Like most people that followed her on social media and RUclips, I never met her. I cried with her struggle, and it’s impossible to not have tears in the eyes when I watch you talk about her. If that had happened with my “tree” my world would collapse too. Take your time and take care of yourself the best way you can. We are waiting no matter how long it takes you to post videos. Sending you a big hug!
I feel so sad that she is gone and know it does not compare to the agony you live in. I hope you know that everyone can see what a wonderful person you are Hyun and how much you loved her. I think the evil comments come from people that envy having such a great love as you two had, just ignore hateful people, know that you are a better person than them it sounds dumb but it is the truth. You both sparkle with kindness and joy. Just know that it is lucky finding each other like you two did in this hard cruel world. I am so sorry you did not get more time because you both are such wonderful people! hopefully you just take one step each day and do the best you can to eat and stay well and know that is good enough. Sending good thoughts your way as always.
I don’t know you, but i am so very touched by your honestly and transparency. I am so sorry for your loss and I send my support to you if what ik is a difficult time. Again, thank you for being you and thank you for trying to make it through. All the best to you
You are back to the place where you had your whole life with Sara, the place she loved so much and the home you chose together. Everything you are feeling, your sadness and pain is so understandable and something that will ease with time. Her videos and words will heal and give you the support you need to get through your hardest moments. It's ok to cry, feel sad, down and to just rest. Just remember tht you are not alone, that you have people who love you who are also ready to show you support and care, use them because you deserve to be heard and cared for. Take your time and give patience to yourself. You have gone through a tremendously hard time and are still going through this. You are doing well. Take lots of care and whenever you are able to share with us, if you can then the people who care for you online will be here to listen.
Darling Hyun, you don’t need to be strong right now. You’re allowed to fall apart. Losing someone is devastating. I lost my parents within a year of each other and that has left me shattered. I can’t imagine how it would be to lose your partner. Take your time grieving. There’s no time limit. Do what you need to do for you. Sara will be there with you, holding you through it. She is sorely missed by me. She made the sun shine when I was going through my bad days. I’m sure there are others here who feel the same. Thank you for being so open and honest. I’ll never forget Sara. I’ll always come here to rewatch her videos. I’ll always support you all the way over here in Western Australia. Sending you so much love. Bbyong 💜💜💜
Sara’s love for Korea is part of what has made me want to travel to Korea so badly and she is probably one of the main reasons I started learning Korean. For years I have watched her videos and loved all the things she has shown and now I’m coming to Korea in just a few days and I want to rewatch her old videos for inspiration of places to go but it still makes me too sad. I hope that soon there are brighter days for you and that you continue to find the strength you need. Take as long as you need, you don’t have to post her Sydney videos if it is too hard. Thank you for giving us an update
I lost my mom to cancer and feeling happy makes me feel guilty as hell. She’d want me to be happy just as Sara would want you to be happy. It feels like a uphill battle but the pain and sadness will become bearable. It’s been four years since my mom died and I still hurt but i know at one point things will be alright
This may not make a difference, but as someone who is currently battling cancer, you're right, your mom would want you to be happy. I myself have never feared death because I believe in God and Heaven and life after this, but what I do fear is my loved ones trying to live without me. My greatest desire for them if I were to die from this is that they would take any chance they could get to be happy. Don't deprive yourself of the moments to feel your sadness but try not to feel guilt for finding moments of joy too. You deserve to have happiness, even when things aren't happy or fair. You are loved
My wife and I went to a new Korean restaurant near our home last week (we’re in the U.S.). At the table, I remembered what Sara said in the recording you shared with us. Don’t recall her exact words, but I think it was something along the lines of think of her when you eat something delicious. We were by a window and I looked up and smiled, but the feeling was a mixture of appreciation in discovering her videos a few years ago and enjoying being able to watch her share her experiences and sorrow in having to accept that life can be unfair and sometimes unfortunate things happen to good people. Sara is missed. She touched a lot of us in many ways but mostly through videos, so I can only imagine the grief you’re feeling, as well as that of her family and friends. But I’m happy for you that you’ve gotten to a point that you’re able to give us an update on how you’re doing. That’s a positive step and I think you may have gotten some degree of relief in doing it. Hang in there, Hyun. We’re all sure that’s what Sara would want. In those low moments, please remember to want it, too. Reading the comments, a lot of people are pulling for you. That’s a nice thing to have. Looking forward to you showing us the beauty of Seoul whenever you’re ready. Take care.
Dearest Hyun- From an outsider looking in-it appears you are first reliving the grieving process all over again in Korea. It appears as if your ability to go through the grieving process will be much harder now. You are back to your home town in Korea, a place where you made wonderful memories with Sara, a place where you both were happy. You not only lived together but worked together creating content for your channel. It is natural to feel the grief and loss with more intensity than in Australia. My main concern is that your grief process is affecting your health and mindset as each day progresses there. (You mentioned spending much time in bed, only eating a meal late in the day etc). I am not a psychologist but it appears you are sinking into depression. I implore you to seek counseling to help you cope with each day so you can find a new healthy normal. You shouldn’t subconsciously feel guilty for going on with your life. You are allowed to smile, be happy and find enjoyment in life’s little things. You are carrying a heavy load. Sara was your wife, your love, your partner in life. It’s a huge loss to deal with by yourself. No judgement. Just an observation that you , who we all care about- and worry about since Sara’s passing, appear to be facing an emotional decline. There are many grief counselors out there- if one doesn’t work than perhaps another one will click with you. I will pray for your renewed strength to give you courage to face each day and find the joy that you deserve- that Sara would want you to have- even in baby steps. Your feelings are quite normal. The “tools” to go on living can be supported by a counselor, your family and friends. All in God’s time! Sending hugs from the USA. 🥰😍🙏🙏🙏🙏
Our lovely Hyun! We could feel you were going through a really difficult time emotionally after you came back to Seul. I could only understand the first few minutes with the English subtitles, but It made me cry. You are such a nice person with so many things to offer, such a lovely soul...its okey you share your difficult times and its fine if you need to cry too, crying is soothing, but you need to keep strong and carry on living. Need to spend time with family and friends and eventually things will get a little better with time. When I can listen to the whole video I will write again . Life is difficult Hyun but we are stronger than difficulties. Lots of LOVE from Spain ❤
Your description of grief - cold feels so cold and hot feels so hot - really moved me. Take all the time you need, and don't feel pressured to be any certain way, whether happy, sad, or anything, until and unless you are ready. Take every day one breath at a time. (And I'm so sorry you have faced harsh comments. You have shown only kindness, and you deserve only kindness.) Thank you for your generosity in reaching out to your viewers, but don't feel obligated to us. Take care of yourself as best you can.
Losing the person you chose to love is maybe not something you ever recover from, but the strength and resilience of humans is truly astounding. Thank you so much for uploading this video, for bringing a peice of yourself and Sara back into our lives. Perhaps it's selfish to say, but I really hope you can continue to upload videos, even though it's hard. There is a place here on RUclips for both of you and in the hearts of the many people who follow your lives. I hope that each day becomes just a little easier on you and that one day soon, you'll be able to smile happily again. Sara always seemed so down to earth, i imagine that she wouldn't have asked you for too much, but I believe she would desperately wish for any guilt you feel to be gone as soon as possible. Sara's tall ass legs, long hair, deep voice, and sunny disposition is perhaps even more alive now, in the hearts of many, than it ever could have been otherwise. She's gone from being a tree to a warm beacon in the distance. Urging us on with the most genuine of encouragement. We love you guys, take all the time you need, and be well. Eat at least one meal a day. Get some sun and fresh air, even if just a little. Drink plenty of water. Fighting ❤
안힘들다고 안슬프다고 하면 거짓이겠죠. 상처가 깊을수록 회복되는데도 시간이 걸리듯이..그냥 이 슬픔 또한 자연스럽게 받아들이시고 그리우면 그리워 하고 추억 때문에 웃을 때는 또 웃고..그렇게 시간이 흐르다보면 사라씨를 잊는 것이 아니라 마음 속 한 곳에 소중하게 함께하며 행복한 스스로의 모습에도 죄책감 없이 지내실 날이 올거에요. 그리고 제가 본 사라씨는 그 누구보다 긍정적이고 아름다운 여성이었어요. 현이씨는 그런 사라님을 제일 가까이 할 수 있었으니 비록 오랫동안 함께하지는 못했지만 어떻게 보면 세상에서 꽤나 운 좋은 남자에요. 솔직한 영상 올리셔서 더 좋았구 현이님도 조금은 마음이 편해지지 않았을까 싶어요.
Great to see you are hanging in there Tiny. They say time heals but I don't think that is true. I think the pain never goes away and that we just get use to living with it. What I find helps is being social, so I hope you are getting out there and getting together with friends and get to talking or even just listening to them. I find that it helps just being around other people. Stay strong.
Hyun, grief is hard, the hardest thing. I am glad to know you are in Korea again. I think your family and friends will help. Let them drag you to places a few times a week. She was taken too soon and that is especially devastating. I think you made her so happy, her beautiful shining life was pretty happy. You were part of that. You offer a lot to the world. Love to see your videos even if I weep a little for you each time.
You don’t need to be strong. It’s ok to cry and fall apart sometimes. The depth of your grief is proof of the depth of your love for Sara. Grief is a journey with many ups and downs. Sara was a vibrant beautiful soul who will always be loved and missed. I only knew her through her videos but they brought me so much joy and her passing still deeply saddens me. I won’t forget her ever! Be kind to yourself during this difficult time.
