Therapy has not been working for me. Medication has not been helping. I lost my closest friend and partner. My family is disconnected, separated. I used to love being alone, now I loathe it. Time is passing me by and anything I do to fight the depression-hanging with friends, playing music, gives me only momentary happiness that vanish before I can really bask in the joys of being alive. I feel like I should not be, that I do not belong. Broken, and shattered, not wanting to pick up the pieces of my heart, because they'll only keep falling. And on top of this, I'm on the edge of my seat, waiting for an evacuation order amidst the wildfires that are tearing through California. And yet somehow, I scrape by each day. May this masterpiece find more kindred souls.
I know this isn’t much, but I’m genuinely sorry. I really hope things get better for you. I wish there was more I could do. Stay safe. I’ll be thinking of you. Hang in there.
I’m sorry to hear. What you’ve been through must be really heart shattering. While I’m not a psychologist, I really hope you find solace. From a human being to another. We are worth living as we still have breath. I have been through so many too, and I feel you. Please, let your feelings overflow. Through tears and any means.
I'm not trying to be rude or anything 😊 There's a lot of compassion to be found in your words Perhaps this is God's way of letting you know that there's nothing in this world that can offer the same grace, peace, and love that Jesus can and only Jesus can ❤ I hope you find your way soon 🙏💕
A heart can always be fully healed and feel whole again, not saying it's easy or quick, but I have no doubt it can no matter how big the damage done. It took me years but it was worth it in the end
I had to get out of a friendship i really didnt want to come out of. She was a wonderful person and due to my actions, i had to get out of it and it really sucked. I was grieving for like the past week then this channel magically appeared on my feed. I listened to "calm your mind" and I absolutely loved it. I just liked having your music in the background and just staring at the night sky. Well, wishing for all the imperfections in everyone's life hoping that would turn into something beautiful. God bless everyone and love from India....
Listen… you shouldn’t end a friendship because you do bad stuff. It’s not your place to decide whether or not you two are still friends, it’s her place. Taking away her chance of your farewell is not right at the slightest, specially if you did her wrong. A true friend has a conversation about what has elapsed and together they give their thoughts on what should happen or how it made one another feel… And then… she gets her say in whether she wants to see you again or not… What if it hurt her more to see you go than to have you by her side? You will never know what a person feels unless you dig deeper into that pit where no one wants to go… But what you did is absolutely selfish and should not be done by anyone. So next time YOU do something bad, you let them know that you regret it and want their opinion on the matter. Don’t go making choices for someone in a place where you hurt someone else. And the same goes for the reverse, if someone does you bad they should first come to you… Now it will never happen like that because humans don’t use their brains and they are so self absorbed that everything is about them and no one wants to seem weird but we all are… But be the bigger man and show that there’s hope in this world, even if you’re the villain of this story.
Its crazy because the same thing happened to me. I'm sure our situations are very different, but I was friends with this girl, and it's all I ever wanted to be. But I did something dumb and we stopped talking. It made me realise how much you don't appreciate things in the moment. I has someone to talk to about anything, someone who I knew cared about me enough to be honest and helpful. And yet I threw it away. I still see her everyday but we don't talk or interact. I still see her from time to time in a dream wishing we could be friends. Wishing I didn't mess everything up.
I love the pace you taking in all your compositions, this one included. Nothing too dramatic, feels natural... feels like life, feels good... with your music, in the moment you created, wanna be in the moment for long time, so enjoyable! Thanks for sharing!
