I wanted to end it all before I realized this...

You are not alone...I felt like my life was over but it's actually only just begun.
Suicide Prevention Hotline: US National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255).
Crisis Text Line: US Crisis Text Line can be reached by texting HOME to 741741.
Online Chat Support: communicate with trained professionals in real-time. Websites like Crisis Chat (crisischat.org) offer this service.
Therapist Directories: psychologytoday.com allows users to search for therapists based on location and specialty.
Support Groups: Websites like Reddit have supportive communities such as r/SuicideWatch and r/depression.
Emergency Services: If you are in immediate danger or experiencing a crisis, call emergency services or go to the nearest emergency room for help.