I am so sorry about the loss of your grandfather! My grandfather passed away in December too. At my wedding I will be setting up a chair in honor of him because I know he will be in attendance even if he can not physically be there. Stay strong. ❤️ I pray for healing for you and your family.
Not only is it ok to be sad but it is healthy! Repressing the emotions that a life transition/event naturally brings could really be taking a toll on your mental health.
"It's okay to be sad about closing a chapter in your life" literally the best advice I've heard today, thank you for being real and honest. Sorry for your loss!
I’m so so sorry to hear about your grandfather’s passing, Jaclyn. I know it’s not the same, but he will be at your wedding in spirit. 🤍 I also want to mention that I’m here for the pickle reviews LOL
This is SO GOOD. I got married last week and had this realization too. Everyone acts as weddings and marriage is all rainbows and sunshine (which most of it is!) but they don’t talk about the stress and sadness! I appreciate you being raw with all of those who view this video!! It takes a lot to share the sadness or struggles during this time when it’s glamorized on social media!! I 100% related to every word you said and I seriously LOVE this video and your honesty!
I’m engaged and totally relate to you. It’s so exciting but so hard to leave a season of your life, and I’m so glad you were vulnerable in this video!!
Hey girl, thank you for sharing about your loss and the hard stuff thats going on. I just wanna encourage you for a sec. A little background about me: my dad died 3 months before I got married. It was very hard and I just want you to know that you're not alone in this. One of the most valuable things that I learned in that season is that because of the Gospel, we can have both grief AND joy. We don't have to feel ashamed for either of those emotions. Jesus has conquered the grave and there is nothing that we can go through that he cannot empathize with. We can feel sadness because death and sickness aren't the way it's supposed to be. But we can also feel immense and indescribable joy because of the hope of future reconciliation in perfection with our loved ones and with the One whose sovereignty and love is forever good. Praying for your heart, as you process all the changes
You're not the only one friend. It's totally ok. I got married three years ago at 19 dealing with a lot of anxiety and being absolutely terrible and afraid of change. I also had two of my grandparents get really sick and almost pass away right before and they couldn't come. I felt all those feelings too. It's ok and it will only make you and your hubby to be's relationship stronger. It was hard with so much change, but three years later we are strong together because of it and expecting our first baby! Praying for you. You'll get through it, God is bigger and its so so ok to not be ok.
Hey, Jaclynn, just want to let you know that we are here for you! I am so sorry about your Grandfather! Mine passed away too, a couple of years ago, so I am here if you need a hug 💘 seeing you cry made me want to cry and give you a hug!!!!!! Nothing is wrong with you. Thank you for being so real and honest with us 💕 I will definitely be praying for you guys!!!!! 💚❤🤎🧡💙💛💙🖤🤍
I’m so sorry for your lost, but he’ll be with you every sing step of you life from here on out. He’ll be with you on your wedding day in a nicely handsome outfit! It’s okay for you to be vulnerable we all those moments of heartfelt. Ps I’ve been here since your freshman vlogs!!
I’ve always been nervous for moving away from what is known, loved, and comfortable to get marriage. But didn’t feel like others related! Thanks for normalizing this. 💕
I love how real you can be with us which just makes you so genuine. closing this chapter is hard and sad which is completely okay. thank you for being you 🤍
It's so crazy to imagine Jaclyn's videos in the future when she is living with Sam after being married. I wonder what that would be like??!! 😮😮😍😍 Regardless though, I know they'll be awesome videos and we'll all love it!!!
Woke up bawling my eyes out the day after my wedding. I had never moved away from my parents and it was such a huge transition and I finally realized that life was going to be so different but so happy at the same time. So so normal to be sad 💜
Jaclyn, I’m so sorry to hear about your grandfathers passing. I lost my grandpa a couple years ago and he never saw me graduate high school. Thinking about all of the life events that is he going to miss sure does get to me quite a bit. However, I remind myself that God needed him more than I did right now. I also know that he is going to have the absolute best seat in the house for everything else that’s going to happen in my life. Stay strong and thank you for being vulnerable with us. We love you and are keeping your family close to our hearts in prayer.
You had me in tears!😭 my grandfather passed away the February before I got married in November, I felt the same exact way as you. We set up a table to honor him with a picture of him on it at the reception and had a chair set up at the ceremony with a sign that said “we know you’d be here today if heaven wasn’t so far away”. I also had two small pictures in my bouquet of me and him together💗
Jaclyn, thank you so much for being so vulnerable in this and open about how while you are so excited for this chapter of your life that you are also experiencing a trial where you’ve lost someone so special. I’ve lost 2 grandparents (1 that was last summer) and I often think about how they won’t get to see me graduate college, walk down the isle and have kids. Praying for you during this journey and so much love for who you are as person!! ❤️
this!! i’ve been struggling with the same thing and feeling like there’s something wrong with me, too. i’m getting married next year, and i’m struggling so deeply with change. being vulnerable is the toughest, and i’m so thankful for your heart. because, you and i are hurting in the same ways. i’ve recently lost close friends that won’t be at my wedding, too. it’s just hard. i’m so thankful for your honest heart in knowing that i’m not alone. and, that YOU are not alone. there are others in the same boat. about to graduate college, move, get married, etc. so much change. change is SO hard. and, it’s totally okay to be deeply sad in some of the happiest moments. 🤍🤍
totally related to this! i’m engaged and getting married next year and we are so happy for it but so heartbroken my fiancé grandfather won’t be there with us
It’s normal to be filled with mixed emotions with big life changes! Change is scary and exciting and it’s ok to feel both emotions! A quote (from Whinnie the Pooh) that always helps me with transitions/changes in life is “How lucky I am to have had something that makes saying goodbye so hard”. The sadness you’re feeling about saying goodbye to this stage in your life is because you’ve been blessed with where you’ve been! Best of luck with everything!
Aww Jaclyn Everything will turn out good at the end. Your Grandfather will be watching you from heaven. praying and wishing for the best for you and your family 🕊️💕💕
Jaclyn, you are SO strong. Hearing you talk about your loss has my heart breaking for you. I’m crying alongside you, but keep your head up, he’s still watching you and Sam as you enter this new and exciting chapter of your lives, your grandpa is just doing it in a different way. God has so many plans for both you and Sam and I know your heart will grow stronger. Praying for you and your family as you navigate this adjustment! Xo
Jaclyn, you are amazing. You are so brave for being able to do school, plan a wedding, VLOG/RUclips while having to deal with such a terrible loss of an extremely close family member. Don't feel ashamed for having to be distant or taking a step back. Everyone deals with loss differently, and I don't think of you any less if that's what you need to cope. I'm sending SO much love to you and your family. Change is hard but sometimes it's for the best. Keep being you and smiling!!
