I think the worst thing about md is that your so attached to your characters, but they’re not real. Like your so in love with them and they seem to get you, but they’re not real. Or, like you said, when it hits that you’ll never be what your daydream are. You seem to make yourself the center of attention, when your not and probably never will be. Great video! Stay strong!
What sucks is when you make characters or pretend to know people and get attached to them, then you kinda pause and it sinks in your sitting in your room or something just imagining these fantasies I usually get anxiety or shame after my day dreaming because of those realizations
One thing I hate that I almost never hear anyone mention is how MD starts making reality feel like It's fake. Like especially if a daydream is inspired by something that happened in my real life then I start to convince yourself that it never happened because I'm fantasizing about it so it kind of takes the meaning out of what happens in real life. Does that make sense?
Ginny Herndon yes completely! Sorry for the late response. But yes!!! It’s almost like life is just floating by and I’m so in tuned with my imaginary life more than my real one
I literally don’t have memories, I look at my daydreams for nostalgia, it’ll be like “Oh, that year! I remember my characters from that time… those were fun.”
I appreciate your video. I especially appreciate your concerns about how this could possibly steal your life and years. They are valid - I am 50yrs old and currently on permanent social security disability. I have been a depressive since childhood and (i am almost positive, incorrectly) been labeled schizophrenic. I am an extremely naturally talented creative, extremely intelligent, and never got off the ground because I can't get out of my head. I have lost jobs and my social life because I can't control of my thoughts. I don't want you to be afraid but I wanted to say that your concerns are valib. People of my generation did not grow up with the openness about mental health that there is today especially black folk so I know what it is to feel doomed by this. I wish you success in this journey
Thank you for being so transparent about this. I fully relate to everything you said and being a person of color makes it even harder since we don’t really acknowledge these types of issues, especially anxiety. Rooting for you sister ❤️
Kyla J. Omg I’m sorry I am so late! I haven’t been logged on to my account in a while. Thank you so much lovely! It’s already hard talking about it as a minority, let alone having MD as well! Rooting for you❤️❤️❤️
Hearing you talk about this made me feel so relieved in a way cuz I thought I was the only one feeling this way particularly. All other MD vids I watched never talked about the anxiousness and feeling lonely at night.
I am glad you can relate to this feeling. It even happens in the day for me to tbh. I can be so anxious about the fact that my life will never be like the things that I daydream about. Or just the fact that I daydream in general makes me pretty anxious
It's so hard! I don't really communicate with any people with MD online or irl, amd it makes me feel so sad. Everyone says you're not alone, but they don't realize I have trouble finding people like me! I've cried so much about it, that when I hear someone coming, I can pretend I'm fine in five seconds. But what's THE ABSOLUTE WORST is that usually most Daydreamers pace and move their lips when they Daydream, I do that, but I ALSO MOVE MY HANDS AROUND LIKE A CRAZY PERSON! It becomes so noticable and so awkward! And don't get me started on the times I accidentally hit someone while Daydreaming!
I'm an introvert with no friends. Most of my life is just pasing, I've been doing it for as long as I can remember. It doesn't bother me.. Probably because i like md. Maybe i dont have md. Because i can't feel that I'm actually inside it. Also, i can only can daydream properly when I'm walking or pasing or running. It's almost impossible to daydream without walking or smth. I stopped once, and i felt lonely and sad. I just felt like i lost all meaning to life.
I am so glad people are talking about this now. I could’ve really used videos like this when I was 12 and I had no idea why I was always in “another world”. Thank you for making this video!
I've been like this at least since I was 6. I'd go to bed but monologue these fictions, sometimes whispering or muttering speech. Later i'd find myself pacing about my room. Listening to music makes me compulsively move to the beat and sing the lyrics (I dearn't use headphones/earphones in public because I can't hear myself singing or muttering lyrics. Certain things in my daydreams won't go my way and I'll become furious. My daydreams will become violent and angry followed by immediate regret and almost grief. The only relief I know is to be with someone else, anyone really. One doesn't need to socialize but simply be in the presence of another and, for me at least, it simply stops. As soon as i'm alone it begins.
