I can’t accept that you are no longer in this world. I still catch myself thinking that you’re still here because I can’t imagine a world without you Marie. I’ve been watching your videos for years, you felt like a safe place for me. Your videos always gave me so much peace.
marie we miss you. it’s so difficult to fathom that you are no longer here. if your life could have been measured by the life you breathed into others you would have lived forever.
For anyone confused, Marie passed away, that is why they have not uploaded for 1 year. Marie took her own life. We will forever miss you Marie, and we are proud you were clean for so long while you were here. Rest in peace our lovely angel.
It’s so sad to learn that you’ve passed. I’ve been subscribed since 2016 at least (I think). I haven’t watched your videos in a while but something gave me the urge to visit your channel today. Through some of your darkest times, you posted your thoughts and feelings here, yet when you decided to end it all there was no warning. I am so sorry that the system failed you. You tried your hardest to get help but kept getting shut down. You had been through so so much and I don’t blame you for wanting it all to stop. Thank you for helping me through some of my darkest days. You have helped so many people ❤ I know we need to stay positive but this news has gutted me and it’s hard to not feel hopeless
I JUST SUBSCRIBED WHAT?!?! im guessing she.. lost her battle??? that's awful... I'm 13 and she literally gave me the courage to write a letter about asking my mum to take me to ER if my thoughts get bad (I have it ready to give to her but she doesn't know). She is literally saving teens after death
@@jorjamugford3004I am so proud of you for having the courage to do that! That is exactly what Marie would’ve wanted and it honestly makes me feel so happy that even though she is gone, her message is still there💕
Haven't seen your videos in the longest time but wow so refreshing to see how awesome life is going for you! Literally glowing! I remember watching your videos when times were really tough for both of us and I'm so proud to see you come out so so so much stronger. You deserve the best life has to offer after helping me and so many others with our mental health! AGH so proud :))))
Hey Marie Just wanted to tell you I stumbled onto your account years ago when I was struggling really bad. To see you like this now really gives me joy! I am also doing great now, working on an education in the mental health field! I am really proud of us! Greetings from Switzerland 🇨🇭
Questions about self harm: How do you start to feel more confident showing your scars/ how do you know it’s healed enough to show them? How can you accept that they are fading? How to deal with relapse? Why do we trigger ourselves and how to stop?
My therapist once said to me that people come into your life for a season; a reason or a lifetime. It's helped me deal with endings so much. You and pip have always reminded me of that saying as I feel like you definitely came into each others lives for a reason ❤
honestly never thought I could be so proud/happy for someone ive never met!! found your channel in 2017 and seeing you overcome all that you have and build such a beautiful live for urself has been amazing and given me strength to do the same. so much love & glad everything is going well!! 🦋
I found you’re videos when I was in my darkest place, you came up on my recommended page tonight when I’m in my happiest place studying children nursing. It’s so lovely to see you so happy x
I'm older than you ever were now. It's weird. I didn't realize you were gone until more than a year after your passing. You helped so many people, including me. You were beautiful, funny, intelligent, interesting, kind, a light to this world that is so dark sometimes. I hope you're at peace, that's all I can ask for. I hope your family can feel your presence. I hope you're enjoying yourself so much on the other side, free of the food noise, the self harming, the voices. You deserve it so much. I miss you girl, It's so weird that you'll never upload a new video. Sometimes I wanna know what happened that day, that year, how you where feeling. But I want you to tell us, not someone else. And that's not going to happen. Sending you love, dear Marie
According to her dad, she had started self harming again in late 2022. It’s sad to think that she was lying in this video about being 4 years self harm free, probably even lying to herself. I wish she’d gotten the help she needed before it was too late.
I think she probably just didn't want the community to worry about her or trigger anyone, but our feelings are our own responsibility. Having said that, I'm 5 years self harm free and I'd find it very difficult to admit if I started again to anyone, let alone the internet. She had an IRL job to think of that was based on being recovered as well. I respect her for wanting that privacy. But yes it is very sad. 💔
so happy to hear that you’re doing well!! you’ve been such an inspiration to me in my recovery & now i’ll soon be a year clean 🥹 thank you for always being so open & honest!
Ahhh I'm so glad you're doing great! I started watching you so long ago and you were the driving force in me getting into therapy, taking meds responsibly, ending SH and getting my ish together. I'll be forever grateful to you ❤
I have been watching your channel and journey since I was an early teen. I have struggled with similar issues and to hear that your are 4 years SH free, made me cry tears of joy and hope.