"Even if you are hurt, even if you are alone, crying, tired, fed up, and done with life. If you think you're all washed up. No-one cares, you say. Remember, there is that one person who does. I know it might all seem pointless. But, if the end, you likely have saved someone, somewhere. Or, at the very least, SOMEONE looks up to you. You may be drowning in despair like me, but you must always remember to look upon life positively sometimes, even if just for a second. Remember that every single second counts, but most importantly, you must remember that mistakes are not the end of the line, but instead they are a new chance to become better. You may dwell in the past like me and thing that everything you've done makes you irredeemable. All I can say is, it's worth it. None of us may feel like it at times. But, I sure am DAMN glad I'm still here today. I can have a chance at spreading happiness and life to those who are almost completely devoid of it. Those like me. And one last thing before I go, if you ever need anyone to talk to, even if nobody else will, I'm here. I may not be the best at comforting, but at least I try, and I think that's how we all should think. Even though we are not the best at things, nobody can be perfect and at the very least we can rest in the fact that we tried. So, keep living my friends, and remember that someone, somewhere, loves you. No matter what happens, hold onto your precious memories. I hope some of you have found this relatable and comforting. Now, fair well to you all, for it's not over yet, and I will see you all someday once again. Goodbye and good luck to you all ;)." - Me 2025
I like this comment section. Here, I'll also share a quote that resonated with me. "The mind is its own place, and in itself can make a heaven of hell, a hell of heaven." -John Milton It sounds hackneyed, but it really depends on how you see it. Treat yourself kindly, as kindly as you would treat another who was suffering like you. Before you help others, you must first have the strength to be at peace with yourself.
Empty castles Walking in the rain Walking fast-head down No castles in Spain No pretty flowers, no night on the town Don’t look up-don’t look around Can’t lose if you don’t play So many moments denied No precious gems - no rings of gold So many tears uncried Stories untold No need to take back what wasn’t said Can’t lose if you don’t play So many words unspoken So many letters unwritten Unsigned - unread Empty enveloppes instead It’s the hurt of a stare that you do not own Can’t lose if you don’t play Walking in the rain Walking fast-unkind weather No champagne No pretty flowers, no forever It’s the pain of a word that overreached Can’t lose if you don’t play No castles in Spain No dreamy fountain No kneeling down for you Head down - I loved you Play, laugh, love, hurt, cry, touch, kneel Never lasts longer than forever
I have been mentally ill my whole youth and struggling with it always hoping for a better life. After therapy I was able to live a couple of happy months before my life finally broke. I have big problems and debts for the next 10 years that I can't leave this world because I don't want to burden my loved ones. Friends I considered close to me left me when things got the hardest. I have a boyfriend but he has a hard life too and I can't help him, recently I cried when I found out that he had to take out another loan to go on dates. I want to say please don't be in a hurry to die. Everyone dies, but not everyone lives. Hold on to the little things that make you you, even if it doesn't make sense to you yet. Forgive yourself for all the mistakes you've made and don't give up. Treat yourself like a character in a movie with a good ending. I love you, thank you for living.
You can ask for help. I struggle with that thought all the time, but I know many people who comfort me in my darkest moments. Asking for help isn't showing that you're weak, but that you're strong.
I miss the friends I had from 2015-2022. Those golden years of that friendship being 2018-2020. I don't think I'll have friends as good as those ones ever again. They all moved schools in 2020 and I was the only one to remain because my current one, although worse, was the only one doing a good computer science module. We kept in decent contact but gradually became more distant and it fizzled out completely by 2022.
I Can Whole Hearted Say That Ur Music Grants Me Peace Of Mind Allows Me To Sit In A Calm State And Allows Me To Reflect On Past Mental Troubles I Always Eagerly Await For Each New Piece Of Music U Put Out And Feel Very Happy Seeing A New Video Pop Up On My Feed When Ever They Come U My Friend Ur Music Will Help Me Over Come Anything & I'm Sure Many Others Will As Well Ill Say Again Thank You Your Music Helps In So Many Ways Keep Going U Are helping So Many I'm Sure Of it. 😊😌❤
Despite most of us being lonely, depressed, or just sad in general (based on most comments in the comment section), music has united us. Despite the loss of connection in real life, we find refuge online. It’s like a safe place here, and its quite… beautiful❤️
decided to listen to this as i ate some orange chicken and somehow i think it helped me to to really taste it. less of a just ‘eat to just fill a void’ type feeling and more of a ‘everything i feel and sense is a part of me and around me, how wonderful it is to have the chance to cherish it slowly’ if you feel the need to fill a void friend, please just try to make something you can cherish out of it. give yourself that breath at least
It’s a feeling I can’t describe, but it’s like drowning. You know you should come back up, but for some reason you don’t. You don’t feel at peace or numb when others help you resurface. Like you know you’re okay, but for some reason you also don’t. It’s a weird feeling, but one I feel a lot of times.
