Eating 100 Layers of Cheese Challenge
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- Опубликовано: 12 дек 2021
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Why eat 50 slices of cheese when you can eat 100 slices of cheese!!! Over 4lbs and 5,000 calories of 'plastic' cheese, piled high atop each other! Can I conquer the cheese mountain? Or will it conquer me?
ENJOY!!!
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What's up! Sorry for the wait... but we have tons of videos to post before 2021 is over!
Just wanted to start off alittle cheesy..
Also PS, OSRS. :)
When I crave cheese THIS is what I imagine
Definitely a little C H E E S Y
NO! NO! NO! Many people say I am sick in the head. NOOOO!!!! I don't believe them. But there are so many people commenting this stuff on my videos, that I have 1% doubt. So I have to ask you right now: Do you think I am sick in the head? Thanks for helping, my dear matt
Missed you Stonie, glad you’re back!
Bruh hmu if you want to do something on osrs. I just maxed last week
Matt just ate more cheese than an entire population of mice can in a week.
Hii
You fell off
That’s all you can think of?
Nikocado is laughing
@@E.94772 🤣🤣🤣
oh god i could only imagine how that tastes after a few slices
"My Father is Dead, my Mom has no job"
"I play Well and Edit videos"
"But no One Support"
"I hope you will see this message 😢💔"n
"My Father is Dead, my Mom has no job"
"I play Well and Edit videos"
"But no One Support"
"I hope you will see this message 😢💔"w
@@r8kff853 you doing this for subs aren't you
🤮
Heavenly
I can barely eat one of those without feeling nauseous lol
Damn I can barley eat 2 bites of cheese without gagging any dairy? no thank you pretty much lactose intolerant
What he did is my dream
I cant even look at them, because ill get nauseous lol
@@RipVanWinkle13just do it then or medical problem?
@@RipVanWinkle13to get a heart attack?
Homer took all night to eat 64 slices of American cheese but Matt only took 4 minutes. Damn.
And now he’s blind
@@edwardhilton4344 who is that?
@@andilemolefakgotla7491 homer is one of the main characters in the Simpsons
Your pfp 🌚🌚
Your pfp is giving me horrible flashbacks.
I would literally puke after 5 slices. This guy is insane.
i can barely finish one slice of this processed stuff if i try to eat it by itself without any bread or anything 🤢
Weak
That isn't real cheese, so disgusting
@@Smart_Think it’s basically gelatin infused cheddar
@@myxbox5 eating cheese without anything other than water is SO GROSS
Another challenge that is gonna disgust the shit out of me, but I’ll still intently watch every second of it
same
"My Father is Dead, my Mom has no job"
"I play Well and Edit videos"
"But no One Support"
"I hope you will see this message 😢💔"z
@@r8kff853 shut up
I’m not gonna lie, he just made cheese look good to eat
😂😂 facts
This is what I do when I get home drunk at 2am.
lmao
the fact that he can do that without instantly throwing up 1/3 of the way there and up is proof of his pure skill.
Usually his challenges make me hungry but definitely not this one .
I can feel the pain 😩
Same
Ikr
Same
@@chadmemes6937 I could feel u dude this is messed up
@@hanksmith4556 omg same here its just too much😣
Idk how you do it Matt, this was insane!
i agree with you
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I know! I wish he could eat ME next!
He did is just putting the cheese on his mouth. Thats it!
Wow, straight beast. Ate double and finished in less time. Incredible. Was fun to watch. Great video
This is legitimately mindblowing to me. I tried to eat a grilled cheese with two of those and my body let me have two bites before going "what are you doing? What the hell, this isn't food!" and forcing me to spit out the third bite. Idk how you did this.
Never before felt sick while watching Stonie eat something. Actually, the thought of it turned my stomach. Great job though, Matt!
right this is the only video where i actually lost my appetite more
@@khiyyahcorbett652 I guess you didn't watch the bologna video
@@enriquesanchez662 or the honey video
Or the mayonnaise video🤢
@@raveendranath8716 or the onion video. the fucking onion video.
I can't help laughing each time he gags 🤣
the gagging wipes me out everytime 💀
As someone with lactose intolerance, this horrifies yet fascinates me at the same time.
