@@emmafayett3986 they should cause I'm author and I'm writing a book called Middle School,you can find on Wattpad.com under the name Emilyanderson19, and the character's name is Derek Samuels, he suffers from Anorexia and he's in recovery now, he plays a big part in the book due to him having Anorexia and anger problems due to his mother and father not being there for him when he was a baby, now he's been in recovery for a good four months now and he couldn't be happier. www.wattpad.com/story/147122617-middle-school-book-1 (the link to the book)
@@jupitersworld1674 yeah,which i understand, cause i don't see a lot of movies of guys having Anorexia and Bulimia, which i think they should, as an author myself, I write about guys having Anorexia and Bulimia, right now I'm writing a book about a 13 year old boy having Anorexia, he's now in recovery
Same, i feel disgusting when i have to eat around my parents especially at dinner. It’s easier to convince my mum i don’t want anything but my dad is a little bit harder and he’ll make me eat something.
For me its not easy but i eat more,cuz sometimes i would starve myself for 2 weeks at a time,and now i eat most days of the week but not everyday✌🏻💕im working on recovering
I just wish people could understand, having an eating disorder is really hard to deal with. It would be lovely to just starve, be skinny, feel beautiful. If only people could understand my thoughts and why I have them. It would make me feel so much less alone
You know couple days ago i stared wanting to purge again. It like ,,Mia" got inside of me so quietly i didnt even noticed. But, i will fight! Because i was in this body long before her and she does NOT CONTROL ME. Thank you for another beautiful work and i love that you use a lot of bulimia scenes, it makes me relate so much to this! The video is done great!
Casey-Jade Mac Master I’m sorry 😞 that must be really difficult for someone in your life to be saying exactly what your ED says. You deserve nourishment no matter your weight.
for everyone with an eating disorder: check in with your body before each meal or whenever you can. take a deep breathe and try to get in touch with your stomach. most likely it’s numb. but if you’re in touch with your body you can’t starve yourself or overeat or do anything that is unhealthy because it will tell you. this is what saved me.
It started with me telling myself that I wouldn’t eat for a day and I’d go back to normal, then it felt good. So I did it again. It became a pattern. I felt sick and I wanted to pass out at any given chance. I was happy though, not with myself but I was happy with my family. Hell I had the picture perfect life. But I just, I just needed a distraction from the pain. I started eating again but still I feel disgusted with myself. It feels good to eat though. I don’t know honestly, I got better now so I’m happy but sometimes the thought just stays in the back of my head
Lovely Creature same, but i’m still going through it. i like the pain tho, it makes me feel like i want to die but also makes me feel something. and i’m numb. so i like the pain sometimes.
Its intoxicating how the next day u stand on the scale and u see numbers going down. And the excitement is the same everytime and i want them to go down more and more and more bc it makes me happy.
rae if she only wants you now, I promise she’s not worth it. You deserve better than that and you definitely deserve to be happy with yourself and not try to please someone else. I’m here if you want to talk❤️
I've had an eating disorder for 5 years now. I hadn't told anyone until recently and I didn't even know my eating schedule was off until food was all I was thinking about and when I should eat. It was painful. It felt like every bite I took, I was being judged and thinking people were talking behind my back. I can't eat around my friends. I eat walking around or by the toilet. It sounds gross but this is my life and I cant help it.. I know I'm not fat, but you don't understand it's not about taking charge I just feel like compared to other people I'm disgusting. It feels so good to anonymously rant about how bad this makes me feel. I'm gradually getting over this and I will get out of this cycle. If you read this, thank you. I am getting help and I'm here for you too.
Idk what happened two weeks ago I started cutting myself I did it four times in two days I knew something was off with me so I called my older brother to come and calm me *he lives in another city* when my mom knew she started crying and yelling and my sister started calling me names like I'm a physco maniac and I just want attention my brother came and told me to not be selfish and there's people who actually love me so I stopped but for the past two weeks I haven't eat my parents noticed because I used to loooove food and my mom would start to cry and stop eating if I didn't join them at lunch I only ate one meal and gum for the past two weeks and yesterday I started my period so I craved some food and especially CHOCLATE but I didn't eat it so I ate my regular meal and literally 5 bites of the cheesecake my sister made I was feeling like a loser like why did I do that so for the second time I was going to purg and I don't stick my fingers down my throat cuz I'm fuckin pussy so I found this method I used it before an it worked its mustard and water it's disgusting but it didn't work so I cut myself I don't know anybody that I can talk to about this And I really hope you're getting better🤗🤗
@@molka8871 Your parents seem to care a lot for you and I suggest talking to them when you're ready. They don't want you hurting and neither do I. I used to cut as well and I am currently trying to get sober so I kinda know what it's like to not know whether I should tell someone or not. But please talk to someone and eat something even if it's just a little. People love you and care for you and it will get better. I hope you feel better. Good luck❤
@@devino6104 thank you for reading and caring this made my day tbh I'm gonna try to take by your advice Ps:my parents are Arabs so talking to them is not going to work believe me I tried so many times
I don't know if I have an eating disorder... I don't wanna eat, I hate myself everytime I eat something... And when I don't eat for a day there is this one thing I would die for to eat... I can't get it out of my head... And when I finally ate it... I'm crying and try to spit it out again... Sorry for my bad English
Alex Evans i’m in the same boat, please keep your head up. there is no life in this sickness. there is no hope, no future. please try, for the small things in life. i’m so sorry you’re dealing with this, you don’t deserve it
“Nothing bad is going to happen” How many people do you think are down there? Like a million? I bet a bunch of them that are about to die just said the same exact thing.”
I only eat two times a day at times it's hard for me to eat. I trying to keep this under control. im six foot tall and i way 148 pounds and there was a time i was at 124 pounds. I don't get hungry even after i had gained some weight back. Each day is a test for me to eat and stay healthy i don't want to go back to the hospital's. this disease is so easy to hide from everyone. :-( my goal for myself is to get up to 150. right know my doctor said that i'm at a good weight right now. i hope that telling someone about this will give them the strength. there is a way but it's not easy at all.