I really appreciate you being vulnerable. It’s ok to feel all your emotions. The Lord sees and cares for each of them. I’m glad that we can better know how to pray for you during this season🤍
Thank you for the honestly! This means a lot to hear and made me feel not alone in this. I have experienced the same feelings you are and this made me feel so much better.
When I got married I was also stressed and sad, my husband was in the army when we got married and he was stationed on the other side of the states, so when we did get married and moved in together, I was so far from anyone I knew. I just had him, I didn't even know the area before moving there, it was scary but it was also fun. And I'm sorry for your loss, I know how much it hurts to lose a family member. Just stay strong and focus on the good and the fun things, but remember it shows strength to be able to open up, especially because you share your life with all of us. It is nice to see someone open up about all the realness of getting married
Oh my gosh you made me cry! Girl this next chapter in your life is going to be the best yet! You’ll always be able to go home and see your family/friends. Your grandfather will be there in spirit enjoying it with you. You’re blessed in so many ways! Just breathe and let all your emotions out. Remember it’s ok not to be ok.😇❤️
I lost my grandma this past December and she was my last grandparent and it didn’t hit me until now that I wouldn’t have her in my future wedding or pictures :( they are always with us. ❤️
so sorry Jaclyn for the loss of your grandad. i’ve been through it too, it gets better. i’m praying for peace in this time, i pray over you leaving where you’ve grown up!!💛
I’m so sorry for your loss. I know how it feels. Both my grandparents passed away before my wedding and I thought the same thoughts as you. It’s hard. As much as I wish they were both there, I’m so thankful for the memories I do have with them. They were both so very special to me.
I m sorry for your loss. I'm sure your grandpa is super proud of who you become and He is reunited with the Father. Its okay to grief even if your wedding is coming up. Thank you for being honest with us. I ll be praying for you ❤❤❤
You are very wholesome! Change can be scary at times, just know God as well as Sam is right there going through it with you. I wish you and Sam all the best! Love your videos
Sweet Jaclyn, when you get vulnerable with your followers, you’re helping so many others. It takes a lot of courage to talk about your emotions and feelings. It’s okay not to be okay. We’re all broken, and when we come together and realize we aren’t alone in our struggles, it’s a beautiful thing! It’s healthy to process those emotions, and not suppress them. God is close to the broken hearted. He sees all your tears. ❤️ Thank you for sharing, sweet friend!
Hi Jaclyn! I appreciate your openness in regards to the realities of wedding planning. It was a hard and very stressful time for my husband and I last year with the pandemic in full swing. Media puts a lot of pressure on how you think the process is supposed to look and feel, but just know that you aren’t alone in those feelings. We all experience them, they just aren’t shown on social media usually as you said. You will get through it and be stronger for it!
Jacklyn, first off I want to say thank you for making a video like this. I no your wedding has already come and gone and it was beautiful! I'm so sorry for the loss of your grandfather, I'm currently planning my wedding and have gone through the same thing with losing my grandmother in February. I really felt how hard it was having to take her name off the guest list, honestly I haven't even been able to cross it out or erase it. I understand that pain and to hear someone else talk about it somehow makes me feel a little bit better knowing that I'm not the only one that has gone through it. 💔
I’m so sorry for your loss of your grandfather! I went through a similar hurt since none of my grandparents were at my wedding back in October. However, Etsy has some really cute charms you could add to your bouquet that you can put photos in. They can be very classy and it could be a way for you to add your grandfather to your day in a special way! Prayers for you and your family during these times! ❤️ thank you for being vulnerable!
Crying with you jaclyn, losing a grandparent is so hard, and I also hate change but you’re right, you’ll be okay. I’m praying God gives you strength through this season of change
Jaclyn! You’re authenticity and bravery through your vulnerability is absolutely beautiful. Way to go girl! Praying for comfort and peace from the Comforter to be so evident and tangible in your next days, weeks and months as you heal. He is with you, for you and SO proud of you 🤍
I’ve been watching your vlogs since your freshman year!! You’re my all time favorite youtuber, because I feel like you’re super relatable and honestly just a role model:))
Girl! That vlog was so sweet and pure and raw! Please never apologize for thinking it not exciting! All of your vlogs make my day better, I struggle with anxiety and it always feels like a safe space watching your videos 🤍 I am so sorry for you loss, we all love you and are here for you 🥺
Thank you for your bravery in being so honest with everyone. I am so sorry about the loss of your grandfather and will be praying for you; I’ve lost three grandparents within the past two years and know how you are feeling. But thank you for showing that it is okay to not always be 100% in life.💕💕
Whelp, this video made me cry. I’m not currently planning a wedding, but the process of helping my oldest brother plan his this past year, made me relate to you with the loss...and it makes me sad for the people that I have lost who won’t be at my wedding. I just know exactly how you feel and it just made me tear up. Your videos are so raw and real and we need more of it on the social media platform. I’m excited for you and your future. I haven’t even met you before, but hopefully one day. There is so much ahead for you and I’m cheering you on♥️
I’m getting married in May and I am experiencing the same emotions! So many good ones, but also sad ones! I will be moving away from what I’ve always known as well! Praying for you! ❤️
THANK YOU for being so real about everything. I’m 23 and moved out with my boyfriend, away from my family and childhood home & dog, about 8 months ago and I’m STILL sad about it sometimes.. like I love being in an apartment with my man but I miss my family and my old routine etc. I thought I was crazy for basically grieving my old life lol I don’t like change and for all of it to be happening at once kind of made me spiral for a bit.. I cried or tear’d up almost everytime I’d go I’d go home for like a month lol
Jaclyn! I completely understand where you are coming from with planning your wedding with taking your grandfather out of your guest list. I lost my grandfather in November and it’s still SO SO hard to realize he won’t physically be there. God will have him by His side while you and Sam get married! Praying for you and so excited to see your wedding! 💛
I can SO relate to that. I’m about to get married and move 10hrs away where his family/friends/life is and had to just walk through grieving leaving my city, fam, church...all the things. Obviously there’s still good and bad days, but God is so faithful and I know so much fruit is going to come from the change. I think it’s so powerful to recognize that the exciting things don’t negate the hard ones& to really sit with the Lord and ask for His perspective on it all cause that’s what gives us peace and hope for the future🤍 I pray you ask the Lord to give you exactly what you need during this fun but sometimes scary season
Praying for you, Bailee! I am not getting married anytime soon, but I want to let you know I’m praying for you during this change in your life! Congratulations, btw!
