Growing up too I felt the same way. Thoughts can make things worse or better. There was a phrase that stuck to me to this day. Hakuna matata. it was in a movie i watched as a young lad. in Swahili it means : not worrying about things outside a person's control. Sometimes things happen or we think of stuff. Some are out of our control and some are what we did. But in the end we shouldn't worry too much. 🙂. Appreciate the video . Hope you and the cats have a great weekend
You are creating yourself and your community. Most people won't have the courage to try and be truthful with themselves. Your honesty is beautiful and as a viewer I can feel it personally within myself. I think this form of creation might be a higher form than you think.
Oh no, keep talking about whatever you're talking about. I love listening to it. Also, I havent been following you for long but I didn't know you liked tarot too! Anyway. I'm 32. Even I don't know who I am. I was at some point in the lowest point of my life. Then I thought; Do I want to keep living like this? Just complaining/lashing out, and being unhappy? I decided to do something. Highly addicted to gaming/waking up at any hour/no friends. I'm autistic. I wanted to be more social. I decided to write a resume even with a giant gap. I panicked at the idea of sending a mail and getting called back, so I just walked to the local neighbourhood house and asked if I could volunteer with nothing but a resume in my hand. I was the most panicky thing you have ever seen. Tick's showed up. I was really at my limit. Still > I went in for a conversation. And I was hired the minute she saw me. I almost cried when I left knowing I was allowed to work there. I was so nervous the first day. And now it feels casual. I know everyone, they're all my friends. I do have enemies, but; enemies also teach you something. Keep your eyes open. I hated my physique. the skinny fat gamer body with a head sitting forward because my muscles were that tight. I started working out, because I wanted to change how I looked. Basically; Out of insecurity. And now. I still go. But out of self love. Because I believe I deserve to have a beautiful body. I want my outside to portray who I am on the inside. And I made my fair share of mistakes. 6 months with no progress before I started to gain. Because I was afraid of lifting too heavy/improper form etc. But I kept going; at that moment where others would have given up. And it didn't stop there. Roadblocks multiple times. Weeks or months of progress gone. But - I'm slowly gaining muscle. My posture has improved A LOT. I focused on food. Instead of eating too little, I focused on eating healthy and adding/leaving things out when I wanted to gain/lose weight. And what do you know.... All that work made me lose a problem I had. A bad sleep pattern. Now I automatically go to bed early in the evening. (pro tip, let the sunlight wake you up for a natural wake/sleep cycle). psychologically, I kept thinking. I was psychologically a lot better when I stopped undereating and eating healthier (this affects your headspace a lot! Trust me!). But - What is something that other people understand that I do not? I knew that I did not understand something socially. And it was not 1 thing. But nobody is explaining it to me. ''We are all just human''. ''Others can also make mistakes''. ''People will judge you no matter what you do, so might as well just be you''. I turned agressive many times, inside, not physically. And sad. But I realised that when feeling those emotions, you are only hurting yourself, more than others usually. How do you lose your agression? Forgive for yourself, forgive others for yourself. YOu don't have to tell them. But you can let go of your anger that way and the anger towards others. You wouldn't want to feel an angry feeling if you love yourself right? I had a feeling of missing out, but lost it when I realised that I ''woke up'' and that others do not have the privilege to do so, even if my waking up took so long. My goal? My goal was simple. I wanted to be happy. That's it. Simple goals need simple answers. Someone who hates himself cannot be happy, even simpler. So I had to let go of the judgement about myself. I wondered. The rules about the world that have been taught to me; my right and wrongs. What if they were wrong? And what if - for once - I allow myself to - wander off the beaten path? What if I allow myself to stop focussing on being so good and allow myself to be the bad if I wanted to. And that was the moment when my black and white thinking ended. I allowed myself to think in the grey area. By losing the judgement about myself, I lost the judgement over other people as well. That was the moment, change happened. I don't know who I am, despite all of this. All I know is that I want to be someone that refuses to give up for what they believe in, no matter if others believe in me or not. And it is happening. So; Who do you wish to be? Do you wish to be happy? What would you need for it? Do you want to be a specific type of person? Believe in that you can do it. It's called manifesting. And it's a powerfull thing. You can change a lot. You might still not know who you are, but what does that matter girl! - you'd be a hell of a lot different than you were before. That can only mean one thing; you're getting closer to who you are. So keep going. You're on the right track.
