@@ReubenWalton It means women are turned on by displays of power ... a little fear is part of that biological attraction between the sexes. I've always found when I submitted to a partner they lost respect for me and attraction. Now I don't play that game at all ... I want them to fear me a little. 😂
This is so sickening to listen to oh my god. You can literally hear Ethel waking up from the drugs she was on in Gibson Girl when the song starts. She's mumbling in the background as if just waking up, confused and trying to figure out where she is. The whole song is her trying to recover from the drugged fog, and by the time she's finally lucid, Isaiah is already consuming her. Vile. Oh my god
The faint screams of what sounds like “no” and “please” in the background during the “I am the face of loves rage” are so haunting omfg. And what sounds like choking sounds in the background in the final part give the song even more depth than it had
@@welcometothewired_camwhen a person dies and they stop breathing ( obviously) theres still like a "final breath" in the body and that creates a choking sound
ok so, i never noticed isaiah chanting “i love you” at the end of the first verse, or ethel continuing to scream and beg “no no/please” after the initial “stop” scream its also so fucking haunting to hear that last bit without all the intense explosion of music over it. and the intro to the prayer freaked me the fuck out. and the sounds of ethel dying at the end??? what the fuck??? i love this
-I’M A SURVIVOR- of almost being unalived at the hands of my husband with one child in my belly and one at my side. This song is the closest thing I have found that could ever describe my trauma. I thank God every day I survived, but this is the hell I live with. Our justice system is broken.
@@Luca-tj7pdin the story of the album, isaiah is ethel’s lover. he ends up murdering and cannibalizing her. i would recommend looking into the full story, it is really interesting and haunting
just to preempt this: i have not murdered anyone. that is not a death rattle. a death rattle is actually a kind of wheezing, snoring sound during perideath (a gradual process that does not occur with sudden deaths-it's the sort of symptom you'd see in palliative care). if you die from being murdered, you do not make a "ghost from the grudge" sound at the moment you die. in fact, this myth might literally trace back to the horror movie, the grudge (2002)?
@@mimisculeplus just in the context of the album’s narrative it couldn’t be a death rattle bc she doesn’t die in this song, she dies in august underground
@@c.nk.01The death rattle can go on for a long time from my understanding so she may have intended it to be one. I don't think Ethel actually ever physically "ran," but the voice of death was more saying that she can't escape her fate as she refuses to accept that she's dying
@@mimisculei only ever heard it in one video and the way she vocalizes after she screams sounds way more like a "death rattle" then the sound of her choking on her blood/dying. I always thought that's what people meant, not the end but the part after she screams
@@mimisculeI believe it’s called “agonal breathing” commonly happens when someone is dying, and can be a precursor to the death rattle or no death rattle at all follows. It’s the body desperately “gasping for air” as the heart is stopping, if i’m not mistaken. Death rattle is a similar but different thing.
I feel like this is more haunting than the finalised version since you can actually hear everything, all the screams and voices. It adds this rawness deeper than the finalised version does. I feel the final version is a very haunting song, this feels like you’re there as she tries to escape him, it puts you there with her and it’s fucking scary
This has none of the music to act as a background track to comfort us from Ethel’s pain. It’s lucid, it’s raw. It very well could have been what her last moments sounded like to her in a drug induced haze. We don’t get the luxury of a musical barrier to her trauma. We hear all of the horror with her.
the noises under the final spoken word portion of the song makes it even more terrifying to listen to. it feels like a sermon being delivered by isaiah, standing over ethel as she dies, not even aware of his words anymore, already on the journey we hear through august underground and televangelism, but just saying it for his own satisfaction.
The “what fear a man like you” part of the song lowkey sounds like Ethel is speaking it underneath the singing vocals as well. Which is honestly incredible.
it startled me so bad at first but stuck with me. Coming back months later I’m positive this had a huge positive impact in my healing. Unveiled parts of me that I cemented years ago.