정말 사랑하는 사람을 떠나보낸다는게 쉽지않죠. 너무 마음이 아프네요.. 하루에도 수십번 울컥울컥 눈물이 나올 땐 그냥 울면서 그리워하는 시간을 충분히 가지셨으면 좋겠어요! 분명 시간이 지날수록 울컥하는 순간이 줄고 그렇다고 잊는건 아니니까요. 저도 그런 힘든 순간이 있었는데 충분히 그리워하고 시간이 지나니 지금도 하루 수십번도 생각이 나지만 심적으로 힘든건 지나간 것 같아요. 응원하는 사람들이 많으니 힘내셨으면 좋겠어요!
Hyun, I cannot imagine how hard this must be.. We are so proud of you for being open and honest about your feelings. I can only imagine the hardship of going back to Korea alone. Sending you so much love and a big hug. Sara is in the stars and watching over you!
Sweet Hyun, it takes so much strength and courage to show the world your vulnerabilities-- to show us how fragile you are and how much you're struggling. It shows how genuine and human you are which I'm sure is what Sara loved so much about you. It's okay to smile even though she isn't here. Sara is watching you always and when you smile, she is as well. I'm so incredibly sorry for the grief you're experiencing; you're so much stronger than you realize and it's okay if you need to ask someone else for help-- even complete strangers. Please keep us updated because we worry about you too and only want you to be happy. Please keep being the sweet and genuine Hyun that Sara loved and continue to share your thoughts and feelings with us. You are so precious to so many of us and we only want to see you succeed. 💜💜💜
I still think of Sara so often and wonder how you are doing Hyun. So even if you are not doing well it's nice to see you. Sara was such a bright person and helped so many people to see Korea's beauty. Even though I only ever knew her from her videos I still feel the empty space that she left behind. So I can't imagine how overwhelmingly huge that space must feel for those that had the joy of knowing her personally. I think it must be over 5 yrs since I first found this channel. And now after 2 years of self studying Korean I recently moved to Daejeon from England. My first month here has been really tough but seeing that Sara could be so happy here inspires me everyday to learn and find my own place here. I've found it too sad to go back and watch old videos but I hope I can soon. It's partly thanks to her that I am here and that I can understand enough Korean (though I can't speak well yet) to watch this video without subs. I'll always be grateful to her for that.
thank you for the update. i know how hard that had to be to record. as a widow myself and someone who has experienced the journey with grief. i'm going to tell you that as hard as it was to record this video, the fact is, you did record it. its those small steps that are most important. you are on a journey that has no right or wrong or end time. you have to follow it, step by step. someone recommended a book to me to help me understand grief. its called On Death and Dying by Elisabeth Kubler-Ross. i know you may not want a book or are not ready for it yet. but please keep it in mind. it helped me understand so much of what i was going through. my heart goes out to you. please eat and stay well. you matter and are most important. and on a selfish note i want to see more videos of spring in seoul. please take care. i will be thinking of you.
I was so glad to see you today Hyun. Been thinking about you and worried about you. Being strong is so damn hard, I hope you have people around you that can be strong for you until you can be strong on your own. It will happen, but it takes time, please hang in there. I’m lucky that I can pretend Sara just hasn’t uploaded in a while, that she’s still on earth, in her physical form. Sending you hugs and thoughts of support and healing
I am in a similar position, it’s been one month. I see it as waves, there are waves of sadness, sometimes the waves are big and drowns you, and sometimes they are calmer and won’t be as overwhelming. Most days have the big waves still, but it will get better. There will still be waves, but maybe a bit calmer. My heart is next to yours in this pain, let’s try to breathe. Stay living, and have friends close. ❤
Hyun, I listened to this and I 😢 cried. I know you tried to be strong. But the pain of losing someone you loved so much is no longer by your side. I have lost my soulmate (husband) in 2018 from cancer. He was only 45yrs old. We have 3 beautiful children together ❤️ not only he's a wonderful husband and a father with 4 beautiful grandchildren. He met 2 but unfortunately he didn't get to meet the other 2. But he was our solid foundation to our family with love and respected not only to us but the ppl he came across in his lifetime. Yes, he was gone for 5years. But the sadness for losing him never goes away. I still cry for him. I miss everything about him. Ppl will say to me. He would like u to move on and be happy. Yes, I know that BUT I would love to have him here with us!! The things we promised each other after my youngest graduated from high school. Which she did. Now that she's 21yrs old still missing her dad. Hyun, it takes time for healing of the brokenhearted. It takes time to take the steps to move foward. People would say. You're still young . One day u will get married again. I just say. Maybe or maybe NOT and that's okay with me. When I held him and listen to him take his last breath. I felt that he took half a part of me with him. My daughter was 8 months pregnant with her 3rd child during the time we spent with him for 3 months before his passing. 2 weeks later she gave birth. She named her Maria. Before When we found out she was pregnant. Our daughter asked her dad it's a girl. What name she should named her. And He said Maria. I believed Maria was sent by God. And I was grateful for it. I truly believe she is the greatest gift from my husband. And so The Love of Sara will never go away even if u do find someone. take your time. But don't lag behind to long. Keep moving step by step don't stop. Date when YOU'RE READY! Be happy keep busy. Cry if you have to. Go somewhere to scream your heart out Talk to someone that truly knows what your going through. I myself can't talk to friends or family about losing a spouse who never loses a spouse in death. Because they actually wouldn't understand. It's to the point sometimes they just say...stop or move on or they just don't want to hear it anymore. I get now that they just don't know what it feels like. And it's very understandable. I pray and cheer for you. 👍👏 trust me every step u take Sara is right beside you taking the steps with u. ❤
영상을 보면서 눈물이 뚝뚝 떨어지고 있었어요... 사라씨의 빈자리가 얼마나 크고 무거운지를 마음으로 느낄수 있었어요... 이 영상을 보기 전에 사라씨기 누구신지 몰랐었고 이 영상은 이 채널에서 처음 본 영상이 됐네요. 인생을 살다보면 이렇게 우리의 인생에서 아름답게 나타나는 사람들은 있죠, 함께한 시간이 짧은 시간이라도 우리가 그 사람한테 받았던 사랑 덕분에, 앞으로 이생을 살아봐도 그 사람과 그 사람이 준 사랑과 애정을 생각하고 마음으로 순간 순간을 기억하면서 평생을 계속 예쁘게 살수 있다는 그런 기적이 생기네요. 받았던 사랑을 아름답게 잘 지키기 위해 우리에게 그 사람이 선물해줬던 것들을 잊지 않고 받았던 사랑을 마음으로 기억하고 품고 있으면서 더 아름답게 살아가야 할 그런 책임이 생겨요. 물론 사라씨가 하늘에서 보이는 현씨의 밝은 모습이 가장 자랑스럽고 행복할 일이라고 생각하실 거예요. 어릴때부터 한국과 한국 문화를 사랑하는 사람으로서 드리고 싶은 말이 있는데요 , "사라가 왜 한국을 좋아했는지 알게 됐어요" "사라를 만나기 전에 한국이 얼마나 아름다운지 몰랐어요"라는 그런 말씀을 하셨잖아요, 한국과 서울을 정말 사랑하셨던 사라씨의 사랑은 이제 현씨에게도 깊은 사랑이 돼었나보네요.현씨의 개인적인 생활에 대해 아무것도를 몰라서 , 한국을 사랑하는 사람으로서 드리고 싶은 말은 , 사라씨 한테 받은 사랑으로 한국의 아름다움을 따뜻하게 포옹하시고 한국을 더 사랑해주시면 사라씨도 정말 행복하실거라고 생각해요 함든시간을 잘 이겨내시길 바라요🙏 몸 건강을 잘 챙기시고 어려워도 힘내세요 ❤
Sara was so bright and so full of love and life. I can't imagine how losing her must feel to those who loved her in real life. Even we who only watched her miss her
Hey Hyun! It's so nice to see your face! Your hair has gotten so long but it looks really good on you! I hope the spring season is kind to you. May it give you new energy and renewed life. May the season help your start in your new home. Spring afterall is all about new beginnings. I look forward to your video's showing us beautiful Korea. I will be thinking of you every day, wishing for kind and joyful events in your life. Good friends, sunshine, kind words and laughter. You are a good man and a wonderful person. Don't sell yourself short. Sara loved you for a reason. There is plenty about you that is wonderful and worth loving. There are so many wonderful things for you to experience in your future. I only know you through Sara's video's but to me that much is obvious. You radiate loveliness in your own unique way. I am happy to be here and happy that you are here too. I am happy to wait for your next video and what you will show us. Grief is a difficult beast. It makes a hole in your life. It doesn't go away but it DOES become easier. Life always finds away to keep growing and prosper inspite of the horrors we experience. Life is strong like that. You are also strong like that even if you don't believe it right now. The emptiness you feel will fill itself but it will take a while. You will grow into a new Hyun. Some days will be happy, some days will be sad but you will see as time moves on there will be more happy days than sad days. It might take a while but you will get there. Please look after yourself in the loving way that you would have looked after Sara. Please eat if you can, rest if you need it and surround yourself with friends. Many well wishes to you! And untill your next video!!
I was widowed many years ago now Hyun and I feel for you in your pain. For now just try to get up every day and do at least one small task. Some days will be harder than others but In time the pain you’re feeling will stop feeling so raw and consuming.
Hyun it’s good to see you again and uploading a video is hard so don’t put too much pressure on yourself. You doing well even if it’s the simplest things 👍
I am so sorry you have received negative comments. I disagree with people who say to stay strong, you don't have to be strong right now. You were so strong for Sara and always there for her. You have suffered a terrible loss. I still feel sad every time I think about Sara and I was just a fan, not family. Right now please just take care of yourself, try to sleep and eat regularly. Lean on others and know that you have fans who really do care and want the best for you.
