He was never underrated. His personality, skill, visuals, intelligence... Never found a rival... I just don't know what or who pressured him to this point. We all know he didn't like to be an idol, but SM shouldn't have tortured him so much. He loved to compose songs and write. Why SM didn't gave him the freedom to do so instead of forcing him to keep overworking so much? He was never depressed. He was just misunderstood by his whole country. An INFJ, possibly. Leaving an INFJ in a toxic environment, deprived from all the things they care, being undernourished of love, belonging and space for individuality, also surrounded by stressors and tortured by haunting schedule that is not nourishing to the well being... Or his physical health... It's just how terrorists are made. As an INFJ depressed person who shared at least 95% of Jonghyun's traits with him, it's absolutely disgusting to know how poorly handled he was, by his therapist and his closer friends (also Koreans). Nothing will make me unbelieve that he was taking medicines the useless therapist gave him without monitoring the Collateral Effects in him. Leading to obsessive, self judgemental, sleepless, negative and suicidal behavior. This therapist... should be in jail. Jonghyun never had a problem, aside from being totally deprived of everything really meaningful to his personality and surrounded by people unable to understand him. As a foreign fan, in a sea of comments in his social networks, there was nothing I could do to help him notice and understand that he was not sick and not alone. We are 1% of the world. (Even if MBTI is uncredited as a source of diagnosis, it's still a simple way to generalize personality types in humans.) That he wasn't weak. That it wasn't inside him, but AROUND him all the burdens and toxic agents in his environment. That it wasn't his fault. That depressed feelings was not a personality trait, but a symptom of bad environment and exhaustion of his personality where and how he was living. I will never be able to sleep properly again. I will never be able to smile as I used too. I still unable to stop crying and it hurts me almost unbearably, to see his innocence in all of this and to see how disgusting is South Korea's lack of education about mental health and how terribly bad was his assistance during all his life. Nobody in south Korea knows how to cope with different points of view. Nobody can actually change it because this is rooted in the education and development of the material value on top of human value in there. What killed Jonghyun was his country. I lost my soul and one core light in my life on December 18. And it Hurts so painfully to the point of almost destroying me completely, to know how amazing, kind, generous, powerful, sensitive, intelligent, dedicated, unique and wise this man was and how ignorance, negligence and nastiness in his country's society shattered his innocent heart to the point of making him to believe he was not needed or valuable as a man. I hate all of this and there is nothing that will bring me joy in this life anymore. Knowing that Jonghyun was only One, in Millions who might be enduring the same ignorant and outdated view of fake professionals in his country, dealing with stigma, useless judgement and hipocrisy of this depressed capitalist nation that have no clue about how to deal with each other's hearts. My only consolation is to know that one more day without him is one less day without him. My pain... His pain... This world disgusts me. If a friend come at you with a suicide letter ONE WEEK EARLIER, your friend is asking for help. You don't wait or deliver to Korean parents who also don't know what to do. You call an ambulance. You put this person in an idle state sleeping and being well monitored to avoid self harm. If you have notion that your damn son or brother wants to take his life, YOU DON'T WAIT him to finish schedule. You put him in an ambulance and let him in an idle state to be monitored. You examine his blood hormones, his gut Flora, his brain activity in certain regions, you verify side effects or cross reaction while taking multiple medicines. You LISTEN to him and you guide him. You don't blame him, you don't make it his guilt, to find an answer he is not informed enough to find. You don't suggest a fucking hospital where even doctors.don't know what to do and treat people like abnormalities. Depression is not constant sadness. Depression is a immune response to harm caused by trauma, people, routine, environment, faulty metabolic function or damaging/terrifying/stressful situations in someone's life. It's a hole AROUND you. NOT inside you. Cheering someone up while they are depressed is a good intention, but doesn't treat it. People need to read, and find decent support. Specially in entertainment industry. 1 out of 5 in South Korea is depressed and the whole country see this as an invisible issue caused by "laziness or lack of courage" thinking that going "by the book" of superficiality getting money and being successful will save them from being depressed. Please if you need help, if you're believing it's your fault or if you're being told this, GET OUT of this environment and stay away from those saying this to you and seek others with similar feelings and issues OUTSIDE of your country. Korean medicine is outdated and superstitious. Judgemental and stigmatized. Does more harm than good. Unless you want to change your facade only... Everything that killed this man is a social concern that NEEDS to be changed in economic or social environment for the sake of future generations. My heart is in pieces... :'(
