Holy shit, that's the reason why?! I thought I was just going crazy but yea, my face and arms developed a lot of freckles over the recent year or so, and I couldn't figure out why lol
@@Mia-W2 they’re what would be known as “age spots” seen in the population generally… estrogen affects everything down to the pigment receptors in your skin. 🙂↔️ (thou afa alice getting her freckles (cuuute as!), ask her HOW 😈
A little side note, hip bones don't fuse until mid to late 20s and even continue to change into your 30s. You can't get narrower shoulders or ribcage but if you start young enough your hip bones can actually widen quite a bit. I also love your last part. Transition is a hard path. It can be so worth it though. Estrogen alone won't fix your problems. But being true to yourself, which estrogen may allow you to do, may give you the energy to go fix those problems that you need to tackle and the confidence may help you be more prepared for the challenges life will throw at you. I know it did for me.
I came down to mention the hip thing too. Another cool one on that track is that estrogen won't make your bones smaller, but trans women do sometimes report losing a few inches in height and going down in shoe sizes because it changes your ligaments. This also changes the ligaments around your hips causing your legs to be positioned differently, giving you more of that stereotypical feminine gait.
yep, and no one can prepare you for PMS =) Even if you know how it feels and that happens to you, you will probably still miss a day of two and will cry in a car for 6 hours thinking that no one loves you and feeling despair... And on the another day you would think "what was THAT?" Now I make a notification on my calendar to remind myself that if I will feel awful - there is probably a reason for that. BTW I have a not very common PMDD actually, who'd thought =)
I am a cis guy, who is not struggling with his gender identity. So why did I watch this clip? First, you are funny. Second, you are very informative. Third, I have some really good friends online, who are on HRT and I want to understant their life's journey and how they feel a bit better, because I do care for them.
I feel like what changed my life was the realisation itself Whenever I am being fem I am so much more extroverted and open and confident I am so much more risky and experiment so much more just because I let myself be me This isn't just for social stuff but for everything. I find myself going wild with my art, going into genres I never explored before just because I am comfortable being a weirdo
Same, mostly. I even felt more confident doing masculine things as a woman. Damn, just so many things I didn't care I didn't care because it was me doing as a guy
For me it's the same, but with self care. Honestly, I never really cared about my physical wellbeing and even hygiene was just a secondary thing (been really depressed for like idk my whole life ig) I never gave a fuck. I wasn't going to k*ll myself, but if I would have just died from anything else, I wouldn't have cared. But now I feel like I have a goal to achieve, a body goal. I haven't started HRT yet, but I did start to get better hygiene, showering more often, washing my face more often, using better products instead of that simple 2in1 shampoo i used to use, I started being more healthy, actually drinking water sometimes instead of LITERALLY JUST coke, energy drinks and coffee. I got clean from drugs, i've been addicted to benzos and opioids for a very long time, i smoke less weed, like im not daily high like i used to be. maybe once or twice a week (still too much kinda but im working on that as well). It's just like, In all of my 20 years so far, I never did anything, never cared about anything, sometimes even harmed myself on purpose. But now, I actually started to do something against it, to change my life for the better. And it all started with my transition goals and imagining what I could be in 3 or 4 years. I never had a future vision of myself, always assuming I'd just randomly die in 1 or 2 years prior. Realizing that I am trans really helped me to start my way out of my depression, instead of just doing nothing about it. Being trans is hard and it kinda sucks even yeah, but it also affected me positively, even before even starting hrt. It's actually crazy (Ik nobody asked and im oversharing idk sry) Edit: shit I wasn't intending to type in THAT much.
@@shylaGD i do have a similar situation with hygiene and eating better, I rarely every eat out these days even though I am still in the closet (minor + homophobic parents) Being me is great even though I can only be me when on the internet or with a few trusted friends or alone I wish you luck on your transition and going clean, you are kicking ass and we love you for it 💜
@@darknessridgeThank you! 💜 Im outed to my friends but not to my fam yet. It's a very hard step honestly and i'm really scared of taking it. But god damn, I am 20 years old i kinda shouldn't gibe a damn I guess. Anyways, I wish you a good future, maybe one day you can get those hormones (if you want to of course) stay strong! 💜
#5 hits different. I found out barely two days ago that where i work is closing within a month. Im recently out of a series of bad relationships. I dont know what the future holds but somehow through the tears and the uncertainty im happy and excited for my future in a way i havent been since losing my mother as a teenager. Im 5 months and 5 days on estrogen and spiro. Seeing myself become the woman i always was has changed my life and given me the strength to face the world and myself. Too anyone reading this who is also struggling it DOES get BETTER your worthy of love and happiness.❤ Thank you alice for another piece of art that makes me laugh, think, and cry. Your an inspiration to be a better me, keep leading by example! PS. Sorry for the paragraph and trauma dump.
No need for an apology here. Channels like this are a great place to just share a piece of your experience to help others and be helped in return. I'm happy for you that you found yourself.
How many femboys are optimal to own? I don't think I can find 6 whole femboys to chain up. I only have 2 so far and it's been a grueling ordeal, not to mention how expensive it is to kept them well-fed and entertained. And even though there's only 2 of them, it's already a nightmare to get them out of each other's throats. I swear, every time I come down to check up on them, I find new bite marks on them on all the weirdest places.
I saw a post once that said something like hrt didn't solve my problems, it made my problems worth solving. And I relate so strongly to that, hrt has helped bring my body in alignment with my mind and that difference however small and incremental has made me feel like my life was worth living, that I'm worth the time it takes to care for and to love myself, or at least learn how to do that
God help me- I am going to start HRT next year hopefully after recovering from severe health issues and all the people in my family on my mother's side are very well-endowed At this point cybernetics are looking appealing from the mechanical load bearing capacity and shock absorption stress I am going to probably be putting my back through
Actually some people find that estrogen does change their height! Very slightly and not everyone, I think it has to do with hip rotation. Which is also a thing who knew
Its more to do with the fat redistribution but it results in slight changes in height due to joints shiftin as a result. This is also why feet and hands shrink a little due to goin on estrogen as well; with hands bein smth one can usually clearly see a difference in Its not much, we're talkin in the range of up to like 2 in/5cm in the most extreme cases, or seein ones shoe size shrink by like half that Still, it meant i dropped noticeably under 6' and i like that bcuz it feels nice to be 5'11" instd just cuz human brain sees a big diff there xD
I remember F1nn saying something like that too; talking about being now an inch shorter, and shorter feets too. But I dunno: F1nn have said a lot of things.
Can confirm, I lost about 2 inches (~5cm) of height in my first year of hormone therapy with estrogen! I'm in my 30s as well. Running on T holds a lot of water in the ligaments/tendons and similar tissues in the body (including the spine) so that has both an effect on flexibility but also height. I've had x-rays taken of my spine before and after starting hormone therapy and there is a noticeable change over the length of my spine. So increased hip tilt, general increased flexibility in joints, and less water held in the body _can_ cause a loss of height. As with so much of hormone therapy, your mileage may vary though. I personally kind of miss the height I lost, but what happened, happened. 🤷♀ (Also, hi Alice! Love your content!)
here for this, I dropped 3 inches, I was 7'10" 7 months ago when I started, now I'm 7'7" (from what I hear 3 inches is on the more extreme end), I lucked out on body changes
After five months on HRT, I experienced my first major mood swing playing God of War: Ragnarok (of all things). The emotional Father/son moments were too much for me to handle, and I crumpled into a uncontrollably sobbing mess. Research as much as you want, it won't prepare for the intensify and depth of your new emotional range.
