good quote but depression is many things, not just that. not disagreeing with your quote just pointing out that its a mental illness with many expressions
When I was a kid, I thought crying out loud was the most pain ever thought of, but crying in silence is like killing yourself slowly of that which you have no control over.
I'm not suicidal I don't wanna f*cking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying...) [Verse 1: Josh A] Why do I even try? Why do I even write lyrics about how I'm living the life when I'm battling pain and my demons at night Trying to find a new outlet The devil pouncin' I hear him howling, my vision clouded Man I tried to escape but there ain't no way Try to be strong when I deal with the pain (yuh) But I'm ditching the coffin, so my family has options Gotta work till' I'm dead So that they get the best Don't wanna set up a bad example cause the kids looking up Can't leave in shambles can't make them think clocking out's ok So f*ck suicide I'm here to stay [Bridge: Josh A] Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, tryna find the light Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, tryna find the light (nah, man) I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now I'll be running now, I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down, find my way out of this cell now [Chorus: Jake Hill] I'm not suicidal I don't wanna f*cking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying...) [Verse 2: Jake Hill] One too many bad thoughts inside me Got a hole in my heart put the past behind me I'm pressed with time, I'm stressed with life, my breath is ice I guess I might just bottle it up some more just like always Barely standing, crawling down the hallways Sink into my bed, with death inside my head (Yeah) That note you found I didn't mean it Just wish I had a better sense of meaning Never meant to let you down I've been down now racing thoughts had to drown them out (f*ck) Never giving in I swear to god, no matter how many times I pray to a god I don't believe in just to see if I will never wake up But he called my bluff [Bridge: Josh A] Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, tryna find the light Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, tryna find the light (nah, man) I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now I'll be running now, I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down, find my way out of this cell now [Outro: Jake Hill] I'm not suicidal I don't wanna f*cking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying...) (Muffled) I'm not suicidal I don't wanna f*cking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
@@beefboss4203 I keep telling myself to stop watching something inappropriate on RUclips. Every single time I do watch it I feel like dying. Like what the song said. ;(
I remember when i first heard this song when it came out. I was this really positive kid who never had depression before but still loved the beat and the song. 4 years later and a lot of shit after i saw this song and started to cry for some reason. At that moment i realised i've suffered through depression for a long time now but i never realised it. The lyrics just hit so deep.
I just did the Same shit, i cant live more , i am 18 and i been thinking about suicide everyday since i am 15 , i legit just want to die or cut my veins
You haven't gone trough depression if you need a song to realize it. You're not depressed if anything you may have small period where you are sad but youre definetely not depressed
@@raptix5619 oh my god thank you, liteerally everyone in these song comments are dumping their 'life story' but somehow they all were just never depressed before???? i can't stand it. It's like they WANT to be depressed because it's like a trend or something. It's bullshit.
[Jake Hill:] I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying...) [Josh A:] Why do I even try? Why do I even write lyrics about how I'm living the life when I'm battling pain and my demons at night Trying to find a new outlet The devil pounced in I hear him howling, my vision clouded Man I tried to escape but there ain't no way Try to be strong when I deal with the pain (Yuh) Put a bitch in the coffin, so my family has options Gonna work till' I'm dead So that they get the best Don't wanna set up a bad example cause' kids looking up Can't leave them in shambles can't make them think clocking out is ok So fuck suicide I'm here to stay Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, trying to find the light Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, trying to find the light (Nah, nah) I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now I'll be running now, I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down, find my way out of this cell now [Jake Hill:] I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying...) One too many bad thoughts inside me Got a hole in my heart put the past behind me I'm pressed with time, I'm stressed with life, my breath is ice I guess I might just bottle it up some more just like always Barely standing, crawling down the hallways Sink into my bed, with death inside my head (Yeah) That note you found I didn't mean it Just wish I had a better sense of meaning Never meant to let you down I've been down now racing thoughts had to drown them out (Fuck) Never giving in I swear to God, no matter how many times I pray to a God I don't believe in just to see if I will never wake up But he called my bluff [Josh A:] Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, trying to find the light Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, trying to find the light (Nah, nah) I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now I'll be running now, I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down, find my way out of this cell now [Jake Hill:] I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying...) (Muffled) I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
[Hook: Jake Hill] I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying...) [Verse 1: Josh A] Why do I even try? Why do I even write lyrics about how I'm living the life when I'm battling pain and my demons at night Trying to find a new outlet The devil pounced in I hear him howling, my vision clouded Man I tried to escape but there ain't no way Try to be strong when I deal with the pain (yuh) Put a bitch in the coffin, so my family has options Gonna work till' I'm dead So that they get the best Don't wanna set up a bad example cause' kids looking up Can't leave them in shambles can't make them think clocking out is ok So fuck suicide I'm here to stay [Chorus: Josh A] Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, trying to find the light Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, trying to find the light (nah, nah) I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now I'll be running now, I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down, find my way out of this cell now [Hook: Jake Hill] I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying...) [Verse 2: Jake Hill] One too many bad thoughts inside me Got a hole in my heart put the past behind me I'm pressed with time, I'm stressed with life, my breath is ice I guess I might just bottle it up some more just like always Barely standing, crawling down the hallways Sink into my bed, with death inside my head (Yeah) That note you found I didn't mean it Just wish I had a better sense of meaning Never meant to let you down I've been down now racing thoughts had to drown them out (Fuck) Never giving in I swear to god, no matter how many times I pray to a god I don't believe in just to see if I will never wake up But he called my bluff [Chorus: Josh A] Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, trying to find the light Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, trying to find the light (nah, nah) I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now I'll be running now, I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down, find my way out of this cell now [Outro: Jake Hill] I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying...) (Muffled) I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
Quelqu'un quelque part effectivement ptdr , Même si mon niveau en anglais et quand même pas mal pour une jeune fille de 12 ans , j’ai du mal à entendre dans les musiques ou le son passe avant les vocalises si tu vois ce que je veux dire xD
youd hate my playlists then .... i wish youtube never threw them videos at me , especially considering now they are skipping songs and fking with my playlists .... p.s. is there a way to stop that , do you know ?
@@yernef350 that's not how it works, I listen to sad songs cause I can relate to them, it's not the music or headphones it's the shitty people at school and my messed up family
@@xtaniwhax9655 The music doesnt help it also puts you in a certain mood, theres actual research behind, for example a lower bpm will tend to make you sad and a higher bpm will make you happier. So it also does, i didnt mean its all of it.
@@yernef350 it does help This is a sad song so I'll be sad and happy another time and if your such a no it all about happiness then what the hell are you doing here in this depressed side of RUclips
Lyrics (from what I hear, if I'm wrong feel free to correct me) I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna fuckin' die just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright, but every day I feel like dyin' every day I feel like dyin' Why do I even try, why do I even write lyrics about how I'm livin' the life when I'm battlin' pain and my demons at night trying to find a new outlet the devil pounced in I hear him howlin' my vision cloudin' man I tried to escape but there ain't no way try to be strong when I deal with the pain yah, but I'm ditchin' the coffin so my family has options gonna work till I'm dead so that they get the best don't wanna set up a bad example 'cause kids lookin' up can't live with shambles can't let them think clockin' outs okay so fuck suicide I'm here to stay tried to free my mind I don't know what's right wastin' all my time tryna find the light tried to free my mind I don't know what's right wastin' all my time tryna find the light I'll be at it runnin' I'll be runnin' from myself now gunning demons down find my way out of the cell now I'll be runnin' oh I'll be runnin' from myself now gunning demons down find my way out of the cell now I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna fuckin' die just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright, but every day I feel like dyin' every day I feel like dyin' one too many bad thoughts inside me got a hole in my heart put the past behind me I'm pressed for time I'm stressed with life my breath is ice I guess I might just bottle it up some more just like always barely stand to crawl down the hallways sink into my bed, with death inside my head That note you found, I didn't mean it just wish I had a better sense of meaning never meant to let you down I've been down and out erasing thoughts, I had to drown 'em out FUCK Never givin' in I swear to god no matter how many times I pray to a god that I don't believe in, just to see if I'll never wake up but he called my bluff tried to free my mind I don't know what's right wastin' all my time tryna find the light tried to free my mind I don't know what's right wastin' all my time tryna find the light I'll be at it runnin' I'll be runnin' from myself now gunning demons down find my way out of the cell now I'll be runnin' oh I'll be runnin' from myself now gunning demons down find my way out of the cell now I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna fuckin' die just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright, but every day I feel like dyin' every day I feel like dyin' *I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna fuckin' die* (distorted) *just wanna be able to close my eyes* *and feel alright, but every day I feel like dyin'* *every day I feel like dyin'* If anyone has suicidal thoughts or if you just don't think that you're good enough, please call the suicidal prevention hotline like the song says, "fuck suicide I'm here to stay" everyone has a purpose and a place in life, bad things happen to everyone and we just gotta fight through it! 1-800-273-8255
2 years ago I was in high school I put this song on repeat because it represented how I felt. I was filled with depression and anxiety and it gotten so bad I resorted to drinking at school. I would’ve gotten kicked out if it weren’t for the personal issues I was dealing with at the time. But now I’m learning on how to control my anxiety and depression and how to live with it instead of being constantly haunted by it. If you’re ever going through anything just know you do have the strength to continue on and to never give up and Stay strong.