This most likely is therapeutic. You're opening the emotional wound and examining it, analyzing the how, where, when and why. To face your trauma is a daunting thing, but it's also the only way to truly heal. Hopefully this makes it easier for you and others to come to terms with the black things that have happened. I believe this is why she writes and records. She desires to be an advocate for women who have faced trauma at the hands of men. Which is, let's face it, virtually all of them. I don't want to sound like a white knight here, I'm just giving you my assessment of her work, and I am old enough now to be able to look back and realize that many of my failed relationships were with women who were unable to move past what men in their lives had done to them, and it ultimately impacted every relationship they had subsequently, until they really dealt with it. And, the brain is a funny thing, it will lie to itself and deny there's anything wrong. Some people even really do feel like they weren't really affected at all by it. But that is the brain lying to itself. It'll surface somehow, manifest in some way.....so, I will end my rambling and say, I do think it's a good thing and healthy for you. And same goes for you if you are male. Male female trans.....this is human shit. It's universal.
This version is so… like the last part of the song the whole ‘blessed’ speech/ paragraph til the end, is like death itself was speaking (which makes it more brilliant)
@@denkimush Since this is the song before august underground the end of this song is conntected to it, so the "kill shot" (if you will) is in this song and its as shes dying and agust underground is after shes dead??? if that makes sense!! those are just my thoughts shes a huge special interest of mine so i have alot haha
I didn't know this version existed....and it's so much more disturbing and upsetting than the album version. She is truly unlike any artist I've ever heard, my mind is blown that this was her first album! Visceral and brilliant.
3:20 you can hear after Isaiah says "show me your face" her singing voice stops, like he's trying to shut her up and she doesn't want to look him in the eyes
this is so amazing being able to hear the vocals underneathe the instrumentation. like at the last part where the prayer of "blesseds" you can hear ethel as if she's gasping for her last breaths while isaiah finishes the job
Listening to this masterpiece in complete darkness, alone at 3 am is just terrifying and so beautiful + I totally forgot bout the outro and it scared me shitless
Good Lord almighty…I never heard this version. It’s more haunting than the original. I’ve used to watch tons of horror movies, but this gets me far more than any of that ever did. This song is for every woman who has ever faced any violence from a man or been very afraid they might do something, especially in a heated argument.
this genuinely made my stomach hurt like a sharp pain and put chills all over my body. her talent is unmatched and the details you can’t hear in the original behind the instrumentals are one of a kind. for my own sanity i don’t think i can listen to this version ever again 😭😭
I followed you in and I was with you there I invited you in twice, I did You love blood too much But not like I do Not like I do Heard you, saw you, felt you, gave you Need you, love you, love you, love you Heard you, saw you, felt you, love you Love you, love you, love you, love you Love you, love you, love you, love you Love you, love you, love you, love you... You don't have to say yes to me Suffer does the wolf, crawling to thee Promising a big fire, any fire Saying I'm the one, he's gonna take me I'm on fire, I'm on fire, I'm on fire Suffering is nigh, drawing to me Calling me the one, I'm the white light Beautiful, finite Even the iron still fears the rot Hiding from something I cannot stop Walking on shadows, I can't lead him back, uh Buckled on the floor when night comes along Daddy's left and momma won't come home, oh, uh You poor thing Sweet, mourning lamb There's nothing you can do It's already been done What fear a man like you brings upon a woman like me (show me your face) Please, don't look at me I can see it in your eyes, he keeps looking at me Tell me, what have you done? Stop, stop, stop, make it stop Stop, make it stop, make it stop I've had enough Stop, stop, stop, stop Stop, stop, stop, stop I am the face Of love's rage I am the face Of love's rage Blessed be the Daughters of Cain Bound to suffering eternal through the sins of their fathers committed long before their conception Blessed be their whore mothers Tired and angry, waiting with bated breath in a ferry that will never move again Blessed be the children Each and every one come to know their god through some senseless act of violence Blessed be you, girl Promised to me by a man who can only feel hatred and contempt towards you I am no good nor evil, simply I am And I have come to take what is mine I was there in the dark when you spilled your first blood I am here now, as you run from me still Run then, child You can't hide from me forever
Hayden’s artistry is genius. Listening to all the different layers, I can’t fathom how in the world she constructed it (sounds otherworldly). It feels like we are plunging into the inferno in real time. Dynamic. Terrifying.