Hyun you are a VERY special soul which is why Sara loved you so. You will manage to move forward with Sara's help but don't expect too much from yourself too soon. This was traumatic and heartbreaking for you to go through with her but you kept her strong and safe and loved to her last breath. We all admire you so very much. Just be, and allow yourself to heal no matter how long that takes.
thank you for the check in. grief is such a hard and complex process, please don't feel pressured to power through it when it's a very real emotion. take the time and space you need, as much as Sara deserves and more. i hope when things get too dark and difficult you are finding support, like therapy, family, friends. wishing you all the best.
It's so good to see you again!!! It has been raining so much lately in California, and the biggest and brightest double rainbow appeared in the sky three days ago!! I immediately thought of Sara and really felt her beautiful spirit in that moment. Don't judge yourself or worry about being strong or anything. Allow yourself to go through all the parts of this journey without being harsh toward yourself. Just as we must go through all the seasons, allow yourself to go through this time that feels so cold and dark and know that the Spring will return again one day. Thank you for making time for us and letting us know how you have really been feeling lately. Is there anything I can do to help? Let me know, I would be very happy to return the happiness you and Sara have brought into my life in any way I can. Bbyong!!! 🌈🫰
Really annoying that people would go out of the way and leave negative comments. Please take care of yourself! Losing a loved one takes time and grieving looks different for everyone. Sending well wishes
I hope Sara is resting peacefully and that you, Hyun, are working through you grief in a healthy way and taking time to heal. You have to give yourself that time! Grief is a process and it's painful to get through, and it'll pop up at different times all your life, but you CAN DO IT. Being strong doesn't mean not crying or not having bad days. It means letting the pain hit you and understanding that it's just a temporary pain and the feelings of peace and love will also come back to you. Keep reaching out to friends and family. Keep remembering good times with Sara. Go see a therapist if you think it could help you process that grief. You. Can. Do. This. Hyun. We all over the world are rooting for you. ~ a friend from the USA who is inspired to visit Korea one day because of Sara
After 4 years me losing my husband for cancer I’m still struggling .The pain doesn’t go away but it will get easier. If you try to help someone that how you make her happy. Try to spread awareness about leukemia and think of something you can help people who go through chemotherapy they really need someone to understand what they are going through . My heart goes out for you ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Waiting for the subtitles but so glad to see you again she would want you to be happy but I know that it is very difficult my heart does ache for the pain and loneliness you are going thru
얼굴을 보니 너무 좋아요! 현 씨의 솔직한 마음을 저희와 공유해 주셔서 감사해요~ 💛 We care about you as a whole person. So please feel like you can share both the sad days and happy ones. And Sara must be so proud of you for continuing to find those moments of joy. 🦋 🌸
Hyun, please let yourself feel whatever feelings you have. Whether you're angry or you're having a breakdown from the sadness. Feel it all without letting yourself bury any of it because it will help you to process everything. There's a lot of loss here not just from losing Sara, but the life you had together, and maybe your own identity. I lost my mother to cancer in 2021 and it was extremely devastating and it still continues to be. For a while I had a hard time reading messages from her, or seeing anything with her name. It's still so incredibly fresh for you right now and may be difficult to look back and relive those memories but those are also the ways you can celebrate her life and maintain her memories. Praying for you, please take care of yourself at your own rate and do not worry about what anyone else says!
I can only imagine how strong a person must be to handle such thing internally, without falling down both physically and mentally. You are strong. Very strong. Crying is a way to express our love for something, or someone, we care. Sometimes is good to lay down and just cry even after month or years. You are strong and although I know it means little, you have friends who support you.
A friend of mine lost her husband to the same kind of illness when she was not much older than you. She said it took a year to even be able to really talk about it. It is very normal to feel the way you do. You may not feel it, but you are brave and strong to upload these videos and be so honest about how you are feeling. Be gentle with yourself. Grief makes you think things will never be okay again, but bit by bit things get more manageable, the pain lessens and the smiles grow.
현님, 저도 엄마 돌아가시고 거의 1년을 매일 울었어요. 올해로 벌써 6년째인데 아직도 꿈에 나오시고 이제서야 제가 지난 몇 년 동안 제정신이 아닌 채로 살아왔다는 걸 깨닫고 있어요. 소중한 사람을 잃는 일은 이 세상 누구나 겪는 아픔이지만 누구와도 나눌 수가 없더라구요. 시간이 많이 필요하실 거예요. 나 자신이 변하는 것도 어쩔 수가 없는 부분이다 삶이 언제나 같을 수는 없다라고 생각하고 있어요. 그것 또한 내 삶이니까요. 사랑했던 사람의 밝은 모습을 더 기억하려고 해요. 슬픈 생각만 하면 미안하더라구요. 기운내세요. 큰 위로가 되어드리지는 못하지만 그래도 응원합니다.
Being back in Korea is bringing back so many memories so appreciate how hard it must be for you. "There is no pain so great as the memory of joy in present grief”. Sara is still with you even if not in person, she is still your tower of strength because having her in your life even for a short time made you strong. Everyone says time is a healer and from experience this is true, though at times it seems not to be. Sara seems like the type of person who would want you to grieve for a little time, remember the wonderful times you had together, then make a glorious new life for yourself. You will come through this terrible time and she will always be in your thoughts and memories but hopefully without so much heartache . Self kindness is important, you matter, take care of you. It’s okay to aim to be happy. ❤
Sorry this is in English… when I lost someone, I was under a cloud for about a year. Then one day it felt like it lifted, out of the blue and suddenly. It will happen in time for you too. It didn’t mean I wasn’t still sad, I was, but the cloud lifted and it felt more manageable
People always say to 'be strong', but I think we should remind people to be kind to themselves as they navigate a new life without a loved one. So, be kind to yourself, eat good food, cry when you need to, drink water, and remember that a whole world of people support you and remember Sara with love. ❤
It takes at least a couple of years to stop crying alone at night, but after 4-5 years you'll start to forget all your attachment feelings and see yourself much older, like you've stepped into a time machine. By then, you'll need a special someone to help you keep your energy up and not let your sadness take over.
You don't have to be strong. You just have to keep going. Take care of yourself! Don't rush through things that are painful. That last footage Sara took in Australia before everything can wait until you're ready, and it's okay if that's never. Sara gave you some good advice, so follow it as you can.
Do try to have the schedule would help and force yourself to do it. Important thing is to eat for meals on time even though you are not hungry. If you don't eat you health will not be good. Try to get some fresh air and sun everyday. Go for the walk or hike in the mountains or parks. Do they have the support groups in Seoul? If not, you should start one.
You don’t know how much strength takes to just survive sometimes, even if you don’t feel it right now, you are being so strong dealing with this difficult situation, and also you are showing how deeply, pure and kind is your love, she is proud of you, you are doing it great
This video is important, and it's of value that you made it. Grief is very difficult, it's important to express it clearly. Please keep yourself healthy. Thank you
솔직한 모습을 보여줘서 너무 고맙네요. 이럴 때는 위로되는 표현이 떠올라요. The wounded in you heals the wounded in me. 대충 번역하자면 당신이 받은 상처는 저를 치료한다. 6개월 전에는 저도 개인 사건 때문에 많이 힘들었는데 사라 씨 돌아가셨다는 소식을 들으면서 내 마음 찢어진 것처럼 아팠거든요. 현 씨가 사라 얼마나 사랑하는지 잘 느껴서 아픈 내 마음도 의식하게 된 것 같아요. 영상을 보다가 다음 날에는 직업을 그만둬서 휴식을 가져왔을 정도였더라고요. 6개월 후에 오늘은 개인 사건이 별로 달라지지 않았는데 휴식도 가지며 감정관리를 꾸준히 연습하고 있었습니다. 현 씨 오래 아파도 괜찮아요. 힘 없어도 괜찮아요. 맨날 할 수 있는 걸 해 보고 조금씩 회복해도 돼요. 언제든 응원해 줄 테니 부담 갖지 말고 우리가 현 씨 있는 그대로 받아들여 드릴 테니까 말이에요.
I greatly appreciate how hard you’re working to look at things positively and continue the legacy Sara’s left for us all and we will support you through it all, but please don’t put too much pressure on yourself. You’ve been through one of the greatest pains anyone could imagine. If this ever gets to be too much, please don’t hesitate to prioritize yourself and please don’t feel guilty for it for a second. We all understand completely and are here in any way we can be. With love, Bbyong~ 🤍
현씨~~~ 힌들지만 매일매일 화이팅~~ 웃지 않아도 강한 모습이 충분히 좋아요. 열심히 버티는것도 충분합니다. 밥을 잘 챙기고 건강하시길 바래요. 사라씨도 그렇게 현씨 위해서도 바라지 않았을까요 싶기도 하고... 서을에 있는 아름다은 것이 지금 보기 힘들지만 힐링이 되기를 바래요... 그래서 i also hope you find happiness in small things. 잛지만 그 행복한 순간들은 앞으로 더 많이 생기기를 바랍니다. 현씨 역시 하루하루 전전히 사라 처럼 빛나게 사는게 보기 좋아요!!! 우는게도 사는것이니까. 항상 응원합니다 할수있다 ✨👍 현씨 짱!