Im in highschool too right now and i really feel this song. I have to do so many things that my life doesnt feel like its my life. I dont even know for what im alive
I’m not suicidal I don’t wanna f*cking die I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But everyday I feel like dying Everyday I feel like dying Why do I even try Why do I even write lyrics about how I’m living the life When I’m battling pain and my demons at night Trying to find a new outlet The devil pouncing I here him howling My vision clouding Man I try to escape but there aint no way Try to be strong when I deal with the pain Yah But I’m ditching the coffin So my family has options Gonna work till I’m dead So that they get the best Don’t wanna set up a bad example Cause kids looking up can’t leave in shambles Can’t make them think clocking out is ok So f*ck suicide I’m here to stay Try to free my mind I don’t know what’s right Wasting all my time Trying to find a light Try to free my mind I don’t know what’s right Wasting all my time Trying to find a light All be out here running All be running from myself now Gunning demons down Find my way out of this hell now All be running now All be running from myself now Gunning demons down Find my way out of this hell now I’m not suicidal I don’t wanna f*cking die I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But everyday I feel like dying Everyday I feel like dying One too many bad thoughts inside me Got a hole in my heart Put the past behind me I’m pressed for time I’m stressed with life My breath is ice I guess I might just bottle it up some more Just like always Barely stand I crawl down the hallway Sink into my bed with death inside my head That note you found I didn’t mean it Just wish I had a better sense of meaning Never meant to let you down I’ve been down and out Racing thoughts I had to drown them out F*ck Never giving in I swear to god no matter how many times I pray to a god I don’t believe in Just to see if i would never wake up But he called my bluff Try to free my mind I don’t know what’s right Wasting all my time Trying to find a light Try to free my mind I don’t know what’s right Wasting all my time Trying to find a light No, no I’ll be out here running I’ll be running from myself now Gunning demons down Find my way out of this hell now I’ll be running now I’ll be running from myself now Gunning demons down Find my way out of this hell now I’m not suicidal I don’t wanna f*cking die I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But everyday I feel like dying Everyday I feel like dying (I’m not suicidal I don’t wanna f*cking die I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But everyday I feel like dying Everyday I feel like dying)
I do want to be free from pain It's not even about someone abusing me (like my brother but it is one thing) the main thing that keeps harassing me the main thought... Is how I use to HURT my friends I lost control of my anger and harm them, looking at them... They remind me of myself (here come their names) I was as ignorant as Leo As Annoying as Molly As naive as Serena And as soft as Caitlin I could easily be hurt lost control and hurt my friends... I was ignorant and didn't realise how bad I was... I was annoying...I was a monster but im trying to improve and I did, but they don't see it... If they only saw or hear how much they mean to me... I hurt them so I tried importing ITS FOR THEM which I became better... For them! They don't know that... It was them who took me out of the darkness, now I just try to smile so brightly that it blinds the darkness so I will be here even if my friends turn against me... Everyone makes their own purpose of living... My one is to protect my friends even if it would cost my life, because they are everything to me... I wish I could tell them this but I can't... I just can't...
@I like 2K No, many of kids, especially ones my age, romanticize things like depression and so therefore a great many are in this romanticized depression than a real depression. I hear "oh I'm so depressed" all the time though they seem perfectly fine and content with themselves.
This song is aggressively telling me that everything will be ok... And I'm completely ok with that, be safe everyone you'll be ok no matter how hard life may seem stay strong 🙏
Sadly, my hope died. Only thing left to me is my internet friends. Only people who supports me without saying "It's your fault", "You are annoying", "If you are that emotional then you have to be in mental hospital" like my family doing.
@@gerardwayseyelash Not really. I want to die for months and having panic attacks about death at the same time. Im getting annoyed by everything and feel like soon I gonna cut my veins even more.
@@Br34dL04f bro I went through this I cut my veins too but just trust me there's always a light at the end of the tunnel. I know it's very hard cuz I know how it feels but just... Believe in yourself and you will make it through ❤️
This song speaks to me on a personal level because being depressed without a reason can be worse than having a reason because then you’re constantly searching for that reason then you find more causes and more and more until your first memory then realise you don’t know then think you’re just a joke so I relate to this song on a personal level
Its the worst being depressed for no reason cause there is no solution that is clear, just lean on family and friends, they help a lot, your not alone.
I honestly feel the same way for a while I though if it was just wanting attention or something but I know that’s not me so idk i relate to this song to on a personal level and don’t talk about it with anyone to seem like it’s just for attention cause idek myself what is wrong
TL;DR: from one depressed person to another, it finally got better. Nobody will probably read this but: it does get better. I am thankful to have survived up to the point of writing this comment. Over 12 years(half my life) of battling severe depression, where 6 of those years I would contemplate thoughts of my death every day, where every night I went to bed begging never to wake up again. Where I never planned for a future because I didnt think i would make it past 23 years of age. Doing whatever to fill the void within myself; drugs, material things, trying to fit in with ANYONE i thought might bring me happiness. It felt like nothing worked and i would daily fight a battle within myself to stay alive, no matter how many times I tried. Its been a really rough last few years especially, but ive gained so much wisdom, and now my life revolves around giving as much support to the Brain Health (mental health) community as i can give back. The world isnt perfect and my life is far from good. But now, adversity in life the end of the world for me. Self destructive behaviors are not my coping mechanisms anymore, in fact im currently figuring out which tattoos I can do to cover up my scars, and trust me, i know what its like. I just hope maybe one person who might read this believes this, because truthfully I know i wouldnt have before. You are loved.
@DaddyPool 420 my dude, you have so much life left to live. I was there in that position at 14 too. It fuckin sucks sometimes, and it sometimes just feels like there's no way out, but there is. There's a practice I learned to pick up on that helped me begin the see the better side of things. Every day, at night or when you wake up, think of 3 things you saw that either made your day better or if you see an act of kindness whether its to you or another person. If you do this for 21 days, your brain has an actual physical change. Hang in there, and please, if you ever feel like you're not in a safe place, reach out. There are so many people and support out there. Keep fighting, I sincerely fucking promise you that it get better, and one day you're gonna apoligize to yourself for not knowing your worth.
@@blacktulip2006 because even tho I'm better, I still feel this way from time to time. And thats okay. I recognize the emotions for what they are, and then let them pass. All things pass in life, and emotions are temporary
This is what my anxiety and my depression does to me it actually makes me feel numb and i hate it it makes me feel like i want to live i love this lyric though cause it kept me alive for 18 years so far "just wanna be able to close my eyes and be able to feel alright but everyday i feel like dying" also at the end of the day i have to cry myself to sleep cause of it :(
If you need help Go talk to your friends, family and People you Trust, Life can Be Great full of Good memories and experiences and Will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it, If necessary search for help in the internet and If you can afford it call a therapist "ending your Life is a permanent solution for a temporary problem" so many People that tried to end it changed their minds and are glad to Be alive,. we all have the dark chapter of our lives but you can pass through it by the way do not Be shy to call for help
Same. But I have learned one thing. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem I heard those words from my therapist and we'll basically that's what has kept me going. So just stay strong and you will make it.❤️
Dont end it. What if there is nothing after? Make the best of what you can while alive. Be a good person and hopefully there is a god and an afterlife. But if there isnt atleast make what time you have here the best possible.
My parents recently ended their relationship and I am about 12... I have to be there for my brother at the end of the day... I had to promise my father I wouldn't give up on him. This song really helps me get through everything, thank you.
Hey kid ... I know things are tough right now. I won't pretend to understand your home situation and how you feel, but as someone who's family still has both parents who are constantly clawing at each other's throats ... maybe it's for the best. Nevertheless, I hope you and your Dad are doing alright. I know things stark right now, but someday, things will get better.
ay man as someone whose lived with this shit since like 1 ik how it feels man just its gonna be tough i cant lie but as long as u got ur brother and hes got u u can get through this ight my brother is the reason i didnt crumble when that happened to u man just keep ur head up man ight
Sean Sparandero you cant call all feminists fucking idiots because 20 or so women and some men said he beat his wife,feminists fight for equal rights,extreme feminists are the ones that take it too far
I respect this song. It has a great meaning and there’s not a lot of songs that I can relate to when I’m depressed cuz there either about killing yourself (which I have no intentions on doing) or is just a sad story type of song. But this song is just one of those unique songs that I can really relate to and which is why I have so much respect for this song
x4x_Shadow_x4x Judging by what you want, you may want to check out some of the older twenty one pilots songs. Some of them touch on suicide, but stuff from Regional at Best and their self titled album might be your cup of tea. Check out songs like fall away or clear if you like the rap stuff.
Not everyone wants to be on medication and not everyone who feels depressed needs it. There is a difference between feeling down and actually having depression that requires medical assessment.
Shadow, I agree. This song describes how I feel almost everyday. I think about suicide almost daily but it's not like I want to go plan my death, sometimes I just want to not exist, or wish that I never did exist. It's hard to explain to someone who never experiences that.
