Life Update 2023 - Where Have I Been? (Depression, Anxiety, and POTS)
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- Опубликовано: 7 апр 2023
- Life Update 2023 - Where Have I Been? (Depression, Anxiety, and POTS)
Disclaimer - I address topics such as Depression, Panic, Anxiety, Agoraphobia, and POTS in this video. If any of these topics are sensitive to you I recommend skipping this video. Thank you ❤
In this video I update you guys on where I have been lately and why I haven't been uploading videos to my channel, and have been inconsistent over the past years. This is a chit chat style video about me getting diagnosed with major depressive disorder, panic disorder, agoraphobia, and POTS (postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome). It has been a very rough couple of months for me physically and mentally, but not that I am in a better place mentally and physically I feel ready to come back to my channel. In this video I get vulnerable about my mental and physical health and I thank you for listening ❤ Talking about these things is really not easy so remember to be kind to everyone
Thank you for supporting my channel and watching my videos! Hope your day is amazing, hope to see you in the next video! ❤️️ 
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So this struck a nerve with me because I've struggled with agoraphobia, anxiety and depression since I started secondary school, so age 11/12. But i also had a crippling fear of failure so as far as school/college/uni were concerned I would have to massively hype myself up just to leave the house. I would often feel much better once i was out and with my friends but that initial fear before leaving would be so bad i'd feel nauseous so hearing your struggles makes me feel so validated and it's nice to know im not alone! I also went through a phase where all i would watch was minecraft LPs or stardew valley, anything chilled out because i felt this need to protect my space and energy. I found the outside world so overwhelming and things would really get to me, you were one of the creators i found, and watching your minecraft stuff, seeing your passion made me feel so safe. please take care of yourself and keep being you!
this was such a reassuring comment to read because we are both not alone in this! I'm so glad to hear my video could bring you peace and I really hope they continue to do so as I make more. Thank you for sharing this with me because you are absolutely not alone with how you feel. it is so so scary when that anxiety and panic hits and it's no small feat to overcome and you've overcome so much so far, so please keep going!
This stuff is difficult enough to live through let alone putting it out there on RUclips! Your very brave for pushing through. Always liked your videos and content.
Appreciate you being you!
Take care of yourself!
Thank you so much, such a lovely comment to read, I’m glad if I can help even 1 person feel less alone!
Might be weird but wanted to drop another note here saying you're still on our minds! We value you and hope you're still getting the help you need!
If you ever need someone to talk to don't hesitate to reach out!
We are not disappointed when you don't post content but we do worry about you. It's good that you're looking inward and learning about yourself. Keep up the good work.
Thank you yes absolutely always trying to learn about myself and take care of myself, not afraid to ask for help when I need it though ❤️🩹
Anxiety and depression are always tough to deal with. I’ve been experiencing both since my early teens… stay strong! Your never alone!
So proud of you babes! Always here if you ever need to chat ❤
Thank you Mellie! You’re the absolute best! Thank you for always being there 😊
I love reading through these comments and seeing how much love you’re receiving, and rightfully so. You’ve been such a trooper throughout this entire health ordeal, I know you have. You’re right, it hasn’t been easy, but I’m so proud of you for how far you’ve come despite the BS you’ve been handed by the universe. Mental health is no joke, and when it starts messing with your physical health, it’s even harder to bear because it’s a vicious cycle. I do not struggle with POTS, not do I have formal diagnoses for agoraphobia or panic disorder, but I have a multitude of friends with these things and I’ve seen how their lives are affected and also how they have to almost re-train themselves to deal with these things. It takes a lot of energy and perseverance, and I know you’re going to be just as strong as they are.
Thank you for sharing this video with us and letting us know a little about your journey. We’ve missed you greatly.
Thank you Charlie! You know you’re just the best ever! I really do appreciate you for the comment and the support along the way! It really helps keep me going and knowing I have a friend like you in my community is amazing! Thank you thank you from the bottom of my heart ♥️ it’s gunna be okay
I literally cried watching this cus I have anxiety too.
You are heard ❤️ I hear you and I am with you, you’re not alone in this
All I can say is: you're a fighter.
I don't have the conditions that you have. What I'll say is I humbly appreciate among others that you open up publicly about this, and having endured through all this for such a long time. You have all my respect.
Take care Nash.
Thank you Nick! Greatly appreciated! Being called a fighter is such a huge huge impactful compliment thank you
Appreciate you Nash! Super encouraged by your story ❤
Thank you res!!! 😊 really means a great deal!
I can’t watch right now but I’ll watch soon. Thank you so much for speaking out about these things. It makes me feel like I’m not alone. I’m so sorry you’re dealing with this. Please know we’ll be here for you wherever you’re ready.
I’m so glad it helps you not feel as alone! These things are very real and very scary and I hope to help you not feel so alone ❤️ I hope the stars keep shining on you and things get brighter
GIRLY GIRL!!! I am so so proud of you and love you so much!! This took a lot of courage for you to speak about it and I am so happy things are looking up for you. This struck such a cord with me because even as much as I have healed from anxiety, depression, and ED; I still have a hard time coping with triggers all the time and seeing you push through just inspires me so much to keep pushing too. You're an amazing and brilliant girl and I just know that you can accomplish anything you put your mind to. Take it each day at a time and absolutely rock it!
Good to hear that your doing better, looking forward to seeing your videos again when your ready to resume.
Thank you! Good to see you down here as always 💕
Talking to others is absolutely the right thing to do and you are right that everyone is valid. I hope this video will help others find their voice and the courage to talk to somebody. I wish you good health and happiness, and the same to anyone who reads this comment.
Thank you! I hope so too, thank you for taking the time to watch and support!
I'm so incredibly impressed, proud and glad that you made this video. I'm sitting here crying, both in understanding and admiration. All the hearts to you!
Yes yes! Reach out, I know it’s really hard but I find that you’d be surprised how many people are actually willing to help and understand!
