That was the point of Inside though, wasn’t it? Bo just being real with everyone about how it affected him. Giving us a figure to point to and say “Fuck thank you for putting it into words how much this has sucked.” Inside was incredibly personal, which makes it so powerful
Peeps saying that when Bo shouts “GET THE FUCK UP!” He’s talk to the audience, I think he’s talking to himself. I’ve had break downs where my only option to get me to calm the fuck down, and stop sobbing on the floor is to yell at myself. And given how much the special resonates with me, I don’t doubt it’s what I think it might be.
The end I've taken as him taking back control of his fear and anxiety and fighting back, because of this, this song actually grounds me when I have a panic attack, it's me taking back control
That sounds really unhealthy.... You should give yourself some slack, buddy... I havent heard of anyone else doing that to stop breakdowns. I think you should explore other possible methods :(
“Art is dead”? I think a lot of what he’s said is self deprecating and very critical towards his own profession. Also I think his mindset has obviously changed as he’s gotten older. He quit doing comedy because of his anxiety and it seems like he’s come back with the idea that he won’t make anything unless it has an important message to it. So basically I think he wrote very critical things and spent time analyzing how he could be better and feel more fulfilled. After inside he really didn’t appear much publicly and it seems like he’s very kept to himself now.
I feel like he transposed his voice down not only as a thematic expression of his descent into depression and disassociation, but also that his performance is so much more vulnerable without the effect. It's almost too much, so he filters this raw emotion, turning his experience into art, but also inherently creating a boundary between the audience and himself. This song breaks my heart in the most exquisite way.
@@nuckfut420 that's what makes art so amazing. It effects each of us differently. It hits me hard because I hid myself from the world in my way, too. When he looks at rhe camera and says "don't be scared, don't be shy, come on in the waters fine" it spoke to my being an artistic person that is being told directly by this other artistic person to just fucking do it. Don't be scared. It spoke to me on a really deep level. He also won a Grammy for this song.
@@nuckfut420 that's what makes art so amazing. It effects each of us differently. It hits me hard because I hid myself from the world in my way, too. When he looks at rhe camera and says "don't be scared, don't be shy, come on in the waters fine" it spoke to my being an artistic person that is being told directly by this other artistic person to just fucking do it. Don't be scared. It spoke to me on a really deep level.
I agree, missed yah joog glad too see you around I used to watch you alot in middle school I'm 22 now never knew tfue was your brother till 2 years ago lol. Hope all is well love yah my guy
I’m so used to hearing him sound amused or comfortable at best and tired or slightly annoyed at worst that hearing him raise his voice makes me feel like something terrible either has happened, is happening, or is about to happen.
@@r2d2fromstartrek16 Its such a visceral sound, there had to be real emotions behind that scream. It does hit different, it does feel jarring, yet also concrete proof that so much of his emotions went into this special and these songs. I remember my first time hearing that part in the song, and his scream literally scared me for a moment. I perceived it as legitimate anger directed at me. Then when he picks up the camera and dances around with "us" the mood changes completely. It's like he revealed his true frustration for a fraction of a second, then went back to entertaining us. I have mixed feelings about that moment, but I can't get enough of it.
None of his released specials have ever had him act so broken, so his very real seeming emotional breakdown before this song followed by him screaming in anger and grabbing our perspective was a fairly disturbing sequence…
Did anyone else notice during this portion of the special the battery is full, at a stand still, then during the chorus at one point the battery is empty and blinking. Extremely powerful to show his mentality during this song, making it even more sad.
Not me sobbing when I hear: "You say the ocean's rising, like I give a shit You say the whole world's ending, honey it already You're not gonna slow it, heaven knows you tried Got it? Good, now get inside" This part hits so fucking hard.
In the original version, this part sounded sarcastic, like Bo was making a dark humour joke, which makes you laugh and think about the issue at the same time… But this version is just a depressed man stating the truth like it has haunted him and now he’s just tired of it, and is trying to accept that he can’t really do anything about it… It hits harder in this one…
i suppose as my interpretation, this verse specifically feels like a euphemism for depression, this really bad problem thats just getting worse and worse and theres nothing you can do about it because its a perpetual cycle thats happening to you. the more you try to help the more you actually make it worse because when you fail to make it better, you just make it worse as a result (feeling like shit for not being able to help it again and again so many times over). the "ocean rising" feels like the end of you, and theres nothing you can do to stop it, so you just eventually stop caring, telling yourself, "don't bother trying, because you've tried everything to stop it to no avail." i know that feeling all too painfully well. one factor of bo's special that i really love is that ive seen that there can be a ton of different interpretations of specific moments, songs, scenes etc, based on the watcher's life story. i dont think someone who hasnt experienced depression and/or s/i would really think the same as i do about this verse. which i really think is cool - and i think thats why it can really resonate with such a large amount of people, who are all pretty diverse. :)
@@cybernetic444 I agree! This perfectly summarizes what I feel about this song, and Inside in general. His older songs are also great but not as introspective. Thanks for taking the time to share your thoughts! I also feel that this song is one that you must have lived through to understand. Just a rough time can make you understand it. I showed it to my family and they didn't get it. I asked, "Don't you feel how powerful it i?" They said, "No, but ok." So... yeah. A lot of his songs, like you say, have so many interpretations due to different people's experiences.
It's actually more interesting than that, if you think about it. It's not that no one cheered, it's that Bo himself didn't edit any cheering in at that point, like he did elsewhere.
@@MrMasque I believe he did this to illustrate the irony that he was finally better and then says "and then, the funniest thing happened.." Because he was right back where he started before the pandemic.
I can't quite articulate it, but hearing this pitched to Bo's voice just hits so much harder. It's so much more honest and vulnerable... it's just violently human. This entire show just captures the pandemic perfectly.
@@NotKimiRaikkonen I got on medication when I was in college. My social anxiety was really bad. It helps. I was hospitalized in 2014 (after college) for being suicidal and I learned about Dialectial Behavioral Therapy. It helps. It's something I have to keep coming back to when I'm struggling with stuff. Check it out; maybe it can help :)
@@crazykenna exactly like the fact that at the end of the part we’re he literally tells everyone that the pandemic ruined his plans all we hear is laughter just really hurts.
@@crazykenna yeah, even when he used to perform live that would happen. The audience would always laugh when he was talking about serious issues. It could be a representation of that
@@crazykenna It conveys the same feeling I got from Make Happy. Just extreme unease and honestly a little bit of nausea. Just hearing people laugh because they think he’s messing with them.
@@dylanmckenzie7840 Listening to the laughter and cheering at the end of the Kanye rant, baffled me. He was incredibly forward at that movement yet its as if the audience was ...oblivious to what he said. When i first watched that, I thought it as a totally sincere, and to a degree heart-breaking.
i understand the absolute impact of the "get the fuck up!" part, but can we talk about his delivery on the last two "all eyes on me" lines, the way his voice says "me" is enchanting
"We're going to go where everybody knows everybody." I love how at first it sounds like we're going to a party then we come to find out it's really the biggest of graveyards.
hearing him yell “get the fuck up” in his natural voice is so painful. you dont normally hear this guy speak or yell in anger so hearing it really makes it so much more impactful
Honestly a lot of this show was off putting in a really impactful way with the direct acting choices he made. It really seems to drive home themes of oppression and loneliness when the person embodying these personas we see throughout the show is more widely known for comedy.
I feel like it would be sorta wrong to cheer at the audience parts though... I mean that’s the point of them right? That they’re not actually listening to Bo? It would feel cruel to genuinely carry out that ignorance
@@heath6802 Yeah that's right. Acctualy the appearance of those crowd laughs and cheers inspired the thought of this comment. I assume the people would have screamed similarly as it is at the beggining of the song, but later the reactions would probably switch to something that Can't Handle This had.
I think the reaction would be the same as when he did Can't Handle This, because it was such a big crowd and it was one of the most well known times when he expressed his mental health on stage.
I have synesthesia and that part where he harmonizes and says “got it? good now get inside” i see the most vivid ocean green- blue. I’ve never seen such a bright color from any other song. pretty cool shit
Wow, it's so cool to have been blessed with synesthesia. What are the other colors that you can see in other parts of the song? Because I pictured it, it would be ocean color too like he was singing in deep ocean and it echos. But I'm curious is there any other colors there
I have synesthesia too! I see blue in this song and mostly it's dark blue and silver, but when it intensifies in the second half the silver turns to like a gold dust over a deeper, more vibrant ocean blue.
I have a weird synesthesia because I see shapes according to sound but the reason it's weird is because I also have aphantasia so I can't actually picture what I'm seeing. It's cool but so hard to explain
his deeper voiced one was beautiful, but i didn’t tear up then like i did with this one. such a clear beautiful voice. i love both of them. time to replay it
tell me why this is more haunting than the actual version? Its like the deeper voice in the original provides a kind of disconnect that you don't automatically think that the song is Bo's actual feelings, and then hearing it like this?....
I think its because in the original, it uses the pentatonix scale without the two notes with the harshest dissonance to create that “slipping into nihilism” feel of the song, whereas here that isnt included so its a lot more humanized(?) its legit 2am lol i dunno fs
I think that’s what makes this song what it is. They see it as the usual act but this man is literal fucking spilling over and cracking. He’s calling for help but they just laugh. That’s the life of a comedian and that’s why I think being a comedian can be one of the most stressful things.
@@vixviarts EXACTLY!!! Especially the scene in the movie where he’s locked outside and is frantically trying to get back in his house while an audience laughs very loud at him. You can tell he’s panicking and trying very hard to get back in his house, but the audience is laughing at him. It made be start BAWLING
Ok but this is something I think about a lot. Since "we think we know you" actually. Like the audience as a "character" in his shows is very superficial and they take a long time to catch on to the things he says. Another example is in "can't handle this," the audience is just cheering over a really juicy minor chord change right before he straight up tells us his biggest problem is us. They just laugh over it and I've always been really annoyed by that (silly I know.) So for him to just expect us to look at the very top layer of him as a person is very isolating for him, yet incredibly intuitive. I have a lot of friends who "like Bo" and have really latched on to "welcome to the internet" and "white woman's instagram" but never songs like this and I've always thought that was interesting and expected. Idk if anything I just typed made sense but yeah lol
bruh the yell in his original voice scares me more than i'd like to admit. it's like hearing the cool uncle actually get angry and raise their voice at you for the first time.
i was definitely not expecting this when i turned on the special. i thought it was going to just be a bunch of funny songs. it wasn’t. if you pay attention, there is obviously such a bigger and deeper meaning to this special. many people may think that the title “inside” is meant to stand for how we’ve been “inside” for all of the pandemic. i think that it is representing how bo is stuck “inside” his head with all of his anxiety/depression. i had my friend watch the special and she didn’t really seem to get the bigger picture. i know this special was nominated for an emmy and i hope to god that he wins because after all he has been through he deserves it
It’s sooo frustrating when ppl don’t see the deeper side of things that you see. I think a lot of it for me is that I’ve watched bo for so long, I’ve seen his highs and lows, I remember his break, so it all pieced together perfectly for me. But if you’ve never felt it, it’s harder to see it.
ong if he saw this I hope he wouldnt be mad about it I just wanted to hear his regular voice in the notes he hit cause they sounded so good in general and this just sounds so beautiful in my opinion
@@ieradossantos Not really. The point behind that line is that the world isn't ending. It already has. The word being either 'honey' or 'buddy' is inconsequential and doesn't take away from the message Bo is trying to convey.
This song is strangely comforting yet melancholic, it speaks to me on some very personal level as someone who has struggled with anxiety but is very ambitious
This song is a time capsule for 2020, it really captures the exhausting loneliness and the despair to the point of numbness that plagued a lot of us, especially those of us who are mentally ill, during quarantine in 2020. I can't wait to show this song to my future kids(if I have any, that is) so that they can understand what it was like.
