pov: it’s ur fault [vent playlist] #3
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- Опубликовано: 17 фев 2022
- pov: it’s ur fault [vent playlist] #3
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my dark circles are forming again
my appetite has vanished
my anxiety has gotten worse
my eyes burn even more
my grades are dropping rapidly
my scars are more visible
my sleeping is out of track
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i havent eaten in 4 days
i havent slept in 2 days
i keep feeling like im gonna throw up
i cant get out of bed in the morning
i cant focus
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im creating more scars
im not eating anymore
im not sleeping
ive became so weak
all this at the age of 13.
Держись, я верю в тебя! Надеюсь , всё наладится! 💗❤️
hey im 12 and i go through some of this and we can get through this start off small like try sleeping for atleast an hour then when you get comfortable with that go to two hours of sleep :)
あなたは大丈夫？私はあなたが今気分が良くなっていることを望み、あなたがそれを片付けたことを望みます。あなたはそのような若い年齢でこれをするべきではありませんでした...
I'll use a translator, please correct me if anything wrong.
Are you okay? I hope you're feeling better now and hope you cleared that up. You shouldn't have done this at such a young age...
Honey... I cant tell you things get better, or that it will all be ok... but i can say this
Bad things happen to good people, you...you are a good person, and you are stronger than so many people for still going, i know it may seem like its all going wrong, but it all honesty i say this... you can do this. Something that may help ( which helps me when i go days without eating) is try eating small portions of foods you like, hell even just drinking water and eating a cracker may help,and with sleeping, i suggest playing music or just getting comfy, and just laying down with your eyes closed, i cant promise this will work, we are all different, but it may
@@gacha_tr3374 im 11 (almost 12) and go through some of this since the age of 9
love the playlist ty i’m currently on the bathroom floor crying in school ty
Courage we will get out of this
u alr?
I send you a hug
Your doing fantastic, things will get better! 💚🐸
@@Rat-ir4sr thx
"Your problem is that you're too clingy" "clingy isn't a cute feature on you." "Cut it out!!" I hope the people who said these things to me all those years ago go to hell.
Мне ещё такого никто не говорил, но я порой чувствую, что просто бегаю за людьми, и в итоге оказываюсь в неприятных ситуациях(
@@Popotulka О, мне так жаль это слышать! Все/все в порядке, включая тебя? :(
@@Sam-fc6xd Незнаю, но я благодарна Вам, за то что беспокоитесь за меня. Просто на днях с подругой довольно неприятная ситуация произошла. Я часто ревную её к кому-то, но она бывает, просто на меня внимания не обращает из за своей подружки. Я не отрицаю, кроме меня у неё должны быть ещё друзья.
They definitely weren’t nice things to say but don’t wish them to go to heck, they could’ve changed. 😇
@@Atlxntizz he didnt. And it's been 4 years
timestamps :)
00:00 - I can't handle change by roar
3:53 - seperation anxiety by eyedress
8:36 - gomenne gomenne (ごめんね ごめんね) by kikuo (TW for lyrics, if you look up English vers.)
13:25 - help_urself by Ezekiel
16:04 - haunted (extended ?) by laura les
18:23 - animal by sir chloe
21:14 - haunt me by teen su!c!de
23:45 - virgo (ヴァルゴ) by kiichi feat. megurine luka
27:22 life is unfair, ... or get over it by black box recorder (TW for lyrics as well)
29:35 - aftermath by caravan palace
33:14 - hey kids by molina
38:11 - insomniac by memo boy and chakra efendi
42:47 - jealous by eyedress
45:25 - (outro) the minimalists by finn
OMfg FOUND THE SECOND SONG SEPERATION ANXIETY by Eyedress
i think 27:22 is actually called child psychology?? idk for sure tho since in this playlist, lots of parts are cut out
@@xoxobvrbie yup!
Thanks for making these time-stamps! How are you?
@@dawnanddove8338 Of course! I like making timestamps :) I'm doing good, how are you?
When mum told me to ‘stop being such a disappointing child’, and to ‘cut it out’ so I took it literally when I was 12 and I’m 14 and still taking it literally. (Love this playlist
ik i may be late but i'm proud from how far u came!!!