I used to watch your videos to feel more confident about my remaining scars. I had relapsed a few months ago after years of no sh. But I managed to stop real quick and go to therapy again. Reading the comments breaks my heart to know you’re no longer here… rip love 💗
I am so glad to see that you are back. I struggle with mental illness and your videos have always brought me comfort and relief, thank you for making these videos and it's good to see you again and healthy.
I'm now about 500 days clean of SH and it feels incredible despite how difficult it has been. This last year I've had so many awful things happen to me which in the past I would automatically react to by hurting myself and it feels so good to be able to resist. I always say that pain is temporary and scars are permanent. Urges will fade and everything will be okay 💜
I'm so glad to see you doing well. I have been watching you for 7 years, and I always come and watch your updates. I have been with my partner for 8 years now. And been going through a lot of the same things you have. I'm in a pretty good place atm. Lots of hugs
i miss you sweet girl, wish it wasn’t the end for you. you had so much life left to live & i hold you so dear to my heart. think of you everyday, i wish nothing but peace for you.
I love seeing you so bright and happy and healthy and really truly doing good things for yourself it really keeps me going. Like seeing where you've been and the work you've done to dig yourself out of that 🥰🥰🥰 the best. Truly the best
Your doing amazing hun!!! I'm nearly 4 month free from s/h it's so difficult at times but it's an achievement! You were the first you tuned that I came across in the UK on here with bpd. I can't thank you enough for being real and honest about things and how it difficult it can be to live "normal ' life 😘😘😘🤗
I have a few questions :) 1. How did you used to cope with strong urges 2. How will I know when my injuries are okay to show in public (they’re months old but I’m very cautious) 3. How to deal with shame of having stitches/ deal with the competition in self harm communities
for the competition aspect I try to remember something my therapist told me (and it's a common concept in DBT): you have two wolves inside of you, one that feeds off of care, listening, acceptance ecc., one that feeds off of impulsivity, deprecation, hate ecc.. You have the power to chose which wolf you want to feed, and the more you feed it, the stronger it gets. Obv things are not always this simple, but this really helps me remember that I DO have a choice on which wolf I want to feed and get stronger in the very end of my story.
For urges: There is a DBT skill called TIPP that has always helped me. T: temperature- that involves sticking your face into a bowl or sink of cold water for a few seconds at a time. That really helps me. I: intense exercise- literally anything you feel like P: paced breathing- in for 4, hold for 6, out for 8 & repeat! (or whatever works for you, just make sure the exhale is longer than the inhale) P: paired muscle relaxation. Tense & then relax your muscles at once & then repeat There are also some good apps - ‘calm harm’ & ‘tappy’ are good ones. I also use ‘I am sober’ which tracks how many days you’ve been clean for - it usually helps me to look at the number of days you’ve been clean for to any urges at bay! In terms of showing scars, honestly I think as long as they’re healed (as in not open wounds) & you feel comfortable then you shouldn’t worry about having to hide them.
It's so nice to see you again! I'm glad you're doing well! Also I'm so proud of you for 4 years, that's amazing! I can't imagine making it that far, it's really impressive and I'm so glad you didn't relapse. Watching this I realized how much I missed your seeing your videos, they really brighten my day and I can't wait for the next one :) Did your self harm ever affect your ED, or vice versa? If that makes any sense. Also, not about self harm, but would you be willing to do a video on your ED?
Marie I started watching you in 2017. We were both not in great places. I’m so so proud of you. I’m also around 3 years sh free with one or two blips. Can totally relate to you saying the urges are still there sometimes but gets so much easier to not act on them the more time goes by. You should be super proud of yourself. I have a question, I’d love for you to do a video about working when you have mental health problems yourself. I’m just about to finish my psychology degree and have been volunteering as a peer support worker for a charity on the phones. I really want to get a job with them but I’m scared. I still struggle with anxiety so it holds me back a bit. But I’m determined to try. Do you have any tips? I haven’t worked for like 10 years so it’s really daunting. Love you ❤
question for ur sh q&a how do u respond to questions people ask like ‘what happend to ur arm/leg” “whats that” “why would u do that” how do i become less self conscious of my scars like im okay with having them out but im very aware of what people might be thinking or when people are looking at me and it makes me want to cover up
When people ask what they are I literally say “oh they’re scars” because it’s obvious what they are. If they ask why then “it was a long time ago but I’m okay now”. If they keep asking then tell them you don’t really want to talk about it right now and they should respect that.