Trust me there's zero milk in this plastic cheese. I'm lactose intolorant too and I eat this all day. 🤣
@@TheDrunkCook777 maybe that’s u cuz i’m lactose intolerant and this cheese fucks me up
@@thatvampiregirl maybe you're allergic to plastic 👀
Me too I'd die
@@TheDrunkCook777 it actually is milk in it. It’s even on the package. Btw your cooking is horrible
Props to Matt for taking that extra mile and giving us a beautiful looking cheese spiral tower.
"My Father is Dead, my Mom has no job"
"I play Well and Edit videos"
"But no One Support"
"I hope you will see this message 😢💔"v
@JJ Prcinka ?
@JJ Prcinka another loser bot... just report and ignore them
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Phone : yeeted
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Holy water : needed
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That's the only way it was gonna stand
4:00 this POWER up when she announces the time 😂 I am gonna cry
I love how he assembled
So satisfying to watch
Marge: “have you been up all night eating cheese?!”
Homer: “I think I’m blind”
and that's only after 64 slices.
thoughts and prayers for matt's eyesight :p
what did I attract here
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RUclips: This is fine
Someone: Says "help"
RUclips: BE GONE
History : deleted
Phone : yeeted
Body :heated
Holy water : needed
#Чо #эт #делает #на #2 #месте #в #тренде #однако #я #люблю #таких #рыбаков #垃圾
#ライブ配信の再編ありがとうです!#この日のライブ配信は、#かならりやばかったですね!1#万人を超える人が見ていたもんね(笑)#やっぱり人参最高!#まさかのカメラ切り忘れでやら1かしたのもドキドキでした!#今後は気を付けないとね5). .
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I don't get it xD
Matt: "This is gross."
Also Matt: *proceeds to eat it until the challenge was finished*
🐐
Whatchu mean bro u think he gonna clickbait us or something?
Dedication
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U are loved by God And he cares about u so much and wants u to turn to him today so that he can make miracles and Blessings happen? God loves u and the world so much that He sent his only son Jesus Christ to Die on the cross so that we could Have a relationship with him and not have to sacrifice anything and we can inherit Heaven and be forgiven for our sins and repent those sins? God has a plan for u and wants it to happen turn to him and he’ll change ur life in a better way than u could ever imagine He’s helped me with many things and will do the same to u Just turn to Him and he will give u rest and will protect u Because he wants to save u and give you his kingdom of Heaven because He loves and cares about u and died for u so that u wouldn’t have to go to Hell. God bless you and have a good Day❤️✝️🙏Accept Jesus as your lord and savior and be saved repent ur sins But it’s ur choice to make but Jesus is coming soon but it’s all ur choice to make God bless
The thumbnail had me on the verge of tears
Ive been watching for a while and ive always known you have been the best food challenge professional in da world ma guy!!! And this video just proved me right
glazing 100 riding 100 meat eating 100
Doctor: "You need more dairy in your diet"
Matt: *"Say no more"*
"My Father is Dead, my Mom has no job"
"I play Well and Edit videos"
"But no One Support"
"I hope you will see this message 😢💔"5
@@r8kff853 shut
@@r8kff853 up
@@r8kff853 You
@@r8kff853 attention
Matt eating cheese : "this is gross"
the bologne : "finally a worthy opponent"
lol
Correction: bolongidgejwfwhh in shakk ok vejsksjsd ia.*
Lol 😂😂 "I'm not eating cheese again"
Ahahahahaha
yeah aunt may dies
I’m watching this a year later and this is me every time I go to the fridge at midnight.
He just at more slices of cheese than I ate my whole life.
what does your name mean?
you haven't ate more than 100 slices of cheese lmao? If you eat 1 a day that wouldn't even take 1/3rd of a year to eat
@@omegalilbchass8270 famous words say by american guy
@@pfftyrywe6376 you got a problem with reading?
@@omegalilbchass8270 I'm sure everyone has eaten over 100 burgers over their lifetime
I saw him chugging two jars of honey and I thought I've seen enough, then I saw him consume two bottles of protein powder, i thought I've seen enough, and after seeing this im wondering what's coming next
Eating 5 jars of straight mayonnaise 🤣🤣🤣😭
@@vaaance710 😭😂🤣😹😹😹
The peanut butter and jelly challenge was 10 minutes of pure gagging
Eating whole Earth
Ketchup
It takes him longer to count out how much food he’s eating than it does for him to eat it. 😂
True
@@sauceguy19 Not at all, 10 chicken sandwiches would take 20 seconds to count, and minutes to eat.