Positivity, Love, and Good Vibes your way 🙏
I know how hard these things are to talk about, it takes a lot of strength. Being open about mental disorders and raising awareness is not easy, but here you are! You are doing a great thing!
You got all this 100% right! Depression is not a weakness, it is a part of life that some of us go through! Thank you for watching and leaving such a sweet comment!
Hiya Nash! I am glad your encouraging everyone to reach out, to keep seeking answers, treatment for what ever is happening that weighs any individual down. I've struggled with some of what you have described, and work every day at managing those physical/mental health conditions. It's still a good life. I'm glad you have your Dad, and you need to know you have a caring Minecraft community of fans too. I'll be looking forward to a video. Thank you for breaching the wall of social silence. If even one person gets a break through from continuing to seek help after this video, you have helped. Best wishes Nash, and deep regards!
Exactly! Thank you so much, I really do hope it is able to help someone! Being open is the best way to build connection I believe so I hope this helps this community connect more! I’m sorry to hear you have struggled :( that makes me sad but I can tell you are strong so keep going everyday!
One thing I've noticed is that people in general forget that it's absolutely ok and necessary to take mental and physical health breaks, and in the world of content creation, this situation is exacerbated by the fact that the content creators feel like they are going to lose their viewers/subscribers. I'm proud that not only did you take that much needed break for yourself but that you're highlighting your personal issues as to why you needed to to help teach others that yes, it's ok to take a break and that no, they're not alone in their issues.
oh absolutely! and thank you so much for this comment because it really is so important for us to remember that we do NEED breaks in order to keep our bodies healthy and working optimally. we need to keep checking in with ourselves and making sure that we are doing okay inside and out without stressing ourselves out or over working!
Very courageous of you to speak out about this. When you're being honest and sharing with others I hope you don't feel the need to apologize. This isn't something you do every day or as a job so it's natural that you would be uncomfortable, but I think it's fair to say that you're speaking with an empathetic audience here.
Stay strong, keep in touch. We care about you.
Definitely thank you! It’s always a little nerve racking to open up but so far it has been received well! Thank you for taking your time to comment and say such nice things!
Thank you for your story Nash and it's good to hear you're doing better! Reading the comments under this video, you can see we're all here for you and have a place to share our own stories (for those who want's to). I've also been dealing with depression and anxiety sinds high school (some 10 years ago) with ups and downs. Sinds the beginning of last year i've been trying to work on that and it's definitely getting better, but I will still have a long way to go (especially the anxiety). Just take the time you need and as you said: "you're not alone" and the best way to start is to find help!
Once again thank you and I can't wait for you to return with video's again!
Thank you for being here and for your comment! I’m sorry you have to go through similar things but I thank you for sharing a little of your story along with mine! I’m glad I can use my platform to reach out to folks like you and we can connect even if it’s over hard things 🤍 wishing you all the best
God bless you Nash. Your a shining star & your light brings life to the world✨️ My prayers are with you always
Thank you always! Great to see you as always!! Means the world 🌎
@NashCrafter Your welcome & great to see you too beautiful💓
You are not alone ❤❤❤ I'd love to see new videos on your channel if / when you feel well enough ❤
You're the best! Thank you, definitely not alone ❤️🩹
So, so proud of you! Thank you! Glad to see you're doing better!
Glad to hear your heart is ok Nash, I have missed your videos, I hope your recovery is easy and I look forward to see more from you, Stay safe x
Thank you!! Means a lot I’ll do my best
Happy to see you smile. Keep your head up. I know you will conquer your fears soon ❤️
Thank you for helping educate myself and I’m sure so many others on what POTS is. I’ve been watching your Minecraft and other vids for 6 or so years now and I’m really happy you are here with us and that you are feeling better! I was diagnosed with sleep apnea and myocarditis 2 years into the pandemic and it helped me to learn about it and find others who had it too so yes, you aren’t alone in this. Much Love to you, Nash and everybody out there 🫶🏽
Thanks for posting an update! I was wondering what happened. Praying for ya! Love the videos.
Thanks for sharing your experiences. I’m glad your starting to feel better Nash. Take care of yourself.
Thank you Dark!!
Loved the video @NachCrafter! Can't wait for the next video Girl! Sorry if I've been away for a few years or so but I've been Busy with other Parts of RUclips. Your Latest video where you start your 1.20 "Tales and Trails" Update Lets play is what brought me back and then seeing your Face in the Thumbnail of this video is what brought me here. You've been through a lot more than I have so far in my life, but we're both fighters here albeit to varying degrees. For me I mainly had to deal with Bullying in Elementary and Middle school (6th to about 8th Grade) as well as still Mysterious Digestive Issues that I'm simply dealing with by Taking Prilosec/Omeprozol that started around 7th Grade and in 10th Grade that's when I started taking the meds. Still no clue, but now thanks to my dad cooking most of the Food as well as Growing some of the Foods like some Asparagus, Brocolini, Broccoli, and now Various Peppers it's not as Noticeable as it was when I was in school which leads me to think that my Digestive Issues had something to do with "Bioengineered Ingredients" which likely would've been coming out around Obama's Re-Election under his "Affordable Care Act". In 2013, the Supreme Court of the United States ruled that anyone who puts something with these ingredients in their Bodies (Food, Drink, Vaccines etc.) They are no longer considered human, but as Transhuman and therefore don't have any rights whatsoever. Very Infuriating when you think about what's going on now with The Cartels getting FGM-148 Javelin Anti-Tank Guided Missile Systems thanks to Ukraine and the Black Market as well the China Illegally Salvaging Ships from World War Two and leaving the Bodies of their Fallen Crewmen to Rot on the Ocean floor, Ships like the King George V-class Battleship HMS Prince of Wales, Renown-class Battlecruiser HMS Repulse, Kent-group, County-class Heavy Cruiser HMAS Canberra and Even the Northampton-class Heavy Cruiser USS Houston (CA-30), as well as Having 5, 6 and 7 Year olds learning how to do a Bayonet Charge, use Mortars and Driving Military Vehicles and having their High school and college students play War Games effectively reviving N@zi Germany, Imperial Japan and the Soviet Union all in one or even putting them all to shame or something. Watch @What's going on in Shipping's video "Shipwrecks from World War Two are Disappearing" and @Laohy98's video "KILL AMERICA" showing what the Chinese Communist Party doesn't want you to see for the last two things that I talked about.
