Freezing Paint - May 12th (Single)

This song completely tore me apart emotionally while I was creating it because of how raw and honest it is...also because I don't know how to scream properly yet. The last part isn't supposed to sound "nice" per se. However, know that all of this came straight from the heart and I'm glad I get to share this vulnerable side of me with an audience.
PS...sorry for all the profanity if that's something you don't like, I just didn't wanna edit this song much because of how much it meant to me emotionally.
Lyrics:
floral walls and porcelain dolls
will give me panic attacks in a bathroom stall
and nobody knows why
yeah, i pretend i don't know why
i might lead on girls till i hate myself
i know it's wrong to be someone else
don't even know what i'm doing till it's too late
and i become another dumbass that you should hate
it's colder than it was last may
my skin's grown thicker to cover up my heart's decay
ask for all the attention that i can get and when it comes it becomes a regret
just like the flowers that i gave you
fuck the joy and fuck the pain
fuck profanity and fuck the way this song sounds
'cause my voice won't stop shaking
i hate the way it hurts so much
and i hate pretending that I'm tougher than
the scars i've earned
(chorus)
every may this very day
falls like a curse in the gentlest way
like your hands in my tangled hair
tearing at my scalp in twisted care
i know the reason it hurts so much
i know the reasons i'm fucked up
i know that things will never change
but don't know how i'll get away
things are going oh so slowly
when i ignore you, i get lonely
my knees are shaky, my spine is boney
growing up is fucking lonely
(x4)
don't ignore me
(x12)
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[@safiyyah5393]

Omg I remember when you showed me this in the athletic hallway and I questioned existence for the next 24 hours. A beautiful song dude I'm hella proud. Keep screaming in the background it's fancy

[@InkylikestodrawFreezingPaint]

good times. I miss school because I miss you guys but I don't miss schoolwork or dickhead teachers

[@natk7545]

Wow you're a really underrated artist honestly keep doing what you're doing man it's hella good

[@Sammie._.da._.zombie]

Ahhhh I love this so much

[@InkylikestodrawFreezingPaint]

thank you! I'm making a music video at some point so I'd really appreciate if you gave it a share!

[@hidinginsideher]

i’m so very proud of you 😤💕 you’ve grown so much from when i’ve met you and you’ve grown into an amazing musician that i aspire to be like.

[@InkylikestodrawFreezingPaint]

thanks so much

[@mickeyisscared5708]

this is so amazing

[@robbieghost3205]

Brooo if you made the song 2 seconds shorter it would have a timestamp of 5:12
I love the song so much tho!! Cant wait for the music video!

[@InkylikestodrawFreezingPaint]

oh shit u right lmaoo, thank you!

[@n.c.435]

dude this is so good omg,,,

[@averyo1475]

my birthday’s may 12th, and i love this song

[@InkylikestodrawFreezingPaint]

haha i knew a girl once whose birthday was may 12th. song not based on her, although i do have a couple about her. i'm glad you enjoy it!

[@averyo1475]

Freezing Paint i have to admit people born on may 12th are the coolest, and i did enjoy it, you have talent man

[@oliver_sro]

Sos lo mas♡

[@InkylikestodrawFreezingPaint]

gracias :)

[@nerbamas6940]

Can I animate this?

[@InkylikestodrawFreezingPaint]

please do! send over a link when you do, i love seeing fan art

[@nerbamas6940]

@@InkylikestodrawFreezingPaint will do!