my urges are so different - they never came on with sudden intensity, but build up slowly over time until I'm tired of fighting them and give in then I'll be alright for a while while they heal and for a bit after that ... I've been working on increasing the length between times: days to weeks to months. Apart from one hiccough a few months ago, now I think it's been almost two years
I had a breakup too my first boyfriend. I was very sad. I’m 18 I’ve been watching you through my recovery. Your my best RUclipsr it’s nice to see you thriving im thriving too
I’m sending you so much love holly. It is so hard and so sad but know that you’re allowed to feeel this!!! don’t let anyone tell you different, if it’s important to you then it should be important to them too. Sending love and hugs 🫶🏼💕✨
How to prevent yourself shing in/after a high intensity emotion instance like after an argument and not just when you get the urge on a calmer day when you’re just struggling
Good to see you, been lovely seeing you on Insta finding yourself and what you want! I was just wondering if you would ever talk about the car incident or if not then why? I was just curious about your recovery mentally but also scars wise etc. I had someone recently say that after a physical injury they had a massive deceleration about their self harm scars and being more confident in them. Wondered if you experienced something like this? 💕
I’m so happy you posted again!! It’s definitely been a long time, but Marie I will always follow you and hope for a new video. I’m so happy you’re doing well and I’ve been a fan for so long now. You’ve helped me through some really really hard times in my life and I can proudly say I’m 2 years self harm free!! 🥳❤️ I love you so much! ~ Megan ❣️
Megan, you are an incredible lil Angel. Thankyou for your support 🫶🏼 it means the world to me. 💕 hope you’re doing well and I’m sending so many hugs xxxxxx
i know we never met but you sort of came into my life for a reason too! i found your channel in 2018 when i was really struggling and it gave me a lot of hope back then, even when you were struggling too i just felt less alone. now i’m kinda struggling again but seeing you doing so well warms my heart:) hope you have a great evening ily x
I have recently gotten a diagnosis of BPD and I am really putting my all into bettering myself. Thank you for being such a positive influence. Do you think you will ever go to uni or is there a path your interested in? :) Also any tips of working ft when having a mental illness?
Kayla, ima tell you now that I think of diagnosis as a key to get the things you need, medication, therapy etc. don’t label yourself as it solely!! Sending love 💕 also yes I have actually been thinking about uni, I just don’t have a levels 😢… makes it a lot harder xxxxx
so happy to hear that you're doing well! it honestly made my day :) I was wondering, are you still under your CMHT? like with a care coordinator? or did they discharge you? sorry if it's too personal you obviously don't have to answer. ily
Marie, do you ever have challenges being in the workforce and being open about having your issues? I can't find a safe place to land employment wise, seems like I'm always saying the wrong things, and getting upset too easily. Feels like there are times I wish people wouldn't jump to the worst conclusions about me and see me for my good intentions.
Girl they saved my life. Theres side effects but for most people they are mild or manageable. If they have been prescribed to you by a psychiatrist, if you are severly depressed and nothing seems to help enough, its a good idea. I was scared of starting them but my friends said Id never know whether they work or not without trying. Im so glad I did. I did nothing and I was thinking about committing so so much and now I can function and I have an almost normal life, I can do chores I can study for college I can enjoy nights out with my friends. I feel like myself for the first time, no more horrible lows dragging me away from who I feel I am. Speak to a psychiatrist and make sure they take some time to assess your situation
Does anyone have realistic advice on how to open up/allow yourself to ask for help and be vulnerable around mental health. I tend to bottle up all my anxieties/emotions/mental health until I just explode and say the most horrible stuff, but I feel like I don't know how to get out of this cycle because I often feel like I let down everyone who knows me by having a mental health condition/if I'm having a day where I feel emotional and I can't put on a "brave face", then I feel like I'm failing other people or that I'm showing up other people with similar mental health conditions, if I feel like I'm not being as "put together" as I feel like they are
I don't know if this is helpful but often people who look put together have their own shit too. They just hide it better! Being vulnerable with your emotions is a strength not a weakness - in fact, i look for people who are open with their emotions because I would prefer to have relationships with people who are in touch with their emotions and can communicate them than with people who keep it all bottled up. Plus people can't know they've upset you if you don't tell them whereas if u tell them when it happens they can do something about it and change their behaviour
So glad you are doing well! I'm interested in the self harm video. How do you start with getting more confident showing scars? Does throwing out/hiding objects actually help with not doing it? Practical advice, have you ever bought your own 'steri-strips' and used them? Thinking about buying some to have.
Does self harm have anything to do with blood pressure? Like if you're feeling too much stress, you want to let some blood out to physically lower the pressure.
I'm not quite sure but it won't be most effective in lowering blood pressure. Finding healthier ways to manage your stress will be more beneficial and effective when lowering your blood pressure.