Thank you for sharing! I didn't know bout MD until today, haha. I’ve struggle with MD for my entire life. This video gave me much needed clarity. I have really bad MD when it comes to dating and relationships or trauma. Great video!
Its hard to see people going through this but i can relate so much with what youre going through.I truly admire you for putting yourself out there for the whole world to see. It's people like you and me that can make a difference by sharing our experiences. I truly think we can help each other. RUclips and its platform has helped a lot in reaching out to others and sharing our stories and how we cope with Anxiety and Depression. Stop by some time. Let go of what’s gone, be grateful for what remains and look forward to what is coming. You never realize how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have. Don’t forget you’re human. It’s okay to have a meltdown. Just don’t unpack and live there. Refocus on where you’re headed. You are limited only by the walls you build yourself. Knock down those walls, and you will be free. Build your confidence. Two things will ultimately define your life: Your accomplishments, and your character. You are so worth it. Your biggest successes are still to come. A step at a time. I wish you good health & happiness on your journey:)I am a text book case when it comes to Anxiety. I have had all the symptoms that are classic examples of an Anxiety state. Such as those , rapid heart palpitations, I get Panic or Anxiety attacks, some of which are really frightening. I feel extremely uneasy around people, and I have had counselling for this, including Cognitive Therapy, but this has not really helped me very much in my case. Stay strong and don't be afraid to reach out, together we can shed some light and hopefully move forward with some happiness.
Finding Zeke Thank you so much for your kind words! I also suffer from Maladaptive daydreaming, which usually causes me to have a near anxiety attack ☹️
Is it weird that I’m freaking out that this might be a mental disorder? With there being so many stigmas attached and some family history of mental disorders (I wonder if my dad has this to some extent), plus me having a learning disability, I’m totally scared of not being seen as normal. Ever since I was little, maybe starting around 7-8, I would have “make believe” friends. I could spend hours playing by myself, doing all of the kid pretend play scenarios, which is completely normal for that age, but I kinda wonder if I somehow didn’t fully “out grow” it. Keep in mind, as I got older, I would “pretend” (for lack of a better word) with age appropriate conversations and people...usually someone as I would perceive as close friend. Funny enough, one of mine perceived people had a name, and a few years later, I met an actual person with the same name, and she became one of my real life best friends. Anyways, I don’t know how much of this happens because I live by myself, and am probably more towards the introvert side. However, since I am by myself so much, I kinda wonder if talking myself is a way to possibly get rid of excess energy. I am fully aware of what I’m doing, and can stop if I need to (like if people are close by), but have been “caught” before, so I try not to do it. I often find that I do when I’m walking by myself somewhere, or if I’m waiting by myself (like for a bus). I may not even be stressed when I do it, but I also use to practice future conversations I may have with others. However, as for the percentage of the day that I do it, I honestly don’t know. I do feel like it happens more at night as I’m usually more out an about during the day. I definitely use to keep myself up for hours when I was younger. It was like I could not get my brain to shut the conversation off so that I could sleep. I would try to keep them quiet so that I wouldn’t keep anyone up, but I’m sure my parents heard a lot over the years and probably wonder “WTF is she talking about?” So yeah....finding this to be so confusing, and stressful with thinking it might be a mental disorder. Yet, I have also heard that talking to myself can be a good stress relief, and that most people seem to do some form of this.
I tried explaining this to my parents but they called it fake or that people make these things to get money form it but no it isn’t, and they told me to get rid of it as quickly as possible and they also said maybe it’s because of quarantine, like no I’ve been doing this for so long even before quarantine, I don’t know what type of professional should I go to and I’m just 13 I’ve been doing this for 5 years or more, it started out small but now it’s getting worse, I want it to go away.