I always got the impression that Bo artificially deepening his voice was an attempt to play a character so he could feel more comfortable about being this vulnerable. So to hear this now, as close to his true voice as we can get, is a knife to the heart.
I didn’t think it was an attempt to play a character, I always thought that he made that choice to make it more digestible for the audience. He’s not trying to be a different person because this is all very personal to his life. The sound doesn’t sound like natural so it makes it slightly less raw so the audience doesn’t get too overwhelmed, but the message is still there. At least that’s how I always thought about it.
my interpretation was that his deepened voice to show is inner voice/thoughts/etc. he does the same thing in ‘goodbye’ when he talks about being inside again, as if he’s criticizing himself for going back to where his mental health started
The ending to this song when he sings "heads down, pray for me" yet the nonexistent crowed starts cheering. Like he's calling out for help but all the audience sees is his act. I've heard him talk about his panic attacks while on stage in interviews, and he describes it as a surreal experience because inside he feels like he is dying but on the outside he's just hitting his marks and saying his lines while an audience laughs at him. I feel this song is a representation of those panic attack moments, and his laughter at the end breaks my heart.
Yes. Especially hits hard at the end of the special I think when he's trying to get back inside and away from it all and he's clearly desperate and cracking under the pressure but the audience is laughing the entire time at his efforts, probably thinking it is an act, or worse, enjoying his suffering because it leads to their entertainment.
I saw a fantastic analysis where Inside was compared to Pagliacci. Pagliacci is a two-act opera about a man named Canio who plays Pagliacci the clown as part of a traveling comedy troupe. During a show, he realizes his wife, Nedda, has been unfaithful to him. He has an intense emotional breakdown on stage, but Nedda and the other actors try to continue the show and the audience cheers, believing Canio is giving a powerful performance and that it's all part of the act. It's not until Canio kills Nedda and her lover that the audience realizes that what they saw wasn't part of the play at all. It ends on the line "La commedia è finita", or "the comedy is finished!" While Bo Burnham has frequently poked fun at how art is fake and everything is meticulously planned (he meant to knock the water over...and play the track again), but Inside is really challenging viewers to determine what's real and isn't.
@@MarleneRodriguez711 it's incredible how many connotations that ending has. Being outside, he isn't able to give himself a feedback and be comfortable with that, having self-awareness. Now he has to face what others will say about him, now he isn't the only judge, now he will have feedback from other humans other than himself, and that feedback will not be pixels if it's a different reaction from what he predicted or expected. And that terrifies anyone
I didn’t realize that Bo and I were the same age. This new special really hit me right in the heart. 5 years ago I had cancer and my life was put on hold. I spent 5 years in intensive mental therapy and came back out into the world (started working again). Then 2020 happened. I had a job for maybe 3 months before it was all taken away by the pandemic.
tbh it almost sounds like he's mad at everyone and himself for so many reasons - but mostly a callout to himself to get up and face performing again. to get up and just do *something* even though everything's all gone horribly ?
Something I think is interesting is exactly the fact he down-pitched the vocals in the song in the first place. While I think artistically, there are actually a lot of things to interpret in this song and its make-up, I think the vocal down-pitch is a big one. I feel he very specifically didn't want us to hear him saying this. His voice, I mean. There's so much in this song that screams "every encouragement just makes me feel worse right now, and I'm not gonna feel better, so just deal with it", and I feel like the down-pitch was a way of masking it a bit. Making it feel like we don't need to associate it with Bo himself, but another person, or maybe another side of him. He shows a lot of his pain in Inside, between songs, but it is all edited by him, and people will watch it with the expectation that most of it is a performance. So, this song feels like he's trying to be genuine while also masking it in the voice of another persona.
“you say the oceans rising, like i give a shit. you say the whole world’s ending, honey it already did. you’re not gonna slow it, heaven knows you tried. got it? good, now get inside.” just scratches my brain in all the right ways.
I genuinely despise how much this resonates with me. It makes me physically recoil when I realize how much of myself relates to this. I actually hate it so much. This is a beautiful, wonderful masterpiece, and I think I hate it with my entire being because of how much it makes me feel.
I go through periods where I get intense derealization that linger around depression, and listening to this entire special has become a part of these periods. Lots of people had more self-actualization than they are comfortable with during 2020 so it resonates with a lot of people. For some of us, this will resonate for a long time. It's beautiful, and I feel this music in hy heart, and it hurts, and I hate it.
I am so glad someone can understand how I feel. I’ve always had such a dislike for him and then here comes inside and I haven’t ever felt so heard. It pisses me off that I’ve got so much In common with him but now I’m overwhelmed with emotions to this day.
It’s official. Pain, suffering, anxiety, and its raw, immense, cathartic expression creates beautiful music. Nothing against Bo’s talent, he’s incredibly talented, but I don’t think any of us ever saw him writing such a banger like this. He always had musical talent, and most of his songs still have more of a “musical” (like the genre of film) feel to them, but it was diving deep into his anxieties, and making raw, honest music about it that sparked this masterpiece.
any emotion can create beautiful music. pain and suffering do not have a monopoly on that. artists don't have to go through terrible things in order to make beautiful things for us
@@purplebloodot765 precisely. the worst part about making art like this is that it can often be obsessive like honestly, i'm not that good of a musician, but the times where i do the best improv is when i'm improv-ing when i'm depressed or tired and whilst that's nice, it's clearly self destructive because it's obviously not healthy
@@purplebloodot765 You're absolutely right. But, through all of human history pain, struggle and pushing forward has inspired some of the greatest innovations, ideas, humanitarian efforts, art, music, etc. Those things can definitely come from happiness or good events, but more often than not they're created out of struggle. It's part of being human, I think.
@@devinward461 I found hope in this podcast episode - ruclips.net/video/f2JPVL_xqHE/видео.html the TLDR is that the hopelessness of the situation is overstated and there is a lot that we can do to slow climate change.
This song has always been a tear-jerker for me, but hearing the "raw" vocals of the original octave is just heartbreaking. It feels like he's just speaking from the depths of his soul and it's so sad.
I still hear a lot of the modulation, personally. His voice is till doing very unnatural pitch slides and such. But yeah, the modulation stuff was used for the same feel during the Kanye Rant, which also got real as all hell.
I thought there would be way too many effects on his voice to even recognize him when his voice was transposed. I was absolutely wrong. This is fucking great.
its so painful how he does that whole monologue about something legitimately painful and the audience just sees the cry for help as another one of his jokes.
“you say the oceans rising like i give a shit you say the world is ending honey it already did” this line made me sob like a baby the first time i heard it :’-(
They adjusted the formant while tuning the vocals (super cool). I love that you did this because it at least allows the audience to hear what it would more or less sound like without that effect. Well done!
@@bibianabelisova1067 that's a good way of interpreting this. For me personally the lyrics are more about him drowning in his emotions and the timing of everything becoming too much for Bo. After all he went through he finally was ready to let the world see him again and then boom covid happened. "You say the ocean's rising, like I give a shit. You say the world's ending, honey it already did." This to me feels like his depression made him give up on everything and accept his fate.
@@brmns the fact is we can't fix it. You have too many wealthy elitists who profit off of the planets destruction. All they care about is turning a selfish profit. They don't care about any of the other humans. They barely care about their own children, if they even have any. They don't care if it all goes up in smoke as long as they can Jeff Bezos themselves off the planet before it happens. Most of which push the neoliberal fascist agendas.
He added laugh tracks and stuff to this song, but I honestly feel like if he ever performs it live, it's going to be completely silent in the room other than the sounds of people crying, and then a standing ovation afterwards.
If you watched his Kanye rant son from Make Happy though there was oddly placed cheering and claps from the live audience even in the similarly heavy parts. I think on some level people are conditioned to respond as an audience and on another people were cheering for the sheer art rather than because they felt elated.
I listened to elvis presley performing I'm so lonesome I could cry. He did it in front of an audience and they laughed. It was horrible. Pretty horrible. So yeah, no. It's just like the song hey ya, part of the lyrics is that no one is truly listening and it's true cos even I didn't realise how deep the song was under the vibes until I someone else's comment. Crowd mentality, entertainment. You expect comedy or you see someone else laughing, everyone else and feel like you should do you join them, regardless of your actual opinion, maybe not even bothering to form an opinion at all... People might not care as much as you think but it's a nice thought, who knows, maybe. Hopefully, tho, he'll just rest, maybe even retire and we don't have to find out 👍🏾
Reminds me of when he sang Art is Dead to a bunch of comedians. It was horrible to watch. He was so sloppy and angry because he could just tell they didn't get it, and were just laughing at him. I felt so bad for him because he couldn't just stop mid song and say "fuck you" or walk out or anything.
@@spriddlez I watched “Make Happy” live in NYC when he was on tour and the Kanye rant was so powerful in person with the lighting and atmosphere of it all. There were definitely oddly placed laughs and cheers. People know he’s being serious and confronting his own demons on the stage in front of us, yet accepting that as an audience member means we have demons to accept too
The image you used for the video is perfect. Anime man on his knees crying into his hands while his white Tshirt flaps in the wind as the world comes to the end. It's the exact feeling I get watching Inside.
The way he yelled “Get the fuck up!” And then grabbed the camera legitimately scared me when I watched, Inside kind of broke the disconnect between performer and audience by showing us the behind the scenes and how Bo’s mental state deteriorated. He legitimately scared me in this special, and I hope that he takes another break after this. I don’t even care if he never make another special, I just want Bo to be okay
@@danielvankeulen9604 um what? Ya I understand the performance. I'm just stating to CalebCat that Bo is fine. There saying he should take another break after this. Why? hes not in serious mental distress right now. Its a performance.
i think apart of the ending was him saying goodbye to comedy. i’ve never watched a bo special before this, but i think this will be one of his last if not the last for a long time of his performances.
I can't imagine what performing this song to an empty room was like for him, especially without the added audience and deepened voice. I think it was just pure venting and singing what he felt was right in the moment repeating verses as he felt like and just going all out in his room with lights and equipment and emptiness and raw emotions
he did it with some studio songs, and they hit just as hard as Inside. Nerds, Eff, Channel 5, these hit you like a train especially without an audience.
The repetition was done deliberately. The beginning of the song the vocals were about pre-pandemic mental health struggles, how he was in hiding, etc.. Then says "And then, the funniest thing happened." Because he was right back where he started, but worse off than before.
@@laceywantsbass his pre pandemic mental health was due to not selling tickets to shows. He did some tv and movie work. He didn't however live in this room for 12 months. He lived in the 3 million dollar house behind it with his highly successful partner who also helped film and edit this music. Shes also an established song writer and director. Dont beleive everything you see my friend. He's very clever and deserved all the credit he's getting for this piece.
@@Ian-ev5tg Hey man, you said "his pre pandemic mental health was due to not selling tickets to shows" and I was just wondering where you got this info? Can you link a source? Also, are you suggesting Bo hasn't had lifelong struggles with mental health? If so, where did you get this information from? Source? I'm honestly curious, as this is counter to literally everything I've read and heard from the man himself. May seem like I'm coming at you, but I'm legitimately curious, thanks for any insight you can provide.
I feel this song is for anyone who has to Mask. Anyone who feels alien, isolated, artificial, and boxed in. Anyone who has to Perform to be normal. Anyone who aches simply existing. Bo hears you. Bo took center stage, terrified, hopeless, begging for prayers, to prove that he sees you. I can't thank him enough for doing this, for facing the fears, for singing, for performing, for aching out loud. I hope someday he no longer has to, when we all find out voices for ourselves. We love you Bo.