Living life is the worst pain I'm going thru. Being alive is something i don't wanna do but ofc ppl are forcing me to do something i don't wanna do again
If you need help go talk to your friends, family and people you trust, life can be great so dont waste it, and also dont worry everything is gonna be better after the pandemic ends so just wait, keep going foward because life is full of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of suicide survivors remember that they changed their mind mid-suicide and are glad to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet, call the suicide hotline and if you can afford a therapist too because i worry about you "suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem"
Some guy in the comments showed this to my girl just now. She probably gonna hug me and cry. Oops. But what can I say it’s a great song that I could relate to
Whoa. Odd how this almost perfectly encapsulated my own struggle. The thoughts are there but the intent isn't, and lots of people I've opened up to don't understand the distinction. Accepting the feelings, moving past them, and fighting every damn day to escape the mire in our minds. Good lyrics and flow.
Zero Wolfblade It will be soon. I set the release date way too early which means it probably won’t hit every store at the exact same time. Give it a few more days
Little boy: are you an angel? Girl: um...no... Little boy: My mother told me that people who have marked wrists are angels, and often they are broken by this world, so they try to get back to heaven. Girl: You know your mother is very wise. Little boy: I know. She was an angel as well, but she already returned home.
My comfort song I used to listen this nonstop 2020-2021 and now I'm not sayin that Im free from struggling with my mental health just not as bad as last year. Whoever is struggling with their mental health now I hope one day you will found your lost soul that you've been questioning if you had one.
Me and Josh are on Spotify: Jake: open.spotify.com/artist/26JloX1vHxGGrGUVeMItFJ?si=I6ATO_LaTv-nm7ukx2eVjw Josh A: open.spotify.com/artist/2rWCIhENZyPVDAeFC0ESWN?si=iNGYk35CSgS7PVDUwYRV4w
I kept listening to this in my suicidal days hoping someone would notice and help me. It didn't work, nobody helped. If you have dark or suicidal thoughts, please go seek help. Talk to someone you trust. if you don't have anyone you trust to talk about it then there is a lot of phone number you can call or do everything to stop yourself from doing the act of killing yourself. If you know you can't control yourself anymore and know you will act on your thought, please go to the nearest hospital or police station. They will do everything in their power to prevent bad things to happen. Mabey nobody tells you this enough but we love you. No matter who you are or where you from, we love you. If you didn't understand it yet, I love you and please seek help.
Been listening to this banger since I was 13 and id listen and cry alone. and now I'm 21 and I still cry. I'm tired and although my life is different now, I still feel depressed even tho I'm on antidepressants and this crippling mental health issues keep racking up and I feel like I'm slowly going insane 🥲
I get you, I'm 25 and I've also had issues since 13. Although for me its improved between 15-19 and then started going worse and worse. I also sometimes feel like I'm slowly going crazy and get scared of myself. I hope that with time we can both get to feel better. I send you all my strength and best wishes. ❤💪🏻
After 18 yrs, 3 kids, and cheated on several times, I am out of that relationship, and found the woman who makes me want to be the man I can, I found this song when I had some bad thoughts... I needed this.
Honestly I think my favorite part of the song is when he says he doesnt know why he writes songs about partying when he's been dealing with those demons. Idk why, but I think it's because I like the self awareness.
Jake Hill & Josh A. - Suicidal Thoughts LYRICS (Put these together listening, correct me if I'm wrong.) I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna fucking die. Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright; But everyday I feel like dying, Everyday I feel like dying. Why do I even try? Why do I even write, Lyrics about how I'm living the life when I'm battling pain and my demons at night. Trying to find a new outlet, The Devil pouncing, I hear him howling. My vision clouding, Man I try to escape but there ain't no way, Try to be strong and deal with the pain. Yeah But I'm ditching the coffin, So my family has options. Gonna work till I'm dead, So that they get the best. Don't wanna set up a bad example, 'Cause kids looking up, Can't leave em' in shambles. Can't make them think like a nutso case, So fuck suicide I'm here to stay. Try to free my mind, I don't know what's right, Wasting all my time, Trying to find the light. (x2) I'll be out an running, I'll be running for myself now. Gunning demons down, Find my way out of this hell now. (x2) I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna fucking die. Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright; But everyday I feel like dying, Everyday I feel like dying. One too many bad thoughts inside me, Got a hole in my heart put the past behind me, I'm pressed for time, I'm stressed with life, My breath is ice. I guess I might just bottle it up some more, Just like always, Barely stand to crawl down the hallway, Sink into my bed, With death inside my head. Yeah That note you found, I didn't mean it. Just wish I had a better sense of meaning. Never meant to let you down, I been down n' out, Racing thoughts I had to draw em' out. Fuck, Never given in, I swear to God, No matter how many times I prayed to a God I don't believe in, Just to see if I would ever wake up, But he called my bluff Trying to free my mind, I don't know what's right, Wasting all my time, Trying to find the light. (2x) I'll be out an running, I'll be running for myself now. Gunning demons down, Find my way out of this hell now. (2x) I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna fucking die. Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright; But everyday I feel like dying, Everyday I feel like dying. (I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna fucking die. Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright; But everyday I feel like dying, Everyday I feel like dying). I really hope this is pretty accurate.
Its funny how It hits different depends on situations, for me like being depressed and suicidal for like 8 years, it hits more the more you have enough of fighting every day, so I hope every one of you will have a good life. this song is masterpiece
If you need help Go talk to your friends,family and People you Trust, Life can Be Great só dont waste it, dont worry after the pandemic ends everything is gonna Be better, a lot of suicide survivors changed their mind mid-suicide and are glad to Be Alive, keep going foward for your family and friends, Life is a adventure full of Good memories and Good experiences, If necessary call the suicide hotline and maybe even a therapist and search for help in the internet like r/suicidewatch "suicide is a permanent solution for a temporary problem" i worry about you my friend
Lyrics [Chorus: Jake Hill] I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna fucking die I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying...) [Verse 1: Josh A] Why do I even try? Why do I even write lyrics about how I'm living the life when I'm battling pain and my demons at night Trying to find a new outlet The devil pouncin' I hear him howlin', my vision cloudin' Man I tried to escape but there ain't no way Try to be strong when I deal with the pain (yuh) But I'm ditching the coffin, so my family has options Gotta work till' I'm dead So that they get the best Don't wanna set up a bad example cause the kids looking up Can't leave in shambles can't make them think clocking out's ok So fuck suicide I'm here to stay [Bridge: Josh A] Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, tryna find the light Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, tryna find the light (Nah, man) I'll be out here runnin', I'll be runnin' from myself now Gunnin' demons down find my way out of this hell now I'll be runnin' now, I'll be runnin' from myself now Gunnin' demons down, find my way out of this hell now [Chorus: Jake Hill] I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna fucking die I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying...) [Verse 2: Jake Hill] One too many bad thoughts inside me Got a hole in my heart put the past behind me I'm pressed with time, I'm stressed with life, my breath is ice I guess I might just bottle it up some more just like always Barely standing, crawling down the hallways Sink into my bed, with death inside my head (Yeah) That note you found I didn't mean it Just wish I had a better sense of meaning Never meant to let you down I've been down now racing thoughts had to drown them out (Fuck) Never giving in I swear to god, no matter how many times I pray to a god I don't believe in just to see if I will never wake up But he called my bluff [Bridge: Josh A] Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, tryna find the light Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, tryna find the light (nah, man) I'll be out here runnin', I'll be runnin' from myself now Gunnin' demons down find my way out of this hell now I'll be runnin' now, I'll be runnin' from myself now Gunnin' demons down, find my way out of this hell now
Suicidal is the definition of giving up: Like, when something bad happens to you, you don't ever wish "I wish my life was better.." or "I'll do something to fix this." Being suicidal is like when something bad happend you say, "That's it. That's all I can take and I'm ready to go." No, I have never said to myself "Oh, I wish my life could go better. I don't deserve this.." I just give up and shut down saying, "There's only one way to get out of this." I've tricked myself into thinking that nothing goes right for me, and that's it.
JayJay Sanderson simply being at your breaking point. There’s only so much someone can take and I can relate to what you’re saying more than I wish to admit but I’ve got people who rely on me and I guess you do too even if you don’t notice. So do me a favour and everyone else who also cares and stay strong. There’s always a solution to every situation even if you may not see it. That’s why you need people around you to show you the other options. You got this fam ✌️
I don't know how, but I got rid of my depression. I never spoke to anyone about it, neither someone noticed. It was hella tough, but I made it through. I didn't say anything like 'I'm gonna get through this' and stuff, I was constantly telling myself that I'm a mistake, a loser, a nobody. And now I feel like a normal person, and I am happy and healthy now, which is the most important thing. Stay strong everyone, but DON'T do what I did.
I sent this to my mom She replied with: YOU SMOKE?! edit: No, I don't smoke, mom Edit 2: it's been 5 months, things worked out, it's fine yall, thanks for the support omg
I remember I listened to this song like 2 years ago when I was pretty much depressed (undiagnosed tho, so can't fully claim that) It kinda helped me to go through these tough times. I believe you guys also gonna get better!
