we read a little life....again
HTML-код
- Опубликовано: 26 янв 2022
- not an intelligent thought to be found between the two of us, but plenty of tears
*content warnings are at the bottom of the description
find me!
/ paperbackdreams
email: paperbackdreams13(at)gmail(dot)com
find laur!
/ lauren
laurhudson_...
music!
dismantle [peter sandberg]
ballade [luke faulkner]
un sospiro [liszt]
primavera [ludovico einaudi]
experience [ludovico einaudi]
*self harm, suicidal ideation, attempted suicide, disordered eating, physical abuse of a minor, domestic abuse, abuse of character with a disability, loss of a child, drug abuse/addiction, sexual assault/rape, pedophilia, ptsd, forced prostitution of a minor 
Развлечения
![Cordae - Saturday Mornings (feat. Lil Wayne) [Official Music Video]](http://i.ytimg.com/vi/z2GYJua09F0/mqdefault.jpg)
I mean... What's better than seeing two sisters sobbing on the floor reading a book?
There's nothing that can beat that for sure. Now I wanna sob over this book too .
Being the two sisters sobbing on the floor reading a book
A GOOD book?
Being those sisters..
“HOW ARE YOU NOT LOSING YOUR MIND?!”
“I am just… more quietly.”
Me and my little sister in a nutshell. 😂
Friends break up, friends get married
Strangers get born, strangers get buried
IT'S BEEN 2 YEARS
BUT I'M RIGHT WHERE YOU LEFT ME
pleeeeease come back kat
does anyone else miss this channel 😢
Not to be overly philosophocal, but I love how words can have so much power over us. It's some squiggles on a page that we've attached meaning to, and through that we get attached to people who aren't even real and we laugh and cry and get angry with them. The words aren't real, the people aren't real, but the meaning is, and I love that for us.
you should try reading The Starless Sea, if you haven't already, i think you'll like it
@@reynidaze I read it about a year and a half ago! I didn't mind most of it, but the end confused me a lot
Who says it itsnt real? ^^ just because it isn’t in physical matter it is everything but not real. But that’s just my take a dude who things we are further reaching then just Three Dimensions ^^
I wish. I wish. I wish it wasn't real but the truth is it's VERY real. Judes exist in this world. Too many of them too many.
Kat and Lauren having A little life Vietnam flashbacks for 17 minutes is the best way to start my Thursday
@@leoBrofoski23 same question 😕
@@Katie-vg2ff it’s a phrase people say referencing US soldiers having PTSD from the Vietnam War
@@zukihoney135 oh thanks
mother pls come back 🥹
I recently did a re-read where I just stopped after part 2. I left Jude hanging out with Harold. Pretended the last 5 parts just didn't happen. Highly recommend!
i left it off in the middle of the Happy Years when Jude and Willem were singing together, I also highly recommend!! :)
honestly that is the smartest move you could possibly make imo
Oh this is nice i’ll do it
this is the most chaotic reading vlog i’ ve ever watched and it reminds me of why i love my sister... also you made me read a little life and i have REGRETS
currently i'm manifesting kat back into our lives 🤞
Where did she go??
This is the perfect representation to my last two brain cells reading A Little Life.
that was the goal lololol why say intelligent shit when we could just roll around and scream, our heads off?
You’re so brave for this because I could NOT BE PAID to reread this book.
the fact that the music copyright flagged this vid so I literally cannot be paid for my pain......youtube is not on my side
@@paperbackdreams I appreciate it anyway Kat. Now I have more classical music to listen too. Thank you, love.
Honestly it's the only book that I would ever re-read, reading other books after this felt like a betrayal to those characters.
the goodreads girlies who have seen the updates have been READY for this video
All our comments were like: why are you doing this to yourself??? 🤣
meeeee
exactly!!! 😂😭
This should be the only way to read a little life, so wholesome yet also so sad
Just bought this book yesterday and I’m saving it for this summer because I can’t emotionally destroy myself during the semester
Haha same. I bought it a couple weeks ago, I’m not sure if I ready for it to emotionally break me
@@cicigonzales5542 you cannot mentally prepare for this book. I had to call my therapist afterwards. It affects everyone differently but Jesus. I’ve never had a book mess me up that badly ever
as someone who read it for the first time during finals week, can confirm that reading it during school is NOT the move
lmao i was just thinking about how i'd only be able to read it during the summer!