Such a powerful song, gives me chills. Also - hearing it pitch-shifted makes me realise how far his singing voice has progressed! His voice has gotten much better over the years, he’s so damn talented.
(TW: vent/ranting about growing up) "And then the funniest thing happened" hits a pretty hard chord for me, something ive been really frustrated with for these past couple years. I was a kid that grew up way too fast, and was mature for too long, but during high school i finally started loosening up. I made friends, went out with them, did some stupid stuff with them and had fun. But i never got to do much. When i was younger i had a pretty huge "not like other kids" complex due to my early maturity (likelu due to trauma and or possible neurodivergency), i was more like a mini adult than a child, and i didnt figure out until it was FAR too late that being a teenager is fun. For the first time, i wanted to indulge in being stupid and having fun with friends, having fun and being impulsive. I was embracing my teenhood before it was gone. I had a couple good runs, and i wanted so much more. I wanted to at least have my least year as a 17 yr old. And then the funniest thing happened. I got all of maybe a couple months of being a teenager. I barely got to do anything and it was torn away from me by a fucking pandemic. My last year of childhood, and i never got to have it. And now im an adult and im expected to be mature again, and its all so, so overwhelming. I dont want to do this. I dont want to grow up, but i am now and it fucking sucks. I dont want to dwell on the past, but im so goddamn mad about how it feels like i got utterly fucked by life for no reason and now i just have to deal with it with my broken mental state and existential dread. And i dont know how to deal with it, im stuck because i want to move on and be a good adult but i also dont want to let go of the scrap of teenhood i got to experience. It just sucks, man. My heart goes out to anyone else in my generation whos going through this rut thats supposed to be an important developmental stage of our lives. Life hasnt been nice to us.
I like to think that things happen for a reason, even though we might never know for sure what that reason is. I like to think that even shitty things come to make us stronger or to evolve in ways we would not if we wouldn’t have those experiences. Yeah, without the pandemic you could have had experienced some parts of your life in a different way, but at the same time you would not have experienced things that you did. Life is made of a bunch of “what if’s” but they are just possibilities. What is real is what actually happened, and the only thing we can do is embrace what actually happens and try to make the best of it. You are only “you” because of what happened to your life, both good and bad, and accepting this is hard, but can be very relieving.
My heart goes out to you, but in all sincerity..you are still so, so young. I don't even think of a 25 year as more than a slightly older teenager/child. Depends on the individual. But really, I missed a lot of things in my teen years and early 20s, but at 31 I am still finding fun ways to enjoy my life. Just because you turn 18, that doesn't mean your childhood is dead and all fun is over. I think people make way too much of it, turning 18. Like..want to go out to the movies and have fun? Go for it. Want to be silly and have a sleepover? Do it. Even if it is by yourself. Make a fort. Play video games. Whatever makes you happy. And if nothing works..try therapy or even medication. I had a friend who spent years unhappy, and it took a few visits to the doctor and 1 medication for her to be the happiest she has ever been. She regrets not going sooner. So don't fall into the trap of self diagnosing and living in that illness/trauma/disorder. If you're neuro divergent, then work with it, not against it. Don't make it your whole identity. Venting is great to get stuff off your chest, but once you do, don't pick it back up again and again.
Ok so I'm sorry if this isn't helpful, but have you heard of age regression? I'm bad at explaining things so you might have to look it up, but from reading your comment it might really help :)
Being an adult can be really great, if you have enough money to do the things you want. Just don't have kids and you can do whatever tf you want all the time.
@@lisarae7823 Completely agreed on this. I had my 'letting loose' phase at 22, and I think it can be done at any age. To be frank, it's something we should never completely give up on (: keeps us young
Someone on Insider described as "having a religious experience with your mental disorder" and that's as close as I'll get to an explanation to what this song makes me feel
The addition of canned laughter and cheering is just so... offputting. By this point in the special we've seen him just deteriorate emotionally, and I'll be honest, this song *scared* me. I was scared for him, and eventually by him when he screams at us and grabs the camera. For me, this is a song of someone who has lost all hope, and has basically cracked. So the addition of hearing laughter from a non-existent audience over something that genuinely was more tragic than funny is so unnerving.
It reminds me of live performances of Make Happy where the crowd is just going wild over songs like Can’t Handle This or We Think We Know You, those songs are direct conversation to the audience, but they don’t respond to it with serious thought, only cheers to Bo’s performance. I can’t imagine what stress he was under performing those songs that came straight from his heart only to be treated onstage as “funny song man”
When he laughs towards the end it feels like hes either laughing at himself spinning in a circle alone in a room or in character he genuinely thinks he's on stage, either way its kinda depressing. This whole thing was less of a comedy special and more of a slow descent deeper into Bo's mind and i loved it
@@heath6802 that’s the whole point it’s supposed to be tragic because take that laughter away and he’s in the room and he is literally joking while no one is Laughing in the background
"Heads down, pray for me" sounds like a cry for help while trying to preform for his audience. Makes me think of his last live performance 5 or 6 years ago. He feels like he has to preform, and entertain others at the cost of himself. I understand that so well.
"You say the ocean's rising Like I give a shit You say the whole world's ending Honey it already did You're not gonna slow it Heaven knows you tried Got it? Good now get inside!" What a brilliant bridge- simple, emotive and impactful. Gives me chills.
Strongly agree. It just hits the spot. It's like the code to a world class vault, or the deft flick of the finger that sets all my internal dominoes falling
Doomer mentality. I feel like this is what will millenials and zoomers define. I am not bashing it. I am one too, right at the generational shift. We are all not fine, we know how little impact we have on the society we were born in. And being screwed just hurts so much, it's easier to accept it.
i'm diagnosed with severe PTSD, i have to mask the episodes and disassociation when they happen. this song is exactly what it feels like to have whole conversations and laughter on the outside, but be screaming for help on the inside
I still find myself waking up on the floor under my bed, or even outside in the bushes. it's been almost 15 years and I still hear the screams, still feel the loaded M4 slung across my chest at the checkpoint. I can still hear the mortar explosions in the distance, I still panic at the sight of conspicuous trash on the roadway, I still feel the unrelenting dread as the spectre of death stalks my nightmares and waits around every corner, at the bottom of every countless bottle, and in the rectory of every empty church I have begged hysterically for forgiveness in. I would kill myself right now, if I wasn't terrified of all the people I've taken from their lives, waiting for me not with anger... but with disappointment. friend, none of us are okay and we likely never will be again. it's the screaming for help that keeps us alive and the conversations and laughter that keeps us on the path to healing. We are important, whether we believe it or not
I don't likely have PTSD, but this is pretty much something I was already saying in another comment. I feel like the way he down-pitched his vocals in this song is another form of masking it, trying to separate what he says in the songs from himself, or maybe from his persona. Especially since the song is practically screaming "I need reassurance, but nothing is making me feel better, so I just have to deal with it and hope someone will see that".
Anyone else besides me actually get the fuck up? It was like 3 a.m. and I was stark naked in bed, but damn I didn't feel like he was giving me a choice 😳
Probably because you just hear it as regular Bo’s voice so you can connect and feel his pain more. It humanizes the song and when hes yelling and laughing you can hear a voice that you actually recognize in so much pain
@@wafflesmcgallagher934 My first thought was, "why is he exhausted and drained? Why record this then? Isn't it an act as part of the point he is making?" But he has pointed out previously that the need to create is a big part of the drive for him. He wants approval, but he also just wants to make stuff that amuses him for himself, and not have to deal with the feedback. And he recognizes that injecting honesty and his own personal struggles helps make the message stronger too. So, why torture himself making this? Because on some level he feels he has to.
Yeah, you can transpose any of his songs either up or down 1.8 semitones, and it sounds like either his older or younger self. Really neat thing to do.
For me It reminds me of when Im having existencial crisis and then have a hysteric laughter when I realise again and again how stupid everything is and how nothing makes sense and accept that I acnt do angthing about it... tbh the exprience isnt fun per say but its a human expirience Im glad to have had. Enotions are wierd like that. Pain and freedom at the same time was what I felt. This video as whole connected with me with that
@@animuswonder I don’t get that vibe at all, i think it’s more of what the initial comment said, like “holy shit this is my life” and it’s not a life you ever dreamed for yourself and you just break into hysterical laughter in dismay
I think it’s him laughing at how he is actually feeling real joy from hearing a fake audience cheering for him. I think he realizes it’s insane that he is having the feeling he had before having panic attacks on stage, genuinely enjoying entertaining people but knowing he is absolutely losing it. Hard to say, really. This guy is broken and i hope he gets better. Again.
The way 2020 was supposed to be the year for me. I was turning 20, finally going to therapy, go abroad for studies and I felt so hopeful. Now here I am at 21, lost so many relatives and friends to covid and in one of the lowest points of my life. What the fuck happened.
Hey I feel you dude. I was raped at 18 and had a kid. She was finally going to go to kindergarten this year and I thought I’d finally get a couple hours here and there to put together to start being my own person. I even went dancing for the first time ever at 24, in early March. I had no idea the pandemic was coming because I’d given up social media and reading the news. I enjoyed it so much that I promised myself that I’d do it again. First lockdown happened 1 week later. So I feel you, 100%. I’m so fucking sorry that happened to you bro 💖 we’ll make it.
My final year of undergraduate studies was 2020, and what would have originally been in person work placement ended up having to take place online. With my GPA i was set to make it into med school but… the pandemic shattered it. I failed a unit and had to take it again in the summer. I don’t know what I should be, what I should do. I had built all of my life around the aspiration of becoming a doctor and now I don’t think I’ll ever make it. The last half year I’ve spent figuring out who I’m supposed to be… I hope you make it, my friend. Pray for me.
i lost all my friends at late december because of various reasons, i was supposed to start university and get new friends and basically start anew. i have been two years in almost complete isolation because i have no one to talk to. it was such a bad timing and i dont think it could have had worse timing.
2020 and 2021 have been the hardest years of my life too. The dad I thought I loved dearly threw a knife at me. I am pressured by my parents to go into a university I didn't want to go into, and then into a major I didn't want to go into. And then for several months, I got scammed and exploited by someone who I thought just wanted to buy my art. My pained heart goes out to all of yours. I hardly have a relationship with God, but I'm praying for you all.
I hope within the past month, your life and way forward has gotten better. Life is never easy and almost completely uncertain. But the one thing that is certain is that it will go on
I can't tell yall how many times I've had a complete mental breakdown and came back to this song and just sat there listening to this song and just cried while putting this on repeat. This song is gold and he deserves everything in the world!! 💐💐💐💐💐
"are you feeling nervous, are you having fun?, it's almost over, it's just begun. don't overthink this, look in my eye, don't be scared, don't be shy come on in the waters fine" this is by far my favourite part of the song it feels like like Bo expressing his anxiety in performing and his experiences with it. especially in the line "it's almost over it's just begun" since that's typically what someone tells themselves when they're in an anxiety inducing situation "don't worry it's almost over just a little longer" or" jesus christ i've been here for ages and we've only just started" "are you feeling nervous" is a question for himself and feels almost rhetorical like no shit he's nervous he's standing in front of thousands of people with all eyes on him, while "are you having fun" is one posed at both him and the audience, does performing bring him more joy that fear? and what if the audience isn't enjoying themselves? does that stress of failure outweigh the joy of performing? "don't overthink it" also feels like it's pointed both at himself being simple mental rehearsal to stay calm on stage but also to the audience, don't overthink what i'm trying to say, just enjoy the ride and have a laugh even though he's renowned for having deep meaning behind his cleverly formulated lyrics. "look in my eye" is a bit ambiguous but with "don't be scared, don't be shy come on in the waters fine" it feels like someone comforting Bo before a performance, it could even just be him talking to himself in a figurative or literal mirror. "don't be scared it's going to be fine" thank you for coming to my TedTalk
3:32 Not only is it vocally astounding, but it almost feels like he is singing with all the voices he’s kept to himself, and he is truly letting everything coming out. Heartbreaking and truly amazing. It makes it even more heartfelt when you realize he is a comedian
@@DuFREAKY it’s not tho. These are multiple stacked harmonies. You can hear the influx in his voice on each stem. This is not a vocoder lol. He just understands theory.