@@makimaki500 for me I went from being emotional all the time but not being able to cry until a crushing amount had built up to just crying in little amounts when I need to way more healthy and enjoyable ☺️ everyones results vary tho
No but the pickle thing is actually so real. About once every month or two I start craving pickles and peanut butter so badly. My mom just looks at me like im psychotic when i take a spoonful of peanut butter then a bite of pickle in the same mouthful
My former partner (we're just good friends now) on like our second date, a picnic, she brought pickle and peanut butter sandwiches. She'd been on E 2 years at that point. I've been on E 14 months and I myself haven't gotten the pickle craving but when I do eat pickles I seem to enjoy them more now.
7:20 Correction - Most testosterone blockers don't actually make your testosterone disappear, they just block it from having any effect. This means that if you take a blood test, *your testosterone levels are likely to go **_up_** in the first month or so!* Your body recognizes that the testosterone isn’t doing anything, and in response, it pumps more out to try to fix that. Once your body realizes that it's not doing anything, however, your testosterone levels *will* go down. So don't be scared if you take a blood test and your testosterone levels go up! They'll go back down eventually once your body realizes that it's not running on testosterone anymore.
Spiro (the rubbish one) blocks testosterone receptors. Which indirectly reduces T levels by causing testicular atrophy. Cyproterone actually does make testosterone disappear directly, by blocking GNRH instead
Your smell will change. Your sense of smell dramatically increases Dreams become much much more intense (as do nightmares). Empathy increases ALOT You will become as weak as a kitten (yes you will suddenly understand why all men are seen as threat to all women). Testosterone over confidence, kiss that good bye. The list goes on and on and on.
lol one morning I opened my closet door and almost threw up from the stench. My brain at some point during the night got the memo and instantly stopped recognizing my former body scent as mine. Now it was registering as disgusting man smell. Couldn't do anything about my mattress, but everything else got changed and I got a new pillow that day.
Bunny's significant hormone therapy shifts. Early. 'it' turned off. Oh glorious heaven. I went from sex obsessed to screeching halt. Loved it. Almost never knew it was even there. 1 year in "omg I want a man" wait...wtf? 2 years in well the body hair is gone. So is my aggressive nature (ruined my wargaming skills). God would you stop crying. 3 years in "I really need to stop walking alone at night" I learned to be afraid. Before that fear was someone else's problem... who in their right mind would attack me (I'm ex military and I have a strong build). Post GRS, it's mostly hehehehe I'm free. I don't NEED hormones as much, still have to take them, but there's nothing like having the right body parts (I thought at least). I am now 7 years past GRS. Most of the hormonal evolution is just stuff from my past now. I can't really remember what it was like to have a penis. I have not 'orgasmed' in 9 years. And at 62, I don't really give a damn about it. I still like to play around with my partner of course. But I don't need that OHMYGAAWD moment. So in summary. Your parts might calm down, your preferences might shift, your attitudes might alter, look after your skin and for transgender men, get ready for acne. But expect most of all, for it to be about 3 years of "didn't see that coming". There is no titty fairy. If you are getting GRS, just put in your bust augmentation request and be done with it. I have nice Bs, and they were uncomfortable for a while. For the transgender men, get the boob job done soon, binders are rough on your health. And remember girls, transgender men will be as much the asshole, as you are the whiney princess while you get used to controlling it.
I think it's great that you emphasized some of the harder parts, that some things can't get fixed without working on it. Voice training was incredibly rough for me, took me literal years and was extremely disheartening early in my transition. It's fine now, 3 years on HRT and I'm stealth if I want to, but I didn't get here without a ton of tears and sweat. And it's not like I'm "done" now that I pass, I'm still working a lot on myself. Pushing yourself out of your comfort zone is never easy, but it's at least realistically possible now. Actually doing it is still scary, but that's how you grow as a person.
I feel the need to share that for some of us more hypersexual women we don't necessarily experience significant reduction in libido. I've noticed the way I get horny is different now and it was actually hard to tell if I was aroused or not for a few months. Additionally, if you don't know the phrase "use it or lose it" means that for some of us that like to have a functional penis that hasn't atrophied we have to manually do blood flow maintenance since you stop getting morning wood and such which normally functions as a natural prevention to atrophy. The anti-depressant effect paired with a general sense of gender euphoria can actually raise libido significantly. For myself HRT has essentially allowed me to alter how I perceive myself as a sexual being while making it essentially effortless to quit habitual consumption of pornography.
Oh definitely. Libido loss was my biggest concern, but it's been really nice to not have the 'groinal homing missile' kinda drive. It's not that I'm less horny, it's just that 'girl horny' is waaay different to 'boy horny'. That's probably why (for me, at least) my porn consumption is almost zero, like maybe once a month. It just doesn't do it anymore, so why bother? Smut, however... omg, that's where it's at!
@@_allegra Any good reccomendations for smut? I'm not really familiar with where to look for that sort of thing. I've been surviving on getting off by just actually loving myself for the first time this last year or so lol
@@cynical8330 hmmm, not really. I just go onto Literotica, search by theme, then look around til I find something. It's a bit hit & miss, but sometimes you find gold.
At a month of hrt, I FEEL SO GOOD. I cried of joy for the first time of my life and it was so GOOD. Stopping testosterone poisoning has been the best and i am so hopeful for my future. I know its gonna be hard but i am happier than ever and its my first month
Weirdly I did need to hear that E won't solve all my problems But I'm committed as fuck and I'm not stopping now. The comparison at the beginning gave me a lot of hope for the future and while I know it won't fix all my life problems I know that I will be happier with myself Thanks for this video Alice ❤
(i’m a month late on this video, but who cares) There ARE ways you can have your voice artificially raised, which are listed below: Voice feminization surgery This surgery can change the length, thickness, or tightness of the vocal cords to make a voice sound higher and more feminine. Some common procedures include: •Anterior glottic web formation: This procedure creates a band of scar tissue at the front of the vocal cords to shorten them and raise the pitch. •Cricothyroid approximation (CTA): This procedure raises the tension of the vocal cords to increase the pitch of speech, but studies have shown that the effects are not long-lasting. •Wendler glottoplasty: This procedure involves connecting the front third of the vocal folds with sutures, which makes the remaining two thirds act like female vocal folds. The procedure is done through the mouth while the patient is asleep under general anesthesia. •Thyrohyoid elevation This procedure raises the voice box higher in the neck to shorten the pharyngeal chamber and raise the resonance of the pharynx. -Copied directly from Google.
Trans teen here and tysm for the last part, im really trying to think hard rn and like research if hrt will be best for me, i still strongly believe it will be and im the kinda girl who is seeking to basically just, live as a girl, even tho i know ill never be cis i really wanna just be accepted as a girl in society, but i know i have to prepare for every outcome, is there any way you can make some sort of video about being prepared for those things? Like discriminaton, how to find a supportive community, what happens if you dont pass etc, as im really scared about those things still, thank you
Love your content my sister is Trans and has bene through surgery and HRT for years now. It is true of any people who fall outside the neat little boxes defined by society. This is eerily similar to the advice I give to fellow male victims of domestic violence by a female predator. It is similar to my own journey to to learn to move my CPTSD into remission. Things won't magically be fixed after you can hopefully file charges of assault, pee do behavior(that may be just my ex, if she were a man she would be in jail or dead long ago(yes I had hard evidence still police did nothing), etc. against your abuser. You got to do the therapy, you have to find people you can talk to without judgement. Take your meds. Build a support network and community and yes even be prepared to cut out those you love and were once close too. Things don't just magically improve over night. In fact they can get worse for awhile.
I'm not good looking. I keep being hit on. As an awkward nerd it is hard actually. As I don't notice they get more and more blunt. Men/women/nonbinary. All hit on me.