I know most of the comments tell you to be happy but mine's KINDA sad.
So it started like I don't remember, I think it was Thursday or something
anyways... I never had a good relationship with my best friend...
I'm a nice person, and I cant stand seeing people sad or crying
so i try not to be rude. But Thursday was different, my best friend
was hanging out with him... The one who makes fun of me,
calls me dumb, stupid, and I don't even wanna finish this.
Well I guess I'm getting into really harsh detail, so i'll
continue. Anyways, like I said my best friend
was hanging out with the person that ruined me,
not only that but my best friend too. He is so mean now, and I
still don't know how he could be this rude to his BEST friend.
I was sad... Lonely.. Felt stupid honestly, after this I told my
best friend that what he was doing really hurt...
He never even cared... A week later, my friend {we'll call her Keely}
Finally snapped at him, they too were friends aswell, it hurt a lo
of people to see me sad like this, I was the positive one.. The sunshine
into everyone's day. So she snapped, finally I did too, which is something
I will always regret doing... "WHY ARE YOU SO TOXIC!!!" Keely was yelling
at him, at this point my head was all caught up in emotions and I couldn't
tell who was right or wrong. See the person that hurt me well, we used to be friends
until the "incident" He would go on our chat and say, something horrible. {Wouldn't be appropriate to say}
I just blew up... Why did I do this? I felt like he was my everything and seeing my best friend being called this
was heartbreaking... My family, he cared, accepted me? I couldn't be using him?
So I just ended the friendship with {I'll call him Dylan} The next few months were okay...
Back to the present, or technically 2 weeks ago, my best friend was hanging out
with that disgusting jerk, he made me feel like i wasn't good enough
to be his friend. My best friend (Daxton- i call him Dax}
He was there for me.. So I would be there for him, until I found out
that when Dylan called him that awful word, he never cared. He LIED to me,
not only me, everyone that was involved, like Keely. I was so mad... Then.. "SHE NEVER WANTED TO BE YOUR FRIEND"
Keely yelled at Dax again... "STOP IT" I screamed, it was to late, he was crying, I was too on the
inside. She was mad at ME for something i never did. A few days later {we're still friends then}
She was talking to another one of the people that ruined me... I was so mad. We argued A LOT
"Well this isnt gonna work" She told me, we had a break, as i went outside I just broke
down, crying. Like anybody would care, honestly though, nobody i tell you NOBODY
Dylan was taking Dax away... Why? Was it me? I would
keep crying myself to sleep as i wondered if it was my fault?
After that, he kept distancing from me, "Is it me?" I hardly ate lunch
thinking of why me? Why do I have to be so unlucky? Dylan was worried for me
but i didn't care at all, Daxton was never toxic, i knew that he'd never. It
was Dylan and Keely ruining our relationship. Now Dax is to busy playing with Dylan
He hasn't talked to me at all since he left school early. Im worried for him.
Is he okay? I dont know. Please , if you're gonna reply then dont ask if he's okay
i will keep you updated. Honestly I would've never thought I could've been
torn like this, all I feel is emptiness in myself...
Small explination:
Basically My ENEMY was taking my friend away from me, we were friends until this thing called the "Incident" happened,
I guess ill say what he said." FUCK YOU DAXTON" yea so then i was mad, and my friends are basically lousy, rude, and make me very insecure about myself. So now im mentally torn apart. SOOOOO
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This sounds depressing but im alright now so... Still havent made contact with him tho
Be sure to always make friends and be good to them, even if they are rude and jerks.
one day it'll pay off as a thank you Sweet dreams loves
yep, it's my fault how i feel, that's because i can't tell nobody
Thank you, just thank you. School and friends is a peice of *shit* at the moment just ty
I'm currently crying the absolute fck out my eyes rn-
im 3rd! anyways i listened to these songs and i love em! not to mention ur other videos but their amazing ur videos are!