I love this version because he sounds so angelic, someone should do one verse with the special version end one verse with it pitch corrected. Some dark and light contrast
I just managed to play both simultaneously on spotify and youtube, pitch corrected and original together......It was an experience. It sounds like he's singing in a cathedral with a choir....I am emotionally drained right now....
@@mrhanekoma86 If you have spotify on a pc and on a phone you can control the spotify on your pc from the phone. So I just got this video ready on the pc and the spotify version ready then pressed play together. Wouldn't have a clue how to put them together!
@@TheRider2012 I tried this by loading the special on my TV to the song and playing the pitch corrected version along with it and the way they clash just.. musically was off putting, so I muted the special and watched it with the pitch corrected audio and that too was an experience.
When he yelled It hit close to home. When I have mental breakdowns, I yell at myself a lot. It’s as if there’s 2 different people, 1 of them is miserable and wants to isolate, sleep and sit down all the time, and the other one is an angry person who’s had enough, I have conflict with myself, I don’t know how to cope, nor do I know how to even cry. The yelling just reminded me of the conflict I had with myself where I wanted to get up, put a brave face and just do it. But eternally all I wanted was to sleep my way through life.
It's possible to do this with an audio processing plugin called iZotope Polyvox/VocalSynth. Imogen Heap used a similar effect with her song Hide & Seek, and used the keyboard MIDI to choose the actual notes her voice got spread out into.
I’m so used to Bo as someone who purely sings satirically or kind of theatrically, like he’s playing a character. Even in a bunch of the songs from the special, especially welcome to the internet. This was one of the only songs I’ve ever heard him sing that sounds just… like him. The pitching down of it in the special was really good for effect, but it also masked just his raw singing voice. Which is honestly one of the sweetest/most comfortable male singing voices I’ve ever heard. This version sounds so authentic and moving.
I'm afraid we have over romanticized the idea of being sad/depressed/broken, but last year really did feel like a nightmare. Bo's special does an amazing job expressing what 2020 felt like. Edit: Wow, based on the likes I suppose there are those who agree with me on this.
Had depression since I was a teenager and always struggled with it periodically. It always bothered me how it was actively marketed to us as a trend. The whole emo scene, manic pixie thing just pissed me off. It didn't make you enigmatic or romantic or quirky, it made you feel fucking tired, demotivated, stuck. It was not something to aspire to, emulate or capitalise on, it was a genuine obstruction to being able to live a normal or happy life.
@@nixi7688 Faking or making emotional and mental disorders fashion statements is straight up ugly. I struggle with ADHD and I never realized how HARD it is to deal with it and how much it affected me until I started university, and I still am learning ways it affects my life. It's very frustrating to see people try to capitalize on shit like that.
Agreed. I think being *proud* of being anxious/depressed (and getting credit & reinforcement for it) is not the answer. Being aware/honest about it (which is important and was certainly shunned in the past) is different than bringing attention to yourself by romanticizing whatever hardships you might be facing. The situations and moments in life that are truly depressing are not shit you want to freely offer up on social media. I'm not trying to be a dick, I'm speaking from personal experience- I have been guilty of thinking I was being honest, but mostly just doing it to fit in and get attention. The shit that actually ducks with my head and my heart is buried wayyyyy down and I am terrified of people knowing.
the two are almost like totally different songs. The one with bo's original voice is almost comforting, and the voice changed one has this deep sadness to it
"getchofugginhandsup"
that's the best part imo
Makes me lol
1:14 ?
Felt that
"You say the ocean's rising, like I give a shit?"
Kyler Clarke 3:17
It almost feels like an invasion of his privacy to hear him semi-raw
That was the point of Inside though, wasn’t it? Bo just being real with everyone about how it affected him. Giving us a figure to point to and say “Fuck thank you for putting it into words how much this has sucked.” Inside was incredibly personal, which makes it so powerful
pls never say semi raw ever again
@@twinpeaks9619 semi ra
Semi raw is my new favorite description
You know what else feels like an invasion of privacy when it's semi raw?
Peeps saying that when Bo shouts “GET THE FUCK UP!” He’s talk to the audience, I think he’s talking to himself. I’ve had break downs where my only option to get me to calm the fuck down, and stop sobbing on the floor is to yell at myself. And given how much the special resonates with me, I don’t doubt it’s what I think it might be.
THIS!
Also before it sounds like “get up…give up”
The end I've taken as him taking back control of his fear and anxiety and fighting back, because of this, this song actually grounds me when I have a panic attack, it's me taking back control
Oh… I think you’re right. He says that before standing and picking us up to lift us higher. He’s forcing himself forward to bring us up…
That sounds really unhealthy.... You should give yourself some slack, buddy... I havent heard of anyone else doing that to stop breakdowns. I think you should explore other possible methods
:(
Bo is a generational talent who really doesn’t want the fame that comes with it and I respect him so much for that
Yeah thats why he dose it makes sence..autism mode activated 😒
Didn't he make a whole song about living for the attention? I'm not even saying that to be critical, I'm just pretty sure that's a thing he did
“Art is dead”? I think a lot of what he’s said is self deprecating and very critical towards his own profession. Also I think his mindset has obviously changed as he’s gotten older. He quit doing comedy because of his anxiety and it seems like he’s come back with the idea that he won’t make anything unless it has an important message to it. So basically I think he wrote very critical things and spent time analyzing how he could be better and feel more fulfilled. After inside he really didn’t appear much publicly and it seems like he’s very kept to himself now.
@@carriebecker8383 yeah but he also made a whole song claiming a white woman's instagram is heaven
@@willsterjohnson satire is dead but that's part of the message in its own right.
the skinny kid gave us what he couldn't give himself, but now he's trying to give it to himself.
STOPPP
STOPPP YOU'RE SO CRINGE
@@-bura i'm cringe professionally, hence why i have a RUclips account that i actively use.
Stopp I just came here from can't handle this
@@aviumcaravan that is the best way to promote your RUclips channel
Pitching it back to his nomral register automatically makes me imagine Bo with his short hair and beardless.
that was a golden era :”)
Reminds me a little of the kanye west rant tbh
yeah, same
This made me wanna cry for some reason
i miss bo in his 20s
I feel like he transposed his voice down not only as a thematic expression of his descent into depression and disassociation, but also that his performance is so much more vulnerable without the effect. It's almost too much, so he filters this raw emotion, turning his experience into art, but also inherently creating a boundary between the audience and himself. This song breaks my heart in the most exquisite way.
Also gives it a comical effect, which is I guess what he wants to go for in the end - there is very little comical about this version left
It ain't that deep
@@nuckfut420 that's what makes art so amazing. It effects each of us differently. It hits me hard because I hid myself from the world in my way, too. When he looks at rhe camera and says "don't be scared, don't be shy, come on in the waters fine" it spoke to my being an artistic person that is being told directly by this other artistic person to just fucking do it. Don't be scared. It spoke to me on a really deep level. He also won a Grammy for this song.
@@nuckfut420 that's what makes art so amazing. It effects each of us differently. It hits me hard because I hid myself from the world in my way, too. When he looks at rhe camera and says "don't be scared, don't be shy, come on in the waters fine" it spoke to my being an artistic person that is being told directly by this other artistic person to just fucking do it. Don't be scared. It spoke to me on a really deep level.
@@nuckfut420 it actually does, that’s what Bo burnham does
I can say confidently, this song will outlive all of us.
I agree, missed yah joog glad too see you around I used to watch you alot in middle school I'm 22 now never knew tfue was your brother till 2 years ago lol. Hope all is well love yah my guy
who wants to ease into conversation with your few remaining friends about this and then back out before anyone has to commit.
I fucking hope so.
@Ech cool
yes
Him yelling at you in his real voice just hits different it fucking hurts
Definitely a side of Bo that we don’t usually see. It hit hard for me. Almost like he’s breaking or something.
I’m so used to hearing him sound amused or comfortable at best and tired or slightly annoyed at worst that hearing him raise his voice makes me feel like something terrible either has happened, is happening, or is about to happen.
@@r2d2fromstartrek16 Its such a visceral sound, there had to be real emotions behind that scream. It does hit different, it does feel jarring, yet also concrete proof that so much of his emotions went into this special and these songs. I remember my first time hearing that part in the song, and his scream literally scared me for a moment. I perceived it as legitimate anger directed at me. Then when he picks up the camera and dances around with "us" the mood changes completely. It's like he revealed his true frustration for a fraction of a second, then went back to entertaining us. I have mixed feelings about that moment, but I can't get enough of it.
None of his released specials have ever had him act so broken, so his very real seeming emotional breakdown before this song followed by him screaming in anger and grabbing our perspective was a fairly disturbing sequence…
@@mr.stuffdoer8483 well said.
The first version: sounds like your inner demons trying to lure you to your death
This version: sounds like a broken man convincing himself
someone finally fkn described it perfectly
Hell yes
Hey love we were already crying we didn't need you to break us entirely ✋😌 /J
@@kyethrasher9152 😭 I’m sorry. If it makes you feel better typing that made me hella sad too XD
This actually made me think. What if this song isn't him talking to us. What if he's talking to himself?
Did anyone else notice during this portion of the special the battery is full, at a stand still, then during the chorus at one point the battery is empty and blinking. Extremely powerful to show his mentality during this song, making it even more sad.
no way
Not me sobbing when I hear:
"You say the ocean's rising, like I give a shit
You say the whole world's ending, honey it already
You're not gonna slow it, heaven knows you tried
Got it? Good, now get inside"
This part hits so fucking hard.
In the original version, this part sounded sarcastic, like Bo was making a dark humour joke, which makes you laugh and think about the issue at the same time… But this version is just a depressed man stating the truth like it has haunted him and now he’s just tired of it, and is trying to accept that he can’t really do anything about it… It hits harder in this one…
I agreed so fkn much
Wow I don’t feel so weird. It makes me sob every time.
i suppose as my interpretation, this verse specifically feels like a euphemism for depression, this really bad problem thats just getting worse and worse and theres nothing you can do about it because its a perpetual cycle thats happening to you. the more you try to help the more you actually make it worse because when you fail to make it better, you just make it worse as a result (feeling like shit for not being able to help it again and again so many times over). the "ocean rising" feels like the end of you, and theres nothing you can do to stop it, so you just eventually stop caring, telling yourself, "don't bother trying, because you've tried everything to stop it to no avail." i know that feeling all too painfully well.
one factor of bo's special that i really love is that ive seen that there can be a ton of different interpretations of specific moments, songs, scenes etc, based on the watcher's life story. i dont think someone who hasnt experienced depression and/or s/i would really think the same as i do about this verse. which i really think is cool - and i think thats why it can really resonate with such a large amount of people, who are all pretty diverse. :)
@@cybernetic444 I agree! This perfectly summarizes what I feel about this song, and Inside in general. His older songs are also great but not as introspective.
Thanks for taking the time to share your thoughts!
I also feel that this song is one that you must have lived through to understand. Just a rough time can make you understand it. I showed it to my family and they didn't get it. I asked, "Don't you feel how powerful it i?" They said, "No, but ok." So... yeah. A lot of his songs, like you say, have so many interpretations due to different people's experiences.
cant stop thinking about how bo is actually an insanely talented singer his voice is so pretty
he really flexed his vocals in Inside
I feel like he really improved since his break as well!
