Dear, you're such an overthinker :') But that's okay - so am I, we have to accept that. And I love the seed metaphor! I love that you're talking all this out, and I'm so sorry I can't be there that much, it kills me :( And you have to realize that this is your second channel, you're allowed to share all kinds of thoughts here. That's why you made it, right?
To be honest, i think its good that you make dark videos because i feel like im not the only one and it help me by not feeling alone and you venting at a camera helps you, right? You do whatever helps you Edit: you look handsome the way you are 😊 love you so much and im so sorry i dont have much to say im really stressed today lol but I'm sure you will become that person in your head someday and feel like yourself again, your not making excuses and you just do what you need to be happy xxx
I'm going through exactly the same thing Kovu, it's not weird, I totally understand. We feel trapped inside our own bodies. We'll be free to be ourselves as soon as our bodies are those we identify with.
I honestly care about how you feel, because I feel so close to you, in a way. I completely understand if you don't feel comfortable sharing absolutely everything, but it's great when you talk about how you feel because it makes me feel like I am not alone (and you aren't either). you are an amazing person, truly, never forget that :)
Kovu, my lovely little friend, you can put out these videos and it's completely fine with us. You have helped many of us trough a lot and now we're here to to help you. We will always be here for you Kovu, we want to help you and make you feel good. We love you Kovu, we really do. We want you to feel good, we want you to feel loved, we want you to be happy, we all wish you the best. You can always come to us. We really do love you and we'll always be here for you. I love you with all of my person and I'm sending you light and love always ❤️❤️
I like to hear you vent sometimes. It honestly makes me feel a bit better that there's someone who might be going through the same kind of thing as me. It honestly makes me feel a lot better. If you need to vent, we're always here to listen. Xxx hugs from Cat ♥ ♥ ♥
Just wanna let you know I can't wait for the day you don't feel dysphoric and T is a small step towards that and I'm super happy and excited for you. I hope you're always smiling and happy. Also, just to put a smile on your face,a gentle reminder: Shane. Exists.
I really admire how well you can articulate your emotions and thoughts. Also viewers have the choice to watch your videos or not or comment/ advise or not
hey Kovu, I really like it when you show your genuine you, the good and the bad! It's great that you aren't afraid to show authentic thoughts... it gives something for us to relate to, get to know you some more (it sounds creepy but I mean it in the nicest way XD) For some topics like this one and the previous one I have some similar ideas in my head and it is refreshing to see that I am not alone. As long as you feel comfortable putting it online it may help people and it helps you as well, we're therapists for each other. So don't feel bad because you're doing a good thing.
Dude I do the same thing, being pre-t is like a part of me isn’t blossoming yet bc of my lack of confidence and all that. It’s okay. We all have insecurities and we are all human, we are here for you Kovu
No! Please don't stop speaking about the deep things. When it's on your mind then it is so, no matter if it's deep or happy. I love to watch you speaking about all these stuff. It makes me happy.
I would just like to say that you are the first person to whom I have ever related to. And I appreciate you and everything you share on this second channel so much for that. Thank you so much Kovu.
Hey I relate sooooooooooooooo much no ones ever explained exactly how I feel this well but I think that it is a type of dysphoria and directly a result of being trans (I mean the whole being surprised about what u see in the mirror thing)
Kov, you should check out Doddie Clark first off, second if we didn't want to see this we wouldn't watch, I love seeing this cause I think I might be.... Yeah but keep posting what you feel, sometimes you have to be honest and have a dark video just because you posted one doesn't change the vibes of your channel.
It's weird, i always thought you was very strong and you was fighting so well gender dysphoria, and be yourself, and idk, it's warming to hear you talk about this to us. I love you Kovu, you'll always be the best !
I really enjoy this channel. Of course, if you feel the need to private some videos, that's completely up to you. You are in control. But I always like coming back to the channel. :)
Never feel bad about anything you do. People here love and respect what you do. These videos are inspirational and so real which is rare these days. There is so much of RUclips that’s fake that you are a ray of light for many people. Have you read Trans-Missions by RUclipsrs Alex Bertie. He has gone through what you are going through. If you have a P.O. Box post it and I will send you a copy. It’s tremendous with so much information and advice for transgender people? In no way are you ugly and please don’t feel small. Love your hair by the way. Sorry this comment is so long but I feel like I want to help you as much as I can. Older than you. Urm, by quite a way, I’m 47 years old and people do care about what’s on your mind.