Now back to Minecraft, I wonder if you've heard the latest news about Mojang cracking down on Mods for Violating their "Terms of Service" Policy, particularly going after mods pertaining to Firearms as if they were Rockstar Games with GTA V. Last time I checked, Minecraft wasn't a Souls Game meaning they are open to having Mods for every Players Individual taste in Gameplay just like GTA V. Even I was worried about this happening as soon as I heard about the 1.19.2 Chat Report Update basically bringing in Cancel Culture to Minecraft and now I think I know what "Il Duce" himself (Fascits Italian Dictator Benito Mussolini) meant by saying that Fascism could also be Called Corporatism. By that, he meant if the Government isn't in a Legal position to Enact or Enforce Any Laws or Mandates, the Corporations can do so on the Government's behalf and encourage the very Ideology that was being stopped in the first place. By Going After the "Gun Mods" and calling them as "Adult Content", Mojang is Effectively encouraging Gun Control and somehow undoing everything they've done with the Combat Update and the 1.14 "Village and Pillage" Update.
All this, along with the RP Shenanigans on the Stoneworks Minecraft Server in the Worlds of Rathnir and Eldham, makes me want to work on some Parodies of some of the Irish Brigade's Songs like "My little Armalite" for the Trillium Wars and Jane_the_Bane's efforts to put Solaria and Bardonia in check or "Kinky Boots" for the Trillium Alliance Players marching into her Home City of Tlahatl and Surrounding the Temple she was Barricading herself in and ultimately slipped past the Predominantly Bardonian Dragnet only for the Local Government, even with RUclipsr RedFireRex RFR's pleads to just leave the City, to Banish Jane and Renounce her Citizenship.
Sorry if this was a lot of Mainly Political Ranting in the end but life's always somehow managing to put plenty of weight on me (at least). If you're interested in where I've been since your last video on "Imperial SMP", Let me know and I'll bring that up in a later video. For Minecraft of late though, mostly Catching up on Stoneworks channel and hopefully I can get a chance to check out Rex's perspective of the Latest wars on Rathnir over on his Channel. If you do see me in either of their comments section don't pay too much attention as I've got some Interesting ideas that might progress the Future of Warfare in Minecraft to varying degrees (not meant as a Sabaton reference but okay, I'll roll with it). If anything does come of it, at least I'll be paid in Exposure LMAO!
Anyway, I hope you're doing alright Nash, I managed to somehow spend about 2 hours typing this up! Let me know if you want to hear about my own Shenanigans on RUclips and I'll catch you in your next video! P.S. You're a natural beauty in your own right and if we had gone to High school together, I'd gladly take you out on a date or even to prom.
Thank you for sharing your experience. Life can be an unexpected journey of ups and downs. It's good to hear you are on the upswing. Your Minecraft videos are delightful and I'm glad you share those as well. Like you said, keep your chin up.
Thank you very very much!
Thank you so much for sharing your struggles with this, its so enlightening to see just what other people are going through, especially for those of us who are also dealing with some of these issues. Hope you get the million subs you deserve
Thank you Andy! Appreciate it, glad it could reach you!
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What helps me a lot are Mantras.List of mantras: 20 positive sayings I can endure unpleasantness. Everything I experience makes me grow. Life is as I see it. I can do this and I will do it. I am beautiful inside and out. I breathe in confidence and breathe out fears. I deserve to do good to myself. i am enough There's always something good, I just have to see it. I don't care what others think of me. I'm ready to forgive There's always something good, I just have to see it. Making mistakes is an important part of success. i do this for me My life is in my hands. I breathe in and relax my body, I breathe out and smile. i am here and now Smile. I believe in myself. I am unique. Stay strong and Bless you❤
These are AMAZING! Thank you so so much!! I love all of these! I have a list of affirmations written on my mirror that I say and I change them out every so often! I hope others read this comment and speak these to themselves! Positive vibes all around!!!
nash you are so sweet and lovely and i feel so hard for you. i’m glad you’re doing better mentally and physically!!!!! sending you so much spoonie love
Thank youuuuu! Ahhh so so sweet of you! Means a lot 💕
This had to be difficult for you to discuss with a bunch of "strangers". I'm proud of you, not that it counts for a lot but as a mother of a grown child with some of the same issues you have, I do understand and appreciate you sharing. Hope others with similar problems watch this and know they are not "alone" in their depression and anxiety, which can effect their physical health. Good on you, Sweet NashCrafter! Good on you! Just know there are people out here who support you, don't know you personally, but support you just the same. ❤
Thank you so much Amy! wishing your young one all the peace in the world and both of you lots of happiness! Thank you for your comment, it really means a lot!
Nash, thank you for putting yourself out there. This is such a hard subject to meet head on and those of us who suffer appreciate your honesty and ability to articulate your story.
I recently found your channel and have binged through the videos you have and I want you to know, that even though I’m just starting Minecraft the bigger thing is your channel is therapy for me! I find you so calming and reassuring. You are an genuine inspiration, not for the game play, but for being you!
Thank you sincerely! I hope to see or hear more from you soon. Not meaning to put pressure but there are those of us suffering from TBI, PTSD, depression, who find a kid of easiness and calm with your channel.
Big hugs!
firstly, thank you for your comment and for going through and watching my videos! It really does mean so so much to me! I am so happy that my videos can bring you a sense of calm and therapy 😊 that all I want for my videos to do! Help folks have a cozy friend to game with when they need one! These things are hard to go through but it is good to be open and honest about them as much as you can!