No matter how much research you make, there will be some funny effects of estrogen that you won't be prepared for. For me, it was mostly physical stuff. Like, nobody how much my breasts would hurt upon the slightest bit of touch. My cat's hecking tail can swing into it and cause significant pain, wtf! The way my body "feels" has also changed much before the way it looks has. Running, for example, has become uncomfortable just a few months into estrogen, with no visible change to go with it.
Just a little tip from someone that's been on hrt for a year now. HRT doesn't do even close to everything to feel good. I've been struggling with getting myself to work out and get myself to dress in new ways and experiment and HRT doesn't do much for that. Workin on getting myself to work on myself XD I wrote this before watching through the whole video and uhhhh yeah she kinda went over a bit of that. Gotta keep yourself healthy and happy and HRT will hopefully push your improvements further
I'm sorry but there is no solution. Things like clothes will not help AT ALL, they don't really have any effect on your sex no matter what everyone's internalized sexism tells them. We are greatly unlucky to be born like this and the best life we can ever hope for is "tolerable".
That was a great presentation. You look amazing by the way. I recently completed my 9th month of Estradiol and Spirolonolactone. This was very accurate. I also experienced elevated moods particularly the first month I started HRT. It's not without challenges, but I am loving the journey I am on. Subscribed..
I've been on estrogens for over 12 years total, still don't have bottom surgery and have never been on testosterone blockers, so it is not a given that if a transwoman is on HRT that they will be given anti-androgens. That said, the whole idea that anti-androgens are required is a myth for most people. It is more for the psychological effect of feeling that that horrible T is being dealt with than the actual effects of it. In most cases it doesn't even reduce the amount produced but inhibits the body's ability to use it and only some anti-androgens actually reduce production. That said, being on estrogens will reduce the T production over time because the endocrine system in the body that regulates hormones does not recognize the difference between one sexual hormone and another but just reads a total level of hormones. There are different weights between them, where it counts some as being worth more against the desired level than others but it doesn't distinguish between estrogen, testosterone, progesterone or what have you. Because of this, if you add hormones to your body from an outside source, your body will adjust by reducing it's own production of sexual hormones. This means that if one is on a high enough estrogen dose, that the gonadal production of testosterone will almost completely shut down. As I already said, I've never been on T-blockers and never got any bottom surgery but when I get my lab work done, I'm just over the average level of testosterone in Ciswomen but well within the normal range and that's just from being on estrogen for years. The way my clinic deals with anti-androgens is that they present it as an option, and if one decides to go with it, they only use them for the first two years of HRT and then stop them because the T will be reduced by the E at that point in HRT. I have always been 'No thanks' about it, as I know I never needed it and I definitely don't want some of the side effects that the ones I'd be given have, like needing to pee more often.
I'm one of those people where (as best I can tell) HRT hasn't caused any mood swings at all. Honestly, I was kinda hoping that it would get a little easier to cry, but I guess not.
What I expect from HRT: emotional changes (no idea which, but I expect something to happen), and a slow movement towards having a body shape that is more likely to fit in the kinds of clothes I want to wear. The rest, I expect will be stuff I have to work on.
Started hrt a couple months ago. The mood changes at first were subtle. Now they are significant. The hard edge emotionally before hrt has gone. You know that unbendable unbreakable wall of strength men possess emotionally? It's been replaced with increased situational awareness and soft emotions. My reaction isn't to fight to to tend and befriend. My social aptitude and awareness has skyrocketed. Compassion and caring rule the day emotionally now. My sexuality is morphing I was bi not anymore.
There is actually a medical procedure that can shorten the vocal cords. And the main risk comes from not listening to the doctor (talking too soon) Estrogen can make you lose an inch or 2 in height, by altering your ligaments.
I'm 10 years+ at this point on estrogen. Its nice to listen to this and think about what's changed for me. I agree with really everypoint Alice has. In my own experience, while the secondary characteristics changes where wonderful and affirming. Sorry Alice I got a lot more breast growth likely cause of my genetics. I'd heard generally you might be able to expect a cup size smaller than your mother which turned out true for me. But that depends on so many things. Now that I'm post operative and many years past that. I'm in the phase of talking with my provider about long term HRT as I age. While early transition the blockers and estro was a relief. Now, I can't quite tell. What I mean is after meeting my goals for transition HRT is less about gender affirming care, or less than what it once was. Now its more about avoiding Osteoporosis. There was a 6 month period there I couldn't get estrogen because of moving for a new job and getting setup with a new provider. I started to notice my breasts sag and that definitely was a bummer. I think part of it now is just that I like the idea I still have estrogen in my system. Alice these kinds of videos are fantastic. I transitioned when I think they only resource around was TSroadmap. Its so wonderful those who are going through what I did have so many resources to turn to. I had to mail order from a catalog a set of voice training CD's I'd listen to on my drive to work every morning. So much has changed!
Definitely a good list. For me 1. Emotions! This was huge, it changed so much. I have probably cried more times in the past 7 months than I have in the past 30 years. And I love it! 2. That it actually works! I know, everyone knows that, but to experience it is just wow. 3. That I will enjoy the feel of my own skin. I love how my skin is getting softer, it feels amazing. 4. My fingers. It isn't talked about much but when I cross my fingers together i really notice that they are thinner and more feminine feeling. I always had big fat man hands and the changes after just 7 months are amazing. 5. Boobs. Yes we all know that estrogen will make you grow boobs. But the experience of actually seeing them start to grow is amazing. I wasn't really much of a boob person before starting HRT, but now I am a huge fan! Thanks for sharing
On the note of being ready to start HRT, I started HRT 6 months ago and I will readily admit that, while it has in fact been the greatest decision of my life, I rushed into it and it was far too easy for me to get (I went in for a _ first consultation_ and had my hormones 2 weeks later). I got lucky that this turned out to be correct for me (Every change I've seen so far has been one that, even if 'negative', just feels *right* ), but I would absolutely urge folks to know what they're getting into. I had a rough overview but I don't know that I was actually prepared for everything. I've been extremely fortunate to have a community of queer folk that I can turn to and ask questions ("Hey, is this normal?", "Hey is this part of HRT?", "Should I be doing this instead of this?" etc.) but without that support group, I can only imagine how scared and confused I'd be about certain aspects.
I am 56. I started HRT 3 months ago. I was not expecting this, but my self-esteem has vastly improved. This has, in turn, greatly reduced my anxiety and dysphoria. Totally worth it.
The pickle thing is so real. I often crave salty food, often on the sour side. My love for pickles, pepperoncini, and olives has gone into overdrive. I’ve eaten like 30lbs of olives this year, 60 lbs of peanut butter. Also I just went from 50mg spiro to 100mg this week. What surprised me: change to my own scent, it’s weird to just suddenly smell like a different person. I’d say it’s a definite improvement. Also my libido is still here, but in addition to ones’ visible genitalia getting a little smaller, the prostate does as well! So it’s like my g-spot has shrunk, go-to positions and techniques no longer have the same effects. So I am re-learning myself a bit.