@@leah.p.6687 yeah he used to sound more nasally and slightly higher pitched
@@musicbyjamescoates yh that's the stylistic choice dipstick, you can hear his improvement in other songs
@@musicbyjamescoates that's the whole fucking point
Notice how no one cheers when he says, “And I did! I got better!”
wow i didn’t realize until now
It's actually more interesting than that, if you think about it. It's not that no one cheered, it's that Bo himself didn't edit any cheering in at that point, like he did elsewhere.
@@MrMasque I believe he did this to illustrate the irony that he was finally better and then says "and then, the funniest thing happened.." Because he was right back where he started before the pandemic.
But he edit cheering at “the funniest thing happened “ :/
yeah, it highlights what he’s talked about so much, how people cheer and laugh when he jokes, “dance, boy, dance,” basically, and no one seems to care
I can't quite articulate it, but hearing this pitched to Bo's voice just hits so much harder. It's so much more honest and vulnerable... it's just violently human. This entire show just captures the pandemic perfectly.
Yes. Correct. Exactly
around 4:41 the desperation that starts creeping into his voice is brilliant. he's an incredible artist
this was always my favorite part of the song
"it's almost over, it's just begun": every day with depression
Yep… 🙁
I've been depressed since my second deployment to Iraq almost seventeen years ago. You sort of just get used to it...
@@howaboutno2024 90
@@NotKimiRaikkonen I got on medication when I was in college. My social anxiety was really bad. It helps. I was hospitalized in 2014 (after college) for being suicidal and I learned about Dialectial Behavioral Therapy. It helps. It's something I have to keep coming back to when I'm struggling with stuff. Check it out; maybe it can help :)
I’ve been depressed and all sorts of messed up for over 10 years now. It’s almost over.
The fact that we know it isn't a real audience and it's just him playing a recording of people screaming for him seriously hurts.
I think it really enhances his point, the audience laughter sounds intrusive and inappropriate, which contributes to the sense of anxiety and unease.
@@crazykenna exactly like the fact that at the end of the part we’re he literally tells everyone that the pandemic ruined his plans all we hear is laughter just really hurts.
@@crazykenna yeah, even when he used to perform live that would happen. The audience would always laugh when he was talking about serious issues. It could be a representation of that
@@crazykenna It conveys the same feeling I got from Make Happy. Just extreme unease and honestly a little bit of nausea. Just hearing people laugh because they think he’s messing with them.
@@dylanmckenzie7840 Listening to the laughter and cheering at the end of the Kanye rant, baffled me. He was incredibly forward at that movement yet its as if the audience was ...oblivious to what he said.
When i first watched that, I thought it as a totally sincere, and to a degree heart-breaking.
i understand the absolute impact of the "get the fuck up!" part, but can we talk about his delivery on the last two "all eyes on me" lines, the way his voice says "me" is enchanting
"We're going to go where everybody knows everybody." I love how at first it sounds like we're going to a party then we come to find out it's really the biggest of graveyards.
Holy shit. Ouch.
what💀
hearing him yell “get the fuck up” in his natural voice is so painful. you dont normally hear this guy speak or yell in anger so hearing it really makes it so much more impactful
You should watch the videos of him screaming at hecklers lol
Honestly a lot of this show was off putting in a really impactful way with the direct acting choices he made. It really seems to drive home themes of oppression and loneliness when the person embodying these personas we see throughout the show is more widely known for comedy.
Reminded me of when he shouts near the end of the kanye song it sounds like there is so much pain in that.
Reminded me of “At least grass stays away from my BUTTHOLE!” in #deep.
*cough* a world on fire
Imagine crowd's reaction if Bo acctualy performed this shit live for the first time.
godd i would probobly actually cry if i was in the crowd for that
I feel like it would be sorta wrong to cheer at the audience parts though... I mean that’s the point of them right? That they’re not actually listening to Bo? It would feel cruel to genuinely carry out that ignorance
@@heath6802 Yeah that's right. Acctualy the appearance of those crowd laughs and cheers inspired the thought of this comment. I assume the people would have screamed similarly as it is at the beggining of the song, but later the reactions would probably switch to something that Can't Handle This had.
I think the reaction would be the same as when he did Can't Handle This, because it was such a big crowd and it was one of the most well known times when he expressed his mental health on stage.
@@heath6802 Yeah you can look at it like that, but I think theyre probably put in there to show how he misses that.
I have synesthesia and that part where he harmonizes and says “got it? good now get inside” i see the most vivid ocean green- blue. I’ve never seen such a bright color from any other song. pretty cool shit
Wow, it's so cool to have been blessed with synesthesia. What are the other colors that you can see in other parts of the song?
Because I pictured it, it would be ocean color too like he was singing in deep ocean and it echos. But I'm curious is there any other colors there
I have synesthesia too! I see blue in this song and mostly it's dark blue and silver, but when it intensifies in the second half the silver turns to like a gold dust over a deeper, more vibrant ocean blue.
Such an awesome perspective to hear from! Thank you for this!
I have a weird synesthesia because I see shapes according to sound but the reason it's weird is because I also have aphantasia so I can't actually picture what I'm seeing. It's cool but so hard to explain
it gives me full-body goose bumps! its involuntary it just happens every time! haha
his deeper voiced one was beautiful, but i didn’t tear up then like i did with this one. such a clear beautiful voice. i love both of them. time to replay it
If you don’t love this song, you’re wrong.
facts lmao
For real. Such emotion.
What if there's a third option where I both hate the song with how sad it is but also like it because it's very good
Sure bro whatever you say
Cool
"And then . . . the funniest thing happened."
That line makes me tear up every time. It's been a long fucking year, hasn't it?
I'm crying
We made it bitch ✨✨✨
Same. I sobbed the first time
Kind of a short one, actually.
@@hiiiiiii4544 we made it and we will recover ^^
tell me why this is more haunting than the actual version? Its like the deeper voice in the original provides a kind of disconnect that you don't automatically think that the song is Bo's actual feelings, and then hearing it like this?....
I think its because in the original, it uses the pentatonix scale without the two notes with the harshest dissonance to create that “slipping into nihilism” feel of the song, whereas here that isnt included so its a lot more humanized(?) its legit 2am lol i dunno fs
The pitch correction you did is insane. Good job, I really appreciate this!
I know it isn’t real, but the sound of the audience laughing during a serious moment really hit me hard
I think that’s what makes this song what it is. They see it as the usual act but this man is literal fucking spilling over and cracking. He’s calling for help but they just laugh. That’s the life of a comedian and that’s why I think being a comedian can be one of the most stressful things.
@@vixviarts EXACTLY!!! Especially the scene in the movie where he’s locked outside and is frantically trying to get back in his house while an audience laughs very loud at him. You can tell he’s panicking and trying very hard to get back in his house, but the audience is laughing at him. It made be start BAWLING
Ok but this is something I think about a lot. Since "we think we know you" actually. Like the audience as a "character" in his shows is very superficial and they take a long time to catch on to the things he says. Another example is in "can't handle this," the audience is just cheering over a really juicy minor chord change right before he straight up tells us his biggest problem is us. They just laugh over it and I've always been really annoyed by that (silly I know.) So for him to just expect us to look at the very top layer of him as a person is very isolating for him, yet incredibly intuitive. I have a lot of friends who "like Bo" and have really latched on to "welcome to the internet" and "white woman's instagram" but never songs like this and I've always thought that was interesting and expected. Idk if anything I just typed made sense but yeah lol
@@kaycemeadows9860 yeah It makes me feel bad when people don’t like his more serious songs and only the offensive shit. Or the like goofy shit.
At the end of Inside, the "audience" laughed at Bo having a panic attack :/ I didnt laugh. I felt bad
bruh the yell in his original voice scares me more than i'd like to admit. it's like hearing the cool uncle actually get angry and raise their voice at you for the first time.
Literally- I’ve gotten kinda de-sensitized to it by now, but the first few times I heard it, it literally made my heart jump
I am the cool Uncle and I am FUCKING PISSED
kinda
People yelling at me sends me into a panic and even the original got my heart racing, this one nearly shut me down lmao
@@AshleighHenczel oh my days I'm the same, i completely break down 😭
This song is about panic attacks.. if you've ever suffered from them, this song gives you chills down your spine
i was definitely not expecting this when i turned on the special. i thought it was going to just be a bunch of funny songs. it wasn’t. if you pay attention, there is obviously such a bigger and deeper meaning to this special. many people may think that the title “inside” is meant to stand for how we’ve been “inside” for all of the pandemic. i think that it is representing how bo is stuck “inside” his head with all of his anxiety/depression. i had my friend watch the special and she didn’t really seem to get the bigger picture. i know this special was nominated for an emmy and i hope to god that he wins because after all he has been through he deserves it
I really wish bo to be happy :(
It’s sooo frustrating when ppl don’t see the deeper side of things that you see. I think a lot of it for me is that I’ve watched bo for so long, I’ve seen his highs and lows, I remember his break, so it all pieced together perfectly for me. But if you’ve never felt it, it’s harder to see it.
The idea of this is so funny, like imagine bo seeing this? It’s just “you know what, fuck you *unedits your audio*
ong if he saw this I hope he wouldnt be mad about it I just wanted to hear his regular voice in the notes he hit cause they sounded so good in general and this just sounds so beautiful in my opinion
@@lucifersdxrling hi is the gif from akira? its nagging me so i thought I should ask
@@ivyloops I think it's Eva. That looks like shinji.
Just a guess tho, I've never actually watched evangelion
Bro I was trying to cry at this song and then I read your comment at the emotional crux of the video and snorted like a fuckin goon lol
@@ivyloops cowboy bebop
"You say the whole world's ending, honey, it already did." Fucking. Powerful.
honey, not buddy... lmao
@@ieradossantos And the award for unnecessary corrections goes to..........YOU.
@@ieradossantos Not really. The point behind that line is that the world isn't ending. It already has. The word being either 'honey' or 'buddy' is inconsequential and doesn't take away from the message Bo is trying to convey.
@@devonproffitt10 Honey is comforting. Buddy isn't. Its a huge difference imho
I'm sorry that that's the part that you're focused on.
This song is strangely comforting yet melancholic, it speaks to me on some very personal level as someone who has struggled with anxiety but is very ambitious
This song is a time capsule for 2020, it really captures the exhausting loneliness and the despair to the point of numbness that plagued a lot of us, especially those of us who are mentally ill, during quarantine in 2020. I can't wait to show this song to my future kids(if I have any, that is) so that they can understand what it was like.
I always got the impression that Bo artificially deepening his voice was an attempt to play a character so he could feel more comfortable about being this vulnerable. So to hear this now, as close to his true voice as we can get, is a knife to the heart.
why would you say this im in tears
he does it in cant handle this right now too, it's not cause hes unsecure tho it's artistic
no not even. he obviously has no problem opening up. his voice was deepened because he thought that it would make this song better in some way.
I didn’t think it was an attempt to play a character, I always thought that he made that choice to make it more digestible for the audience. He’s not trying to be a different person because this is all very personal to his life. The sound doesn’t sound like natural so it makes it slightly less raw so the audience doesn’t get too overwhelmed, but the message is still there. At least that’s how I always thought about it.
my interpretation was that his deepened voice to show is inner voice/thoughts/etc. he does the same thing in ‘goodbye’ when he talks about being inside again, as if he’s criticizing himself for going back to where his mental health started
The ending to this song when he sings "heads down, pray for me" yet the nonexistent crowed starts cheering. Like he's calling out for help but all the audience sees is his act. I've heard him talk about his panic attacks while on stage in interviews, and he describes it as a surreal experience because inside he feels like he is dying but on the outside he's just hitting his marks and saying his lines while an audience laughs at him. I feel this song is a representation of those panic attack moments, and his laughter at the end breaks my heart.