She was amazing, i miss her a ton, shes hilarious with a fantastic personality.
I obviously hope one day you'll be back, but there's something hysterical about the idea that the apex of this channel was a video about re-eading this particular book with Lauren and now it's just over. I hope you're well!
I saw an update from you on goodreads and it reminded me how much I miss you🥲
I almost got this book from the library back in 2020. the week I was supposed to go get it, the library closed
it was a sign from the universe, and I appreciate it
I did the same except the book was loaned out... I ended up borrowing it for 2-3 weeks when it was available
I admire Lauren for being able to lose her mind quietly, as I AM NOT CAPABLE
COULDN'T BE ME EITHER her restraint is imPRESSIVE
I love how you and your sister can just hang out and read a book together.
ikr i wish i could have this closeness with my siblings
I used to watch your videos and I loved your content so much. Understandable that you are taking a break, but I hope you will comeback in the future! I miss your book reviews!!
12:35 I didn't cry at all when I read this book in 2019. I felt really sad and heartbroken but I didn't cry because I think I was at a point in my life where I was really burnt out and cold. It's been 2 years and I am in a much much better and happier place now and as a result I am scared of a reread. Love you both guys. ❤️❤️
Im the same way!!!! I watched her vlog and expected to cry the whole time. I just felt empty the whole time, and after the end I swear I was depressed for a couple days. I also am in a really good place now so I think reading it now would break me again a whole different way.
I also didn't cry. I felt drained at the end. I hated what had happened, but I just felt so empty inside. Mind you, I was at a super low point in my life at the time.
same here! I did not cry throughout the whole book and wondered why. But I was in a bad place in my relationship and just disassociated myself a majority of the time. Im in a better place and im terrified of a reread lol
My English teacher gave me this book when I was 15 with no context and honestly I didn’t know what to expect and BOY was I overwhelmed. I’ve since reread it and cried my eyes out for hours, but that first time I didn’t shed a single tear 🤷♀️ It’s my favourite book.
@@brororoh same same! I too had come out of a bad relationship recently.
come back, it's not a joke anymore
When both of them started wailing is an accurate representation of my whole life all of the time 🥸
Man. Ludovico Einaudi playing in the background while you all hysterically sob is just 🤌
This started to have the drama of a renaissance painting with women crying on floors and chairs and couches and I was here for it. I am not sure I could ever read this book but I'm glad it brings you (joy? no depression? yes) ... something.
this comment wins. 10/10 romanticization of reading really sad books and getting gross tears all over your sister's house
I'v never posted a comment ever. But today i'm gonna tell you how much i miss your videos. I want you to know what a special little comfort place your videos are. If you are not gonna start posting again, it's obviously your choice, but i just wanted to let you to know that i miss these videos so fucking much and that i hope you'r doing ok.
I lost it when Lauren tried to call your dad 😂😂😂 my dad never picks up his phone, so I can relate!
he was asleep, but he got the message and called us in the morning VERy concerned lololol
@@paperbackdreams I can't imagine why he'd be concerned 🤣
It's been about a year since I've sobbed uncontrollably over by bathroom sink at Dear Comrade and I'm not ready to revisit this book for another 2-4 business years, but I'm sure there will come a time when the experience will have retreated far enough into my brain that I'll wanna read it again.