When I was being enrolled for school my mom skipped "eating disorder" and I had to start hiding it better but I ended up trying to recover and here I am
I see all of the warnings and I still dont care I want to be thin i lost my period I dont care anymore I gained weight cause of the binges and I hate myself
Strawberry Pie reach out to someone for help before it’s too late Ed are not something to want to get involved with there more emotional then anything!
Yeah i get it. Gainig weight is probably the worst part after eating cause i was gonna punish myself anyways but now im thinking of starving for 3 days. Its no bog deal right? And i already got used to the headaches so whats stopping me?
Yuri AyAto pls don’t, I feel into a Ed and let me tell you it’s the worse thing that can happen, more pain then when I was depressed. I had to go to hospitals all the time. Almost died and u will loose everything with everyone. Pls if u need anyone to talk to I’m here ❤️
I was always hungry as a toddler, always eating. I grew up (now 12) and I grab food from downstairs, throw it in my upstairs bin to pretend that I ate it then I stay in my room all day, doing sit ups press ups and a lot for max 4 hours. At school, I don’t eat. I eat around my family but I hate it. I don’t binge because I HATE throwing up. I’d love to be skinny and beautiful
You are beautiful and worth so much. But please talk to someone you trust. I know it may be hard or you may not feel ready but it will help you feel comfortable with yourself. Stay strong❤
I can see many people with eating disorders in the comments so I just want to tell you not to give up, it can get better. I suffered from an eating disorder from the age of 12, I was an inpatient twice and came close to death. I am now a mum and doing better than ever. It wasn’t easy and there were times where I was convinced I’d never get better but here I am today.
The thing for me is that I will go eating for a longer period of time and not feel guilty about it, but there comes a time (like one week orso) when I will fast so hard and exercise so much it makes me wanna scream and I srls don't know whats going on anymore
This hit me hard. But I have been eating healthy and exercising for over a month. I feel good. I have urges where I want to binge and purge but I know I can’t. My body has had enough. I need to continue taking care of myself or I’m going to die. Be strong everyone. Brighter days are coming. ❤️
I feel like every girl feels like this sometime in their life. We look ourselves in the mirror and we don’t see what we like. We have all thought of or tried to starve our selves or made yourself throw up. We think that it will make ourself skinny, and it will but in the wrong way. We know it’s not good for you but we do it anyway. Just saying, if do starve yourself it will mess up your whole body. You will never be the same. I went through it last year. I starved myself everyday at school because it was easy at school. For the girls out there, you are beautiful and perfect. You don’t need to change for anyone. If you want to loose some weight, do it the right way
I don’t like eating, but there is always someone watching me, I like the feeling of being hungry, is that bad? I’ve been like this for as long as I can remember, even when I was super you like 6 I would compare myself to my friends, I just recently stopped getting “help” (it didn’t do anything) I just missed 7 whole months of not being able to cut food out, so guess what girlies, I’m back to square one
I'm here for you! Please don't feel this way. I know I'm just some random person but that should make it easier to talk to me. I care about everyone with an eating disorder, you will make it out of the other side love x
When you eat and then feel absolutley disgusting. Then people you thought cared about you say your being dramatic. No.. i was literally told by my doctor that it is bulimia. Only self control i have any more. This was a year ago. Then i felt so good about my self for like a year. But you feel like thou used to again. And you might be sad but you know that feeling. It's back. Can't tell anyone though or they will put you in counseling and hospitals. Jus sux.
I‘m in a clinic and next week is my last week. I gained 10kg and I kinda hate my body, like I’m okay with it but I hate my stomach so much. I‘m scared to leave the clinic but at the same time I’m happy. I just ate cookies and smarties and I feel guilty now.. I feel healthy but unhealthy at the same time and I really don’t know what to do anymore
Please don’t do that. Please. My friend with bulimia/Anorexia did that and almost died. She was rushed to the hospital and had completely swallowed the toothbrush.
I’m a 12 year old girl, and I don’t have an eating disorder but I count calories excessively and am obsessive with what I eat. My mom points out to me every day how I will lose all of my great, kind, healthy friends since nobody likes a ‘food freak’. Nothing feels enjoyable anymore. It’s become habit that whenever I sit still I rethink through my calorie intake of that day, making sure I’ve got the right amount and that it’s not over my limit for the certain sections of the day. It used to be 1000 calories a day, but after I got so overwhelmed and had a mental breakdown with my mom and told her about my obsession, she managed to get me to agree to raise my intake by 200 calories so it’s 1200, and maybe once I’m used to that we can raise it a bit more, but I don’t want it to get any higher because what happens if I gain weight again? All my work will be for nothing! And I want to be under the recommended amount. It feels good having less than I’m supposed to, even though it’s bad for me and is making me feel tired and moody. I’ve started getting slightly out of breath just by going up a flight of stairs, making me confused as to whether it’s a side effect of the food intake or I’m suddenly getting hecticly unfit. My mom arranged meetings for me with the school counselor and I’ve been to one session, and it’s kind of nice to spill all of my problems to someone. I also told her about how I at first didn’t want to see her in case she made me eat more, just so that she’s aware I’m unwilling to be asked to have more than I’m already having. I’m scared because it’s my birthday soon. I’be decided on a Greek theme for my party since it matches the movie we’ll be watching during the party, so most of the snacks we’ve got planned are healthy dips and vegetable sticks and things, but it’s just the cake that I’m worried about. I’ve looked up countless recipes that are low enough in calories to meet my standards but all the ones that are actually low use things like almond flour which we don’t have and is too expensive for us to use our money on. The only decent one I could find was Angel Food cake, but annoyingly my mom didn’t approve since it uses only egg whites and all the eggs are expensive, and we’d have nothing to do with the yolks. I’m stressing... what happens if my mom makes me eat a giant slice of really unhealthy cake?! I know it’s only one day and whatever, but I just can’t go over my limit! It’ll leave me feeling miserable and no joy at all, and I’ll never feel able to be happy on my birthday! And that’s only the party which is two days before my actual birthday, and my mom has planned a big breakfast for the day after the party since the people I’ve invited are sleeping over and we wanted to go to a restaurant for breakfast for all of us. That’ll make my calories flipping rocket up! And then the day after THAT there’ll probably be a whole OTHER celebration with my whole family and things! I’ll definitely gain weight after this, ughhhhhh! I WANT TO CRY JUST THINKING ABOUT IT! I’m going to definitely tell the counselor about this in the next meeting, I really need to let it out...