Yes. Especially hits hard at the end of the special I think when he's trying to get back inside and away from it all and he's clearly desperate and cracking under the pressure but the audience is laughing the entire time at his efforts, probably thinking it is an act, or worse, enjoying his suffering because it leads to their entertainment.
@@MarleneRodriguez711 ouch :,(
Agreed, pay attention to the breath at the end, he sounds like he's gasping for air by the end, like hyperventilating. Fucking masterful.
I saw a fantastic analysis where Inside was compared to Pagliacci. Pagliacci is a two-act opera about a man named Canio who plays Pagliacci the clown as part of a traveling comedy troupe. During a show, he realizes his wife, Nedda, has been unfaithful to him. He has an intense emotional breakdown on stage, but Nedda and the other actors try to continue the show and the audience cheers, believing Canio is giving a powerful performance and that it's all part of the act. It's not until Canio kills Nedda and her lover that the audience realizes that what they saw wasn't part of the play at all. It ends on the line "La commedia è finita", or "the comedy is finished!"
While Bo Burnham has frequently poked fun at how art is fake and everything is meticulously planned (he meant to knock the water over...and play the track again), but Inside is really challenging viewers to determine what's real and isn't.
@@MarleneRodriguez711 it's incredible how many connotations that ending has. Being outside, he isn't able to give himself a feedback and be comfortable with that, having self-awareness. Now he has to face what others will say about him, now he isn't the only judge, now he will have feedback from other humans other than himself, and that feedback will not be pixels if it's a different reaction from what he predicted or expected. And that terrifies anyone
“It’s almost over” -COVID 19
“It’s just begun” -Delta Variant
Exactly.
This explains me in July
don't you fucking dare
this made me laugh and it probably shouldn't've but whatever lmao
@@landen4901 laugh the pain away. What more appropriate place to do that than a bo burnham song?
I didn’t realize that Bo and I were the same age. This new special really hit me right in the heart. 5 years ago I had cancer and my life was put on hold. I spent 5 years in intensive mental therapy and came back out into the world (started working again). Then 2020 happened. I had a job for maybe 3 months before it was all taken away by the pandemic.
I am glad your okay, and sorry you had to go through that
I can't be the only one who thinks that Bo screaming "get the Fuck up!!" Sounds a lot more angry and aggressive when his voice isn't down pitched
tbh it almost sounds like he's mad at everyone and himself for so many reasons - but mostly a callout to himself to get up and face performing again. to get up and just do *something* even though everything's all gone horribly ?
Something I think is interesting is exactly the fact he down-pitched the vocals in the song in the first place. While I think artistically, there are actually a lot of things to interpret in this song and its make-up, I think the vocal down-pitch is a big one. I feel he very specifically didn't want us to hear him saying this. His voice, I mean. There's so much in this song that screams "every encouragement just makes me feel worse right now, and I'm not gonna feel better, so just deal with it", and I feel like the down-pitch was a way of masking it a bit. Making it feel like we don't need to associate it with Bo himself, but another person, or maybe another side of him. He shows a lot of his pain in Inside, between songs, but it is all edited by him, and people will watch it with the expectation that most of it is a performance. So, this song feels like he's trying to be genuine while also masking it in the voice of another persona.
Came here for this comment like woahhh buddy
That part I hate, it’s angry...but the song sounds good either way, but lower pitch sounds better.
@@sillylilguy201 wow your comment really got to me. I never considered that he might be yelling at himself to get up and perform again. Makes me sad
I need Bo screaming "Get the fuck up!" as my alarm tbh.
This comment made me laugh so hard
I did this
I saw someone who did that and tbh I don’t know why you’d do that to yourself every day 😂😳
When I start going back to school I need to do this. My moms gonna hate me for waking her up like that tho/j
1000% yes
His deranged laugh, followed by the seamless return to the tempo of the song is impressive as hell.
earbuds aren’t doing it anymore i need this song inside me
“you say the oceans rising, like i give a shit. you say the whole world’s ending, honey it already did. you’re not gonna slow it, heaven knows you tried. got it? good, now get inside.” just scratches my brain in all the right ways.
Holy shit, this part came up for me literally the moment I read your comment 0.0
3:17 3:30 (just for repeat purposes)
@@be8971 LITERALLY SAME WTF
@@be8971 UHM SAME THO-
@@be8971 I love it when it happens but it didn't work for me this time ;_;
His voice is so fucking good. He’s really just the most ridiculously talented dude.
One could say that... IT'S NAAAAATURALLY GOOD
@@chauhanvats3 haha eyyyyyyy
@@chauhanvats3 MY VOICE IS SO FUCKING NATURAAAAL
youngboy better
he's improved so much
I genuinely despise how much this resonates with me. It makes me physically recoil when I realize how much of myself relates to this. I actually hate it so much.
This is a beautiful, wonderful masterpiece, and I think I hate it with my entire being because of how much it makes me feel.
no I feel you man
I go through periods where I get intense derealization that linger around depression, and listening to this entire special has become a part of these periods. Lots of people had more self-actualization than they are comfortable with during 2020 so it resonates with a lot of people.
For some of us, this will resonate for a long time. It's beautiful, and I feel this music in hy heart, and it hurts, and I hate it.
I am so glad someone can understand how I feel. I’ve always had such a dislike for him and then here comes inside and I haven’t ever felt so heard. It pisses me off that I’ve got so much In common with him but now I’m overwhelmed with emotions to this day.
It’s official. Pain, suffering, anxiety, and its raw, immense, cathartic expression creates beautiful music. Nothing against Bo’s talent, he’s incredibly talented, but I don’t think any of us ever saw him writing such a banger like this. He always had musical talent, and most of his songs still have more of a “musical” (like the genre of film) feel to them, but it was diving deep into his anxieties, and making raw, honest music about it that sparked this masterpiece.
any emotion can create beautiful music. pain and suffering do not have a monopoly on that. artists don't have to go through terrible things in order to make beautiful things for us
@@purplebloodot765
Thanks, yeah :)
@@purplebloodot765 exactly. The idea that suffering leads to good art is inaccurate and also harmful.
@@purplebloodot765 precisely. the worst part about making art like this is that it can often be obsessive
like honestly, i'm not that good of a musician, but the times where i do the best improv is when i'm improv-ing when i'm depressed or tired and whilst that's nice, it's clearly self destructive because it's obviously not healthy
@@purplebloodot765 You're absolutely right. But, through all of human history pain, struggle and pushing forward has inspired some of the greatest innovations, ideas, humanitarian efforts, art, music, etc. Those things can definitely come from happiness or good events, but more often than not they're created out of struggle. It's part of being human, I think.
For the first time in a while this special made me feel so human
I agree, honestly it made me start really thinking about how many lives have been lost to covid in a way that wasn't just some statistic
I have found ways to feel this. You have to accept pain as part of the human condition
ayyyyyyyy we’re in this together baby!
this is the best description I have found for it. thank you.
@airlockengage this
The line that hurt me the most I think was “you’re not gonna slow it, heaven knows you tried”
It just feels so hopeless
Yk I wanna take it seriously but I just can’t with your pfp 😭
@@rhin8228 well someone's gotta make sure Connor stops licking blood
I'm an animal rights activist (for climate reasons alongside ethics) and this hits right in the metaphorical balls
I keep asking people how to escape climate doomerism and I've never gotten a clear answer
@@devinward461 I found hope in this podcast episode - ruclips.net/video/f2JPVL_xqHE/видео.html the TLDR is that the hopelessness of the situation is overstated and there is a lot that we can do to slow climate change.
This song has always been a tear-jerker for me, but hearing the "raw" vocals of the original octave is just heartbreaking. It feels like he's just speaking from the depths of his soul and it's so sad.
I know it'll never happen but if Bo made a serious album it'd be a fucking chart topper.
The modulation of his voice is a way to hide. This feels so much more real and painful. Vulnerable. It's like he is naked
Yes this is exactly how I feel, it feels so raw and like we just ripped a layer of skin off and now it hurts even more
yeah hes done that with a lot of other songs before too esp when the topic gets heavier and heavier
Even more so because this is one of the few parts of the special where he's being completely honest about how he was.
I mean he was in the special
I still hear a lot of the modulation, personally. His voice is till doing very unnatural pitch slides and such. But yeah, the modulation stuff was used for the same feel during the Kanye Rant, which also got real as all hell.
i can’t explain how comforting his voice is, like even just him talking.
It makes me feel like I have a dad 😅
@@toughbreak92 literally😭 and the yelling clips in the “facetime” song does nott help
i can’t take your comment seriously with your profile pic 🤣
@@aspiring-raccoon8824 i forget that this is my profile pic😭 i’ve had it since middle school... cabij🤌
@@irkskirt5384 it used to be my phones wallpaper for like 3 years of school so same
bo legitimately has a good voice. if he came out with a serious song made just for listening, not laughing, i’d listen
art is dead
Have you been laughing at All Eyes On Me?
This whole album is made to listen
This whole thing is for listening what are you talking about. It’s amazing
I thought there would be way too many effects on his voice to even recognize him when his voice was transposed.
I was absolutely wrong. This is fucking great.
its so painful how he does that whole monologue about something legitimately painful and the audience just sees the cry for help as another one of his jokes.
This is just edited in, you know right?
This was all made home office style
@@honkhonk3192 yeah I do know I think it makes it more poignant that he edited the laughs in himself
reminds me of the green room performance of “art is dead”, which may have been what bo was going for
I’ve only recently started listening to his songs, and I’ve noticed he hints and mental health problems quite a bit
@@honkhonk3192 Well yeah, but this happens at literally all of his performances
“you say the oceans rising like i give a shit
you say the world is ending honey it already did”
this line made me sob like a baby the first time i heard it :’-(
Then everytime I hear him say "now get inside" I get goose bumps while I'm in tears
I cried too
3:16
Why?
@@danielledawson2099 I’ve found my people
this makes me imagine him on stage when he was singing 'cant handle this' all those years ago :')
me too
me too omfg
They adjusted the formant while tuning the vocals (super cool). I love that you did this because it at least allows the audience to hear what it would more or less sound like without that effect. Well done!
“You say the world is ending, buddy it already did” hit in this one, ouch
he says honey not buddy :) but yeah it really does hit super hard
for me it’s the part right after, “You're not gonna slow it, Heaven knows you tried”, cause i’m an environmental activist 🥲
@@bibianabelisova1067 that's a good way of interpreting this. For me personally the lyrics are more about him drowning in his emotions and the timing of everything becoming too much for Bo. After all he went through he finally was ready to let the world see him again and then boom covid happened. "You say the ocean's rising, like I give a shit. You say the world's ending, honey it already did." This to me feels like his depression made him give up on everything and accept his fate.
@@brmns the fact is we can't fix it. You have too many wealthy elitists who profit off of the planets destruction. All they care about is turning a selfish profit. They don't care about any of the other humans. They barely care about their own children, if they even have any. They don't care if it all goes up in smoke as long as they can Jeff Bezos themselves off the planet before it happens. Most of which push the neoliberal fascist agendas.
The world ended the moment that meteor hit the planet🦕
He added laugh tracks and stuff to this song, but I honestly feel like if he ever performs it live, it's going to be completely silent in the room other than the sounds of people crying, and then a standing ovation afterwards.
If you watched his Kanye rant son from Make Happy though there was oddly placed cheering and claps from the live audience even in the similarly heavy parts. I think on some level people are conditioned to respond as an audience and on another people were cheering for the sheer art rather than because they felt elated.