I mean I teared up right now remembering it, so that tells you where I'm at emotionally.
no I feel that...I'm gonna need four years AT LEAST before my next go
I miss her and her dad making videos 😢
Due to not many people reading or much content about this book, I NEED REPEATED VIDEOS LIKE THIS THANK YOU
Your psychotic cry-laugh is everything. I can't believe you did this again but also, thank you. LOL
P.S. Is Larry still not allowed to read it?
he's just too sweet for this, he doesn't deserve this pain
@@lilhedonistcannibal123 True. His soul doesn't deserve to be corrupted like this :)
larry will NEVER be allowed to read it
@@paperbackdreams LARRY SHOULD ABSOLUTELY NEVER BE ALLOWED
Why did you reading the saddest book make me so happy. Legit couldn’t stop smiling watching this. Am I ok?
none of us are ok and that's ok
The iconic duo is back with the self destructive behaviour that I absolutely expect
Kat: how are you not losing your mind??😭
Lauren: I am just… more quietly
Listen if that isn’t the perfect portrayal of every big/ little sister duo🥲💕
YES your little life reading vlog was my first ever watch’ and i’m so glad i found your channel you’re one of the persons i look up to
that was mine too
oooo that’s bananas!! thx for sticking around lololol 😅💜
Mine as well
parts told in harold's pov are the ones that always get me the most
love how you both just feed off of each other's energy. i've owned a little life for monthssss and i've been waiting to buddy read it with my friend. i think this video was the sign to get to it
11:33 onwards, that lil section where you are gabbling and sobbing and the phone is talking to you is what the whole of 2020-2022 thus far has felt like lmao
I love how literally everyone in you family is so chill and laid back. Love yalls personality!
10:35
Kat : HOW ARE YOU NOT LOSING YOUR MIND?!!!
Laur : I am. Just more quietly.
😆😭😆😭😆😭😆😭😆😭
Miss your videos so much 🖤 hope you are doing well!! I contemplated re-reading this again soon...now I have a feeling I'm definitely going to after this video😅
Yeah, why is she not posting?😭
Still waiting mother... still waiting 😢
This is so wholesome and cozy, reading the most devastating story
Kat really said "what better way to start the year than with pain"
This is such a mood. Honestly the timing of this is insane bc I just read A Little Life for the first time this week, and stayed up last night finishing it. I rewatched your original vlog while I was reading and now to be able to see you two go through it... amazing. I just need to see other people going through what I just went through and also Kat you're crazy for doing this after only 2 years, but I too fear for the moment I decide to reread. Love your vlogs, can't wait for the next one!!
I felt overwhelming rage and disgust while reading this book instead of sadness, it still makes me angry when i think about this book...shall i read it again 😀
OMG THIS EMOTION.
No
Same!!!! Most people cried and I was expecting to bawl, but I was just so furious! I might reread it though to appreciate the subtle parts of the book
Yeah it’s a pile of garbage for sure
Why are we here, just to suffer. My favorite part of this video was when you broke Lauren’s glasses it was hilarious and chaotic I love you two together!
Why are all my favorite booktubers leaving! :(
Omg yes! You’re the reason why I read a little life and stalking you on Goodreads made me realise you were rereading it so I was and I’m screaming
I'VE BEEN READY FOR THIS SINCE GOODREADS BUT I WAS *NOT* READY TO FEEL THE OVERWHELMING URGE TO DESTROY MYSELF AGAIN
I actually miss her omg so much has happened in my life since we last saw her..
Same here lol. Not any good things tho.
this is so chaotic yet so wholesome at all the same time.... and i'm questioning whether i should actually try picking up this book also can you possible do a Radio Silence reading vlog with Lauren some day???
its taken me half a year to read this book. and i still have a quarter to go. each page at this point in the book just cues me to cry. i love this book, but its breaking me. this video is, also breaking me. you guys are so strong re-reading holy hec.
Your interactions with one another during different emotions throughout the book is so cute
Now this is how you do a reading vlog!!
i was laughing so much but also having flashbacks because X=X 😭😭
yk paperbackdreams i love your content your inspirational the way you are yourself and carry yourself i love all your videos i dont think theres a single bad video so whatever you release i just know its you
I can't imagine putting myself through that book for a second time, but thank you for doing it for our entertainment
Literally here for this content and the Ludovico Einaudi pieces.
