I just found your tea and toastmas. I wish i lived near you so i can show you how to knit 😅 I love knitting now but totally struggled when i first started. I would suggest getting a fixed circular needle instead of straight needles. Dont give up! Good luck!
I just found your tea and toastmas and love it! Good luck with the knitting… If it doesn’t come back to you easily, I would suggest using a scrap yarn to cast on and practice a little before you start the project. I also loved Very Pink Knits on RUclips for tutorials. Good luck! I can’t wait to see your scarf.
I think I’ve decided to put knitting on hold in favour of crochet until I can find an in person knitting circle, but I will definitely check out your RUclips suggestion! Thank you for that. Also, I just subscribed to you! Looks like my kind of vibes 😉👌🏼🧶
I just wanted to say thank you for sharing your feelings with us. I’m kind of going through some emotional times right now myself and it just helped hearing from you thank you.
I am so sorry to hear that you’re struggling and I am so glad that you found some comfort in my sharing. That’s the number one reason I share:in the hopes of making others feel less alone. Hugs friend. I’m so glad you’re here.
I found your channel last Christmas with your tea and toastmas videos. I am so glad you are doing it again this year. My daughter and I watch them together ❤️
Oh my heart! That makes me so happy! There are so many channels we watch together, so that we could be that for someone is so special ❤️. Thank you for being here
This is the first video I’ve seen of yours and I’m already hooked. I’m tapering off my meds right now and it’s crazy. Maybe the holidays aren’t the best time lol can’t wait to watch more of your videos. Good luck on your journey to get off the meds. I know it’s not easy.
Awe! That means so much that you’re here! It’s definitely a tricky business getting off of them, but I’m quickly learning that slow and steady wins the race. Upon reflection, I think I will stay on 10mg over the holidays and into the dark months when SAD tends to find me…I love winter, but my brain and body misses the vitamin D 😬. Best of luck to you and thank you for being here ❤️
Oh my that color combo has my heart! I’m guessing the knitting hashtag brought your video to me! You tube is a great way to learn things…it’s how I got back into knitting in my 40s too! Less judgement and sooo many different ways (not just a right way) but if you need to ask questions I would find a yarn store you can go to…a quick google search should help! I look forward to watching your channel more as I was a homeschooling mom that sent my kids to high school and I love all things cozy and kind! ❤ thanks for sharing your struggles and your solutions I need to dig deeper in this season! I love nature and want to get back out to walking!
I’m loving the colour combo as well! I think it will be super cute and a fun pop of colour. I’m so glad you’re here! I would love to know more about your homeschool journey. Going to high school was not in the plan, but it’s been such a positive experience so far. I’m glad the algorithm gods brought you here ❤️🧶
I'm glad you're taking care of yourself and being patient, I just ask that you grant yourself the time to continue to self-reflect. Whether or not you can get off the medication or you end up staying on it, you are worth the effort it takes to figure out what's best for you! Also, love that you are trying knitting after crochet. I started with crochet and am now an avid knitter. Crochet just doesn't jive with my hands lol
Thank you so much for the kind words! I am absolutely taking my time and always trying to be self aware. I was really trying to push it along, but now that I’m back on 10mg and feeling more like myself and less numb, I am happy to stay here until it no longer feels right. I actually did knit when I was first pregnant 16 years ago, but crochet just feels so natural. I much prefer the look of most knitting over crochet though so that’s why I am so keen to learn. Thank you for being here and taking the time to write ❤️🌻🧶
Oh I really wish I was there to start it off for you learnt to knit when I was eight years old made my first cardigan when I was eleven. 62 now I always knit bottom up garments nowadays they make knitting seem so complicated english style is easier especially for beginners good luck keep practising
Awe, you’re so kind! I really do feel I need a knitting mentor to sit with often. I will be looking to see if there is a local knitting circle I can frequent. Thats so impressive that you learned so young!! Thank you for the encouragement ❤️🧶
Great video. You are not alone with the knitting problems lol. I have ripped out numerous rows because of the same problems as you experience. So I have just embraced the stockinette stitch and nothing more. No stress, I did for the first time this week added different colours. 😊 . Does that bookstore sell used books? I totally forgot that store was there, I have never been in. Looking forward to your future videos.
Ok, last comment 🤣 the crochet looks much better and is obviously a happier place for you! Keep going with it and learn to knit with someone by your side. I'll be so excited to watch your vlogmas. Also, you look so beautiful in that sweater.