I just really wished she would look at me the way i look at her, knew i can't stay with her. We were always more than friends, much more than friends, very interesting friends. but as soon i realized she actually sees me as the friend, ive been trying over the past 6 months to maybe have hope for her to start developing feelings for me again like in the beginning. A whole year passed by, my life is great i have friends i have hobbies i workout yet she is still the reason my depression won't end. I just really wish i was able to stay, but my mind told me that i will have to save my mental health other than to listen to my heart. Deleted her from my life.
Music has kept me alive during the worst years of my life. Whenever I need it most, I find songs that speak to me. Every composition I’ve heard from you has been this way and I want to thank you for that. It sucks that nothing ever gets better, the good days are just momentary relief that usually comes right before the worst days, and each time that happens, I don’t know if I’ll survive it.
i was just scrolling on youtube, hoping one good playlist would come up and can I say, your music literally helped me in the times of stress rn. You gained a subscriber and I'm incredibly thankful for your music. thanks :)
I miss my punk axe everyday, even as I pick up the pieces alone.. I look back and still wonder how we got things so wrong. She is and will forever be a part of me
I want to see if I could fall in love with him, but in the past, I loved others and I literally felt drowned in them. I couldn't breathe with them and sacrificed more than I could bear to admit on here. I want to try one more time with him, but I don't know if I can take another heartbreak.
A hollow husk is what i am, numbness is present throughout the day, it never leaves, it never ceases, anything to distract myself works only once, nothing is entertaining anymore, i dont feel like before, friends dont feel the same, games, neither, im a hollow human, gathering pieces of other ones in order to feel, i am damned to be numb,, yet i feel so much, every lost is hundreds of stabs in my soul, not just my heart, it tears my own being, it hurts so much, yet i dont feel nothing, i feel so little, yet everything seems too big, the day i lost you, my soul has been doomed, ever since you passed away, an endless downhill is where i fell, there is no return, i cant turn back or undo my mistakes, with the lefts ounces of soul i have, i beg of you, make me feel like before, let me be that naive child i once were, where nothing scared me more than the darkness, instead of the constant loneliness, or the unstoppable course of time, the regrets didnt haunt me, it was like a dream, the best dream Before i woke up.
in the future, I'd like to work out a deal with you to use this song's title for the final title card of one of my upcoming passion projects. so far, the concept i have in mind is a manga about a boy who is struggling with trauma from a gore addiction. his goal is to find a place he can belong. so far, this is only a dream, but I'll work hard so that i have something to offer.
Therapy has not been working for me. Medication has not been helping. I lost my closest friend and partner. My family is disconnected, separated.
I used to love being alone, now I loathe it. Time is passing me by and anything I do to fight the depression-hanging with friends, playing music, gives me only momentary happiness that vanish before I can really bask in the joys of being alive. I feel like I should not be, that I do not belong. Broken, and shattered, not wanting to pick up the pieces of my heart, because they'll only keep falling. And on top of this, I'm on the edge of my seat, waiting for an evacuation order amidst the wildfires that are tearing through California. And yet somehow, I scrape by each day.
May this masterpiece find more kindred souls.
I know this isn’t much, but I’m genuinely sorry. I really hope things get better for you. I wish there was more I could do. Stay safe. I’ll be thinking of you. Hang in there.
I’m sorry to hear. What you’ve been through must be really heart shattering. While I’m not a psychologist, I really hope you find solace. From a human being to another. We are worth living as we still have breath. I have been through so many too, and I feel you. Please, let your feelings overflow. Through tears and any means.
I'm not trying to be rude or anything 😊 There's a lot of compassion to be found in your words
Perhaps this is God's way of letting you know that there's nothing in this world that can offer the same grace, peace, and love that Jesus can and only Jesus can ❤
I hope you find your way soon 🙏💕
A heart can always be fully healed and feel whole again, not saying it's easy or quick, but I have no doubt it can no matter how big the damage done. It took me years but it was worth it in the end
One step at a time, pain fucking sucks. Love to you, and may some light find you
I had to get out of a friendship i really didnt want to come out of. She was a wonderful person and due to my actions, i had to get out of it and it really sucked. I was grieving for like the past week then this channel magically appeared on my feed. I listened to "calm your mind" and I absolutely loved it. I just liked having your music in the background and just staring at the night sky. Well, wishing for all the imperfections in everyone's life hoping that would turn into something beautiful. God bless everyone and love from India....
