Don’t make fun of me but I almost cried playing this.

There was a clear cry for friendship in this one for me.
Asking for help. The answers being far away but seen.
The chaos of each of their lives getting louder until silence and waiting to listen and showing up at the table ready to talk until one of them never came back.
I have no idea if any of that was conveyed in my playing. Maybe just a general feeling of loneliness and loss of sense of home. If you read this and you listened to this please let me know what you think. I’d be very curious what others had pop in their head.
Also yes those two strings are broken but I feel like it worked in this improvisation.

[@joshlovesthepiano]

Hooray for improvisation! Beautiful

[@Halapep]

Wow, you have that true "feel" for the music. Beautiful!

[@clarkebynum4623]

Thanks for listening

[@g0si4]

Wow, this is so beautiful...

[@clarkebynum4623]

Thank you so much!

[@orionyedidia9191]

Amazing clip, I just listened to the whole thing. It felt like surfing through a heavy storm that’s been going on for years. Certain moments of clarity made me feel like I stumbled across an open field in the middle of a jungle. And there was this great motion the whole time, sometimes it felt like huge waves and sometimes small ripples, but the same DNA. I hear Liszt’s influence throughout, Rach (mid-16 min mark), and Chopin raindrop somewhere in the middle. There’s something churning and unrelenting throughout, even when it resolves at times it’s never truly settled. I think this is my favorite one from you so far, pure art. Keep it up man 👍

[@clarkebynum4623]

Thank you so much Orion! That means a lot!
The rachmaninoff influence wasn’t on purpose but it’s absolutely there haha
Thank you so much for listening!!

[@bananeneter999]

This was seemingly randomly recommended to me and your description is beautifully put. I find myself in the same headspace unfortunately.
This is very well played and extremely chill to listen to. Love the style.

[@clarkebynum4623]

The first time any video of mine has been recommended to anyone other than my mom haha!
Glad you enjoyed it. Literature is often a great place to turn in times of loneliness.

[@Lovro-Music]

Very beautiful! :)

[@mvrincs]

Now THIS is my new reading bgm. Thanks Clarke I loved it!!

[@clarkebynum4623]

Thanks! Whats “reading bgm”

[@clarkebynum4623]

Oh my god. Back ground music. Hahahaha

[@bakdirohanamos444]

Know you are loved.

[@jasonmf]

Improvised? Absolutely gorgeous playing

[@vinben007]

16:00 is probably where I had a very lonely moment

[@clarkebynum4623]

Sort of an almost comforting feeling followed by a crash of thunder dispelling the daydream

[@andreoka]

Why would i make fun of you for crying? would you make fun of me for not crying?
Enjoy

[@clarkebynum4623]

Normally only like 10 people see my videos so I didn’t expect it to be seen by strangers! By all means make fun of me or don’t make fun of me but I hope you enjoyed the music!