I listened to elvis presley performing I'm so lonesome I could cry. He did it in front of an audience and they laughed. It was horrible. Pretty horrible. So yeah, no. It's just like the song hey ya, part of the lyrics is that no one is truly listening and it's true cos even I didn't realise how deep the song was under the vibes until I someone else's comment. Crowd mentality, entertainment. You expect comedy or you see someone else laughing, everyone else and feel like you should do you join them, regardless of your actual opinion, maybe not even bothering to form an opinion at all... People might not care as much as you think but it's a nice thought, who knows, maybe. Hopefully, tho, he'll just rest, maybe even retire and we don't have to find out 👍🏾
Reminds me of when he sang Art is Dead to a bunch of comedians. It was horrible to watch. He was so sloppy and angry because he could just tell they didn't get it, and were just laughing at him. I felt so bad for him because he couldn't just stop mid song and say "fuck you" or walk out or anything.
And then everyone clapped.
@@spriddlez I watched “Make Happy” live in NYC when he was on tour and the Kanye rant was so powerful in person with the lighting and atmosphere of it all. There were definitely oddly placed laughs and cheers. People know he’s being serious and confronting his own demons on the stage in front of us, yet accepting that as an audience member means we have demons to accept too
The image you used for the video is perfect. Anime man on his knees crying into his hands while his white Tshirt flaps in the wind as the world comes to the end. It's the exact feeling I get watching Inside.
That's Kaneda from Akira!
It's been 6 months and I still get chills at the "got it, good now get inside" part
I wish he said that a few more times throughout - it’s so so good
can confirm - 2 years later and it still gives chills
The way he yelled “Get the fuck up!” And then grabbed the camera legitimately scared me when I watched, Inside kind of broke the disconnect between performer and audience by showing us the behind the scenes and how Bo’s mental state deteriorated. He legitimately scared me in this special, and I hope that he takes another break after this. I don’t even care if he never make another special, I just want Bo to be okay
It’s a performance bud.
@@deathpresent101 you obviously don't understand the performance then
@@danielvankeulen9604 um what? Ya I understand the performance. I'm just stating to CalebCat that Bo is fine. There saying he should take another break after this. Why? hes not in serious mental distress right now. Its a performance.
i think apart of the ending was him saying goodbye to comedy. i’ve never watched a bo special before this, but i think this will be one of his last if not the last for a long time of his performances.
@@deathpresent101 It's not just a performance. A lot of his true feelings are there...
I can't imagine what performing this song to an empty room was like for him, especially without the added audience and deepened voice. I think it was just pure venting and singing what he felt was right in the moment repeating verses as he felt like and just going all out in his room with lights and equipment and emptiness and raw emotions
he did it with some studio songs, and they hit just as hard as Inside. Nerds, Eff, Channel 5, these hit you like a train especially without an audience.
The repetition was done deliberately. The beginning of the song the vocals were about pre-pandemic mental health struggles, how he was in hiding, etc.. Then says "And then, the funniest thing happened." Because he was right back where he started, but worse off than before.
@@laceywantsbass his pre pandemic mental health was due to not selling tickets to shows. He did some tv and movie work. He didn't however live in this room for 12 months. He lived in the 3 million dollar house behind it with his highly successful partner who also helped film and edit this music. Shes also an established song writer and director. Dont beleive everything you see my friend. He's very clever and deserved all the credit he's getting for this piece.
@@Ian-ev5tg Hey man, you said "his pre pandemic mental health was due to not selling tickets to shows" and I was just wondering where you got this info? Can you link a source? Also, are you suggesting Bo hasn't had lifelong struggles with mental health? If so, where did you get this information from? Source? I'm honestly curious, as this is counter to literally everything I've read and heard from the man himself. May seem like I'm coming at you, but I'm legitimately curious, thanks for any insight you can provide.
Good perspective
The part where Bo is yelling for us to get out is twice as terrifying now
he says "get up" not "get out"
I feel this song is for anyone who has to Mask. Anyone who feels alien, isolated, artificial, and boxed in. Anyone who has to Perform to be normal. Anyone who aches simply existing. Bo hears you. Bo took center stage, terrified, hopeless, begging for prayers, to prove that he sees you.
I can't thank him enough for doing this, for facing the fears, for singing, for performing, for aching out loud. I hope someday he no longer has to, when we all find out voices for ourselves. We love you Bo.
hearing him shout *“get the fuck up”* without any voice effects made it hit me so much harder
literally omg i wanted to cry
i wanted to cry for him
There are still vocal effects on this, he's got a doubler and autotune on his voice.
it really brought back some memories 😅
When that insane harmonizing starts in that "Got it? Good, now get inside" I don't know if it's my brain or my body that starts melting
I cannot stop listening to that part, it’s amazing
I feel that too
It’s my favorite part of the entire special.
If you like harmonies you might like honeybee by steam powered giraffe
Ajsjsjgdjdjjajsj yessss
Such a powerful song, gives me chills. Also - hearing it pitch-shifted makes me realise how far his singing voice has progressed! His voice has gotten much better over the years, he’s so damn talented.
(TW: vent/ranting about growing up)
"And then the funniest thing happened" hits a pretty hard chord for me, something ive been really frustrated with for these past couple years. I was a kid that grew up way too fast, and was mature for too long, but during high school i finally started loosening up. I made friends, went out with them, did some stupid stuff with them and had fun. But i never got to do much. When i was younger i had a pretty huge "not like other kids" complex due to my early maturity (likelu due to trauma and or possible neurodivergency), i was more like a mini adult than a child, and i didnt figure out until it was FAR too late that being a teenager is fun. For the first time, i wanted to indulge in being stupid and having fun with friends, having fun and being impulsive. I was embracing my teenhood before it was gone. I had a couple good runs, and i wanted so much more. I wanted to at least have my least year as a 17 yr old. And then the funniest thing happened.
I got all of maybe a couple months of being a teenager. I barely got to do anything and it was torn away from me by a fucking pandemic. My last year of childhood, and i never got to have it. And now im an adult and im expected to be mature again, and its all so, so overwhelming. I dont want to do this. I dont want to grow up, but i am now and it fucking sucks. I dont want to dwell on the past, but im so goddamn mad about how it feels like i got utterly fucked by life for no reason and now i just have to deal with it with my broken mental state and existential dread. And i dont know how to deal with it, im stuck because i want to move on and be a good adult but i also dont want to let go of the scrap of teenhood i got to experience. It just sucks, man. My heart goes out to anyone else in my generation whos going through this rut thats supposed to be an important developmental stage of our lives. Life hasnt been nice to us.
I like to think that things happen for a reason, even though we might never know for sure what that reason is. I like to think that even shitty things come to make us stronger or to evolve in ways we would not if we wouldn’t have those experiences. Yeah, without the pandemic you could have had experienced some parts of your life in a different way, but at the same time you would not have experienced things that you did. Life is made of a bunch of “what if’s” but they are just possibilities. What is real is what actually happened, and the only thing we can do is embrace what actually happens and try to make the best of it. You are only “you” because of what happened to your life, both good and bad, and accepting this is hard, but can be very relieving.
My heart goes out to you, but in all sincerity..you are still so, so young. I don't even think of a 25 year as more than a slightly older teenager/child. Depends on the individual. But really, I missed a lot of things in my teen years and early 20s, but at 31 I am still finding fun ways to enjoy my life. Just because you turn 18, that doesn't mean your childhood is dead and all fun is over. I think people make way too much of it, turning 18. Like..want to go out to the movies and have fun? Go for it. Want to be silly and have a sleepover? Do it. Even if it is by yourself. Make a fort. Play video games. Whatever makes you happy. And if nothing works..try therapy or even medication. I had a friend who spent years unhappy, and it took a few visits to the doctor and 1 medication for her to be the happiest she has ever been. She regrets not going sooner. So don't fall into the trap of self diagnosing and living in that illness/trauma/disorder. If you're neuro divergent, then work with it, not against it. Don't make it your whole identity. Venting is great to get stuff off your chest, but once you do, don't pick it back up again and again.
Ok so I'm sorry if this isn't helpful, but have you heard of age regression? I'm bad at explaining things so you might have to look it up, but from reading your comment it might really help :)
Being an adult can be really great, if you have enough money to do the things you want. Just don't have kids and you can do whatever tf you want all the time.
@@lisarae7823 Completely agreed on this. I had my 'letting loose' phase at 22, and I think it can be done at any age. To be frank, it's something we should never completely give up on (: keeps us young
i cant explain the feeling that u get while listening to this song it's like a weird sadness
it's that funny feeling
Melancholy.
Someone on Insider described as "having a religious experience with your mental disorder" and that's as close as I'll get to an explanation to what this song makes me feel
@@giualonso Christ yeah that really hits the nail on the head
It's like. Angry but sad but like you wanna scream. Rip me open inside out but don't touch me kinda
The addition of canned laughter and cheering is just so... offputting.
By this point in the special we've seen him just deteriorate emotionally, and I'll be honest, this song *scared* me. I was scared for him, and eventually by him when he screams at us and grabs the camera. For me, this is a song of someone who has lost all hope, and has basically cracked. So the addition of hearing laughter from a non-existent audience over something that genuinely was more tragic than funny is so unnerving.
It reminds me of live performances of Make Happy where the crowd is just going wild over songs like Can’t Handle This or We Think We Know You, those songs are direct conversation to the audience, but they don’t respond to it with serious thought, only cheers to Bo’s performance. I can’t imagine what stress he was under performing those songs that came straight from his heart only to be treated onstage as “funny song man”
@@heath6802 Exactly and are quiet when he's really serious
When he laughs towards the end it feels like hes either laughing at himself spinning in a circle alone in a room or in character he genuinely thinks he's on stage, either way its kinda depressing. This whole thing was less of a comedy special and more of a slow descent deeper into Bo's mind and i loved it
1000%. This is exactly how it felt for me too.
@@heath6802 that’s the whole point it’s supposed to be tragic because take that laughter away and he’s in the room and he is literally joking while no one is Laughing in the background
"Heads down, pray for me" sounds like a cry for help while trying to preform for his audience. Makes me think of his last live performance 5 or 6 years ago. He feels like he has to preform, and entertain others at the cost of himself. I understand that so well.
Maybe it's because I fell down a rabbit hole and it's 5AM but this legit has given me chills...Kudos to you for making this.
"You say the ocean's rising
Like I give a shit
You say the whole world's ending
Honey it already did
You're not gonna slow it
Heaven knows you tried
Got it? Good now get inside!"
What a brilliant bridge- simple, emotive and impactful. Gives me chills.
Strongly agree. It just hits the spot. It's like the code to a world class vault, or the deft flick of the finger that sets all my internal dominoes falling
That bridge is what got me hooked on this song, it just sums up such a specific feeling
Doomer mentality. I feel like this is what will millenials and zoomers define. I am not bashing it. I am one too, right at the generational shift. We are all not fine, we know how little impact we have on the society we were born in. And being screwed just hurts so much, it's easier to accept it.
same
I burst into tears when I heard it.
i'm diagnosed with severe PTSD, i have to mask the episodes and disassociation when they happen. this song is exactly what it feels like to have whole conversations and laughter on the outside, but be screaming for help on the inside
I have PTSD too, and that is exactly what it feels like!!
couldn’t have said it better
I still find myself waking up on the floor under my bed, or even outside in the bushes. it's been almost 15 years and I still hear the screams, still feel the loaded M4 slung across my chest at the checkpoint. I can still hear the mortar explosions in the distance, I still panic at the sight of conspicuous trash on the roadway, I still feel the unrelenting dread as the spectre of death stalks my nightmares and waits around every corner, at the bottom of every countless bottle, and in the rectory of every empty church I have begged hysterically for forgiveness in. I would kill myself right now, if I wasn't terrified of all the people I've taken from their lives, waiting for me not with anger... but with disappointment. friend, none of us are okay and we likely never will be again. it's the screaming for help that keeps us alive and the conversations and laughter that keeps us on the path to healing. We are important, whether we believe it or not
Oh my god this is exactly what I’ve been trying to say all these years
I don't likely have PTSD, but this is pretty much something I was already saying in another comment. I feel like the way he down-pitched his vocals in this song is another form of masking it, trying to separate what he says in the songs from himself, or maybe from his persona. Especially since the song is practically screaming "I need reassurance, but nothing is making me feel better, so I just have to deal with it and hope someone will see that".
how we feelin about the outtake of all eyes on me years later everyone?
