantly shows her immaturity. hopefully she matures and heals.
people show their trauma in different ways, just because you would show it different doesn’t mean she’s immature or less than, if cussing while talking about attempting suicide is immature you need to find a new definition of immature.
This is how I felt watching this
i relate to her story. bless her. i’m sending her love, hugs, and prayers.❤
I’m glad we’re still here ❤ thanks for sharing
I have to say I agreed with some others here. I don’t feel like this should have been an episode. This girl clearly still needs a lot of help. Her glorifying her death can’t be helpful to anyone who is struggling with suicidal thoughts. I really hope she heals and finds happiness. She will be in my prayers 🙁
Seriously. Feels super irresponsible
Just because she hasn’t had the time everyone else has to recover etc. doesn’t mean her experience is any less. Everyone is different and feels differently but this is her story and no one else’s.
does it need to be helpful?
@@wasalLETSexactly my point
you need to realize that there isn’t always happy endings
Bri you have a sweet beautiful soul. I am only 18 minutes in and I have to walk into work, but I wanted to mention that a part of recovery and healing is helping others. You have great potential to connect with others and help them from a very dark place, and in turn that can help you heal. Keep going… Even if it is just moment to moment. Give yourself grace. ❤
Just finished it and I do feel bad for the guest, but I also thought they were a bad guest, there was no depth or purpose to their story and I feel a lot was false or exaggerated and in the end I did not believe them at all. They have an addictive personality, they were getting drugs for free, they were addicted to weed, cocaine, xanax, alcohol, cigarettes, fitness, they had an eating disorder yet passed over everything and now come across completely fine - no struggle, no experiences shared or nothing.
Definitely the worst podcast on the channel so far and an extremely questionable guest.
That’s my partner and they actually did go through all of that you have no right to judge someone else’s shoes if you have not been in them.
I definitely agree, no they weren’t in their shoes but they can say their opinion just like you can choose to not like it, both are okay and you can both live and go on about your lives and choose to not let it affect you….
@@Andiparkerrstill, she glorified su*cide, that’s not cool at all.
I agree. A lot of it was hard to believe.
@@bj_ohnsonthey are still recovering from their attempt, they are going to view it as a way out still and a good thing.
Yeah this guest was definitely not ready to talk about this subject in a productive manner, especially since they look back on being dead so fondly. It’s almost like they are trying to be as triggering as possible. Super dangerous conversation to broadcast on the internet, especially since they discuss suicide so flippantly.
Watching this as someone who hasn’t harmed themselves or attempted, but still feels so much disdain living their day to day life, this episode was really comforting in a way. I assumed this was gonna be another story of a failed attempt and someone changing their lives around, but hearing that they miss that short lived moment of not being here … It feels like I’m the only person who wishes they weren’t here, and couldn’t fathom how others are still livinggggg.
It’s so sad how many bad things can happen to one person. I’m so glad that she’s still here to talk about it and spread awareness. I wish the best for her for real, she deserves the world.
i litterally love the fact that she had the confidence to talk about these strong issues ,, watching this video helped me so much more then i think you guys realize i am so beyond happy for you and keep up doing best for you bri ! i'm so proud of you cus i know it's hard !
Just wanted to say that it's very important to never mention in detail how you tried to take your life. Never give amounts of meds, name meds or anything in that similar line. It gives vulnerable potentially mentally ill people ideas and is not safe. I think she is extremely brave to share but definitely think this should be considered for future episodes
I agree with this 100%, I’m someone who sh’s often and has su****al thoughts a lot, so when this person mentioned how they attempted, it gave me ideas. thank you for sharing this point of view
I really hope that Bree has found support and safety in the presence of a good trauma therapist that they trust. That's so important.
Oh, they are seeing a therapist who they connect with well now - I am glad.
Such a beautiful angel! So glad she’s still here with us. 💟
based on bri’s instagram bio, his pronouns are he/him! sending lots of love, and so happy he’s still here and able to share this moving story. ❤️
Thanks!
She is a girl
That’s a girl… 🤦🏻♀️
He wants to be called he/him thank you @@unapologeticallynikki
Yeah, no.
Defiantly a weird episode listening to her glorify being dead. I really hope this girl is still getting help. The way she talked about all this sounds was very unsettling
Kinda the point of the channel to talk about their traumas and shit
She said she’s in therapy, recovery can be awkward and uncomfortable all she is doing is being honest with a dash of humor to ease those emotions.