오랜만입니다🌷 힘든 시간일텐데 이렇게 안부인사 전해주셔서 고마워요!! 사라님이 원했던대로 현님의 모습을 잃지않고 살아가시기를 저도 진심으로 바랍니다..!! 그리고 혼자서 너무 힘들어하지 마세요.. 반려견을 입양해서 새로운 가족을 꾸린 다음에 함께 산책도 하고 체온도 나누고 추억도 만들어 보ㅅ거나, 사별한 사람들의 모임이나 유튜브영상 보면서 같이 공감하고 아픔을 나누는 등 이 세상에 혼자가 아니구나를 느끼고 이 세상을 살아가는 방법을 함께 배워가보시기를 조심스럽게 말씀드려봅니다..🙏 현님의 평안을 진심으로 기원할게요!! 사라님을 위해 꼭 건강도 잘 챙기세요!!💪
I lost my mother to cancer like Sara. I live every day thinking I don't have to worry her, so I try to be strong. I hope my mom meets Sara in heaven. ❤
I wanted to say, Hyun, that it's so good of you to continue on, and to be honest and open about having a hard time. It's only if you're open about it with people that they will know to help you. And sometimes just letting these things out helps you to feel better (little by little, gradually). I wanted to say that, when people are telling you to stay strong, you're not disappointing them if it's hard or if you can't be strong. People just hope for your well-being but we all know that you can't possibly be okay right now - not entirely. We just want you to hang on. Take it all however you have to, but know that you will feel better. Not that the pain will subside, if that makes sense, but you will be able to live around it. You /are/ so strong, Hyun, for just having endured what you have. A lot of us are probably just internet people in the scope of your life, but we all care about you. Know you're not alone, even if it might feel like that and times might be hard.
Thank you for sharing of yourself and being real and honest to your subscribers and yourself. Grief can be all encompassing and it’s completely understandable that you’re feeling depressed, sad, and anything else: feel what you need to feel. Take things one day, one hour, one minute at a time: there is no timeline for grieving a loss. I’m glad you’re taking care of your physical health; please take care of your emotional health as well. I’m so glad there are so many videos, photos and memories of Sara for you to remember her. Hugs!!
Dear Hyun! It's okay to feel the way you are feeling, it's so hard to lose someone you love so much! Take your time to heal and to feel better again, until then we'll all be patiently waiting for you to return. It will always stay difficult and that's okay, it's okay to cry and it's okay to grief! I am sure Sara is very proud of you
My heart goes out to you i can’t believe it still. I first started watching her channel before she moved to Korea when she was first visiting & then when she decided to move over. To watch her chase her dreams was really inspirational. Find peace knowing that she really didn’t waste any moments & got to do a lot in the time she was here. Sending you lots of light
I was actually thinking about you the other week when I saw another video filmed in a place where you and Sara had recorded one and I suddenly remembered Sara is no longer with us and how awful it must be for you. Sending you warm wishes from the Uk, Sara’s memory still lives on ❤
I feel the same way. A recommended video will pop up on RUclips and I remember she is no longer here and feel sad. Of course for her family that pain and loss is 1000 times worse.
It’s so good to see you Hyun. It’s ok to feel however you feel and the feeling may change from day to day or hour to hour. It’s ok to mourn for your beloved Sarah. She was so precious to you and her light changed you in ways we’ll never know. I’m so sorry that you’re enduring such pain. I know what it feels like to lose someone precious to cancer especially when it happens so fast it leaves you feeling a bit bewildered and somedays it can be hard to believe- it’s like waking to the shock of it with total unbelief and trying to make sense out of the senseless. For now everything and nothing will draw your thoughts to Sarah as easy as you breathe. I’m glad you’re going for a health checkup. Please try to eat better and try to sleep well. I’m anxious to know how you are so please come again soon. Many prayers for comfort 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
Dear Hyun, I am deeply sorry for your loss. Losing someone you love is never easy, and I can only imagine how difficult it must be to have lost your beloved Sara. The pain of losing someone we love can feel unbearable, and it's natural to feel a range of emotions. I want you to know that you are not alone in this difficult time. Even though I don't know you personally, please know that my thoughts are with you. Losing someone we love can feel isolating, but it's important to remember that there are people who care about you and want to support you. Take all the time you need to grieve and heal. Remember to take care of yourself and reach out for help when you need it. Know that Sara will always be a part of your life and that her memory will live on.
I never really like it when people say "stay strong." Grieve my friend, grieve. It's okay not to be okay. I can reassure you it gets easier. This is coming from someone who watched their mother die and then 2 weeks later watched their grandfather die(her dad). Little by little add to your daily itinerary to get you up and out of bed. She would want you to live your life. So if you can't do that for yourself do it for her. Sara was such a lovely person and so are you. Keep going. Use that pain and sadness to push you towards your next passion in life. Surving day by day is okay. It will be okay. You'll be okay. ❤
Thank you for the update. I've been thinking of you and I do think of Sara often, especially when there's a beautiful sky here in OK, USA. Hang in there, keep your head up and take care of yourself 🥰
Do you know that we are in the blessed month of Ramadan, and this is the month of Muslims, and I will pray for her in this blessed month, so that she enters heaven, God willing, Sarah will now be happy
Dear Hyun, it’s a relief to see you on here. I came across your videos only a few days ago and was heartbroken to learn what had happened. I noticed you hadn’t posted in a while and was getting worried. It seems from the comments that everyone else is also glad to see your updates. Hyun, I am so, so sorry for your loss. I can only imagine your pain and grief. I just wanted to say that it’s okay to not be okay. It’s okay to be angry and sad, to feel that things are unfair, to cry. Please don’t feel like you have to always be positive during such a difficult time - take as much time as you need in order to grieve and heal. I know Sara is watching over you and I’m confident she is proud of you. So keep fighting on, one day at a time, and like you said in the video: continue living in a way that Sara would love. We’re here for you too and are rooting for you. Please take care of yourself. Sending you lots of love from Canada ❤️
I am so looking forward to seeing your home! Thank you for updating us. Thank you for sharing Sara's and your love for Soul through showing us. I'm excited for your coming videos and you will do a great job, I know that already!
Something I always tell myself is that "living takes courage" and "courage isn't the absence of fear, but continuing in spite of fear." Sometimes it helps to tell myself to be brave, to have courage, instead of telling myself to stay strong. And like most things, courage is something you have to work for, so it's okay if you have courage one hour and don't the next. It's okay if it takes half the day to work up the courage to do a task. It's hard to put into words what the fear I'm facing is, because it's so many things, but I'm not always thinking of what the fear is. I'm focusing on summoning courage. I guess it's like shifting your mindset from focusing on what you CAN do, instead of what you CAN'T, even if what you CAN do might not amount to much to anyone else. But if it's something that you have to get past yourself or get past your thoughts to do, then I think that's actually a big accomplishment, because we're often our own worst enemies. I don't know if that makes sense, or if it helps, but I thought I'd share.
Dear Hyun...I am so sorry for your pain. Grief is so hard and changes you. You cannot rush thru it. I hope that you talk to your doctor about your depression. Talking honestly about your feelings is healthy. My husband died 3 years ago. It still hurts...a lot. When people told me to stay strong ,it made me feel worse. I think it's important to be with people who love you, even I you are just sitting in a room together. Talk about your true feelings. Ask for help . I know what it's like to not be able to get out of bed day after day. But I you can, do one small thing every day. There are so many of us who care about you. If you want to make videos of you just talking about your grief ...do it. We are here for you. I think we all made a silent promise to Sara to help you I any way that we can. Sending you love from Canada. ❤
사라의 소소한 행복. Sara's lovely message.
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Please wait a little for the English subtitles, thank you.
모든 것이 잘 될거야 사라
I can’t wait to know what your saying. Please make sure the video repost so I see it! ❤
Like most people that followed her on social media and RUclips, I never met her. I cried with her struggle, and it’s impossible to not have tears in the eyes when I watch you talk about her. If that had happened with my “tree” my world would collapse too. Take your time and take care of yourself the best way you can. We are waiting no matter how long it takes you to post videos. Sending you a big hug!
I feel so sad that she is gone and know it does not compare to the agony you live in. I hope you know that everyone can see what a wonderful person you are Hyun and how much you loved her. I think the evil comments come from people that envy having such a great love as you two had, just ignore hateful people, know that you are a better person than them it sounds dumb but it is the truth. You both sparkle with kindness and joy. Just know that it is lucky finding each other like you two did in this hard cruel world. I am so sorry you did not get more time because you both are such wonderful people! hopefully you just take one step each day and do the best you can to eat and stay well and know that is good enough. Sending good thoughts your way as always.
I don’t know you, but i am so very touched by your honestly and transparency. I am so sorry for your loss and I send my support to you if what ik is a difficult time. Again, thank you for being you and thank you for trying to make it through. All the best to you
You are back to the place where you had your whole life with Sara, the place she loved so much and the home you chose together. Everything you are feeling, your sadness and pain is so understandable and something that will ease with time. Her videos and words will heal and give you the support you need to get through your hardest moments. It's ok to cry, feel sad, down and to just rest. Just remember tht you are not alone, that you have people who love you who are also ready to show you support and care, use them because you deserve to be heard and cared for.
Take your time and give patience to yourself. You have gone through a tremendously hard time and are still going through this. You are doing well. Take lots of care and whenever you are able to share with us, if you can then the people who care for you online will be here to listen.