Got diagnosed with BPD recently but can't get into group therapy yet due to intensive schooling atm. What's your advice when self harm/calorie restriction/etc. feels like pure survival ("at least I'm not going to kill myself if I cope like this")?
Question for you- (I hope this doesn’t offend you because it’s absolutely not meant to!) I’ve noticed your voice is shaky a lot of the time. Is there a specific reason for it? I used to have this quite a bit and after doing research I came to the conclusion that it was part of my internal tremors (a shaking sensation felt inside the body rather than visibly outside. It can effect legs, arms, certain organs and even the voice box!)
I have quite a respectable job position and afraid of showing sh scars, showing then might get me fired especially in my country due to stigma. What should I do?
I can’t accept that you are no longer in this world. I still catch myself thinking that you’re still here because I can’t imagine a world without you Marie. I’ve been watching your videos for years, you felt like a safe place for me. Your videos always gave me so much peace.
She died?
@@yulinnii sadly yes
How did she die and when ??
August 2023.. and it’s kinda rude to ask so stupid how… did you watch any of her videos? Go watch her last video and you know what happened
This is news to me. I wondered why there was no new uploads. How did she die?
marie we miss you. it’s so difficult to fathom that you are no longer here. if your life could have been measured by the life you breathed into others you would have lived forever.
well said
For anyone confused, Marie passed away, that is why they have not uploaded for 1 year. Marie took her own life. We will forever miss you Marie, and we are proud you were clean for so long while you were here. Rest in peace our lovely angel.
It’s so sad to learn that you’ve passed. I’ve been subscribed since 2016 at least (I think). I haven’t watched your videos in a while but something gave me the urge to visit your channel today. Through some of your darkest times, you posted your thoughts and feelings here, yet when you decided to end it all there was no warning. I am so sorry that the system failed you. You tried your hardest to get help but kept getting shut down. You had been through so so much and I don’t blame you for wanting it all to stop. Thank you for helping me through some of my darkest days. You have helped so many people ❤
I know we need to stay positive but this news has gutted me and it’s hard to not feel hopeless
I JUST SUBSCRIBED WHAT?!?! im guessing she.. lost her battle??? that's awful... I'm 13 and she literally gave me the courage to write a letter about asking my mum to take me to ER if my thoughts get bad (I have it ready to give to her but she doesn't know). She is literally saving teens after death
@@jorjamugford3004I am so proud of you for having the courage to do that! That is exactly what Marie would’ve wanted and it honestly makes me feel so happy that even though she is gone, her message is still there💕
The fact that you've hit 4 years sh free inspires me soooo much that I'll be able to do the same
Haven't seen your videos in the longest time but wow so refreshing to see how awesome life is going for you! Literally glowing! I remember watching your videos when times were really tough for both of us and I'm so proud to see you come out so so so much stronger. You deserve the best life has to offer after helping me and so many others with our mental health! AGH so proud :))))
Thankyou so so much omg 😢 this means so much to me. You’re amazing xxxxx
@@marieroseeeeI miss you✨
Hey Marie
Just wanted to tell you I stumbled onto your account years ago when I was struggling really bad. To see you like this now really gives me joy! I am also doing great now, working on an education in the mental health field! I am really proud of us!
Greetings from Switzerland 🇨🇭
Omg KIKI ❤❤❤❤ you’re amazing. Thankyou! Love from the Uk xxxxx
Hey:) Darf ich fragen was du im mental health Bereich machst? Würde mich sehr interessieren 😊
@@lissi6973 ich bin EX-IN Genesungsbegleiterin/Peer in Ausbildung ☺️
@@marieroseeee coming back to this and knowing, you’re gone, absolutely breaks my heart 😔💔
Rest easy beautiful angel 🩷
@@freekiki2416same, I don’t understand how this happened
Questions about self harm:
How do you start to feel more confident showing your scars/ how do you know it’s healed enough to show them?
How can you accept that they are fading?
How to deal with relapse?
Why do we trigger ourselves and how to stop?
My therapist once said to me that people come into your life for a season; a reason or a lifetime. It's helped me deal with endings so much.
You and pip have always reminded me of that saying as I feel like you definitely came into each others lives for a reason ❤
honestly never thought I could be so proud/happy for someone ive never met!! found your channel in 2017 and seeing you overcome all that you have and build such a beautiful live for urself has been amazing and given me strength to do the same. so much love & glad everything is going well!! 🦋
Isabel you absolute Angel🫶🏼😭 you’re the best ever xxxx
I found you’re videos when I was in my darkest place, you came up on my recommended page tonight when I’m in my happiest place studying children nursing. It’s so lovely to see you so happy x
Wow Rosie BABYGIRL!!! You’re incredible 😭😭🫶🏼 look at you thriving !!!