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I LOVE JAKE 🔥❤️
Bet
no MN rough
where r yuu from
" Depression is like u don't wanna die , but also don't wanna exist "
good quote but depression is many things, not just that. not disagreeing with your quote just pointing out that its a mental illness with many expressions
Yup
Yea
@@yeetskeet1581 yea
@@alexdaniel5641 how did you talk to me
When I was a kid, I thought crying out loud was the most pain ever thought of, but crying in silence is like killing yourself slowly of that which you have no control over.
Well some people like to cry in silence and that some people is all of me I really want to cry right now it’s really hard to
that hit😔
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@@kami0 different typa heartbreak 😮💨
don't commit suicide that shit kills you..
"Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright" who else felt that?
(-) yall aint alone 🙏
Me
ツSki Mɑsk eeeee I did.
Me
Me.And my dads belt
Go play agario lol
"I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright, but everyday I feel like dying." i relate to this way more than i should
Same
lmao stop capping
Jesus loves you
Same and I'm 13
i feel you i relate to this whole song but the part were it says to F to killing my self bc ill just bottle it up some more tell the death of me
its funny how everyone who searches this song puts 'song' at the end to avoid some conversations lol
I didnt
Nah
😅
I just put jake hill afterwars but tbh I would do that too
Its not my case
I'm not suicidal I don't wanna f*cking die
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
[Verse 1: Josh A]
Why do I even try?
Why do I even write lyrics about how I'm living the life when I'm battling pain and my demons at night
Trying to find a new outlet
The devil pouncin'
I hear him howling, my vision clouded
Man I tried to escape but there ain't no way
Try to be strong when I deal with the pain (yuh)
But I'm ditching the coffin, so my family has options
Gotta work till' I'm dead
So that they get the best
Don't wanna set up a bad example cause the kids looking up
Can't leave in shambles can't make them think clocking out's ok
So f*ck suicide I'm here to stay
[Bridge: Josh A]
Try to free my mind
I don't know what's right
Wasting all my time, tryna find the light
Try to free my mind
I don't know what's right
Wasting all my time, tryna find the light
(nah, man)
I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now
Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now
I'll be running now, I'll be running from myself now
Gunning demons down, find my way out of this cell now
[Chorus: Jake Hill]
I'm not suicidal I don't wanna f*cking die
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
[Verse 2: Jake Hill]
One too many bad thoughts inside me
Got a hole in my heart put the past behind me
I'm pressed with time, I'm stressed with life, my breath is ice
I guess I might just bottle it up some more just like always
Barely standing, crawling down the hallways
Sink into my bed, with death inside my head
(Yeah) That note you found I didn't mean it
Just wish I had a better sense of meaning
Never meant to let you down
I've been down now racing thoughts had to drown them out
(f*ck)
Never giving in I swear to god, no matter how many times I pray to a god
I don't believe in just to see if I will never wake up
But he called my bluff
[Bridge: Josh A]
Try to free my mind
I don't know what's right
Wasting all my time, tryna find the light
Try to free my mind
I don't know what's right
Wasting all my time, tryna find the light
(nah, man)
I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now
Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now
I'll be running now, I'll be running from myself now
Gunning demons down, find my way out of this cell now
[Outro: Jake Hill]
I'm not suicidal I don't wanna f*cking die
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
(Muffled)
I'm not suicidal I don't wanna f*cking die
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
DoughNut BoB thx
Thanks. Now i can die in peace :(
This song is me
thanks
Thx♡
"I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright" i felt that
yeah same with all the shit going around the world and me fucking myself up even tho i keep telling myself to stop
@@beefboss4203 yeh
we felt that
@@beefboss4203 I keep telling myself to stop watching something inappropriate on RUclips. Every single time I do watch it I feel like dying. Like what the song said. ;(
I felt that shit at the bottom of my shattered heart
I remember when i first heard this song when it came out. I was this really positive kid who never had depression before but still loved the beat and the song. 4 years later and a lot of shit after i saw this song and started to cry for some reason. At that moment i realised i've suffered through depression for a long time now but i never realised it. The lyrics just hit so deep.
So true, once you read the lyrics then you will understand how he feels
I just did the Same shit, i cant live more , i am 18 and i been thinking about suicide everyday since i am 15 , i legit just want to die or cut my veins
the one thing I learned is that the person who has smiled the most times has also cried the most times.
You haven't gone trough depression if you need a song to realize it. You're not depressed if anything you may have small period where you are sad but youre definetely not depressed
@@raptix5619 oh my god thank you, liteerally everyone in these song comments are dumping their 'life story' but somehow they all were just never depressed before???? i can't stand it. It's like they WANT to be depressed because it's like a trend or something. It's bullshit.
[Jake Hill:]
I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
[Josh A:]
Why do I even try?
Why do I even write lyrics about how I'm living the life when I'm battling pain and my demons at night
Trying to find a new outlet
The devil pounced in
I hear him howling, my vision clouded
Man I tried to escape but there ain't no way
Try to be strong when I deal with the pain
(Yuh) Put a bitch in the coffin, so my family has options
Gonna work till' I'm dead
So that they get the best
Don't wanna set up a bad example cause' kids looking up
Can't leave them in shambles can't make them think clocking out is ok
So fuck suicide I'm here to stay
Try to free my mind
I don't know what's right
Wasting all my time, trying to find the light
Try to free my mind
I don't know what's right
Wasting all my time, trying to find the light
(Nah, nah)
I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now
Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now
I'll be running now, I'll be running from myself now
Gunning demons down, find my way out of this cell now
[Jake Hill:]
I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
One too many bad thoughts inside me
Got a hole in my heart put the past behind me
I'm pressed with time, I'm stressed with life, my breath is ice
I guess I might just bottle it up some more just like always
Barely standing, crawling down the hallways
Sink into my bed, with death inside my head
(Yeah) That note you found I didn't mean it
Just wish I had a better sense of meaning
Never meant to let you down
I've been down now racing thoughts had to drown them out
(Fuck)
Never giving in I swear to God, no matter how many times I pray to a God
I don't believe in just to see if I will never wake up
But he called my bluff
[Josh A:]
Try to free my mind
I don't know what's right
Wasting all my time, trying to find the light
Try to free my mind
I don't know what's right
Wasting all my time, trying to find the light
(Nah, nah)
I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now
Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now
I'll be running now, I'll be running from myself now
Gunning demons down, find my way out of this cell now
[Jake Hill:]
I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
(Muffled)
I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
Thanks❤️❤️❤️
thx 🖤
Dang good work!
@@Man-rx8ci lol I know I mean what the song says is how I feel
Thank you for this
"just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright “
We all want to
Something we all know we want but yet something we all know isn't real 😔😭💔
I looked at ur comment while it played in the song at the same time
Its everyday bro yeah its everyday bro
FuryyyX every day i feel like dying
when you want people to stop hurting you but then you realize you're the one hurting yourself
Same
Man😭
Than you also realize you're 12 and so is everyone replying
r/im14andthisisdeep
@@pinkddpat r/Iinvalidateteensmentalhealth
“Sleep isn’t just sleep anymore, it’s your best escape from reality”
Felt that
yeah
Sleeping is like being dead just without the commitment
Jesus loves you 😊
I always look forward to Sleep it's the only way of knowing true peace.
[Hook: Jake Hill]
I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
[Verse 1: Josh A]
Why do I even try?
Why do I even write lyrics about how I'm living the life when I'm battling pain and my demons at night
Trying to find a new outlet
The devil pounced in
I hear him howling, my vision clouded
Man I tried to escape but there ain't no way
Try to be strong when I deal with the pain
(yuh) Put a bitch in the coffin, so my family has options
Gonna work till' I'm dead
So that they get the best
Don't wanna set up a bad example cause' kids looking up
Can't leave them in shambles can't make them think clocking out is ok
So fuck suicide I'm here to stay
[Chorus: Josh A]
Try to free my mind
I don't know what's right
Wasting all my time, trying to find the light
Try to free my mind
I don't know what's right
Wasting all my time, trying to find the light
(nah, nah)
I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now
Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now
I'll be running now, I'll be running from myself now
Gunning demons down, find my way out of this cell now
[Hook: Jake Hill]
I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
[Verse 2: Jake Hill]
One too many bad thoughts inside me
Got a hole in my heart put the past behind me
I'm pressed with time, I'm stressed with life, my breath is ice
I guess I might just bottle it up some more just like always
Barely standing, crawling down the hallways
Sink into my bed, with death inside my head
(Yeah) That note you found I didn't mean it
Just wish I had a better sense of meaning
Never meant to let you down
I've been down now racing thoughts had to drown them out
(Fuck)
Never giving in I swear to god, no matter how many times I pray to a god
I don't believe in just to see if I will never wake up
But he called my bluff
[Chorus: Josh A]
Try to free my mind
I don't know what's right
Wasting all my time, trying to find the light
Try to free my mind
I don't know what's right
Wasting all my time, trying to find the light
(nah, nah)
I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now
Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now
I'll be running now, I'll be running from myself now
Gunning demons down, find my way out of this cell now
[Outro: Jake Hill]
I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
(Muffled)
I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
Thank you
Up
Thx a lot, for a french guy it's not easy to follow him ! 😅
(I don't even know if my sentence make sense... And same for this one... Yeah, french people are fuckingly bad in English...)
