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[Nightcore] Citizen Soldier - If I Surrender (Lyrics)
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- Опубликовано: 4 ноя 2022
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yeah, life sucks and I wish I could leave everything, but I can't right now so until then, music will be my caring friend
good job it's a great song turned into a great nightcore.
Keep going my friend!
@@reginaldvonsnufflepuff6054 thank you. I will try my best
@sihambashir7711 thank you I wont💜
Same pretty shit feeling, wish you the best and that u loose that feeling
@@raphaelbachmann7742 yeah it sucks I hope you start feeling better💜dont give up yet
Lately I’ve been feeling like I don’t have a reason to be depressed. I have loving parents and a stable life but past traumas are haunting constantly and schools getting to be to much. Please someone help ❤
Someone is here to listen. I know the feeling of the past coming up and swallowing everything about yourself. If you need someone to talk to and you need someone I can be a listening ear for you
I'm old. And so many times I've tried to go to bed only to cringe at things that happened decades ago. I've also done and been through so much I wonder at times "What's the point?" "Been there. Done that." But than I will see something, watch something. Learn something. And I just want to see what happens next. Loving parents and a stable life can change in an instant but that is literally the ebb and flow of life. Just keep looking at your present. Look forward to the future and work to make sure you don't repeat the mistakes of the past. Though Goddamn if I don't want to be isekai'd. Not ready to meet Truck-kun yet though.
We can always talk dude
Your not alone. Im exactly the same.. your irreplaceable, no one can replace you. If/when you need someone to talk to dont be scared to reach out. I will listen and try to help the best i can
Hey man it gets better I promise I swear it gets better
Its not the song that makes me sad. its the fact of how many people can relate.
That’s so true
No truer words were ever spoken
feel you ..
This got me crying... its too frikin relatable
Definitely... without music like this... many people would have given up, even more at least... and I know too well what that's like
"There is no agony like being strong when no one knows you're sick" That is so relatable that it hurts to read it. Hurts to think how alone I feel. Really I love my music. Really, it's like a friend that doesn't judge. But I'm honestly tired of all this fake friends and talking to the ceiling at night. I just wish someday I feel fine again. Cause when I say I'm fine, that means that I'm still fighting a million demons inside my head. Just wish my pain would fade. I don't know why I'm even up at 4:30 a.m. writing this comment. Guess that explains things.
I feel you honey and if anyone needs to talk I'll listen
I can definitely relate especially recently
I get it. Thats been my life 4 the past 6 years.
yeah was the same for me sometimes you need to learn to accept because then it usually eases up it still can be harder than said tho just accept yourself but stay true to what you want to be
I can totally relate
Depression is like a demon, it gets it's teeth sunk into your soul and feeds off your life. It seems impossible to defeat.😔
U dont defeat it. When u think you win. It only hides away tell your guard is down again.
You don’t have to defeat it just keep fighting and pray for hep. God can hep you.
But Jesus has already defeated death, and won the fight you are in! There is hope.
[Lyrics]
[Verse 1]
Lately I've been feeling so ashamed
By these thoughts I'm hiding in my brain
'Cause I've been holding them down but they twist me violently (-ly, -ly)
I'm hanging by a thread tonight but this time I don't wanna be saved (Saved)
[Chorus]
So let me fall, let me break
Under everything unsaid
Just let me die 'cause I can't take
Living with what's in my head
If I surrender, surrender
To the monsters in me
If I surrender, surrender
To the monstеrs in me
Will it set me free?
[Verse 2]
What's thе point of holding on like this?
When no one seems to care if I exist
There is no agony like being strong when no one knows you're sick
So sick of hearing I should stay when I know I would never be missed
[Chorus]
So let me fall, let me break
Under everything unsaid
Just let me die 'cause I can't take
Living with what's in my head
If I surrender, surrender
To the monsters in me
If I surrender, surrender
To the monsters in me
[Bridge]
If you could see under my skin
You'd realize why I hold it in
Why it's a fight I don't wanna win
Why it's a fight I don't wanna win
If you could see all my abuse
And spent a day inside my shoes
You'd realize why I just wanna lose
You'd realize why I just wanna lose
Will anyone believe the hell of being me
Before I decide to be the dying proof?
[Chorus]
So let me fall, let me break
Under everything unsaid
Just let me die 'cause I can't take
Living with what's in my head
If I surrender, surrender
To the monsters in me
If I surrender, surrender
To the monsters in me
Will it set me free?