Hey Jaclyn! I don't normally comment on RUclips videos, but something about your wedding update just struck a chord with me. I am also engaged and feeling many of the same things you are; your video is exactly what I needed to see, thank you! I can also relate to the loss of your grandfather; both of my grandparents passed away in November, and it is really hard thinking about my wedding without either of them there. There are a lot of emotions that come with the engagement season, and thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing them. Love your videos!
Thank you for sharing everything. It’s not always easy to share everything about your life in a public format but I love that you are open and real with us. You are an inspiration to so many! As hard as the moments may seem, you always have the fond memories of your grandfather to think back on. Praying! ❤️
I think a wedding is a little sad when you have a big change from pre-married life. I was sad during my wedding because my grandma and step grandma were not at my wedding. They both passed away about two months before I got married. I hope you can have something special for your grandpa at the wedding. I pinned my step grandma's cross pin to my bouquet. I hope the rest of wedding planning goes well! I am excited for the wedding vlog!
Jaclyn, I am so sorry for your loss. I know so well the grief of losing a grandparent that you love so much. As time has gone on God has brought me so much peace and let me know that not only is he right by my side but so are my loved ones who are now in their forever home. You are so strong!
I am so so sorry about your grandfather! 😭❤️❤️ He was an amazing man! God bless you Jaclyn!!! ❤️❤️❤️ There is nothing wrong with you, like you said, it's just not talked about!!! ❤️❤️ I'm really sorry, and I'm praying for you!!! ❤️❤️❤️
I’m SO sorry for your loss. I’ll be praying for your grandpa and for the whole family. I love how real and raw you are with us, you are a special one, J! He’ll be always in your hearts, the memories remain forever
Thank you so much for being real with us! I am so sorry to hear that your grandfather passed away. I’ll be praying for y’all. And we love you! ❤️ It is ok to feel sad with all the changes In your life.
You’re such a sweet soul and truly you bring so much light into this world! It’s crazy how I watch you on RUclips and don’t actually know you but feel your vulnerability and just affirm you for who you are and being so open🤍
So so sorry to hear about your grandfather. I just want you to know that I am praying for you and I have kept you in my daily prayers ever since I started watching your channel! ♥️
I am so so sorry about your grandfathers passing 😢 stay strong J! I will be praying for you and your family. I love your videos J! So excited that you are getting married❤️😊
Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing as I'm sure what you're going through is relatable to a lot of girls, or future situations we might experience for those of us who aren't quite in that season yet. I just love how you share the normal/mundane, sad/hard and happy/fun parts of your life all together because that is the very real reality of life and it's encouraging to watch. Praying you feel God's comfort and peace during this season of both excitement and grief. 💛💛
Thank you so much for sharing this with us! I am currently planning my wedding and have been feeling the same way! Both of my grandmothers have passed away and it is going to be tough without them! Wedding planning is exciting but extremely exhausting! So much change comes with getting married and it is definitely nerve wracking! May sound strange but joining a wedding Facebook group may help so you can see what others are going through too!
Jaclyn, I just found your RUclips channel and I absolutely love your vids. Thank you for being brave and having such an honest moment! I just got engaged on Christmas and I can relate to you in so many levels! I haven’t started planning for my wedding but I will be soon and I already have so many mixed emotions... it’s truly a bitter sweet moment. 💛
Sorry to hear about your Grandpa. 😢 But thank you for sharing what your going through. It always helps to know that RUclipsrs also go through hard times, because you don't just share the 'rainbows and butterfly' moments. 😥❤️
I love thredup! And girl, I totally know how you feel. When I was engaged I had so many mixed emotions because I was excited but sad that I would be moving to a different state with my husband away from my family. I went through so many new transitions because I also never moved out and always lived with my mom. Same with my husband
Wow I’m so glad that I could hear someone else say the emotional rollercoaster of getting married. Sending prayers for you and I’m so sorry to hear about your grandfather❤️
I normally never leave a comment but felt like I had to this time. Honestly Jaclyn, this was such a REAL and honest vlog which makes me personally feel even more like your friend!!🤍 and I am so sorry for the loss of your grandfather, I’ll pray for the healing of you and your family.
My engagement broke up in November but what you are saying is so true and I'm so glad that you are telling people it is normal! I was super excited to get married and was super happy but I was going to be moving to another country to be with my would have been husband. It made me really sad that I was leaving my family and all I knew and I felt guilty for being sad thinking that I was only meant to be happy. Also he would make me feel bad for wanting to treasure the time I had with my family before I left and said I should have been more excited and forward planning for our marriage. I'm so glad you are validating peoples natural feelings! Thank you!
Also, I am soo so sorry about your grandfather! I am very close with my grandparents, so i definitely understand your pain. I am praying for your girly!!!
I get married April 24th and I feel the same way- so much change all at once and it’s hard to feel all the emotions when everyone expects you to be so happy and giddy all the time 🤍prayers for you
Many prayers for you. It is definitely okay to cry. I am newly engaged and have just started the wedding planning process and some things have been difficult. Praying that you receive God's comfort and love through these emotions. 🙏♥️
I love watch your vlogs so much, but it can feel like RUclipsrs life’s are so perfect but you do an amazing job of opening up and sharing your life. I am so sorry about your grandpa and I will be praying for you! I hope the wedding planning goes well! I love you! ❤️
Aw I’m sorry to hear about your loss and change; I know it is so soo hard to go through that. And at the same time as your struggles, God’s always got a great plan for you. I’m praying for you!!
aww jaclyn you made me cry too. I am so sorry to hear about your grandpa, that's so hard. No matter where you move to you will always have your family there for whatever you may need.
