This song is such a good representation of who she is as an artist. It's got that strange sound that's all hers, it shows off her range, and it sounds happy on the surface but underneath it's not happy at all.
The meaning of this song goes so deep and is what really helped me through as everything in the song relates to me. I have this overachieving nature that is obsessed with achieving success, even if that means losing myself. Thinking that success that will me happy, and I've been so unhappy all my life. So it doesn't matter if the process to get to where I want to be ("bright") has an opposite effect on me and only makes me worse ("dark"). "The lower I fall" in life acts as an incentive to "climb higher" in life. Meaning that the more unhappy I get, the more I want to be happy. In this perspective, what is happiness? Success. The process of pushing my self to do great only results in me feeling worse. In a metaphorical sense, I kill myself in hopes that I'll one day feel alive again. (Part 1, because I want to further explain the meaning and importance of this song to everybody, but I've reached the character limit).
I'm so obsessed with being the best that I'm willing to sacrifice my own wellbeing and sacrifice the opportunity to form relationships with my friends and family. I feel unworthy of having relationships with friends and family because I know that I will inevitably hurt them in the end. I will hurt them because the only thing I'll ever truly care about is myself, not others. As a result, I push these people away so they don't get in the way of my success. To summarize the last 4 sentences, my obsession with success has made me lose my priorities. The whole "how it ends" part is symbolic of the distorted perception that pushing people away and sacrificing your happiness is the only way to achieve greatness. I've been "silent all my life" so when I admit that I need someone to help me it's too late because I can't "yell" for anyone to help. Nobody is there to help because I had pushed everybody away from me and isolated myself. (Part 2)
I can't show weakness because then it feels as if I'm failing in my own eyes by showing vulnerability because I'm such an overachiever. Emotions start to be interpreted as a sign of weakness, so I simply repress my emotions and carry on functioning so I can be successful with no distractions. In the end, I'm terrified of success because I'm a trophy, but even the big ones get put on the shelf. Even the most successful of people eventually die out. All fires eventually burn out. All waves eventually crash. I become consumed by an internal fear of becoming successful and then dying out and becoming insignificant and useless. However, this fear is rarely admitted to myself because feeling emotions is such a foreign concept. Anything and everything is repressed, which results in feeling numb all the time. "I'll wonder why I got dark only to shine" basically means that Marina wonders why she made herself unhappy in order to be happy. (Part 3)
When she's become successful, she'll start to question if the stardom actually makes her happy because she only made herself feel more unhappy in the process. I hope this helped explain the meaning of the song better, because I believe it's important to know just how deep the actual meaning is. I did almost all of this in first person because the meaning of the song applies to me, but it also applies to Marina (obviously). This is the last part, don't worry. My apologies for the novel of a comment.
her voice was breaking at around 1:14 to 1:24 it seems like shes trying to keep her tears in, and not cry, this song means a lot to her, if you diamonds didn't know!! but gosh absolutely amazing.
Thank you marina you helped me pass my depression and you are a goddess you are the light shining like a golden light when I was happy you were there when I was sad you were there when I was depressed you were there and finally when I was numb you were there thank you so much 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
One track mind like a gold fish Stuck inside my Petri dish I can't breathe and I can't smile This better be worth my while I feel numb most of the time The lower I get the higher I'll climb And I will wonder why I got dark only to shine Looking for the golden light Oh, it's a reasonable sacrifice Burn, burn, burn bright Forgo family, forgo friends It's how it started, how it ends I can't open up and cry 'Cause I've been silent all my life I feel numb most of the time The lower I get the higher I'll climb And I will wonder why I got dark only to shine Looking for the golden light Oh it's a reasonable sacrifice Burn, burn, burn bright Burn, burn, burn bright Oh, I get dark oh and I'm in hell I need a friend, oh but I can't yell Yeah, I'm no good, no good to anyone 'Cause all I care about is being number one Shine, looking for the golden light Oh it's a reasonable sacrifice Shine, looking for the golden light Oh it's a reasonable sacrifice (sacrifice) I feel numb most of the time The lower I get the higher I'll climb And I will wonder why I got dark only to shine And I light up the sky Stars that burn the brightest Fall so fast and pass you by Cough like empty lighters I feel numb most of the time The lower I get the higher I'll climb And I will wonder why I get dark only to shine And I light up the sky Stars that burn the brightest Fall so fast and pass you by Spark like empty lighters
Her head voice is as strong as her chest voice! She sounds kinda raspy in this video which is occasionally how she sounded prior to her vocal surgery. As a vocalist myself and stickler for vocal health, it kind of distracts me from enjoying her singing because of my concern for her, but it was an amazing performance.