No one ever listens to how you’re feeling..
The moment everyone starts listening and actually cares.. you’re already dead..😞
Got that right ❤
True, it's sad how it's too true
Jesus already knows what youve been through and is always listening
"so just let me die"
please just let go of me. hate me. make me the reason of your suffering. blame everything on me. but please don't tell yourself it's your fault when I have to leave and lose my fight with live because you are the reason I stayed a little longer.
Sounds like something Itachi would say to Sauske
Jesus.
He is Jesus. He has so much for you that the devil doesn't want you to know. The devil wants to kill you so you aren't a interference with Jesus's plan for you. The devil knows you are super special and that's why he is trying to get rid of you. you are important to the kingdom of God and that's why the devil is trying to kill you. Keep GOING Solider! You are So So brave and strong for getting this far! I love you as Family! You are Precious!
@@PheobeLionheartaww thank you so much for your kind words ❤
Tis helps alot. I can relate. This song, no music on general helps me get away from everything and I can always turn to it when I have no one else to turn to
I hope you will find someone who will listen to you and make you feel better ❤
Hope you have a great day ❤
This is a beautiful n meaningful song n most of us can relate..
No one listens. Honestly, I was open to my friends. Now, Idk but I always smiled even though I really wanted to cry. It hurts. Music's the only one that understands me really.
I can relate my friend
I'm sorry for you two,but i'm sure you will meet someone who will listen to you and make your life easier ❤
You are not alone ,i promise things will get better
I hope you will feel better soon ❤❤
I think this all the time, I have literally no friends in real life, and barely get along with my family. I have like 2 friends that sometimes talk to me online, but even then it more feels like they are being polite than genuinely care about me, and all I can think lately is what’s the point, if all of life is constantly suffering and struggling why bother
Please don't say things like this
I swear it will get better; just please keep living ❤
If you need someone to talk you can talk with me,i would be glad to listen to you ❤❤
I am sure you will find someone in your life who will make you feel better ❤
Have a good day 💖
You deserve more than this... Your videos are really underatted
God is in the middle of it all. Even when you don't see him in it, he is there.
The moon really is beautifull tonight, just like you.Don't lose hope little star.
You Never Surrender Jordan Because You Are A Soldier Loved and Your Mom's Warrior!
this song is just beautiful
Sometimes you just need to remind yourself that there are a lot of people who have their life taken away, so try to appreciate everything you have even if it isn't much.
Citizen soldier and nightcore man now I've heard it all
This song is so beautiful and sad. I dont really relate to it, but the one part that id relate to a lot is "whats the point of holding on like this when no one seems to care if i excist" i always feel invisible to others. I dont have very many friends either, but im still trying very hard to make more and be happy but its very hard because im a very shy person and i dont really like talking to people. I also have trust issues which makes it a lot harder for me to find people i trust, but im getting through it. And to everyone out there that is struggling in life, just remember that there is always going to be someone out there who loves you even if you dont know it. I love you all❤❤
Totally agree with this!
I know how you feel, with being invisible and all of that, and I wanna tell you from the other side of it that there is hope. Believe in yourself! I believe in you. I'm not just saying that to try and be nice, I've been in your position before and I've gotten past it now, so I believe you can too.
I can relate to this song on so many levels 😢 when I was in grade 7 I got bullied and thru out my middle and beginning of my high school years I just wanted to end my life because I thought I was worthless and I was sad, depressed, I was dealing with a lot of stress on my shoulders but now I am currently working on writing books and stories about many things one of them is the story of my life in hopes something can relate and hope that others don't have to go through it and ot let them know that I am here for them and let them know that they are not alone that you are not alone anymore 😢💝❤️💖😌
I'll be sure to be reading them when they're published. Keep going 😊
@@reginaldvonsnufflepuff6054 hi I'm Nikki and I'm sixteen
@Nikki Moxley Nice to meet you Nikki. Welcome to the channel 😀
@@reginaldvonsnufflepuff6054 also how old are you?
