DPR "Regime World Tour 2022" in Seattle - Pt 2: DPR IAN

So... something kinda amazing happened to me at the DPR show, specifically in the middle of Ian's performance, so prepare for a lil rant LOL ;)
Basically, I've had this cold for 2 weeks, nothing serious just super annoying, especially when I've been looking forward to a concert :/ anyway, I was nervous for the show because I still wasn't feeling 100% and also because I've had a pretty bad track record recently at concerts, i.e. having panic attacks. I took every precaution I could, but still... so, during my favorite song (Avalon) I started feeling really dizzy & I could tell I was about to faint, likely from a mixture of exhaustion/sickness and also just general anxiety from being in such a tight crowd for so many hours (I get really claustrophobic) so, after that song ended, I turned to my friend, told her to stay, and said that I was going to go to the back of the room and maybe sit down. I did that- found a nice little corner with no people, and tried to breathe through it for several minutes. Eventually, I felt better physically but of course, I started getting those irritating thoughts; "Lexi, why are you so weak, why can't you just be normal like everybody else, no one else is having problems... you've ruined the entire experience for yourself by being *blah blah blah*" so... I started crying, feeling like I had somehow disappointed myself because I was missing some of the show. Cue Ian's little speech... I know it sounds cheesy but it felt like he was speaking directly to me. Suddenly, I had this strange thought... I realized I was making myself miserable on purpose now. Any more sitting around feeling less than was only me punishing myself for perceived failures. I realized that I could continue to feel that way, or I could get up, and move past those feelings, and enjoy the rest of the show I'd been looking forward to for so long. So I did! It might not sound like much- just standing up and having a good time, but I'm usually very self-conscious about things like that, especially when I'm alone. And yet, I'm so happy I did it because I had a great time!!! I was no longer crowded by people, I could still see the stage (actually, I could see it even better!) and it honestly just felt like I was hanging out with Ian and dancing around like idiots- it was so much fun :) I realized... my "fun" doesn't have to look like everyone else's. It's okay that I sometimes need to take a step back and do what's best for myself at that moment. But I don't need to linger in those bad feelings. Like Ian said; if you love something, just fucking go for it, because it's worth it! I genuinely could never thank him enough for everything he does and the ways that he inspires me. It shouldn't be a surprise that I had an epiphany like that at his show... well, thanks for listening to me haha ;) and thanks for watching!
-Love always, Lexi
p.s. vid creds to ‪@averyfahl1556‬ as usual LOL

[@baromsweetyu]

Thanks for sharing this❤

[@averyfahl1556]

0:00 MITO
1:00 So Beautiful
3:09 Mood
5:36 Dope Lovers
6:32 ment~ (mito introduction & conversation)
7:13 Miss Understood
8:45 Avalon
11:18 Calico
13:04 Sometimes I'm
14:39 ment~
16:28 Scaredy Cat
18:29 Ribbon
20:47 Mr. Insanity
21:48 Winterfall
24:25 Nerves
27:31 whatever tf this was
27:43 Ballroom Extravaganza
30:27 No Blueberries
31:07 bye pt. 1
31:18 To Myself
32:36 bye pt. 2

[@stilettodeath9211]

He be popin off in ribbon and I love it I would die if I were to ever go to one of his concerts he’s the definition of art

[@nek02717]

take me back...he was so good live 😭💕
thank you for sharing this!!!

[@salvandfamily]

I wish I would have been there, thank you for uploading! - I covered IAN's recent music, would be awesome if you checked it out!

[@averyfahl1556]

Cover was dope!!🔥

[@user-ui2od7hc1t]

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