Quelqu'un quelque part effectivement ptdr , Même si mon niveau en anglais et quand même pas mal pour une jeune fille de 12 ans , j’ai du mal à entendre dans les musiques ou le son passe avant les vocalises si tu vois ce que je veux dire xD
Roses are dead
Violets are dying
Depression aint no joke
Many kids are crying
:(:
Yupp
I’m 11 and wanna die 💔*cries with fake smiles*
*_I started having depression when I was 8, I hate life, there’s NO way I’d change my mind._*
LOL
What they say: it will get better
What they mean: you’ll get used to the pain
That is very true and that's sad
Hits different
Yoongi makes me always smile.. (:
Damn that hit
It’s true but let’s try to love ourselves :)
Honestly, this is the most relatable song I've found in awhile.
Listen to more music by him
Listen to citizen soldier
Listen to bullet by Hollywood undead
Yeah
youd hate my playlists then .... i wish youtube never threw them videos at me , especially considering now they are skipping songs and fking with my playlists ....
p.s. is there a way to stop that , do you know ?
Me: **gets mild depression**
Everyone in my family: its those pesky headphones
If you only listen to sad songs yeah its those pesky headphones ^^
@@yernef350 that's not how it works, I listen to sad songs cause I can relate to them, it's not the music or headphones it's the shitty people at school and my messed up family
@@xtaniwhax9655 The music doesnt help it also puts you in a certain mood, theres actual research behind, for example a lower bpm will tend to make you sad and a higher bpm will make you happier. So it also does, i didnt mean its all of it.
@@yernef350 it does help
This is a sad song so I'll be sad and happy another time and if your such a no it all about happiness then what the hell are you doing here in this depressed side of RUclips
@@yernef350... Sorry
Me:Gets depression
Family: *its from being on that PC all day*
Poisonous Nightmare facts
Zpitting da factz
Fml
Fact
Why do they never realize that pc is to cope with other troubles
Lyrics (from what I hear, if I'm wrong feel free to correct me)
I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna fuckin' die
just wanna be able to close my eyes
and feel alright, but every day I feel like dyin'
every day I feel like dyin'
Why do I even try, why do I even write
lyrics about how I'm livin' the life
when I'm battlin' pain
and my demons at night
trying to find a new outlet
the devil pounced in
I hear him howlin'
my vision cloudin'
man I tried to escape but there ain't no way
try to be strong when I deal with the pain
yah, but I'm ditchin' the coffin
so my family has options
gonna work till I'm dead
so that they get the best
don't wanna set up a bad example
'cause kids lookin' up
can't live with shambles
can't let them think clockin' outs okay
so fuck suicide I'm here to stay
tried to free my mind
I don't know what's right
wastin' all my time
tryna find the light
tried to free my mind
I don't know what's right
wastin' all my time
tryna find the light
I'll be at it runnin'
I'll be runnin' from myself now
gunning demons down
find my way out of the cell now
I'll be runnin' oh
I'll be runnin' from myself now
gunning demons down
find my way out of the cell now
I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna fuckin' die
just wanna be able to close my eyes
and feel alright, but every day I feel like dyin'
every day I feel like dyin'
one too many bad thoughts inside me
got a hole in my heart put the past behind me
I'm pressed for time I'm stressed with life
my breath is ice I guess I might just
bottle it up some more just like always
barely stand to crawl down the hallways
sink into my bed, with death inside my head
That note you found, I didn't mean it
just wish I had a better sense of meaning
never meant to let you down
I've been down and out
erasing thoughts, I had to drown 'em out FUCK
Never givin' in I swear to god
no matter how many times I pray to a god
that I don't believe in, just to see if I'll never wake up
but he called my bluff
tried to free my mind
I don't know what's right
wastin' all my time
tryna find the light
tried to free my mind
I don't know what's right
wastin' all my time
tryna find the light
I'll be at it runnin'
I'll be runnin' from myself now
gunning demons down
find my way out of the cell now
I'll be runnin' oh
I'll be runnin' from myself now
gunning demons down
find my way out of the cell now
I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna fuckin' die
just wanna be able to close my eyes
and feel alright, but every day I feel like dyin'
every day I feel like dyin'
*I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna fuckin' die* (distorted)
*just wanna be able to close my eyes*
*and feel alright, but every day I feel like dyin'*
*every day I feel like dyin'*
If anyone has suicidal thoughts or if you just don't think that you're good enough, please call the suicidal prevention hotline
like the song says, "fuck suicide I'm here to stay" everyone has a purpose and a place in life, bad things happen to everyone and we just gotta fight through it!
1-800-273-8255
Upvote
pin this shit!
I'll be runnin' from myself now
gunning demons down, find my way out of the cell now
Kinda sounds like this in the part where you put (IDK)
I think "but he caught me bluff" should be "but he called my bluff" at (2:00)
Brandon MacIntosh Yeah now I can hear it, I fixed it.
The fact that it shows a suicidal warning just shows how powerful it is.
2 years ago I was in high school I put this song on repeat because it represented how I felt. I was filled with depression and anxiety and it gotten so bad I resorted to drinking at school. I would’ve gotten kicked out if it weren’t for the personal issues I was dealing with at the time. But now I’m learning on how to control my anxiety and depression and how to live with it instead of being constantly haunted by it. If you’re ever going through anything just know you do have the strength to continue on and to never give up and Stay strong.
How are you doing now
Hey dude are you okay
I hope your doing better now friend.
Exactly
Im in highschool too right now and i really feel this song. I have to do so many things that my life doesnt feel like its my life. I dont even know for what im alive
**gets grounded for thinking about suicide**
Wth , they need to be slapped
#relatable and for cutting
Yeah my dad just gets mad at me whenever I cut myself. That's why when I relapsed earlier I never reached out. I'll just get punished
DUDE MY MOM TOOK MY PHONE AWAY FOR SUICIDAL THOUGHTS AND CUTTING WTF
@@Eli-ld1vg same. Love the name
*"Why do I even try?"*
This speaks to me on so many levels
There's more hope or motivation
me too
I feel you here
Haha same
I feel this post
This fucking song hits home... Damn... 28 years saying fuck it I will stay. And now this song pops up and BAM I cry. This shit hit home hard.
I’m not suicidal
I don’t wanna f*cking die
I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But everyday I feel like dying
Everyday I feel like dying
Why do I even try
Why do I even write lyrics about how I’m living the life
When I’m battling pain and my demons at night
Trying to find a new outlet
The devil pouncing
I here him howling
My vision clouding
Man I try to escape but there aint no way
Try to be strong when I deal with the pain
Yah But I’m ditching the coffin
So my family has options
Gonna work till I’m dead
So that they get the best
Don’t wanna set up a bad example
Cause kids looking up can’t leave in shambles
Can’t make them think clocking out is ok
So f*ck suicide I’m here to stay
Try to free my mind
I don’t know what’s right
Wasting all my time
Trying to find a light
Try to free my mind
I don’t know what’s right
Wasting all my time
Trying to find a light
All be out here running
All be running from myself now
Gunning demons down
Find my way out of this hell now
All be running now
All be running from myself now
Gunning demons down
Find my way out of this hell now
I’m not suicidal
I don’t wanna f*cking die
I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But everyday I feel like dying
Everyday I feel like dying
One too many bad thoughts inside me
Got a hole in my heart
Put the past behind me
I’m pressed for time
I’m stressed with life
My breath is ice
I guess I might just
bottle it up some more
Just like always
Barely stand I crawl down the hallway
Sink into my bed
with death inside my head
That note you found I didn’t mean it
Just wish I had a better sense of meaning
Never meant to let you down
I’ve been down and out
Racing thoughts I had to drown them out
F*ck
Never giving in
I swear to god no matter how many times I pray to a god
I don’t believe in
Just to see if i would never wake up
But he called my bluff
Try to free my mind
I don’t know what’s right
Wasting all my time
Trying to find a light
Try to free my mind
I don’t know what’s right
Wasting all my time
Trying to find a light
No, no
I’ll be out here running
I’ll be running from myself now
Gunning demons down
Find my way out of this hell now
I’ll be running now
I’ll be running from myself now
Gunning demons down
Find my way out of this hell now
I’m not suicidal
I don’t wanna f*cking die
I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But everyday I feel like dying
Everyday I feel like dying
(I’m not suicidal
I don’t wanna f*cking die
I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But everyday I feel like dying
Everyday I feel like dying)
wow nc
Thank you , that’s some long lyrics lol
Mermaid Elizabeth look at the song Suicide Forest and go down and you’ll see other lyrics I put there :)
youre a god
TweaZy why thank you
00:13 her defasında ''Anasını satayım'' diyecek sanıyorum
LOL
Artık şarkıyı normal bir biçimde algılayamıyorum çok sağol
@@selencivelek663 geçmiş olsun sjshhs
@@engineer2323 ya akdlsjşflslfşf kafayı yicem virüs bulaştırdın resmen
AHAHHAHAJD
*Social anxiety has joined the server* and you can Never leave...
Your everywhere
Charles Stanley he really is lmfao
True man 😭😭😭
NICE NAME XD
@@charlesstanley9825 justin Y is the real account
Why are these songs not getting the recognition they deserve?
Yes
@@1th117 Yes
that's because we apes value plastic more than gold.