Thank you for sharing! It’s a powerful thing to do because a lot of people are in the same boat. You are loved and we will support you no matter what. I used to experience three panic attacks a day everyday. With therapy and meds my life is way better.
Hang in there. Ive personally dealt with much of this.
Youre right that knowledge gives you power over some of these conditions.
Just realize that youre not alone, and that it can and will be better for you if you keep your head up and keep learning.
When you master your mind, you master your body.
Yes! Knowledge is power, it truly helps so much! Thank you for all the kind words of encouragement
Thank you for sharing. My experience has been very similar to yours. It feels very validating to hear from someone else who went through all of this. I hope you feel at least a little bit of it in return.
I’ve been doing better lately which has been uplifting a bit, but thank you so so much. I am sorry to hear you’ve gone through similar things! I hope everything is okay over on your end, roooting for you!
Hey Nash! I discovered your channel a few months ago and i absolutely love what you do, you’ve really been a source of inspiration for me :) I hope you get better, making this video was very brave of you
Thank you so so so much! Glad to have you in the Nash Family!
I'm a bit late to this video but thank you for sharing. These things are really important, and the more people can feel comfortable seeking help, the better.
Maybe it's not the ideal way to find what you're "meant to do" but you do make great content and we will definitely appreciate seeing more of it. So glad to know your POTS isn't dangerous!
Keep being who you are and doing what you do and keep looking after yourself.
I'm so glad you are doing better!!! Thanks for speaking out, I know it's always very scary and emotional, but these kind videos are what helped me at some point in my own life and I could have spend years without knowing anything about myself.
I always love your MC videos, they are amongst my favorite, don't stress about delays, we're happy when they are out and we'll be happy with the time you need to make them.
Thank you! That’s very kind to hear I’m so glad my videos have been enjoyable to watch for you! I am glad these video have been able to help you out!! I wish you all the best in this world!
Im so sorry for u nash i hope u find somone who loves u and takes care of u
Glad to hear how you are taking ownership of your health and emotions. It is so clear by your videos and interactions on smps that you have a warm heart. Can’t wait to see some new videos. Welcome back ❤
Thank you Dun! means a lot to hear that!
I just found your video. I am going through the same exact thing this year with chronic anxiety and pots and vasovagal. 2023 has been wild. I did all of the steps you did in the same order but bc I am obese doctors went straight to high blood pressure being the cause and trying to treat that. Blood pressure changes and pots go hand in hand. I am learning so much about my mental health and new physical limitations. It is super scary! My pots went on years (without me understanding why or what was happening to me) and wouldnt have caught it if it had not been for my fitbit heart tracker and then tracking my blood pressure for the doctor. I can trace the gasteoporesis from having COVID. But when it began who knows. I have a lot running against me that got me here. I am agoraphobic, chronic anxiety, I have Celiac, autoimmune, I have Neuropathy, and food allergies, and I vaped. Which all impact the vasovagal nerve. I had syncope but didn't know that was vasovagal as well and to make it worse I fell from syncope and injured my neck which is like the big no no of vasovagal. So I guess I was doomed to get to pots and gasteoporesis eventually. It really sucks. I was really working on major health changes and doing great, living my life more, when it all came to a head and my heart rate kept putting me in the ER. I was on a quest for information when I found your video. Just keep your head up! Lucky you can work from home. Being upright has been such a struggle and I can't do much anymore so I just work on my obesity support online groups. Even though I still try to be upright and it never works out for me. Good luck. What a wild ride! I hope we just make it! Watch your tummy. Be safe!
I am so so very sorry to hear you have to deal with all of that, my heart truly is with you and thinking of you! As I read your message I felt for you so much because it is very scary at times and can be so tiring and frustrating but you are so strong for getting up every day and trying the best you can no matter how small the progress might seem it is progress! I hope you can find relief, it sounds like you are taking all the right steps and are keeping a learning mindset through everything so I am rooting for you always! Thank you so much for reaching out! You got this, keep going! I believe in you ❤️
Bless you. Well done for your courage. So glad you are at that point where you are happy and wanting to make content again. You have to do what is right for you when it is right for you if that makes sense. Sometimes understanding what our bodies are trying to tell us with the symptoms it gives can be a long journey and answers take time to determine. I'm pleased you have your dad as well. Thank you for your bravery and sharing a part of your life with us. You will get much support here too no doubt.
Thank you Bryn! Ohhh yes it can be such a long journey, and you really do need to listen to what your body is trying to tell you because it will tell you! Thank you for such a sweet comment though, I really appreciate the kind words and support!
i was so glad to see a notification from you! Welcome back!
Thank you!
I have panic attacks and they are HORRIBLE. Mine would just come out of nowhere and I'd literally have to leave meetings, lie down in the car, etc. They feel like you're going to die...so working through them is intense. I wish you the best while you keep working through this challenging time :)
OHHH yes, I have had my fair share of panic attacks and it really is those unprovoked ones that are the worse! Like why is this happening right now?! Im sorry to hear that you have gone through panic attacks! Wouldn't wish them on my worst enemy but it sounds like you are fighting through them and overcoming them! That is amazing my friend, keep going! sending good energy your way
Glad to hear you got some answers about your health. A girl at my church developed POTS around 14, it took them a long time to figure out what was going on. I wish you all possible success managing it, and on RUclips.
Thank you! Yes so many people with POTS don’t get diagnosed for yearssss! I got very lucky that both my ER nurses and cardiologist were familiar with the condition right when I went in! It is sadly getting more common so more doctors are becoming aware of it, which is a great thing for the patients so I hope more folks don’t have to wait to get diagnosed!
love your spirit, i am not sure if i could hold my own in that position. you being able explain the whole thing with a smile is indicative of your amazing mental strength. you *definitely* got this. best wishes. ❤️
also, excited for future videos 🥳
Lots of work and therapy mental training has gone into my mindset for sure! The first months of POTS especially I felt so hopeless and I cried a lot! I’ve come to learn that embracing those sad period helps you get closer to the periods when you can accept and smile! Thank you for the well wishes! Appreciate you ❤️🩹
Welcome back Nash! So glad to hear from you. Sometimes it can be so freeing to be honest about what you're going through (something I should do, as I have my own health issues recently... but this isn't about me). I know someone else with POTS, and she's been going through it for 6 or 7 years now. She uses a wheelchair now for other reasons, as she also has hypermobility issues in her joints (Ehlers Danlos Syndrome), and she's been making videos about her experience. She does a lot of videos about POTS in particular, in case you're interested. Just let me know.