I am utterly gutted and haunted by this audio. Just like the original audio, this beings me to gushing tears. The begging, the pleading, the sobbing. Oh my fucking GOD dude. Hayden is a mastermind. Editing 9 months later! Does anyone hear the “I love you”s behind the main vocal around 2:50? It’s so disturbing!
3:36 does anyone know what the deeper background lyric is after the line “what have you done”? It’s in the same pitch as the show your face and I’m here lines
this is what being afraid of a man sounds like
literally
Exactly 👍🏼.
Power .. and you love it
@@Fiveash-Artwhat do you mean by that?
@@ReubenWalton It means women are turned on by displays of power ... a little fear is part of that biological attraction between the sexes. I've always found when I submitted to a partner they lost respect for me and attraction. Now I don't play that game at all ... I want them to fear me a little. 😂
This is so sickening to listen to oh my god. You can literally hear Ethel waking up from the drugs she was on in Gibson Girl when the song starts. She's mumbling in the background as if just waking up, confused and trying to figure out where she is. The whole song is her trying to recover from the drugged fog, and by the time she's finally lucid, Isaiah is already consuming her. Vile. Oh my god
I can actually hear "why am I here?" At the beginning during that part
@@oliviar.l.v.68timestamp?
Do you have a timestamp for that? It sounds so cool!
@@jillianparker7710I hear the same thing around 0:56 in my left ear! You have to really pay attention
"is already consuming her" is straight up chilling man perfect description
The faint screams of what sounds like “no” and “please” in the background during the “I am the face of loves rage” are so haunting omfg. And what sounds like choking sounds in the background in the final part give the song even more depth than it had
Not actually choking sounds but a death rattle 🙃
:((
its a death rattle
@@ghostsontrains7629whats a death rattle
@@welcometothewired_camwhen a person dies and they stop breathing ( obviously) theres still like a "final breath" in the body and that creates a choking sound
ok so, i never noticed isaiah chanting “i love you” at the end of the first verse, or ethel continuing to scream and beg “no no/please” after the initial “stop” scream
its also so fucking haunting to hear that last bit without all the intense explosion of music over it. and the intro to the prayer freaked me the fuck out. and the sounds of ethel dying at the end??? what the fuck??? i love this
Yeah, that was her death rattle
Can you tell me where? I can't hear it!
The “love you love you love you love you” is the perfect personification of love bombing from a dangerous man. It made me sick. I’ve heard it before.
-I’M A SURVIVOR- of almost being unalived at the hands of my husband with one child in my belly and one at my side. This song is the closest thing I have found that could ever describe my trauma. I thank God every day I survived, but this is the hell I live with. Our justice system is broken.
Thank you for sharing such a traumatic experience, I hope your doing better baby
It's something that should never happen to anybody. It's terror that nobody should ever feel and it sinkins me that all thus crap even happens
I hope you are doing the best now. And I hope more good things come to you and your baby.
You’re a SURVIVOR
when you actually imagine that it's character ethel screaming at isaiah it is literally the most gut-wrenching, haunting thing ever
i need her to make the movie STAT
It’s so horrible like it gives me goosebumps every single time
@@bienemaya8180 an a24 movie would do it justice
i feel stupid to ask but can you explain who isaiah is here? Not judt simply the biblical figure? thank you so much!
@@Luca-tj7pdin the story of the album, isaiah is ethel’s lover. he ends up murdering and cannibalizing her. i would recommend looking into the full story, it is really interesting and haunting
the groaning/gasping all throughout the final segment??? screaming
i had the goosebumbs when she kept saying "no"
I had goosebumps throughout this album
The death rattle before "you cant hide from me forever" made my stomach hurt
just to preempt this: i have not murdered anyone.
that is not a death rattle. a death rattle is actually a kind of wheezing, snoring sound during perideath (a gradual process that does not occur with sudden deaths-it's the sort of symptom you'd see in palliative care). if you die from being murdered, you do not make a "ghost from the grudge" sound at the moment you die. in fact, this myth might literally trace back to the horror movie, the grudge (2002)?