Darling Hyun, you don’t need to be strong right now. You’re allowed to fall apart. Losing someone is devastating. I lost my parents within a year of each other and that has left me shattered. I can’t imagine how it would be to lose your partner. Take your time grieving. There’s no time limit. Do what you need to do for you. Sara will be there with you, holding you through it. She is sorely missed by me. She made the sun shine when I was going through my bad days. I’m sure there are others here who feel the same. Thank you for being so open and honest. I’ll never forget Sara. I’ll always come here to rewatch her videos. I’ll always support you all the way over here in Western Australia. Sending you so much love. Bbyong 💜💜💜
Im sorry for your loss💔❤️🩹
@@HolamamacocoThank you 💜💜💜
Sara’s love for Korea is part of what has made me want to travel to Korea so badly and she is probably one of the main reasons I started learning Korean. For years I have watched her videos and loved all the things she has shown and now I’m coming to Korea in just a few days and I want to rewatch her old videos for inspiration of places to go but it still makes me too sad. I hope that soon there are brighter days for you and that you continue to find the strength you need. Take as long as you need, you don’t have to post her Sydney videos if it is too hard. Thank you for giving us an update
I lost my mom to cancer and feeling happy makes me feel guilty as hell. She’d want me to be happy just as Sara would want you to be happy. It feels like a uphill battle but the pain and sadness will become bearable. It’s been four years since my mom died and I still hurt but i know at one point things will be alright
This may not make a difference, but as someone who is currently battling cancer, you're right, your mom would want you to be happy. I myself have never feared death because I believe in God and Heaven and life after this, but what I do fear is my loved ones trying to live without me. My greatest desire for them if I were to die from this is that they would take any chance they could get to be happy. Don't deprive yourself of the moments to feel your sadness but try not to feel guilt for finding moments of joy too. You deserve to have happiness, even when things aren't happy or fair. You are loved
Sweet girl. I am sending virtual hugs and prayers so that your heart will feel a little lighter. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Dear sweet subscriber- I pray for a miracle to fight this battle with Cancer and win it. 🙏🙏🥰
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@@elyse3884 I appreciate it!
My wife and I went to a new Korean restaurant near our home last week (we’re in the U.S.). At the table, I remembered what Sara said in the recording you shared with us. Don’t recall her exact words, but I think it was something along the lines of think of her when you eat something delicious. We were by a window and I looked up and smiled, but the feeling was a mixture of appreciation in discovering her videos a few years ago and enjoying being able to watch her share her experiences and sorrow in having to accept that life can be unfair and sometimes unfortunate things happen to good people. Sara is missed. She touched a lot of us in many ways but mostly through videos, so I can only imagine the grief you’re feeling, as well as that of her family and friends. But I’m happy for you that you’ve gotten to a point that you’re able to give us an update on how you’re doing. That’s a positive step and I think you may have gotten some degree of relief in doing it. Hang in there, Hyun. We’re all sure that’s what Sara would want. In those low moments, please remember to want it, too. Reading the comments, a lot of people are pulling for you. That’s a nice thing to have. Looking forward to you showing us the beauty of Seoul whenever you’re ready. Take care.
Dearest Hyun- From an outsider looking in-it appears you are first reliving the grieving process all over again in Korea. It appears as if your ability to go through the grieving process will be much harder now. You are back to your home town in Korea, a place where you made wonderful memories with Sara, a place where you both were happy. You not only lived together but worked together creating content for your channel. It is natural to feel the grief and loss with more intensity than in Australia. My main concern is that your grief process is affecting your health and mindset as each day progresses there. (You mentioned spending much time in bed, only eating a meal late in the day etc). I am not a psychologist but it appears you are sinking into depression. I implore you to seek counseling to help you cope with each day so you can find a new healthy normal. You shouldn’t subconsciously feel guilty for going on with your life. You are allowed to smile, be happy and find enjoyment in life’s little things. You are carrying a heavy load. Sara was your wife, your love, your partner in life. It’s a huge loss to deal with by yourself. No judgement. Just an observation that you , who we all care about- and worry about since Sara’s passing, appear to be facing an emotional decline. There are many grief counselors out there- if one doesn’t work than perhaps another one will click with you. I will pray for your renewed strength to give you courage to face each day and find the joy that you deserve- that Sara would want you to have- even in baby steps. Your feelings are quite normal. The “tools” to go on living can be supported by a counselor, your family and friends. All in God’s time! Sending hugs from the USA. 🥰😍🙏🙏🙏🙏
Good to see you again, Hyun! I'll come back when there's English subtitles because my Korean listening skills aren't great. ❤
Our lovely Hyun! We could feel you were going through a really difficult time emotionally after you came back to Seul. I could only understand the first few minutes with the English subtitles, but It made me cry. You are such a nice person with so many things to offer, such a lovely soul...its okey you share your difficult times and its fine if you need to cry too, crying is soothing, but you need to keep strong and carry on living. Need to spend time with family and friends and eventually things will get a little better with time. When I can listen to the whole video I will write again . Life is difficult Hyun but we are stronger than difficulties. Lots of LOVE from Spain ❤
마음 감출 것없이 있는 그대로 표현하시면 되요
여전히 사라가 항상 있는 것 같고 믿기지 않아요
항상 밝고 이쁘고 착한 사라는 늘 기억속에 있어요
Your description of grief - cold feels so cold and hot feels so hot - really moved me. Take all the time you need, and don't feel pressured to be any certain way, whether happy, sad, or anything, until and unless you are ready. Take every day one breath at a time. (And I'm so sorry you have faced harsh comments. You have shown only kindness, and you deserve only kindness.) Thank you for your generosity in reaching out to your viewers, but don't feel obligated to us. Take care of yourself as best you can.
Grief has no time limit just keep breathing some days will always be better than others
Losing the person you chose to love is maybe not something you ever recover from, but the strength and resilience of humans is truly astounding. Thank you so much for uploading this video, for bringing a peice of yourself and Sara back into our lives. Perhaps it's selfish to say, but I really hope you can continue to upload videos, even though it's hard. There is a place here on RUclips for both of you and in the hearts of the many people who follow your lives. I hope that each day becomes just a little easier on you and that one day soon, you'll be able to smile happily again. Sara always seemed so down to earth, i imagine that she wouldn't have asked you for too much, but I believe she would desperately wish for any guilt you feel to be gone as soon as possible. Sara's tall ass legs, long hair, deep voice, and sunny disposition is perhaps even more alive now, in the hearts of many, than it ever could have been otherwise. She's gone from being a tree to a warm beacon in the distance. Urging us on with the most genuine of encouragement.
We love you guys, take all the time you need, and be well. Eat at least one meal a day. Get some sun and fresh air, even if just a little. Drink plenty of water.
Fighting ❤
안힘들다고 안슬프다고 하면 거짓이겠죠. 상처가 깊을수록 회복되는데도 시간이 걸리듯이..그냥 이 슬픔 또한 자연스럽게 받아들이시고 그리우면 그리워 하고 추억 때문에 웃을 때는 또 웃고..그렇게 시간이 흐르다보면 사라씨를 잊는 것이 아니라 마음 속 한 곳에 소중하게 함께하며 행복한 스스로의 모습에도 죄책감 없이 지내실 날이 올거에요. 그리고 제가 본 사라씨는 그 누구보다 긍정적이고 아름다운 여성이었어요. 현이씨는 그런 사라님을 제일 가까이 할 수 있었으니 비록 오랫동안 함께하지는 못했지만 어떻게 보면 세상에서 꽤나 운 좋은 남자에요. 솔직한 영상 올리셔서 더 좋았구 현이님도 조금은 마음이 편해지지 않았을까 싶어요.
Great to see you are hanging in there Tiny. They say time heals but I don't think that is true. I think the pain never goes away and that we just get use to living with it. What I find helps is being social, so I hope you are getting out there and getting together with friends and get to talking or even just listening to them. I find that it helps just being around other people. Stay strong.
Hyun, grief is hard, the hardest thing. I am glad to know you are in Korea again. I think your family and friends will help. Let them drag you to places a few times a week. She was taken too soon and that is especially devastating. I think you made her so happy, her beautiful shining life was pretty happy. You were part of that. You offer a lot to the world. Love to see your videos even if I weep a little for you each time.
You don’t need to be strong. It’s ok to cry and fall apart sometimes. The depth of your grief is proof of the depth of your love for Sara. Grief is a journey with many ups and downs. Sara was a vibrant beautiful soul who will always be loved and missed. I only knew her through her videos but they brought me so much joy and her passing still deeply saddens me. I won’t forget her ever! Be kind to yourself during this difficult time.
정말 사랑하는 사람을 떠나보낸다는게 쉽지않죠. 너무 마음이 아프네요.. 하루에도 수십번 울컥울컥 눈물이 나올 땐 그냥 울면서 그리워하는 시간을 충분히 가지셨으면 좋겠어요! 분명 시간이 지날수록 울컥하는 순간이 줄고 그렇다고 잊는건 아니니까요. 저도 그런 힘든 순간이 있었는데 충분히 그리워하고 시간이 지나니 지금도 하루 수십번도 생각이 나지만 심적으로 힘든건 지나간 것 같아요. 응원하는 사람들이 많으니 힘내셨으면 좋겠어요!
Hyun, I cannot imagine how hard this must be.. We are so proud of you for being open and honest about your feelings. I can only imagine the hardship of going back to Korea alone. Sending you so much love and a big hug. Sara is in the stars and watching over you!
당신의 행복은 사라에게 가장 중요합니다~ 사라는 항상 당신을 사랑합니다~ 그녀가 말하는 작은 것들을 잊지마~ 우리 모두는 당신의 행복을 소중히요~~
Sweet Hyun, it takes so much strength and courage to show the world your vulnerabilities-- to show us how fragile you are and how much you're struggling. It shows how genuine and human you are which I'm sure is what Sara loved so much about you. It's okay to smile even though she isn't here. Sara is watching you always and when you smile, she is as well. I'm so incredibly sorry for the grief you're experiencing; you're so much stronger than you realize and it's okay if you need to ask someone else for help-- even complete strangers.
Please keep us updated because we worry about you too and only want you to be happy. Please keep being the sweet and genuine Hyun that Sara loved and continue to share your thoughts and feelings with us. You are so precious to so many of us and we only want to see you succeed. 💜💜💜
I still think of Sara so often and wonder how you are doing Hyun. So even if you are not doing well it's nice to see you. Sara was such a bright person and helped so many people to see Korea's beauty. Even though I only ever knew her from her videos I still feel the empty space that she left behind. So I can't imagine how overwhelmingly huge that space must feel for those that had the joy of knowing her personally.