Its always to talk abt things and music is one of the ways of getting it out so good job :) I hope it okay and that everything will be ok luv U
!VENT! TW (suicide attempt)
My best friend recently tried to off herself, she didn't tell me and I heard about it at school. She lived and is doing better but I can't seem to shake the feeling that what pushed her over the edge was me. You see she likes me in a way I don't feel for her and sometimes tries to push our relationship to the next level which I'm not really comfortable with, so I distanced myself from her for that day. The next day I heard that she had a really bad night and tried to off herself which broke my heart, but now that I rethink what happened I can't help but feel it was my fault she tried to do it. It makes me feel even worse than I do now. What's even worse is my lack of reaction to what happened it was only when an adult talked to me to comfort me that I felt tears starting to spill and I was told that I was in shock because even though I felt horrible I didn't cry and panic and that is the worst to feel in a situation like this. It's my fault all of it is and no one can sugarcoat it anymore. I feel so bad I hate myself for pushing her away
Thats a really nice real life Story and sad I hope it will be ok👍
21:04 this makes me feel a weird feeling in my heart, i love it.
I wish I didn't loose my motivation because I wanna put words, pictures, songs, videos, edits and drawings on what I'm struggling with. I used to be the creative kid, therapist one, the one that everybody makes fun of when I was telling stories about I've watched or seen and that no one truly respect because I'm short. I don't know if it's laziness but it's been way too long I wish I had inspirations. My only inspirations comes from my mind and there's nothing great in there just deep thoughts about the existence. I know I can't end myself even if I wish because I'm a fcking coward for real lol. Fun story : sometimes in elementary school when I was all alone I was walking around the playground to search if there was a kid crying so I could comfort them cause I was bored lol. I was that lonely and I was between 7 and 10 I think. I was a smart child but not in school just the mind so I guess I was pretty mature not as mature as I am right now of course but still. I am a nobody, nothing, worthless, useless, no one and I am so forgetable if that means something anyway. I think I use english as an escape room, I assume what I say when it's in english but not in my native language fun right? I don't know now I feel like I'm just mean full of anger (cliché for short people like me but I hate showing that side of me only my family knows I think)when people are pushing me too far I explode but since I'm a coward one all I can do is crying saying that my tears are from my anger so at high school I look really numb about feelings. I don't have any relationship and to be honest I've seen so many people getting desperate to be in couple that it's just disgusting me. I feel like all I did this year sometimes was to follow my friends who are chasing stupid guys that breaks their hearts I tried to open their eyes but it's pointless they're as stupid as those guys are in high school. So for next year I'm not gonna follow I prefer to stay by my own. I'm not gonna chit chat because it's useless if I have the nerves I will finally focus a bit but with anxiety and being overthinking it's really hard. I look like a monster sometimes when my anger takes myself away but I guess this is how it work for quiet people like me right?
Hey, sunshine...Maybe I can't understand your feelings, or maybe I can...But I'll just tell you what I always do and say to myself. Look, you have to calm down, sit cross-legged, and just repeat "shit happens" to yourself
I don't know, it just always helps me. I am very sorry that life has treated you like this
@@snnovski thanks this year is not easy for me as a french student and everyone is basically under pressure. It looks all bright on the outside but when you know you can always feel that anxious and cold feeling. Thanks for your comment I will think about what you said.
Ah yes, Listening to sad music while reading Wattpad angst
I'm early! ( also for anyone who is reading this! You're enough for this world. You're perfect in every way and shape. Don't let anyone bring you down. You're Beautiful no Matter what I love you!! 💕)
your also enough♥️
@@leo3154 Thank you!
ur welcome
Thannkk youu
tge fact this was uploaded on my bday
"your problem is that you're jealous. you're scaring me. I don't care that you have problems with your parents and you love me, you scare me."
It was really hurtful, but I hope you're okay, my dear, I still love you
its crazy how sooo meany ppl for online have comftered me more then my "famliy"
I'm proud of you for waking up.
I'm proud of you for brushing your hair.
I'm proud of you for breathing.
I'm proud of you for making your bed.
I'm proud of you for eating.
I'm proud of you for TRYING to eat.
I'm proud of you for drinking water,
I'm proud of you for being here.