@@sauceguy19 no
@@sauceguy19 bro what your comment makes sense at all cmon now return to school. 🏫
@@sauceguy19complete opposite lol, it takes longer to count 30 mm's than to eat them, but try eating 30 sandwiches in a lower time than u take to count them and you'll fail miserably
i always laugh at the “we’re over half way there i’m pretty sure” like yea babe no shit lmao
Matt sonie is officially from the cheese army , CHEESE ARMY IS NOW SUMMONING THE CHEESE KING ALFAOXTROT
The Cheese Army shall rise.
Homer: "64 slices of American cheese....64.....63...."
Marge: "Have you been up all night eating cheese.?"
Homer: "I think I'm blind"
I’ve been looking for someone who commented this.
My thoughts exactly
simpsons
This is what I was looking for in the comments section. I was not disappointed.
This is the comment I was looking for
it's crazy a lot of people don't think about it but because of this talent that Matt has he literally took 20-30 bucks worth of cheese and turned it into like 50,000 dollars or more
Hopefully 50000
Who cares?
+ a free heart-attack 😅
Idk if a $49970 profit is worth the constipation. That shit looks horrid
i would'nt do it, that was nasty. But quite satisfying to see him just destroy that cheese
NO MY BROTHERS 😱😭
😂
burger king thailand:
what a great idea, lets do that for real this time
That cheese spiral is the best thing I saw today. It’s amazing how Matt makes eating fun even though it could be gross in taste
What matt does takes a lot of Dedication and strong will. I remember once I ate too much cheese like a pound of it or so and the days after that I gagged on the mere thought of eating cheese and seeing it made me vomit, I had like cheesephobia for a good 2 weeks. Now I am able to eat cheese again but took a lot of effort. Matt you are a legend dude.
That's what happened with me and marshmallows. When I was about 10 or 11 I had intentions of making smores, but I always had one ingredient and not the other. One day I just had a bag of those thick, cylindrical looking marshmallows and I ate them. Back-to-back-to-back. Ever since then, I have not ever eaten marshmallows whether small or big and I am now in my late 20's. Marshmallows really turn me off to this day.
Me too but with milk
Everyone’s bodies are different Matt is just a freak of nature lol
Bro’s finger was shaking at the end there lmaoo
I can barely eat cheese already- I just don’t like many types of it. But the fact that he ate so much of that actual rubber American cheese kills me 🫠
Actual rubber - so true😊😊😊
It’s more plastic than rubber
I love Matt’s channel not just because he’s the food eating champion of the world but he actually doesn’t believe in click baiting us with fake titles or over exaggerating the amount of food he eats he actually takes his time and counts up his food before doing the challenge and puts it in the title. Mad respect to my man Matt make us Matthew’s all around the world proud. ( and yea my names Matthew if you haven’t figured it out yet
"My Father is Dead, my Mom has no job"
"I play Well and Edit videos"
"But no One Support"
"I hope you will see this message 😢💔"tu
@@r8kff853 no thanks. i dont accept people who fake problems with their family.
@@2309cora .
@camilo’s valet ikr…it’s just dumb :/
Can we talk about how this is literally Homer Simpsons dream
As someone who's lactose intolerant, I can only imagine what would happen if I tried this....
Dont worry. There's no lactose in that kind of cheese. Just plastic. Lol 😂
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@@petscraftsandwonderfulthin1279 True. F**king disgusting.
@@nifa7231 YOU NEED JESUS!
@@petscraftsandwonderfulthin1279 but it's still cheese though.
oh wait, you're just making fun of american cheese.
edit: also, processed cheese doesn't actually have any real plastic in it. it's more like an edible plastic than anything else really.
04:47
"GUM!"
xD^^
4:58
The dog be like:
I hope you get soon then feed me...
"Matthew, have you been up all night eating 100 slices of cheese?"