@@daishamaxwell461 true but you don’t want to be glorifying it, think about the kids that are considering this and watch this episode looking for help and then they hear how awesome it was to be dead, that could push them to actually do it. That’s all I’m saying
@@grayhills6794 true but you don’t want to be glorifying it, think about the kids that are considering this and watch this episode looking for help and then they hear how awesome it was to be dead, that could push them to actually do it. That’s all I’m saying
@@brandonjohnson7559 I’m 19 hun- I’ve been through almost everything she has. Without the drugs and more. So i know how she feels
this episode is very iffy and i don’t doubt their pain at all, but wow. taking your life and eds and sh is not “slay” and the glorification of this all is insane. also the constant use of misused AAVE made this episode extremely hard to listen to
Oh my god yes. I cannot stand this guest at all.💀
the whole vibe i got from her is that she’s extremely lost. her entire personality seems to be derived from internet trends which is so sad because there’s really no way to heal unless ur authentically urself and aware of your real identity
This story touched me. I currently struggle with severe chronic depressive disorder and have to take medication everyday. I've never attempted suicide but I have fantasized about ending the constant mental pain and how nice it would be to just be at peace and to be nothing but quiet and dark. Hearing your story helps me know that I'm not alone and coming from someone who still currently misses the feeling of dying say that there are moments in life that make her feel that she's still glad to be alive makes me feel like I can find happiness too ❤ thank you for much for sharing Brianna ❤❤❤❤
Thank you for sharing. You DO have a purpose. I hope you get to do all the things that can bring you peace in life and make u happy in life.
I agree. Sometimes people take the liberty to judge others when they have no business doing so! This podcast reaches out to so many different types of issues, and people which is wonderful. Someone may be going through something very similar, and will reach out for help!❤
It seems like things that are hard for all of us feels extra hard for them. I hope they can find peace in life and things get easier.
Kuddos to their family - this is a nightmare to live in and many parents may have given up by now.
so so happy they r still here on earth with us 🩷
That’s crazy that a doctor would prescribe her the same drug for insomnia that she killed herself with. This is very concerning.
I don't think she was ready to tell this story. I don't wanna speak for her, but she came across to me as she is still dealing with alot and is still suicidal. i worry that her choice in words might encourage others to do the same. hope she's ok.
I really want to watch this but I can’t handle the gum chewing
i found it helpful to put the volume low and play it out loud (no headphones). i really struggled to watch bc of the mouth noises but this made it somewhat better
She may have a dry mouth from anxiety, but yeah, I’m also struggling to listen to the gum chewing and saliva sounds.
I hope they continue to heal, especially if they miss the feeling of death, i know there is no being fully healed, but i hope that one day they don't have to miss death and find a sort of peace in living.
Grieving the person you once were is so tough. ❤
Jesus please help her, I don’t think she realizes how far she still has to come
As soon as as she said she doesn’t believe in God, I see why it’s hard for her to want to live.
@@ceresewilliams9423I don’t think religion plays a part in her story. There are so many non religious people, who aren’t suicidal
nobody can except herself. she needs to do the healing steps, but there are also people who are so severely depressed that they can’t heal. i really wish her the best and i hope some day she will be ready to heal and i hope that she can heal
devorah i love the pod but don’t let guests chew gum while they talk it’s so distracting😭😭
They might be chewing gum as a coping strategy but I get it lol, The chewing sounds are distracting
it’s relaxing to me but ify
i didn’t even notice….
Glad she is still here
I hope this person heals one day and finds joy in life.
grateful you’re still here💜
Some people are not taking in the fact that she is not fully healed yet, everyone has their own ways of healing. She probably can only talk about her life this way due to feeling awkward or just coping with Humor. Not everyone is perfect.
I empathise with this woman so much, my 1st suicide attempt was when I was 12 too!
I grew up in a very violent household and I tried to kill myself to stop the fighting.
I grabbed the pull down light switch in the bathroom and tried to hang myself with it.
The switches in England have a safety clip on them that I didn't notice, but of course, the clip activated and released the pull switch and I fell down.
The fighting didn't stop and I didn't stop wanting to garner the attention to stop it, I now find it hard to deal with confrontation, loud bangs scare me, I have severe PTSD, severe anxiety and severe depression. (All now diagnosed)
I was "fine" for a series of years until there was a very large trigger, which made me spiral to the point where I would go to a bridge near our house and stand there waiting for the traffic to go by below, with my eyes closed and listen to the rush of wind and cars to try and soothe the want to die.
I started doing a mental health course and finding correlations between me and triggers and I went to the doctors and they got me into therapy very quickly, put me on a high risk register, and I did CBT. Best thing I'd ever done.