Anyway, looking forward to more Minecraft videos from you! Your videos are always so peaceful and make me smile :)
I’ve just found your channel today and watched your Minecraft let’s play, and now I’ve seen this video and I wanna say I really relate to you and I know the fight is hard against these things. I am glad you’re in a better place now thank you for sharing and shedding light on this :) im glad you’re feeling good enough to be back! And I liked all the rambling btw
Thank you! I’m so glad to hear the rambling was okay!! Hearing you related makes me personally feel less alone!
Hey Nash, I watched this a couple hours after you posted it. I think you're super courageous to put all this out there. You don't owe us any kind of explanation. But I can empathize with wanting others to know why you are the way you are or why you have not been like the person you were before.
I work in the medical field and it was fascinating to hear you describe your medical journey. You've been through a lot and you have been given so much to deal with. I barely know anything about you but I felt like I saw the real you in this life update. Also, your dad seems like a great father and friend. You're lucky to have each other.
There is a lot I can relate to as I've suffered from depression for a couple decades but did not get onto medication until a couple years ago. I wouldn't say I'm doing better... but I'm finally receiving a specific treatment that seems to be going well-ish (it's early days). I had not heard of it until last year when I found out about it but it's a newer treatment with virtually no downsides; that is, if you're not in the 1/3 of the population that does not respond to it. It's for medication and psychotherapy resistant depression. If you're curious about it, I can answer questions (I go every weekday to get treatment and have access to the psychiatrists during my appointment). It's called rTMS therapy or Repetitive Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation.
I'm glad things are starting to get marginally better for you - after all, you were able to film and post this! Don't push yourself too hard but I'm looking forward to seeing content from you again. :)
thank you so so much for the comment! thank you as well for the compliments, it means a lot that this video was able to reach you and mean something and make sense! Glad to hear you are in the process of trying things out for your mental health, I wish you all the best!
Thanks for sharing all this. I've struggled with depression and anxiety that made my life almost unlivable until I did what you have done: talk to someone about it. It's so important to get the help you need, and first and foremost to actually BELIEVE that there's help that can make the difference. I resisted for so long, thinking that therapy wasn't going to do anything. A lot of people think that because feeling hopeless is exactly how depression works. They resist help because they just feel like nothing could possibly work. But it absolutely can. You've made the right choices, and you will come through this. And by doing that, you will prove to yourself that you have resillience, and you can draw on that strength when you need it. You got this!!
Absolutely, no one wants to feel like a burden so it can be so hard to want to reach out and get help but there really are so many people who you wouldn’t expect who will care and listen! I’m so sorry to hear you deal with these things, it’s really no fun but you seem strong and we both got this!
Beautifully said. Take your time, heal and mend, play when you're able.
Thank you so much Kaydubs! Love your username by the way 😊
@@NashCrafter thanks! Nickname from when I was a traveling sound tech.
It´s 3 am in the Morning and didn´t thought i would discover a gem of person, while randomly searching for a Minecraft Let´s play.
I can compare so much to your feelings, especially that the pandemic f***ed it all up. Was on a really good way out of the Anxiety and with my Depression, after a 9 weeks stay at a hospital. 1 Month after that the pandemic hit and destroyed all the progress, because i couldn´t go out anymore. That was kinda my homework, that i walk arround the city or drive with my bike. Now im fully back on the rollercoaster and never know how my Day is going to be.
You do definitly the right thing and talk about it, getting help from a therapist and learning more about your Mental Health. Wish you all the best for the future.
Subscribed and ready to check out your more cheerful Videos :)
I'm so sorry that you're having to go through all this as I unfortunately have to deal with similar stuff everyday.
Especially the POTS. I was diagnosed in 2020 and it was absolutely terrifying not knowing what was happening before I was diagnosed
It is SO scary before! I’m sorry you deal with POTS too, it’s really not fun at all and everyday is different and you don’t really know whats next, but you oddly get used to it after awhile too, it’s so strange to go through. That knowledge piece is so key for understand POTS. I hope you have many good days ahead, we’re in this journey together
Thank you and stay strong @NashCrafter
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I would say let me know if you would like to talk about it but I don't want to over step any boundaries 😅🙈
Your not alone sweetie, I've gone through it for most if my life and the lock down didnt help. Hugs sweetie
Hugs back! thank you
So glad that you’re feeling better and are able to identify your feelings and triggers! Depression and anxiety are a daily strain and riding that rollercoaster of your brain juices not juicing correctly can be so draining. You should be so proud of yourself for taking the time you need to handle your mental and physical needs. I’m looking forward to any content you put out, whenever it comes 🖤🥰
Thank you so very much! Those brain juices are hard to keep under control sometimes for sureeee! I appreciate your support!
The ending honestly struck me in a soft spot. I dealt and continue to deal with almost identical topics, and the message you conveyed is something I try to convey to others as well.
One of my favorite things to say is, "If I can just make one person smile today, then today is a day worth smiling about."
That is an amazing this to say and I am going to remember this one! thank you so so much! Sorry to hear you are dealing with similar things, please stay strong out there. You really do got this!
My anxiety was completely cured when I was diagnosed with lymphoma last week. It's weird how a life of mental health problems goes away when you know you're dying.
Listened until the end 😃 I subscribed. I relate to everything but POTS. Maybe it was the time. I would say I'm around your parents age. You're beautiful, intelligent and Dad I'm sure is so very proud of you❤
Welcome back.. I hope things will continue to improve for you both with physical and mental health, you've got a whole community of people here supporting you :)
Hoping so too! Thank you friend!
