As a non binary I always thought I had to present myself as androgynous as possible and so I was always afraid to tell people my gender and pronouns cuz of comments like ‘but you don’t look nb’ or ‘you don’t dress nb’ but thanks to you speaking about how you choose to present yourself I realise I can look and dress how I want and be proud of my sexy woman body and not worry about how others perceive me You’re such a legend Pax, hope you’re doing well :D and apologies for the essay lmao
HOLLY DUCKING SH!T PAX!!! I remember back in 2019 watching u and thinking that one day u would start the treatment on T (or at least seriously consider it) and I am so happy that u not only on the treatment but, if i understand well, ur doing good on it!! Keep going and best of luck for u my guy :)
I seriously didn't recognise your voice! I had to do a double-take! It's seriously amazing you could go through all of this. Good on you and all the other Transgender people out there!
i remember years ago, (I was around since 2018) you saying you wouldn't be able to go on T cuz of your health but then recently you got a and updated us on it
I'm so glad you mentioned that it took a while longer for your inner monologue's "voice" to change. I'm doing voice feminization training right now, and thinking "This would be so much easier if my inner monologue got some voice training." lol
It was so weird too, cause i'd hear my old voice for a few months but my talking voice was super different. I'm not sure if it works the same for trans femmes cause my voice kinda suddenly dropped. Like one day it just became a LOT more masc. But if yours does, just give it time and your brain will figure it out.
Mannn i remember when you just started T i was so hopeless thinking I'd never be able to jdhgk I'll be a year on T this august :') I'm so happy to see how far you've come with your transition dude dkjhk and so happy you're back to making videos!! We missed youuu ❤
oh my god im so incredibly proud of you. i remember a few years back you opened up to your channel about your health issues not letting you go on T, im so happy for you.
i’m still exploring my gender, but im pretty set on the more masculine areas of the spectrum, and i want to take hrt because i have severe voice dysphoria, body dysphoria is okay but.. yeah. im glad you came back to share your experience, every single personal experience i see gives me hope.
I first found you back in 2018 when I was struggling with not only my gender identity but also my sexuality. between those 4 years I am now still slightly questioning my gender but am happily bisexual and can say that proudly. I got so emotional when finding you again because you helped me without me even realising. Thank you
Hey tip for those who have issues with traditional binding but dont want to just wear bras/sports bras! TransTape might be helpful for you, I 100% recommend looking into it, especially if you have a smaller chest size. This can work for anyone of any chest size, but works especially well for smaller chests. I recently started using TransTape to try to bind (I'm still getting the hang of it lol) and it's been fantastic. They have starter kits with everything you need to try it out. I have a traditional binder, but i had concerns after my chest started to change shape(?), and sensory issues so i didnt use it much. Taping has been helpful with making sure im covered up and keeping the bits in place, while also being comfortable. Like- TransTape is designed for multiple-day wear, so you can shower, exercise, swim, and sleep while using it. When worn correctly, this is the safest binding method out there from everything i've found. The website and their youtube channel has all the other information you need to know about caring for your skin while using it, 10/10 def recommend checking it out. You do have to keep rebuying it, and you need to be sure to monitor how your skin reacts to the tape, and it takes some practice to get the results you want, but yeah! it's been great.
@@fricka4798 To an extent, i think so! probably not super flat, but definitely fatter than nothing at all. Def recommend looking at video reviews from ppl who have a similar chest shape/size to you tho, just in case.
It makes me so happy that I’m not the only one who’s facial hair is going to their neck😅 I’m about a year in and most of my facial hair is on my neck, I thought it was only me.
I get some pathetic blonde hairs on my chin and upper lip with maybe a single brownish one thrown in. But my neck? Big fuzzy zone. And it's not even like... good LOL. I've had so many people suggest i grow my facial hair out to pass better. and it's like... dude i'd look like i crawled out of my mothers basement and am gonna say some sexist mumbo jumbo. No thanks LMAO
Welcome back! I remember watching your vids when I was like 14 or so, and I'd never heard much about gay transmascs before and I heard you talking about it. It really helped broaden my perspectives and cut to now where I'm trans guy in a t4t relationship with another man lol
That's great that you are happy. I don't fully understand people who go on masculinizing HRT but don't want the masculinizing side effects that much like hair re-distribution, but I am transfemme so I don't understand in the first place. Hope you are doing well!
as a transfem tomboy i relate to this so freaking much. before i started estrogen i felt like i had to show people my femininity, usually through clothing but also the smallest most pointless little details. but since HRT and in general i've grown alot more comfortable. i've started doing and wearing things based on what's comfortable and that makes me a massive tomboy. i wil never again part from my cargo pants. screw skirts. would it be correct to say you're kind of a femboy?