Absolutely. My whole body relaxes when I crochet. I’ve been trying to find someone who can sit and teach me, but haven’t had luck yet. I am really looking forward to vlogmas! Thank you again ☺️
Pleasure to find you. You are beautiful and a delight. I am a knitter. I say, 'Cheaper than therapy.' Ha. But if you have a yarn shop near you, stop in and they can help you. Or pray for a knitting friend! Starting is the hardest part. When it goes wonky, call it a 'design element.' I subscribed and hit that bell. Much love❤
I’m so glad you’re here, friend! Thank you for such kind words ❤️ Someone mentioned a gallery in town here used to have a knitting circle so I will have to see if that’s still running. The yarn shop lady is willing, but I don’t want to bug her all the time 😉. I am so grateful for your support 🧶🫶🏻
I truly appreciate your honesty. I’m also loving the views I’m seeing in this video. You have been one of my favs since you reached out and noticed my video with Alex. I’m happy to see others seeing this video that is raw and open and yes very vulnerable. Many of us are suffering and not many people are talking about it in this honest way. I love a talking kitty. I remember your Santa mug collection. Love them. Your videos are so beautiful. I’m so excited you will be doing vlogmas with toast ans tea when you can. I’m doing mine on shorts and they have a 3 minute short now. ❤
You’ve honestly been so kind to me since finding each other. I have been blown away by all the kind comments and messages I’ve received as a result of this video. So many people are going through similar struggles and, if nothing else, it’s comforting to know we aren’t alone. Smitty is the most wonderful kitty. He’s 13 and, hopefully immortal 😏☺️. I was so sad not to be doing tea & toastmas, but Mike talked me into finding and buying a jam calendar! It was fun to so last year, but I felt I had failed. I didn’t realize there were 3 minute shorts now! That makes me so happy! Thank you for being here, friend 🌻🧶💕
@ your Mike is such a great partner for you. This is something Rich would have done too. I’m for sure going to give you some shoutouts on my tastings. If you would be ok with that? Another YT friend Kris got the same advent. You and Clementine always make it such fun. I notice most of your commenters are viewers and not also creators like us. This is so good! Most my commenter’s are creators and I’m often supporting their channels as well. I’m hoping one day I can have a nice group of viewers so I can relax a bit. I’m trying to find that balance if that makes any sense? I’m still working on getting out of the people pleasing phase of my life.
@@Lifeinthewyldewest yeah, he’s a good one for sure. I still feel silly vlogging in front of him, but he’s so supportive. I’m glad you have that too. For sure we can swap shout outs on the jam advent fun. We are so excited. For whatever reason this video has just gone off and has brought so many lovely new, kind, likeminded people to my channel and I am over the moon. Are you monetized yet? Hugs
@@the.ellemars nope not making any money on here. It’s become far less important to me. I was stressing out way too much and comparing myself to others and it sucks to feel that way. I’ll get that book because I trust you:)
I have panic attacks too. Frankly, they are a living nightmare. I am not on meds now, but might have to go back on. But I have been on them and still would get attacks so I think mine does not help with meds. So I am doing a lot of things to calm my nerves. Set backs does not mean failure either and am learning this as well. 10 mg is low so yeah, take it slow.
Ugh! I’m so sorry to hear you’re still struggling. I assume you’ve tried different meds? I wish I had some advice for you, but I hope you find relief soon.
I was on zoloft .. not sure how long.. 1 yr? year and a half? I needed it because of all of my health issues. I was on a 50mg dosage. When I decided to quit because I felt I was far enough past my illnesses, I went from 50 to 25.. But took 25mg for a month. Then I halved that for a month too. So clearing them out of my system went fairly well because I went slowly. I found I really no longer needed the medication (will definitely take again if needed). and found my creativity came back. I'm super happy to see you creating.
I’m so glad you’re of it and feeling good and creative again! It’s such a valuable tool and I’m so glad we have access to it. Mugs. I collect so many mugs. My prized possession is my Santa mug collection that grows every year! I just love meaningful ornaments. Mike’s mom used to send a yearly Newfoundland one so we have many, but they’re so heavy I almost need a metal tree like you say. Hugs 🥰
the most important thing to take while detoxing from anti depressants is magnesium . ( from my personal experience and my clients . ) Calm gummies are good. Epsom Salt baths also good.
I don’t know if you realize it but your brain your mindset is in a designer state of mind. You’re creating your designing your inventing right now. It might feel frustrating but you’re trying and you’re going through it and you’re gonna learn so much from it just wait. Don’t give up.
I feel the exact way about crochet that you do about knitting 😝 Your crochet scarf is gorgeous, I love that stitch! And you're so right, it'd be helpful if the medication part of mental health was discussed more. I'm on anti anxiety meds for my IBS, and when I say it's been life changing for my gut and my mind, it's not hyperbole. Our bodies sometimes need some help, and how amazing us it that we live in a time with medications that can do just that! I'm so sorry you had that awful panic episode, glad you found your current sweet spot. The fact that you're listening to yourself and are questioning what you need and what works for you or doesn't shows such self awareness 💓
Haha! Oh my god, that boggles my mind, but you’re not the first person to say that about crochet vs knitting! It just makes so much sense to me and knitting does not compute 😂. That is so interesting. I never knew it could help IBS! Yes, I feel to blessed to live in a time that it’s available and we are losing the harmful attitudes and stigma around it. Thank you so much for watching and for taking the time to share ❤️🧶
Hello! 2 things. . Im taking a picture of you to the hair salon. It is exactly what I've wanted! Im 50 with hair to my hips. I love love your hair! I'll need a perm..is yours natural? I imagine I see you as "lucky" with those beautiful curls! Anyway! Love it!! 2nd.... im glad I found you! Vlogmas was a good way to burst into the youtube world! Clementine is too cute..and so fun! That was 2 things there so here's a 4th.... ii suffer too and hope to make changes this year. I need BIG changes. I need joy. I hope you find peace and your winter arch helps sooth your soul this winter. Light candles if ya can! ❤ nice to meet ya! Good job here.. imma binge!