Get help please your life is worth it I totally understand the all for nothing thing but you are too young to be having such a hard time I don't know you but I care about you please get help these are the first steps in anorexia
The sad reality is that eating disorders never really go away. I’ve had one since I was 12. I snapped out of it when I was 19 and I’m now 21. Though I’ve remained the same weight I’ve been since high school, I’m finding myself starting to fall back into old habits of starving again. It’s a never ending cycle that nobody really understands. Food and the number on the scale absolutely controls my life..and I don’t know how I’ll ever rid myself of it.
I recovered, but sometimes I think how it will be if I stop eating again. I remembered in two weeks I lost a lot of weight and I felt acceptable, I want to feel that again because I gained a lot of weight and my body looks horrible. I don't want to do it again because I've been in a better place mentally, but I can't see myself like this anymore. When people say you can defeat anorexia, I think it's just a lie
its an addiction, and once you start its hard to stop. mine isn't at a bad point right now, but i really wish i hadn't started counting calories, maybe i wouldn't care so much
The road within is my favorite movie honestly. I have tics and I was bulimic it's very relatable for me. I was 87bpounds now I'm 120 go through struggles but I'm getting better. Everyone out there battling something it will get better
i cant do this. i cant do it anymore, all i want is to be skinny as some people i see on instagram. i feel so much better when i starve myself. i tell everyone okay but i really just want to be like the others. i know im skinny, but im not skinny enough. i dont want to do this anymore, i cant do it.
My dad made me watch too the bone, because he thought it would make me want to gain weight,I do wanna gain weight.but I can't I physically can't.he use to complain about my weight all the time,until I told my mom who went off on him,now I go to my dad's scared that he'll insult me all the time im there.A word of advice for parents don't insult your kids about how they are ,try to help them in a healthy way ,things would be a lot different now if my dad did
look this is to all the young girls out there, you are so much worth starving your self. you dont deserve to do that to your self just because someone called you ugly or fat or even if you think you are that doesnt matter because your are gorgeous and nothing about you needs to change. dont listen to the people that doubt you get people in your life that cares about you and wants you to good in life and actually succeed. it took me awhile to realize this it is a battle. you are going toget through it. im here if you need to talk about anything. you are amazing and worth living and eating. so do me a favor and please go eat something i know its hard but at least try. have an amazing day or night or afternoon! ❤
to everyone watching this edit: You are Not alone. You are strong and you can become better. I promise you. You can eat. You don’t have to starve. Because you Are Beautiful💗
The moment when seeing food makes you nauseous and the stomach pains and burns are the only thing that u love and with each digit down the scale, you feel sicker and scared but it gives u a much more happiness, and the foods that you used to love are the things that make you feel sick and you stand in front of the mirror and see yourself in disgust and measure what parts you wanna change and then you tie clothes around your stomach cause it hurts but you know you are yet loving the pain. You see food that used to bring water to your mouth before and you just feel nothing. And purging becomes your best friend and you watch videos on yt about anorexia cause you know you will get triggered and that's what you love. And one day you start feeling dizziness and you collapse waking up in a white room . My anorexia my love
Hey uh, you arent alone but please take care of yourself. Dont ever let Ana or Mia win, youre an amazing person and i know its hard but, try to realise a limit
@@lilybelle7344 thank you emmi. Life has been tough these days and getting love from even strangers when no one in real life cares means a lot to me. Thank you♥️♥️
Irina Sabiha ❤️❤️, it’s sad that the whole “stranger danger” thing and the, don’t talk to online people has become such a positive thing, it’s good that it’s around but the fact that no one cares enough irl is the sad part, sorry I went off topic, feel free to ever respond to this comment if you ever need someone to rant or talk to! I know I’m a stranger but, it might help ❤️
@@lilybelle7344 thank you ☺️. I would for sure and also if you ever need someone to rant or talk to, just knock me up. I will be here as well. Afterall we girls need to take care of each other when the world won't
Dude you thrive watching this shit when your in the thick of it. Then once you get through it seeing this stuff pop up on your feed is a little triggering. Like RUclips really doesn't care about how long it took my brain to try and reset its thinking.
You are torturing yourself, I've been there and it's hella hard to get out of that darkness, please don't put yourself through this. I thought I didn't have a problem either, that I had it 'under control' but control is an illusion, just as 'not being in control' is. I spent all my high school years thinking that if I got to my goal weight people would love me. When in reality I've see how people love you by the way you are, your appearance is just a tiny little part of why people love you, don't fall in the trap. Know where your'e worth stands, love yourself.
He hurt me, I hurt myself, and by intentionally hurting myself I’m unintentionally hurting my family. But once im skinny everyone can stop hurting...Right?
I used to only eat one meal a day at most and my mum showed a picture of me then to family, they didn’t believe it was me and my mum said that I could be that thin again instead of what I look like now. I don’t think she knew that I didn’t eat and felt sick when I did.