This is so weird, I was literally crying because I'm reading A Little Life and to "relax and clear my mind" I go to youtube and the first video that appears is this!! The universe doesn't want me to feel better 😂 😭 (I've been meaning to read the book since you posted your first reading vlog)
Nice to see you again. Our reading group are doing A Little Life (although I haven't started it yet.) PS Can I just applaud you for the care you put into your subtitles including actual bonus jokes.
aw thank you! good luck with your group read! it'll definitely stimulate some big conversation... :)
This video came right at the perfect time! I watched your first reading vlog for "A Little Life" (around a week ago) just as I was also starting it for the first time, and now this video comes out not 20 mins after I finish it!
Still my favorite book of all time, and your first video reading it is what introduced me to it! It obliterated my emotions BUT the characters are just so beautiful, I think about them to this day. Now I feel the need to re-read it!
THIS BOOK. CANT. EVEN. Literally SOBBED uncontrollably for an hour after I finished reading it. 5 stars for sure, no doubt about it.
Just picked up To Paradise last night, can’t wait to start reading it!
After I have just tested positive for Corona and am going to be stuck in my room for the next week, this literally couldn't have come at a better time. And it was so perfectly chaotic and wholesome. I love it!
I would love to see more reading vlogs from you, these are so amazing, I'm having the best time even though you're obviously going through a rough patch in your (little) life. Hopefully, this trend continues and we see more from you. I jump out of my chair each time I see that you posted a video! I adore you both
this is such a chaotic & sweet video 😭
thankyou kat & laura ✨
ah yes the woman whose reading vlog i saw last year and started to read this book which wrenched out my entrails reading the same book again, which is gonna convince ME to reread it
life's good, peace out
i also read this in january and it really did put me in a horrible mental state that i’m still not out of 😀 my favorite book of all time tho..
I love when you two do videos together !! Thanks again for closed captioning your videos
I think that whatever sweater thing Laur is wearing at the end would be great to absorb my tears on my eventual re-read
I’m still to scared to read this 😭 I bought it and everything I just can’t bring myself to pick it up.
tbh it’s self care to not read it!! you’re doing yourself a service
If you don’t think you should, don’t. Trust
Okay kat and Lauren crying and laughing for 17 minutes straight is my perfect brand of content
Love you both! The glasses breaking had me in stitches LOL! Stay amazing! ❤️❤️
I just watched your other a little life video for the first time. reading it right now and i love it
I didn't shed a single tear reading a little life, what does that say about me 😰😰 my only expression during the whole thing was 😬
Ur cold cold bish
Me too 😂 My reactions were all like 😶😮😯😱 that's all 🤣 we need help sis
Same here Mouna. But it affected my mood a lot.
Nah, a lot of people didn’t cry; I don’t think Hanya necessarily wrote the sad parts in a sad way, if that makes sense. Plus you become numb the more traumatic events you read about
My new goal in life is to find a friend I can read an emotional book with in the same room so we can cry together
Best reading vlog, I get to see others emotionally suffer without going through it myself:)
Great video, loved it a lot!!
I'm in the middle of my reread too and this is just what I needed to push through it. BLES YOU!!!
What I've learned from your experiences is if I'm forced to read a harrowing book, it's best to do it with a friend
Now i need someone who i can cry with if i decided to reread this again because ill probably lose my mind if it is just me
ok so... I have tried reading A Little Life but couldn't go through with it knowing what's going to happen (regarding the trigger warnings) but seeing you both so invested and it being a whole experience, I want to give it another try! omg also the 5 out 5 rating is just too tempting
Huge respect to you two for going through the absolute most emotional rollercoaster !!!!!twice!!!!!!
girl where are you??? we miss your videos please give some sign of life
oh how the human species likes to self destruct
just out here trying to feel something lol
I don't think I can ever read that book a second time (even though my feelings are the same as yours), but this was a lovely experience watching you both reread it!
your timing is immaculate!! i just got this book and wanted to start it really soon!!
Got halfway through A Little Life and had to take a ~mental health break~ from reading but this video might be a sign that I need to finish. Ty Kat and OG Kat for the iNsPiRaTiOn
DNFing is also a WONDERFUL choice :)
Omg today is 27 January 2024! It's been exactly 2 years since you last posted. Miss you so much:(
2 years*
I just began the video but the instrumental choice to start was brilliant and beautiful.