@@Vrd191 Facts periodt
because they are awful
"I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright, but everyday I feel like dying, everyday I feel like dying..."
I actually felt that.
Help Me : same here to
We’re with you on that one.
Same dude
I lost my best friend, he's dead, i don't feel anything i don't want to live anymore, i haven't motivation i don't see something good in life
normal people: "your fine, get over yourself, there is nothing wrong with you"
me: your why i feel like this
Nobody wants to die they just wanna be free from the pain...
Pills are better 😬!
Or just not exist...
...
I do want to be free from pain
It's not even about someone abusing me (like my brother but it is one thing) the main thing that keeps harassing me the main thought...
Is how I use to HURT my friends I lost control of my anger and harm them, looking at them... They remind me of myself (here come their names)
I was as ignorant as Leo
As Annoying as Molly
As naive as Serena
And as soft as Caitlin
I could easily be hurt lost control and hurt my friends... I was ignorant and didn't realise how bad I was... I was annoying...I was a monster but im trying to improve and I did, but they don't see it... If they only saw or hear how much they mean to me... I hurt them so I tried importing ITS FOR THEM which I became better... For them! They don't know that... It was them who took me out of the darkness, now I just try to smile so brightly that it blinds the darkness so I will be here even if my friends turn against me... Everyone makes their own purpose of living... My one is to protect my friends even if it would cost my life, because they are everything to me... I wish I could tell them this but I can't... I just can't...
Ama bjk hala küçük kulüp 😭😭😭
The saddest thing is... the entire new generation is depressed but the past generation doesn't understand
yeah, no, thats bullshit
lol no
@I like 2K sounds like depression to me
@I like 2K No, many of kids, especially ones my age, romanticize things like depression and so therefore a great many are in this romanticized depression than a real depression. I hear "oh I'm so depressed" all the time though they seem perfectly fine and content with themselves.
I was lucky my dad had severe depression and took meds for it so he took my depression and anxiety very seriously
I wish I could close my eyes and open them again to find my self in a better world
I feel that
Dont we all man?
Same bro
Me too
"I'll be running from myself now" Jeeeez that's a new level of depression.
Ahmad Amjed oof
I have been for a while bruh get on my level
Ahmad Amjed Welcome to My Brain. Enjoy your stay.
I've been on that level of depression since I was 8, I'm 12 now.
@@imgay6885 holy... it seems I'm just out of this Earth cuz God dam your 8 to 12 depressed? Hope you feel good some day bud all support.
“That note you found I didn’t mean it”
Wow that actually just happened to me this past week
This song is so relatable
Lmao pussssy
pro skillz over 9000 for the lolol
You are a bad person.
@@proskillzoverforthelolol bitch please. everyone has shit to deal with, you shouldn't comment this. let them have emotions. holy fuck
Madame Lovelace
He’s a troll, leave him alone. He’ll fuck off eventually.
Faxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
This song is aggressively telling me that everything will be ok... And I'm completely ok with that, be safe everyone you'll be ok no matter how hard life may seem stay strong 🙏
No :(
Sadly, my hope died. Only thing left to me is my internet friends. Only people who supports me without saying "It's your fault", "You are annoying", "If you are that emotional then you have to be in mental hospital" like my family doing.
@@Br34dL04f Are you doing okay?
@@gerardwayseyelash Not really. I want to die for months and having panic attacks about death at the same time. Im getting annoyed by everything and feel like soon I gonna cut my veins even more.
@@Br34dL04f bro I went through this I cut my veins too but just trust me there's always a light at the end of the tunnel. I know it's very hard cuz I know how it feels but just... Believe in yourself and you will make it through ❤️
“I’m not suicidal I don’t wanna f*cking die just wanna close my eyes and feel alright’’
2 mins. Silence for those who still can't find this song, after hearing 1st time by chance!!
B. I. G TROLLED
Yessir
i'd rather listen to half of this song
TRUE
Yesss
This song speaks to me on a personal level because being depressed without a reason can be worse than having a reason because then you’re constantly searching for that reason then you find more causes and more and more until your first memory then realise you don’t know then think you’re just a joke so I relate to this song on a personal level
Its the worst being depressed for no reason cause there is no solution that is clear, just lean on family and friends, they help a lot, your not alone.
I honestly feel the same way for a while I though if it was just wanting attention or something but I know that’s not me so idk i relate to this song to on a personal level and don’t talk about it with anyone to seem like it’s just for attention cause idek myself what is wrong
#BillieEllie 😐 facts tho
What
me too, i lost a game in league of legends
I showed this to my grass now it's weed
mine's dead
ruclips.net/video/6Dh-RL__uN4/видео.html
I am trying to figure the fuck out what you writong i am high af rn
Mine caught on fire 🔥
sTeAlEd
I hate the fact RUclips has a warning when you play this song but this song is about NOT killing yourself.
"Just wanna be able to close my eyes and just feel alright"
Fuck off
Fuck off
Bo Clowes a wot
NoFoxsGiven a wot
90% of comments are:
"Sad gang where you at?" and "I'm not sad I'm depressed."
10% of the comments are:
"Great song"
Not even 10% tbh
@@guessimbishop9250 yeah maybe 5%
Great song
And now it’s 0.01% of this kind of comment. Thank you for ruining perfect statistics.
Related
TL;DR: from one depressed person to another, it finally got better.
Nobody will probably read this but: it does get better. I am thankful to have survived up to the point of writing this comment. Over 12 years(half my life) of battling severe depression, where 6 of those years I would contemplate thoughts of my death every day, where every night I went to bed begging never to wake up again. Where I never planned for a future because I didnt think i would make it past 23 years of age. Doing whatever to fill the void within myself; drugs, material things, trying to fit in with ANYONE i thought might bring me happiness. It felt like nothing worked and i would daily fight a battle within myself to stay alive, no matter how many times I tried. Its been a really rough last few years especially, but ive gained so much wisdom, and now my life revolves around giving as much support to the Brain Health (mental health) community as i can give back. The world isnt perfect and my life is far from good. But now, adversity in life the end of the world for me. Self destructive behaviors are not my coping mechanisms anymore, in fact im currently figuring out which tattoos I can do to cover up my scars, and trust me, i know what its like. I just hope maybe one person who might read this believes this, because truthfully I know i wouldnt have before. You are loved.
@DaddyPool 420 my dude, you have so much life left to live. I was there in that position at 14 too. It fuckin sucks sometimes, and it sometimes just feels like there's no way out, but there is. There's a practice I learned to pick up on that helped me begin the see the better side of things. Every day, at night or when you wake up, think of 3 things you saw that either made your day better or if you see an act of kindness whether its to you or another person. If you do this for 21 days, your brain has an actual physical change. Hang in there, and please, if you ever feel like you're not in a safe place, reach out. There are so many people and support out there. Keep fighting, I sincerely fucking promise you that it get better, and one day you're gonna apoligize to yourself for not knowing your worth.
Lira mira diyon kardeş noliyo
by who..
But why are you here when it get's better?
@@blacktulip2006 because even tho I'm better, I still feel this way from time to time. And thats okay. I recognize the emotions for what they are, and then let them pass. All things pass in life, and emotions are temporary
This is what my anxiety and my depression does to me it actually makes me feel numb and i hate it it makes me feel like i want to live i love this lyric though cause it kept me alive for 18 years so far "just wanna be able to close my eyes and be able to feel alright but everyday i feel like dying" also at the end of the day i have to cry myself to sleep cause of it :(
"But I'm ditching the coffin, so my family has options. Gotta work till I'm dead, so that they get the best."
Meirl and probs us irl
no its “put a bitch in a coffin”
When my mom asks me whats wrong i just say im tired because i dont have the heart to say the lady who gave me life that i dont want it nomore
Bro,you destroy my heart right now
Goran Škreblin facts :(
@@goranschkreblin8769 ik man just keep living it
same dude...we just waiting and waiting..but until when?
@@goranschkreblin8769 it is😖
This song is the definition of how I feel every day.
If you need help Go talk to your friends, family and People you Trust, Life can Be Great full of Good memories and experiences and Will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it, If necessary search for help in the internet and If you can afford it call a therapist "ending your Life is a permanent solution for a temporary problem" so many People that tried to end it changed their minds and are glad to Be alive,. we all have the dark chapter of our lives but you can pass through it by the way do not Be shy to call for help
@@alexdanieloliveira2294 I know. And thank you. I'm not gonna die, I can assure you that
yep same here
Same
yep mee too
2 years ago i was suicidal and used to hear this song a lot. But somehow i saved myself from it. But now, here i am, back again.
Same. But I have learned one thing. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem I heard those words from my therapist and we'll basically that's what has kept me going. So just stay strong and you will make it.❤️
Me too. 2 years ago. But I'm good now. I never lost hope
Hope you’re doing better now man
Good for you my g
you got this man!
I wanna die, but at the same time. I feel like, I dont wanna die
🙇🏻♂️
youll get over it i did
Dont end it. What if there is nothing after? Make the best of what you can while alive. Be a good person and hopefully there is a god and an afterlife. But if there isnt atleast make what time you have here the best possible.