AuraAcqua I agree 100% with everything you have written here.Toxic environment and the wrong sort of people who understand things ONLY from their point of view could really kill you.I was so upset at his near ones,he was clearly,CLEARLY asking for help.He waited to see if it came.If anybody cared,and nobody did.They blamed his personality and told him to go to a doctor and shit,they should have ran to him the moment they received a suicide note,it was a suicide note for Fuck's sake.I am so surprised at that friend who actually waited till he died to release it,like she was waiting for him to die and release it online,instead of doing her absolute best to save her dying friend.I loved SHINee a long time ago when I was young,but certain things happened in my life that actually pushed me to depression.So I forgot all the things I used to enjoy and love and I even stopped enjoying music.My life came to a halt.I still loved them and they were in my heart but I hadn't followed them for years.And my life,it is still hard for me,but I do my best to find hope and strength to live a happy life. I have been trying to get better and been starting to rebuild my life from the ground up,listening to music and trying to be better and that was when I heard he had passed away from depression himself. It hurt me very much,I can imagine how much pain he was in,that he actually lost all will to live.I feel very sorry that I wasn't able to appreciate him much when he was alive,because I was busy with my pain,being depressed myself. I am really,really sad that he had to leave that way.He deserved so much better,SO much better.Jonghyun deserved so much better.
So nice to hear from like minded people who appreciated SHINee, their music and them as a human most importantly. Btw I totally agree on what you guys have said in the light about what has happened. I too felt the reaction of his friend who received the letter was just puzzling ; like why on earth wouldn't you monitor someone who had written that note!? I felt so angry just thinking about what could have happened, how he could potentially be saved.. If only someone had talked with him as a confidante.. Not some quack therapist who probably had a sinister agenda. I suspect I too had some form of depression. I was in a working environment that didn't mesh well with my morals and personality. I really agree very much about environment being a huge factor of depression.. But I took 2 years to get out. I could, JH had a year left to the end of his contract right? That doesn't seem totally undoable. I suspect in the last 6 months something really triggered his thoughts to spiral into deeper depression. Courtesy of the therapist, SM, someone higher up ..who knows.
yes..i agree with u..another term for INFJ is also 'Empath'.. im also an Empath..and I REALLY AGREE WITH U. Finally i read someone who understand his true personality..because we hv same personality too..and most of people don't want to see him in different perspective. People only want to see what they expect from him as an idol and don't care about his true personality. It is mentioned by Jonghyun in 1 interview in Mnet. He decided to go, because nobody of his friends who know about his depression really understand his feelings, personality and point of view. But, people who have same personality will understand why. I really lost him. People usually don't really understand what is depression and INFJ as well. They only can judge INFJ without even knowing the truth and facts. I also think his friends who receive the letter / know his depression may not really good friends of JH. Good friend will not ask depressed friend to see doctor to cope it by himself and only acompany him wherever he go. True friends will directly help him as soon as possible with maximum effort to cope from depression. JH don't need anyone to always acompany him. He only need understanding from HIS point of view and feelings, pure caring and support. And because he don't get any understanding, finally he thought he is in the wrong place and tell himself is 'it's his fault to hv INFJ personality, and for entering this industry and this kind of environment'. This lead him to think he doesn't deserve these all and 'go'. In fact, he is more than what people say. I lost and miss him so much. I hope from this case his country can learn more how to cherish their idols and relatives.
Deep words. I agree with every word you said guys... It's extremely sad, what can I say... It's so sad to see such a sweet heart end like this. I kept wondering what went wrong, what was it that made him to get to that extreme point... I had the same reaction as you when I heard about that so called friend who had his suicide note... Seriously... I mean even if a stranger who I never met gave me a suicide note I wouldn't just take it and tell them to get some help! I don't know what happening exactly so I ain't judging... I don't know for how long we'll be grieving JH... And please +AuraAcqua don't say there is nothing that will bring you joy in this life anymore! :( Yes there will be! Stay strong and positive!
I 100% agree, for days I have been wondering on how to put his death into words so thank you for writing this. Thank you for voicing what has been sitting on my chest. It shouldn't have happened, he could have been saved but he went and there's so many factors to blame (SM, friends, society...) but his death shouldn't be in vain and societies outlook on depression needs to change. The industry needs to change. His cry for help won't be the only cry for help...