I'm proud of you for being you.
I'm proud of you for smiling.
I'm proud of you for continuing on even when things are difficult for you.
I'm proud of you for standing up.
I'm proud of you for blinking.
I'm proud of you for getting out of bed after spending the whole day in bed.
I'm proud of you for brushing your teeth.
I'm proud of you for standing up.
I'm proud of you for sitting down.
I'm proud of you for defending yourself.
I'm proud of you for believing in yourself.
I'm proud of you for simply trying.
I'm proud of you for being alive.
Also
To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus
To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve.
To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time.
To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done!
-Not mine, but pass it around babes
I had a christmas advert.
can someone tell me how to get rid of white sh scars? summer is approaching and i want them gone, i want to enjoy my summer without being questioned and shit
same problem
If you can try using makeup
Put face concealer on them, You can also wear fingerless gloves, or wrist warmers. Or if someone asks say their strechmarks- I actually have a few strechmarks on my wrists like actually lmao
Makeup doesn’t work on fresh-ish cuts, so like... yeah.
@@kimlawley75 idk why but the makeup doesn't stay on my scars and they ain't fresh so... ye idk
Someone just broke up with me... so fucking dumb to believe he actually liked me.. I gave him everything.... he was the reason I was happy....it’s all over. Now..... I liked the playlist thanks.
its like my mind is runing over and over and i cant stop it my bf talks to other girls I feel jealous because they are more pretty i feel hated everyday and night its like i cant stop it
damn when i was getting bullied (still am just not as bad) my parents said they wont take me out of school and switch me , but when i was younger and my cousin kill him self they said we would get taken out of school and switched . but now they don't wanna do that because my brother got a good spot on the football team.
I tried looking at the title and I read the ad instead. For a long time I thought the name of this was “State Farm insurance”
Vent ( TW mention of SH )
I don't fucking get it... I do t get why I do it... I feel like its my fault. I let them all ignore me,leave me out, and push me away. hell,sometimes I hate being the ' funny ' ' therapist ' ' backup ' ' last chosen ' friend.
Even worse....I JUST LET THEM! I show affection differently. I know hehe im touchey i like to hold their hands hug all that, its how i am, so why do they push me away? What did i do to be left out? I wont lie, i have thought about taking a knife from the kitchen and sliting my legs up, do I do it? No...because I know my parents would see, instead I take burning shower, doing the dishes? The water burns, Eat more than 1 meal a day? Never,sleep for more than 5 hours? Nope, I jave lost EVERYONE who I felt I could talk to about anything ,half my friends hate me, HELL I HAVE STAYED UP CRYING BECASUE MY ' FRIEND ' TOLD ME I MY OTHER UNCOMFORTABLE BY WANTING TO HOLD HIS HAND, I HAVE BEEN YELLED FOR DOING NOTHING?!
AND MY MOM FUCKING HATES ME! SHE IS ALWAYS YELLING AT ME WHEN WE FIGHT,THAN WHEN I CRY SHE YELLS MORE AND SAYS " what you crying for hmm? " LIKE BITCH! YOU KNOW WHY! BECAUSE YOU AND DAD FOUGHT HALF MY CHILD HOOD SO I CANT GET YELLED AT WITHOUT BREAKING DOWN!!!..... hell...she has even joked about how she gave me truma...she says '' everyone needs some truma, it makes them funny 😁 😂 " no mom... it doesn't...it makes me scared, I am SCARED of my own mother, I shouldn't fear those who claim to love me....not even a apology ether
Ya...thanks for letting me vent... If yall ever need to talk....come here, I'm always open to listen...
i;m so so sorry. i used to be the therapist friend last year, it really sucks. i hope you're doing so much better now and i know its been a long time but please let me know if you want to rant or vent , i can say that there is at least one person who feels for you
No one deserves this, good luck out there, there are some brilliant people out there who can be kind and reliable friends
Take care x
Everythings my fault
All I wanted was for you to love me like a normal person. Was that too much to ask of you? You're the reason I'm here, can you treat me like a person, please? I don't feel human to you, and it's not fair.