8:25 Actually estrogen *will* make you shorter, but not in bone structure; even if you start it very late in age. Tho if one starts it in even their late teens, it can have a larger effect on height bcuz often the bone structure hasnt fully finished developin then as most ppl grow to their final height by their early 20s But for everyone else, it can still cause up to around an inch (~2.5cm) of change in height; in either direction. This isnt bcuz estrogen or testosterone are changin ones bone structure there; but bcuz of the fat shiftin and the joints shiftin as a result and it just causin shrinkage of very small amounts in total height, foot size, and hand size My shoe size dropped about half a size, my hands noticeably shrunk in not just total length but moreso in thickness; and my height dropped from just a smidge over 6' to a little under 5'11" now. I lost maybe 4 cm at most in height there, but probs closer to 3cm This is also noticeable in reverse if one ever detransitions. Many of the effects are ofc permanent, but a lot will revert a bit nonetheless; as one gets other hormones in them and their body does its thing of redistributin the fat and such
I'm just about to hit 4 months of hrt, these made me tear up. Thank you for this video, my sister, who's egg just broke and I have been chatting about her coming out as trans femme and I'm so happy she found this video. ❤️
I've actually shrunk an inch and gone down a shoe size since starting hrt. I'm not expecting much if anything else, but as I was 6'2" and a US size 13 men's... I'll take it. 😂 I have gotten more compliments in the 10 months I've been hrt than I have for probably my entire life before that. I've done zero social transitioning, I guess it's been mostly from just... being happier than I've ever been. Even though I still socially present the same, the idea that I am being my true self and working towards that, doesn't go unnoticed I guess. 😊
4:14 you have to make a music video, some kinda crazy, weird jumbled vhs music video, maybe even just lip syncing, would be totally awesome. also incredible video, very useful and gives a lot to think about :)
In about 1 week I get my blood test results, so I can start hormones. This was very useful, and helps ground the excitement with a bit of realism...but also hope. Thank you :3
Thought I'd share my experience as a trans guy, so: Three things I didn't expect from testosterone HRT! 1. It reduced my libido. By a lot. Don't ask me why. 2. It made my boobs shrink. Not by a lot, but still. Didn't know that was possible, but apparently others share the same experience. It's just rarely talked about cause you gotta get top surgery if you wanna be completely flat regardless. 3. It made me go from severely underweight to an average weight effortlessly. After 19 years of me failing to gain weight. If I had known about this, I would've started taking it as a 12 year old "cis girl". Like wtf, there was this cure for all of my weight-related health issues and no-one cared to tell me? Rude.
Hello! As of 2 whole days ago I am officially one of you now 💚💚💚💚💚 Also 3:27 alpha is cute affffffff Can you do a video on what happens when you first come out? For some reason my body has been insanely warm for no reason, but I also have more energy having been surpressed for a solid couple of decaades~~~
Oh yeah, Hrt is definitely something. I've been on it now for 5 yrs and the emotions. Oh girl, sometimes my emotions go like a fire cracker, but i will keep going forward and wish all the best from me
Just watched the video and now I can't purge the Postman pat theme from my head so thanks, Jokes aside thanks for adressing some concerns about E I had
Something that's not promised at all is filling in your hairline. However I got really lucky my hairline was akin to a Nintendo 64 controller on my forehead; the Vegeta hairline, now I have baby hair growing in my window's peek. (Been on HRT for 5 months) It such a huge thing for my confidence even though it's not completely full.
@@MochaKnightess Wigs won't feel entirely right. Maybe not as bad as now but nothing will ever feel entirely right, and I will always be miserable about it.
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Nice and smooth “aliceinwonderONEand” in video lol … always supposed the 1 was an ersatz “L”
I love jumping from Icky and Finn debunking a transphobic reaction video to a new ride through Wonder1and in one day! Great to be back!
Oh, hey! I did the exact same thing.
I was about to do that but now I will do the reverse order
@@AncusohmKindred spirits!
About to do it the opposite way lol
literally just watched Icky's video lol
That last point, I remember an amazing quote about it. "HRT didn't solve my problems, it made them feel worth solving."
Fun fact. Estrogen can give you freckles. It's probably the only thing it did to me I didn't know could happen.
Nice!
I got some freckles! •^__^•
Holy shit, that's the reason why?!
I thought I was just going crazy but yea, my face and arms developed a lot of freckles over the recent year or so, and I couldn't figure out why lol
@@Mia-W2 they’re what would be known as “age spots” seen in the population generally… estrogen affects everything down to the pigment receptors in your skin. 🙂↔️ (thou afa alice getting her freckles (cuuute as!), ask her HOW 😈
Oh wow! Lucky! Freckles are so adorable 😺
9:32 estrogen(HRT in general) will not fix your problems. it makes your problems worth fixing. Much love Alice
True, I definitely expected this kind of quote in the video because it's extremely important to mention when talking to pre-hrt trans people/eggs
exactly. I actually care about myself enough to work on myself now
A little side note, hip bones don't fuse until mid to late 20s and even continue to change into your 30s. You can't get narrower shoulders or ribcage but if you start young enough your hip bones can actually widen quite a bit.
I also love your last part. Transition is a hard path. It can be so worth it though. Estrogen alone won't fix your problems. But being true to yourself, which estrogen may allow you to do, may give you the energy to go fix those problems that you need to tackle and the confidence may help you be more prepared for the challenges life will throw at you. I know it did for me.
Glad you liked it xx
How do I like a comment more than once
Challenges don't feel like a challenge if you actually like taking them on
For the first part, thank you so much!!!
I came down to mention the hip thing too. Another cool one on that track is that estrogen won't make your bones smaller, but trans women do sometimes report losing a few inches in height and going down in shoe sizes because it changes your ligaments. This also changes the ligaments around your hips causing your legs to be positioned differently, giving you more of that stereotypical feminine gait.
You cannot prepare for mood swings. I knew about it. I expected it. I still had to go home from work last week because I couldn't stop crying.
it’s bizarre
I know the experience. After the first year, it does get better. I think ones nero physiology adapts to estrogen.
@@Kelly-tt9le Can't wait to breakdown in the middle of the day/night and have to try and explain through tears to my mom that it's the estrogen!!!
Oh God, this 100%. I've cried so many times. Especially since I locked in the levels I wanted.
yep, and no one can prepare you for PMS =)
Even if you know how it feels and that happens to you, you will probably still miss a day of two and will cry in a car for 6 hours thinking that no one loves you and feeling despair...
And on the another day you would think "what was THAT?"
Now I make a notification on my calendar to remind myself that if I will feel awful - there is probably a reason for that.
BTW I have a not very common PMDD actually, who'd thought =)
I am a cis guy, who is not struggling with his gender identity.
So why did I watch this clip?
First, you are funny.
Second, you are very informative.
Third, I have some really good friends online, who are on HRT and I want to understant their life's journey and how they feel a bit better, because I do care for them.
Good on you 👍. I've been doing research to better help & understand my Transfemme friends 🙂. I'm Cis Male by the way.
You're very welcome here!
I feel like what changed my life was the realisation itself
Whenever I am being fem I am so much more extroverted and open and confident
I am so much more risky and experiment so much more just because I let myself be me
This isn't just for social stuff but for everything. I find myself going wild with my art, going into genres I never explored before just because I am comfortable being a weirdo
I’m glad!
Same, mostly. I even felt more confident doing masculine things as a woman. Damn, just so many things I didn't care I didn't care because it was me doing as a guy
For me it's the same, but with self care. Honestly, I never really cared about my physical wellbeing and even hygiene was just a secondary thing (been really depressed for like idk my whole life ig) I never gave a fuck. I wasn't going to k*ll myself, but if I would have just died from anything else, I wouldn't have cared. But now I feel like I have a goal to achieve, a body goal. I haven't started HRT yet, but I did start to get better hygiene, showering more often, washing my face more often, using better products instead of that simple 2in1 shampoo i used to use, I started being more healthy, actually drinking water sometimes instead of LITERALLY JUST coke, energy drinks and coffee. I got clean from drugs, i've been addicted to benzos and opioids for a very long time, i smoke less weed, like im not daily high like i used to be. maybe once or twice a week (still too much kinda but im working on that as well). It's just like, In all of my 20 years so far, I never did anything, never cared about anything, sometimes even harmed myself on purpose. But now, I actually started to do something against it, to change my life for the better. And it all started with my transition goals and imagining what I could be in 3 or 4 years. I never had a future vision of myself, always assuming I'd just randomly die in 1 or 2 years prior. Realizing that I am trans really helped me to start my way out of my depression, instead of just doing nothing about it. Being trans is hard and it kinda sucks even yeah, but it also affected me positively, even before even starting hrt. It's actually crazy
(Ik nobody asked and im oversharing idk sry)
Edit: shit I wasn't intending to type in THAT much.