@@NashCrafter You're very welcome my dear :)
As someone who also has POTS and a ton of other health issues i completely understand what you’ve been going through. I’m glad to see another pots person (not glad that you have it but.. idk how to make it sound good.. lol) I hope you start feeling better! Take all the time you need! ❤
If you ever need any tips or anything with pots I’d be more than happy to help!
Definitely need a little POTS group! It’s always reassuring a bit when you find another POTS peeps! We can stick together and fight through it! I totally get what you mean and I’m sorry you have POTS too! Looks like we’re both not alone!
@@NashCrafter I would totally be down for a POTS group! Always nice to talk to people who know what you’re going through.
Hey Nash I’ve watched your videos for years so glad to hear from you in this video and so happy to hear your doing better stay strong push forward your an amazing person sending you the best of blessings. Waiting patiently for your next Minecraft videos.
Thank you so so much Carlos! means a lot!!
Oh- this sounds. So familiar. It wasn’t really the pandemic that kicked things off for me, but a lot of the experiences you’re describing are exactly what I’ve felt. I also have POTS, and the worst thing I’ve dealt with regarding it is pseudo-panic-attacks, where you get basically all the physical symptoms of panic attacks but without the immediate panic. It’s almost more terrifying because you feel like you’re supposed to be panicking but you’re not, so what the *hell* is your body doing?
Anyways, this is just a long winded way to say I’m glad you’ve figured things out and I hope you continue to do well!
Wow, her voice matches her beauty! ❤
Keep strong! 💪
Glad to hear you're doing better and in a good space.
I remember thinking a few weeks ago "huh, Nash hasn't posted anything in awhile. Hopefully she's doing okay."
You're an amazing person with a good fan base.
Looking forward to see what the future has in store with you and your RUclips channel. ❤
Thank you so much wow, I greatly appreciate the kind words!
@@NashCrafter hey of course. I've greatly enjoyed your videos and been a fan since the Legacy smp days.
We all have our Demons and struggles in life.
I don't comment often, mostly because I think what I have to say doesn't matter, but I do hope the best for you.
I’m glad you’re feeling better. As someone who’s had heart issues in the past I can imagine just how scary this must have been for you. You have such a positive and strong attitude! Glad that you have your dad to lean on through this ❤
Thank you! I am sorry to hear of your heart issues, they really are SO so scary! We are both here and staying strong and I think that is so cool 🤗
It's a really sad irony that your MC videos are so relaxing and yet you are dealing with this. I've said it before, but i think that your Minecraft videos are an incredibly chilled experience, they make me feel peaceful. I watch Hermitcraft, Empires, etc, but i always found your content the most laid back.
Look after yourself, it's the most important thing, but know that your content is enjoyed. It's appreciated more than you realise.
Thank you so much! It is a bit funny how life works sometimes, but it's always going to be okay in the end! I am so happy to hear that my videos can be a peaceful place for you! 😊
@@NashCrafter Maybe you've already looked into this, but if not, please check out Eckhart Tolle. His book, "The Power of Now" was a huge help for me. It's all about living in the present and not thinking (i.e. worrying) about the future, or the past. If you haven't heard of him then this might sound a bit out there, but please give it a look.
It will not fix medical conditions, and i'm not trying to imply that it will, but i know for at least myself that my thoughts were a bigger factor than i realised (edit: and the realisation that you can control them), and it helped a lot.
I have a very similar story! Fibromyalgia, POTS, agoraphobia, anxiety, depression. Minecraft building and videos like yours helped me. Thank you for sharing it so publicly! You were missed but I am so glad you took the time to take care of yourself first!! It's so important!! You make videos as you can, we will be here!
Thank you SO much Sara! I am so sorry to hear that your are going through something so similar! It really is a pain in the butt, but we are both strong and we got this! I hope my videos can keep bringing you joy once I get back to making them
I'm sure all of the fans in your audience would offer you a hug if they could. Your message today is very important. Thanks for sharing your experience.
Thank you! Hugs for everyone!
Your POTS thing sounds very similar to a condition I have, I have suffered ever since the 5th grade from Vasovagal Syncope, or it's also known as Neurocardiogenic Syncope, basically if I see something gross or like blood or something like that I can pass out. It's been a life-long struggle and I have had to change my life a bit to make sure I don't run into situations which might trigger my condition.
Even though ours are different style of problem, mine is also affected heavily by anxiety, which can make my situation worse, like if I'm in public or in class or at work. Plus the elevation of my body also can affect it, this is why I can actually mitigate it a bit by laying down, on my side, not on my back.
Idk if our conditions have some of the same fixes, but other techniques I use to help me in those situations is like focusing on something else to distract myself, like a solid-colored painted wall, and just only that, reduce all thinking to just one color over and over again. Also one time a nurse, while I was going through an episode she rubbed my forehead and apparently that calmed me down, I wasn't conscious for that moment, but my parents told me about it because they saw it happen.
Yes sounds quite similar in some ways! I’m sorry to hear you go through that but you have been strong through it and I am so happy for you for pushing through and making those lifestyle changing! I know all too well what it’s like to have those triggers and need to avoid them! Have you heard of tapping? It’s a grounding technique I learned in therapy that helps me a lot and sounds somewhat similar to what the nurse did for you. You can tap you forehead or eyebrows and it helps calm you down! I hope you’ve been able to find a flow and some ease! Rooting for you 🤍
@NashCrafter I have not heard of tapping, but if I do end up needing to do something I will definitely try that, thank you! 😊
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Nash the best tip I can give you is never ever give up ,stay strong,take time for yourself, relax, I pravwhen I've difficult times,that helps me a lot ,but everyone is different, I wish you all the best ,get healthy soon
i had to study spiders. i'm not so scared of them how... Me too, in covid time my muchness went away and i cry at a lot of things. if i went shopping by myself in the morning i wouldn't have a panic attack. i have to analnize what is happening and then talk myself down from crying. i also found my day doesn't go well if i don't listen to music and sing to it... this is What i needed! THANKS :)
I am right there next to you! Panic attacks are so scary and no joke but you have got this my friend! I believe in you, keep going and remember to be easy and graceful with yourself, it’s okay to go at whatever pace of growth feels right for you 😊
Take care of yourself top priority, but can't wait to see what you do when you get back to putting out videoes. Love your content and look forward to having a healthy you doing what you do.
