Great read, honestly, part of me wants to walk away for good but I suppose there is a small window of hope, the ball is in her court. I am focused on pursuing my passions and loving myself. It’s all about respect and she needs to be humbled. 😅
He is very damaged & unhealed from his "childhood traumas" & mommy & daddy issues, I learned. Too stubborn & egocentric. He is a people pleaser, in my opinion. He allowed a toxic Jezebel along with his other toxic friends & a family member to interfere in our relationship. He has a poor self image & money is very important to his image. He was the only boy with two sisters. He got punished by his mother. His dad was a drunk, he had told me & would disappear for three days @ a time. Very dysfuntional family. He stays in his head all the time Mind games. Narcissistic traits. He can't come from his "true" self cuz he doesn't know who he is. He learned to wear a mask since he was child, I was advised. A survival method. Taught not to feel. He has, I believe, an "Avoidant Attachment." A runner. Scared to get too close that's why he likes having "options" on the side. You mentioned "bipolar" and it has occured to me he might be. He has to "heal" with a professional. Doubt he will. (I can't allow myself to take a "risk" again with him.) I never allowed him to "go all the way" with me cuz I was celibate & sensed he was used to get his way with women. I am very "spiritual" and he's not . I do still love him but afraid to trust him unless he starts healing. Our relationship wasn't based on sex, although he wanted it. (He knows what "love" looks like because I showed him. He prayed to have GOD for someone like me & when he got me, he didn't know how to handle "love" so he sabotaged us. Betrayed me. My heart was broken 💔. Took my pain & sorrow & poured it into my healing & my poetry.) I have learned a lot about myself & about him in these past three years of separation. (We weren't married & we did not live together.) I helped him get a short story published. He did pay me a small amount for this. Love 💕 how you explain all of this. Thank you so much my fellow, Virgo...very deep & thought provoking.
Amazing reading thanks L❤
I am a people pleaser in recovery. I use to over give to much. Thanks for the message.
Great read, honestly, part of me wants to walk away for good but I suppose there is a small window of hope, the ball is in her court. I am focused on pursuing my passions and loving myself. It’s all about respect and she needs to be humbled. 😅
this was a difficult one to sit through tbh 😓
He is very damaged & unhealed from his "childhood traumas" & mommy & daddy issues, I learned. Too stubborn & egocentric. He is a people pleaser, in my opinion.
He allowed a toxic Jezebel along with his other toxic friends & a family member to interfere in our relationship. He has a poor self image & money is very important to his image. He was the only boy with two sisters. He got punished by his mother. His dad was a drunk, he had told me & would disappear for three days @ a time. Very dysfuntional family.
He stays in his head all the time
Mind games. Narcissistic traits.
He can't come from his "true" self
cuz he doesn't know who he is.
He learned to wear a mask since
he was child, I was advised. A survival method. Taught not to feel.
He has, I believe, an "Avoidant Attachment." A runner. Scared
to get too close that's why he
likes having "options" on the side.
You mentioned "bipolar" and it has occured to me he might be.
He has to "heal" with a professional. Doubt he will. (I can't allow myself to take a "risk"
again with him.) I never allowed him to "go all the way" with me cuz I was celibate & sensed he
was used to get his way with women. I am very "spiritual" and he's not . I do still love him but afraid to trust him unless he starts healing. Our relationship
wasn't based on sex, although he
wanted it.
(He knows what "love" looks like because I showed him. He prayed to have GOD for someone like me & when he got me, he didn't know how to handle "love" so he sabotaged us. Betrayed me. My heart was broken 💔. Took my pain & sorrow & poured it into my healing & my poetry.)
I have learned a lot about myself & about him in these past three years of separation. (We weren't married & we did not live together.) I helped him get a short story published. He did pay me a small amount for this.
Love 💕 how you explain all of this. Thank you so much my fellow, Virgo...very deep & thought
provoking.
U deserve better one ❤
Cuz Ur a EMPRESS 👸🏻❤
😂
Malicious-ness
what an ugly word