Some people 'lost respect' because of what she did in the beginning. Dudes, did you ever live for 5 minutes in the real world ?? you gonna lose respect for a lot of people then. People cannot be entirely nice and fun for every damn second of their lives, esp not when they're about to sing and someone is messing with the tools. Besides that look said 'no need'.
One track mind like a gold fish Stuck inside my petri dish I can't breath and I can't smile This better be worth my while I feel numb most of the time The lower I get the higher I'll climb And I will wonder why I got dark only to shine Looking for the golden light Oh, it's a reasonable sacrifice Burn, burn, burn, bright Forgo family, forgo friends It's how it started, how it ends I can open up and cry Coz I've been silent all my life I feel numb most of the time The lower I get the higher I'll climb And I will wonder why I get dark only to shine Looking for the golden light Oh it's a reasonable sacrifice Burn, burn, burn, bright Burn, burn, burn, bright Oh, I get dark oh and I'm in hell I need a friend, oh but I can't yell Yeah, I'm no good, no good to anyone 'Couse all I care about is being number one Shine, looking for the golden light It's a reasonable sacrifice Shine, looking for the golden light Oh, it's a reasonable sacrifice Sacrifice I feel numb most of the time The lower I get the higher I'll climb And I will wonder why I get dark only to shine And I light up the sky Stars that burn the brightest Fall so fast and pass you by Cough like empty lighters I feel numb most of the time The lower I get the higher I'll climb And I will wonder why I get dark only to shine And I light up the sky Stars that burn the brightest Fall so fast and pass you by Spark like empty lighters
hahahah the beginning is making me laugh i love how she swats him away
Dottieful101 she's a prima donna girl
+Kawaii Bunny Xd
+Dottieful101 hahahahahaha cute.
like "get out."
+Dottieful101 I know I love Marina but that was super bitchy!!
@@dermotgodfrey1454 yeh but SHE'S MARINA xD
This song is such a good representation of who she is as an artist. It's got that strange sound that's all hers, it shows off her range, and it sounds happy on the surface but underneath it's not happy at all.
Describes my whole personality!. That's why I love her music! Couldn't put my finger on it!
Wow this makes sense why I love all her music
MARINA WAS JUST LIKE "EW PEASANT GO AWAY" HAHAH
HAHAHHAHA AT THE BEGINNING HER FACE
Honestly I'm so obsessed with her I don't see what anyone could hate about her !
at the beginning she was just like "Fuck Off!"
I love how she shooed that guy away in the beginning. And how does she sound just like the recording?!??
this made me cry, she is so amazing
IKR :'D
She was such a perfectionist starting out 😭 my girl ❤️
I love her acoustic! And it made my day when she swatted him away! haha. poor guy lol
Damn, this masterpiece should have like 50 million views.
deserves more than a billion views
voice of an angel
The meaning of this song goes so deep and is what really helped me through as everything in the song relates to me. I have this overachieving nature that is obsessed with achieving success, even if that means losing myself. Thinking that success that will me happy, and I've been so unhappy all my life. So it doesn't matter if the process to get to where I want to be ("bright") has an opposite effect on me and only makes me worse ("dark"). "The lower I fall" in life acts as an incentive to "climb higher" in life. Meaning that the more unhappy I get, the more I want to be happy. In this perspective, what is happiness? Success. The process of pushing my self to do great only results in me feeling worse. In a metaphorical sense, I kill myself in hopes that I'll one day feel alive again. (Part 1, because I want to further explain the meaning and importance of this song to everybody, but I've reached the character limit).