Good.
When he yelled "get the fuck up" i got scared and felt so exposed, i was like "omg can he see me" for a moment
i think that was actually what he was going for? thats my interpretation at least! desperately reaching out for human interaction yknow
"omg can he see me" YES thank you that puts how I felt exactly into words
Anyone else besides me actually get the fuck up? It was like 3 a.m. and I was stark naked in bed, but damn I didn't feel like he was giving me a choice 😳
Yes I was lying on my but and jumped up and got my hands up as he asked
"Maybe I'll sit on the couch and watch you next time."
How is this version somehow even more depressing?
Probably because you just hear it as regular Bo’s voice so you can connect and feel his pain more. It humanizes the song and when hes yelling and laughing you can hear a voice that you actually recognize in so much pain
Because he just sounds...exhausted, drained. The deep voice makes it all a bit abstract, but this version is more grounded in reality.
@@wafflesmcgallagher934 My first thought was, "why is he exhausted and drained? Why record this then? Isn't it an act as part of the point he is making?"
But he has pointed out previously that the need to create is a big part of the drive for him. He wants approval, but he also just wants to make stuff that amuses him for himself, and not have to deal with the feedback.
And he recognizes that injecting honesty and his own personal struggles helps make the message stronger too.
So, why torture himself making this? Because on some level he feels he has to.
Yeah, you can transpose any of his songs either up or down 1.8 semitones, and it sounds like either his older or younger self. Really neat thing to do.
im recovering from surgery, and when Bo said "Get the fuck up.", i felt personally attacked
Bo's slightly deranged laugh at 4:49 is what gets me. I really don't know how to describe it.
For me It reminds me of when Im having existencial crisis and then have a hysteric laughter when I realise again and again how stupid everything is and how nothing makes sense and accept that I acnt do angthing about it... tbh the exprience isnt fun per say but its a human expirience Im glad to have had. Enotions are wierd like that. Pain and freedom at the same time was what I felt. This video as whole connected with me with that
This. Its like that deranged stressed out fuck it kind of laugh
its this laugh of over looking a situation with dismay, like "HAH wow I overreacted" or that's just my projection
@@animuswonder I don’t get that vibe at all, i think it’s more of what the initial comment said, like “holy shit this is my life” and it’s not a life you ever dreamed for yourself and you just break into hysterical laughter in dismay
I think it’s him laughing at how he is actually feeling real joy from hearing a fake audience cheering for him. I think he realizes it’s insane that he is having the feeling he had before having panic attacks on stage, genuinely enjoying entertaining people but knowing he is absolutely losing it. Hard to say, really. This guy is broken and i hope he gets better. Again.
The way 2020 was supposed to be the year for me. I was turning 20, finally going to therapy, go abroad for studies and I felt so hopeful. Now here I am at 21, lost so many relatives and friends to covid and in one of the lowest points of my life. What the fuck happened.
Hey I feel you dude. I was raped at 18 and had a kid. She was finally going to go to kindergarten this year and I thought I’d finally get a couple hours here and there to put together to start being my own person.
I even went dancing for the first time ever at 24, in early March. I had no idea the pandemic was coming because I’d given up social media and reading the news. I enjoyed it so much that I promised myself that I’d do it again. First lockdown happened 1 week later.
So I feel you, 100%. I’m so fucking sorry that happened to you bro 💖 we’ll make it.
My final year of undergraduate studies was 2020, and what would have originally been in person work placement ended up having to take place online. With my GPA i was set to make it into med school but… the pandemic shattered it. I failed a unit and had to take it again in the summer. I don’t know what I should be, what I should do. I had built all of my life around the aspiration of becoming a doctor and now I don’t think I’ll ever make it. The last half year I’ve spent figuring out who I’m supposed to be… I hope you make it, my friend. Pray for me.
i lost all my friends at late december because of various reasons, i was supposed to start university and get new friends and basically start anew. i have been two years in almost complete isolation because i have no one to talk to. it was such a bad timing and i dont think it could have had worse timing.
2020 and 2021 have been the hardest years of my life too. The dad I thought I loved dearly threw a knife at me. I am pressured by my parents to go into a university I didn't want to go into, and then into a major I didn't want to go into. And then for several months, I got scammed and exploited by someone who I thought just wanted to buy my art. My pained heart goes out to all of yours. I hardly have a relationship with God, but I'm praying for you all.
I hope within the past month, your life and way forward has gotten better. Life is never easy and almost completely uncertain. But the one thing that is certain is that it will go on
I can't tell yall how many times I've had a complete mental breakdown and came back to this song and just sat there listening to this song and just cried while putting this on repeat. This song is gold and he deserves everything in the world!! 💐💐💐💐💐
"are you feeling nervous, are you having fun?, it's almost over, it's just begun. don't overthink this, look in my eye, don't be scared, don't be shy come on in the waters fine"
this is by far my favourite part of the song it feels like like Bo expressing his anxiety in performing and his experiences with it. especially in the line "it's almost over it's just begun" since that's typically what someone tells themselves when they're in an anxiety inducing situation "don't worry it's almost over just a little longer" or" jesus christ i've been here for ages and we've only just started"
"are you feeling nervous" is a question for himself and feels almost rhetorical like no shit he's nervous he's standing in front of thousands of people with all eyes on him, while "are you having fun" is one posed at both him and the audience, does performing bring him more joy that fear? and what if the audience isn't enjoying themselves? does that stress of failure outweigh the joy of performing?
"don't overthink it" also feels like it's pointed both at himself being simple mental rehearsal to stay calm on stage but also to the audience, don't overthink what i'm trying to say, just enjoy the ride and have a laugh even though he's renowned for having deep meaning behind his cleverly formulated lyrics.
"look in my eye" is a bit ambiguous but with "don't be scared, don't be shy come on in the waters fine" it feels like someone comforting Bo before a performance, it could even just be him talking to himself in a figurative or literal mirror. "don't be scared it's going to be fine"
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3:32 Not only is it vocally astounding, but it almost feels like he is singing with all the voices he’s kept to himself, and he is truly letting everything coming out. Heartbreaking and truly amazing. It makes it even more heartfelt when you realize he is a comedian
it’s a machine. imogen heap is the best example of what it does in Hide and Seek. great usage of it though
@@DuFREAKY it’s not tho. These are multiple stacked harmonies. You can hear the influx in his voice on each stem. This is not a vocoder lol. He just understands theory.
@@YaBoyScout It's not a vocoder?!?
How is it heartbreaking? I’m not familiar with who burnham is?
@@furiousxXxpyro nah. It’s not. Man just understands theory
I love this version because he sounds so angelic, someone should do one verse with the special version end one verse with it pitch corrected. Some dark and light contrast
I just managed to play both simultaneously on spotify and youtube, pitch corrected and original together......It was an experience. It sounds like he's singing in a cathedral with a choir....I am emotionally drained right now....
@@TheRider2012 could you... teach me how? Or record it and post it??
@@mrhanekoma86 If you have spotify on a pc and on a phone you can control the spotify on your pc from the phone. So I just got this video ready on the pc and the spotify version ready then pressed play together. Wouldn't have a clue how to put them together!
he's like "i cant sing well" LIKE IS THIS MAN EVEN FOR REAL HE SOUNDS SO FUCKING GOOD
@@TheRider2012 I tried this by loading the special on my TV to the song and playing the pitch corrected version along with it and the way they clash just.. musically was off putting, so I muted the special and watched it with the pitch corrected audio and that too was an experience.
The harmonizing at the end gave me chills in a way a song hasn't in a long time
When he yelled It hit close to home. When I have mental breakdowns, I yell at myself a lot. It’s as if there’s 2 different people, 1 of them is miserable and wants to isolate, sleep and sit down all the time, and the other one is an angry person who’s had enough,
I have conflict with myself, I don’t know how to cope, nor do I know how to even cry.
The yelling just reminded me of the conflict I had with myself where I wanted to get up, put a brave face and just do it. But eternally all I wanted was to sleep my way through life.
3:30 I don't think I've ever heard a better harmonization in my life
Right?!
all of the harmonies in the entire special are perfect imo. bo really took a lot of time and care making this special as perfect as he could.
It's possible to do this with an audio processing plugin called iZotope Polyvox/VocalSynth. Imogen Heap used a similar effect with her song Hide & Seek, and used the keyboard MIDI to choose the actual notes her voice got spread out into.
@@Atomic_Haggis the future is now 🤯 that sounds so cool
Literally goosebumps
I’m so used to Bo as someone who purely sings satirically or kind of theatrically, like he’s playing a character. Even in a bunch of the songs from the special, especially welcome to the internet.
This was one of the only songs I’ve ever heard him sing that sounds just… like him. The pitching down of it in the special was really good for effect, but it also masked just his raw singing voice. Which is honestly one of the sweetest/most comfortable male singing voices I’ve ever heard. This version sounds so authentic and moving.
he's a comedian sure, but he's also just a scared, vulnerable human person as well
He’s a Satirist/Comedian combo- now he’s a Comirist.
@@Everettalla Communist.
I get chills when he says “it’s just begun”
This makes me want to slowly wave my phone in the air from side to side with the flash on
The is the most brilliant plea for connection I've ever heard.
“plea for connection” that’s powerful
ive been listening to this song over and over trying to put the feeling it gave me into words and you have it right here
I'm afraid we have over romanticized the idea of being sad/depressed/broken, but last year really did feel like a nightmare. Bo's special does an amazing job expressing what 2020 felt like.
Edit:
Wow, based on the likes I suppose there are those who agree with me on this.
It also just, depression too.
i haven't been the same since watching the special
Had depression since I was a teenager and always struggled with it periodically. It always bothered me how it was actively marketed to us as a trend. The whole emo scene, manic pixie thing just pissed me off. It didn't make you enigmatic or romantic or quirky, it made you feel fucking tired, demotivated, stuck. It was not something to aspire to, emulate or capitalise on, it was a genuine obstruction to being able to live a normal or happy life.
@@nixi7688 Faking or making emotional and mental disorders fashion statements is straight up ugly. I struggle with ADHD and I never realized how HARD it is to deal with it and how much it affected me until I started university, and I still am learning ways it affects my life. It's very frustrating to see people try to capitalize on shit like that.
Agreed. I think being *proud* of being anxious/depressed (and getting credit & reinforcement for it) is not the answer. Being aware/honest about it (which is important and was certainly shunned in the past) is different than bringing attention to yourself by romanticizing whatever hardships you might be facing. The situations and moments in life that are truly depressing are not shit you want to freely offer up on social media. I'm not trying to be a dick, I'm speaking from personal experience- I have been guilty of thinking I was being honest, but mostly just doing it to fit in and get attention. The shit that actually ducks with my head and my heart is buried wayyyyy down and I am terrified of people knowing.
the two are almost like totally different songs. The one with bo's original voice is almost comforting, and the voice changed one has this deep sadness to it
I'm obsessed with this song right now, it rips at my soul every time I hear it but I cant stop listening
What did he put in this song? I can’t figure it out it’s like….pure serotonin??