Thank you Jug!!
obviously i'm a few months behind on watching videos but thanks to surgery leave i'm hoping to catch up. first of all, big hugs to you. you are braver than you give yourself credit for. i sincerely hope you are doing well and you have received some relief since this video posted. keep looking up and smiling because you're absolutely right, you are blessed.
Well I took me about 2 hours but I watched it all. I don't whether you'll see this but I feel I must say...
Firstly, this is so powerful and brave for you to do this and I'm not just saying that. Truly, for one to have genuine issues based on intense demanding situations to openly speak about that and other sensitive topics to upload it to the internet... that's huge!
I'm proud you and so should you be.
This felt very authentic and you spoke better than you seem to think you did.
At the risk of being perceived as some backwards ego "woe is me" type, "you name it I got it", I've experienced far more than most in my time, including many significant losses and from a very young age (I'm only 28 now). I won't detail an objectively tragic life story here due to time and sanity of all, but I can definitely relate on several levels.
The heart rate issue alone is rather similar. I'd noticed some abnormality for years and did nothing about it until 3 Jan last year I appeared to have a heart attack, since then I've monitored it and see lying down resting rates as low as 42 with highs of 179+, not pleasant at all.
Nov 2019 I had a back/shoulder injury at work that has changed my life since resulting in me being unable to work.
For some time I was known to be the most positive person my peers knew, I'm aware that I've noticeably regressed to a prior self, often just trying to "push through" silent and alone.
Having complex life long mental health, physical and financial issues is quite the debilitating weight.
The main components of mental health are; control and independence, participation and inclusion, and emotional resilience. If one falters so can the others, easier than some may realise.
Despite bearing my own burdens I always try my best to use it to help others in any way I can. I see that here. You have my utmost respect for using your platform to share this message and some of your story. You didn't need to make this video but I'm glad that you did, for you and anyone else that it could benefit.
Thank you.
I don't mean this in a weird way, but I have wondered about you, I notice things. I feel I should apologise for not saying something but I'm glad you feel there's progress.
Personally I think you're criminally underrated, I hope to see that progress as it should also.
Whatever the content may be, whenever you're ready and able, we'll be here, always.
Love & Light to all
This one got me tearing up a bit! I greatly appreciate you taking your time to comment and to comment such sweet and supportive things! I’m so glad the video came out authentic because it truly was. I felt a chit chat style video where I just sit and talk (although rather rambly at times lol) was the best way to just express exactly how I feel without it feeling robotic and scripted! This is my life and I’m just glad I can share it so that others don’t feel so alone!! I wish you well with all you health and mental health progress! It’s a journey not a sprint, and those hard days will come but so will the good if we all just keep hanging on ☺️
@@NashCrafter Hopefully not sad tears, I tried it keep as light as I could.
I don't comment anywhere often, but when I feel it warrants it I have a tendency to speak honestly at length.
As I alluded to previously, having experience and the resulting perceptiveness, I noticed long before this video. Had I not, this would still be impactful to someone with even an iota of empathy should they genuinely take the time.
I sense this was a combination of you feeling the need to justify a hiatus (you don't btw) and to share an important message with hope it may be beneficial for another to hear a potentially relatable account, with encouragement that troubling circumstances can improve.
Let me reassure you, you are seen, you are heard and as well as resonating with the entirety, I really felt that last 5 minutes.
This was the right thing, a big step and much needed for you and a viewer in these times.
I've considered doing the same for quite a while, but I don't have the best means to do so, just a phone with a cracked lens and a laptop that barely runs. Perhaps one day.
We're all people, we all have problems. We're all the same and we're all different. One can have an understanding without being able to fully understand. Any overlap introduces familiarity, then support is more likely to be successful. No matter the input nor outlet, something helps and as hard as it may seem to some, legitimately open conversation and unconditional love is the best way forward as far as I can tell.
It all begins with an initial engagement. You've now done that and beyond (technically internationally, I'm in England) by interacting in the comments. Doing well and doing good.
Thank YOU for being open, for responding even though you didn't have to and your kind words and well wishes are greatly appreciated. Finally a thank you to your Dad for standing by and helping you through, I don't know a name to address him properly so this will have to do.
Papa Nash, granted you did what you should do but nonetheless it was done with love and for love and deserve all the praise also, you sir are a saint.
Indeed, I'm told my Mum used to say "Rome wasn't built in a day". In peace or pieces we do what we can to keep the movement moving.
Love & Light to you and yours
You the best. I’m proud of you.
Thank you Charlie, always!!
Well done for putting this video out, its always hard to talk about the difficulties you have been going through, it is very important to talk about these things to help others going through the same things, to show them there are ways to get through it. I hope you get through all your issues / illnesses, I have suffered from Depression for many years and have other health issues so i know where you are coming from, take care of yourself
I believe talking about these harder things is the best way to bring people together! I am sorry to hear of your struggles but please remember that you go this and you have made it this far already!
@@NashCrafter thank you I have a lot of support from my family and friends which is so important
As some one who deals with severe depression, anxiety, paranoia, and ADHD, I am glad you are doing better. I am also happy your coming back to RUclips your voice is very calming. Every one is is their own stained glass portrait and when your light shines through, they are all beautiful!!
Thank you, I am so sorry you deal with similar issues! I hope you find light as much as possible throughout your life journey!