Listen… you shouldn’t end a friendship because you do bad stuff. It’s not your place to decide whether or not you two are still friends, it’s her place.
Taking away her chance of your farewell is not right at the slightest, specially if you did her wrong.
A true friend has a conversation about what has elapsed and together they give their thoughts on what should happen or how it made one another feel…
And then… she gets her say in whether she wants to see you again or not…
What if it hurt her more to see you go than to have you by her side?
You will never know what a person feels unless you dig deeper into that pit where no one wants to go…
But what you did is absolutely selfish and should not be done by anyone.
So next time YOU do something bad, you let them know that you regret it and want their opinion on the matter.
Don’t go making choices for someone in a place where you hurt someone else.
And the same goes for the reverse, if someone does you bad they should first come to you…
Now it will never happen like that because humans don’t use their brains and they are so self absorbed that everything is about them and no one wants to seem weird but we all are…
But be the bigger man and show that there’s hope in this world, even if you’re the villain of this story.
Its crazy because the same thing happened to me. I'm sure our situations are very different, but I was friends with this girl, and it's all I ever wanted to be. But I did something dumb and we stopped talking. It made me realise how much you don't appreciate things in the moment. I has someone to talk to about anything, someone who I knew cared about me enough to be honest and helpful. And yet I threw it away. I still see her everyday but we don't talk or interact. I still see her from time to time in a dream wishing we could be friends. Wishing I didn't mess everything up.
You are worthy, beautiful. Stay strong.
nobody cares
I love the pace you taking in all your compositions, this one included. Nothing too dramatic, feels natural... feels like life, feels good... with your music, in the moment you created, wanna be in the moment for long time, so enjoyable! Thanks for sharing!
"Even if you are hurt, even if you are alone, crying, tired, fed up, and done with life. If you think you're all washed up. No-one cares, you say. Remember, there is that one person who does. I know it might all seem pointless. But, if the end, you likely have saved someone, somewhere. Or, at the very least, SOMEONE looks up to you. You may be drowning in despair like me, but you must always remember to look upon life positively sometimes, even if just for a second. Remember that every single second counts, but most importantly, you must remember that mistakes are not the end of the line, but instead they are a new chance to become better. You may dwell in the past like me and thing that everything you've done makes you irredeemable. All I can say is, it's worth it. None of us may feel like it at times. But, I sure am DAMN glad I'm still here today. I can have a chance at spreading happiness and life to those who are almost completely devoid of it. Those like me. And one last thing before I go, if you ever need anyone to talk to, even if nobody else will, I'm here. I may not be the best at comforting, but at least I try, and I think that's how we all should think. Even though we are not the best at things, nobody can be perfect and at the very least we can rest in the fact that we tried. So, keep living my friends, and remember that someone, somewhere, loves you. No matter what happens, hold onto your precious memories. I hope some of you have found this relatable and comforting. Now, fair well to you all, for it's not over yet, and I will see you all someday once again. Goodbye and good luck to you all ;)." - Me 2025
Good luck to you as well, and thanks.
"In case I don't see ya, good afternoon, good evening, and good night."
- The Truman Show
I like this comment section. Here, I'll also share a quote that resonated with me.