I'm older than you ever were now. It's weird. I didn't realize you were gone until more than a year after your passing. You helped so many people, including me. You were beautiful, funny, intelligent, interesting, kind, a light to this world that is so dark sometimes. I hope you're at peace, that's all I can ask for. I hope your family can feel your presence. I hope you're enjoying yourself so much on the other side, free of the food noise, the self harming, the voices. You deserve it so much. I miss you girl, It's so weird that you'll never upload a new video. Sometimes I wanna know what happened that day, that year, how you where feeling. But I want you to tell us, not someone else. And that's not going to happen. Sending you love, dear Marie
I’m so sad that you are gone
You spoke about Dylan with so much respect which is so admirable 🥰 good to see you back! xx
According to her dad, she had started self harming again in late 2022.
It’s sad to think that she was lying in this video about being 4 years self harm free, probably even lying to herself. I wish she’d gotten the help she needed before it was too late.
I think she probably just didn't want the community to worry about her or trigger anyone, but our feelings are our own responsibility. Having said that, I'm 5 years self harm free and I'd find it very difficult to admit if I started again to anyone, let alone the internet. She had an IRL job to think of that was based on being recovered as well. I respect her for wanting that privacy. But yes it is very sad. 💔
@Echo-yk1id wait she passed away?
@@melody8594yes in august last year :(
@@melody8594I think she was hit by a train, I’m not sure if it was intentional or not.
@Cassiesibbitt the inquiry into her death found it was intentional, she left a note. Sorry to say. X
so happy to hear that you’re doing well!! you’ve been such an inspiration to me in my recovery & now i’ll soon be a year clean 🥹 thank you for always being so open & honest!
YOURE INCREDIBLE WOWWWWWWWWWW BABY!!! 😭😭💕
Ahhh I'm so glad you're doing great! I started watching you so long ago and you were the driving force in me getting into therapy, taking meds responsibly, ending SH and getting my ish together. I'll be forever grateful to you ❤
Wow. You don’t know how I grateful I am for you and all your support too 😭🫶🏼
@@marieroseeee u can do it to have a road to recovery ❤
I have been watching your channel and journey since I was an early teen. I have struggled with similar issues and to hear that your are 4 years SH free, made me cry tears of joy and hope.
❤❤ I’m so proud and so grateful for yourself and the support x
I used to watch your videos to feel more confident about my remaining scars. I had relapsed a few months ago after years of no sh. But I managed to stop real quick and go to therapy again. Reading the comments breaks my heart to know you’re no longer here… rip love 💗
Marie it’s so good to see you doing well, we’ve missed u!! you’ve got this ❤️🔥🫶🏻
I’ve missed you so much xxxx
Rest in peace sweet girl😢
She died????
@@spencerkingsley2011 yes a few months ago sadly
@@LiaM-om3ec thanks for getting back to me 👊🏽
If I may ask how and when did she die?
@@Southernpreppy672Marie died late August 2023, and she took her own life. Take care of yourself, God bless you ❤
I am so glad to see that you are back. I struggle with mental illness and your videos have always brought me comfort and relief, thank you for making these videos and it's good to see you again and healthy.
I'm now about 500 days clean of SH and it feels incredible despite how difficult it has been. This last year I've had so many awful things happen to me which in the past I would automatically react to by hurting myself and it feels so good to be able to resist. I always say that pain is temporary and scars are permanent. Urges will fade and everything will be okay 💜
proud of you!!
You seemed to of grown up and become so mature. Your glowing you can see your happy from within. Well done should be proud of yourself xxx
This is such a special message, Fran. Thankyou so much ❤😢
I'm so glad to see you doing well. I have been watching you for 7 years, and I always come and watch your updates. I have been with my partner for 8 years now. And been going through a lot of the same things you have. I'm in a pretty good place atm. Lots of hugs
Sending so much love and hugs. It can be hard but sometimes letting go is a relief. It depends. I’m so thankful for your support, honestly ❤
@@marieroseeee I hope you are resting easy my love 🫶❤
Miss you sweet girl. ❤
forever proud of you marie, sending sm love🫶🏻
Thankyou Angel 💕
i miss you sweet girl, wish it wasn’t the end for you. you had so much life left to live & i hold you so dear to my heart. think of you everyday, i wish nothing but peace for you.