@@reginaldvonsnufflepuff6054 and I'm a sophomore at Brooks County high school in Quitman Georgia
i love citizen soldier. and this actually ain't half bad. its pretty damn good. but i still like the original better : P
I never had the guts to surrender bcs it means all the stuff of fear and mental abuse I endured by my father was just something I've been through but sometimes i feel like just surrendering would make me forget all the stuff
I'm here for you if you need someone to talk to ❤
Have a good day 💖
I remember the first time listening to this song as I was in a really dark place and I was sitting in the bathroom at college contemplating taking my own life and then I thought maybe music would help and then I heard this and I broke down In tears as I felt less alone and proud of myself for making it this far and then I'm still struggling daily with it and college isn't making it any better but I'm still fighting citizen soilder has put a purpose to my life i still struggle so much with Trauma/ PTSD/ DID/BPD and college is really tough im only 17 (English school system) and I'm already literally fighting for my life but i have been 7 months clean of attempting and 5-6 weeks clean of self harm and im really proud of myself!
I'm proud of you for accomplishing that feat! I know all too well what that's like, so we'll done and keep going clean!
This so speaks about me it makes me think about my mom and my little brother who passed away last year October 23rd
I'm so sorry for your loss... I hope that you can find the strength inside you to carry on living every day to the maximum! ❤
you deserve subscrided couse i love it
All of us have a side of us that we hide and that is how we humans are, and when i hear this song i think of that side of mine 🙂
You deserve this SUB!
Thank you so much! 😊
Wonderful my friend 💖💖
Thank you 😊
I might do a music video on this too me playing acoustic guitar electric guitar and vocals not mine in the background thanks dude you inspire me !!!!😆😆😆👍
this song just makes me think about how im staying alive for others when deep down i just wanna end it all because living hurts
I feel you
my bully's: why are you always listening to your music
me: because music understands me more then people do
Same music always helps me and it understands me more than people do
I found myself listening to nightcore every night cuz i wanted to cry but i just can't, ig im too broken to cry.
Thanks for the ❤ really appreciate it thanks for the amazing music keep em coming man woow 😃😜
Thanks very much for the support 😊
This song makes me cry Ilost my best friend and my dad I can't lose a nother family or a friend that makes me happy
I relate a lot to this
So good
Thanks very much 😀
Don't let the monster swallow you, please, you can have a reason to hold on, the very Maker of your soul and your body and the world around you can be your reason to hold on. If He is not our reason we'll never escape the endless cycle and maze we're trapped in I will listen to you and He will listen, He loves you so much, i know this because if my heart could feel like it's exploding with love for others because God put that love in a poor creature like me, then how much more than I must His heart beat in joy and pain for us? ❤🔥
I made friends with my monsters, its life thats gonna make me do it.
This is my favorite song ,by my favorite artist ,my favorite way, by my favorite account. Life has meaning again😂
well this song is nice i love this song very much and i deserve it more than anything
and make it forward how u make it
Love it
this song summarizes my life😔😶
I hope that this is going to change, I really hope so. If you need someone to talk to please just write me.
This song is summarized in every one life
And we are all fighting what we want for in our life
I know my bf wouldnt let me cause he cares so much he would rather help me go though all of the emotions then let me go down hill which im extremely greatful for that and sometimes the depression gets to be alot and i do at times feel like just giving into it
good work, Saudações do Brasil
Thank you so much 😊
this song is vary sad but I get it a lot
even if you want to surrender, die, be done with life it doesn't matter just.. at least let me be with you during and it after it even if there is no after even if you hate me during it just let me please I can't bare see another go into the darkness... ^_^
This is to anyone feeling this way
this is so me-
❤
So fucking relatable❤
Why is this relatable to what I'm going through
How are you now ?
I hope you are ok now ❤
Lost my mom and dad within 10 months of each other my depression is too big I'm not crying for help but it will happen tonight I'll be there Mom and Dad I'm right behind you
@mikefox8496 No don't do it! Your Mom and Dad wouldn't want that for you! Please live for them...I know it's hard, I've lost family members too...I know how it feels and I'm so sorry you're going through this pain. Please call Samaritans or your local crisis team so they can try and help you through your grief. If you feel like no one cares, I care. So please live for your parents' memories.
i was diagnosed with Tourretes end of last and its hell and two days ago i got a tick that stopped me from walking
I'm so sorry to hear that. You know, I was diagnosed at birth with a condition called CCHS which means I am unable to breathe at night and I have had to wear a trachea tube for all my life. But despite my diagnosis I am thankful for the life I live. I understand that life is hard sometimes and people get dealt tough cards but I want you to know that it doesn't have to determine your happiness. I pray that God gives you joy and peace like he has for me.
Death is too easy
I love it
I will never try to run for it
One thing to know about me I have gone insane. Seeing dark figures in the corners of my eyes, hearing voices, and no emotion to people. Well I’m here right? Since I fought back with evidence. Evidence there was hope for me. And boom I’m somewhat okay.
