I MUST REMEMBER: Resistance to ANYTHING strengthens its hold over me. Radical acceptance requires tremendous strength, and faith the size of a mustard seed! Please please please, Lord, let me die. I desperately want to die. I'm in hell with no escape. Constant and consistent panic attacks. I'm terrified and all alone. I desperately want to die. I'm constantly in a state of paralyzed frozen trauma. I wish only for death. My soul is raped. REMINDER TO SELF: You're not crying about HIM, you sweet fool! You've been crying about what you thought was real with him, only to now discover... It was actually fake AS FUCK! IT WAS ALL A WHOLE DAMN ILLUSION! Trauma bonds are real. I HAVE SEVERE PTSD. The man whom I thought was my best friend, he gave me this PTSD... I want to die. I beg to die. My entire life is hell. Just suffering. The man whom I thought was my best friend... He raped my soul. My soul is anguished and tormented and raped, I am so so so traumatized. He fucked me up. Ruined me. Destroyed me. Raped my soul; shattered my heart; fucked my mind. I am debilitated from the trauma. Paralyzed frozen. Living in constant terror and panic. I DIE INSIDE. THE PAIN IS UNCEASING AND UNBEARABLE. I LIVE IN A STATE OF PERPETUAL TRAUMA AND PANIC. He betrayed and abandoned me, discarded me like garbage!!! (HOW THE FUCK COULD HE?) Replaced me for another. * An important thing: people (such as I) who had a difficult/traumatic childhood, especially those who never had their emotional needs met (like me), are prone to limerance. The reason is because we were always prone to imagining a parallel reality, a whole world of fantasies we could escape to... Fantasies have always been a safer world for us than the real one, so our mind is already used to this dynamic (it's basically like 'muscle memory'). When something triggers this dynamic, it's like opening a portal to our safe fantasy world, and as destructive as it is, we are used to actually loving it... * ANOTHER REMINDER TO SELF: This was a karmic friendship, meant to be there for a limited time (17-months-ish) to teach you, about yourself! About boundaries, about self-love, about self-respect, about self-worth, etc... About a whole plethora of magical, juicy, alchemical things! The universe, God, your guides, your ancestors, are pushing you, lovingly, in the right direction: into your own magnificent powerful magical freedom! When you let go. The universe will catch you. It’s talking to you. Let go of everything and trust the universe. It’s within you. ✨💫 NOTE TO MY TWIN FLAME: Dearest twin flame, I’m working on myself, I am being 100% healed, on every level, in every way. This is my purification process. I am doing this for me, for you, for us. I’m proud of myself, and I’m getting ready for you. I love you. AFFIRMING: - I am divine - I am sacred - I am radically honest - I am radically free - I am radically changed, in all the healthiest ways (180) - I am a warrior - I am an angel - I am light - I am love - I am one with the eternal - I am one with my twin flame - I am protected - I am strong - I am beautiful - I am royalty; daughter of the most high king - I am multidimensional - I am grateful - I am abundantly blessed - I am brave - I am creative - I am resilient - I am ambitious - I am a healer - I make the world a better place - The world makes me a better woman The desire of my heart is to be in Jesus' presence and love, always, in all ways. I am a vessel for God to bless, so that I, in turn, can be a blessing to others.💖
thanks for explaining this. Now I can complete my homework! Lol
Thank you for this. Excelent
WELL EXPLAINED
I MUST REMEMBER:
Resistance to ANYTHING strengthens its hold over me.
Radical acceptance requires tremendous strength,
and faith the size of a mustard seed!
Please please please, Lord, let me die.
I desperately want to die.
I'm in hell with no escape.
Constant and consistent panic attacks.
I'm terrified and all alone.
I desperately want to die.
I'm constantly in a state of paralyzed frozen trauma.
I wish only for death.
My soul is raped.
REMINDER TO SELF:
You're not crying about HIM, you sweet fool!
You've been crying about what you thought was real with him,
only to now discover... It was actually fake AS FUCK!
IT WAS ALL A WHOLE DAMN ILLUSION!
Trauma bonds are real.
I HAVE SEVERE PTSD.
The man whom I thought was my best friend,
he gave me this PTSD...
I want to die.
I beg to die.
My entire life is hell.
Just suffering.
The man whom I thought was my best friend...
He raped my soul.
My soul is anguished and tormented and raped,
I am so so so traumatized.
He fucked me up. Ruined me. Destroyed me.
Raped my soul; shattered my heart; fucked my mind.
I am debilitated from the trauma.
Paralyzed frozen. Living in constant terror and panic.
I DIE INSIDE.
THE PAIN IS UNCEASING AND UNBEARABLE.
I LIVE IN A STATE OF PERPETUAL TRAUMA AND PANIC.
He betrayed and abandoned me,
discarded me like garbage!!!
(HOW THE FUCK COULD HE?)
Replaced me for another.
* An important thing:
people (such as I) who had a difficult/traumatic childhood,
especially those who never had their emotional needs met (like me),
are prone to limerance. The reason is because we were always prone to imagining
a parallel reality, a whole world of fantasies we could escape to...
Fantasies have always been a safer world for us than the real one,
so our mind is already used to this dynamic (it's basically like 'muscle memory').
When something triggers this dynamic, it's like opening a portal
to our safe fantasy world, and as destructive as it is, we are used to actually loving it... *
ANOTHER REMINDER TO SELF:
This was a karmic friendship,
meant to be there for a limited time (17-months-ish)
to teach you, about yourself!
About boundaries, about self-love,
about self-respect, about self-worth, etc...
About a whole plethora of magical, juicy, alchemical things!
The universe, God, your guides, your ancestors, are pushing you, lovingly,
in the right direction: into your own magnificent powerful magical freedom!
When you let go. The universe will catch you. It’s talking to you.
Let go of everything and trust the universe. It’s within you. ✨💫
NOTE TO MY TWIN FLAME:
Dearest twin flame, I’m working on myself,
I am being 100% healed, on every level, in every way.
This is my purification process. I am doing this for me, for you, for us.
I’m proud of myself, and I’m getting ready for you.
I love you.
AFFIRMING:
- I am divine
- I am sacred
- I am radically honest
- I am radically free
- I am radically changed, in all the healthiest ways (180)
- I am a warrior
- I am an angel
- I am light
- I am love
- I am one with the eternal
- I am one with my twin flame
- I am protected
- I am strong
- I am beautiful
- I am royalty; daughter of the most high king
- I am multidimensional
- I am grateful
- I am abundantly blessed
- I am brave
- I am creative
- I am resilient
- I am ambitious
- I am a healer
- I make the world a better place
- The world makes me a better woman
The desire of my heart is to be in Jesus' presence and love, always, in all ways.
I am a vessel for God to bless, so that I, in turn, can be a blessing to others.💖
So good!
Great explanation!
Very useful and easy,
Thank you