flashlight - revolutionary girl utena amv

(pretending to be normal) just a little something about nanami, and to a lesser extent touga and anthy, and that quirky moment when patriarchal amatonormative violence feels inescapable but isn't. flash warnings 1:52 to 1:56 and 3:07 to 3:11!!!!! started 12/03/23, finished 09/04/23.
song is flashlight by the front bottoms.
lyrics
please fall asleep so i can take pictures of you and hang them in my room
so when i wake up, feel like, yeah, everything's alright
you are still here, you are still happy, you are still smiling and laughing
you are still the only thing and everything i need in my life
and it goes in and out through the mouth, breathing exercises
i will never figure out 'till i am running in circles
or (i am) walking in circles or (i am) crawling in circles or lying on the ground
and i can hear your dog whistle from my bedroom
yeah yeah
and i can see a flashlight cutting up the trees behind my house
yeah yeah
yeah yeah yeah
she says a lot of the kids we graduated with are now homeless
which puts them in mad shady situations with mad shady people
if not every day then on an every other day basis
and she's probably with a few of them right now
and they are probably just drinking and talking about
how she misses getting fucked up and hanging around
and he says "hey you're good at that" and she says "thanks, it's kind of all i got"
and then she looks away and says "it's also all i need"
and i can smell plastic burning, i can smell chemicals breaking down
i got your last three e-mails, the ones where you said, "i was sorting some things out"
and he will be able to hear her dog whistle from his bedroom
yeah yeah
and i can see a flashlight cutting up the trees behind my house
yeah yeah
and i will read the flashing like a morse code explanation
that will mean nothing but take all night to figure out, out, out
(please fall asleep so i can take pictures of you and hang them in my room
so when i wake up feel like yeah everything's alright)
when i am sad, i am sad, but when i'm happy, oh god, i'm happy
there's just no place in-between for us to meet
(you are still here, you are still happy, you are still smiling and laughing
you are still the only thing and everything i need in my life)
when i am sad, i am sad, but when i'm happy, oh god, i am happy
there's just no place in-between for us to meet
(please fall asleep so i can take pictures of you and hang them in my room
so when i wake up, feel like, yeah, everything is alright)
when i am sad, oh god i'm sad, but when i'm happy, i am happy
there's just no place in-between for us to meet
(and i can smell plastic burning, i can smell chemicals breaking down
i got your last three e-mails, the ones where you said...)
(you are still here, you are still happy, you are still smiling and laughing
you are still the only thing and everything i need in my life)
when i am sad, oh god i am sad, but when i'm happy, i am happy
and there's just no place in-between for us to meet
(and i can smell plastic burning, i can smell chemicals breaking down
i got your last three e-mails, the ones where you said...)

[@thegoblinking279]

completely unthinkable that this has less than 10k views. this amv is legendary to me. one of my favorite utena amvs and absolutely my favorite nanami amv. the freaking TOUGA/ANTHY PARALLELS. and the callback to the shadow play girls sequence from the very beginning. its so good

[@heartslobbf]

oh thank you so much, really, it means a lot. this is one of my personal favourites but it never really shone compared to some of my others, so when people find and enjoy it as much as i do it makes me very happy. thanks again for that, really really really

[@exilley2134]

This is lovely! You are incredibly talented ^_^ all the scenes lined up perfectly with the lyrics, I can't imagine how much you must've thought ahead for this project

[@heartslobbf]

oh wow, thank you so much!!!! this was a real labour of love for me so it's nice to see that recognised. ty again for such a lovely comment

[@Ramenlord13]

Honestly one of my favorite utena amvs out there, i love how it's put together so much

[@heartslobbf]

thank you so much!! im honoured :') really really glad you enjoyed

[@bonnacon7162]

love love love this

[@heartslobbf]

thank you so much !!

[@juliesscooby]

LITERALLY SOSOSOSOSO GOOD!!!!!

[@heartslobbf]

love you

[@milkdudz]

this is so so wonderful

[@heartslobbf]

tysm!! :)