I am sorry to hear about your grandfather passing away. I am going through the same thing and I am having similar feelings. Both of my grandpas passed away within a month of each other at the start of my senior year of college (August and September). I am praying for you!
thank you so much for your vulnerability! i'm not in the same season of life as you, but i'm in a really good season of life & still struggling.. it was so refreshing to hear that someone is in the same place as me. praying for you & sam as you start this new chapter!!
1st off know that’s it’s okay to be scared. Your going to be making a huge change. It’s fearful. It’s frightening. But God will have your hand every step of the way. I’m getting married soon as well and wedding planning is stressful and you know people only ever really post the good stuff about things and are never truly real. Social media is hardly ever real. There’s days all you want to do is just scream or cry or just break down but you don’t you just keep your head up and keep being strong. And as for your grandfather before you ever even spoke about it I started crying bc I could see the pain you were trying to hold back all over your face. Pain that I to, know so well. I don’t want to make this comment about myself, but I lost my grandma on December 4th, 2013. It feels like yesterday still. And it does hurt knowing that she isn’t physically going to be at any of my big life events. She wasn’t there for my graduation she wasn’t there for my sister having her first great grandchild she wasn’t there to see my mother finally buy a nice house that she worked so long and so hard for. She won’t be there for my wedding or me ever having kids and it’s hard. Grieving is very hard to do and it’s honestly something that you never get over you just learn to live with it and you really start to appreciate that God chose them to rise from this earth onto better things in heaven. And that’s where I really find my comfort. I say still get him that boutonniere and place it on a seat in the ceremony as a special thing to honor him by. It will make your wedding that much more special. I don’t know if you’ll ever read this but I pray you do. And I hope it makes you feel less alone in such a difficult situation. Even tho you do not know me I absolutely adore the human being that you are and how you always stay true to yourself and strive to be a better person than you were yesterday. Much love and many prayers your way.
Jaclyn, thank you so much for sharing and simply being honest. I cannot imagine what you’re going though with everything and the passing of your grandpa. This past summer my oldest sister got married and six days before the wedding our grandpa passed away. The reception was on his farm and he was so so excited to see his first granddaughter get married. It was a shock to our whole family and probably the hardest thing for my sisters and I to to through, especially in the midst of a wedding. Completely unexpected. In spite of the heartache and loss we experienced, the Lord was gracious and sufficient. Our grandpa got to have the best view as he got to watch the wedding from heaven and rejoice with our Father about the unity being made that represents Christ and the church. How wonderful that he got to watch from above with the Father. My prayer for you is that you would have peace and that the Lord will take any burdens off of your shoulders. It will be a beautiful day and your grandfather will be watching from above ❤️
I'm going through the same thing. I'm planning my wedding and my Grandma passed away in August. She was my favorite person ever so I totally get where you are coming from. It was hard to tell the florist that I only had one grandparent left.
Wow jaclyn thank you so much for keeping the vulnerability in this vlog. I’m so sorry for your loss and thank you for sharing this with me. I am gonna be keeping you I prayer as you mourn your grandfather. I lost my grandma recently and it was extremely hard for me. This blessed me so much and I know it will others too because it’s okay to grieve. 💛 love you, praying for you
Jaclyn, thank you so much for sharing! I relate to this a lot. The Christmas before I got married I cried for about a week straight processing those emotions of moving away from family, friends & into a new chapter! (I also hate change haha) It's so normal and I'm thankful that you are starting the conversation about it :)
I'm so sorry about your Grandfather passing away. I know that is so hard. I recently got married and both my husband and I do not have any living grand parents and that was hard. It is totally okay to be sad about that and all the things you have changing in your life. All i can say is just enjoy each stage of life you are in. Really take in each opportunity you have and live in that moment. You are totally going to love being married especially not living very close to each other right now. Praying for you right now. Thanks for sharing your life with us.
Thank you so much for sharing your experience with us! I’m engaged too and feel so similarly. The first time we talked about holidays and I realized I likely won’t be able to be with my family for Christmas because of my fiancé’s job, I cried lol. And I felt the same way - like why am I so sad if something so good and exciting is happening? It is so normal and it’s a big deal to adjust to a completely new chapter of life!
I know this feeling all too well!! I’m newly married and went through almost all the same things, so I definitely can relate. It’s okay to feel overwhelmed and be vulnerable. Change is hard, especially something so big. You’ve got this!!!
Thank you for your vulnerability. Praying for you and your family. I lost my father in January & though I’m not currently engaged, I constantly find myself thinking about he won’t be at my future wedding- I can’t imagine losing a loved one in the middle of the planning process. 💗
Girl I am totally right there with you! And I am so sorry that you are having to go through this and feel this way while you are planing the happiest day! It is okay to be sad and it is okay feel like things aren’t fair right now. I am planning my wedding that had to be rescheduled from July 2020 to July 2021 due to the pandemic. Sadly, I lost both of my grandfathers in December and I am definitely struggling with continuing to plan this wedding knowing that they won’t be there. It just doesn’t feel the same. Keep pushing through! Your day will be magical! 💕
I appreciate you being real with us! I love your videos so much, and loosing a family member is really hard. I will be praying for your grandfather's soul. I know he's in a better place now! love u Jaclyn.
I'm so sorry for your loss! I think you're very brave to be so vulnerable and share this with us. Just know that he will be there with you when you get married and have kids, he will always look down on you and I'm sure that he's proud of you!
Jaclyn im so sorry for your lost!😔 I understand the pain your going through, I lost my grandfather to cancer this past November! It been so hard! But i know his not suffering and his in a better place! Hugs🧡❤️
I loved this video so much! I hate change as well it causes a lot of anxiety, so I feel you. Thank you for being vulnerable. I’m so sorry your lost your grandpa, that breaks my heart. You seemed so close to him
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its hard when family passes away! i had one 2 Decembers ago! hugs
I am so sorry about the loss of your grandfather! My grandfather passed away in December too. At my wedding I will be setting up a chair in honor of him because I know he will be in attendance even if he can not physically be there. Stay strong. ❤️ I pray for healing for you and your family.
That is such a beautiful idea. Best of luck.
Not only is it ok to be sad but it is healthy! Repressing the emotions that a life transition/event naturally brings could really be taking a toll on your mental health.
So true!
Jaclyn blessing us with a 25 minute vlog and a wedding update?! What a great start to this week!😭😍
Aww yay I am so glad you are excited!!😊
"It's okay to be sad about closing a chapter in your life" literally the best advice I've heard today, thank you for being real and honest. Sorry for your loss!