Matt: "I think I'm blind"
Finally got that reference
you had faith that true fans will understand the reference...i do, in fact i was looking for you...so thank you
@@debangshupatnaik5150 it's the simpsons
@@Scottishrugbyguy oh ok
I was looking for this comment lol
Gotta admire his cheese stacking skills
i KNOW his stomach was effed up 😂😂😂
The gagging gets me everytime
If Matt ever turns into a zombie we’re all doomed!
Oh yeah🤔👻
@@cleanalien1391 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
😂 underrated comment
I saw this on a different video of his :think: oh
lmaoo
As a person who has IBS and digestive issues, my stomach hurts just watching this lol.
Eat more fiber and take digestive enzymes for bigger more oily meals. I solved all my problems mainly by food.
@@BopWalk I've tried lots of things.
@@joshuadabrowski0033
It should be as easy as eating smaller meals, eat more green vegetables and eat an apple after each meal, I almost garunteee you will have bowel movements each day and will have less gas.
Buy dried figs and snack on one or two after each meal.
Yup! My stomach started gurgling during the video, then when it was over - gurgling stopped. This challenge was NASTY 😂
Bruh this is crazzzzyyy!!! I could never lol nice job!!
That cheese tower is like art. I wouldn't wanna ruin it
once again he try’s to beat he old record the determination within this man is unbelievable. well done matt
"My Father is Dead, my Mom has no job"
"I play Well and Edit videos"
"But no One Support"
"I hope you will see this message 😢💔"c
@@r8kff853 ok bro...
@@r8kff853 Make room for yourself
@@nifa7231 wtf
We appreciate you doing all these videos. Every single one is so mind blowing !! Idk how you do it honestly . 👏🏻👏🏻
i dont know why but this made me gag lmao
😅
Everyone : *hearing screams from his bathroom *
this has to be the most disgusting one to date, Matt 😂
Nah the most delicious
Very very close to the Bologna. I’d say the Bologna was worse IMO, but this is a close second.
@@az0989ejdje you be eating this plasticky cheese by itself?
@@jacobpara4353 i love it
@@maxpowermotivation nah, the butter one for surr.
Idk why but I cant STAND cheese that's processed, and the fact that you ate 100 piecess is INSANE!
Same! I only like it for grilled cheese.
i woulda threw up quick
It’s good on a burger. You can melt it like velveeta too and dip chips in it. Eating it plain is gross though.
@@wck yeah eating it plain I ate one plain once and I threw up a lot it’s not good to eat it plain
@@eazye2250 For me its not super disgusting plain, but wouldnt eat it ever unless I had to
I love this guy he never clickbait us
Bro ate 100 slises of cheese in 4 minutes matt is a beast
Homer Simpson would be proud!
Never knew it was possible for someone to make me not want to eat cheese.
"My Father is Dead, my Mom has no job"
"I play Well and Edit videos"
"But no One Support"
"I hope you will see this message 😢💔"ti
@@r8kff853 ratio
Imagine how pizza with all this cheese would look like 🧀🧀🧀🍕
This gives a new meaning to the phrase.
*"Cutting the Cheese"*
After getting sick
Doc: What the last thing you eat?
Matt: it's complicated!
It's constipated
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@@Truecrimeresearcher224 elite comment 😂😂😂😂
Remember that one time when Homer Simpson got up in the middle of the night and ate 64 slices of cheese while Mr. Burns and Mr. Smithers were on the ceiling in his kitchen? You sure did a much better job at going through cheese slices than he did, and a lot faster.
Lol yeah I remember that
I cant believe how far down i had to scroll to see a comment that referenced the simpsons...
He was really savouring each slice though
@@kodfish I'm glad you found it and replied to it. Thanks.
i was looking for this comment too lol
Homer Simpson: Eats 64 slices of cheese
Stonie: Don't make me laugh
The best way to avoid hungry is this video
Can we take a min and just appreciate about how the cheese was stacked so good 🤤😌
He spent half an hour stacking it
I'd imagine he was careful
THIS PROCESSED SHIT IS NOT GOOD
Me eats one meal: "I'm full
Matt Stonie: Starts laughing
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RUclips: This is fine
Someone: Says "help"
RUclips: BE GONE
History : deleted
Phone : yeeted
Body :heated
Holy water : needed
#Чо #эт #делает #на #2 #месте #в #тренде #однако #я #люблю #таких #рыбаков #垃圾
#ライブ配信の再編ありがとうです!#この日のライブ配信は、#かならりやばかったですね!1#万人を超える人が見ていたもんね(笑)#やっぱり人参最高!#まさかのカメラ切り忘れでやら1かしたのもドキドキでした!#今後は気を付けないとね5). .