Hi! I'm new here so I don't really feel like I should give advice, but I'm gonna do it anyway! What you're experiencing sounds really similar to something called depersonalization (if you're interested in finding out more look it up because I'm too lazy to explain it here lol). I can totally relate to what you described, not sure if it's just something that happens when you're a teenager or what, but I have a few friends who have really similar feelings. If you haven't talked to someone other than just your RUclips audience about it yet, I strongly suggest doing that! P.S. That beanie looks awesome on you okay byeee
hi kovu, I know how you feel. this frustrating feeling, that you are not the person you can/should be, like you are trapped and don't know what to do about it. I can only tell you that it will get better, but you really need to go to a therapist. you seem like you're stuck in a circle of thoughts and feelings, and you need a little push to get out of it. when you're having the right therapist, things will get better. it will probably take a little while, but it definitely will get better. I don't mind your 'dark' videos, it is okay to share these to show how you really feel. then people can see that they are not the only one struggling with things. PS I'm so happy for you that you finally get testosterone :) yours sincerely ~boii~
And i’m also struggling with finding who i am. What a shame you are going through this, but at the same time i’m glad we have things in common. It makes me think of you as a friend, as dumb as that may sound😅.
I get if you don't want to vent that negativity cause I try to do the same thing. I have my best friends and they know that I have to faces, the smile and the one behind it, and I feel like a burden to them even though they say I'm not. Venting is good so if you won't vent on your channel you should find someone to vent to.
Hello, I'm gonna try to give you some advice (and sorry for my english). Take a coffee (or a tea, or a hot milk or just water, I like water) because it is very long : - First of all, when I'm watching your videos I'm always thinking that maybe you should find more hobbies. I know that you sing and play the guitar, then why not creating a group with people you know, to play more music ? Or try to do more sport, not "workout" but sports where you have fun, I don't know, basket ball or things like that. Or maybe you can just put some music and begin to jump everywhere in your bedroom. It's a strange way to use up energy, but very efficient. - Ok, now about your personality problem : Who are we really ? What is "being himself" in society ? (that was for the psychology part) But really, we all want to be that "someone" that we imagine. And I think that everybody imagines himself in a different way than he really is. Sometimes, I just think that, in reality, our body (like, our skin) is just a façade, and all the wealth is inside ! The most important is what you have in your mind, what you like, what you think, your feelings. Then I think that, it's a shame to say like "I want to grow" (even though I understand that feeling), because time passes quickly and you're young, and youth happens only once in your life, and you have just one life too. Try to make your mind the master of your body. You can't change it but you can love it. Just look at your face in the mirror ! You're beautiful, and you're "you", and inside that great body there is a kind, generous, altruist mind. So, enjoy free times and life in general (I know that is easier to say than to do, but I reeeeeally want you to feel better), remember that you're like... a... gift and all the interesting things are inside the package (and that the package, in your case, is beautiful), and... live well ! :-)
I can't really say much about your dysphoria because I don't know what it feels like but as far as sharing your problems and asking for advice from us is concerned, there is nothing wrong with that. I know you said that we are not your therapists so we shouldn't feel like we need to help you but we don't. We leave advice because we want to help you. It would be as easy for us to not watch the video or to not leave any comments. We don't feel like we are obliged to do that, we do it because we genuinely want to. A lot of us are your age so we know what you feel like when it comes to certain things and I feel like us sharing our thoughts makes you feel like you are not alone and there are people your age with similiar experiences who can help you out
also this may sound weird, but i sent you an email like earlier this week, and i was wondering if you got it. (sorry if i sound like...weird, im really awkward)
Dear, you're such an overthinker :') But that's okay - so am I, we have to accept that. And I love the seed metaphor! I love that you're talking all this out, and I'm so sorry I can't be there that much, it kills me :(
And you have to realize that this is your second channel, you're allowed to share all kinds of thoughts here. That's why you made it, right?
I like your beanie
Isabella Dleon thanks! :D
To be honest, i think its good that you make dark videos because i feel like im not the only one and it help me by not feeling alone and you venting at a camera helps you, right? You do whatever helps you
Edit: you look handsome the way you are 😊 love you so much and im so sorry i dont have much to say im really stressed today lol but I'm sure you will become that person in your head someday and feel like yourself again, your not making excuses and you just do what you need to be happy xxx
I'm going through exactly the same thing Kovu, it's not weird, I totally understand. We feel trapped inside our own bodies. We'll be free to be ourselves as soon as our bodies are those we identify with.