I’m so so sorry to hear about your grandfather’s passing, Jaclyn. I know it’s not the same, but he will be at your wedding in spirit. 🤍 I also want to mention that I’m here for the pickle reviews LOL
This is SO GOOD. I got married last week and had this realization too. Everyone acts as weddings and marriage is all rainbows and sunshine (which most of it is!) but they don’t talk about the stress and sadness! I appreciate you being raw with all of those who view this video!! It takes a lot to share the sadness or struggles during this time when it’s glamorized on social media!! I 100% related to every word you said and I seriously LOVE this video and your honesty!
I’m engaged and totally relate to you. It’s so exciting but so hard to leave a season of your life, and I’m so glad you were vulnerable in this video!!
Same!! 💗
Hey girl, thank you for sharing about your loss and the hard stuff thats going on. I just wanna encourage you for a sec. A little background about me: my dad died 3 months before I got married. It was very hard and I just want you to know that you're not alone in this. One of the most valuable things that I learned in that season is that because of the Gospel, we can have both grief AND joy. We don't have to feel ashamed for either of those emotions. Jesus has conquered the grave and there is nothing that we can go through that he cannot empathize with. We can feel sadness because death and sickness aren't the way it's supposed to be. But we can also feel immense and indescribable joy because of the hope of future reconciliation in perfection with our loved ones and with the One whose sovereignty and love is forever good. Praying for your heart, as you process all the changes
One quote that came to mind "How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard"
You're not the only one friend. It's totally ok. I got married three years ago at 19 dealing with a lot of anxiety and being absolutely terrible and afraid of change. I also had two of my grandparents get really sick and almost pass away right before and they couldn't come. I felt all those feelings too. It's ok and it will only make you and your hubby to be's relationship stronger. It was hard with so much change, but three years later we are strong together because of it and expecting our first baby! Praying for you. You'll get through it, God is bigger and its so so ok to not be ok.
i don’t like change either! everything you’re feeling is natural, just focus on God and know that it’s ok to be happy and sad about everything! 💕💕
Hey, Jaclynn, just want to let you know that we are here for you! I am so sorry about your Grandfather! Mine passed away too, a couple of years ago, so I am here if you need a hug 💘 seeing you cry made me want to cry and give you a hug!!!!!! Nothing is wrong with you. Thank you for being so real and honest with us 💕 I will definitely be praying for you guys!!!!! 💚❤🤎🧡💙💛💙🖤🤍
I’m so sorry for your lost, but he’ll be with you every sing step of you life from here on out. He’ll be with you on your wedding day in a nicely handsome outfit! It’s okay for you to be vulnerable we all those moments of heartfelt.
Ps I’ve been here since your freshman vlogs!!
I’ve always been nervous for moving away from what is known, loved, and comfortable to get marriage. But didn’t feel like others related! Thanks for normalizing this. 💕
I love how real you can be with us which just makes you so genuine. closing this chapter is hard and sad which is completely okay. thank you for being you 🤍
It's so crazy to imagine Jaclyn's videos in the future when she is living with Sam after being married. I wonder what that would be like??!! 😮😮😍😍 Regardless though, I know they'll be awesome videos and we'll all love it!!!
Woke up bawling my eyes out the day after my wedding. I had never moved away from my parents and it was such a huge transition and I finally realized that life was going to be so different but so happy at the same time. So so normal to be sad 💜
Jaclyn, I’m so sorry to hear about your grandfathers passing. I lost my grandpa a couple years ago and he never saw me graduate high school. Thinking about all of the life events that is he going to miss sure does get to me quite a bit. However, I remind myself that God needed him more than I did right now. I also know that he is going to have the absolute best seat in the house for everything else that’s going to happen in my life. Stay strong and thank you for being vulnerable with us. We love you and are keeping your family close to our hearts in prayer.
You had me in tears!😭 my grandfather passed away the February before I got married in November, I felt the same exact way as you. We set up a table to honor him with a picture of him on it at the reception and had a chair set up at the ceremony with a sign that said “we know you’d be here today if heaven wasn’t so far away”. I also had two small pictures in my bouquet of me and him together💗
Jaclyn, thank you so much for being so vulnerable in this and open about how while you are so excited for this chapter of your life that you are also experiencing a trial where you’ve lost someone so special. I’ve lost 2 grandparents (1 that was last summer) and I often think about how they won’t get to see me graduate college, walk down the isle and have kids. Praying for you during this journey and so much love for who you are as person!! ❤️
this!!
i’ve been struggling with the same thing and feeling like there’s something wrong with me, too. i’m getting married next year, and i’m struggling so deeply with change. being vulnerable is the toughest, and i’m so thankful for your heart.
because, you and i are hurting in the same ways. i’ve recently lost close friends that won’t be at my wedding, too. it’s just hard.
i’m so thankful for your honest heart in knowing that i’m not alone. and, that YOU are not alone. there are others in the same boat. about to graduate college, move, get married, etc. so much change. change is SO hard. and, it’s totally okay to be deeply sad in some of the happiest moments. 🤍🤍
totally related to this! i’m engaged and getting married next year and we are so happy for it but so heartbroken my fiancé grandfather won’t be there with us
It’s normal to be filled with mixed emotions with big life changes! Change is scary and exciting and it’s ok to feel both emotions! A quote (from Whinnie the Pooh) that always helps me with transitions/changes in life is “How lucky I am to have had something that makes saying goodbye so hard”. The sadness you’re feeling about saying goodbye to this stage in your life is because you’ve been blessed with where you’ve been! Best of luck with everything!
Aww Jaclyn Everything will turn out good at the end. Your Grandfather will be watching you from heaven. praying and wishing for the best for you and your family 🕊️💕💕
Jaclyn, you are SO strong. Hearing you talk about your loss has my heart breaking for you. I’m crying alongside you, but keep your head up, he’s still watching you and Sam as you enter this new and exciting chapter of your lives, your grandpa is just doing it in a different way. God has so many plans for both you and Sam and I know your heart will grow stronger. Praying for you and your family as you navigate this adjustment! Xo
Jaclyn, you are amazing. You are so brave for being able to do school, plan a wedding, VLOG/RUclips while having to deal with such a terrible loss of an extremely close family member. Don't feel ashamed for having to be distant or taking a step back. Everyone deals with loss differently, and I don't think of you any less if that's what you need to cope. I'm sending SO much love to you and your family. Change is hard but sometimes it's for the best. Keep being you and smiling!!