@@mimisculeplus just in the context of the album’s narrative it couldn’t be a death rattle bc she doesn’t die in this song, she dies in august underground
@@c.nk.01The death rattle can go on for a long time from my understanding so she may have intended it to be one. I don't think Ethel actually ever physically "ran," but the voice of death was more saying that she can't escape her fate as she refuses to accept that she's dying
@@mimisculei only ever heard it in one video and the way she vocalizes after she screams sounds way more like a "death rattle" then the sound of her choking on her blood/dying. I always thought that's what people meant, not the end but the part after she screams
@@mimisculeI believe it’s called “agonal breathing” commonly happens when someone is dying, and can be a precursor to the death rattle or no death rattle at all follows. It’s the body desperately “gasping for air” as the heart is stopping, if i’m not mistaken. Death rattle is a similar but different thing.
I feel like this is more haunting than the finalised version since you can actually hear everything, all the screams and voices. It adds this rawness deeper than the finalised version does. I feel the final version is a very haunting song, this feels like you’re there as she tries to escape him, it puts you there with her and it’s fucking scary
its so crazy to hear all of the screams under the music
omg i never heard that she still screams and says "no" after the climax
The extra screams after the initial one is so incredible
This has none of the music to act as a background track to comfort us from Ethel’s pain. It’s lucid, it’s raw. It very well could have been what her last moments sounded like to her in a drug induced haze. We don’t get the luxury of a musical barrier to her trauma. We hear all of the horror with her.
Her begging no no no no after the scream really puts it all together
the “no! please!” at 4:30 breaks me.
one of those songs you just can't listen to when it gets too dark outside LMAO
deadass i can only listen to preacher’s daughter in broad daylight
literally curled in bed rn listening
Listened to it in the dark on my own while walking in the park and felt like i was being hunted for sport had to go home 💀
@@EllenFarrelllmaooooo
@@EllenFarrell I used to listen to this while going for runs in the woods to force myself to go faster LMAO
the noises under the final spoken word portion of the song makes it even more terrifying to listen to. it feels like a sermon being delivered by isaiah, standing over ethel as she dies, not even aware of his words anymore, already on the journey we hear through august underground and televangelism, but just saying it for his own satisfaction.
The “what fear a man like you” part of the song lowkey sounds like Ethel is speaking it underneath the singing vocals as well. Which is honestly incredible.
0:49 it sounds like ethel is saying mama here, my heart is SHATTERED
Okay I’m glad I’m not the only one who heard that and was simply broken
You can’t say things like this I am going to have to cry now
same at 5:20, right before the deep voice speaks again
Putting this as my ringtone
Hii
Heyyyy
hi
If this version was on spotify, my wrapped would look VERY different.
5:12
I completely forgot about the prayer at the end and I fucking SHIT myself
my volume was on full… i quite literally jumped out of my skin
thank you so much for warning me, that WOULDVE snatched the soul out of my body
Like this ghost vibes
THE PHONE WAS UP TO MY EAR HELP
@@kerstinandersson9894same I nearly cried
I felt more fear listening to this than I have in any horror movie I’ve watched in the past few years
this made the song so much scarier, its incredible.
this song always hurts but i legitimately cannot stop listening. is this healing or hurting me? only time will tell.
it startled me so bad at first but stuck with me. Coming back months later I’m positive this had a huge positive impact in my healing. Unveiled parts of me that I cemented years ago.
honestly screaming is really therapeutic i do it in my car at least once a week
This most likely is therapeutic. You're opening the emotional wound and examining it, analyzing the how, where, when and why. To face your trauma is a daunting thing, but it's also the only way to truly heal. Hopefully this makes it easier for you and others to come to terms with the black things that have happened. I believe this is why she writes and records. She desires to be an advocate for women who have faced trauma at the hands of men. Which is, let's face it, virtually all of them. I don't want to sound like a white knight here, I'm just giving you my assessment of her work, and I am old enough now to be able to look back and realize that many of my failed relationships were with women who were unable to move past what men in their lives had done to them, and it ultimately impacted every relationship they had subsequently, until they really dealt with it. And, the brain is a funny thing, it will lie to itself and deny there's anything wrong. Some people even really do feel like they weren't really affected at all by it. But that is the brain lying to itself. It'll surface somehow, manifest in some way.....so, I will end my rambling and say, I do think it's a good thing and healthy for you.
And same goes for you if you are male.
Male female trans.....this is human shit. It's universal.