On another note though, she seems like she needs some more help to deal with her mental health issues.
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„All the girls had crushes on me“ pls tell me how that was a important for the interview ☠️
I understood how she felt so deeply when she talked about mainly having dreams about the psych ward and mental hospital not even the attempt itself. I felt that on another level
Its like if her mindset is still stuck in her teen years, this must be so triggering forr your younger audience
"Most of the girls had crushes on me" tf was that
tf was this entire thing
Yall appreciate mental illness convos but get weirded out by people with real mental illness lmao
Dear Bri, I'm glad you are here. Stay here, the world needs intelligent, compassionate people like yourself. Good that things are better for you now and that you are beginning to feel love for yourself. As you said at the end you do have a purpose and giving love feels so good. I also love the fact that you are vegan, it shows your big heart. Wish you the best!
I appreciated the transparency it’s what I’m here for
Idk if they’re immature or trying to overcompensate
theyre traumatized and use humor to cope
hey guys! i also just wanted to mention that i just finally realized what meds they were. it's not my sleeping meds! that's all i just wanted everyone to know :")!
Hi bri, just wanted to saying thank u for sharing ur story, especially during an age where people froth at the mouth to post terrible things behind the comfort of anonymity. Life will always have its ups and downs, but it’s good you’ve reported feeling better these days. Take care!
I understand her frustration, but calling the authorities for help and then insulting them is kind of ridiculous
I agree, you can speak about your issues. But don’t disrespect others.
@@jessalyn2468this just shows how old she actually is. In her brain. It just shows her drug abuse didn’t let her develop mentally and has her stuck in her 12-16 year old stage.
This!!
why tf she is allowed to chew gum in a podcast
This was painful to watch, on a few levels 🫤🤦♀️
I really don’t like it when podcast hosts don’t tell the guest to spit the gum out. I’m literally unable to listen to it lol. The mic quality is almost too good so now I’m supposed to listen to her chew gum the entire time?
It’s pretty concerning and scary to hear about how the parents were providing them with drugs and alcohol when they were underage, especially knowing their mental health history.
This story is so relatable. Somehow though the process of the triggers leading to remembering the nightmares of my past have simply left me incredibly grateful for the life I live today. If you were to tell me not only would I live, but i would LOVE my life. Pshh i would have thought that was crazy. But here i am! Props to this guest for the vulnerability in sharong their experience.
I'm bawling after this video. Alot of the things said I felt before my suicide attempt.learning how to walk again is so hard.
I feel for her but she’s got so much maturing to do for herself,and that alone would also be a part of healing, I feel like she jokes about it to help her through it but she still seems afraid to actually accept what happened, and she also seems very entitled to what she believes in but constantly is putting others down for their beliefs or what they say. This episode was definitely frustrating to sit through the whole way!
Mental health patients are treated in such a dehumanizing way in Tennessee. I went to 2 psych wards in TN and both times just made me was to kms more and try harder next time. One of them was FOUR HOURS away from my house and thankfully they let my mom transport me. For me the reason was because that was the nearest one that had a bed open and when you attempt suicide they have to find you placement no matter how far
you all talk about supporting people with mental illness but when a mentally ill person starts talking you all put them down. I really enjoyed the rawness of this episode, you don't get to hear about these thoughts often. It's a new perspective and all I wish for Bri is that he will somehow find peace through life and start to heal and that's what all of you should be doing.
I really needed this, thank you ❤
Calling people pigs who are trying to help you is so heart wrenching.
pigs are wonderful creatures
I hope she gets all the help she needs and i hope she can feel happiness again. It sucks to be stuck in those feelings.
I remember meeting Bri at Play Nashville! Him and Andi are some of the best people ever! They are so sweet and I’m so glad I met them! I remember making Bri a heart out of a dollar bill and seeing his excitement made my night!!
omg!!!!!! you're the angel I will never forget :""")))
Despite from it being a tragic story it was a very inspiring interview. I appreciate that person telling their story so openly
Inspiring how???? There was no healing at the end…
@@NickyZag This person is young and still healing.❤️🩹 There’s potential and time will tell no?
She makes me feel like it’s all a joke to her. Very sad! Hope she gets the help she clearly needs!
I think it is the trauma
it’s a coping mechanism
its a coping mechanism but also i do agree that she needs help, shes clearly not okay still
They wouldn’t talk to my parents or let me talk to them even after 8 weeks. It was awful😭
My daughter took pills and was extremely non-chalant about it. It took her several years to finally come to grips with what she really did that day and why.