When everyone smiles and says ur awesome but as soon a u walk away they talk shit... It's all my fucking fault ig they talking abt how sweet I was like that little girl was dying inside bc she saw the good in ppl wich led to her own father trying to kill her 🖤
i'm ashamed to say while waiting for the skip ad button i got immersed in a puss-in-boots commercial
im afraid my parents wouldnt even care if i told them what was going on
All my problems:
I’m eating less
I feel fat
I get made fun of at school
Everyone knows my name but no one knows me
It’s getting harder to get up in the mornings
I’m crying more then ever
I have good grades but I can never focus
I can’t see my dad, brothers, sister, duck, dog, or cats
We don’t have a house so we’re living with someone else
I have barely any tears to cry
I have to wear a hat so no one questions me about crying
I feel safe around person but it’s not my mom
I should have stayed in Maryland
I have too many regrets
I don’t eat breakfast
The shower is where I feel most calm
I’m staying up till 4 am now
Sometimes I pull an all night on school nights
I almost fell asleep through all my classes last week
I bite my nails and skin off
I cry whenever I hang up the phone with my best friend
I’m too scared to admit my problems
I’ve been crying myself to sleep since I’ve been here (8 months)
The bags under my eyes are getting darker
Rhymes I’ve made up:
I’m twelve and I hate myself
I’m thirteen and I never get sleep
I’m fourteen and I’ve cried more then I’ve ever seen
I’m fifteen and I cry myself to sleep
Why?
I don’t know
All this and I’m only twelve…
I hope u know that ur perfect just the way u are. social media is one of the things that are putting u down since a lot of girls are known to have an ‘ideal body type’ and I just need to tell u do not listen to them. who cares if ur overweight? who cares if u are ‘ugly’? nobody it’s because we all know that ur amazing. please do not starve yourself, I’m getting the impression that u would like to lose some weight but this is not the way to go since this can lead to many health problems. instead of starving try walking or doing some sort of exercise because u deserve food. u deserve to eat.
I know school is terrible sometimes especially when there are people who bully u but don’t listen to them, I used to get bullied and the best way to cope with that is by doing something u enjoy. after school maybe do a hobby u like or even listen to some music.
your only 12 and I do not want u ending ur life at this age… especially since there are so many people who love u including me. I care about u, I love u, I think ur special, I think ur everything. so please message me if u would like any advice or even just to talk. I’m always here for u. I love u
Ever since I had posted this my mental health was noticed by a guy that doesn’t hate me but doesn’t like me. He made me feel a lot better and thank you! I hope you have a wonderful day!
@@aha_a_depressed_froggo5442 I’m proud of u for starting somewhere. best wishes.
my boyfriend left me after an argument. That's fine I found someone new. they left me last night. THEN they started pretending to be jelly over another couple in front of me to make me jealous. my friend blocked me. my mom's body shames me every day. I'm being told what I should do by people I don't know. world turned upsidown
does anyone know who the artist of the thumbnail?
thanks
come to think of it no one ever actually cared for me
I care about u sm. I don’t know who u are but I know that ur an amazing person and for that I love u
TW:Vent(Will put more later probably)
Why do I never call him? Why do I never hug him? Why do I never say "I love you dad"? Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why
Why does he theatren to leave me? It's my fault. Why does he never stop painting mom in a bad light? It's my fault. Why does he never stop blaming me for why he yells and manipulates me? It's my fault. Why does he never let me cry? Because I'm a cry baby. Why do I always want to cry? Because I'm a cry baby. why did I have to live through that night, why couldn't my blood sugar been higher that night? Because you deserve it.
Do I truly feel like this? Is any of my feelings real?? Have I faked them for so long I can't even tell... help me please. NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO... I don't deserve help.
I wish I hadn't loved her
i get mentally abused by my dad, heh. its really not fun :(
What is the seconddddd song
I FOUND IT HA
interesting pfp-
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I'm early! ( also for anyone who is reading this! You're enough for this world. You're perfect in every way and shape. Don't let anyone bring you down. You're Beautiful no Matter what I love you!! 💕)