Haha! Oh my goodness my hair is getting a lot of love! Yes, it’s natural and this is mostly a homemade haircut because I was growing it a little and decided I hated it so chopped it 😂… I am so glad you found me and that there are so many new and kind faces here. My heart! I started tea and toastmas last year, but it didn’t gain nearly as many new people. I am really looking forward to the winter arc. We can do it together 🥰 The idea that anyone wants to binge my videos is more than I can handle ☺️☺️☺️. Thank you for being here
You have done the right thing by undoing something which irritates you. I always end up undoing and reknitting everything i make. You could use the same colourways wirh a different stiitch like a double rib or similar. There must be a knitting circle near you to give you advice. There are many different stitches on line im sure you will find the one for you.. cheers from New Zealand
Wow! New Zealand. How wonderful. I am so glad you’re here, friend. I’m not sure we have a local knitting circle. The woman who owns the yarn shop said she is happy to help, but I need a lot of supervision apparently 😂🧶!
It’s ok to start again, it’s in the starting and ripping out the knitting that the learning to knit occurs. You are doing a fabulous job. This is a slow craft…enjoy every stitch. AND when, not if, you screw up again, you can either restart or you can just leave it there and call it Wabi Sabi :)
Thank you! I haven’t been working on it since o started vlogmas so I need a slow day for cozy things soon! Yes, I find February makes me dip pretty hard so I may wait until spring ❤️
I am always knitting when I watch you so it was hard to see you struggle! May I suggest that you take floss or some sort of string and place it within your row, it's called a lifeline and it allows you to take it off the needles, tear back and have live stitches held to place back onto the needles. If you are able to knit in a circle that may be an easier way to just knit a tube and add tassels to your bind off to close it. Knitting takes practice, an expert was once a beginner. ;)
Oh that must be painful for you 😬😂…ha! I have never heard of that method, I will have to try it and play around with it for sure! Thank you for that ❤️🧶
The ‘loopy thing’ is called an accidental YO, yarn over :). Look at Tunisian crochet, a little more forgiving and when you have to pull it out you only have one stitch on the needle at the beginning of the round. And YES there is a knit stitch in Tunisian
Thank you for that! I actually made a lovely triangle scarf with Tunisian crochet a few years ago and really enjoyed it because it felt like a hybrid. Crochet really has my heart, but knitting is so pretty!
Hi - Jen from Pennsylvania here…glad I found your channel…I too suffer from anxiety and panic attacks. I learned to knit by watching Kristen Mangus at GoodKnitKisses on RUclips. Her videos (at least to me) were very straightforward and easy to learn from. I have been knitting for years but have wanted to learn crochet, so I finally taught myself from RUclips last year and am really enjoying it. Looking forward to watching your videos 🧶
Hi Jen! I’m so glad you’re here. I am sorry to hear you’re also suffering with anxiety and panic attacks. How are you managing it? Thank you for that RUclips recommendation! I will definitely check her out. I may never be a fluent knitter 😏, but I would like to be able to progress a little. I find crochet so relaxing. Thank you for taking the time to watch and reach out. It warms my heart 🧶❤️
@ I have been on citalopram for the past 16 years but have recently gone off it the past year. I have my medical marijuana card and use a daily tincture blend of cbd/thc that does help with my anxiety. I notice I mentally feel better the days I am able to exercise. And knitting has saved me so many times to keep my mind and hands busy!
Sometimes you have to get alone, quiet and no noise. I get upset when I try and try to knit a pattern and keep messing up. Usually put it away for a while. Then get it back out and try it again. That usually works for me. Please, don’t give up.❤
You just showed up in my feed, and I haven't really watched anything yet...but I have to ask about your fantastic hair! I think you may have a little thicker hair than I do, but our length and curl pattern is similar. Can I ask how you style it and what products you use? Excited to dive into your content 😊.
Awe! Yay, I’m so glad you’re here. I actually get that question a lot! Maybe I should do a video on that 🤔. Anyway, I don’t do or use anything fancy: wash it and condition it upside down and then, instead of a towel, my mom gave me a curly hair net plopping thingy which works like a charm. I use Not Your Mothers mousse and diffuse it upside down until mostly dry. It looks insane when I flip back over but it relaxes pretty quickly and this is the result. I chop my own hair mostly when I get the urge as well 😬😂 I hope that helps and that you stick around for vlogmas and beyond 🫶🏻
I have been on max dose 200 mg of antidepressant for over 25 years, I have tried twice to come off, once it took me over a year to slowly come off but each time the rebound effect was horrible, so now I have realized that I can't go off.
I’m so sorry you’ve struggled with coming off of them too, but it’s also a blessing to live in a time where we have access to these meds. Thank you for taking the time to share with me ❤️
A knitting tip that helped me so much was to learn about the anatomy or how knitting sits on the needle…it has helped in fixing mistakes and getting stitches back on needles…that and practice practice practice is what makes you familiar. Roxanne Richardsons RUclips videos are great helpers!
I think you’re totally right! I feel like that’s why I’m so fearful of mistakes, because I don’t understand the full mechanics. Thank you for the recommendations 🫶🏻
Oh… I would suggest…. Swatch a block of each color…. Lavender wool wash …. It will inspire your energy! It gives you joy to be close to your samples of end material feel 🎶😉♥️🎶
@@the.ellemarscheck out up to date info on Keto…..some ideas have been adjusted. There are also Vegan Keto diets…. Carb cycling after you work a simple meal plan !