I sometimes throw up my food. I could never stop eating I love it but that doesn’t mean I don’t feel guilty after. I don’t want to be supper skinny. I just want to be normal. And if throwing up will help me do that then I’m all for it
I remember when my parents talk about trips and old days and good food they ate in different countries.. I don’t remember that? Cuz i was restricting, i thought being on a trip is a chance for me to restrict harder and lose weight faster
I was on the road to anorexia, and super depressed. Now I don't care anymore.. I eat almost all the time.. Now I'm suicidal.. I don't see the point in living anymore.. This isn't me seeking for attention, this is a cry for help.. Edit: Also nobody knows and I don't want them to know.. there's one person that I know who wouldn't stop hanging out with me and judging me.. not even my family would be like that.. I don't have very understanding people in my life. If they paid closer attention to me I'm sure they could figure it out, but I'm just another problem in their lives who just gets pushed to the side.. Edit (again): I know it's not that much but 3 days can make all the difference in the world. I attempted suicide and someone that I had met online helped me through it. I don't wanna speak too soon, because last time that happened, I became how I was before now, but I don't think I even have depression anymore. Miracles can happen to anyone❤❤ Don't give up, just keep fighting, it's totally worth it💓💓
Hi, i wanna share my experience right now I have been eating a lot, and i gained tons of weight Everyone started noticing, i felt so..sad..i wanted to stop eating.. I did..i havent ate in 2 weeks, almost 3, my stomach hurts so bad I dont want to go to the doctors, no, i dont want to because theyll just force me to eat, i literally lost a lot of pounds.. ive been throwing up 2 times a day.. Help please i dont know what to do, i want to eat but i need to be thin for people to like me. Im just 12..
I had, well, i actually have bulimia, and i know you migjt have this thoughts way long, but i will tell you my experience, since you just started to have this desease. You are sad, or down, so you through up, and then you start tp havd this patern, this rutine. At first, you feel fine, you feel you are skinier than before. Bur then, is like an adiccion, you can stop, but it os really hard. And then, you go back when you were sad, but now instead you are depress, and unhealthy, and all you wanna do is to be more and nore and more thin. Im just 14, started at 13.
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“Your body’s going to give out”
*Thats the point*
Maddie Myers right..
exactly...
Yasss
I’m bulimic I can feel the cardiac arrest coming
Thank god
Noeli Rose NO 🥺
I like how you added a scene with a guy, Not only girls go through eating disorders guys go through them too
The media doesn't portray male eating disorders that often :/
Yep
Yes I get that and support it but more common girls go through eating disorders
@@emmafayett3986 they should cause I'm author and I'm writing a book called Middle School,you can find on Wattpad.com under the name Emilyanderson19, and the character's name is Derek Samuels, he suffers from Anorexia and he's in recovery now, he plays a big part in the book due to him having Anorexia and anger problems due to his mother and father not being there for him when he was a baby, now he's been in recovery for a good four months now and he couldn't be happier. www.wattpad.com/story/147122617-middle-school-book-1 (the link to the book)
@@jupitersworld1674 yeah,which i understand, cause i don't see a lot of movies of guys having Anorexia and Bulimia, which i think they should, as an author myself, I write about guys having Anorexia and Bulimia, right now I'm writing a book about a 13 year old boy having Anorexia, he's now in recovery
this literally triggered me and made me scared of starving at the same time...
same
feel you
Anika same omg
@@prettymillijess7227 hey ur cute
same but i like food a bit too much
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The only reason I still eat is so I don’t pass out or if my parents are there
Same
Same, i feel disgusting when i have to eat around my parents especially at dinner. It’s easier to convince my mum i don’t want anything but my dad is a little bit harder and he’ll make me eat something.
Same
Same
same, even tho I feel physically sick after I eat
“your body’s gonna give out”
yes sis we been knew
so much respect for lily collins for losing so much weight for this role
maxime leroy Especially when she felt with an eating disorder herself before, she so strong
she suffered with eating disorders. anorexia and bulimia previously anyway
Hell Killme she did have to lose a lot of weight though
She shouldn't have had to. Not everyone with an eating disorder is stick thin. Most are average or overweight
@Hell Killme it's not realistic because most people with eds aren't skinny
I feel like my entire life is being suffocated by anorexia and I can’t even live life anymore.
That's exactly how I feel as well
you’re gonna be okay
@@emma0766 hey are u okay
Don’t give up, there’s always a chance to make it better if you really want it.☺️
I feel like this too. It literally makes your life smaller and smaller in every way.
*everybody that loves me leaves*
My mind;
*Starve yourself so you literally become nothing like everyone makes you feel*
SadlittleStoner wow literally how I feel..
People that I loved left me and made me feel like fat trash
GOD loves you and wont stop loving you
When she didn't know why she couldnt stop, I felt this..
I don't know why I purposely trigger myself... I seem to be stuck in a dark place, all the time.
Rh!anna Alpaca I keep watching this whenever I’m hungry so I don’t eat so I trigger myselv
The girls who kept saying how much they hurt other people...its so true. Everyone gets sick in that situation. Not just the one on the scale
Yes this is the thing I hate the most
Recovery is possible, I did it.
After 3 years, my period is back, my hair isn't falling out anymore etc.
And food is fun again.
@@isobelcooper6414 thank you!❤️
Omg I'm so proud of u🥺🥺💗
@@Lniy. thank you! 💖
For me its not easy but i eat more,cuz sometimes i would starve myself for 2 weeks at a time,and now i eat most days of the week but not everyday✌🏻💕im working on recovering
I just wish people could understand, having an eating disorder is really hard to deal with. It would be lovely to just starve, be skinny, feel beautiful. If only people could understand my thoughts and why I have them. It would make me feel so much less alone
I dont eat bc it taste good, I eat just bc it takes my pain away for a little while until I end up crying while eating
saralol same
I hope you've started to talk to someone and are doing better. If not, I relate. I hope you're okay
Hannah banana yeah I'm fine
You know couple days ago i stared wanting to purge again. It like ,,Mia" got inside of me so quietly i didnt even noticed.