I honestly care about how you feel, because I feel so close to you, in a way. I completely understand if you don't feel comfortable sharing absolutely everything, but it's great when you talk about how you feel because it makes me feel like I am not alone (and you aren't either). you are an amazing person, truly, never forget that :)
Kovu, my lovely little friend, you can put out these videos and it's completely fine with us. You have helped many of us trough a lot and now we're here to to help you. We will always be here for you Kovu, we want to help you and make you feel good. We love you Kovu, we really do. We want you to feel good, we want you to feel loved, we want you to be happy, we all wish you the best. You can always come to us. We really do love you and we'll always be here for you. I love you with all of my person and I'm sending you light and love always ❤️❤️
I like to hear you vent sometimes. It honestly makes me feel a bit better that there's someone who might be going through the same kind of thing as me. It honestly makes me feel a lot better. If you need to vent, we're always here to listen. Xxx hugs from Cat ♥ ♥ ♥
Just wanna let you know I can't wait for the day you don't feel dysphoric and T is a small step towards that and I'm super happy and excited for you. I hope you're always smiling and happy.
Also, just to put a smile on your face,a gentle reminder: Shane. Exists.
I really admire how well you can articulate your emotions and thoughts. Also viewers have the choice to watch your videos or not or comment/ advise or not
Your voice sounds deeper
hey Kovu, I really like it when you show your genuine you, the good and the bad! It's great that you aren't afraid to show authentic thoughts... it gives something for us to relate to, get to know you some more (it sounds creepy but I mean it in the nicest way XD) For some topics like this one and the previous one I have some similar ideas in my head and it is refreshing to see that I am not alone. As long as you feel comfortable putting it online it may help people and it helps you as well, we're therapists for each other. So don't feel bad because you're doing a good thing.
Dude I do the same thing, being pre-t is like a part of me isn’t blossoming yet bc of my lack of confidence and all that. It’s okay. We all have insecurities and we are all human, we are here for you Kovu
No! Please don't stop speaking about the deep things. When it's on your mind then it is so, no matter if it's deep or happy.
I love to watch you speaking about all these stuff. It makes me happy.
I would just like to say that you are the first person to whom I have ever related to. And I appreciate you and everything you share on this second channel so much for that. Thank you so much Kovu.
Omg your voice sounds deeper already!
Kovu! You're changing! Idk why Im so excited, but, i can slightly see a difference!
I completely understand and can relate because I feel the same way, but we can get through this together.
Hey I relate sooooooooooooooo much no ones ever explained exactly how I feel this well but I think that it is a type of dysphoria and directly a result of being trans (I mean the whole being surprised about what u see in the mirror thing)
I love seeing ur talk videos. It makes me feel less alone because I can relate
Stop overthinking! You’re great and everyone loves you! I hope everything works out!
Kov, you should check out Doddie Clark first off, second if we didn't want to see this we wouldn't watch, I love seeing this cause I think I might be.... Yeah but keep posting what you feel, sometimes you have to be honest and have a dark video just because you posted one doesn't change the vibes of your channel.
It's weird, i always thought you was very strong and you was fighting so well gender dysphoria, and be yourself, and idk, it's warming to hear you talk about this to us. I love you Kovu, you'll always be the best !
It's okay, I'm only about a year younger than you and going through the same thing.
I WILL PROTECT THE CHILD
I really enjoy this channel. Of course, if you feel the need to private some videos, that's completely up to you. You are in control. But I always like coming back to the channel. :)
It’s ok dude 🦄
That's a lovely Toque.
You look so cool in that outfit. The beanie is so sick
Thank you
I'm a beanie collector and I got to say that's one nice hat
Never feel bad about anything you do. People here love and respect what you do. These videos are inspirational and so real which is rare these days. There is so much of RUclips that’s fake that you are a ray of light for many people.
Have you read Trans-Missions by RUclipsrs Alex Bertie. He has gone through what you are going through. If you have a P.O. Box post it and I will send you a copy. It’s tremendous with so much information and advice for transgender people?
In no way are you ugly and please don’t feel small. Love your hair by the way.
Sorry this comment is so long but I feel like I want to help you as much as I can.