"The mind is its own place, and in itself can make a heaven of hell, a hell of heaven." -John Milton
It sounds hackneyed, but it really depends on how you see it. Treat yourself kindly, as kindly as you would treat another who was suffering like you. Before you help others, you must first have the strength to be at peace with yourself.
get a life
Empty castles
Walking in the rain Walking fast-head down No castles in Spain No pretty flowers, no night on the town
Don’t look up-don’t look around
Can’t lose if you don’t play
So many moments denied No precious gems - no rings of gold
So many tears uncried
Stories untold
No need to take back what wasn’t said
Can’t lose if you don’t play
So many words unspoken
So many letters unwritten
Unsigned - unread
Empty enveloppes instead
It’s the hurt of a stare that you do not own
Can’t lose if you don’t play
Walking in the rain
Walking fast-unkind weather
No champagne No pretty flowers, no forever
It’s the pain of a word that overreached
Can’t lose if you don’t play
No castles in Spain
No dreamy fountain
No kneeling down for you
Head down - I loved you
Play, laugh, love, hurt, cry, touch, kneel
Never lasts longer than forever
This is great. 👍
I have been mentally ill my whole youth and struggling with it always hoping for a better life. After therapy I was able to live a couple of happy months before my life finally broke. I have big problems and debts for the next 10 years that I can't leave this world because I don't want to burden my loved ones. Friends I considered close to me left me when things got the hardest. I have a boyfriend but he has a hard life too and I can't help him, recently I cried when I found out that he had to take out another loan to go on dates. I want to say please don't be in a hurry to die. Everyone dies, but not everyone lives. Hold on to the little things that make you you, even if it doesn't make sense to you yet. Forgive yourself for all the mistakes you've made and don't give up. Treat yourself like a character in a movie with a good ending. I love you, thank you for living.
Well shit. Thank you for this.
You can ask for help. I struggle with that thought all the time, but I know many people who comfort me in my darkest moments. Asking for help isn't showing that you're weak, but that you're strong.
nobody cares
Just wanting to curl up and listen to this while staring at nothing
YES PEAK IS HERE
Thank you for creating this masterpiece.
Thank you for listening :)
I miss the friends I had from 2015-2022. Those golden years of that friendship being 2018-2020. I don't think I'll have friends as good as those ones ever again. They all moved schools in 2020 and I was the only one to remain because my current one, although worse, was the only one doing a good computer science module. We kept in decent contact but gradually became more distant and it fizzled out completely by 2022.
Literally my situation!
I Can Whole Hearted Say That Ur Music Grants Me Peace Of Mind Allows Me To Sit In A Calm State And Allows Me To Reflect On Past Mental Troubles I Always Eagerly Await For Each New Piece Of Music U Put Out And Feel Very Happy Seeing A New Video Pop Up On My Feed When Ever They Come U My Friend Ur Music Will Help Me Over Come Anything & I'm Sure Many Others Will As Well Ill Say Again Thank You Your Music Helps In So Many Ways Keep Going U Are helping So Many I'm Sure Of it. 😊😌❤
Despite most of us being lonely, depressed, or just sad in general (based on most comments in the comment section), music has united us. Despite the loss of connection in real life, we find refuge online. It’s like a safe place here, and its quite… beautiful❤️
you can always exit life , no one will remember you
The second section made me want to cry. It is such a lovely composition.
I love the theme, so dreamy😊
PIANO = HEALING THE SOUL ✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨
decided to listen to this as i ate some orange chicken and somehow i think it helped me to to really taste it. less of a just ‘eat to just fill a void’ type feeling and more of a ‘everything i feel and sense is a part of me and around me, how wonderful it is to have the chance to cherish it slowly’
if you feel the need to fill a void friend, please just try to make something you can cherish out of it. give yourself that breath at least
Thank you sm, school's starting soon and this really helped with the stress ❤
It’s a feeling I can’t describe, but it’s like drowning. You know you should come back up, but for some reason you don’t. You don’t feel at peace or numb when others help you resurface. Like you know you’re okay, but for some reason you also don’t. It’s a weird feeling, but one I feel a lot of times.
I just really wished she would look at me the way i look at her, knew i can't stay with her. We were always more than friends, much more than friends, very interesting friends. but as soon i realized she actually sees me as the friend, ive been trying over the past 6 months to maybe have hope for her to start developing feelings for me again like in the beginning. A whole year passed by, my life is great i have friends i have hobbies i workout yet she is still the reason my depression won't end. I just really wish i was able to stay, but my mind told me that i will have to save my mental health other than to listen to my heart. Deleted her from my life.