@@shylaGD i do have a similar situation with hygiene and eating better, I rarely every eat out these days even though I am still in the closet (minor + homophobic parents)
Being me is great even though I can only be me when on the internet or with a few trusted friends or alone
I wish you luck on your transition and going clean, you are kicking ass and we love you for it 💜
@@darknessridgeThank you! 💜 Im outed to my friends but not to my fam yet. It's a very hard step honestly and i'm really scared of taking it. But god damn, I am 20 years old i kinda shouldn't gibe a damn I guess. Anyways, I wish you a good future, maybe one day you can get those hormones (if you want to of course) stay strong! 💜
#5 hits different.
I found out barely two days ago that where i work is closing within a month. Im recently out of a series of bad relationships.
I dont know what the future holds but somehow through the tears and the uncertainty im happy and excited for my future in a way i havent been since losing my mother as a teenager. Im 5 months and 5 days on estrogen and spiro. Seeing myself become the woman i always was has changed my life and given me the strength to face the world and myself.
Too anyone reading this who is also struggling it DOES get BETTER your worthy of love and happiness.❤
Thank you alice for another piece of art that makes me laugh, think, and cry. Your an inspiration to be a better me, keep leading by example!
PS. Sorry for the paragraph and trauma dump.
You’re strong, good luck
No need for an apology here. Channels like this are a great place to just share a piece of your experience to help others and be helped in return. I'm happy for you that you found yourself.
@@Dragowolf_Rising me too thank you!☺️
An icky video an alice video and jaqcue the whipper video in one day! What a great day!
Hope you enjoyed it!
And Jammie too
A great combo
@@Giuliana-w1f wait what?
didnt see he posted
And the click! So many great vids :p
How many femboys are optimal to own? I don't think I can find 6 whole femboys to chain up. I only have 2 so far and it's been a grueling ordeal, not to mention how expensive it is to kept them well-fed and entertained. And even though there's only 2 of them, it's already a nightmare to get them out of each other's throats. I swear, every time I come down to check up on them, I find new bite marks on them on all the weirdest places.
Wrongful imprisonment is "bad" and "unethical"
I saw a post once that said something like hrt didn't solve my problems, it made my problems worth solving. And I relate so strongly to that, hrt has helped bring my body in alignment with my mind and that difference however small and incremental has made me feel like my life was worth living, that I'm worth the time it takes to care for and to love myself, or at least learn how to do that
That’s a great way to put it!
Gah! I'm so jealous of how your jawline got softer. But at least I inherited my family's blessing/curse of big breasts.
Jealous 😭
Or. Big bum in my case 😂. Smaller on the top department. Congrats 🎉
God help me- I am going to start HRT next year hopefully after recovering from severe health issues and all the people in my family on my mother's side are very well-endowed
At this point cybernetics are looking appealing from the mechanical load bearing capacity and shock absorption stress I am going to probably be putting my back through
Actually some people find that estrogen does change their height! Very slightly and not everyone, I think it has to do with hip rotation. Which is also a thing who knew
Its more to do with the fat redistribution but it results in slight changes in height due to joints shiftin as a result. This is also why feet and hands shrink a little due to goin on estrogen as well; with hands bein smth one can usually clearly see a difference in
Its not much, we're talkin in the range of up to like 2 in/5cm in the most extreme cases, or seein ones shoe size shrink by like half that
Still, it meant i dropped noticeably under 6' and i like that bcuz it feels nice to be 5'11" instd just cuz human brain sees a big diff there xD
It's only been 7 months and I've already lost 4cm of height. Guess I've got one of those extreme cases then.
I remember F1nn saying something like that too; talking about being now an inch shorter, and shorter feets too. But I dunno: F1nn have said a lot of things.
Can confirm, I lost about 2 inches (~5cm) of height in my first year of hormone therapy with estrogen! I'm in my 30s as well.
Running on T holds a lot of water in the ligaments/tendons and similar tissues in the body (including the spine) so that has both an effect on flexibility but also height. I've had x-rays taken of my spine before and after starting hormone therapy and there is a noticeable change over the length of my spine. So increased hip tilt, general increased flexibility in joints, and less water held in the body _can_ cause a loss of height. As with so much of hormone therapy, your mileage may vary though.
I personally kind of miss the height I lost, but what happened, happened. 🤷♀
(Also, hi Alice! Love your content!)
here for this, I dropped 3 inches, I was 7'10" 7 months ago when I started, now I'm 7'7" (from what I hear 3 inches is on the more extreme end), I lucked out on body changes
After five months on HRT, I experienced my first major mood swing playing God of War: Ragnarok (of all things).
The emotional Father/son moments were too much for me to handle, and I crumpled into a uncontrollably sobbing mess.
Research as much as you want, it won't prepare for the intensify and depth of your new emotional range.
Awww
What happens if I'm already emotional af...
@@makimaki500in my experience turn the dial from 10 to why is my face always wet?
@@makimaki500 for me I went from being emotional all the time but not being able to cry until a crushing amount had built up to just crying in little amounts when I need to way more healthy and enjoyable ☺️ everyones results vary tho
Yup... that hit me a couple days ago...
Dont tell the terfs, theyll hunt us for our power😢😂
Oh no hahaha
@@aliceinwonder1andJ.K. R is Gel of your Power 💪
My favorite thing is no body hair. 🥰
Lucky! I've still got more than I'd like.
Fair!!
Agreed! I had to laser it off but still
Def less, def welcome
real (not me watching this in the shower shaving it all 🥲)
Honestly seeing old photos of you make me confused because I’ve only seen you like you are in this video!
Hahahah
No but the pickle thing is actually so real. About once every month or two I start craving pickles and peanut butter so badly. My mom just looks at me like im psychotic when i take a spoonful of peanut butter then a bite of pickle in the same mouthful
Hahaha
You are psychotic, and now I want to try some peanut butter on pickles because I'm pretty sure I'm also psychotic
My former partner (we're just good friends now) on like our second date, a picnic, she brought pickle and peanut butter sandwiches. She'd been on E 2 years at that point. I've been on E 14 months and I myself haven't gotten the pickle craving but when I do eat pickles I seem to enjoy them more now.
@@sarah_757 Peanut butter and pickle sandwitches are litterally the best sandwitches though!
7:20 Correction - Most testosterone blockers don't actually make your testosterone disappear, they just block it from having any effect. This means that if you take a blood test, *your testosterone levels are likely to go **_up_** in the first month or so!*
Your body recognizes that the testosterone isn’t doing anything, and in response, it pumps more out to try to fix that. Once your body realizes that it's not doing anything, however, your testosterone levels *will* go down.
So don't be scared if you take a blood test and your testosterone levels go up! They'll go back down eventually once your body realizes that it's not running on testosterone anymore.
Spiro (the rubbish one) blocks testosterone receptors. Which indirectly reduces T levels by causing testicular atrophy. Cyproterone actually does make testosterone disappear directly, by blocking GNRH instead
I've got hypothyroidism and yep silly hormones
Hey Alice, I'm currently considering when I will start HRT and this couldn't have had a better timing.