I think it must be over 5 yrs since I first found this channel. And now after 2 years of self studying Korean I recently moved to Daejeon from England. My first month here has been really tough but seeing that Sara could be so happy here inspires me everyday to learn and find my own place here. I've found it too sad to go back and watch old videos but I hope I can soon. It's partly thanks to her that I am here and that I can understand enough Korean (though I can't speak well yet) to watch this video without subs. I'll always be grateful to her for that.
thank you for the update. i know how hard that had to be to record. as a widow myself and someone who has experienced the journey with grief. i'm going to tell you that as hard as it was to record this video, the fact is, you did record it. its those small steps that are most important. you are on a journey that has no right or wrong or end time. you have to follow it, step by step. someone recommended a book to me to help me understand grief. its called On Death and Dying by Elisabeth Kubler-Ross. i know you may not want a book or are not ready for it yet. but please keep it in mind. it helped me understand so much of what i was going through. my heart goes out to you. please eat and stay well. you matter and are most important. and on a selfish note i want to see more videos of spring in seoul. please take care. i will be thinking of you.
I was so glad to see you today Hyun. Been thinking about you and worried about you. Being strong is so damn hard, I hope you have people around you that can be strong for you until you can be strong on your own. It will happen, but it takes time, please hang in there. I’m lucky that I can pretend Sara just hasn’t uploaded in a while, that she’s still on earth, in her physical form. Sending you hugs and thoughts of support and healing
I have been thinking about him and how he is doing lately too as he became more quiet. Sara is watching him from above and being so proud!
I am in a similar position, it’s been one month. I see it as waves, there are waves of sadness, sometimes the waves are big and drowns you, and sometimes they are calmer and won’t be as overwhelming. Most days have the big waves still, but it will get better. There will still be waves, but maybe a bit calmer.
My heart is next to yours in this pain, let’s try to breathe. Stay living, and have friends close. ❤
Hyun,
I listened to this and I 😢 cried. I know you tried to be strong. But the pain of losing someone you loved so much is no longer by your side. I have lost my soulmate (husband) in 2018 from cancer. He was only 45yrs old. We have 3 beautiful children together ❤️ not only he's a wonderful husband and a father with 4 beautiful grandchildren. He met 2 but unfortunately he didn't get to meet the other 2. But he was our solid foundation to our family with love and respected not only to us but the ppl he came across in his lifetime.
Yes, he was gone for 5years. But the sadness for losing him never goes away. I still cry for him. I miss everything about him. Ppl will say to me. He would like u to move on and be happy. Yes, I know that BUT I would love to have him here with us!! The things we promised each other after my youngest graduated from high school. Which she did. Now that she's 21yrs old still missing her dad.
Hyun, it takes time for healing of the brokenhearted. It takes time to take the steps to move foward. People would say. You're still young . One day u will get married again. I just say. Maybe or maybe NOT and that's okay with me. When I held him and listen to him take his last breath. I felt that he took half a part of me with him. My daughter was 8 months pregnant with her 3rd child during the time we spent with him for 3 months before his passing. 2 weeks later she gave birth. She named her Maria. Before When we found out she was pregnant. Our daughter asked her dad it's a girl. What name she should named her. And He said Maria.
I believed Maria was sent by God. And I was grateful for it. I truly believe she is the greatest gift from my husband.
And so The Love of Sara will never go away even if u do find someone. take your time. But don't lag behind to long. Keep moving step by step don't stop. Date when YOU'RE READY! Be happy keep busy. Cry if you have to. Go somewhere to scream your heart out Talk to someone that truly knows what your going through. I myself can't talk to friends or family about losing a spouse who never loses a spouse in death. Because they actually wouldn't understand. It's
to the point sometimes they just say...stop or move on or they just don't want to hear it anymore. I get now that they just don't know what it feels like. And it's very understandable.
I pray and cheer for you. 👍👏 trust me every step u take Sara is right beside you taking the steps with u. ❤
현님, 마음이 너무 아프고 아픕니다. 힘든시간이실거고 쉽게 아물지 않는 상처겠지만 이 시간이 지나고 현님이 천천히 행복해 지실수 있었으면 좋겠습니다😢
많이 힘들지만 용기내서 영상 올려 주셔서 감사해요.
저도 단단하고,야무지고, 밝은 사라씨가 계속 눈에 아른거리는데 현씨는 얼마나 힘드시겠어요.ㅠㅠ
그래도 하늘나라에서 항상 지켜보고 있는 사라씨를 생각해서 건강도 잘 챙기고 힘내세요..
응원합니다.
영상을 보면서 눈물이 뚝뚝 떨어지고 있었어요... 사라씨의 빈자리가 얼마나 크고 무거운지를 마음으로 느낄수 있었어요...
이 영상을 보기 전에 사라씨기 누구신지 몰랐었고 이 영상은 이 채널에서 처음 본 영상이 됐네요.
인생을 살다보면 이렇게 우리의 인생에서 아름답게 나타나는 사람들은 있죠, 함께한 시간이 짧은 시간이라도 우리가 그 사람한테 받았던 사랑 덕분에, 앞으로 이생을 살아봐도 그 사람과 그 사람이 준 사랑과 애정을 생각하고 마음으로 순간 순간을 기억하면서 평생을 계속 예쁘게 살수 있다는 그런 기적이 생기네요. 받았던 사랑을 아름답게 잘 지키기 위해 우리에게 그 사람이 선물해줬던 것들을 잊지 않고 받았던 사랑을 마음으로 기억하고 품고 있으면서 더 아름답게 살아가야 할 그런 책임이 생겨요. 물론 사라씨가 하늘에서 보이는 현씨의 밝은 모습이 가장 자랑스럽고 행복할 일이라고 생각하실 거예요.
어릴때부터 한국과 한국 문화를 사랑하는 사람으로서 드리고 싶은 말이 있는데요 , "사라가 왜 한국을 좋아했는지 알게 됐어요" "사라를 만나기 전에 한국이 얼마나 아름다운지 몰랐어요"라는 그런 말씀을 하셨잖아요, 한국과 서울을 정말 사랑하셨던 사라씨의 사랑은 이제 현씨에게도 깊은 사랑이 돼었나보네요.현씨의 개인적인 생활에 대해 아무것도를 몰라서 , 한국을 사랑하는 사람으로서 드리고 싶은 말은 , 사라씨 한테 받은 사랑으로 한국의 아름다움을 따뜻하게 포옹하시고 한국을 더 사랑해주시면 사라씨도 정말 행복하실거라고 생각해요
함든시간을 잘 이겨내시길 바라요🙏 몸 건강을 잘 챙기시고 어려워도 힘내세요 ❤
Sara was so bright and so full of love and life. I can't imagine how losing her must feel to those who loved her in real life. Even we who only watched her miss her
Hey Hyun! It's so nice to see your face! Your hair has gotten so long but it looks really good on you! I hope the spring season is kind to you. May it give you new energy and renewed life. May the season help your start in your new home. Spring afterall is all about new beginnings.
I look forward to your video's showing us beautiful Korea. I will be thinking of you every day, wishing for kind and joyful events in your life. Good friends, sunshine, kind words and laughter. You are a good man and a wonderful person. Don't sell yourself short. Sara loved you for a reason. There is plenty about you that is wonderful and worth loving. There are so many wonderful things for you to experience in your future. I only know you through Sara's video's but to me that much is obvious. You radiate loveliness in your own unique way. I am happy to be here and happy that you are here too. I am happy to wait for your next video and what you will show us.
Grief is a difficult beast. It makes a hole in your life. It doesn't go away but it DOES become easier. Life always finds away to keep growing and prosper inspite of the horrors we experience. Life is strong like that. You are also strong like that even if you don't believe it right now. The emptiness you feel will fill itself but it will take a while. You will grow into a new Hyun. Some days will be happy, some days will be sad but you will see as time moves on there will be more happy days than sad days. It might take a while but you will get there.
Please look after yourself in the loving way that you would have looked after Sara. Please eat if you can, rest if you need it and surround yourself with friends.
Many well wishes to you! And untill your next video!!
I was widowed many years ago now Hyun and I feel for you in your pain. For now just try to get up every day and do at least one small task. Some days will be harder than others but In time the pain you’re feeling will stop feeling so raw and consuming.
Hyun it’s good to see you again and uploading a video is hard so don’t put too much pressure on yourself. You doing well even if it’s the simplest things 👍
I am so sorry you have received negative comments. I disagree with people who say to stay strong, you don't have to be strong right now. You were so strong for Sara and always there for her. You have suffered a terrible loss. I still feel sad every time I think about Sara and I was just a fan, not family. Right now please just take care of yourself, try to sleep and eat regularly. Lean on others and know that you have fans who really do care and want the best for you.
딸 또래의 사라의 웃는 모습이 선한데...
아직도 안타깝고 가슴이 먹먹하네...
천국에서 더이상 아픔없이 지내기를
바랄 뿐...
사라가 나무였다면 현님은 햇살같은 사람같네요. 모쪼록 행복만 하셨으면 좋겠습니다
Waiting for subtitles because my Korean not good. But sending you love from Australia
Hyun you are a VERY special soul which is why Sara loved you so. You will manage to move forward with Sara's help but don't expect too much from yourself too soon. This was traumatic and heartbreaking for you to go through with her but you kept her strong and safe and loved to her last breath. We all admire you so very much. Just be, and allow yourself to heal no matter how long that takes.
thank you for the check in. grief is such a hard and complex process, please don't feel pressured to power through it when it's a very real emotion. take the time and space you need, as much as Sara deserves and more. i hope when things get too dark and difficult you are finding support, like therapy, family, friends. wishing you all the best.