Hey, I feel you! I’m 13 too and having MD just feels so isolating. I’m in a similar suit ya toon to yours- I’ve suffered for years but recently it’s got way worse and that’s how I discovered it was an acc condition. My parents have both had a tough life and my problems always feel insignificant to theirs so I haven’t actually told them about my MD. It’s so hard also bc it’s pretty newly recognised so it isn’t well known. I wish you all the best with ur journey/ good luck! You aren’t alone :)
we should message or sum cause i’ve never met someone who’s actually has md. i’ve been struggling for yearsssssss with this. it would be nice to have someone to talk to about it cause everyone else kinda thinks it’s a joke
do you have an instagram i have this too and i relate to this so much and i’ve never met anyone with md either, doctors have ignored or misdiagnosed me with this and i don’t know how to cope with it ???💗
I love you for your honesty and for your NC Central shirt! Seriously, I wish I had an understanding of these things when I was your age. Please keep up your studies and continue to help people!
Hey there, i am a MaDD channel too. Was wondering if you would let me mention your channel in an up coming video of mine. I am going to be making a video mentioning other MaDD dedicated youtube channel so that my subscribers can be awear of other channels they can follow.
I apologize for the late response! I haven’t made content in a while. But I think it possibly can. Sometimes I get headaches from daydreaming, possibly due to all the movement I make while daydreaming
I think the worst thing about md is that your so attached to your characters, but they’re not real. Like your so in love with them and they seem to get you, but they’re not real.
Or, like you said, when it hits that you’ll never be what your daydream are. You seem to make yourself the center of attention, when your not and probably never will be.
Great video! Stay strong!
Bubblez _08 That’s the downfall for me is coming back to reality... thank you so much, I’m trying to!❤️
What sucks is when you make characters or pretend to know people and get attached to them, then you kinda pause and it sinks in your sitting in your room or something just imagining these fantasies
I usually get anxiety or shame after my day dreaming because of those realizations
Oh my gosh same
these are my exact feelings. i lost a huge chunk of my life and i can't even hang out with anyone because of it :(
One thing I hate that I almost never hear anyone mention is how MD starts making reality feel like It's fake. Like especially if a daydream is inspired by something that happened in my real life then I start to convince yourself that it never happened because I'm fantasizing about it so it kind of takes the meaning out of what happens in real life. Does that make sense?
Ginny Herndon yes completely! Sorry for the late response. But yes!!! It’s almost like life is just floating by and I’m so in tuned with my imaginary life more than my real one
Uuh yes!🙄
I literally don’t have memories, I look at my daydreams for nostalgia, it’ll be like
“Oh, that year! I remember my characters from that time… those were fun.”
I appreciate your video. I especially appreciate your concerns about how this could possibly steal your life and years. They are valid - I am 50yrs old and currently on permanent social security disability. I have been a depressive since childhood and (i am almost positive, incorrectly) been labeled schizophrenic. I am an extremely naturally talented creative, extremely intelligent, and never got off the ground because I can't get out of my head. I have lost jobs and my social life because I can't control of my thoughts. I don't want you to be afraid but I wanted to say that your concerns are valib. People of my generation did not grow up with the openness about mental health that there is today especially black folk so I know what it is to feel doomed by this. I wish you success in this journey
Thank you for being so transparent about this. I fully relate to everything you said and being a person of color makes it even harder since we don’t really acknowledge these types of issues, especially anxiety. Rooting for you sister ❤️
Kyla J. Omg I’m sorry I am so late! I haven’t been logged on to my account in a while. Thank you so much lovely! It’s already hard talking about it as a minority, let alone having MD as well! Rooting for you❤️❤️❤️
Hearing you talk about this made me feel so relieved in a way cuz I thought I was the only one feeling this way particularly. All other MD vids I watched never talked about the anxiousness and feeling lonely at night.