Frist, I am glad you're okay. I know we are all just random strangers on this internet but I really do I appreciate all of this. I'm a 47 year old man who has ADHD/Anxiety/Depression/CPTSD (this one is probably the cause of the rest). After being disposed of by someone I thought loved me I had a total mental breakdown about 4 months ago and I am still struggling, still picking up the pieces, still trying to make my life better. Therapy has definitely helped. I hate knowing that others feel the same way as I do but I also take comfort in knowing I'm not alone.
Also, I have been having random odd heart rate issues and keep getting told that I'm fine or it's "just" anxiety. I am going to talk to my dr about this.
Oh yes doctors are quick to blame heart rate issues on anxiety! I got really lucky that my doctors listened to my concerns and realized that my heart rate was going really high for no reason. The more you can find out the more it will hopefully ease your mind! I am glad to hear you are in therapy and it is helping! You are doing an awesome job, and please keep your chin up! You really are not alone
We all love you and want to support you. I am glad you are doing your best to take care of yourself. We’re all here for you whenever you may need. :) life is tough. I’ve been struggling off and on myself recently, so I want to assure you you’re not alone in all of this. We love you. Whatever you need. You have a wonderful community here for you.
Thank you!! Seriously this is so kind! I can’t express enough how awesome if feels to have my message come across the way I hoped and hopefully it does help anyone struggling! Life is tough like you said but we got this, all of us!
@@NashCrafter I mean every word of it. There’s a lot of good and hope out there, you just gotta know what you’re looking for. I’m thankful that I’ve found it, and all I want to do is share it with anyone and everyone I can. :)
From someone who has had POTS for a very long time, I wanted you to know that too much sitting is no good for POTS. I am on Ibavradine now and fludrocortisone and they have worked better than beta blockers. However, mine is caused by EDS. There's quite a few types of pots. But more common in young women. It is scary when you dont understand it but I hope you get on a good regime that works for you.
I hope you get back on your feet. I missed you. I can't wait to see more from you. I wish you all the best in the challenges you are facing much love to you 💗. Thank you for sharing your story with us we are family and we will always be here for you if you need anything 💕.
We definitely are a family here! thank you so much for being here, supporting me and watching this! 💗
This pandemic has given me a whole second layer of PTSD as well as long Covid. I have severe anxiety attacks if I even attempt to go into somewhere along with the long Covid issues like memory & vertigo & such. Sounds like you have long Covid - so many have long Covid & don’t even realize it. Have missed your content. 🖖
Good to hear from you. I did miss you! That heartrate business sounds pretty scary. Hope you feel up to making videos again, since that makes you happy. Look after yourself!
Thank you, I definitely will!! So so glad to hear from you I appreciate it so much!
You're welcome... I did get to the end; It wasn't difficult. You are good at speaking to the camera or to YT; You're natural. And it is an interesting video, I think. TBH I often think pretty people (like yourself ) must have a much easier life. But I've learned that ANYone can have issues and being slim and attractive doesn't always help you deal with them. I'm glad to hear that you are getting help and dealing with your ailments AND that you are going to continue making YT videos. Thank you.
Oh yes! anything can happen sadly and no one can really escape these unfortunate things. I think that is why it is so important that we talk about it! but thank you for watching all the way through!!
I am gald your ok
Thank you!
Hey Nash! I don't even know if you will remember me, but we both played on The Flying Sheep SMP in 2016. Oddly enough I was just trying to run a server for a different game and it randomly generated an admin password which began with "nash". You immediately came to my mind and I decided to look up your channel to see how you were doing and that's how I found this video. I watched it in its entirety and just wanted to say that I'm super proud of you for having the courage to talk about everything you've been going through and doing what you can to encourage others who may be struggling in their own lives. It's so wonderful to hear you've had a great support system in your Dad to help you get through this. Keep pushing forward and I look forward to seeing Minecraft videos from you!
Of course I remember you!!! I often go back to the fly sheep server in my head and remember that’s where it all started for me here on RUclips! Thank you so much for dropping by my friend! I miss the old days on that server 🤗 I hope you are doing really well!! Great to hear from you
@@NashCrafter I'm the same way. It was a lot of fun even though it was short lived. I still keep in touch with Mike (MiniTezza) from time to time, but I don't think any of the others are still playing Minecraft. Glad to see you are still active and that your channel is doing well! :)
Appreciate the video, but ya gotta make sure you take care of yourself. It’s not often addressed and often people just let it lurk until it gets to be too much. I’ve got a bag of mental health stuff but the overarching story is similar. Just sharing so you and anyone else knows that you aren’t alone in this, even if it can feel like you are.
Ohh yea, I definitely let it lurk for years and years and once I got into therapy that’s when I really started to understand it better and I’ve learn a lot of coping skills to help me through the tougher times! Thank you for watching and supporting! I really hope anything you’re going through gets better, but rest and take care of yourself when needed. stay strong my friend!
You're handling it like a champ Nash.
For the 2 downvoters - WTF? I hope your lives get better.
Thank you! I’d like to think they down voted because they dislike that I’m going through these things but it’s the internet lol so probably not.
I miss you nash
Take as much time as you need and it was not painful at all
It is really nice to see someone dat accept it and not reject it and good to see you are willing to talk about it is really inspirational for me and others
As some one that suffers a lot do to similar situations as yours it's really comforting so thank you # depression # anxiety # atychiphobia fear of failure # adhd
im glad your feeling better..i cant wait to see you back in minecraft!.. i would love to build with you!!
Possible one day that can happen! Thank you for the sweet comments!
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Hey Nash, glad you're feeling better. Mental health is definitely something that most people don't put too much attention on. Thank you for sharing. Please don't feel too pressured in getting any videos done. We're here.
How did you get rid of panic and anxiety?
Immersion therapy and meds
Therapy is a normal check-up for everyone…. IMO!
We as a society need to find a way to take the stigma out of therapy. Mental health IS physical health. There should not be a difference!
I agree! I’m a huge advocate for therapy and sharing how much I have learned because it truly has helped me so so much!!