This version is so… like the last part of the song the whole ‘blessed’ speech/ paragraph til the end, is like death itself was speaking (which makes it more brilliant)
it just sounds so, sick. sickly sweet. rotten
yes!!! and the death rattle in the back!!!!!!
THE GAGGING AT THE END HELLO
that's a death rattle, the sound of a person's breathing before death
@@intheskateparkshe doesn't die in this song though
@@denkimushshe does at the end of this song is when her death is
@@slayed21 hayden has said that she dies in august underground
@@denkimush Since this is the song before august underground the end of this song is conntected to it, so the "kill shot" (if you will) is in this song and its as shes dying and agust underground is after shes dead??? if that makes sense!! those are just my thoughts shes a huge special interest of mine so i have alot haha
when "even the iron still feels the rot" kicked in the hair stood up on the back of my neck ngl
ohhhh the hidden vocals make me genuinely nauseous oooh ooooh ooooohhhh
I didn't know this version existed....and it's so much more disturbing and upsetting than the album version. She is truly unlike any artist I've ever heard, my mind is blown that this was her first album! Visceral and brilliant.
gonna put this on when it’s my turn for aux
3:20 you can hear after Isaiah says "show me your face" her singing voice stops, like he's trying to shut her up and she doesn't want to look him in the eyes
this is so amazing being able to hear the vocals underneathe the instrumentation. like at the last part where the prayer of "blesseds" you can hear ethel as if she's gasping for her last breaths while isaiah finishes the job
the screams and the no's while shes sayin i am the face of loves rage???
THIS SOUNDS LIKE HELL I LOVE IT
Ptolomaea is the final circle of hell in Dante’s inferno, so that makes sense
@@shadowprincess3724ptolomaea is ethels final moments
@@ghostsontrains7629they’re talking about the word not the song
@@romevalentine oh
the breathing thing right as they prayer starts scared the FUCK out of me. it felt like isaiah was breathing in my ear. ethel is such an artist
I’m so brave for listening to this
this song sounds so invasive. its crazy
Amazing how much production went into this project. There is so much that you can’t hear, but it is so cool being able to hear it here.
this is somehow way more terrifying than the original and that was already creepy as shit!
This triggered my fight or flight and now I'm sobbing. I havent heard the death rattle in 10 years. Hayden is on another level.
the repeated "no's" make me so sad and the death rattle at the end had me shook and speechless. this song is so scary but ive has this on repeat
this song is actually scary she’s such a genius like how do you come up with something like this
Listening to this masterpiece in complete darkness, alone at 3 am is just terrifying and so beautiful + I totally forgot bout the outro and it scared me shitless
SAME I JUMPED
This is what my ptsd/cptsd nightmares feel and sound like
the “NO NO NO NO NO” ruins me omfg
no song has ever given me goosebumps quite like this song has
Good Lord almighty…I never heard this version. It’s more haunting than the original. I’ve used to watch tons of horror movies, but this gets me far more than any of that ever did. This song is for every woman who has ever faced any violence from a man or been very afraid they might do something, especially in a heated argument.
Jesus fucking christ this is actually so terrifying especially the death rattle at the end
The "no no no no" at 4:10 sounds so much like Laura Palmer when she finds out who BOB is
my soul just literally ascended to heaven
so did ethel’s
More like to the 9th circle of hell babe
@@theoxfordcommaa 😭
blessed be the daughters of cain
this genuinely made my stomach hurt like a sharp pain and put chills all over my body. her talent is unmatched and the details you can’t hear in the original behind the instrumentals are one of a kind. for my own sanity i don’t think i can listen to this version ever again 😭😭
its the no's after the i am the face part
I followed you in and I was with you there
I invited you in twice, I did
You love blood too much
But not like I do
Not like I do
Heard you, saw you, felt you, gave you
Need you, love you, love you, love you
Heard you, saw you, felt you, love you
Love you, love you, love you, love you
Love you, love you, love you, love you
Love you, love you, love you, love you...