I'm so obsessed with being the best that I'm willing to sacrifice my own wellbeing and sacrifice the opportunity to form relationships with my friends and family. I feel unworthy of having relationships with friends and family because I know that I will inevitably hurt them in the end. I will hurt them because the only thing I'll ever truly care about is myself, not others. As a result, I push these people away so they don't get in the way of my success. To summarize the last 4 sentences, my obsession with success has made me lose my priorities. The whole "how it ends" part is symbolic of the distorted perception that pushing people away and sacrificing your happiness is the only way to achieve greatness. I've been "silent all my life" so when I admit that I need someone to help me it's too late because I can't "yell" for anyone to help. Nobody is there to help because I had pushed everybody away from me and isolated myself. (Part 2)
I can't show weakness because then it feels as if I'm failing in my own eyes by showing vulnerability because I'm such an overachiever. Emotions start to be interpreted as a sign of weakness, so I simply repress my emotions and carry on functioning so I can be successful with no distractions.
In the end, I'm terrified of success because I'm a trophy, but even the big ones get put on the shelf. Even the most successful of people eventually die out. All fires eventually burn out. All waves eventually crash. I become consumed by an internal fear of becoming successful and then dying out and becoming insignificant and useless. However, this fear is rarely admitted to myself because feeling emotions is such a foreign concept. Anything and everything is repressed, which results in feeling numb all the time.
"I'll wonder why I got dark only to shine" basically means that Marina wonders why she made herself unhappy in order to be happy. (Part 3)
When she's become successful, she'll start to question if the stardom actually makes her happy because she only made herself feel more unhappy in the process.
I hope this helped explain the meaning of the song better, because I believe it's important to know just how deep the actual meaning is. I did almost all of this in first person because the meaning of the song applies to me, but it also applies to Marina (obviously). This is the last part, don't worry. My apologies for the novel of a comment.
Unicorn "cough like empty lighters "
your "novel" is exactly how I feel and relate to Numb. Numb along with Are You Satisfied are my favorite Marina songs because I relate to them so much
YOU ARE LEGITIMATELY THE MOST BEAUTIFUL HUMAN. GAH. MARY ME.
her voice was breaking at around 1:14 to 1:24 it seems like shes trying to keep her tears in, and not cry, this song means a lot to her, if you diamonds didn't know!! but gosh absolutely amazing.
Solitaire also means to her a lot i guess since she had tears in her eyes when she sang the bridge
Obsessed with this song
her tan omfg
Favorite song by her. Scratch that, favorite song EVER.
I'm so obsessed with this I love it. Her vocals are phenomenal ❤️
Actual perfection.
She sounds like and angel
RAW talent right there
0:04 Why do I find that so cute and hilarious at the same time?
What a wonderful voice! She's the new queen of music!
i cried but it was in a really good way 😢😊
0:04 when someone mentions Halsey
omg
brooklyn AHHH😂
love in black and white
So true xd
%100 true
OMG ME
She has this powerful voice!
Thank you marina you helped me pass my depression and you are a goddess you are the light shining like a golden light when I was happy you were there when I was sad you were there when I was depressed you were there and finally when I was numb you were there thank you so much 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
love it
QUEEN
💜
One track mind like a gold fish
Stuck inside my Petri dish
I can't breathe and I can't smile
This better be worth my while
I feel numb most of the time
The lower I get the higher I'll climb
And I will wonder why
I got dark only to shine
Looking for the golden light
Oh, it's a reasonable sacrifice
Burn, burn, burn bright
Forgo family, forgo friends
It's how it started, how it ends
I can't open up and cry
'Cause I've been silent all my life
I feel numb most of the time
The lower I get the higher I'll climb
And I will wonder why
I got dark only to shine
Looking for the golden light
Oh it's a reasonable sacrifice
Burn, burn, burn bright
Burn, burn, burn bright
Oh, I get dark oh and I'm in hell
I need a friend, oh but I can't yell
Yeah, I'm no good, no good to anyone
'Cause all I care about is being number one
Shine, looking for the golden light
Oh it's a reasonable sacrifice
Shine, looking for the golden light
Oh it's a reasonable sacrifice (sacrifice)
I feel numb most of the time
The lower I get the higher I'll climb
And I will wonder why
I got dark only to shine
And I light up the sky
Stars that burn the brightest
Fall so fast and pass you by
Cough like empty lighters
I feel numb most of the time
The lower I get the higher I'll climb
And I will wonder why
I get dark only to shine
And I light up the sky
Stars that burn the brightest
Fall so fast and pass you by
Spark like empty lighters
Unique singing voice. She's talented.
orangina and the diamonds
My queen 😍
I got chills
Me: I like singing along to my music.