I really appreciate you being vulnerable. It’s ok to feel all your emotions. The Lord sees and cares for each of them. I’m glad that we can better know how to pray for you during this season🤍
Thank you for the honestly! This means a lot to hear and made me feel not alone in this. I have experienced the same feelings you are and this made me feel so much better.
When I got married I was also stressed and sad, my husband was in the army when we got married and he was stationed on the other side of the states, so when we did get married and moved in together, I was so far from anyone I knew. I just had him, I didn't even know the area before moving there, it was scary but it was also fun. And I'm sorry for your loss, I know how much it hurts to lose a family member. Just stay strong and focus on the good and the fun things, but remember it shows strength to be able to open up, especially because you share your life with all of us. It is nice to see someone open up about all the realness of getting married
Oh my gosh you made me cry! Girl this next chapter in your life is going to be the best yet! You’ll always be able to go home and see your family/friends. Your grandfather will be there in spirit enjoying it with you. You’re blessed in so many ways! Just breathe and let all your emotions out. Remember it’s ok not to be ok.😇❤️
I lost my grandma this past December and she was my last grandparent and it didn’t hit me until now that I wouldn’t have her in my future wedding or pictures :( they are always with us. ❤️
so sorry Jaclyn for the loss of your grandad. i’ve been through it too, it gets better. i’m praying for peace in this time, i pray over you leaving where you’ve grown up!!💛
I’m so sorry for your loss. I know how it feels. Both my grandparents passed away before my wedding and I thought the same thoughts as you. It’s hard. As much as I wish they were both there, I’m so thankful for the memories I do have with them. They were both so very special to me.
I m sorry for your loss. I'm sure your grandpa is super proud of who you become and He is reunited with the Father. Its okay to grief even if your wedding is coming up. Thank you for being honest with us. I ll be praying for you ❤❤❤
You are very wholesome! Change can be scary at times, just know God as well as Sam is right there going through it with you. I wish you and Sam all the best! Love your videos
Thank you for being so honest. I’m engaged & have been feeling the same way! It doesn’t feel so alone now 🥲
Same here! 💜
Sweet Jaclyn, when you get vulnerable with your followers, you’re helping so many others. It takes a lot of courage to talk about your emotions and feelings. It’s okay not to be okay. We’re all broken, and when we come together and realize we aren’t alone in our struggles, it’s a beautiful thing! It’s healthy to process those emotions, and not suppress them. God is close to the broken hearted. He sees all your tears. ❤️
Thank you for sharing, sweet friend!
Hi Jaclyn! I appreciate your openness in regards to the realities of wedding planning. It was a hard and very stressful time for my husband and I last year with the pandemic in full swing. Media puts a lot of pressure on how you think the process is supposed to look and feel, but just know that you aren’t alone in those feelings. We all experience them, they just aren’t shown on social media usually as you said. You will get through it and be stronger for it!
Jacklyn, first off I want to say thank you for making a video like this. I no your wedding has already come and gone and it was beautiful! I'm so sorry for the loss of your grandfather, I'm currently planning my wedding and have gone through the same thing with losing my grandmother in February. I really felt how hard it was having to take her name off the guest list, honestly I haven't even been able to cross it out or erase it. I understand that pain and to hear someone else talk about it somehow makes me feel a little bit better knowing that I'm not the only one that has gone through it. 💔
I’m so sorry for your loss of your grandfather! I went through a similar hurt since none of my grandparents were at my wedding back in October. However, Etsy has some really cute charms you could add to your bouquet that you can put photos in. They can be very classy and it could be a way for you to add your grandfather to your day in a special way! Prayers for you and your family during these times! ❤️ thank you for being vulnerable!
Crying with you jaclyn, losing a grandparent is so hard, and I also hate change but you’re right, you’ll be okay. I’m praying God gives you strength through this season of change
Jaclyn! You’re authenticity and bravery through your vulnerability is absolutely beautiful. Way to go girl! Praying for comfort and peace from the Comforter to be so evident and tangible in your next days, weeks and months as you heal. He is with you, for you and SO proud of you 🤍
I’ve been watching your vlogs since your freshman year!! You’re my all time favorite youtuber, because I feel like you’re super relatable and honestly just a role model:))
you are so brave for showing a different side of life and wedding planning
Girl! That vlog was so sweet and pure and raw! Please never apologize for thinking it not exciting! All of your vlogs make my day better, I struggle with anxiety and it always feels like a safe space watching your videos 🤍 I am so sorry for you loss, we all love you and are here for you 🥺
Thank you for your bravery in being so honest with everyone. I am so sorry about the loss of your grandfather and will be praying for you; I’ve lost three grandparents within the past two years and know how you are feeling. But thank you for showing that it is okay to not always be 100% in life.💕💕
Whelp, this video made me cry. I’m not currently planning a wedding, but the process of helping my oldest brother plan his this past year, made me relate to you with the loss...and it makes me sad for the people that I have lost who won’t be at my wedding. I just know exactly how you feel and it just made me tear up. Your videos are so raw and real and we need more of it on the social media platform. I’m excited for you and your future. I haven’t even met you before, but hopefully one day. There is so much ahead for you and I’m cheering you on♥️
I’m getting married in May and I am experiencing the same emotions! So many good ones, but also sad ones! I will be moving away from what I’ve always known as well! Praying for you! ❤️
THANK YOU for being so real about everything. I’m 23 and moved out with my boyfriend, away from my family and childhood home & dog, about 8 months ago and I’m STILL sad about it sometimes.. like I love being in an apartment with my man but I miss my family and my old routine etc. I thought I was crazy for basically grieving my old life lol I don’t like change and for all of it to be happening at once kind of made me spiral for a bit.. I cried or tear’d up almost everytime I’d go I’d go home for like a month lol
Jaclyn! I completely understand where you are coming from with planning your wedding with taking your grandfather out of your guest list. I lost my grandfather in November and it’s still SO SO hard to realize he won’t physically be there. God will have him by His side while you and Sam get married! Praying for you and so excited to see your wedding! 💛
I can SO relate to that. I’m about to get married and move 10hrs away where his family/friends/life is and had to just walk through grieving leaving my city, fam, church...all the things. Obviously there’s still good and bad days, but God is so faithful and I know so much fruit is going to come from the change. I think it’s so powerful to recognize that the exciting things don’t negate the hard ones& to really sit with the Lord and ask for His perspective on it all cause that’s what gives us peace and hope for the future🤍 I pray you ask the Lord to give you exactly what you need during this fun but sometimes scary season
Praying for you, Bailee! I am not getting married anytime soon, but I want to let you know I’m praying for you during this change in your life! Congratulations, btw!