But, i will fight! Because i was in this body long before her and she does NOT CONTROL ME.
Thank you for another beautiful work and i love that you use a lot of bulimia scenes, it makes me relate so much to this! The video is done great!
stay strong! life is so much better without an eating disorder
Stay strong! I’m so proud of you for fighting back:)
If you ever need someone to talk to I’m always available ❤️
@@gabrichardson9729 i like you
I hope you're doing better!
This is so beautiful ♥️
Unfortunately I am one of the many people who can relate to this and you captured the pain so beautifully ♥️
Montgomery Grey Multi ♥️
@@hannahlovatox this video makes me happy
i feel like my whole life is about being sad all the time and i can't live my life anymore
People in the comments suffering from ED’s, it gets better ♥️ (sincerely, a recovered, happy person)
❤️❤️❤️
So glad you’re recovered!! I’m working on it too! Been free of binging, purging and starving for over a month!
thank you. recently had a relapse after 4 years of recovery and I am really starting to lose hope in life. i’ll try to get back on track ❤️
you’re both so incredibly strong. it’s difficult, but worth it, keep going, I promise it gets better 💘
fabienne I relapsed too😭 but I’m trying to get back on track. 🙌🏼❤️
Alex thank you! ❤️❤️❤️
some of these clips are from a film called to the bone it’s such a good film x
Me:(about to make me lunch since I skipped breakfast)
Grandmother:you need to lose weight.
Now im here
Casey-Jade Mac Master I’m sorry 😞 that must be really difficult for someone in your life to be saying exactly what your ED says. You deserve nourishment no matter your weight.
for everyone with an eating disorder: check in with your body before each meal or whenever you can. take a deep breathe and try to get in touch with your stomach. most likely it’s numb. but if you’re in touch with your body you can’t starve yourself or overeat or do anything that is unhealthy because it will tell you. this is what saved me.
It started with me telling myself that I wouldn’t eat for a day and I’d go back to normal, then it felt good. So I did it again. It became a pattern. I felt sick and I wanted to pass out at any given chance. I was happy though, not with myself but I was happy with my family. Hell I had the picture perfect life. But I just, I just needed a distraction from the pain. I started eating again but still I feel disgusted with myself. It feels good to eat though. I don’t know honestly, I got better now so I’m happy but sometimes the thought just stays in the back of my head
Lovely Creature same, but i’m still going through it. i like the pain tho, it makes me feel like i want to die but also makes me feel something. and i’m numb. so i like the pain sometimes.
Strawberry Pie I know what you’re feeling I’m sadly going through it again, I know it’s wrong but I can’t stop
Its intoxicating how the next day u stand on the scale and u see numbers going down. And the excitement is the same everytime and i want them to go down more and more and more bc it makes me happy.
This is absolutely incredible Hannah! You’re so talented. I love this so so much!
AnaGarrett thank you so much x
I'm after overeating today and I'm freakin out
xoxo xoxo Same... I just can’t stop and I don’t know what to do. I hate myself.
@@liara_luthi7587 i know its honestly so hard but we can get through this love i love you x
xoxo xoxo Love you too thank you so much😭❤️
@@liara_luthi7587 no problem hon lets keep each other updated
xoxo xoxo yes!! We‘ll make it
i don’t want to get better anymore. i’m finally everything she’s ever wanted.
rae hi, im a bit late but please please get help or if you’ve already gotten help, i promise you life is worth living
rae if she only wants you now, I promise she’s not worth it. You deserve better than that and you definitely deserve to be happy with yourself and not try to please someone else. I’m here if you want to talk❤️
I had an eating disorder and i feel like my life copletely changed and that its never going to be the same... i think about it everyday.
I've had an eating disorder for 5 years now. I hadn't told anyone until recently and I didn't even know my eating schedule was off until food was all I was thinking about and when I should eat. It was painful. It felt like every bite I took, I was being judged and thinking people were talking behind my back. I can't eat around my friends. I eat walking around or by the toilet. It sounds gross but this is my life and I cant help it.. I know I'm not fat, but you don't understand it's not about taking charge I just feel like compared to other people I'm disgusting. It feels so good to anonymously rant about how bad this makes me feel. I'm gradually getting over this and I will get out of this cycle. If you read this, thank you. I am getting help and I'm here for you too.
I want you to know that I hope things are better now and that I an proud of you. Stay strong❤
@@devino6104 thank you ❤
Idk what happened two weeks ago I started cutting myself I did it four times in two days I knew something was off with me so I called my older brother to come and calm me *he lives in another city* when my mom knew she started crying and yelling and my sister started calling me names like I'm a physco maniac and I just want attention my brother came and told me to not be selfish and there's people who actually love me so I stopped but for the past two weeks I haven't eat my parents noticed because I used to loooove food and my mom would start to cry and stop eating if I didn't join them at lunch I only ate one meal and gum for the past two weeks and yesterday I started my period so I craved some food and especially CHOCLATE but I didn't eat it so I ate my regular meal and literally 5 bites of the cheesecake my sister made I was feeling like a loser like why did I do that so for the second time I was going to purg and I don't stick my fingers down my throat cuz I'm fuckin pussy so I found this method I used it before an it worked its mustard and water it's disgusting but it didn't work so I cut myself
I don't know anybody that I can talk to about this
And I really hope you're getting better🤗🤗
@@molka8871 Your parents seem to care a lot for you and I suggest talking to them when you're ready. They don't want you hurting and neither do I. I used to cut as well and I am currently trying to get sober so I kinda know what it's like to not know whether I should tell someone or not. But please talk to someone and eat something even if it's just a little. People love you and care for you and it will get better. I hope you feel better. Good luck❤
@@devino6104 thank you for reading and caring this made my day tbh I'm gonna try to take by your advice
Ps:my parents are Arabs so talking to them is not going to work believe me I tried so many times
Wow this is really touching and I’m glad someone made a video to show awareness about this disease.