You popped up on my recommendations even without being a witchy channel and thought... Fair play, don't know how the algorithm on this account knows that we have stuff in common (motherhood aside) but I'm in 👋🏽😅
Hi , try to join a knitting group at your yarn shop. I also suffer from anxiety, and knitting really calms me. You must just keep at it and you will never look back. You are so nice and pretty. The grace of God helps you through everything 🙏
Love tnis! I'm an avid knitter and thrifter. Crochet a little. Your sweaters look hand knit. I've battled anxiety and panic attacks in the past until therapist recommended escitalopram which brought immediate relief for me. When I tried to come off this year, I had panic attack the 6th night. I'm now on low dose of 5mg every other night. I hope you continue to find your best solution. As you said, everyone benefits! The knitting will come or not. Anything creative is wonderful!
Wow! I’m so happy you’ve found a good dose and medication that works for you. I feel like I’ve found a happy place that I’m willing to stay for sure. I am so glad to have another yarn loving thrifter here in my corner 🧶🌻❤️
Erin, if you want to "knit so bad" then go for it. It is just like any other new skill, takes some time, patience, and practice. That extra stitch you ended up with is the most common mistake in beginning knitting. Can't explain it to you but it will be a tremendous help to you to find someone in your area who is an experienced knitter and would be willing to sit and help you out. Learning to correct your mistakes is ESSENTIAL to becoming a good knitter who will stick with it and keep trying new techniques. Do you have a local yarn store near you? They always have knit nights where you gather with other knitters and they love to help you. I am enjoying your podcast. I live in Utah in the US but my ancestors helped to settle Hawkesbury in Ontario back in 1817. Such beautiful country. RUclips is also a great source for knitting tutorials. Check them out. I saw that Sandy By the Lakeside (who is also in Ontario) commented here and suggested trying Very Pink Knits tutorials. They are great. Good Luck with your knitting, Once you get going it will bring you such great joy and it is very therapeutic.
Haha! Yeah, it has been determined that I need a knitting mentor near me and our local yarn shop doesn’t have a knitting circle, sadly. I actually have knit a little sweater vest and many scarves, I just find crochet calming and makes so much more sense for some reason. I won’t ever stop trying to grasp it though. Thank you for the tips!
Hi. I left a comment on your last video about tapering down slowly. If I may ask. On what anti depressant are you? I am on Lexapro and I was for a long time on 10 mg. When I started to wean myself off I ask my doctor for two tablets of 5 mg. So I could cut one in half and I was able to take a little over 7 milligrams and now I am down to 5. I wait a few weeks between them. Now I have hardly any withdrawal symptoms. Hope this helps.
Yes! Thank you for that. I’m on Citalopram. Not sure they come in 10mg tablets or maybe my pharmacy doesn’t have them because no matter what dose I’m on, they give me 20mg tablets so I have to cut them. Not ideal and I don’t think I could cut it into quarters without it crumbling. But worth looking into for sure. 5mg would be ideal to continue weaning off.
Give your body a chance to balance out about two weeks without sugar and your body will stop craving it and start enjoying real sugar like fruit, apples, bananas your taste buds will light on fire when you bite into an apple. Trust me it’s gonna be fun.
@the.ellemars there used to be a knitting club located at the rails end gallery. Ladies getting together to knit and crochet. I'm not sure if they still meet there, but may be worth asking .
@ I should really listen to more podcasts! I’m such a visual person, I find them hard to get into, but it’s great to hear about good ones that are tried and true. Thank you!
Don’t give up! Crochet was my first love too. Keep going if you make a mistake. You will improve with every project you do. You can do it!
Thank you for the kind encouragement! It’s good to hear you crocheted first!
Love your honesty and openness.
I can’t tell you how much that means 🥹❤️
For me, when I learned how to fix my own mistakes, and really understood the anatomy of a stitch, that my knitting really took off!
I think that’s going to be key! I need to understand the stitch anatomy
I just found your tea and toastmas. I wish i lived near you so i can show you how to knit 😅 I love knitting now but totally struggled when i first started. I would suggest getting a fixed circular needle instead of straight needles. Dont give up! Good luck!
Awe that’s so sweet! I definitely need someone to walk me through all my mistakes. It’s good to know you struggled but figured it out.
I just found your tea and toastmas and love it! Good luck with the knitting… If it doesn’t come back to you easily, I would suggest using a scrap yarn to cast on and practice a little before you start the project. I also loved Very Pink Knits on RUclips for tutorials. Good luck! I can’t wait to see your scarf.
I think I’ve decided to put knitting on hold in favour of crochet until I can find an in person knitting circle, but I will definitely check out your RUclips suggestion! Thank you for that.
Also, I just subscribed to you! Looks like my kind of vibes 😉👌🏼🧶
I just wanted to say thank you for sharing your feelings with us. I’m kind of going through some emotional times right now myself and it just helped hearing from you thank you.
I am so sorry to hear that you’re struggling and I am so glad that you found some comfort in my sharing. That’s the number one reason I share:in the hopes of making others feel less alone. Hugs friend. I’m so glad you’re here.
I found your channel last Christmas with your tea and toastmas videos. I am so glad you are doing it again this year. My daughter and I watch them together ❤️
Oh my heart! That makes me so happy! There are so many channels we watch together, so that we could be that for someone is so special ❤️. Thank you for being here
This is the first video I’ve seen of yours and I’m already hooked. I’m tapering off my meds right now and it’s crazy. Maybe the holidays aren’t the best time lol can’t wait to watch more of your videos. Good luck on your journey to get off the meds. I know it’s not easy.