JANUARY 2021 TIME12:00PM. LOVE YOU JONGHYUN. ITS HURTS TO KNOW HOW SPECIAL TALENT. COURAGEOUS. POETRY. IN LYRICS. HIS SONGS FROM HIS FEELING LONGING TO BE LOVE ACCEPTED AN AN ARTIST WHO CAN ACHIEVE HIS DREAMS. HIS LOVE IS MUSIC. BALLADS. HE WSS FIGHTING WITHIN HIMSELF. HAPPY Inside LONELY ITS SAD. WHEN WE LOOSE SOMEONE WHO IS. PHENOMENAL. WE REALIZE THERE POTENTIAL ESSENCE. IMMORTAL.HE IS NOW HE IS GONE. NOW WE MISS HIM ITEARS IN READING COMMENTS. MY HEART ACHES FOR HIM. HE NEEDED LOVE SUPPORT. WE LOST A LOVING SOUL. I LOVE HIM. I ALWAYS COME BACK TO HIS MUSIC. ITS SO EMOTIONAL HIS VOICE IS SO SOFT SMOOTH ITS HIS SOUL REACHES YOUR SOUL. IF HE WAS ALIVE. HIS WRITING SONGS IT WILL TOUCH YOUR ❤ HEART. I ONLY KNOW HIM IN VIDEOS ALL THOSE WHO SEE HIM PERFORM. YOUR LUCKY. NOW ITS MEMORIES. I REALLY MISS YOU. ALL YOU NEEDED WAS A SMILE HUG. SAY I LOVE YOU. THANK YOU FOR THE VIDEOS I CAN SEE HIM. I HOPE IN YEARS TO COME WHEN IM NOT HERE HE WILL BE A LEGEND. THEY SHOULD A PLACE IN MEMORY OF HIM HIS LEGACY LIVES ON. 💘 SARANGHEA NEW YORK
난 종현이의 저 허세 멋드러짐이 참좋았는데
Jonghyun, his beautiful voice, handsome looks 😭
패션센스도 있고 춤도 잘추고 노래도 잘하고 마음도 여리고 따뜻한 종현씨 보고싶어요
리허설도 열심인 종현아
보고싶다.
까불까불 종현이 모든게 다 이쁘고 멋있고
우리 종현이는 노래면 노래 예능이면 예능 춤이면 춤,.... 못하는거 뭐니??? 정말 춤선은 최고로 이뻐 멋있어
종현씨 왜이리 멋있으신지..
He was never underrated. His personality, skill, visuals, intelligence... Never found a rival... I just don't know what or who pressured him to this point.
We all know he didn't like to be an idol, but SM shouldn't have tortured him so much.
He loved to compose songs and write. Why SM didn't gave him the freedom to do so instead of forcing him to keep overworking so much?
He was never depressed.
He was just misunderstood by his whole country.
An INFJ, possibly.
Leaving an INFJ in a toxic environment, deprived from all the things they care, being undernourished of love, belonging and space for individuality, also surrounded by stressors and tortured by haunting schedule that is not nourishing to the well being... Or his physical health...
It's just how terrorists are made.
As an INFJ depressed person who shared at least 95% of Jonghyun's traits with him, it's absolutely disgusting to know how poorly handled he was, by his therapist and his closer friends (also Koreans).
Nothing will make me unbelieve that he was taking medicines the useless therapist gave him without monitoring the Collateral Effects in him. Leading to obsessive, self judgemental, sleepless, negative and suicidal behavior.
This therapist... should be in jail.
Jonghyun never had a problem, aside from being totally deprived of everything really meaningful to his personality and surrounded by people unable to understand him.
As a foreign fan, in a sea of comments in his social networks, there was nothing I could do to help him notice and understand that he was not sick and not alone.
We are 1% of the world. (Even if MBTI is uncredited as a source of diagnosis, it's still a simple way to generalize personality types in humans.)
That he wasn't weak.
That it wasn't inside him, but AROUND him all the burdens and toxic agents in his environment.
That it wasn't his fault.
That depressed feelings was not a personality trait, but a symptom of bad environment and exhaustion of his personality where and how he was living.