I don't know if I have an eating disorder... I don't wanna eat, I hate myself everytime I eat something... And when I don't eat for a day there is this one thing I would die for to eat... I can't get it out of my head... And when I finally ate it... I'm crying and try to spit it out again... Sorry for my bad English
Here I am thinking I recovered on my own 🤦♀️
Alex Evans i’m in the same boat, please keep your head up. there is no life in this sickness. there is no hope, no future. please try, for the small things in life. i’m so sorry you’re dealing with this, you don’t deserve it
Bro. To the bone was bomb af.
the question is, how do they all have poeple to talk with about it?
Rebecca S hey Are you ok?
“Nothing bad is going to happen”
How many people do you think are down there? Like a million? I bet a bunch of them that are about to die just said the same exact thing.”
Miranda Paige that’s one of the things that made my cry on the film😭
I only eat two times a day at times it's hard for me to eat. I trying to keep this under control. im six foot tall and i way 148 pounds and there was a time i was at 124 pounds. I don't get hungry even after i had gained some weight back. Each day is a test for me to eat and stay healthy i don't want to go back to the hospital's. this disease is so easy to hide from everyone. :-(
my goal for myself is to get up to 150. right know my doctor said that i'm at a good weight
right now. i hope that telling someone about this will give them the strength. there is a way but it's not easy at all.
You’re so brave stay strong ❤️ I know what it feels like
You can do this!! So proud of you
I love this video so much.. ur so talented❤️❤️
so beautiful
xunmasked thanks vin x
When I was being enrolled for school my mom skipped "eating disorder" and I had to start hiding it better but I ended up trying to recover and here I am
This is the best one I’ve seen and I’ve watched all of them on RUclips
Bridgit Hill can you tell me the names of the movies pls? I’ve seen to the bone but don’t know the rest
I see all of the warnings and I still dont care I want to be thin i lost my period I dont care anymore I gained weight cause of the binges and I hate myself
s s same, it’s been like this for months but i’m scared to admit it to my self
Strawberry Pie reach out to someone for help before it’s too late Ed are not something to want to get involved with there more emotional then anything!
Yeah i get it. Gainig weight is probably the worst part after eating cause i was gonna punish myself anyways but now im thinking of starving for 3 days. Its no bog deal right? And i already got used to the headaches so whats stopping me?
Yuri AyAto pls don’t, I feel into a Ed and let me tell you it’s the worse thing that can happen, more pain then when I was depressed. I had to go to hospitals all the time. Almost died and u will loose everything with everyone. Pls if u need anyone to talk to I’m here ❤️
Yuri AyAto do not starve for 3 days that is so dangerous! Do it in a safe way like I learned how, and u will see great results!
I was always hungry as a toddler, always eating. I grew up (now 12) and I grab food from downstairs, throw it in my upstairs bin to pretend that I ate it then I stay in my room all day, doing sit ups press ups and a lot for max 4 hours. At school, I don’t eat. I eat around my family but I hate it. I don’t binge because I HATE throwing up. I’d love to be skinny and beautiful
You are beautiful and worth so much. But please talk to someone you trust. I know it may be hard or you may not feel ready but it will help you feel comfortable with yourself. Stay strong❤
I can see many people with eating disorders in the comments so I just want to tell you not to give up, it can get better. I suffered from an eating disorder from the age of 12, I was an inpatient twice and came close to death. I am now a mum and doing better than ever. It wasn’t easy and there were times where I was convinced I’d never get better but here I am today.
The thing for me is that I will go eating for a longer period of time and not feel guilty about it, but there comes a time (like one week orso) when I will fast so hard and exercise so much it makes me wanna scream and I srls don't know whats going on anymore
thank you so much, I’m going through this and helped me a lot
this is amazing han!
tr0ian thank youuu x
really wish that i could purge but i just can’t bring myself to do it
This hit me hard.
But I have been eating healthy and exercising for over a month. I feel good. I have urges where I want to binge and purge but I know I can’t. My body has had enough. I need to continue taking care of myself or I’m going to die.
Be strong everyone. Brighter days are coming. ❤️
I love that you added american horror story
I feel like every girl feels like this sometime in their life. We look ourselves in the mirror and we don’t see what we like. We have all thought of or tried to starve our selves or made yourself throw up. We think that it will make ourself skinny, and it will but in the wrong way. We know it’s not good for you but we do it anyway. Just saying, if do starve yourself it will mess up your whole body. You will never be the same. I went through it last year. I starved myself everyday at school because it was easy at school. For the girls out there, you are beautiful and perfect. You don’t need to change for anyone. If you want to loose some weight, do it the right way
I don’t like eating, but there is always someone watching me, I like the feeling of being hungry, is that bad? I’ve been like this for as long as I can remember, even when I was super you like 6 I would compare myself to my friends, I just recently stopped getting “help” (it didn’t do anything) I just missed 7 whole months of not being able to cut food out, so guess what girlies, I’m back to square one
These keep popping up on my recommended. The editing is so perfect and well done but these make me so sad
What a mood 💔
If I pass out then I pass out, if I drop dead then I drop dead, idc anymore.
I'm here for you! Please don't feel this way. I know I'm just some random person but that should make it easier to talk to me. I care about everyone with an eating disorder, you will make it out of the other side love x
i’m sorry is something i say even when i shouldn’t
I’m watching these videos and I feel like I’m relapsing back to when my ED when was the worst idk what to do
Beautiful
Thank you for sharing, Recovery is a journey
When you eat and then feel absolutley disgusting. Then people you thought cared about you say your being dramatic. No.. i was literally told by my doctor that it is bulimia. Only self control i have any more. This was a year ago. Then i felt so good about my self for like a year. But you feel like thou used to again. And you might be sad but you know that feeling. It's back. Can't tell anyone though or they will put you in counseling and hospitals. Jus sux.