we all do
I love seeing you so bright and happy and healthy and really truly doing good things for yourself it really keeps me going. Like seeing where you've been and the work you've done to dig yourself out of that 🥰🥰🥰 the best. Truly the best
Sarah you Angel!!! 🫶🏼 thankyou so so much xxxxxx
Lovely to see you and so glad you’re happy ✨
Your doing amazing hun!!! I'm nearly 4 month free from s/h it's so difficult at times but it's an achievement! You were the first you tuned that I came across in the UK on here with bpd. I can't thank you enough for being real and honest about things and how it difficult it can be to live "normal ' life 😘😘😘🤗
I have a few questions :)
1. How did you used to cope with strong urges
2. How will I know when my injuries are okay to show in public (they’re months old but I’m very cautious)
3. How to deal with shame of having stitches/ deal with the competition in self harm communities
If they're month old, they're healed and you should be able to wear them arms (:
@@justmai2476aah thankyou for letting me know!
I would also love to hear about how you deal with competition in sh communities.
for the competition aspect I try to remember something my therapist told me (and it's a common concept in DBT): you have two wolves inside of you, one that feeds off of care, listening, acceptance ecc., one that feeds off of impulsivity, deprecation, hate ecc.. You have the power to chose which wolf you want to feed, and the more you feed it, the stronger it gets. Obv things are not always this simple, but this really helps me remember that I DO have a choice on which wolf I want to feed and get stronger in the very end of my story.
For urges:
There is a DBT skill called TIPP that has always helped me.
T: temperature- that involves sticking your face into a bowl or sink of cold water for a few seconds at a time. That really helps me.
I: intense exercise- literally anything you feel like
P: paced breathing- in for 4, hold for 6, out for 8 & repeat! (or whatever works for you, just make sure the exhale is longer than the inhale)
P: paired muscle relaxation. Tense & then relax your muscles at once & then repeat
There are also some good apps - ‘calm harm’ & ‘tappy’ are good ones. I also use ‘I am sober’ which tracks how many days you’ve been clean for - it usually helps me to look at the number of days you’ve been clean for to any urges at bay!
In terms of showing scars, honestly I think as long as they’re healed (as in not open wounds) & you feel comfortable then you shouldn’t worry about having to hide them.
It's so nice to see you again! I'm glad you're doing well! Also I'm so proud of you for 4 years, that's amazing! I can't imagine making it that far, it's really impressive and I'm so glad you didn't relapse. Watching this I realized how much I missed your seeing your videos, they really brighten my day and I can't wait for the next one :)
Did your self harm ever affect your ED, or vice versa? If that makes any sense.
Also, not about self harm, but would you be willing to do a video on your ED?
Marie I started watching you in 2017. We were both not in great places. I’m so so proud of you. I’m also around 3 years sh free with one or two blips. Can totally relate to you saying the urges are still there sometimes but gets so much easier to not act on them the more time goes by.
You should be super proud of yourself.
I have a question, I’d love for you to do a video about working when you have mental health problems yourself. I’m just about to finish my psychology degree and have been volunteering as a peer support worker for a charity on the phones. I really want to get a job with them but I’m scared. I still struggle with anxiety so it holds me back a bit. But I’m determined to try. Do you have any tips? I haven’t worked for like 10 years so it’s really daunting.
Love you ❤
question for ur sh q&a
how do u respond to questions people ask like ‘what happend to ur arm/leg” “whats that” “why would u do that”
how do i become less self conscious of my scars like im okay with having them out but im very aware of what people might be thinking or when people are looking at me and it makes me want to cover up
When people ask what they are I literally say “oh they’re scars” because it’s obvious what they are.
If they ask why then “it was a long time ago but I’m okay now”.
If they keep asking then tell them you don’t really want to talk about it right now and they should respect that.
my urges are so different - they never came on with sudden intensity, but build up slowly over time until I'm tired of fighting them and give in then I'll be alright for a while while they heal and for a bit after that ... I've been working on increasing the length between times: days to weeks to months. Apart from one hiccough a few months ago, now I think it's been almost two years
it’s always refreshing to see you post
Awh thankyou faithy! Xxxx
@@marieroseeee anytime 🫶🏼 xxxx
omg i missed you SO much marie its been a long time since i watched one of your videos. its so good to see you doing fine :')
it's always lovely to see you back. thank you so much!!
i’m so proud of you marie
Watched you since the start. I’m so proud 🥹❤️
So proud of you ❤ just keep being you and keep moving forward gorgeous
So glad you’re well and happy Marie. I have self sabotaging behaviours on another level but I imagine very similar. You’re an inspiration xxx
I had a breakup too my first boyfriend. I was very sad. I’m 18 I’ve been watching you through my recovery. Your my best RUclipsr it’s nice to see you thriving im thriving too
I’m sending you so much love holly. It is so hard and so sad but know that you’re allowed to feeel this!!! don’t let anyone tell you different, if it’s important to you then it should be important to them too. Sending love and hugs 🫶🏼💕✨
Your glowing and I’m so proud honestly ❤❤
Aw I’ve missed you sm and your videos 🤍 Also Alby too, he’s so cute 🥹
How do you feel about a new relationship and “revealing” your scars to that person?