Don't
Same
I told my friend once that i'm depressed and he was just like "Just be happy"
Smh
Cam L
depression isn’t just sadness 😐
just smile lmao
@@jonipihvi dont be sad lmao
ikr? like OH WHAT A BEAUTIFUL ADVICE?? THANK YOU SO MUCH!! NOW I'M GOING AND BEING HAPPY :))))))))))))))))))))))
See a fucking doctor if your depressed
This song is genius. It’s one of those songs where you want to play it on repeat 24/7
But you know if you do
You’ll ruin it for yourself
Joshua 47 I’ve already listened to it 26 times...I counted. This song never gets old on my opinion lmao
on reapeaat for like 2 hours now, i'm drawing, and, i'm kidna going insane but it's still good.
Man, I’m writing raps to this song. (About 1 hour every track)
This song is a therapy for all of us.
My parents recently ended their relationship and I am about 12... I have to be there for my brother at the end of the day... I had to promise my father I wouldn't give up on him. This song really helps me get through everything, thank you.
Hey kid ... I know things are tough right now. I won't pretend to understand your home situation and how you feel, but as someone who's family still has both parents who are constantly clawing at each other's throats ... maybe it's for the best. Nevertheless, I hope you and your Dad are doing alright. I know things stark right now, but someday, things will get better.
ay man as someone whose lived with this shit since like 1 ik how it feels man just its gonna be tough i cant lie but as long as u got ur brother and hes got u u can get through this ight my brother is the reason i didnt crumble when that happened to u man just keep ur head up man ight
I hope u ar doing alright if yes, say smth.
Month or two, you will be ok bro its normal these times
its a shame that this guy and x will never collab, a big shame
thank you now im about to cry
Стильный паркер awww they would have been a good collaboration 😪
Sean Sparandero you cant call all feminists fucking idiots because 20 or so women and some men said he beat his wife,feminists fight for equal rights,extreme feminists are the ones that take it too far
@Sean Sparandero he actually did beat his wife 😂
Ikr X'C
I respect this song. It has a great meaning and there’s not a lot of songs that I can relate to when I’m depressed cuz there either about killing yourself (which I have no intentions on doing) or is just a sad story type of song. But this song is just one of those unique songs that I can really relate to and which is why I have so much respect for this song
x4x_Shadow_x4x Judging by what you want, you may want to check out some of the older twenty one pilots songs. Some of them touch on suicide, but stuff from Regional at Best and their self titled album might be your cup of tea. Check out songs like fall away or clear if you like the rap stuff.
Not everyone wants to be on medication and not everyone who feels depressed needs it. There is a difference between feeling down and actually having depression that requires medical assessment.
Shadow, I agree. This song describes how I feel almost everyday. I think about suicide almost daily but it's not like I want to go plan my death, sometimes I just want to not exist, or wish that I never did exist.
It's hard to explain to someone who never experiences that.
I experience that everyday
Amazing song
Living life is the worst pain I'm going thru. Being alive is something i don't wanna do but ofc ppl are forcing me to do something i don't wanna do again
If you need help go talk to your friends, family and people you trust, life can be great so dont waste it, and also dont worry everything is gonna be better after the pandemic ends so just wait, keep going foward because life is full of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of suicide survivors remember that they changed their mind mid-suicide and are glad to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet, call the suicide hotline and if you can afford a therapist too because i worry about you "suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem"
Showed this song to my teacher
Now he's my therapist
Some guy in the comments
Relatable
Some guy in the comments that’s a good one lol
Some guy in the comments showed this to my girl just now. She probably gonna hug me and cry. Oops. But what can I say it’s a great song that I could relate to
Go Lol who u talking to
Go Lol he is probably young dude. My 5 year old brother watches stuff like that all the time. Y u gotta pick on him for the stuff he likes?
X and Ski
Now Jake Hill and Josh A.
Legendary duos
no what are you on
Whoa. Odd how this almost perfectly encapsulated my own struggle. The thoughts are there but the intent isn't, and lots of people I've opened up to don't understand the distinction. Accepting the feelings, moving past them, and fighting every damn day to escape the mire in our minds. Good lyrics and flow.
I bought the album... if anyone has second thoughts... BUY IT
Brayden Degre it's not on Google play store so I can't buy it. Like come on that's garbage
Zero Wolfblade that fucking sucks
Zero Wolfblade It will be soon. I set the release date way too early which means it probably won’t hit every store at the exact same time. Give it a few more days
Zero Wolfblade spotify
Brayden Degre don’t you have apple music? All music there is free.
_i just want a hug •~•_
Same
I know it doesn't mean a lot, but here's a spiritual hug (◍•ᴗ•◍)
Puff -_- i just want this girl to love me the way i love her
Ghost hug, you cant feel it but it's there \^-^/
🤗 here
So close to 1 mil
Edit: we did it, Jake you deserve it
You mean 100K right?
he meant views
Yo getting close to 2mil lets get it!!!
1.8mil my dude
Dankable you're stupid
Little boy: are you an angel?
Girl: um...no...
Little boy: My mother told me that people who have marked wrists are angels, and often they are broken by this world, so they try to get back to heaven.
Girl: You know your mother is very wise.
Little boy: I know. She was an angel as well, but she already returned home.
This copypasta older than time lol
that shit is deep
Damn it still gets me every time
But it's a sin to... Okay
@linkgame 2999 you shut up.
I'm just saying and you being rude is not helping.
i like how this is the guy who made an outro for PewDiePie
kashoot myself ikr
kashoot myself for real?
And tobyonthetele
I only like the comment because kashoot is funny
u_don't_ _need_my_name ayy someone else knows lol
Happiness has left the chat
Depression has joined the chat.
Death has joined the chat
(edited)
This song is so catchy. Especially the beginning 🖤
It's not catchy it's just great lol
@@chemicalturtle5677 let people give their opinion in peace..
My comfort song I used to listen this nonstop 2020-2021 and now I'm not sayin that Im free from struggling with my mental health just not as bad as last year. Whoever is struggling with their mental health now I hope one day you will found your lost soul that you've been questioning if you had one.
Me and Josh are on Spotify:
Jake: open.spotify.com/artist/26JloX1vHxGGrGUVeMItFJ?si=I6ATO_LaTv-nm7ukx2eVjw
Josh A: open.spotify.com/artist/2rWCIhENZyPVDAeFC0ESWN?si=iNGYk35CSgS7PVDUwYRV4w
iAmJakeHill I appreciate the relatable music
lyrics plssss
;)
Fuck yes
iAmJakeHill how do I set up a event
I kept listening to this in my suicidal days hoping someone would notice and help me.
It didn't work, nobody helped.
If you have dark or suicidal thoughts, please go seek help.
Talk to someone you trust.
if you don't have anyone you trust to talk about it then there is a lot of phone number you can call or do everything to stop yourself from doing the act of killing yourself.
If you know you can't control yourself anymore and know you will act on your thought, please go to the nearest hospital or police station.
They will do everything in their power to prevent bad things to happen.
Mabey nobody tells you this enough but we love you.
No matter who you are or where you from, we love you.
If you didn't understand it yet, I love you and please seek help.
🙇🏻♂️
I just want it to end
Jake, you matter
SloppyJoe DON'T FORGET ABOUT OUR HOMIE JOSH A, HE MATTERS TOO, REAL SHIT
LeviWTF lmao fr
フランク what is your name exactly I understand some parts but not all
it translates into frank
Kazath Shieldbane thanks mate I'm trying to learn the kanji but it's a bit difficult
Been listening to this banger since I was 13 and id listen and cry alone. and now I'm 21 and I still cry. I'm tired and although my life is different now, I still feel depressed even tho I'm on antidepressants and this crippling mental health issues keep racking up and I feel like I'm slowly going insane 🥲
I get you, I'm 25 and I've also had issues since 13. Although for me its improved between 15-19 and then started going worse and worse. I also sometimes feel like I'm slowly going crazy and get scared of myself. I hope that with time we can both get to feel better. I send you all my strength and best wishes. ❤💪🏻
Never realize how hard this hit until you’re going through it yourself
i never will,im not a moron like these idiots are. You need nothing for hapynis
@@noob7751 what are you talking about
@@prashantdhirde9577 the truth
You remind of NF
Your songs have basically the same context, legit lyrics, no mumble, pure rap
I love both of them, they're amazing.♡
True
SaVaGe Fluffy yes!
NF is great, I stopped listening to him around after How Could you leave us. I haven't heard anything from him in a while
Love this song and love nf just waiting for him to release his new album
Leaving this world is not as scary as it sounds.
- Richard
This song always makes me cry. One of those songs that is overwhelmingly accurate.
Every day you feel like dying
Every day I feel like crying because of the things from the past
Me : Mom i think im depressed
Mom : Yes bcs you play too much computer.
Me : I wanna die.
sameee
Omfg really that’s so dumb
c r i n g e
Yuh! 🤘
All my parents want to do is blame my problems on me using my computer or the internet. Just makes me more angry and upset. They don’t listen
After 18 yrs, 3 kids, and cheated on several times, I am out of that relationship, and found the woman who makes me want to be the man I can, I found this song when I had some bad thoughts... I needed this.
Man the old depressed days 😞 this song always has a spot In my hart, I was lucky enough to find happyness again unlike others.