I will never be able to sleep properly again. I will never be able to smile as I used too. I still unable to stop crying and it hurts me almost unbearably, to see his innocence in all of this and to see how disgusting is South Korea's lack of education about mental health and how terribly bad was his assistance during all his life.
Nobody in south Korea knows how to cope with different points of view.
Nobody can actually change it because this is rooted in the education and development of the material value on top of human value in there.
What killed Jonghyun was his country.
I lost my soul and one core light in my life on December 18. And it Hurts so painfully to the point of almost destroying me completely, to know how amazing, kind, generous, powerful, sensitive, intelligent, dedicated, unique and wise this man was and how ignorance, negligence and nastiness in his country's society shattered his innocent heart to the point of making him to believe he was not needed or valuable as a man.
I hate all of this and there is nothing that will bring me joy in this life anymore.
Knowing that Jonghyun was only One, in Millions who might be enduring the same ignorant and outdated view of fake professionals in his country, dealing with stigma, useless judgement and hipocrisy of this depressed capitalist nation that have no clue about how to deal with each other's hearts.
My only consolation is to know that one more day without him is one less day without him.
My pain... His pain... This world disgusts me.
If a friend come at you with a suicide letter ONE WEEK EARLIER, your friend is asking for help.
You don't wait or deliver to Korean parents who also don't know what to do.
You call an ambulance. You put this person in an idle state sleeping and being well monitored to avoid self harm.
If you have notion that your damn son or brother wants to take his life, YOU DON'T WAIT him to finish schedule. You put him in an ambulance and let him in an idle state to be monitored.
You examine his blood hormones, his gut Flora, his brain activity in certain regions, you verify side effects or cross reaction while taking multiple medicines. You LISTEN to him and you guide him. You don't blame him, you don't make it his guilt, to find an answer he is not informed enough to find.
You don't suggest a fucking hospital where even doctors.don't know what to do and treat people like abnormalities.
Depression is not constant sadness. Depression is a immune response to harm caused by trauma, people, routine, environment, faulty metabolic function or damaging/terrifying/stressful situations in someone's life.
It's a hole AROUND you. NOT inside you.
Cheering someone up while they are depressed is a good intention, but doesn't treat it.
People need to read, and find decent support. Specially in entertainment industry.
1 out of 5 in South Korea is depressed and the whole country see this as an invisible issue caused by "laziness or lack of courage" thinking that going "by the book" of superficiality getting money and being successful will save them from being depressed.
Please if you need help, if you're believing it's your fault or if you're being told this, GET OUT of this environment and stay away from those saying this to you and seek others with similar feelings and issues OUTSIDE of your country.
Korean medicine is outdated and superstitious. Judgemental and stigmatized. Does more harm than good.
Unless you want to change your facade only...
Everything that killed this man is a social concern that NEEDS to be changed in economic or social environment for the sake of future generations.
My heart is in pieces... :'(
AuraAcqua I agree 100% with everything you have written here.Toxic environment and the wrong sort of people who understand things ONLY from their point of view could really kill you.I was so upset at his near ones,he was clearly,CLEARLY asking for help.He waited to see if it came.If anybody cared,and nobody did.They blamed his personality and told him to go to a doctor and shit,they should have ran to him the moment they received a suicide note,it was a suicide note for Fuck's sake.I am so surprised at that friend who actually waited till he died to release it,like she was waiting for him to die and release it online,instead of doing her absolute best to save her dying friend.I loved SHINee a long time ago when I was young,but certain things happened in my life that actually pushed me to depression.So I forgot all the things I used to enjoy and love and I even stopped enjoying music.My life came to a halt.I still loved them and they were in my heart but I hadn't followed them for years.And my life,it is still hard for me,but I do my best to find hope and strength to live a happy life. I have been trying to get better and been starting to rebuild my life from the ground up,listening to music and trying to be better and that was when I heard he had passed away from depression himself. It hurt me very much,I can imagine how much pain he was in,that he actually lost all will to live.I feel very sorry that I wasn't able to appreciate him much when he was alive,because I was busy with my pain,being depressed myself. I am really,really sad that he had to leave that way.He deserved so much better,SO much better.Jonghyun deserved so much better.