Awe! That means so much that you’re here! It’s definitely a tricky business getting off of them, but I’m quickly learning that slow and steady wins the race. Upon reflection, I think I will stay on 10mg over the holidays and into the dark months when SAD tends to find me…I love winter, but my brain and body misses the vitamin D 😬. Best of luck to you and thank you for being here ❤️
The crochet pattern is beautiful and the colors are lovely!
I really like it too!
Just found you . Not day one . We watch vlogmas for the bloopers . Leave it short . We just want to celebrate. Love the music . Will go to beginning.
Haha! Great tips/feedback! I’m glad you’re here 🥰
Oh my that color combo has my heart! I’m guessing the knitting hashtag brought your video to me! You tube is a great way to learn things…it’s how I got back into knitting in my 40s too! Less judgement and sooo many different ways (not just a right way) but if you need to ask questions I would find a yarn store you can go to…a quick google
search should help! I look forward to watching your channel more as I was a homeschooling mom that sent my kids to high school and I love all things cozy and kind! ❤ thanks for sharing your struggles and your solutions I need to dig deeper in this season! I love nature and want to get back out to walking!
I’m loving the colour combo as well! I think it will be super cute and a fun pop of colour.
I’m so glad you’re here! I would love to know more about your homeschool journey. Going to high school was not in the plan, but it’s been such a positive experience so far.
I’m glad the algorithm gods brought you here ❤️🧶
Yeah Tea and Toastmas will be back!!! Glad you are feeling better 👏
I’m so excited for it too!! 🎄
I'm glad you're taking care of yourself and being patient, I just ask that you grant yourself the time to continue to self-reflect. Whether or not you can get off the medication or you end up staying on it, you are worth the effort it takes to figure out what's best for you! Also, love that you are trying knitting after crochet. I started with crochet and am now an avid knitter. Crochet just doesn't jive with my hands lol
Thank you so much for the kind words! I am absolutely taking my time and always trying to be self aware. I was really trying to push it along, but now that I’m back on 10mg and feeling more like myself and less numb, I am happy to stay here until it no longer feels right.
I actually did knit when I was first pregnant 16 years ago, but crochet just feels so natural. I much prefer the look of most knitting over crochet though so that’s why I am so keen to learn.
Thank you for being here and taking the time to write ❤️🌻🧶
Oh I really wish I was there to start it off for you learnt to knit when I was eight years old made my first cardigan when I was eleven. 62 now I always knit bottom up garments nowadays they make knitting seem so complicated english style is easier especially for beginners good luck keep practising
Awe, you’re so kind! I really do feel I need a knitting mentor to sit with often. I will be looking to see if there is a local knitting circle I can frequent. Thats so impressive that you learned so young!!
Thank you for the encouragement ❤️🧶
I am so glad you are feeling better. I have been exactly where you are with mines (10 mg) and I just wanted to hug you!
Thank you so much. I can’t even tell you how much that means to me. I hope you’re also feeling good/better ❤️
Great video. You are not alone with the knitting problems lol. I have ripped out numerous rows because of the same problems as you experience. So I have just embraced the stockinette stitch and nothing more. No stress, I did for the first time this week added different colours. 😊 . Does that bookstore sell used books? I totally forgot that store was there, I have never been in. Looking forward to your future videos.
Haha! I’m glad I’m not alone in that! Yes, she does have quite a few second hand and reduced books. So glad we have it here ❤️
Ok, last comment 🤣 the crochet looks much better and is obviously a happier place for you! Keep going with it and learn to knit with someone by your side. I'll be so excited to watch your vlogmas. Also, you look so beautiful in that sweater.
Absolutely. My whole body relaxes when I crochet. I’ve been trying to find someone who can sit and teach me, but haven’t had luck yet.
I am really looking forward to vlogmas! Thank you again ☺️
Pleasure to find you. You are beautiful and a delight.
I am a knitter. I say, 'Cheaper than therapy.' Ha. But if you have a yarn shop near you, stop in and they can help you. Or pray for a knitting friend! Starting is the hardest part. When it goes wonky, call it a 'design element.'
I subscribed and hit that bell.
Much love❤
I’m so glad you’re here, friend! Thank you for such kind words ❤️
Someone mentioned a gallery in town here used to have a knitting circle so I will have to see if that’s still running. The yarn shop lady is willing, but I don’t want to bug her all the time 😉.
I am so grateful for your support 🧶🫶🏻
I truly appreciate your honesty. I’m also loving the views I’m seeing in this video. You have been one of my favs since you reached out and noticed my video with Alex. I’m happy to see others seeing this video that is raw and open and yes very vulnerable. Many of us are suffering and not many people are talking about it in this honest way.
I love a talking kitty.
I remember your Santa mug collection. Love them. Your videos are so beautiful. I’m so excited you will be doing vlogmas with toast ans tea when you can. I’m doing mine on shorts and they have a 3 minute short now. ❤
You’ve honestly been so kind to me since finding each other. I have been blown away by all the kind comments and messages I’ve received as a result of this video. So many people are going through similar struggles and, if nothing else, it’s comforting to know we aren’t alone.
Smitty is the most wonderful kitty. He’s 13 and, hopefully immortal 😏☺️.