To be honest I have absolutely no reason to feel like this, I have a great family people that probably really care about me and I’ve been given so much in my life don’t even have any traumas or anything but somehow that is exactly the thing that time and time again pulls me down and breaks me.
It feels like I can never be what I should be considering everything I was given and it eats away at Me, even though I’m starting to get my life on track there pop up so many more things that I need to improve on and somehow it just feels like I can never be enough it’s infuriating to be on the right track only for it to reveal even more shortcomings… guess I’ll need to try even harder.
Thanks for reading this if anyone does
I feel you, my friend. I've been feeling seriously down recently and i started going to therapy because of my anxiety and depression. I never really knew what caused it until i started talking to my therapist and she pointed out so many traumas in my life that i didn't realize were traumas and i thought they were normal. I want you to know that it's ok to feel this way, my friend. You probably have some hidden trauma that caused it so don't feel like you need to be better than you are because of all the good in your life. As long as you are at least trying that's all that matters. Don't listen to what other people say. Just do your best and push on!! I believe in you that you can do this and I'll be here supporting you even though i don't know you and you don't know me. I really don't care. I want you to know that you're worth it and that you have every right to feel the things you do!! And don't just feel validated because of me or other people who are validating you! You can validate yourself and it feels absolutely amazing when you finally do :] I believe in you and i believe that you can make it through and just push on!! YOU GOT THIS!! GOODLUCK, MY FRIEND!!! 😁🤍
damn, thanks a lot man i really appreciate the kind words ^^ i truly hope that only the best things happen to you in life and that you can accomplish all the things you set out to do cause you deserve it brother.@@Avalon_TheTherian
@@stylethebeast7358 ^^ It's no problem at all. I love to encourage people it makes me feel good inside to know that other people are happy even when I can't be. Thank you btw. You have no idea how much i needed to hear the words "you deserve it" so thank you!! Have an amazing day, week, month, year, life, ect. lol but seriously you got this!!
@@Avalon_TheTherian ❤
It’s my story
Just let me have my breakdown I trust Gilgamesh as my soul partner
I don't mind that I lost to Gilgamesh.
My bf sent this to me in regards to my addiction... I'm trying so so hard my love.
@@NaturallyRebelliousMusic Your bf must really love you!
what do we say to the god of death?
not today
Kinda reminds me of Ruby Daly from The Darkest Minds
I just lost everything again my house my car and girl and this so is a song for what’s going on in my head and it’s getting harder to win
Oh man, I'm so sorry to hear this. Hopefully there will be a silver lining somewhere and hopefully your life will turn back around. Be patient and it will come 🙏
Im probably getting taken away by CPS soon and separated from my little brother who's leaned on me since he was a baby. I'm leaving because I know if I'm gone he can get all the love and things he deserves. I should've died sooner so he wouldn't have to go through this. He was crying on my shoulder all night and I so badly wanted to cry with him but I'm supposed to be the strong sister. This might be my last comment so I love you all may God bless you all
Please don't say things like that!
Don't give up! Life is beautiful. You are worth it! Trust me ❤
@@lupoalfa118 all I've done is make mistakes, left and right. I can't stand it anymore it drives me nuts, I almost got my bf sick, my brother no longer has a healthy sister. My life is all going to shit and I can't take it anymore.
@@reginaldvonsnufflepuff6054 not really, if I keep making mistakes right and left then I won't be perfect, ik how stupid it sounds but that's my main problem. I can't take it anymore
@@megumi7124 i know life sucks sometime,but it's also beautiful so please keep going.
I swear it get better and then if you die your brother will cry for you and he could even thinks it's his fault,so please keep living...please i'm begging you,i don't want anyone to die like this❤.
And then everybody make mistake so please don't say that ❤.
I care about you,please don't let this be the end of your life ❤
If you want you can talk to me about your problem and if you don't want that's fine too,i just want you to be happy and healthy ❤
1.7k Subs, are you rich in 2024?
Good video
Yeah the life is sick it could be everything make
A sad and pain in our body and feel like know one is sorround you it So ralate
And not even People see our pain.
Citizen Soldier is much better in its origin if u want to chang the song a bit try to make the voice sounds deeper (not always playing the song in fast foward and higher voice will make it better)
I feel like there is no cure and I'm all alone
Hey, you, yes you. I am here if you want to talk about it. You are not alone, there is always someone who cares about you, even if you do not know it.