I am glad you can relate to this feeling. It even happens in the day for me to tbh. I can be so anxious about the fact that my life will never be like the things that I daydream about. Or just the fact that I daydream in general makes me pretty anxious
It's so hard! I don't really communicate with any people with MD online or irl, amd it makes me feel so sad. Everyone says you're not alone, but they don't realize I have trouble finding people like me! I've cried so much about it, that when I hear someone coming, I can pretend I'm fine in five seconds. But what's THE ABSOLUTE WORST is that usually most Daydreamers pace and move their lips when they Daydream, I do that, but I ALSO MOVE MY HANDS AROUND LIKE A CRAZY PERSON! It becomes so noticable and so awkward! And don't get me started on the times I accidentally hit someone while Daydreaming!
Dude those feelings you were talking about getting at night?? SAME. I have to go to bed hella early just to keep those feelings away
Damn same 😖😂
I'm an introvert with no friends. Most of my life is just pasing, I've been doing it for as long as I can remember. It doesn't bother me.. Probably because i like md. Maybe i dont have md. Because i can't feel that I'm actually inside it. Also, i can only can daydream properly when I'm walking or pasing or running. It's almost impossible to daydream without walking or smth. I stopped once, and i felt lonely and sad. I just felt like i lost all meaning to life.
I am so glad people are talking about this now. I could’ve really used videos like this when I was 12 and I had no idea why I was always in “another world”. Thank you for making this video!
I've been like this at least since I was 6. I'd go to bed but monologue these fictions, sometimes whispering or muttering speech. Later i'd find myself pacing about my room. Listening to music makes me compulsively move to the beat and sing the lyrics (I dearn't use headphones/earphones in public because I can't hear myself singing or muttering lyrics. Certain things in my daydreams won't go my way and I'll become furious. My daydreams will become violent and angry followed by immediate regret and almost grief.
The only relief I know is to be with someone else, anyone really. One doesn't need to socialize but simply be in the presence of another and, for me at least, it simply stops. As soon as i'm alone it begins.
Thank you for sharing! I didn't know bout MD until today, haha. I’ve struggle with MD for my entire life. This video gave me much needed clarity. I have really bad MD when it comes to dating and relationships or trauma. Great video!
Its hard to see people going through this but i can relate so much with what youre going through.I truly admire you for putting yourself out there for the whole world to see. It's people like you and me that can make a difference by sharing our experiences. I truly think we can help each other. RUclips and its platform has helped a lot in reaching out to others and sharing our stories and how we cope with Anxiety and Depression. Stop by some time. Let go of what’s gone, be grateful for what remains and look forward to what is coming. You never realize how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have. Don’t forget you’re human. It’s okay to have a meltdown. Just don’t unpack and live there. Refocus on where you’re headed. You are limited only by the walls you build yourself. Knock down those walls, and you will be free. Build your confidence. Two things will ultimately define your life: Your accomplishments, and your character. You are so worth it. Your biggest successes are still to come. A step at a time. I wish you good health & happiness on your journey:)I am a text book case when it comes to Anxiety. I have had all the symptoms that are classic examples
of an Anxiety state. Such as those , rapid heart palpitations,
I get Panic or Anxiety attacks, some of which are really frightening. I feel extremely
uneasy around people, and I have had counselling for this, including Cognitive Therapy, but this has not really
helped me very much in my case. Stay strong and don't be afraid to reach out, together we can shed some light and hopefully move forward with some happiness.
Finding Zeke Thank you so much for your kind words! I also suffer from Maladaptive daydreaming, which usually causes me to have a near anxiety attack ☹️
Is it weird that I’m freaking out that this might be a mental disorder? With there being so many stigmas attached and some family history of mental disorders (I wonder if my dad has this to some extent), plus me having a learning disability, I’m totally scared of not being seen as normal.
Ever since I was little, maybe starting around 7-8, I would have “make believe” friends. I could spend hours playing by myself, doing all of the kid pretend play scenarios, which is completely normal for that age, but I kinda wonder if I somehow didn’t fully “out grow” it. Keep in mind, as I got older, I would “pretend” (for lack of a better word) with age appropriate conversations and people...usually someone as I would perceive as close friend. Funny enough, one of mine perceived people had a name, and a few years later, I met an actual person with the same name, and she became one of my real life best friends.