I was so sad not to be doing tea & toastmas, but Mike talked me into finding and buying a jam calendar! It was fun to so last year, but I felt I had failed. I didn’t realize there were 3 minute shorts now! That makes me so happy!
Thank you for being here, friend 🌻🧶💕
@ your Mike is such a great partner for you. This is something Rich would have done too. I’m for sure going to give you some shoutouts on my tastings. If you would be ok with that? Another YT friend Kris got the same advent. You and Clementine always make it such fun.
I notice most of your commenters are viewers and not also creators like us. This is so good! Most my commenter’s are creators and I’m often supporting their channels as well. I’m hoping one day I can have a nice group of viewers so I can relax a bit. I’m trying to find that balance if that makes any sense? I’m still working on getting out of the people pleasing phase of my life.
@@Lifeinthewyldewest yeah, he’s a good one for sure. I still feel silly vlogging in front of him, but he’s so supportive. I’m glad you have that too. For sure we can swap shout outs on the jam advent fun. We are so excited.
For whatever reason this video has just gone off and has brought so many lovely new, kind, likeminded people to my channel and I am over the moon. Are you monetized yet?
Hugs
@@Lifeinthewyldewest oh! And I think I mentioned this to you before, but you need to read The Practice by Seth Godin.
@@the.ellemars nope not making any money on here. It’s become far less important to me. I was stressing out way too much and comparing myself to others and it sucks to feel that way. I’ll get that book because I trust you:)
I have panic attacks too. Frankly, they are a living nightmare. I am not on meds now, but might have to go back on. But I have been on them and still would get attacks so I think mine does not help with meds. So I am doing a lot of things to calm my nerves. Set backs does not mean failure either and am learning this as well. 10 mg is low so yeah, take it slow.
Ugh! I’m so sorry to hear you’re still struggling. I assume you’ve tried different meds? I wish I had some advice for you, but I hope you find relief soon.
I was on zoloft .. not sure how long.. 1 yr? year and a half? I needed it because of all of my health issues. I was on a 50mg dosage. When I decided to quit because I felt I was far enough past my illnesses, I went from 50 to 25.. But took 25mg for a month. Then I halved that for a month too. So clearing them out of my system went fairly well because I went slowly. I found I really no longer needed the medication (will definitely take again if needed). and found my creativity came back.
I'm super happy to see you creating.
I’m so glad you’re of it and feeling good and creative again! It’s such a valuable tool and I’m so glad we have access to it.
Mugs. I collect so many mugs. My prized possession is my Santa mug collection that grows every year! I just love meaningful ornaments. Mike’s mom used to send a yearly Newfoundland one so we have many, but they’re so heavy I almost need a metal tree like you say.
Hugs 🥰
the most important thing to take while detoxing from anti depressants is magnesium . ( from my personal experience and my clients . ) Calm gummies are good. Epsom Salt baths also good.
Thank you for that! I have been taking magnesium so that’s good! ❤️
I don’t know if you realize it but your brain your mindset is in a designer state of mind. You’re creating your designing your inventing right now. It might feel frustrating but you’re trying and you’re going through it and you’re gonna learn so much from it just wait. Don’t give up.
That’s a really lovely way of looking at it. Thank you ❤️
I feel the exact way about crochet that you do about knitting 😝 Your crochet scarf is gorgeous, I love that stitch! And you're so right, it'd be helpful if the medication part of mental health was discussed more. I'm on anti anxiety meds for my IBS, and when I say it's been life changing for my gut and my mind, it's not hyperbole. Our bodies sometimes need some help, and how amazing us it that we live in a time with medications that can do just that! I'm so sorry you had that awful panic episode, glad you found your current sweet spot. The fact that you're listening to yourself and are questioning what you need and what works for you or doesn't shows such self awareness 💓
Haha! Oh my god, that boggles my mind, but you’re not the first person to say that about crochet vs knitting! It just makes so much sense to me and knitting does not compute 😂.
That is so interesting. I never knew it could help IBS! Yes, I feel to blessed to live in a time that it’s available and we are losing the harmful attitudes and stigma around it.
Thank you so much for watching and for taking the time to share ❤️🧶
Hello! 2 things. . Im taking a picture of you to the hair salon. It is exactly what I've wanted! Im 50 with hair to my hips. I love love your hair! I'll need a perm..is yours natural? I imagine I see you as "lucky" with those beautiful curls! Anyway! Love it!!
2nd.... im glad I found you! Vlogmas was a good way to burst into the youtube world! Clementine is too cute..and so fun!
That was 2 things there so here's a 4th.... ii suffer too and hope to make changes this year. I need BIG changes. I need joy. I hope you find peace and your winter arch helps sooth your soul this winter. Light candles if ya can! ❤ nice to meet ya! Good job here.. imma binge!
Haha! Oh my goodness my hair is getting a lot of love! Yes, it’s natural and this is mostly a homemade haircut because I was growing it a little and decided I hated it so chopped it 😂…
I am so glad you found me and that there are so many new and kind faces here. My heart! I started tea and toastmas last year, but it didn’t gain nearly as many new people.
I am really looking forward to the winter arc. We can do it together 🥰
The idea that anyone wants to binge my videos is more than I can handle ☺️☺️☺️. Thank you for being here
You have done the right thing by undoing something which irritates you. I always end up undoing and reknitting everything i make. You could use the same colourways wirh a different stiitch like a double rib or similar. There must be a knitting circle near you to give you advice. There are many different stitches on line im sure you will find the one for you.. cheers from New Zealand
Wow! New Zealand. How wonderful. I am so glad you’re here, friend.