You are amazing!!!! Thank you so much for sharing your story 😊 wow, how kickass to go through all your fears and get to what you want 💪 sounds like one piece just builds on another for the whole picture
You said at the very end that such a video is « probably one of the lowest forms of creations », and let me absolutely disagree with you on that. To me, what you’re creating here is the total opposite of that description, it is one of the most beautiful and purest forms of creation, because it is inherently human and comes straight from your heart and soul. When something is purely authentic and comes from a place of courage and love such like yours, it can only be a beautiful creation. So yes, you’re creating, you’re creating something worth sharing, worth to be seen and listened to, because it radiates what makes us all human, as we’ve all had these moments where our minds are wandering, when our only companion is ourselves, and if we’re lucky, the warmth of the sun on our face. I don’t know if you’ll see this comment of mine but, you have a beautiful and loving soul, that shines even brighter in these kind of talks :) it is like a journal entry, that feels like a hug, i can feel this, and it inspires me to wrap my heart and soul in the same lace than yours.
Wow wow thank you so much 🥹🥹🥹 I don’t have notifications on for comments because honestly I don’t expect them, I’m glad I checked back. It means so much to me to hear this meant something to you and your heart…that’s all we can ask for. Sending love your way
Hey, I was so sure of myself for so many years and then life experiences and people come along and pull the rug from under you and leave you wondering if how you show up in the world is who you really are or is it just a persona that you put out there which may be a small facet of you. I guess we are always figuring out who we are, seeking to be loved in the deepest way, and finding the real meaning of life. I thought that all my life I would be happy and fine living in peace and being by myself but now I am not so sure and have an existential crisis where I wonder what am I doing here on this earth? Why do I have this desire to seek purpose, meaning, and belonging if we are all a cosmic accident that is here today gone tomorrow? Things we become clearer for you over time and I wish you peace, friends, and joy on your journey.
Can I suggest a book that helped me understand life in a whole new perspective. It's called the Untethered Soul by Michael A. Singer. Please give it a read if you haven't yet, it just might help you start understanding who you are or at least put you in the right path. I hope if you do read it you can find something useful in it ❤
Okay, some people would see you as a weirdo but I don't because of your honesty, vulnerability and obvious sensitivity. For what its worth the guy who was clearly hitting on you is a classic example of a vulture, or sexual predator as is how I see them. I realise that loneliness also sucks, but speaking from experience I think you should stay vigilant when eventually meeting a guy you like. He needs to be empathetic, as honest as you are, and gentle. There are a number of them out there so please keep mindful of this as you navigate your 'people interations' which will include an assortment of personalities. Beware of wolves who wear sheeps clothing, those who speak with forked tongue, the malignant narcissists and sociopaths amongst us. Empaths, those with a good moral compass and trusted people should be the only ones allowed to dwell within your circle. Finally, your vulnerbility will need to be bolstered with a hypervigilance from yourself. You are pretty so caution needs to be set higher. Subscribed. I hope to see you grow in confidence and prosper From a fellow empath who has walked the road you are on
Love the first sentence 😂 you’re the best! I agree with what you’re saying about needing to have hypervigilance…I haven’t really expected anyone to see these videos but I can understand how that may change. It’s interesting, learning how to share openly while setting boundaries…still working on the boundary part. Thank you so much for your thoughtful comment and for subscribing 😊 from one empath to another :)
This was so real and relatable. Like the type of person you'd want to have as a friend to push yourself to be better and hold yourself accountable.
