Up and Up (sad version) - demo

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Lyrics:
Verse:
My childhood friends
Going off the deep end
Getting pregnant
With sus boyfriends
My childhood friends
Really acting different
Doing drugs
Or hooking up
With forty year-olds
Pre-chorus
What am I supposed to do with that?
I feel alone while everyone’s going crazy
Makes my stomach hurt I’m feeling bad
Never thought they’d grow up acting shady
Chorus:
They let the ball drop
And drop and drop
I watch it fall and fall
Gets small and smaller
I keep it up and up
And up and up
No matter what
Comes up
My grip is solid
Verse 2;
My childhood friends
Going off the deep end
The thought glistens
I could just give-in
Like my childhood friends
Do something with limited
consequences
There’s worse that they did
Pre-chorus
What am I supposed to do with that?
Those thoughts are toxic they don’t belong in my mind
Justify mistakes “they ain’t that bad”
won’t let pressure coax me to the other side
Chorus:
They let the ball drop
And drop and drop
I watch it fall and fall
Gets small and smaller
I keep it up and up
And up and up
No matter what
Comes up
My grip is solid
Bridge:
Bb, Gm, F, F
And I’m not a better person than even one of them
But I want a better life than the one that they’ve chosen
they might’ve given up
On all their convictions
I’ll keep it on the up and up
Their stories are lessons
hope they get better and hope they know I’m there for them
gotta untether cause my minds going down with them
I ain’t tryna be a judge
One day they’ll be winning
Keep it on the up and up
Their stories are lessons
Chorus:
They let the ball drop
And drop and drop
I watch it fall and fall
Gets small and smaller
I keep it up and up
And up and up
No matter what
Comes up
My grip is solid