So nice to hear from like minded people who appreciated SHINee, their music and them as a human most importantly. Btw I totally agree on what you guys have said in the light about what has happened. I too felt the reaction of his friend who received the letter was just puzzling ; like why on earth wouldn't you monitor someone who had written that note!? I felt so angry just thinking about what could have happened, how he could potentially be saved.. If only someone had talked with him as a confidante.. Not some quack therapist who probably had a sinister agenda. I suspect I too had some form of depression. I was in a working environment that didn't mesh well with my morals and personality. I really agree very much about environment being a huge factor of depression.. But I took 2 years to get out. I could, JH had a year left to the end of his contract right? That doesn't seem totally undoable. I suspect in the last 6 months something really triggered his thoughts to spiral into deeper depression. Courtesy of the therapist, SM, someone higher up ..who knows.
yes..i agree with u..another term for INFJ is also 'Empath'.. im also an Empath..and I REALLY AGREE WITH U. Finally i read someone who understand his true personality..because we hv same personality too..and most of people don't want to see him in different perspective. People only want to see what they expect from him as an idol and don't care about his true personality. It is mentioned by Jonghyun in 1 interview in Mnet.
He decided to go, because nobody of his friends who know about his depression really understand his feelings, personality and point of view. But, people who have same personality will understand why. I really lost him. People usually don't really understand what is depression and INFJ as well. They only can judge INFJ without even knowing the truth and facts. I also think his friends who receive the letter / know his depression may not really good friends of JH. Good friend will not ask depressed friend to see doctor to cope it by himself and only acompany him wherever he go. True friends will directly help him as soon as possible with maximum effort to cope from depression. JH don't need anyone to always acompany him. He only need understanding from HIS point of view and feelings, pure caring and support. And because he don't get any understanding, finally he thought he is in the wrong place and tell himself is 'it's his fault to hv INFJ personality, and for entering this industry and this kind of environment'. This lead him to think he doesn't deserve these all and 'go'. In fact, he is more than what people say.
I lost and miss him so much.
I hope from this case his country can learn more how to cherish their idols and relatives.
Deep words. I agree with every word you said guys... It's extremely sad, what can I say... It's so sad to see such a sweet heart end like this. I kept wondering what went wrong, what was it that made him to get to that extreme point... I had the same reaction as you when I heard about that so called friend who had his suicide note... Seriously... I mean even if a stranger who I never met gave me a suicide note I wouldn't just take it and tell them to get some help! I don't know what happening exactly so I ain't judging...
I don't know for how long we'll be grieving JH...
And please +AuraAcqua don't say there is nothing that will bring you joy in this life anymore! :( Yes there will be! Stay strong and positive!
I 100% agree, for days I have been wondering on how to put his death into words so thank you for writing this. Thank you for voicing what has been sitting on my chest. It shouldn't have happened, he could have been saved but he went and there's so many factors to blame (SM, friends, society...) but his death shouldn't be in vain and societies outlook on depression needs to change. The industry needs to change. His cry for help won't be the only cry for help...
안타깝네 종현
아까운뮤지션
춤도 완벽한 종현이..
아직도믿기지않다..샤이니"영원한메인보컬"김종현"...이제이렇게영상속에서나봐야겠네..거기서는편히쉬길..모든걸내려놓고
맘지창 많은분들이 종현이가 메인보컬이라구 아시도라구요...리드보컬입니다..!
호프
어째튼저에겐영원한"메인보컬이예요"종현이는..
리허설이지만 종현이가 젤 열심히 추네♡
서연 종현님 항상 열심히하십니다 누구보다 열심히. 아깝고 아까운사람
Honestly he is so hot in all black
miss u bling bling
종현아 멋져 최고로
잊지않을게~멋진 종현!항상 빛이난다~
종현아~보고프다 영상 보고있어니까 열심히 누구보나 춤 노래 잘했었는대 넌 영원히 우리곁을 떠나버려서 안타까울뿐야
역시 종현~♥
종현. 스타일 좋다
저게 리허설이라고? 넘 잘춘다 진짜 ㅠㅠㅠ❤️💎
재능도 많지만 멀하든 항상 열심히 최선을 다하던 종현이~그래서 더 좋았구 앞으로도 사랑할꺼야~잊지못할꺼같아서 잊지않기로 했엉~지금까지의 너의 모습을 추억하며 살기로~종현아 사랑해^^
That little gesture he did at the last part of the song.. ♡
our cute lovely dino with lots of potensials.. good night oppa.. it's been a long day.. :"
종현이 춤도 잘추고 노래도 잘부르고💕 보고싶다
종현이 너무 멋있당
종현이 너무잘한다. 저렇게 최선을 다했는데. 흑..흑.. 슬프내요. ..