I‘m in a clinic and next week is my last week. I gained 10kg and I kinda hate my body, like I’m okay with it but I hate my stomach so much. I‘m scared to leave the clinic but at the same time I’m happy. I just ate cookies and smarties and I feel guilty now.. I feel healthy but unhealthy at the same time and I really don’t know what to do anymore
I feel the same sticking a toothbrush down my throat in in just like dying🖤💛💔😞
Please don’t do that. Please. My friend with bulimia/Anorexia did that and almost died. She was rushed to the hospital and had completely swallowed the toothbrush.
I’m a 12 year old girl, and I don’t have an eating disorder but I count calories excessively and am obsessive with what I eat. My mom points out to me every day how I will lose all of my great, kind, healthy friends since nobody likes a ‘food freak’. Nothing feels enjoyable anymore. It’s become habit that whenever I sit still I rethink through my calorie intake of that day, making sure I’ve got the right amount and that it’s not over my limit for the certain sections of the day. It used to be 1000 calories a day, but after I got so overwhelmed and had a mental breakdown with my mom and told her about my obsession, she managed to get me to agree to raise my intake by 200 calories so it’s 1200, and maybe once I’m used to that we can raise it a bit more, but I don’t want it to get any higher because what happens if I gain weight again? All my work will be for nothing! And I want to be under the recommended amount. It feels good having less than I’m supposed to, even though it’s bad for me and is making me feel tired and moody. I’ve started getting slightly out of breath just by going up a flight of stairs, making me confused as to whether it’s a side effect of the food intake or I’m suddenly getting hecticly unfit. My mom arranged meetings for me with the school counselor and I’ve been to one session, and it’s kind of nice to spill all of my problems to someone. I also told her about how I at first didn’t want to see her in case she made me eat more, just so that she’s aware I’m unwilling to be asked to have more than I’m already having. I’m scared because it’s my birthday soon. I’be decided on a Greek theme for my party since it matches the movie we’ll be watching during the party, so most of the snacks we’ve got planned are healthy dips and vegetable sticks and things, but it’s just the cake that I’m worried about. I’ve looked up countless recipes that are low enough in calories to meet my standards but all the ones that are actually low use things like almond flour which we don’t have and is too expensive for us to use our money on. The only decent one I could find was Angel Food cake, but annoyingly my mom didn’t approve since it uses only egg whites and all the eggs are expensive, and we’d have nothing to do with the yolks. I’m stressing... what happens if my mom makes me eat a giant slice of really unhealthy cake?! I know it’s only one day and whatever, but I just can’t go over my limit! It’ll leave me feeling miserable and no joy at all, and I’ll never feel able to be happy on my birthday! And that’s only the party which is two days before my actual birthday, and my mom has planned a big breakfast for the day after the party since the people I’ve invited are sleeping over and we wanted to go to a restaurant for breakfast for all of us. That’ll make my calories flipping rocket up! And then the day after THAT there’ll probably be a whole OTHER celebration with my whole family and things! I’ll definitely gain weight after this, ughhhhhh! I WANT TO CRY JUST THINKING ABOUT IT! I’m going to definitely tell the counselor about this in the next meeting, I really need to let it out...
Get help please your life is worth it I totally understand the all for nothing thing but you are too young to be having such a hard time I don't know you but I care about you please get help these are the first steps in anorexia
Amazing x
The sad reality is that eating disorders never really go away. I’ve had one since I was 12. I snapped out of it when I was 19 and I’m now 21. Though I’ve remained the same weight I’ve been since high school, I’m finding myself starting to fall back into old habits of starving again. It’s a never ending cycle that nobody really understands. Food and the number on the scale absolutely controls my life..and I don’t know how I’ll ever rid myself of it.
I cant be fixed
VEKProduction ❤️
Kat purging bread must’ve hurt sooo bad.
I can relate to this a lot
I recovered, but sometimes I think how it will be if I stop eating again. I remembered in two weeks I lost a lot of weight and I felt acceptable, I want to feel that again because I gained a lot of weight and my body looks horrible. I don't want to do it again because I've been in a better place mentally, but I can't see myself like this anymore. When people say you can defeat anorexia, I think it's just a lie
its an addiction, and once you start its hard to stop. mine isn't at a bad point right now, but i really wish i hadn't started counting calories, maybe i wouldn't care so much
I should be crying watching this. I want to cry and let all my inner emotions out, but I’m just numb.
it literally said trigger warning and I ignored it and now I regret it why am I like this
The road within is my favorite movie honestly. I have tics and I was bulimic it's very relatable for me. I was 87bpounds now I'm 120 go through struggles but I'm getting better. Everyone out there battling something it will get better
I relate so much to the binge character....i forget her name. But im doing better. Some days are harder than others.
Hannah banana you can get through it
@@emma0766 im not so sure
You know ist is getting worse When you start watching those videos again...
Tell me about it. I would never if thought I would be watching these kind of videos again..
i cant do this. i cant do it anymore, all i want is to be skinny as some people i see on instagram. i feel so much better when i starve myself. i tell everyone okay but i really just want to be like the others. i know im skinny, but im not skinny enough. i dont want to do this anymore, i cant do it.
My dad made me watch too the bone, because he thought it would make me want to gain weight,I do wanna gain weight.but I can't I physically can't.he use to complain about my weight all the time,until I told my mom who went off on him,now I go to my dad's scared that he'll insult me all the time im there.A word of advice for parents don't insult your kids about how they are ,try to help them in a healthy way ,things would be a lot different now if my dad did
BROOOO I SAW BINGEE!!!!
