| "MHA Superhero's & Villains react to Tanjiro & Kanao"| 1/? | Made By: ItzMaeツ

Re-uploaded, I'm too unmotivated, But I still need to upload. And, I'm still recovering from the things that's happening in real life, No family problems no natta natta, Nope. I have a great and loving family! It's just my health problem, Checkups on doctor's every few weeks, And if I do make it out in 5 days. I'll try, And be more motivated in uploading new video's, All I can do is do what I want but. I also do want to continue.
Never in my life have I ever questioned if I should continue this 'job', Because it let's me make content. But I found other things too while doing this content, Creativity and motivation. But right now, I feel like. I'm only doing this because, I'm running away from reality. I've never got to ask, That in the future. I'll end up being a complete mess, Mentally I'm not okay, And I know it. I can see it. I just don't know how to handle it, I have a supporting and kind and wonderful family supporting everything and I mean everything I do.
I love them everyone, Even my annoying brother, I've never been this expressive in a description before. Never, I tried to never do because it'll just me be rambling, But. I feel like I've been keeping you guys from the reason why I re-upload my video's. The reason is because financials, I know it's something that's known. But, I want to do this and it was MY decision, There was never a Time I didn't make my OWN decision in listening to what my parents need. Because I also want to help them, They've done so much for me.
And yet, I'm being the problem with everything but they've loved me so much and supported me. Even with my decision's they're so loving, So, Don't feel pity for me don't worry I know it's all for good, And I appreciate it really. But part of me often ignores those thing's. Because I was never the type to listen to anything that's.. 'Supporting'.
I've had parent's support me, Family who supports me too. I understand that. But even when it comes to them, I never really understood the word 'support' means. Sorry, If it's too much rambling, I just wanted to tell you guys this because I have my reason's why I re-upload my video's, I know it's lazy and is an Excuse.
But it's what's supporting my family and me, Family comes first. Before anything else.
To be honest, I feel like my chest has this empty hole in it and it's cold. I don't understand why, But I can feel it. I love my family, I just, Question thing's. Like normal people who question they're own self worth and how long would they live to see the day.
And I've been a slug and a very very very Couch potato, I can't even cook any food because heck I don't wanna burn myself, It's stupid yes. But I know very well that if I try to turn on the stove than I would've burned the house down! Don't blame me if I don't know how to cook! At least I know how to admit I'm a p*ssy when it comes to just turning on the stove.
Anyways, I just wanted to say this. I needed to say this because I wanted too, And also for me to tell about my real life, My experience in.. Becoming an adult. I'm almost an Adult. I'm there, But I'm still childish and I need work. But, I have time. But that time is also something I want to pass quickly.
I'm stubborn and always acting harshly in talking when I'm angry, So there's no getting that away. But I do kinda try to keep that at bay when I'm outside. But when I'm at home, Well my voice is very free lol, So loud.
Anyways anyways, So. I'll see yah guys bye! And thank you, To whoever is reading this. I appreciate the time you read this long or 'short' ramble, Again. This isn't something I want you to see as me ranting. I just want to also share myself to you, And I feel like. I've never been the best in expressing my own self.
And, I know I need to learn and grow, But for me who's been inside of my nest for too long and have always been told to go forward, I never tried because I was scared. Because I've grown up yes, But I never want to leave the nest because I know the world is different from my view. And I feel safer when I'm around the people I know because I can well be as honest I can be. Even if it does make me more bratty, Lol.
I'm a Papa's girl and My brother is a Mama's boy, But really we're both our Parent's children. Just, Different from eachother.
Thanks for reading. 💖
p.s: Sorry if it's long, I was never the type to stop when I tell anyone about myself. Again, Thank you. 💖💖💖