Love your content :3
Thank you happy I could help xx
Your smell will change.
Your sense of smell dramatically increases
Dreams become much much more intense (as do nightmares).
Empathy increases ALOT
You will become as weak as a kitten (yes you will suddenly understand why all men are seen as threat to all women).
Testosterone over confidence, kiss that good bye.
The list goes on and on and on.
lol one morning I opened my closet door and almost threw up from the stench. My brain at some point during the night got the memo and instantly stopped recognizing my former body scent as mine. Now it was registering as disgusting man smell. Couldn't do anything about my mattress, but everything else got changed and I got a new pillow that day.
hormones control empathy? who tf designed that? the devs are crazy
I love my girlsmell so much 🥰
damn y'all are getting confidence from your testosterone?
High E vs low T are worth discussing separately... When we can
Bunny's significant hormone therapy shifts. Early. 'it' turned off. Oh glorious heaven. I went from sex obsessed to screeching halt. Loved it. Almost never knew it was even there. 1 year in "omg I want a man" wait...wtf? 2 years in well the body hair is gone. So is my aggressive nature (ruined my wargaming skills). God would you stop crying. 3 years in "I really need to stop walking alone at night" I learned to be afraid. Before that fear was someone else's problem... who in their right mind would attack me (I'm ex military and I have a strong build). Post GRS, it's mostly hehehehe I'm free. I don't NEED hormones as much, still have to take them, but there's nothing like having the right body parts (I thought at least). I am now 7 years past GRS. Most of the hormonal evolution is just stuff from my past now. I can't really remember what it was like to have a penis. I have not 'orgasmed' in 9 years. And at 62, I don't really give a damn about it. I still like to play around with my partner of course. But I don't need that OHMYGAAWD moment. So in summary. Your parts might calm down, your preferences might shift, your attitudes might alter, look after your skin and for transgender men, get ready for acne. But expect most of all, for it to be about 3 years of "didn't see that coming". There is no titty fairy. If you are getting GRS, just put in your bust augmentation request and be done with it. I have nice Bs, and they were uncomfortable for a while. For the transgender men, get the boob job done soon, binders are rough on your health. And remember girls, transgender men will be as much the asshole, as you are the whiney princess while you get used to controlling it.
I just started estrogen after spending years researching it extensively, but I am still going to watch this video anyway :3
You got this!
Your gonna love it that's so exciting!!
I hope it exceeds your wildest expectations ^__^
@@aliceinwonder1anddoes beard growth decrease after hormone treatment?
@@respectkindness-oj6xz No
That last part is so true. Like i get my gender now but now i have to deal with my other issues!
Also i started hrt 2 months after you❤
Good luck girl
I think it's great that you emphasized some of the harder parts, that some things can't get fixed without working on it. Voice training was incredibly rough for me, took me literal years and was extremely disheartening early in my transition. It's fine now, 3 years on HRT and I'm stealth if I want to, but I didn't get here without a ton of tears and sweat. And it's not like I'm "done" now that I pass, I'm still working a lot on myself. Pushing yourself out of your comfort zone is never easy, but it's at least realistically possible now. Actually doing it is still scary, but that's how you grow as a person.
You forgot the biggest change: It might turn you into a bigger bottom than Alice, just kidding that's impossible
Thanks Alice, I'm meeting with an Endo for the first time in September and am impatiently waiting.
Good luck, you got this!
I feel the need to share that for some of us more hypersexual women we don't necessarily experience significant reduction in libido. I've noticed the way I get horny is different now and it was actually hard to tell if I was aroused or not for a few months. Additionally, if you don't know the phrase "use it or lose it" means that for some of us that like to have a functional penis that hasn't atrophied we have to manually do blood flow maintenance since you stop getting morning wood and such which normally functions as a natural prevention to atrophy. The anti-depressant effect paired with a general sense of gender euphoria can actually raise libido significantly. For myself HRT has essentially allowed me to alter how I perceive myself as a sexual being while making it essentially effortless to quit habitual consumption of pornography.
Oh definitely. Libido loss was my biggest concern, but it's been really nice to not have the 'groinal homing missile' kinda drive. It's not that I'm less horny, it's just that 'girl horny' is waaay different to 'boy horny'. That's probably why (for me, at least) my porn consumption is almost zero, like maybe once a month. It just doesn't do it anymore, so why bother? Smut, however... omg, that's where it's at!
@@_allegra Any good reccomendations for smut? I'm not really familiar with where to look for that sort of thing. I've been surviving on getting off by just actually loving myself for the first time this last year or so lol
@@cynical8330 hmmm, not really. I just go onto Literotica, search by theme, then look around til I find something. It's a bit hit & miss, but sometimes you find gold.
At a month of hrt, I FEEL SO GOOD. I cried of joy for the first time of my life and it was so GOOD. Stopping testosterone poisoning has been the best and i am so hopeful for my future. I know its gonna be hard but i am happier than ever and its my first month
HRT for sure didn't solve my problems, but getting out from the self-loathing of myself and my body has made life worth living.
Weirdly I did need to hear that E won't solve all my problems
But I'm committed as fuck and I'm not stopping now. The comparison at the beginning gave me a lot of hope for the future and while I know it won't fix all my life problems I know that I will be happier with myself
Thanks for this video Alice ❤
You’re welcome
(i’m a month late on this video, but who cares) There ARE ways you can have your voice artificially raised, which are listed below:
Voice feminization surgery
This surgery can change the length, thickness, or tightness of the vocal cords to make a voice sound higher and more feminine. Some common procedures include:
•Anterior glottic web formation: This procedure creates a band of scar tissue at the front of the vocal cords to shorten them and raise the pitch.
•Cricothyroid approximation (CTA): This procedure raises the tension of the vocal cords to increase the pitch of speech, but studies have shown that the effects are not long-lasting.
•Wendler glottoplasty: This procedure involves connecting the front third of the vocal folds with sutures, which makes the remaining two thirds act like female vocal folds. The procedure is done through the mouth while the patient is asleep under general anesthesia.
•Thyrohyoid elevation
This procedure raises the voice box higher in the neck to shorten the pharyngeal chamber and raise the resonance of the pharynx.
-Copied directly from Google.
I have Borderline and starting Estrogene kicked me right into closed psychiatry, starting Progestorone made me more stable than ever before
Happy crying was a new thing for me. I always wasn't expecting anything within the first week, but here we are. Look forward to the future.
I have never in my life seen a living being pull off orange eye shadow. Well done.
Trans teen here and tysm for the last part, im really trying to think hard rn and like research if hrt will be best for me, i still strongly believe it will be and im the kinda girl who is seeking to basically just, live as a girl, even tho i know ill never be cis i really wanna just be accepted as a girl in society, but i know i have to prepare for every outcome, is there any way you can make some sort of video about being prepared for those things? Like discriminaton, how to find a supportive community, what happens if you dont pass etc, as im really scared about those things still, thank you
You’re very welcome, I hope I helped
I got so impressed when my thighs doubled size in like, a week on E
A _week?_ I'm 4 months on estrogen and it's only just _starting_ for me!
Same, I have strech marks because of it
@@SomeGalNamedEve i guess i'm Just build different
If that happens to me I'm f-ed cuz I already have thick thighs
@@Niamh1474 my gf have that worry too
Love your content my sister is Trans and has bene through surgery and HRT for years now. It is true of any people who fall outside the neat little boxes defined by society. This is eerily similar to the advice I give to fellow male victims of domestic violence by a female predator. It is similar to my own journey to to learn to move my CPTSD into remission. Things won't magically be fixed after you can hopefully file charges of assault, pee do behavior(that may be just my ex, if she were a man she would be in jail or dead long ago(yes I had hard evidence still police did nothing), etc. against your abuser. You got to do the therapy, you have to find people you can talk to without judgement. Take your meds. Build a support network and community and yes even be prepared to cut out those you love and were once close too. Things don't just magically improve over night. In fact they can get worse for awhile.