Older than you.
Urm, by quite a way, I’m 47 years old and people do care about what’s on your mind.
Hi! I'm new here so I don't really feel like I should give advice, but I'm gonna do it anyway! What you're experiencing sounds really similar to something called depersonalization (if you're interested in finding out more look it up because I'm too lazy to explain it here lol). I can totally relate to what you described, not sure if it's just something that happens when you're a teenager or what, but I have a few friends who have really similar feelings. If you haven't talked to someone other than just your RUclips audience about it yet, I strongly suggest doing that!
P.S. That beanie looks awesome on you okay byeee
hi kovu,
I know how you feel. this frustrating feeling, that you are not the person you can/should be, like you are trapped and don't know what to do about it. I can only tell you that it will get better, but you really need to go to a therapist. you seem like you're stuck in a circle of thoughts and feelings, and you need a little push to get out of it. when you're having the right therapist, things will get better. it will probably take a little while, but it definitely will get better.
I don't mind your 'dark' videos, it is okay to share these to show how you really feel. then people can see that they are not the only one struggling with things.
PS I'm so happy for you that you finally get testosterone :)
yours sincerely
~boii~
6:25 could that be depersonalization? You can try looking it up:).
And i’m also struggling with finding who i am. What a shame you are going through this, but at the same time i’m glad we have things in common. It makes me think of you as a friend, as dumb as that may sound😅.
I get if you don't want to vent that negativity cause I try to do the same thing. I have my best friends and they know that I have to faces, the smile and the one behind it, and I feel like a burden to them even though they say I'm not. Venting is good so if you won't vent on your channel you should find someone to vent to.
No, we are not your therapist but we are your friends so please keep talking to us and maybe we can help you if only a little. ❤️💋
I need someone to do a GIF from 15:03 😂😂😂
We you know it's not our job to help you but if we didn't want to help you we wouldn't do it
Hello, I'm gonna try to give you some advice (and sorry for my english). Take a coffee (or a tea, or a hot milk or just water, I like water) because it is very long :
- First of all, when I'm watching your videos I'm always thinking that maybe you should find more hobbies. I know that you sing and play the guitar, then why not creating a group with people you know, to play more music ? Or try to do more sport, not "workout" but sports where you have fun, I don't know, basket ball or things like that. Or maybe you can just put some music and begin to jump everywhere in your bedroom. It's a strange way to use up energy, but very efficient.
- Ok, now about your personality problem :
Who are we really ? What is "being himself" in society ?
(that was for the psychology part)
But really, we all want to be that "someone" that we imagine. And I think that everybody imagines himself in a different way than he really is. Sometimes, I just think that, in reality, our body (like, our skin) is just a façade, and all the wealth is inside ! The most important is what you have in your mind, what you like, what you think, your feelings. Then I think that, it's a shame to say like "I want to grow" (even though I understand that feeling), because time passes quickly and you're young, and youth happens only once in your life, and you have just one life too. Try to make your mind the master of your body. You can't change it but you can love it. Just look at your face in the mirror ! You're beautiful, and you're "you", and inside that great body there is a kind, generous, altruist mind.
So, enjoy free times and life in general (I know that is easier to say than to do, but I reeeeeally want you to feel better), remember that you're like... a... gift and all the interesting things are inside the package (and that the package, in your case, is beautiful), and... live well ! :-)
I can't really say much about your dysphoria because I don't know what it feels like but as far as sharing your problems and asking for advice from us is concerned, there is nothing wrong with that. I know you said that we are not your therapists so we shouldn't feel like we need to help you but we don't. We leave advice because we want to help you. It would be as easy for us to not watch the video or to not leave any comments. We don't feel like we are obliged to do that, we do it because we genuinely want to.
A lot of us are your age so we know what you feel like when it comes to certain things and I feel like us sharing our thoughts makes you feel like you are not alone and there are people your age with similiar experiences who can help you out
Same
mmmmmmmm nice beanie
"I can't be hot" I'm pretty sure a lot of your fans disagree 😂
Hi! First comment! Wowza
Garrulous Papaya woooh
OMG YOU REPLIED IM HAVING A TERRIBLE FANGIRL MOMENT WHERE I CANT BREATHE!
also this may sound weird, but i sent you an email like earlier this week, and i was wondering if you got it. (sorry if i sound like...weird, im really awkward)
Don’t private dude
I like your beanie