Binge squad where you at we need it to be a Netflix original🤪👊
look this is to all the young girls out there, you are so much worth starving your self. you dont deserve to do that to your self just because someone called you ugly or fat or even if you think you are that doesnt matter because your are gorgeous and nothing about you needs to change. dont listen to the people that doubt you get people in your life that cares about you and wants you to good in life and actually succeed. it took me awhile to realize this it is a battle. you are going toget through it. im here if you need to talk about anything. you are amazing and worth living and eating. so do me a favor and please go eat something i know its hard but at least try. have an amazing day or night or afternoon! ❤
to everyone watching this edit:
You are Not alone. You are strong and you can become better. I promise you.
You can eat. You don’t have to starve. Because you Are Beautiful💗
wonderful
The moment when seeing food makes you nauseous and the stomach pains and burns are the only thing that u love and with each digit down the scale, you feel sicker and scared but it gives u a much more happiness, and the foods that you used to love are the things that make you feel sick and you stand in front of the mirror and see yourself in disgust and measure what parts you wanna change and then you tie clothes around your stomach cause it hurts but you know you are yet loving the pain. You see food that used to bring water to your mouth before and you just feel nothing. And purging becomes your best friend and you watch videos on yt about anorexia cause you know you will get triggered and that's what you love. And one day you start feeling dizziness and you collapse waking up in a white room . My anorexia my love
Hey uh, you arent alone but please take care of yourself. Dont ever let Ana or Mia win, youre an amazing person and i know its hard but, try to realise a limit
@@lilybelle7344 thank you emmi. Life has been tough these days and getting love from even strangers when no one in real life cares means a lot to me. Thank you♥️♥️
Irina Sabiha ❤️❤️, it’s sad that the whole “stranger danger” thing and the, don’t talk to online people has become such a positive thing, it’s good that it’s around but the fact that no one cares enough irl is the sad part, sorry I went off topic, feel free to ever respond to this comment if you ever need someone to rant or talk to!
I know I’m a stranger but, it might help ❤️
@@lilybelle7344 thank you ☺️. I would for sure and also if you ever need someone to rant or talk to, just knock me up. I will be here as well. Afterall we girls need to take care of each other when the world won't
Dude you thrive watching this shit when your in the thick of it. Then once you get through it seeing this stuff pop up on your feed is a little triggering. Like RUclips really doesn't care about how long it took my brain to try and reset its thinking.
you know its bad when you start watching these again. FUCK
You are torturing yourself, I've been there and it's hella hard to get out of that darkness, please don't put yourself through this. I thought I didn't have a problem either, that I had it 'under control' but control is an illusion, just as 'not being in control' is. I spent all my high school years thinking that if I got to my goal weight people would love me. When in reality I've see how people love you by the way you are, your appearance is just a tiny little part of why people love you, don't fall in the trap. Know where your'e worth stands, love yourself.
He hurt me, I hurt myself, and by intentionally hurting myself I’m unintentionally hurting my family. But once im skinny everyone can stop hurting...Right?
KeepingUpWithKeyana hurt will only get worse.. speaking from experience
This is SO helpful
I used to only eat one meal a day at most and my mum showed a picture of me then to family, they didn’t believe it was me and my mum said that I could be that thin again instead of what I look like now. I don’t think she knew that I didn’t eat and felt sick when I did.
She’s from the movie „to the bones“. It’s on Netflix
I sometimes throw up my food. I could never stop eating I love it but that doesn’t mean I don’t feel guilty after. I don’t want to be supper skinny. I just want to be normal. And if throwing up will help me do that then I’m all for it
I remember when my parents talk about trips and old days and good food they ate in different countries.. I don’t remember that? Cuz i was restricting, i thought being on a trip is a chance for me to restrict harder and lose weight faster
Binging mood
Don’t lie to yourself we’re all her to trigger ourselves again and it sucks
I was on the road to anorexia, and super depressed. Now I don't care anymore.. I eat almost all the time.. Now I'm suicidal.. I don't see the point in living anymore.. This isn't me seeking for attention, this is a cry for help..
Edit: Also nobody knows and I don't want them to know.. there's one person that I know who wouldn't stop hanging out with me and judging me.. not even my family would be like that.. I don't have very understanding people in my life. If they paid closer attention to me I'm sure they could figure it out, but I'm just another problem in their lives who just gets pushed to the side..
Edit (again): I know it's not that much but 3 days can make all the difference in the world. I attempted suicide and someone that I had met online helped me through it. I don't wanna speak too soon, because last time that happened, I became how I was before now, but I don't think I even have depression anymore. Miracles can happen to anyone❤❤
Don't give up, just keep fighting, it's totally worth it💓💓
Dance academy 😭💙🖤
The movie is to the bone and you can watch it on Netflix
♥️
Me at 3 am trying to get motivation
so here I am watching anorexia videos :')
i love eyerytime that a Lot of people called me that i look like a Monster or that im very thick because that reminds me that i shouldn't stop
Hi, i wanna share my experience right now
I have been eating a lot, and i gained tons of weight
Everyone started noticing, i felt so..sad..i wanted to stop eating..
I did..i havent ate in 2 weeks, almost 3, my stomach hurts so bad
I dont want to go to the doctors, no, i dont want to because theyll just force me to eat,
i literally lost a lot of pounds.. ive been throwing up 2 times a day..
Help please i dont know what to do, i want to eat but i need to be thin for people to like me.
Im just 12..
You need help, and i’m here to support you. You are beautiful🥺
I had, well, i actually have bulimia, and i know you migjt have this thoughts way long, but i will tell you my experience, since you just started to have this desease. You are sad, or down, so you through up, and then you start tp havd this patern, this rutine. At first, you feel fine, you feel you are skinier than before. Bur then, is like an adiccion, you can stop, but it os really hard. And then, you go back when you were sad, but now instead you are depress, and unhealthy, and all you wanna do is to be more and nore and more thin. Im just 14, started at 13.
Still so bummed Binge never went beyond the pilot.
Melissa Leigh fr
You know it's getting worse when you are here again...