The serious part is really well! Awesome! Also the not serious part was funny, but I was stunned by the serious part. Keep on the great work! :)
I'm not good looking. I keep being hit on. As an awkward nerd it is hard actually.
As I don't notice they get more and more blunt.
Men/women/nonbinary. All hit on me.
Take it as a plus!
@@aliceinwonder1and TBH, I don't know if some of these weird guys want to fight me or f*&k me.
No matter how much research you make, there will be some funny effects of estrogen that you won't be prepared for. For me, it was mostly physical stuff. Like, nobody how much my breasts would hurt upon the slightest bit of touch. My cat's hecking tail can swing into it and cause significant pain, wtf!
The way my body "feels" has also changed much before the way it looks has. Running, for example, has become uncomfortable just a few months into estrogen, with no visible change to go with it.
starting Estrogen was super hard. it is also literally the best medicine I've ever taken.
I’m stealing that first sentence
Congrats on first
Go for it
good choice of sentence
I’m happy that you continue to upload during these scary times.. it brings me and probably others hope :3
I started HRT about the same time. It was either late February or early March 2021. I honestly forget.
Getting my orchie tomorrow. 🎉🥳
You got this!
Your hair looks so great lately 💕
Oh thank you!
Just a little tip from someone that's been on hrt for a year now. HRT doesn't do even close to everything to feel good. I've been struggling with getting myself to work out and get myself to dress in new ways and experiment and HRT doesn't do much for that. Workin on getting myself to work on myself XD
I wrote this before watching through the whole video and uhhhh yeah she kinda went over a bit of that. Gotta keep yourself healthy and happy and HRT will hopefully push your improvements further
I am right as usual
I'm sorry but there is no solution. Things like clothes will not help AT ALL, they don't really have any effect on your sex no matter what everyone's internalized sexism tells them. We are greatly unlucky to be born like this and the best life we can ever hope for is "tolerable".
girl the eyeliner matching the earring and the top omg i love it
One time I took estrogen as a straight psychonaught. I've tried nearly every drug under the sun, but nothing prepared me for the experience. AMA.
That was a great presentation. You look amazing by the way. I recently completed my 9th month of Estradiol and Spirolonolactone. This was very accurate. I also experienced elevated moods particularly the first month I started HRT. It's not without challenges, but I am loving the journey I am on. Subscribed..
i'm still learning stuff about it thanks to having a second mum, who I love very much ^^
That's great!
The video started halfway into the video and I love it
Thank you for this information Alice I will definitely keep this in mind
Glad it was helpful!
@@aliceinwonder1and me too 😊
I've read on Wikipedia that voice surgery does exist, but I don't think many people do it
That sounds invasive as fuck
I've been on estrogens for over 12 years total, still don't have bottom surgery and have never been on testosterone blockers, so it is not a given that if a transwoman is on HRT that they will be given anti-androgens. That said, the whole idea that anti-androgens are required is a myth for most people. It is more for the psychological effect of feeling that that horrible T is being dealt with than the actual effects of it. In most cases it doesn't even reduce the amount produced but inhibits the body's ability to use it and only some anti-androgens actually reduce production. That said, being on estrogens will reduce the T production over time because the endocrine system in the body that regulates hormones does not recognize the difference between one sexual hormone and another but just reads a total level of hormones. There are different weights between them, where it counts some as being worth more against the desired level than others but it doesn't distinguish between estrogen, testosterone, progesterone or what have you. Because of this, if you add hormones to your body from an outside source, your body will adjust by reducing it's own production of sexual hormones. This means that if one is on a high enough estrogen dose, that the gonadal production of testosterone will almost completely shut down. As I already said, I've never been on T-blockers and never got any bottom surgery but when I get my lab work done, I'm just over the average level of testosterone in Ciswomen but well within the normal range and that's just from being on estrogen for years. The way my clinic deals with anti-androgens is that they present it as an option, and if one decides to go with it, they only use them for the first two years of HRT and then stop them because the T will be reduced by the E at that point in HRT. I have always been 'No thanks' about it, as I know I never needed it and I definitely don't want some of the side effects that the ones I'd be given have, like needing to pee more often.
I'm one of those people where (as best I can tell) HRT hasn't caused any mood swings at all.
Honestly, I was kinda hoping that it would get a little easier to cry, but I guess not.
It happens!
I'm honestly jealous, I'm a nightmare for mood swings 😞
Thank you so much for making this video, I just finally started hrt a few weeks ago
You got this!
@@aliceinwonder1and :3
What I expect from HRT: emotional changes (no idea which, but I expect something to happen), and a slow movement towards having a body shape that is more likely to fit in the kinds of clothes I want to wear. The rest, I expect will be stuff I have to work on.
Started hrt a couple months ago. The mood changes at first were subtle. Now they are significant. The hard edge emotionally before hrt has gone. You know that unbendable unbreakable wall of strength men possess emotionally? It's been replaced with increased situational awareness and soft emotions. My reaction isn't to fight to to tend and befriend. My social aptitude and awareness has skyrocketed. Compassion and caring rule the day emotionally now. My sexuality is morphing I was bi not anymore.
Just want to say I love your outfits. Fits you really well!
Thank you so much 😀
There is actually a medical procedure that can shorten the vocal cords. And the main risk comes from not listening to the doctor (talking too soon)
Estrogen can make you lose an inch or 2 in height, by altering your ligaments.
Welcome back alice I hope you are feeling better after being sick 😊❤
Thank you xx
I'm 10 years+ at this point on estrogen. Its nice to listen to this and think about what's changed for me. I agree with really everypoint Alice has. In my own experience, while the secondary characteristics changes where wonderful and affirming. Sorry Alice I got a lot more breast growth likely cause of my genetics. I'd heard generally you might be able to expect a cup size smaller than your mother which turned out true for me. But that depends on so many things.
Now that I'm post operative and many years past that. I'm in the phase of talking with my provider about long term HRT as I age. While early transition the blockers and estro was a relief. Now, I can't quite tell. What I mean is after meeting my goals for transition HRT is less about gender affirming care, or less than what it once was. Now its more about avoiding Osteoporosis. There was a 6 month period there I couldn't get estrogen because of moving for a new job and getting setup with a new provider. I started to notice my breasts sag and that definitely was a bummer. I think part of it now is just that I like the idea I still have estrogen in my system.
Alice these kinds of videos are fantastic. I transitioned when I think they only resource around was TSroadmap. Its so wonderful those who are going through what I did have so many resources to turn to. I had to mail order from a catalog a set of voice training CD's I'd listen to on my drive to work every morning. So much has changed!
Hey, I love Serious Alice that we see in the second part of this video. You should make more awesome serious content like that!
Trans women of the world, unite!
It's so cool watching people from all over the world doing amazing content for this huge shared community.
your fashion sense is so insanely good what the heck
"A lot has changed in the past 4 years"
You got freckles, they're adorable! (among other things)
My freckles are fake XD
@@aliceinwonder1and if you can't grow your own, store bought is fine
Definitely a good list. For me 1. Emotions! This was huge, it changed so much. I have probably cried more times in the past 7 months than I have in the past 30 years. And I love it! 2. That it actually works! I know, everyone knows that, but to experience it is just wow. 3. That I will enjoy the feel of my own skin. I love how my skin is getting softer, it feels amazing. 4. My fingers. It isn't talked about much but when I cross my fingers together i really notice that they are thinner and more feminine feeling. I always had big fat man hands and the changes after just 7 months are amazing. 5. Boobs. Yes we all know that estrogen will make you grow boobs. But the experience of actually seeing them start to grow is amazing. I wasn't really much of a boob person before starting HRT, but now I am a huge fan!