Growing up too I felt the same way. Thoughts can make things worse or better. There was a phrase that stuck to me to this day. Hakuna matata. it was in a movie i watched as a young lad. in Swahili it means : not worrying about things outside a person's control. Sometimes things happen or we think of stuff. Some are out of our control and some are what we did. But in the end we shouldn't worry too much. 🙂. Appreciate the video . Hope you and the cats have a great weekend
Thanks for sharing, that experience with the man sounds awful, and very invasive.
You are creating yourself and your community. Most people won't have the courage to try and be truthful with themselves. Your honesty is beautiful and as a viewer I can feel it personally within myself. I think this form of creation might be a higher form than you think.
Oh no, keep talking about whatever you're talking about. I love listening to it. Also, I havent been following you for long but I didn't know you liked tarot too!
Anyway. I'm 32. Even I don't know who I am. I was at some point in the lowest point of my life. Then I thought; Do I want to keep living like this? Just complaining/lashing out, and being unhappy? I decided to do something. Highly addicted to gaming/waking up at any hour/no friends. I'm autistic. I wanted to be more social. I decided to write a resume even with a giant gap. I panicked at the idea of sending a mail and getting called back, so I just walked to the local neighbourhood house and asked if I could volunteer with nothing but a resume in my hand. I was the most panicky thing you have ever seen. Tick's showed up. I was really at my limit. Still > I went in for a conversation. And I was hired the minute she saw me. I almost cried when I left knowing I was allowed to work there. I was so nervous the first day. And now it feels casual. I know everyone, they're all my friends. I do have enemies, but; enemies also teach you something. Keep your eyes open.
I hated my physique. the skinny fat gamer body with a head sitting forward because my muscles were that tight. I started working out, because I wanted to change how I looked. Basically; Out of insecurity. And now. I still go. But out of self love. Because I believe I deserve to have a beautiful body. I want my outside to portray who I am on the inside. And I made my fair share of mistakes. 6 months with no progress before I started to gain. Because I was afraid of lifting too heavy/improper form etc. But I kept going; at that moment where others would have given up. And it didn't stop there. Roadblocks multiple times. Weeks or months of progress gone. But - I'm slowly gaining muscle. My posture has improved A LOT.
I focused on food. Instead of eating too little, I focused on eating healthy and adding/leaving things out when I wanted to gain/lose weight.
And what do you know.... All that work made me lose a problem I had. A bad sleep pattern. Now I automatically go to bed early in the evening. (pro tip, let the sunlight wake you up for a natural wake/sleep cycle).
psychologically, I kept thinking. I was psychologically a lot better when I stopped undereating and eating healthier (this affects your headspace a lot! Trust me!). But - What is something that other people understand that I do not? I knew that I did not understand something socially. And it was not 1 thing. But nobody is explaining it to me.
''We are all just human''. ''Others can also make mistakes''. ''People will judge you no matter what you do, so might as well just be you''.
I turned agressive many times, inside, not physically. And sad. But I realised that when feeling those emotions, you are only hurting yourself, more than others usually. How do you lose your agression? Forgive for yourself, forgive others for yourself. YOu don't have to tell them. But you can let go of your anger that way and the anger towards others. You wouldn't want to feel an angry feeling if you love yourself right?
I had a feeling of missing out, but lost it when I realised that I ''woke up'' and that others do not have the privilege to do so, even if my waking up took so long.
My goal? My goal was simple. I wanted to be happy. That's it. Simple goals need simple answers. Someone who hates himself cannot be happy, even simpler. So I had to let go of the judgement about myself. I wondered. The rules about the world that have been taught to me; my right and wrongs. What if they were wrong? And what if - for once - I allow myself to - wander off the beaten path? What if I allow myself to stop focussing on being so good and allow myself to be the bad if I wanted to. And that was the moment when my black and white thinking ended. I allowed myself to think in the grey area. By losing the judgement about myself, I lost the judgement over other people as well. That was the moment, change happened.