*Marina begins playing*
Me: *two seconds I to the song* I give up
This song made me fall in love with her voice. I got a chance to see her in 2012 in Philadelphia. It was amazing to say the least. ❤️
I love her ❤️
Queen
underrated performance her vocals sound the cleanest here
Her head voice is as strong as her chest voice! She sounds kinda raspy in this video which is occasionally how she sounded prior to her vocal surgery. As a vocalist myself and stickler for vocal health, it kind of distracts me from enjoying her singing because of my concern for her, but it was an amazing performance.
Surgery?
+Al'ykc Pryor she never had vocal surgery
+lafina c: I think she did because In the electra heart era she could barely sing.
ziggylavigne you think so? hmm
+ziggylavigne Well, I know she was smoking during EH era and then she had to stop. But I have never heard about any surgery. It's interesting opinion.
This must be her best live performance
Jeez Marina, save some talent for the rest of us 😦
Mi canción.
back when she was good and unfiltered
She's like, "gon' get! Shooo!"
Omg this was almost 5 years ago 😭
0:04 dont touch me btch
lol kinda funny when marina shooed that guy, but what was the guy doing actually?
U FUCKING QUEEN
this is soooooooooooooooooo beautiful fuck
0:04 when someone mentions billie eilish
Rule of Rose Finally someone who realizes she’s overrated!
But seriously, what WAS he doing? It looked like he was trying to tune something
Yes she is so overrated
I just came because of the beginning
lmao same
Oh hey I remember you from Lollapalooza Performance of Marina And The Diamonds
She looks so tan
much sun
MY BAB
“security! Get the person in the middle out of here”
O:04 hahaahh laugh so hard ahaha
Guy gets Rekt @ 0:03
😍😘
0:04
No one,
Marina: 🎹😒🫳🏼
she keeps ignoring her best song
yep :v
Shoo, shoo. Be off with you...
Some people 'lost respect' because of what she did in the beginning. Dudes, did you ever live for 5 minutes in the real world ?? you gonna lose respect for a lot of people then. People cannot be entirely nice and fun for every damn second of their lives, esp not when they're about to sing and someone is messing with the tools. Besides that look said 'no need'.
You're gaslighting. She was being rude and didn't have to do that.
She’s talented but not a nice person. VERY arrogant, infantile and rude
Where is the bracelet from? I really want to know!
its years later lol but it looks like the Hermes Clic H Bracelet in Orange
lol. 0:05
Lmao what is she doing at the beginning?
poor guy haha
I Love marina, but what she did to that guy wasn't funny...
I think it was. As a producer myself you don't want anyone messing with your dials heh
Beatriz Bronzo she's Marina and she's a Queen, She'll do what she wants here 👑👑👑
it was fucking hilarious
Sigh.
Who else loved how she shoed him away 😂😘
One track mind like a gold fish
Stuck inside my petri dish
I can't breath and I can't smile
This better be worth my while
I feel numb most of the time
The lower I get the higher I'll climb
And I will wonder why
I got dark only to shine
Looking for the golden light
Oh, it's a reasonable sacrifice
Burn, burn, burn, bright
Forgo family, forgo friends
It's how it started, how it ends
I can open up and cry
Coz I've been silent all my life
I feel numb most of the time
The lower I get the higher I'll climb
And I will wonder why
I get dark only to shine
Looking for the golden light
Oh it's a reasonable sacrifice
Burn, burn, burn, bright
Burn, burn, burn, bright
Oh, I get dark oh and I'm in hell
I need a friend, oh but I can't yell
Yeah, I'm no good, no good to anyone
'Couse all I care about is being number one
Shine, looking for the golden light
It's a reasonable sacrifice
Shine, looking for the golden light
Oh, it's a reasonable sacrifice
Sacrifice
I feel numb most of the time
The lower I get the higher I'll climb
And I will wonder why
I get dark only to shine
And I light up the sky
Stars that burn the brightest
Fall so fast and pass you by
Cough like empty lighters
I feel numb most of the time
The lower I get the higher I'll climb
And I will wonder why
I get dark only to shine
And I light up the sky
Stars that burn the brightest
Fall so fast and pass you by
Spark like empty lighters
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