Thanks for sharing
On the note of being ready to start HRT, I started HRT 6 months ago and I will readily admit that, while it has in fact been the greatest decision of my life, I rushed into it and it was far too easy for me to get (I went in for a _ first consultation_ and had my hormones 2 weeks later). I got lucky that this turned out to be correct for me (Every change I've seen so far has been one that, even if 'negative', just feels *right* ), but I would absolutely urge folks to know what they're getting into. I had a rough overview but I don't know that I was actually prepared for everything. I've been extremely fortunate to have a community of queer folk that I can turn to and ask questions ("Hey, is this normal?", "Hey is this part of HRT?", "Should I be doing this instead of this?" etc.) but without that support group, I can only imagine how scared and confused I'd be about certain aspects.
It's 9am, I just woke up. First video of the day, and I'm not upset. This video is the embodiment of *chaotic neutral* 🤣
I am 56. I started HRT 3 months ago. I was not expecting this, but my self-esteem has vastly improved. This has, in turn, greatly reduced my anxiety and dysphoria. Totally worth it.
The pickle thing is so real. I often crave salty food, often on the sour side. My love for pickles, pepperoncini, and olives has gone into overdrive. I’ve eaten like 30lbs of olives this year, 60 lbs of peanut butter. Also I just went from 50mg spiro to 100mg this week.
What surprised me: change to my own scent, it’s weird to just suddenly smell like a different person. I’d say it’s a definite improvement. Also my libido is still here, but in addition to ones’ visible genitalia getting a little smaller, the prostate does as well! So it’s like my g-spot has shrunk, go-to positions and techniques no longer have the same effects. So I am re-learning myself a bit.
Oh thank god for the description for the 4:15 mark because I was starting to realize maybe this wasn't the kind of video I meant to watch 😂
8:25 Actually estrogen *will* make you shorter, but not in bone structure; even if you start it very late in age. Tho if one starts it in even their late teens, it can have a larger effect on height bcuz often the bone structure hasnt fully finished developin then as most ppl grow to their final height by their early 20s
But for everyone else, it can still cause up to around an inch (~2.5cm) of change in height; in either direction. This isnt bcuz estrogen or testosterone are changin ones bone structure there; but bcuz of the fat shiftin and the joints shiftin as a result and it just causin shrinkage of very small amounts in total height, foot size, and hand size
My shoe size dropped about half a size, my hands noticeably shrunk in not just total length but moreso in thickness; and my height dropped from just a smidge over 6' to a little under 5'11" now. I lost maybe 4 cm at most in height there, but probs closer to 3cm
This is also noticeable in reverse if one ever detransitions. Many of the effects are ofc permanent, but a lot will revert a bit nonetheless; as one gets other hormones in them and their body does its thing of redistributin the fat and such
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@@theonetruelove That icon doesnt display right on my end; it just shows a box with an X in it. My phone probs is just too old heh
I love this video. It's got chaos, humour, facts and a brilliant speech at the end that I did not expect but needed to hear! 11/10 will watch again
I wish I had someone like you around you sound like a absolute blast to be around
I am
Started HRT in 1990. NUmber 5 is the one that should be number 1.
I'm just about to hit 4 months of hrt, these made me tear up. Thank you for this video, my sister, who's egg just broke and I have been chatting about her coming out as trans femme and I'm so happy she found this video. ❤️
Alice commits atrocities beyond your mortal comprehension. Her power is unmatched
Yellow is my favourite colour and definitely blown away by makeup and style.
But the information in the video is much more important of course =)
I've actually shrunk an inch and gone down a shoe size since starting hrt. I'm not expecting much if anything else, but as I was 6'2" and a US size 13 men's... I'll take it. 😂
I have gotten more compliments in the 10 months I've been hrt than I have for probably my entire life before that. I've done zero social transitioning, I guess it's been mostly from just... being happier than I've ever been. Even though I still socially present the same, the idea that I am being my true self and working towards that, doesn't go unnoticed I guess. 😊
I’ve been looking forward to this all day🥰
You’re welcome!
Girl was wearing the Barry bee Benson fit and said "you like jazz" omg I'm dying
Alice your a chaotic neutral creator and I love it ❤
4:14 you have to make a music video, some kinda crazy, weird jumbled vhs music video, maybe even just lip syncing, would be totally awesome.
also incredible video, very useful and gives a lot to think about :)
In about 1 week I get my blood test results, so I can start hormones. This was very useful, and helps ground the excitement with a bit of realism...but also hope.
Thank you :3
Good luck!!
@@aliceinwonder1and Thank you!
i have watched 4 videos, started with memes, then you ratioing, now this, i now love u (/p) and have subbed, WARCRIMES
I’m literally going to my GP to ask about starting HRT today. Thanks for being awesome Alice
Good luck!
Random youtube video recommendation on random topic. BUt the vibesssssss of this girl 🔥🔥
Thought I'd share my experience as a trans guy, so: Three things I didn't expect from testosterone HRT!
1. It reduced my libido. By a lot. Don't ask me why.
2. It made my boobs shrink. Not by a lot, but still. Didn't know that was possible, but apparently others share the same experience. It's just rarely talked about cause you gotta get top surgery if you wanna be completely flat regardless.
3. It made me go from severely underweight to an average weight effortlessly. After 19 years of me failing to gain weight. If I had known about this, I would've started taking it as a 12 year old "cis girl".
Like wtf, there was this cure for all of my weight-related health issues and no-one cared to tell me? Rude.
Hello! As of 2 whole days ago I am officially one of you now 💚💚💚💚💚
Also 3:27 alpha is cute affffffff
Can you do a video on what happens when you first come out? For some reason my body has been insanely warm for no reason, but I also have more energy having been surpressed for a solid couple of decaades~~~
So what you're saying is.... I just have to take this pill and i'll be perfect. Thanks!
no that is literally the exact opposite of what I’m saying
@@aliceinwonder1and instructions unclear. I chugged down the entire box (note: seriously.. .dont do that people xD)
Oh yeah, Hrt is definitely something. I've been on it now for 5 yrs and the emotions. Oh girl, sometimes my emotions go like a fire cracker, but i will keep going forward and wish all the best from me
This video was very funny and then very useful. Thanks for the info!
And your voice sounds great!
Glad you enjoyed it!
Just watched the video and now I can't purge the Postman pat theme from my head so thanks, Jokes aside thanks for adressing some concerns about E I had
i'm just here because i like the outfit lol. you could show up to a business conference in that, or maybe the irs office
Glad you like it :)
Something that's not promised at all is filling in your hairline. However I got really lucky my hairline was akin to a Nintendo 64 controller on my forehead; the Vegeta hairline, now I have baby hair growing in my window's peek. (Been on HRT for 5 months) It such a huge thing for my confidence even though it's not completely full.
I am probably screwed
@@crystalvulpine2314 noooo! 😭i believe in you! Plus there's always wigs, I still wear wigs too
@@MochaKnightess Wigs won't feel entirely right. Maybe not as bad as now but nothing will ever feel entirely right, and I will always be miserable about it.
Not sure if I should or even could take HRT in the future but I'll watch this anyway!
Hope you enjoy it!
Really great video, I love the educational ones, more importantly, did you just say merch is coming?!?!? 🎉🎉🎉🎉
Working on it!