I’m not sure we have a local knitting circle. The woman who owns the yarn shop said she is happy to help, but I need a lot of supervision apparently 😂🧶!
It’s ok to start again, it’s in the starting and ripping out the knitting that the learning to knit occurs. You are doing a fabulous job. This is a slow craft…enjoy every stitch. AND when, not if, you screw up again, you can either restart or you can just leave it there and call it Wabi Sabi :)
You're so right! I love that Wabi Sabi vibe too. ❤️
Beautiful colour choices for your scarf. Maybe go down to 5 mg in January and then in February try stopping.
Thank you! I haven’t been working on it since o started vlogmas so I need a slow day for cozy things soon!
Yes, I find February makes me dip pretty hard so I may wait until spring ❤️
I am always knitting when I watch you so it was hard to see you struggle! May I suggest that you take floss or some sort of string and place it within your row, it's called a lifeline and it allows you to take it off the needles, tear back and have live stitches held to place back onto the needles. If you are able to knit in a circle that may be an easier way to just knit a tube and add tassels to your bind off to close it. Knitting takes practice, an expert was once a beginner. ;)
Oh that must be painful for you 😬😂…ha! I have never heard of that method, I will have to try it and play around with it for sure! Thank you for that ❤️🧶
The ‘loopy thing’ is called an accidental YO, yarn over :). Look at Tunisian crochet, a little more forgiving and when you have to pull it out you only have one stitch on the needle at the beginning of the round. And YES there is a knit stitch in Tunisian
Thank you for that! I actually made a lovely triangle scarf with Tunisian crochet a few years ago and really enjoyed it because it felt like a hybrid. Crochet really has my heart, but knitting is so pretty!
You can back off the stitches and catch where you made a mistake. Or rip it out and start over. But, I think that it looks really good. ❤
Easier said than done for this knitting challenged gal 😉😂❤️. I appreciate the kind words and encouragement
Hi - Jen from Pennsylvania here…glad I found your channel…I too suffer from anxiety and panic attacks. I learned to knit by watching Kristen Mangus at GoodKnitKisses on RUclips. Her videos (at least to me) were very straightforward and easy to learn from. I have been knitting for years but have wanted to learn crochet, so I finally taught myself from RUclips last year and am really enjoying it. Looking forward to watching your videos 🧶
Hi Jen! I’m so glad you’re here.
I am sorry to hear you’re also suffering with anxiety and panic attacks. How are you managing it?
Thank you for that RUclips recommendation! I will definitely check her out. I may never be a fluent knitter 😏, but I would like to be able to progress a little. I find crochet so relaxing.
Thank you for taking the time to watch and reach out. It warms my heart 🧶❤️
@ I have been on citalopram for the past 16 years but have recently gone off it the past year. I have my medical marijuana card and use a daily tincture blend of cbd/thc that does help with my anxiety. I notice I mentally feel better the days I am able to exercise. And knitting has saved me so many times to keep my mind and hands busy!
@@jengottschalk5588 that’s so great that you e found a way to manage it. I definitely find exercise helps as well so I do it almost daily.
Sometimes you have to get alone, quiet and no noise. I get upset when I try and try to knit a pattern and keep messing up. Usually put it away for a while. Then get it back out and try it again. That usually works for me. Please, don’t give up.❤
I can see that. I don’t think I’ll ever give up on it, but I definitely need to sit with someone who can help me through the mistakes ☺️🧶❤️
You will get it ❤ Have a wonderful day.
@@sharonarrendale8418 thank you! You too 🌻
You just showed up in my feed, and I haven't really watched anything yet...but I have to ask about your fantastic hair! I think you may have a little thicker hair than I do, but our length and curl pattern is similar. Can I ask how you style it and what products you use? Excited to dive into your content 😊.
Awe! Yay, I’m so glad you’re here. I actually get that question a lot! Maybe I should do a video on that 🤔. Anyway, I don’t do or use anything fancy: wash it and condition it upside down and then, instead of a towel, my mom gave me a curly hair net plopping thingy which works like a charm. I use Not Your Mothers mousse and diffuse it upside down until mostly dry. It looks insane when I flip back over but it relaxes pretty quickly and this is the result. I chop my own hair mostly when I get the urge as well 😬😂
I hope that helps and that you stick around for vlogmas and beyond 🫶🏻
@@the.ellemars ha! I cut my own hair a lot too! Thanks for the info!
@ it must be a curly girl thing…the curls hide so many sins 😉
@@the.ellemars I always say the same thing!
I have been on max dose 200 mg of antidepressant for over 25 years, I have tried twice to come off, once it took me over a year to slowly come off but each time the rebound effect was horrible, so now I have realized that I can't go off.
I’m so sorry you’ve struggled with coming off of them too, but it’s also a blessing to live in a time where we have access to these meds. Thank you for taking the time to share with me ❤️
@@the.ellemars definitely I think if not for these meds I would have killed myself
A knitting tip that helped me so much was to learn about the anatomy or how knitting sits on the needle…it has helped in fixing mistakes and getting stitches back on needles…that and practice practice practice is what makes you familiar. Roxanne Richardsons RUclips videos are great helpers!