This v-log made me really sad that I don't have a sister! I'd love to read something so scarring with a supportive sibling, but my brother doesn't like to read as much as me (also, we have different taste). You two have a really lovely bond, I hope to see more v-logs like this one
the sequel that i definitely asked for
BEEN THERE DONE THAT! so glad to see i am not alone in my stupidity TwT
I always grew up wishing I had a sister, it was just my dad, two brothers and me since I was 7 and they’ve never really known what to do when I cry. And I cry alllllllll the time, mostly secretly in my room now, especially when reading, I just don’t think they would get it.
Anyways I just wanted to say, you guys have such a beautiful relationship and I love that you feel comfortable sharing it with the world. It’s so cute that you can laugh and cry and be crazy together and let others feel a small part of that joy. ❤️
The video and the vibes were just pure chaos and I love it. I think pure chaos is the only appropriate way to approach a Little Life
I finally wrote my review of A Little Life on goodreads recently. A gripe I haven't heard discussed with this book - where are all the women? There are essentially no significant non-male characters, which doesn't make sense for a book set over multiple decades. Full review below:
I've been thinking about how to review this book for months. I prefer to share a review when I think I have something somewhat original to share. Overall, I'm part of the this-is-tragedy-porn-that-I'm-afraid-is-over-hyped camp. I found it too long, and I was annoyed by the misery by the last several hundred pages. The quality of the writing is truly lovely, and I am interested in Yahagihara's newest book. But I also found that because of how over-hyped this novel was, it couldn't live up to expectations, which is not the fault of Yanagihara, but rather a downfall of the bookish community's hype surrounding A Little Life. I, like others, felt like I was nervously awaiting moments when I ought to cry, rather than being present in the reading experience.
But my hot take that I haven't heard anywhere else: WHERE ARE THE WOMEN? This was set over several decades, and there were no meaningful relationships with women that really affected the plot. The most present female characters were Ana and Julia, who were cool and great, but if Harold had been single, and Julia didn't exist, and if Ana were male, the book would have (in my estimation) remained the same. There is certainly value in a book about the complexities of male relationships and dynamics. And if this had been about 4 guys in college going on a week-long camping trip, a lack of prominent female characters could be overlooked, quite easily. But this book is set over 30+ years! If every mention of female characters in this book were entirely omitted, the themes and events and meanings of this book would remain the same. It seems lacking to simply omit any meaningful female characters in a book about several main characters set over multiple decades.
If your motivation for reading this is the feeling of FOMO that frequently surrounds this book, I'd suggest re-reading something you already love instead, and disavow yourself of that FOMO. The writing is lovely, but the hyping up of this book with all its many tragic turns feels problematic. And the feeling of missing out if you haven't read it does, too. Read if you want, not if you feel pressured or if you're worried you're missing out if you don't.
I actually liked the ending, but after 600+ pages, it felt a little like too little (life) too late. But that is also a reflection of my own feelings on long books. My patience tends to dwindle at about 400 pages, even for some of my favorites.
There was a recent vulture piece on yanigahara that theorised that much of her lack of female characters is central to her narratives because then she gets to insert herself as the saviour of these ostensibly trauma ridden characters. The characters suffer but in so far as she can insert herself as the one who commands and ends that suffering. It was a really good piece I recommend it.
Another thing to mention is why ostensibly Black and gay men are her vehicles for trauma? The identity of the characters is a political choice, one that I feel should be critiqued a lot more.
A little life broke them so much that they stopped posting and now I'm going to ugly cry because of that fact. I didn't realize this was their last video, man I'm sad
I miss you so much, your videos were really relaxing and I thought ur fashion sense was really cool and ur why I still want to get a turtleneck sweater and some big glasses. You work really helped me get back into reading and keep me interested in it over the years - I hope you and ur friends and family are doing great, and that you come back to the channel one day💜
love this love chaos ✨ btw KAT WE NEED MORE READING VLOGS THIS IS GOLD