Don't buy from gc2b? Whatever the sites called anymore! I've heard a lot about them being smaller and causing rib damage when used even below the 8 hour maximum.
I remember watching your videos a long time ago when I still thought I was cis but guess who's not anymore! lol, anyway, your voice sounds AMAZING dude!!
I really like such turn of events. Since years before you doubted your health will let you go through transition, but just look at you now! Already two years into your journey! Bravo!
this is so random but i remember when i was 11 and watched one of your vieos about being trans 5 years ago and i just want to tell you it made me realise i was trans!! thank you for sharing your story and for sharing your story
I will say if u don't like normal binders I do recomend trans tape (can depend on your chest size) but personally I preffer it because I am a student and I tend to not get back to my doorm until 6 at night. Also it's good especially since it's better for if u go off t and as your body changes. Also I will say don't rush taking it off because if u do not use oil it can hert like hell. Also if you coming at the end of a roll please make shure to order before hand or order a lot at once.
Also I will say there are some brands that work a lot better personally I use binder co because their tape tends to be more sticky also the tape won't stick off in the shower or while swimming
I can't believe some would choose to want to be male lol I guess its because I have gender dysphoria so I always think women won the genetic lottery I always felt male bodies were "unclean" for some reason. But life is truly a comedy we have the treasures that others are fighting tooth and nail for and we can never exchange it with one another. All the best!
Do you think your life would have been better if someone sat you down and told you that you didn't have to change your body but rather try to accept and love it instead of trying to change yourself into something you are not? I mean no hostility I feel bad for anyone who falls under this.
No, because plenty of people already did that. It's not a choice sadly, I didn't wake up and choose to be how i am. I've made a LOT of progress since my teens on being more comfortable in my body because surgeries are expensive and HRT sometimes sucks. If I could be cis, I would be. But my brain sadly doesn't work that way and the most i can do is roll with it and deal. I don't HAVE to do anything, realistically. I could try to live my life as a biological woman, but when I've tried I've become horrible depressed, would isolate myself, and even harm myself. Like I said. It's not a choice. But choosing to accept myself for who i am is a choice.
Most of the time, that ain’t the case. Many times, someone will attempt or commit game over mode irl because they were told not to get the surgery and got mocked for being trans. I suggest NO ONE listens to comments like this cuz it’s from immature people who don’t know what it’s like for us to be trans in a society that wants us FUCKING DEAD.
a year-or-so ago, one of your videos popped up in recommendations, and i remember thinking: “Rad Pax? I wonder if their name is Pax like mine!” turns out i was right, and i started to love your vids as a fellow transmasc who’s pre-t (and coincidentally also named Pax), you’re so relatable and helpful with your advice and stories. on behalf of me and your other subs, thank you :) we’re so proud of you adn wish you all the best!! congrats for 2 years on t 🫶🎉
I remember when I first found you back in 2019 I was questioning my gender identity and and watching your videos helped me realise I was a trans guy
omg same
Same
I can see the changes already in your voice! I'm so proud of you man, don't give up 💓
As a non binary I always thought I had to present myself as androgynous as possible and so I was always afraid to tell people my gender and pronouns cuz of comments like ‘but you don’t look nb’ or ‘you don’t dress nb’ but thanks to you speaking about how you choose to present yourself I realise I can look and dress how I want and be proud of my sexy woman body and not worry about how others perceive me
You’re such a legend Pax, hope you’re doing well :D and apologies for the essay lmao
1. Congrats on being on T for 2 years, that’s awesome!!!
2. Your lineart is SO GOOD OMG IM JELLY
HOLLY DUCKING SH!T PAX!!! I remember back in 2019 watching u and thinking that one day u would start the treatment on T (or at least seriously consider it) and I am so happy that u not only on the treatment but, if i understand well, ur doing good on it!! Keep going and best of luck for u my guy :)
I seriously didn't recognise your voice! I had to do a double-take! It's seriously amazing you could go through all of this. Good on you and all the other Transgender people out there!
i remember years ago, (I was around since 2018) you saying you wouldn't be able to go on T cuz of your health but then recently you got a and updated us on it
I'm so glad you mentioned that it took a while longer for your inner monologue's "voice" to change. I'm doing voice feminization training right now, and thinking "This would be so much easier if my inner monologue got some voice training." lol
It was so weird too, cause i'd hear my old voice for a few months but my talking voice was super different.