Im sooo happy that your posting, i could cry😭❤️ Love you!!!
Yay Marie Uploaded! I clicked as fast as I could. ❤️❤️
Yay!!! 💕💕
@@marieroseeee Love ya! So proud of you! 💕 I am almost 2 months SH free.
How to prevent yourself shing in/after a high intensity emotion instance like after an argument and not just when you get the urge on a calmer day when you’re just struggling
It’s good to see you’re doing well 💗
I'm so proud of you girlie. It makes me so happy to see you thriving 🥰
Thankyou Ellie!! Hope you are too ❤
It's so wonderful to see you back lovely!! Also omg yes to the Granny Smiths
so proud of you Marie!!
I’m so glad ur back ❤ ur videos have helped me so much for the longest time and I’m soooo happy to see u doing well xx 🎉
Thanks Angel, hope you’re well my love 🫶🏼💕💕💕
So proud of you. Sooo inspiring love and light ❤
Good to see you, been lovely seeing you on Insta finding yourself and what you want! I was just wondering if you would ever talk about the car incident or if not then why? I was just curious about your recovery mentally but also scars wise etc. I had someone recently say that after a physical injury they had a massive deceleration about their self harm scars and being more confident in them. Wondered if you experienced something like this? 💕
Revelation not deceleration lol!
rip marie
I’m so happy your here 🥹
Loved seeing you again! Your hair looks lovely z
Thanks so much!! 💕
Stay Strong Marie! ❤ So, so happy to see you doing well! Keep smiling as everything will be okay 😊
Thankyou so so much Shannon 💕
Just came across your channel and I love hearing how far you’ve came it’s inspiring ❤
I’m so happy you posted again!! It’s definitely been a long time, but Marie I will always follow you and hope for a new video.
I’m so happy you’re doing well and I’ve been a fan for so long now. You’ve helped me through some really really hard times in my life and I can proudly say I’m 2 years self harm free!! 🥳❤️
I love you so much!
~ Megan ❣️
Megan, you are an incredible lil Angel. Thankyou for your support 🫶🏼 it means the world to me. 💕 hope you’re doing well and I’m sending so many hugs xxxxxx
So happy to see your video, I've really missed watching your videos xxxx
Ayyy Marie, so good to see you, we love you, hope you’re doing good angel xxx
Glad to see you!! You look incredible x
i didnt know you were off work! but glad youre back xx
i know we never met but you sort of came into my life for a reason too! i found your channel in 2018 when i was really struggling and it gave me a lot of hope back then, even when you were struggling too i just felt less alone. now i’m kinda struggling again but seeing you doing so well warms my heart:) hope you have a great evening ily x
Ily!!!!!! What’s your insta?!! I’d love to send you a lil letter or something ❤
@@marieroseeee it’s champagneprblmz :) ily
I have recently gotten a diagnosis of BPD and I am really putting my all into bettering myself. Thank you for being such a positive influence. Do you think you will ever go to uni or is there a path your interested in? :) Also any tips of working ft when having a mental illness?
Kayla, ima tell you now that I think of diagnosis as a key to get the things you need, medication, therapy etc. don’t label yourself as it solely!! Sending love 💕 also yes I have actually been thinking about uni, I just don’t have a levels 😢… makes it a lot harder xxxxx
@@marieroseeee Thank you
Clicked so fast!❤️
I have a question, how do you deal with the shame of relapsing with self harm, when you haven’t done it for a while? Xx
Hey! Nice to see your videos again!! How long have you had to take off work? I've always found it so hard getting back into it after time away x
I’ve been off for about 4/5 weeks. Yeah, im worrried about going back too!!!