@@allieglozier2389 wow, thank you so much!! That’s so sweet🤍
Hey Jaclyn! I don't normally comment on RUclips videos, but something about your wedding update just struck a chord with me. I am also engaged and feeling many of the same things you are; your video is exactly what I needed to see, thank you! I can also relate to the loss of your grandfather; both of my grandparents passed away in November, and it is really hard thinking about my wedding without either of them there. There are a lot of emotions that come with the engagement season, and thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing them. Love your videos!
Thank you for sharing everything. It’s not always easy to share everything about your life in a public format but I love that you are open and real with us. You are an inspiration to so many! As hard as the moments may seem, you always have the fond memories of your grandfather to think back on. Praying! ❤️
I appreciate how real you are with this. Thanks for making this normal for ladies going through this!
I think a wedding is a little sad when you have a big change from pre-married life. I was sad during my wedding because my grandma and step grandma were not at my wedding. They both passed away about two months before I got married. I hope you can have something special for your grandpa at the wedding. I pinned my step grandma's cross pin to my bouquet. I hope the rest of wedding planning goes well! I am excited for the wedding vlog!
Jaclyn, I am so sorry for your loss. I know so well the grief of losing a grandparent that you love so much. As time has gone on God has brought me so much peace and let me know that not only is he right by my side but so are my loved ones who are now in their forever home. You are so strong!
I am so so sorry about your grandfather! 😭❤️❤️ He was an amazing man! God bless you Jaclyn!!! ❤️❤️❤️ There is nothing wrong with you, like you said, it's just not talked about!!! ❤️❤️ I'm really sorry, and I'm praying for you!!! ❤️❤️❤️
I’m SO sorry for your loss. I’ll be praying for your grandpa and for the whole family. I love how real and raw you are with us, you are a special one, J! He’ll be always in your hearts, the memories remain forever
Thank you so much for being real with us! I am so sorry to hear that your grandfather passed away. I’ll be praying for y’all. And we love you! ❤️ It is ok to feel sad with all the changes In your life.
You’re such a sweet soul and truly you bring so much light into this world! It’s crazy how I watch you on RUclips and don’t actually know you but feel your vulnerability and just affirm you for who you are and being so open🤍
So so sorry to hear about your grandfather. I just want you to know that I am praying for you and I have kept you in my daily prayers ever since I started watching your channel! ♥️
I am so so sorry about your grandfathers passing 😢 stay strong J! I will be praying for you and your family. I love your videos J! So excited that you are getting married❤️😊
Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing as I'm sure what you're going through is relatable to a lot of girls, or future situations we might experience for those of us who aren't quite in that season yet.
I just love how you share the normal/mundane, sad/hard and happy/fun parts of your life all together because that is the very real reality of life and it's encouraging to watch.
Praying you feel God's comfort and peace during this season of both excitement and grief. 💛💛
Thank you so much for sharing this with us! I am currently planning my wedding and have been feeling the same way! Both of my grandmothers have passed away and it is going to be tough without them! Wedding planning is exciting but extremely exhausting! So much change comes with getting married and it is definitely nerve wracking! May sound strange but joining a wedding Facebook group may help so you can see what others are going through too!
Hope you’re doing well Jaclyn! Thanks for posting for us and praying for you!! 💕
Jaclyn, I just found your RUclips channel and I absolutely love your vids. Thank you for being brave and having such an honest moment! I just got engaged on Christmas and I can relate to you in so many levels! I haven’t started planning for my wedding but I will be soon and I already have so many mixed emotions... it’s truly a bitter sweet moment. 💛
Sorry to hear about your Grandpa. 😢 But thank you for sharing what your going through. It always helps to know that RUclipsrs also go through hard times, because you don't just share the 'rainbows and butterfly' moments. 😥❤️
Thank you so much for being vulnerable about the wedding planning process. I will definitely be praying for you and that the transition goes smoothly!
I love thredup! And girl, I totally know how you feel. When I was engaged I had so many mixed emotions because I was excited but sad that I would be moving to a different state with my husband away from my family. I went through so many new transitions because I also never moved out and always lived with my mom. Same with my husband
Wow I’m so glad that I could hear someone else say the emotional rollercoaster of getting married. Sending prayers for you and I’m so sorry to hear about your grandfather❤️
I normally never leave a comment but felt like I had to this time. Honestly Jaclyn, this was such a REAL and honest vlog which makes me personally feel even more like your friend!!🤍 and I am so sorry for the loss of your grandfather, I’ll pray for the healing of you and your family.
My engagement broke up in November but what you are saying is so true and I'm so glad that you are telling people it is normal!
I was super excited to get married and was super happy but I was going to be moving to another country to be with my would have been husband.
It made me really sad that I was leaving my family and all I knew and I felt guilty for being sad thinking that I was only meant to be happy. Also he would make me feel bad for wanting to treasure the time I had with my family before I left and said I should have been more excited and forward planning for our marriage. I'm so glad you are validating peoples natural feelings! Thank you!
Also, I am soo so sorry about your grandfather! I am very close with my grandparents, so i definitely understand your pain. I am praying for your girly!!!
Thank you for sharing this. I’m sure this will help more people than you can imagine. Praying for you 💛
I get married April 24th and I feel the same way- so much change all at once and it’s hard to feel all the emotions when everyone expects you to be so happy and giddy all the time 🤍prayers for you
Many prayers for you. It is definitely okay to cry. I am newly engaged and have just started the wedding planning process and some things have been difficult. Praying that you receive God's comfort and love through these emotions. 🙏♥️
I love watch your vlogs so much, but it can feel like RUclipsrs life’s are so perfect but you do an amazing job of opening up and sharing your life. I am so sorry about your grandpa and I will be praying for you! I hope the wedding planning goes well! I love you! ❤️
Aw I’m sorry to hear about your loss and change; I know it is so soo hard to go through that. And at the same time as your struggles, God’s always got a great plan for you. I’m praying for you!!
aww jaclyn you made me cry too. I am so sorry to hear about your grandpa, that's so hard. No matter where you move to you will always have your family there for whatever you may need.