I'm not sure if it works the same for trans femmes cause my voice kinda suddenly dropped. Like one day it just became a LOT more masc. But if yours does, just give it time and your brain will figure it out.
RadPax! Glad to see you're doing well! Last time I stopped by I was still trying to start T, and now I've been on it for over a year! Congrats to us!
Neck and chin hair grower, he's just like me frfr (I mean I hate my hairy body, but still nice to see others have weird hair growth like I did)
hairy gang
Mannn i remember when you just started T i was so hopeless thinking I'd never be able to jdhgk I'll be a year on T this august :') I'm so happy to see how far you've come with your transition dude dkjhk and so happy you're back to making videos!! We missed youuu ❤
oh my god im so incredibly proud of you. i remember a few years back you opened up to your channel about your health issues not letting you go on T, im so happy for you.
Thank you for coming back! I started to transition around the same time as you did. Hearing your experience helps me a ton ❤
i’m still exploring my gender, but im pretty set on the more masculine areas of the spectrum, and i want to take hrt because i have severe voice dysphoria, body dysphoria is okay but.. yeah. im glad you came back to share your experience, every single personal experience i see gives me hope.
hell yeah dude, congrats on two years on t!!!
THIS IS SO EXCITING!!! IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU
I first found you back in 2018 when I was struggling with not only my gender identity but also my sexuality. between those 4 years I am now still slightly questioning my gender but am happily bisexual and can say that proudly. I got so emotional when finding you again because you helped me without me even realising. Thank you
Hey tip for those who have issues with traditional binding but dont want to just wear bras/sports bras!
TransTape might be helpful for you, I 100% recommend looking into it, especially if you have a smaller chest size. This can work for anyone of any chest size, but works especially well for smaller chests.
I recently started using TransTape to try to bind (I'm still getting the hang of it lol) and it's been fantastic. They have starter kits with everything you need to try it out. I have a traditional binder, but i had concerns after my chest started to change shape(?), and sensory issues so i didnt use it much. Taping has been helpful with making sure im covered up and keeping the bits in place, while also being comfortable.
Like- TransTape is designed for multiple-day wear, so you can shower, exercise, swim, and sleep while using it. When worn correctly, this is the safest binding method out there from everything i've found. The website and their youtube channel has all the other information you need to know about caring for your skin while using it, 10/10 def recommend checking it out.
You do have to keep rebuying it, and you need to be sure to monitor how your skin reacts to the tape, and it takes some practice to get the results you want, but yeah! it's been great.
does it work for big chests? like dd?
@@fricka4798 To an extent, i think so! probably not super flat, but definitely fatter than nothing at all. Def recommend looking at video reviews from ppl who have a similar chest shape/size to you tho, just in case.
Congrats on your journey. I love your art btw
HI RADPAX ITS BEEN FOREVER!!!!!!!
dude i havent seen you in years :] im proud to say ive found myself and i am happy your back
I see you
I kinda missed your old voice, but your new voice is sounding great! 💜
It makes me so happy that I’m not the only one who’s facial hair is going to their neck😅 I’m about a year in and most of my facial hair is on my neck, I thought it was only me.
I get some pathetic blonde hairs on my chin and upper lip with maybe a single brownish one thrown in. But my neck? Big fuzzy zone.
And it's not even like... good LOL. I've had so many people suggest i grow my facial hair out to pass better. and it's like... dude i'd look like i crawled out of my mothers basement and am gonna say some sexist mumbo jumbo. No thanks LMAO
Welcome back! I remember watching your vids when I was like 14 or so, and I'd never heard much about gay transmascs before and I heard you talking about it. It really helped broaden my perspectives and cut to now where I'm trans guy in a t4t relationship with another man lol
That's great that you are happy.