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Made my stomach turn when he started. 😭😭
Only just watched one of your video that was 8 years old and bro is still going to 🔥
I would have never imagined the day in which Direct TV paid a man to eat 100 slices of cheese. What a world we live in… what a world.
They’ve wasted their money on me. I have no desire to sign up for their service
I’m being close to throwing up eating 2 of these and you eat that many?! How are you even alive after that?! Great job! You definitely deserve every sub you have
I could eat more than him just not as fast
I love cheese
@@az0989ejdje Lmfaooo no you can not this must be the only video you watched of him 😂😂
@@thomaspiare300 ive been watching him for a year at this point
Ive seen his mrbeast menu
His pasta and hotdog competition
His bologna, happy meal, impossible meal, 50 eggs, 15x spicy ramen, 20x mcflurry, biggest/dumbest fry and filet o fish, curry rice,chili cheese fries,$3500 challenge, travis scott meal and many more
I just really love cheese its the best like i said i can eat more than him
Just cant eat fast enough
@@az0989ejdje why don’t you just upload a video of yourself eating cheese so you can prove it
@@mikoharrison1312 i could but i dont have money for cheese RIP
WE DID IT CHEESE ARMY! ALL RISE
GRAAAAAAAAAAH
Bro I was throwing up for him 😂😂😂😂
Matt Stonie can do anything with food ❣️✨
I’m addicted to his videos there always so underrated lol ✨❤️😀
Glad to see another video. It's gotta be hard trying to find new challenges. I salute you.
I'd love to see him eat an entire bologna lol
Legend says he still stacking cheese till this day
When I looked at the thumbnail and did not read the title it looked like a chip lol
U did a really great job man. I almost felt like puking just by thinking about so much cheese and water
You definitely bring your A Game here for us! We appreciate the hard work and dedication for such great content! I remember the old days when you were just starting on RUclips. Its been years of greatness, keep it up!
When he pooped the poop 💩 will be chessyyy🤣🤣
Bobby: "Hey Max, it's the leaning tower of Cheeza."
This would be a nightmare for lactose intolerant people.
This is a nightmare for lactose tolerant people
@Roi Reine Depends on the type of cheese. Softer or less aged cheeses and processed generally will have more lactose than harder and more aged cheeses.
Nightmare for my sister who would have anaphylactic shock 😟
oof
I don't feel like eating cheese anymore...Matt this one was crazy ☺️
Does anyone else remember those Squeeze-It drinks General Mills made? I certainly do. I was a 90s kid. Those drinks were so good. I loved the blue and grape flavored drinks.
When Matt smacked the cheese on the table I felt that
The way that sounds when he slams the cheese 😂 3:35
His eyes at 4:19 tho. Pure carnage 🤣
Now that’s a Cheesy Challenge 😁
As someone who has had to legit get their stomach flushed from eating too much cheese, this is torturous
How much damn cheese did you eat lmao
man ate a wheel of cheese
Bro what
The dude was happy to finish this in 10 minutes holy shit how can he be so sure about eating that whole thing
Shout out to Wallace who like the cheese watching 100 cheese competition his eyes of his jealous kicks in
Hid cholesterol went off the roof after eating that 😂 and very hard to believe he ate all that cheese in 4 minutes
He aimed for under ten minutes, but beat his own time of half the amount of cheese. What a legend!
It's probably because he was more used to eating the cheese. The first time it probably shocked him and his mind told him to not eat 4 lb of plastic cheese
3:30 pufferfish eating carrot sound
The fact that you did more cheese then your last time and got a lower amount of time is very impressive
Doc : you should eat cheese once in a week
*the cheese in the house :*
This might sound cheesy, but you did grate! Like hole-y crap, how did you do so gouda on this challenge. Nacho just obliterating that pile! I swiss you the best of luck on your future challenges too!
You feel good Marco? You made some of the cheesiest puns I’ve ever seen 🤣
Nice cheese
*c h e e s e*
Ur cheesy
… I love and hate this at the same time