This song hits different at full volume at 2 am
Ikr
Listening this at 4am rn
listen to gucci coffin, u might like it
where i am rn
It is 4 :45 in India and I am listening it right now
It gives me goosebumps
Honestly I think my favorite part of the song is when he says he doesnt know why he writes songs about partying when he's been dealing with those demons. Idk why, but I think it's because I like the self awareness.
Jake Hill & Josh A. - Suicidal Thoughts LYRICS
(Put these together listening, correct me if I'm wrong.)
I'm not suicidal,
I don't wanna fucking die.
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright;
But everyday I feel like dying,
Everyday I feel like dying.
Why do I even try?
Why do I even write,
Lyrics about how I'm living the life when I'm battling pain and my demons at night.
Trying to find a new outlet,
The Devil pouncing,
I hear him howling.
My vision clouding,
Man I try to escape but there ain't no way,
Try to be strong and deal with the pain.
Yeah
But I'm ditching the coffin,
So my family has options.
Gonna work till I'm dead,
So that they get the best.
Don't wanna set up a bad example,
'Cause kids looking up,
Can't leave em' in shambles.
Can't make them think like a nutso case,
So fuck suicide I'm here to stay.
Try to free my mind,
I don't know what's right,
Wasting all my time,
Trying to find the light. (x2)
I'll be out an running,
I'll be running for myself now.
Gunning demons down,
Find my way out of this hell now. (x2)
I'm not suicidal,
I don't wanna fucking die.
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright;
But everyday I feel like dying,
Everyday I feel like dying.
One too many bad thoughts inside me,
Got a hole in my heart put the past behind me,
I'm pressed for time,
I'm stressed with life,
My breath is ice.
I guess I might just bottle it up some more,
Just like always,
Barely stand to crawl down the hallway,
Sink into my bed,
With death inside my head.
Yeah
That note you found,
I didn't mean it.
Just wish I had a better sense of meaning.
Never meant to let you down,
I been down n' out,
Racing thoughts I had to draw em' out.
Fuck,
Never given in,
I swear to God,
No matter how many times I prayed to a God I don't believe in,
Just to see if I would ever wake up,
But he called my bluff
Trying to free my mind,
I don't know what's right,
Wasting all my time,
Trying to find the light. (2x)
I'll be out an running,
I'll be running for myself now.
Gunning demons down,
Find my way out of this hell now. (2x)
I'm not suicidal,
I don't wanna fucking die.
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright;
But everyday I feel like dying,
Everyday I feel like dying.
(I'm not suicidal,
I don't wanna fucking die.
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright;
But everyday I feel like dying,
Everyday I feel like dying).
I really hope this is pretty accurate.
Also hope that this isn't intrusive in some way.
you said good instead god
instead of god
Steven Thank you
Mikeicey12 spot on bro good job
I love that this now has the number for the good samaritans, youtube is aware enough of who is listening to know we ain't alright
Its funny how It hits different depends on situations, for me like being depressed and suicidal for like 8 years, it hits more the more you have enough of fighting every day, so I hope every one of you will have a good life. this song is masterpiece
If you need help Go talk to your friends,family and People you Trust, Life can Be Great só dont waste it, dont worry after the pandemic ends everything is gonna Be better, a lot of suicide survivors changed their mind mid-suicide and are glad to Be Alive, keep going foward for your family and friends, Life is a adventure full of Good memories and Good experiences, If necessary call the suicide hotline and maybe even a therapist and search for help in the internet like r/suicidewatch "suicide is a permanent solution for a temporary problem" i worry about you my friend
I'm not scared of death I've already lived longer than I expected
Are you ok?? Do you need some one to talk to?
Are you okay?
Same
Same
@Paul Android Games there's nothing wrong with him.
Lyrics
[Chorus: Jake Hill]
I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna fucking die
I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
[Verse 1: Josh A]
Why do I even try?
Why do I even write lyrics about how I'm living the life when I'm battling pain and my demons at night
Trying to find a new outlet
The devil pouncin'
I hear him howlin', my vision cloudin'
Man I tried to escape but there ain't no way
Try to be strong when I deal with the pain (yuh)
But I'm ditching the coffin, so my family has options
Gotta work till' I'm dead
So that they get the best
Don't wanna set up a bad example cause the kids looking up
Can't leave in shambles can't make them think clocking out's ok
So fuck suicide I'm here to stay
[Bridge: Josh A]
Try to free my mind
I don't know what's right
Wasting all my time, tryna find the light
Try to free my mind
I don't know what's right
Wasting all my time, tryna find the light (Nah, man)
I'll be out here runnin', I'll be runnin' from myself now
Gunnin' demons down find my way out of this hell now
I'll be runnin' now, I'll be runnin' from myself now
Gunnin' demons down, find my way out of this hell now
[Chorus: Jake Hill]
I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna fucking die
I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
[Verse 2: Jake Hill]
One too many bad thoughts inside me
Got a hole in my heart put the past behind me
I'm pressed with time, I'm stressed with life, my breath is ice
I guess I might just bottle it up some more just like always
Barely standing, crawling down the hallways
Sink into my bed, with death inside my head
(Yeah) That note you found I didn't mean it
Just wish I had a better sense of meaning
Never meant to let you down
I've been down now racing thoughts had to drown them out (Fuck)
Never giving in I swear to god, no matter how many times I pray to a god
I don't believe in just to see if I will never wake up
But he called my bluff
[Bridge: Josh A]
Try to free my mind
I don't know what's right
Wasting all my time, tryna find the light
Try to free my mind
I don't know what's right
Wasting all my time, tryna find the light
(nah, man)
I'll be out here runnin', I'll be runnin' from myself now
Gunnin' demons down find my way out of this hell now
I'll be runnin' now, I'll be runnin' from myself now
Gunnin' demons down, find my way out of this hell now
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Thanks
None of yall are alone. Don't be afraid to cry. Don't be afraid to reach out for help. Your all beautiful people.
Suicidal is the definition of giving up:
Like, when something bad happens to you, you don't ever wish "I wish my life was better.." or "I'll do something to fix this."
Being suicidal is like when something bad happend you say, "That's it. That's all I can take and I'm ready to go."
No, I have never said to myself "Oh, I wish my life could go better. I don't deserve this.." I just give up and shut down saying, "There's only one way to get out of this."
I've tricked myself into thinking that nothing goes right for me, and that's it.
JayJay Sanderson simply being at your breaking point. There’s only so much someone can take and I can relate to what you’re saying more than I wish to admit but I’ve got people who rely on me and I guess you do too even if you don’t notice. So do me a favour and everyone else who also cares and stay strong. There’s always a solution to every situation even if you may not see it. That’s why you need people around you to show you the other options. You got this fam ✌️
I have had thoughts, but I'd rather not commit the action and give myself a purpose. If people are able to give themselves a purpose, you are set
the sad truth is your right
we should all be like this not suicidal
neurosis is a bitch.
I don't know how, but I got rid of my depression. I never spoke to anyone about it, neither someone noticed. It was hella tough, but I made it through. I didn't say anything like 'I'm gonna get through this' and stuff, I was constantly telling myself that I'm a mistake, a loser, a nobody. And now I feel like a normal person, and I am happy and healthy now, which is the most important thing. Stay strong everyone, but DON'T do what I did.
When Depression and Anxiety kick in the middle of class :)
Exactly. :)
All the time
I hope you're better now
@@kevinharmse8656 doesn't work like that
And then you cant get anything done and then the teacher sends you to the office and it gets worse
*Depression has left the chat*
*wait...nevermind.*
Hello World happiness has left the chat
Love is disconnected error 404
Monika.chr has joined the chat
Yes it has and dont let is back in let happyniss back in
Lol what I literally think
*don’t keep it in*
You people know this is a song about suicidal thoughts, just wanting to feel okay, and not actually unaliving yourself.
Singer *kills them selves*
Fans "i wish we knew 😭🤧"
The singers songs
lmao
Theyre not wrong
True
Yeah and it’s messed up.
@@cringyrochie7157 nah it's just deep
im not suicidal, i dont wanna fuckin die!
my fav line..
I'm Suicidal I Want Fuckin Died My Fav Line
@@muldanrahmat8832 same
@@ritz2704 Sorry To Hear That Man It Be Like That Sometimes
Depression has forever settled in my room and we are now roommates
Kody Barnett It is sadly a shadow in my head. Always there, never going away. Every once in awhile it invites it’s friend suicidal thoughts over
5 year anniversary and it still helps me cope
I sent this to my mom
She replied with: YOU SMOKE?!
edit: No, I don't smoke, mom
Edit 2: it's been 5 months, things worked out, it's fine yall, thanks for the support omg
Lol
u good??
Why u sending this to your mom? 😂
Sorry
@@elizabethtaskinen209 True, thanks
Showed this to my grades...
They were an F and didnt change
They're paying their respects to this song. 👌
@@m0thanimates comment of the year
@@m0thanimates Best comment ever
Same here 🙁
@@zeynepozcelik5544 MEREBA
I remember I listened to this song like 2 years ago when I was pretty much depressed (undiagnosed tho, so can't fully claim that)
It kinda helped me to go through these tough times. I believe you guys also gonna get better!
thanks for the support