You don't have to say yes to me
Suffer does the wolf, crawling to thee
Promising a big fire, any fire
Saying I'm the one, he's gonna take me
I'm on fire, I'm on fire, I'm on fire
Suffering is nigh, drawing to me
Calling me the one, I'm the white light
Beautiful, finite
Even the iron still fears the rot
Hiding from something I cannot stop
Walking on shadows, I can't lead him back, uh
Buckled on the floor when night comes along
Daddy's left and momma won't come home, oh, uh
You poor thing
Sweet, mourning lamb
There's nothing you can do
It's already been done
What fear a man like you brings upon a woman like me (show me your face)
Please, don't look at me
I can see it in your eyes, he keeps looking at me
Tell me, what have you done?
Stop, stop, stop, make it stop
Stop, make it stop, make it stop
I've had enough
Stop, stop, stop, stop
Stop, stop, stop, stop
I am the face
Of love's rage
I am the face
Of love's rage
Blessed be the Daughters of Cain
Bound to suffering eternal through the sins of their fathers committed long before their conception
Blessed be their whore mothers
Tired and angry, waiting with bated breath in a ferry that will never move again
Blessed be the children
Each and every one come to know their god through some senseless act of violence
Blessed be you, girl
Promised to me by a man who can only feel hatred and contempt towards you
I am no good nor evil, simply I am
And I have come to take what is mine
I was there in the dark when you spilled your first blood
I am here now, as you run from me still
Run then, child
You can't hide from me forever
i think it might be "you'd do well to say yes to me" instead of "you don't have to say yes to me"
@@mooncomplex3903it is
The death rattle at the end.... omg
Hayden’s artistry is genius. Listening to all the different layers, I can’t fathom how in the world she constructed it (sounds otherworldly). It feels like we are plunging into the inferno in real time. Dynamic. Terrifying.
Good lord above did she go the f*ck off on this one!
It’s so haunting… I love it sm.
Now this is art.
I got chills the entire time, it’s so scary!!!
It's almost 1am, and thats the scariest thing ever.
I am utterly gutted and haunted by this audio. Just like the original audio, this beings me to gushing tears. The begging, the pleading, the sobbing. Oh my fucking GOD dude. Hayden is a mastermind.
Editing 9 months later! Does anyone hear the “I love you”s behind the main vocal around 2:50? It’s so disturbing!
crazy how it gets ever more scary
i had never heard her "no, no, no" and several other screams, during the cacophony before
girlhood 🥰🎀🩷🤍🌸✨
Just had a full body visceral reaction to this in the dark I’m so scared😭😭
"ptolemaea" is already one of my favorite song off _Preacher's Daughter_ but god fucking damn, this makes it already more terrifying.
What in the jesus christ in heaven please protect me masterpiece is this???? Me stupidly thinking it could not get better
Chat, never listened to her before, listened to this, brought me to tears. What the flip
the death rattle and her screaming no always makes me sick to my stomach
0:50 her saying mama? oh my god this album was insane
The bouncing voice effecets at the outro caught me off guard
No song will ever affect me as much as this one does
The crying is unreal
THAT OUTRO SCARED THE SH OUT OF ME
the “no” at 4:17 makes me so sad 🙁
this version is so hauntingly, beautifully pitiful. I just love it so much.. I love both versions so fucking much.
i need this woman to do a production breakdown of this album or at least this song holy crap
this version is insane. so much scarier than the released
oh my fucking god
thank you for this. so cold, beautiful and haunting
4:00 OMG???
the cracks from the vocals brings more obscure atmosphere to the song
WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK WHO COMES UP WITH THIS. IM TERRIFIED AT HOW GOOD THIS IS
Chills. Literally chills.
Don’t listen to this song at night
5:10 i litro just sharted myself it scared me so much
3:36 does anyone know what the deeper background lyric is after the line “what have you done”? It’s in the same pitch as the show your face and I’m here lines
i think it’s “don’t resist … me”?
“Give your blood to me”
CHILLS EVERYWHERE
this is actually horrifying
pit in your stomach type beat
best song ever created
i get chills everytime this shits so creepy in the best way possible love u ethel ♡
THANK GOD THESE ARE STUDIO OH MY GOD
hearing her die is scary
One of the most beautiful song I’ve ever heard
No i cannot listen to this ever again. This is a one and done
“no! No no no no no no no.. No, Please!” Gut wrenching
Why does this not have 1 mil views