Anyways, I don’t know how much of this happens because I live by myself, and am probably more towards the introvert side. However, since I am by myself so much, I kinda wonder if talking myself is a way to possibly get rid of excess energy. I am fully aware of what I’m doing, and can stop if I need to (like if people are close by), but have been “caught” before, so I try not to do it. I often find that I do when I’m walking by myself somewhere, or if I’m waiting by myself (like for a bus). I may not even be stressed when I do it, but I also use to practice future conversations I may have with others.
However, as for the percentage of the day that I do it, I honestly don’t know. I do feel like it happens more at night as I’m usually more out an about during the day. I definitely use to keep myself up for hours when I was younger. It was like I could not get my brain to shut the conversation off so that I could sleep. I would try to keep them quiet so that I wouldn’t keep anyone up, but I’m sure my parents heard a lot over the years and probably wonder “WTF is she talking about?”
So yeah....finding this to be so confusing, and stressful with thinking it might be a mental disorder. Yet, I have also heard that talking to myself can be a good stress relief, and that most people seem to do some form of this.
I'm glad your still alive! I was wondering how you were doing as well! Sending positive peaceful vibes!
Worst thing is getting attached and not getting away from that, its like a sticky glue that you need extensive work to get off that.
I apologize for the late response! But yes, it’s almost distressing to think of never daydreaming again. And it causes moodiness too!!
I tried explaining this to my parents but they called it fake or that people make these things to get money form it but no it isn’t, and they told me to get rid of it as quickly as possible and they also said maybe it’s because of quarantine, like no I’ve been doing this for so long even before quarantine, I don’t know what type of professional should I go to and I’m just 13 I’ve been doing this for 5 years or more, it started out small but now it’s getting worse, I want it to go away.
Hey, I feel you! I’m 13 too and having MD just feels so isolating. I’m in a similar suit ya toon to yours- I’ve suffered for years but recently it’s got way worse and that’s how I discovered it was an acc condition. My parents have both had a tough life and my problems always feel insignificant to theirs so I haven’t actually told them about my MD. It’s so hard also bc it’s pretty newly recognised so it isn’t well known.
I wish you all the best with ur journey/ good luck! You aren’t alone :)
Pray to Jesus it helped
we should message or sum cause i’ve never met someone who’s actually has md. i’ve been struggling for yearsssssss with this. it would be nice to have someone to talk to about it cause everyone else kinda thinks it’s a joke
Blk Barbie omg do you have Instagram I have a page dedicated to MD @lifegonemadd_ where we can dm. I’ve had it since I was 11
do you have an instagram i have this too and i relate to this so much and i’ve never met anyone with md either, doctors have ignored or misdiagnosed me with this and i don’t know how to cope with it ???💗
Alice Jane hi i have md as well. Feel free to message me if u need to talk because im in the same situation as you :). Ig : asmaechakiralaoui
@@StorkSma i will message you what's your email i need someone to talk to
Rae Ceec miss_fertouta@hotmail.fr
I love you for your honesty and for your NC Central shirt! Seriously, I wish I had an understanding of these things when I was your age. Please keep up your studies and continue to help people!
I can't sleep anymore I hate it, I'm only partially "awake" at all times
it gives me euphoria
What
Me too
Me too
Jesus will heal you
Hey there, i am a MaDD channel too. Was wondering if you would let me mention your channel in an up coming video of mine. I am going to be making a video mentioning other MaDD dedicated youtube channel so that my subscribers can be awear of other channels they can follow.
Can MD causes headache?
I apologize for the late response! I haven’t made content in a while. But I think it possibly can. Sometimes I get headaches from daydreaming, possibly due to all the movement I make while daydreaming
@@Llllll98 thank you so much for reply..