It's so good to see you again!!! It has been raining so much lately in California, and the biggest and brightest double rainbow appeared in the sky three days ago!! I immediately thought of Sara and really felt her beautiful spirit in that moment. Don't judge yourself or worry about being strong or anything. Allow yourself to go through all the parts of this journey without being harsh toward yourself. Just as we must go through all the seasons, allow yourself to go through this time that feels so cold and dark and know that the Spring will return again one day. Thank you for making time for us and letting us know how you have really been feeling lately. Is there anything I can do to help? Let me know, I would be very happy to return the happiness you and Sara have brought into my life in any way I can. Bbyong!!! 🌈🫰
Really annoying that people would go out of the way and leave negative comments. Please take care of yourself! Losing a loved one takes time and grieving looks different for everyone. Sending well wishes
오랫만이에요 반가워요
I hope Sara is resting peacefully and that you, Hyun, are working through you grief in a healthy way and taking time to heal. You have to give yourself that time! Grief is a process and it's painful to get through, and it'll pop up at different times all your life, but you CAN DO IT.
Being strong doesn't mean not crying or not having bad days. It means letting the pain hit you and understanding that it's just a temporary pain and the feelings of peace and love will also come back to you. Keep reaching out to friends and family. Keep remembering good times with Sara. Go see a therapist if you think it could help you process that grief. You. Can. Do. This. Hyun. We all over the world are rooting for you.
~ a friend from the USA who is inspired to visit Korea one day because of Sara
After 4 years me losing my husband for cancer I’m still struggling .The pain doesn’t go away but it will get easier. If you try to help someone that how you make her happy. Try to spread awareness about leukemia and think of something you can help people who go through chemotherapy they really need someone to understand what they are going through . My heart goes out for you ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
슬픔을 안고 살아갈때가 있습니다.많이 슬퍼하세요....많이 울고...그 슬픔을 마음껏 안아주세요.모든것이 사랑 입니다.그래도 됩니다
Waiting for the subtitles but so glad to see you again she would want you to be happy but I know that it is very difficult my heart does ache for the pain and loneliness you are going thru
에고~ 어케 지내시나 궁금했었는데..넘넘 대단하십니다..반갑구요...잘 이겨 내셔야 합니다
Its good to see you on here. Know that you are in our thoughts. ❤️
얼굴을 보니 너무 좋아요! 현 씨의 솔직한 마음을 저희와 공유해 주셔서 감사해요~ 💛 We care about you as a whole person. So please feel like you can share both the sad days and happy ones. And Sara must be so proud of you for continuing to find those moments of joy. 🦋 🌸
충분히 슬퍼하시는 시간 가지시고 언젠가 조금이라도 나아지시면 좋겠어요,
Hyun, please let yourself feel whatever feelings you have. Whether you're angry or you're having a breakdown from the sadness. Feel it all without letting yourself bury any of it because it will help you to process everything. There's a lot of loss here not just from losing Sara, but the life you had together, and maybe your own identity. I lost my mother to cancer in 2021 and it was extremely devastating and it still continues to be. For a while I had a hard time reading messages from her, or seeing anything with her name. It's still so incredibly fresh for you right now and may be difficult to look back and relive those memories but those are also the ways you can celebrate her life and maintain her memories. Praying for you, please take care of yourself at your own rate and do not worry about what anyone else says!
I can only imagine how strong a person must be to handle such thing internally, without falling down both physically and mentally. You are strong. Very strong. Crying is a way to express our love for something, or someone, we care. Sometimes is good to lay down and just cry even after month or years. You are strong and although I know it means little, you have friends who support you.
A friend of mine lost her husband to the same kind of illness when she was not much older than you. She said it took a year to even be able to really talk about it. It is very normal to feel the way you do. You may not feel it, but you are brave and strong to upload these videos and be so honest about how you are feeling. Be gentle with yourself. Grief makes you think things will never be okay again, but bit by bit things get more manageable, the pain lessens and the smiles grow.
현님, 저도 엄마 돌아가시고 거의 1년을 매일 울었어요. 올해로 벌써 6년째인데 아직도 꿈에 나오시고 이제서야 제가 지난 몇 년 동안 제정신이 아닌 채로 살아왔다는 걸 깨닫고 있어요. 소중한 사람을 잃는 일은 이 세상 누구나 겪는 아픔이지만 누구와도 나눌 수가 없더라구요. 시간이 많이 필요하실 거예요. 나 자신이 변하는 것도 어쩔 수가 없는 부분이다 삶이 언제나 같을 수는 없다라고 생각하고 있어요. 그것 또한 내 삶이니까요. 사랑했던 사람의 밝은 모습을 더 기억하려고 해요. 슬픈 생각만 하면 미안하더라구요. 기운내세요. 큰 위로가 되어드리지는 못하지만 그래도 응원합니다.
Being back in Korea is bringing back so many memories so appreciate how hard it must be for you. "There is no pain so great as the memory of joy in present grief”. Sara is still with you even if not in person, she is still your tower of strength because having her in your life even for a short time made you strong. Everyone says time is a healer and from experience this is true, though at times it seems not to be. Sara seems like the type of person who would want you to grieve for a little time, remember the wonderful times you had together, then make a glorious new life for yourself. You will come through this terrible time and she will always be in your thoughts and memories but hopefully without so much heartache . Self kindness is important, you matter, take care of you. It’s okay to aim to be happy. ❤
Sorry this is in English… when I lost someone, I was under a cloud for about a year. Then one day it felt like it lifted, out of the blue and suddenly. It will happen in time for you too. It didn’t mean I wasn’t still sad, I was, but the cloud lifted and it felt more manageable
People always say to 'be strong', but I think we should remind people to be kind to themselves as they navigate a new life without a loved one. So, be kind to yourself, eat good food, cry when you need to, drink water, and remember that a whole world of people support you and remember Sara with love. ❤
It takes at least a couple of years to stop crying alone at night, but after 4-5 years you'll start to forget all your attachment feelings and see yourself much older, like you've stepped into a time machine. By then, you'll need a special someone to help you keep your energy up and not let your sadness take over.
You don't have to be strong. You just have to keep going. Take care of yourself! Don't rush through things that are painful. That last footage Sara took in Australia before everything can wait until you're ready, and it's okay if that's never. Sara gave you some good advice, so follow it as you can.
드뎌 한국으로 오셨네요 사라씨가 한국에 온걸 알것 같아요!! 보고싶다
I am so touched and emotional right now..i came here after watching a reel..and now i couldn't take my mind off .
Stay strong brother
Do try to have the schedule would help and force yourself to do it. Important thing is to eat for meals on time even though you are not hungry. If you don't eat you health will not be good. Try to get some fresh air and sun everyday. Go for the walk or hike in the mountains or parks.
Do they have the support groups in Seoul? If not, you should start one.
You don’t know how much strength takes to just survive sometimes, even if you don’t feel it right now, you are being so strong dealing with this difficult situation, and also you are showing how deeply, pure and kind is your love, she is proud of you, you are doing it great
This video is important, and it's of value that you made it. Grief is very difficult, it's important to express it clearly. Please keep yourself healthy. Thank you
사라 많이 사랑해주고 행복하게 해줘서 너무 고마웠어요 ㅠㅠ
솔직한 모습을 보여줘서 너무 고맙네요. 이럴 때는 위로되는 표현이 떠올라요. The wounded in you heals the wounded in me. 대충 번역하자면 당신이 받은 상처는 저를 치료한다. 6개월 전에는 저도 개인 사건 때문에 많이 힘들었는데 사라 씨 돌아가셨다는 소식을 들으면서 내 마음 찢어진 것처럼 아팠거든요. 현 씨가 사라 얼마나 사랑하는지 잘 느껴서 아픈 내 마음도 의식하게 된 것 같아요. 영상을 보다가 다음 날에는 직업을 그만둬서 휴식을 가져왔을 정도였더라고요. 6개월 후에 오늘은 개인 사건이 별로 달라지지 않았는데 휴식도 가지며 감정관리를 꾸준히 연습하고 있었습니다. 현 씨 오래 아파도 괜찮아요. 힘 없어도 괜찮아요. 맨날 할 수 있는 걸 해 보고 조금씩 회복해도 돼요. 언제든 응원해 줄 테니 부담 갖지 말고 우리가 현 씨 있는 그대로 받아들여 드릴 테니까 말이에요.
I greatly appreciate how hard you’re working to look at things positively and continue the legacy Sara’s left for us all and we will support you through it all, but please don’t put too much pressure on yourself. You’ve been through one of the greatest pains anyone could imagine. If this ever gets to be too much, please don’t hesitate to prioritize yourself and please don’t feel guilty for it for a second. We all understand completely and are here in any way we can be.
With love, Bbyong~ 🤍
힘내세요. 진짜 밝고 이쁜 사라였는데ㅜㅜ
현씨~~~ 힌들지만 매일매일 화이팅~~ 웃지 않아도 강한 모습이 충분히 좋아요. 열심히 버티는것도 충분합니다. 밥을 잘 챙기고 건강하시길 바래요. 사라씨도 그렇게 현씨 위해서도 바라지 않았을까요 싶기도 하고... 서을에 있는 아름다은 것이 지금 보기 힘들지만 힐링이 되기를 바래요... 그래서 i also hope you find happiness in small things. 잛지만 그 행복한 순간들은 앞으로 더 많이 생기기를 바랍니다. 현씨 역시 하루하루 전전히 사라 처럼 빛나게 사는게 보기 좋아요!!! 우는게도 사는것이니까. 항상 응원합니다 할수있다 ✨👍 현씨 짱!
your relationship to Sara is still growing and will forever grow... involving RUclips or not. Do anything you need to do to thrive. much love.