I don't fully understand people who go on masculinizing HRT but don't want the masculinizing side effects that much like hair re-distribution, but I am transfemme so I don't understand in the first place. Hope you are doing well!
as a transfem tomboy i relate to this so freaking much.
before i started estrogen i felt like i had to show people my femininity, usually through clothing but also the smallest most pointless little details.
but since HRT and in general i've grown alot more comfortable. i've started doing and wearing things based on what's comfortable and that makes me a massive tomboy. i wil never again part from my cargo pants. screw skirts.
would it be correct to say you're kind of a femboy?
i always think "if a cis person can do this, why can't i?"
@@RadPaxOfficial :)
congrats on your journey so far! since you last posted I began social transition and it's been swell so far ^^
you are an inspiration to me and make things feel hopeful. thank you. you make my transfem aspirations seem possible. (btw you sound rlly good on t)
Your voice sounds amazing
Oh thank you!
Oh wow congrats I was wondering why you never popped up on my home page
Don't buy from gc2b? Whatever the sites called anymore! I've heard a lot about them being smaller and causing rib damage when used even below the 8 hour maximum.
i think i remember watching you in 2018 and youve grown so much :) that sounds kinda weird lmao but I’m so happy you could go on T for this long!!
I remember watching your videos a long time ago when I still thought I was cis but guess who's not anymore! lol, anyway, your voice sounds AMAZING dude!!
welcome to the trans party
happy biennial testosterone day!!!!
💓
Nice vid
I really like such turn of events. Since years before you doubted your health will let you go through transition, but just look at you now! Already two years into your journey! Bravo!
this is so random but i remember when i was 11 and watched one of your vieos about being trans 5 years ago and i just want to tell you it made me realise i was trans!! thank you for sharing your story and for sharing your story
I will say if u don't like normal binders I do recomend trans tape (can depend on your chest size) but personally I preffer it because I am a student and I tend to not get back to my doorm until 6 at night. Also it's good especially since it's better for if u go off t and as your body changes. Also I will say don't rush taking it off because if u do not use oil it can hert like hell. Also if you coming at the end of a roll please make shure to order before hand or order a lot at once.
Also I will say there are some brands that work a lot better personally I use binder co because their tape tends to be more sticky also the tape won't stick off in the shower or while swimming
The acne has been absolutely awful for me but I found a really good acne cream! If I don't remember to post it, someone remind me lol
Cerave has been my number 1 so far
Love your styl of drawing my draw style is a little bit like yours I only draw on paper🏳️⚧️🏳️🌈❤
Me, a confused, closeted, Bisexual, Non-binary mess: *Confused screaming*
I can't believe some would choose to want to be male lol I guess its because I have gender dysphoria so I always think women won the genetic lottery I always felt male bodies were "unclean" for some reason. But life is truly a comedy we have the treasures that others are fighting tooth and nail for and we can never exchange it with one another. All the best!
🥰 trans is so cool
hiefisehfisrhbv im so earlyyyy
Do you think your life would have been better if someone sat you down and told you that you didn't have to change your body but rather try to accept and love it instead of trying to change yourself into something you are not?
I mean no hostility I feel bad for anyone who falls under this.
No, because plenty of people already did that. It's not a choice sadly, I didn't wake up and choose to be how i am.
I've made a LOT of progress since my teens on being more comfortable in my body because surgeries are expensive and HRT sometimes sucks.
If I could be cis, I would be. But my brain sadly doesn't work that way and the most i can do is roll with it and deal.
I don't HAVE to do anything, realistically. I could try to live my life as a biological woman, but when I've tried I've become horrible depressed, would isolate myself, and even harm myself.
Like I said. It's not a choice. But choosing to accept myself for who i am is a choice.
@@RadPaxOfficial I can't get it but I wish you a happy life.
Most of the time, that ain’t the case. Many times, someone will attempt or commit game over mode irl because they were told not to get the surgery and got mocked for being trans. I suggest NO ONE listens to comments like this cuz it’s from immature people who don’t know what it’s like for us to be trans in a society that wants us FUCKING DEAD.
what is a woman?
what’s it like feeling unloved??
HAHA
someone who identifies as a woman.
easy
Your mother
Says more about you that you have to ask lmao
a year-or-so ago, one of your videos popped up in recommendations, and i remember thinking: “Rad Pax? I wonder if their name is Pax like mine!”
turns out i was right, and i started to love your vids
as a fellow transmasc who’s pre-t (and coincidentally also named Pax), you’re so relatable and helpful with your advice and stories.
on behalf of me and your other subs, thank you :) we’re so proud of you adn wish you all the best!! congrats for 2 years on t 🫶🎉