I think you’re totally right! I feel like that’s why I’m so fearful of mistakes, because I don’t understand the full mechanics. Thank you for the recommendations 🫶🏻
Oh… I would suggest…. Swatch a block of each color…. Lavender wool wash …. It will inspire your energy!
It gives you joy to be close to your samples of end material feel 🎶😉♥️🎶
That's a great idea! Thank you!
@@the.ellemarscheck out up to date info on Keto…..some ideas have been adjusted.
There are also Vegan Keto diets….
Carb cycling after you work a simple meal plan !
Truly Erin … you are so darn pretty!
Be kind to yourself in every way ! Amen
@@MYROCKOROCKO interesting.
@@MYROCKOROCKO definitely trying 🌻❤️
You popped up on my recommendations even without being a witchy channel and thought... Fair play, don't know how the algorithm on this account knows that we have stuff in common (motherhood aside) but I'm in 👋🏽😅
Oh that’s so awesome! I actually love witchy things too so I guess the algorithm knew what it was doing! So glad you’re here, friend 🧶❤️
Hi , try to join a knitting group at your yarn shop. I also suffer from anxiety, and knitting really calms me. You must just keep at it and you will never look back. You are so nice and pretty. The grace of God helps you through everything 🙏
Yes! Someone told me there may be a local one I will definitely look into! You’re very kind, thank you for taking time to be here 🌻
Love tnis! I'm an avid knitter and thrifter. Crochet a little. Your sweaters look hand knit. I've battled anxiety and panic attacks in the past until therapist recommended escitalopram which brought immediate relief for me. When I tried to come off this year, I had panic attack the 6th night. I'm now on low dose of 5mg every other night. I hope you continue to find your best solution. As you said, everyone benefits! The knitting will come or not. Anything creative is wonderful!
Wow! I’m so happy you’ve found a good dose and medication that works for you. I feel like I’ve found a happy place that I’m willing to stay for sure.
I am so glad to have another yarn loving thrifter here in my corner 🧶🌻❤️
Erin, if you want to "knit so bad" then go for it. It is just like any other new skill, takes some time, patience, and practice. That extra stitch you ended up with is the most common mistake in beginning knitting. Can't explain it to you but it will be a tremendous help to you to find someone in your area who is an experienced knitter and would be willing to sit and help you out. Learning to correct your mistakes is ESSENTIAL to becoming a good knitter who will stick with it and keep trying new techniques. Do you have a local yarn store near you? They always have knit nights where you gather with other knitters and they love to help you. I am enjoying your podcast. I live in Utah in the US but my ancestors helped to settle Hawkesbury in Ontario back in 1817. Such beautiful country. RUclips is also a great source for knitting tutorials. Check them out. I saw that Sandy By the Lakeside (who is also in Ontario) commented here and suggested trying Very Pink Knits tutorials. They are great. Good Luck with your knitting, Once you get going it will bring you such great joy and it is very therapeutic.
Haha! Yeah, it has been determined that I need a knitting mentor near me and our local yarn shop doesn’t have a knitting circle, sadly.
I actually have knit a little sweater vest and many scarves, I just find crochet calming and makes so much more sense for some reason.
I won’t ever stop trying to grasp it though. Thank you for the tips!
Hi. I left a comment on your last video about tapering down slowly. If I may ask. On what anti depressant are you? I am on Lexapro and I was for a long time on 10 mg. When I started to wean myself off I ask my doctor for two tablets of 5 mg. So I could cut one in half and I was able to take a little over 7 milligrams and now I am down to 5. I wait a few weeks between them. Now I have hardly any withdrawal symptoms. Hope this helps.
Yes! Thank you for that. I’m on Citalopram. Not sure they come in 10mg tablets or maybe my pharmacy doesn’t have them because no matter what dose I’m on, they give me 20mg tablets so I have to cut them. Not ideal and I don’t think I could cut it into quarters without it crumbling. But worth looking into for sure. 5mg would be ideal to continue weaning off.
Just found you….. you are so kind to share…… I just found out Keto diet, helps with depression and anxiety.
It definitely seems like sugar and simple carbs are the things to avoid! Focusing on getting more protein and fibre ❤️
well, if nothing else you have really great hair.
Ha! If nothing else, I do have that ☺️
Give your body a chance to balance out about two weeks without sugar and your body will stop craving it and start enjoying real sugar like fruit, apples, bananas your taste buds will light on fire when you bite into an apple. Trust me it’s gonna be fun.
Oh I definitely find my cravings are much easier to manage when I just cut it out rather than moderate it!
ruclips.net/video/S-pVEMScTlk/видео.htmlsi=qrNkHOANTZa6fwDv I taught myself to knit with these lessons!
Oh thank you! I will check it out for sure!
Erin, just take a knitting class or find a lady in the community to teach you. Please don’t stress about this. Just crochet until you find a mentor.
I think you’re right! I’ve been looking for someone who can teach me for years…no luck yet.
@the.ellemars there used to be a knitting club located at the rails end gallery. Ladies getting together to knit and crochet. I'm not sure if they still meet there, but may be worth asking .
@ oh wow! That would be perfect! I will definitely look into it. Thank you 🧶🫶🏻
@@the.ellemars Purl Together podcast is fabulous!
Great teacher….. also lives on a beautiful farm!
@ I should really listen to more podcasts! I’m such a visual person, I find them hard to get into, but it’s great to hear about good ones that are tried and true. Thank you!