당연하죠 ㅠㅠ 내가 죽을때까지 그립고 보고싶고 슬프고 ㅜㅜ울고싶은만큼 울고 슬프면 슬퍼하세요.ㅜㅜ 허나 힘내요 사라같이 그리워해요❤
❤😂😢😮😮 너무 힘드시지만 힘내시고 남아 있는 님도 우리도 사라님의 몫으로 열심히 살아야지요! 기운 차리시고 힘내세요!
오랜만입니다🌷 힘든 시간일텐데 이렇게 안부인사 전해주셔서 고마워요!!
사라님이 원했던대로 현님의 모습을 잃지않고 살아가시기를 저도 진심으로 바랍니다..!! 그리고 혼자서 너무 힘들어하지 마세요.. 반려견을 입양해서 새로운 가족을 꾸린 다음에 함께 산책도 하고 체온도 나누고 추억도 만들어 보ㅅ거나, 사별한 사람들의 모임이나 유튜브영상 보면서 같이 공감하고 아픔을 나누는 등 이 세상에 혼자가 아니구나를 느끼고 이 세상을 살아가는 방법을 함께 배워가보시기를 조심스럽게 말씀드려봅니다..🙏 현님의 평안을 진심으로 기원할게요!! 사라님을 위해 꼭 건강도 잘 챙기세요!!💪
I lost my mother to cancer like Sara. I live every day thinking I don't have to worry her, so I try to be strong. I hope my mom meets Sara in heaven. ❤
I wanted to say, Hyun, that it's so good of you to continue on, and to be honest and open about having a hard time. It's only if you're open about it with people that they will know to help you. And sometimes just letting these things out helps you to feel better (little by little, gradually).
I wanted to say that, when people are telling you to stay strong, you're not disappointing them if it's hard or if you can't be strong. People just hope for your well-being but we all know that you can't possibly be okay right now - not entirely. We just want you to hang on. Take it all however you have to, but know that you will feel better. Not that the pain will subside, if that makes sense, but you will be able to live around it. You /are/ so strong, Hyun, for just having endured what you have. A lot of us are probably just internet people in the scope of your life, but we all care about you. Know you're not alone, even if it might feel like that and times might be hard.
힘내세요ㅠ 얼마나 마음이 아프실지 헤아릴순 없지만 건강하시고 힘내셨으면 합니다
Thank you for sharing of yourself and being real and honest to your subscribers and yourself. Grief can be all encompassing and it’s completely understandable that you’re feeling depressed, sad, and anything else: feel what you need to feel. Take things one day, one hour, one minute at a time: there is no timeline for grieving a loss. I’m glad you’re taking care of your physical health; please take care of your emotional health as well. I’m so glad there are so many videos, photos and memories of Sara for you to remember her. Hugs!!
I was waiting for this update from so long. Always there for Hyun. Stay healthy. Bbyong!
Dear Hyun! It's okay to feel the way you are feeling, it's so hard to lose someone you love so much! Take your time to heal and to feel better again, until then we'll all be patiently waiting for you to return. It will always stay difficult and that's okay, it's okay to cry and it's okay to grief! I am sure Sara is very proud of you
My heart goes out to you i can’t believe it still. I first started watching her channel before she moved to Korea when she was first visiting & then when she decided to move over. To watch her chase her dreams was really inspirational. Find peace knowing that she really didn’t waste any moments & got to do a lot in the time she was here. Sending you lots of light
I was actually thinking about you the other week when I saw another video filmed in a place where you and Sara had recorded one and I suddenly remembered Sara is no longer with us and how awful it must be for you. Sending you warm wishes from the Uk, Sara’s memory still lives on ❤
I feel the same way. A recommended video will pop up on RUclips and I remember she is no longer here and feel sad. Of course for her family that pain and loss is 1000 times worse.
It’s so great to see you ❤
I don’t have many words but I want to say that seeing your videos and Instagram story is always a blessing ☀️
It’s so good to see you Hyun. It’s ok to feel however you feel and the feeling may change from day to day or hour to hour. It’s ok to mourn for your beloved Sarah. She was so precious to you and her light changed you in ways we’ll never know. I’m so sorry that you’re enduring such pain. I know what it feels like to lose someone precious to cancer especially when it happens so fast it leaves you feeling a bit bewildered and somedays it can be hard to believe- it’s like waking to the shock of it with total unbelief and trying to make sense out of the senseless. For now everything and nothing will draw your thoughts to Sarah as easy as you breathe. I’m glad you’re going for a health checkup. Please try to eat better and try to sleep well. I’m anxious to know how you are so please come again soon. Many prayers for comfort 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
Dear Hyun,
I am deeply sorry for your loss. Losing someone you love is never easy, and I can only imagine how difficult it must be to have lost your beloved Sara. The pain of losing someone we love can feel unbearable, and it's natural to feel a range of emotions.
I want you to know that you are not alone in this difficult time. Even though I don't know you personally, please know that my thoughts are with you. Losing someone we love can feel isolating, but it's important to remember that there are people who care about you and want to support you.
Take all the time you need to grieve and heal. Remember to take care of yourself and reach out for help when you need it. Know that Sara will always be a part of your life and that her memory will live on.
I never really like it when people say "stay strong." Grieve my friend, grieve. It's okay not to be okay. I can reassure you it gets easier. This is coming from someone who watched their mother die and then 2 weeks later watched their grandfather die(her dad). Little by little add to your daily itinerary to get you up and out of bed. She would want you to live your life. So if you can't do that for yourself do it for her. Sara was such a lovely person and so are you. Keep going. Use that pain and sadness to push you towards your next passion in life. Surving day by day is okay. It will be okay. You'll be okay. ❤
She’s still so important to so many people. And so is your wellness. Keep surviving.
Thank you for the update. I've been thinking of you and I do think of Sara often, especially when there's a beautiful sky here in OK, USA. Hang in there, keep your head up and take care of yourself 🥰
It is still unbelievable to me that Sara is not with us! I can still see her kind smiling face now!
힘내셨으면 합니다. 밝게 웃으면서 살아가는게 위하는 거겠죠.
Thank you so much for the update. Looking forward to seeing more videos of you. Take all the time you need. Sending love 💕
Do you know that we are in the blessed month of Ramadan, and this is the month of Muslims, and I will pray for her in this blessed month, so that she enters heaven, God willing, Sarah will now be happy
Dear Hyun, it’s a relief to see you on here. I came across your videos only a few days ago and was heartbroken to learn what had happened. I noticed you hadn’t posted in a while and was getting worried. It seems from the comments that everyone else is also glad to see your updates.
Hyun, I am so, so sorry for your loss. I can only imagine your pain and grief. I just wanted to say that it’s okay to not be okay. It’s okay to be angry and sad, to feel that things are unfair, to cry. Please don’t feel like you have to always be positive during such a difficult time - take as much time as you need in order to grieve and heal.
I know Sara is watching over you and I’m confident she is proud of you. So keep fighting on, one day at a time, and like you said in the video: continue living in a way that Sara would love. We’re here for you too and are rooting for you. Please take care of yourself. Sending you lots of love from Canada ❤️
I hope her soul rest in peace
I am so looking forward to seeing your home! Thank you for updating us. Thank you for sharing Sara's and your love for Soul through showing us. I'm excited for your coming videos and you will do a great job, I know that already!
오랜만입니다. 비슷한 입장 이었고 강산이 한바뀌 바뀔 정도가 된 지금은 살아내느라 정신이 없지만 3년간 많이 힘들더군요.
어떠한 입장인지 충분히 이해가 됩니다.
세월이 약이 되더군요. 힘내세요.
Something I always tell myself is that "living takes courage" and "courage isn't the absence of fear, but continuing in spite of fear." Sometimes it helps to tell myself to be brave, to have courage, instead of telling myself to stay strong. And like most things, courage is something you have to work for, so it's okay if you have courage one hour and don't the next. It's okay if it takes half the day to work up the courage to do a task. It's hard to put into words what the fear I'm facing is, because it's so many things, but I'm not always thinking of what the fear is. I'm focusing on summoning courage.
I guess it's like shifting your mindset from focusing on what you CAN do, instead of what you CAN'T, even if what you CAN do might not amount to much to anyone else. But if it's something that you have to get past yourself or get past your thoughts to do, then I think that's actually a big accomplishment, because we're often our own worst enemies.
I don't know if that makes sense, or if it helps, but I thought I'd share.
Dear Hyun...I am so sorry for your pain. Grief is so hard and changes you. You cannot rush thru it. I hope that you talk to your doctor about your depression. Talking honestly about your feelings is healthy. My husband died 3 years ago. It still hurts...a lot. When people told me to stay strong ,it made me feel worse. I think it's important to be with people who love you, even I you are just sitting in a room together. Talk about your true feelings. Ask for help . I know what it's like to not be able to get out of bed day after day. But I you can, do one small thing every day. There are so many of us who care about you. If you want to make videos of you just talking about your grief ...do it. We are here for you. I think we all made a silent promise to Sara to help you I any way that we can. Sending you love from Canada. ❤
I'm glad to see you. Please come back often. I'm a widow, I understand how hard it is. Sara's fans and yours will be here for you. ❤
And we will love to see Seoul through your eyes !! thank you 👍🏻
You are doing so well Hyun❤ I think about Sara everyday and miss her so much. We had so much fun together in Sydney, I miss those times.