Everyone tells me to never give up but they never been in my shoes to know what is happening and I always wondered if something happened to me if anyone would care because people I meet don’t care at all I have to fight my demons in me but I wounder how long I should fight with no one having my back🖤💔😭🥺🫠
I know the feeling on this subject! It's heartbreaking to know there's no support. I hope you can find the strength to fight 💪 ❤️
Is that Blade(from webtoon) on the cover page
Has anyone ever listened to this and actually sang it out loud?
Cant remember I time when i dident sing it out loud
😔💔😭💔😔😭Garce
Is like me
In the past, I could handle the demons in my head and I accepted everything, so I was somewhat fine. After some time, certain stuff happens and now my mind keeping going to if I surrender, would that resolve things because it hurting me so badly right now and I don't have a way to cope
Need a friend?
@@astrixtucker3530 I'm sorry but not really
@@adrien3868 nuu don't apologize. I just wanted to help Hun.
But me I'm ready. Please come now, I'm so tired...
I don't know if I should keep going anymore. I am losing the will to care anymore
Just remember you are valuable in life! Don't give into the demons inside you. You control them, don't let them control you 😊
I feel like this 24/7 what is the point of life my anxiety suffocates me daily and the betrayal and lies have turn into Loniness and trust issues I'm smiling on the outside being happy but on the inside I'm dying and feel like I'm being suffocated theory doesn't work I don't have true or in face many friends so I don't know what the point of life is sometimes I feel like why was I born or even do I even belong in this world but all I know is I'm dying on the inside while acting and looking fine 🥺
We all have value to the world. I know how you feel though. I've felt like that for many years and it's tough. But the best thing to do for yourself and for others is to not waste the time you have. One day you will find your calling, the perfect partner, the best job ever, etc. Whichever refers to yourself. But the main thing to take from this, is to never surrender to the monsters inside, push them back and fight for your right to live and happily 😊
@@reginaldvonsnufflepuff6054thxs ill try but I can't promise
Dude I so relate to what this song saying but I don't want to kill myself everything else yes 😆👍
If I told anyone my inner thoughts everyone would fear me or want to kill me for even thinking about every detail of said thoughts
I’m just barely surviving recently
When you try for the first time you never end like it hold let easy useless friend go back in there useless selfless careless state.
will it set me free?? I'm tired of the voice..i'm tired of the pain..can you guys let me gom?can you let me leave this world??
No! Come on, you can do this. It is going to be fine one day, please be strong I care about you. If you ever need someone to talk to write me here please, I will respond immidiatly, I promise.
gg .
😭😭😭😭😭
☯️ 0:07
Hi guys I just want to end it all peacefully now can I please explain my situation no one is listening to me
Look you never kept your self higher then in your owner self lord that why.
my family:
loves my brothers very much
they don't see me
Me:
Pretends to smile
hold my tears
My fake friends:
laughing while i'm crying
me:
I wanna Die
my Best friends:
stop me from doing that
Don't cut yourself like a paper
I wanna jump off a building they said u don't have too
Me:
tell my Parents I'm sorry for being a dissapointmet
I gave all my best but, still failed.
I want to make it alll just end peacefully is anyone willing to here my situation please if you can just reply
Sorry it wasn’t sending and it did send I just never told me lol sorry for that
❤😂2024
😂
Who's the guy?
Probably Ken Kanaki, at least that’s my first thought. Looks like him and sounds like him.
@@travisakers1996 except he's got white hair and doesn't have any piercings
His hair used to be dark.
But yes he did not have piercings.. I don’t know, but it really does sound like him.
I have a legal name I was born with, a true name gifted to me by Jesus Christ himself and I'm adopted into an Armstrong and a black family.
англичане скажите пж о чем песня
Jkl
Well honey look is I could carat something better then curse why is it called well then.
How to ruin good music 101
You are more than the mess in your mind. My God Has NOT, NOT! GIVEN YOU THAT IDENTITY! ALL OF THESE THOUGHTS AREN'T YOURS!! THEY COME STRAIGHT FROM THE DEVIL! I KNOW, BECAUSE I WAS THERE ONCE! I TRIED TO KILL MYSELF BECAUSE OF IT! And by the way, just because you know God doesn't mean your not going to be depressed, their is peace in depression knowing God will always get you through!
I am so fucking tired, I wanna scream until my throat hurts to much to anymore. Everything hurts and no gives a shit
I do bro tell me
I want to make it alll just end peacefully is anyone willing to here my situation please if you can just reply