타고난 춤선 재능이 많은데... 아깝다...ㅜ
장난을 치다가두~_~탁탁마처 돌변하는 모습이 너무나 사랑 스럽네요?무지개 다리 넘어 에서도 토닥~토닥 사랑❤받는 사람이 되세요...🙎
Missing you jonghyunah.
당신이 있었음에 너무 행복했고 감사했습니다. 잊지못할거에요.
These memories. His charisma on this is overflowing. Missing him so much. ^_^
the camera fokus on jonghyun...he so hansome..rip jonghyun...love shinee
OMG😍😛jonghyun 😢😢😢
jonghyun is ❤😔
Missing you..
This video gives me CHEST PAINS.
Какой красавец...
김:김종현 종:종현아 현:현재까지도믿기지않다
진짜 멋있다
대충 춤을춰도 이렇게 멋있냐...
Jongkey is life 💕
Thank you so much for uploading
Jonghyun oppa 서랑해요
I miss you so much Jonghyun
JANUARY 2021 TIME12:00PM. LOVE YOU JONGHYUN. ITS HURTS TO KNOW HOW SPECIAL TALENT. COURAGEOUS. POETRY. IN LYRICS. HIS SONGS FROM HIS FEELING LONGING TO BE LOVE ACCEPTED AN AN ARTIST WHO CAN ACHIEVE HIS DREAMS. HIS LOVE IS MUSIC. BALLADS. HE WSS FIGHTING WITHIN HIMSELF. HAPPY Inside LONELY ITS SAD. WHEN WE LOOSE SOMEONE WHO IS. PHENOMENAL. WE REALIZE THERE POTENTIAL ESSENCE. IMMORTAL.HE IS NOW HE IS GONE. NOW WE MISS HIM ITEARS IN READING COMMENTS. MY HEART ACHES FOR HIM. HE NEEDED LOVE SUPPORT. WE LOST A LOVING SOUL. I LOVE HIM. I ALWAYS COME BACK TO HIS MUSIC. ITS SO EMOTIONAL HIS VOICE IS SO SOFT SMOOTH ITS HIS SOUL REACHES YOUR SOUL. IF HE WAS ALIVE. HIS WRITING SONGS IT WILL TOUCH YOUR ❤ HEART. I ONLY KNOW HIM IN VIDEOS ALL THOSE WHO SEE HIM PERFORM. YOUR LUCKY. NOW ITS MEMORIES. I REALLY MISS YOU. ALL YOU NEEDED WAS A SMILE HUG. SAY I LOVE YOU. THANK YOU FOR THE VIDEOS I CAN SEE HIM. I HOPE IN YEARS TO COME WHEN IM NOT HERE HE WILL BE A LEGEND. THEY SHOULD A PLACE IN MEMORY OF HIM HIS LEGACY LIVES ON. 💘 SARANGHEA NEW YORK
쩐다
평생친구 쫑디 종현❤️
YALL SAW THEM BODY ROLLS!!!!!!!
아~.........ㅠㅠ
Y’all see Jjong’s arms? Whew...
Lindo maravinhoso puro talento
샤이니요^^
Aáa como le agarro la mano a key 😍😍😍😍😍
갑자기 종현이가 Michael Jackson 을 만나고 있을지 모른다는 생각이드네요. 거기서 잘있겠지?
It was rehearsal performance right?
DIAMOND 45 yes correct
우리는 아직도 당신을보내지 않았습니다..우리를 떠난 사람은 바로 당신..그러므로 당신은 죄인입니다..당신의 멋진 모습을 다시는 볼수없게 만든걸 우리곁을 떠난걸 영원히ㅜ용서하지 않을겁니다...그곳에선 편히 쉬세요
WAHHH I HATE YOTUBE FULL OF MY RECOMMENDATION IS JONGHYUN FANCAM AND I CANT RESIST NOT TO WATCH IT CAUSE I MISS HIM
Was this a rehearsal????
yes
Lips sync
yeah, it's a rehearsal.
It's a rehearsal. They don't need to always sing live during rehearsal