I am sorry to hear about your grandfather passing away. I am going through the same thing and I am having similar feelings. Both of my grandpas passed away within a month of each other at the start of my senior year of college (August and September). I am praying for you!
thank you so much for your vulnerability! i'm not in the same season of life as you, but i'm in a really good season of life & still struggling.. it was so refreshing to hear that someone is in the same place as me. praying for you & sam as you start this new chapter!!
1st off know that’s it’s okay to be scared. Your going to be making a huge change. It’s fearful. It’s frightening. But God will have your hand every step of the way. I’m getting married soon as well and wedding planning is stressful and you know people only ever really post the good stuff about things and are never truly real. Social media is hardly ever real. There’s days all you want to do is just scream or cry or just break down but you don’t you just keep your head up and keep being strong.
And as for your grandfather before you ever even spoke about it I started crying bc I could see the pain you were trying to hold back all over your face. Pain that I to, know so well. I don’t want to make this comment about myself, but I lost my grandma on December 4th, 2013. It feels like yesterday still. And it does hurt knowing that she isn’t physically going to be at any of my big life events. She wasn’t there for my graduation she wasn’t there for my sister having her first great grandchild she wasn’t there to see my mother finally buy a nice house that she worked so long and so hard for. She won’t be there for my wedding or me ever having kids and it’s hard. Grieving is very hard to do and it’s honestly something that you never get over you just learn to live with it and you really start to appreciate that God chose them to rise from this earth onto better things in heaven. And that’s where I really find my comfort.
I say still get him that boutonniere and place it on a seat in the ceremony as a special thing to honor him by. It will make your wedding that much more special. I don’t know if you’ll ever read this but I pray you do. And I hope it makes you feel less alone in such a difficult situation. Even tho you do not know me I absolutely adore the human being that you are and how you always stay true to yourself and strive to be a better person than you were yesterday. Much love and many prayers your way.
Jaclyn, thank you so much for sharing and simply being honest. I cannot imagine what you’re going though with everything and the passing of your grandpa. This past summer my oldest sister got married and six days before the wedding our grandpa passed away. The reception was on his farm and he was so so excited to see his first granddaughter get married. It was a shock to our whole family and probably the hardest thing for my sisters and I to to through, especially in the midst of a wedding. Completely unexpected. In spite of the heartache and loss we experienced, the Lord was gracious and sufficient. Our grandpa got to have the best view as he got to watch the wedding from heaven and rejoice with our Father about the unity being made that represents Christ and the church. How wonderful that he got to watch from above with the Father. My prayer for you is that you would have peace and that the Lord will take any burdens off of your shoulders. It will be a beautiful day and your grandfather will be watching from above ❤️
it takes a really strong person to be so open and real on the internet so THANK YOU for sharing 💕
I’m so so sorry for your loss jaclyn. I will be keeping you in my prayers!! 💜💜💜
I'm going through the same thing. I'm planning my wedding and my Grandma passed away in August. She was my favorite person ever so I totally get where you are coming from. It was hard to tell the florist that I only had one grandparent left.
I’ve been following you since your senior year in high school and remember your high school vlogs!! 💛
Wow jaclyn thank you so much for keeping the vulnerability in this vlog. I’m so sorry for your loss and thank you for sharing this with me. I am gonna be keeping you I prayer as you mourn your grandfather. I lost my grandma recently and it was extremely hard for me. This blessed me so much and I know it will others too because it’s okay to grieve. 💛 love you, praying for you
Jaclyn, thank you so much for sharing! I relate to this a lot. The Christmas before I got married I cried for about a week straight processing those emotions of moving away from family, friends & into a new chapter! (I also hate change haha) It's so normal and I'm thankful that you are starting the conversation about it :)
I'm so sorry about your Grandfather passing away. I know that is so hard. I recently got married and both my husband and I do not have any living grand parents and that was hard. It is totally okay to be sad about that and all the things you have changing in your life. All i can say is just enjoy each stage of life you are in. Really take in each opportunity you have and live in that moment. You are totally going to love being married especially not living very close to each other right now. Praying for you right now. Thanks for sharing your life with us.
I’m so sorry for your loss Jaclyn, just know that he will be there with you in spirit. ❤️
Thank you so much for sharing your experience with us! I’m engaged too and feel so similarly. The first time we talked about holidays and I realized I likely won’t be able to be with my family for Christmas because of my fiancé’s job, I cried lol. And I felt the same way - like why am I so sad if something so good and exciting is happening? It is so normal and it’s a big deal to adjust to a completely new chapter of life!
I know this feeling all too well!! I’m newly married and went through almost all the same things, so I definitely can relate. It’s okay to feel overwhelmed and be vulnerable. Change is hard, especially something so big. You’ve got this!!!
Thank you for your vulnerability. Praying for you and your family. I lost my father in January & though I’m not currently engaged, I constantly find myself thinking about he won’t be at my future wedding- I can’t imagine losing a loved one in the middle of the planning process. 💗
Girl I am totally right there with you! And I am so sorry that you are having to go through this and feel this way while you are planing the happiest day! It is okay to be sad and it is okay feel like things aren’t fair right now. I am planning my wedding that had to be rescheduled from July 2020 to July 2021 due to the pandemic. Sadly, I lost both of my grandfathers in December and I am definitely struggling with continuing to plan this wedding knowing that they won’t be there. It just doesn’t feel the same. Keep pushing through! Your day will be magical! 💕
I appreciate you being real with us! I love your videos so much, and loosing a family member is really hard. I will be praying for your grandfather's soul. I know he's in a better place now! love u Jaclyn.
I'm so sorry for your loss! I think you're very brave to be so vulnerable and share this with us. Just know that he will be there with you when you get married and have kids, he will always look down on you and I'm sure that he's proud of you!
Jaclyn im so sorry for your lost!😔 I understand the pain your going through, I lost my grandfather to cancer this past November! It been so hard! But i know his not suffering and his in a better place! Hugs🧡❤️
I loved this video so much! I hate change as well it causes a lot of anxiety, so I feel you. Thank you for being vulnerable. I’m so sorry your lost your grandpa, that breaks my heart. You seemed so close to him