A perfect sound to end my day with ~ & the title fits the mood 🤍 thank you for your work 🙏🏼
Music has kept me alive during the worst years of my life. Whenever I need it most, I find songs that speak to me. Every composition I’ve heard from you has been this way and I want to thank you for that. It sucks that nothing ever gets better, the good days are just momentary relief that usually comes right before the worst days, and each time that happens, I don’t know if I’ll survive it.
ohhhhhhhh
Music is so beautiful it doesn't feel real. Sometimes I wonder if we humans really deserve this world.
i was just scrolling on youtube, hoping one good playlist would come up and can I say, your music literally helped me in the times of stress rn. You gained a subscriber and I'm incredibly thankful for your music. thanks :)
So nostalgic ❤ beautiful as always :)
saving this for later, this always lifts up my mood.
Absolutely love it
Thank you for this :)
it's very soothing i can sleep with this... thank you ❤️
Your author pieces are the best (I love the titles too) They come from deep emotional states. 👏👏👏
I miss my punk axe everyday, even as I pick up the pieces alone.. I look back and still wonder how we got things so wrong. She is and will forever be a part of me
ty my lord
Perfect timing
So we can soak in Yuh Baek's music. 🎹
I want to see if I could fall in love with him, but in the past, I loved others and I literally felt drowned in them. I couldn't breathe with them and sacrificed more than I could bear to admit on here. I want to try one more time with him, but I don't know if I can take another heartbreak.
cozy time
But I'm drowning and falling too deep ..
It's okay as we're still together
A hollow husk is what i am, numbness is present throughout the day, it never leaves, it never ceases, anything to distract myself works only once, nothing is entertaining anymore, i dont feel like before, friends dont feel the same, games, neither, im a hollow human, gathering pieces of other ones in order to feel, i am damned to be numb,, yet i feel so much, every lost is hundreds of stabs in my soul, not just my heart, it tears my own being, it hurts so much, yet i dont feel nothing, i feel so little, yet everything seems too big, the day i lost you, my soul has been doomed, ever since you passed away, an endless downhill is where i fell, there is no return, i cant turn back or undo my mistakes, with the lefts ounces of soul i have, i beg of you, make me feel like before, let me be that naive child i once were, where nothing scared me more than the darkness, instead of the constant loneliness, or the unstoppable course of time, the regrets didnt haunt me, it was like a dream, the best dream
Before i woke up.
nobody cares about your exisitence
I need more longer versions of your videos
i think i want to learn piano damn
who could dislike this masterpiece
that's normal
i love this
One of the greatest things I've ever done - finding Yuh Baek ❤❤
glad I found you!! :)
I love your videos ❤
very cool :)
goat
Amazing
Aku suka mendengarknnya
in the future, I'd like to work out a deal with you to use this song's title for the final title card of one of my upcoming passion projects. so far, the concept i have in mind is a manga about a boy who is struggling with trauma from a gore addiction. his goal is to find a place he can belong. so far, this is only a dream, but I'll work hard so that i have something to offer.
ta bom
bom mesmo
Finally❤
honoured to be this early
can you give me the details of the piano your using and also how do you record the song ?.. it sounds amazing!!!!
The keyboard itself is Roland FP-30, but the sound is coming from Garritan CFX Grand which I compressed after :)
yo i love persona Lol
" Let me drown in you " , " I'll drown in you "
I'm sorry i just had to make the reference.
💗
What model piano is that? Beautiful
It's the roland fp-30! Thank you :)
IS THAT A WALMART ORCHID? TIPS ON IMPROVISATION PLEASE? NICE SONG BRO 👍👍👍👍
If only she chose me back...
Somehow, I will go on
pathetic
Dear God what is that tuning
❤
i thought of cure ...
synthesia i wanna learn
I didn't get to make a separate video.. but the midi file is available on my website!
River Flows In You?🚫
So I Can Drown In You✅
What piano are you using?
It's the Roland FP-30 :)
What do you record audio with ?
The sound's from a VST - CFX Grand!
what vst do you use? would love to play with it!
I use the Garritan CFX Grand with some added compression :)
@yuhbaek thank you so much! I love your music, everytime it pops up on yt, I listen to it!