I don't know who I am, despite all of this. All I know is that I want to be someone that refuses to give up for what they believe in, no matter if others believe in me or not. And it is happening. So; Who do you wish to be? Do you wish to be happy? What would you need for it? Do you want to be a specific type of person? Believe in that you can do it. It's called manifesting. And it's a powerfull thing.
You can change a lot. You might still not know who you are, but what does that matter girl! - you'd be a hell of a lot different than you were before. That can only mean one thing; you're getting closer to who you are. So keep going. You're on the right track.
You are amazing!!!! Thank you so much for sharing your story 😊 wow, how kickass to go through all your fears and get to what you want 💪 sounds like one piece just builds on another for the whole picture
Love your haircut!
You said at the very end that such a video is « probably one of the lowest forms of creations », and let me absolutely disagree with you on that. To me, what you’re creating here is the total opposite of that description, it is one of the most beautiful and purest forms of creation, because it is inherently human and comes straight from your heart and soul. When something is purely authentic and comes from a place of courage and love such like yours, it can only be a beautiful creation. So yes, you’re creating, you’re creating something worth sharing, worth to be seen and listened to, because it radiates what makes us all human, as we’ve all had these moments where our minds are wandering, when our only companion is ourselves, and if we’re lucky, the warmth of the sun on our face. I don’t know if you’ll see this comment of mine but, you have a beautiful and loving soul, that shines even brighter in these kind of talks :) it is like a journal entry, that feels like a hug, i can feel this, and it inspires me to wrap my heart and soul in the same lace than yours.
Wow wow thank you so much 🥹🥹🥹 I don’t have notifications on for comments because honestly I don’t expect them, I’m glad I checked back. It means so much to me to hear this meant something to you and your heart…that’s all we can ask for. Sending love your way
Hey, I was so sure of myself for so many years and then life experiences and people come along and pull the rug from under you and leave you wondering if how you show up in the world is who you really are or is it just a persona that you put out there which may be a small facet of you. I guess we are always figuring out who we are, seeking to be loved in the deepest way, and finding the real meaning of life. I thought that all my life I would be happy and fine living in peace and being by myself but now I am not so sure and have an existential crisis where I wonder what am I doing here on this earth? Why do I have this desire to seek purpose, meaning, and belonging if we are all a cosmic accident that is here today gone tomorrow? Things we become clearer for you over time and I wish you peace, friends, and joy on your journey.
I don't know why your videos have not shown my comments!
Can I suggest a book that helped me understand life in a whole new perspective. It's called the Untethered Soul by Michael A. Singer. Please give it a read if you haven't yet, it just might help you start understanding who you are or at least put you in the right path. I hope if you do read it you can find something useful in it ❤
Okay, some people would see you as a weirdo but I don't because of your honesty, vulnerability and obvious sensitivity. For what its worth the guy who was clearly hitting on you is a classic example of a vulture, or sexual predator as is how I see them. I realise that loneliness also sucks, but speaking from experience I think you should stay vigilant when eventually meeting a guy you like. He needs to be empathetic, as honest as you are, and gentle. There are a number of them out there so please keep mindful of this as you navigate your 'people interations' which will include an assortment of personalities. Beware of wolves who wear sheeps clothing, those who speak with forked tongue, the malignant narcissists and sociopaths amongst us. Empaths, those with a good moral compass and trusted people should be the only ones allowed to dwell within your circle.
Finally, your vulnerbility will need to be bolstered with a hypervigilance from yourself. You are pretty so caution needs to be set higher.
Subscribed. I hope to see you grow in confidence and prosper
From a fellow empath who has walked the road you are on
Love the first sentence 😂 you’re the best! I agree with what you’re saying about needing to have hypervigilance…I haven’t really expected anyone to see these videos but I can understand how that may change. It’s interesting, learning how to share openly while setting boundaries…still working on the boundary part. Thank you so much for your thoughtful comment and for subscribing 😊 from one empath to another :)
this is so real
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Maybe you are asking the world what they see. So you can see you in the world.