Oh I was just thinking of you the other day ❤ I love seeing you laugh 🥰
You're so lovely! ❤
It is always heart-warming to get notified by ur channel my friend , long time no see ❤❤
I would like to know if you ever get upset that you used to self harm and treat yourself so badly, how did you forgive yourself if so
You are so likable Marie ❤😊
Awh that’s sos kind of you to say 🥲💕🫶🏼
Helloooo! Thanks for the little check in 🥰
Good too hear that you’re doing well and no self harm in 4 years is great.
so happy to hear that you're doing well! it honestly made my day :) I was wondering, are you still under your CMHT? like with a care coordinator? or did they discharge you? sorry if it's too personal you obviously don't have to answer. ily
Hey madi, I’m not anymore - I was discharged s long time ago 💕
1:23 - 1:26, wow, so scary looking back now
Marie, do you ever have challenges being in the workforce and being open about having your issues? I can't find a safe place to land employment wise, seems like I'm always saying the wrong things, and getting upset too easily. Feels like there are times I wish people wouldn't jump to the worst conclusions about me and see me for my good intentions.
It’s scary that someone can be on all that medication yet it still doesn’t work. I’m scared to go on meds for depression. I dunno
Girl they saved my life. Theres side effects but for most people they are mild or manageable. If they have been prescribed to you by a psychiatrist, if you are severly depressed and nothing seems to help enough, its a good idea. I was scared of starting them but my friends said Id never know whether they work or not without trying. Im so glad I did. I did nothing and I was thinking about committing so so much and now I can function and I have an almost normal life, I can do chores I can study for college I can enjoy nights out with my friends. I feel like myself for the first time, no more horrible lows dragging me away from who I feel I am.
Speak to a psychiatrist and make sure they take some time to assess your situation
@@martina_trees I’m not a girl, but thanks for the reply !
@@justmadeit2 lol sorry I just went on autopilot
@@martina_trees It’s ok ✌️
Does anyone have realistic advice on how to open up/allow yourself to ask for help and be vulnerable around mental health. I tend to bottle up all my anxieties/emotions/mental health until I just explode and say the most horrible stuff, but I feel like I don't know how to get out of this cycle because I often feel like I let down everyone who knows me by having a mental health condition/if I'm having a day where I feel emotional and I can't put on a "brave face", then I feel like I'm failing other people or that I'm showing up other people with similar mental health conditions, if I feel like I'm not being as "put together" as I feel like they are
I don't know if this is helpful but often people who look put together have their own shit too. They just hide it better! Being vulnerable with your emotions is a strength not a weakness - in fact, i look for people who are open with their emotions because I would prefer to have relationships with people who are in touch with their emotions and can communicate them than with people who keep it all bottled up. Plus people can't know they've upset you if you don't tell them whereas if u tell them when it happens they can do something about it and change their behaviour
Realistically opening up!
SH question: Do you ever find your job triggering?
How do you answer questions about scars? Or approach the conversation around them?
How I answer questions about self harm! #mentalhealthrecovery
So glad you are doing well! I'm interested in the self harm video.
How do you start with getting more confident showing scars?
Does throwing out/hiding objects actually help with not doing it?
Practical advice, have you ever bought your own 'steri-strips' and used them? Thinking about buying some to have.
I’m so heartbroken about you and Dylan. Will you atleast remain friends?
Does self harm have anything to do with blood pressure? Like if you're feeling too much stress, you want to let some blood out to physically lower the pressure.
I'm not quite sure but it won't be most effective in lowering blood pressure. Finding healthier ways to manage your stress will be more beneficial and effective when lowering your blood pressure.
Got diagnosed with BPD recently but can't get into group therapy yet due to intensive schooling atm. What's your advice when self harm/calorie restriction/etc. feels like pure survival ("at least I'm not going to kill myself if I cope like this")?
Never clicked on a video so fast ❤
Aaaaaay!!! Xxxx
@marieroseeee hope u upload more videos on Self Harm soon!
Thank u x
Question for you- (I hope this doesn’t offend you because it’s absolutely not meant to!) I’ve noticed your voice is shaky a lot of the time. Is there a specific reason for it? I used to have this quite a bit and after doing research I came to the conclusion that it was part of my internal tremors (a shaking sensation felt inside the body rather than visibly outside. It can effect legs, arms, certain organs and even the voice box!)
She's mentioned in older videos that it's due to her medication
I have quite a respectable job position and afraid of showing sh scars, showing then might get me fired especially in my country due to stigma. What should I do?
Maybe talk to your boss and tell them about the situation?
It seemed You and Dylan both wanted a family 😭 I thought u were forever
There is NO WAY you just said green apples>red apples
I had no idea she died. When how
@@natashaopacicher old friend ella said that she took her own life and there are articles from coventry at the time stating she was hit by a train
Stepped in front of a train sadly. She wasn't coping mentally and was trying to get help. She left a letter for her parents.
Haven’t watched yet, but so hope you’re doing okay ❤️
Thankyou, my love. I am 💕💕
What is your job role? X
Nice too see you 😊