Hearing you talk about your meeting is so nice. I sort of have meetings too. But they're with myself. I sort of turn on a nice ambiance video and just sort of hangout with myself. Sort of talk to myself. And a good reason for this is because I make the best company! Hearing you share the troubled childhood is nice. Not that yours was nice! But I can relate. Maybe not as extreme as yours but certainly carries the pain. Anywho, I stopped in the middle of this video so I'm going to watch the rest. You're a great guy. Big heart. I like to think my heart is good. Sometimes I think my heart is the only good one around :P Peace & TY :)
I am sober from alcohol and self harm for 13 years this February 2025 (by the grace of HP), and right before my Father died and I was already at bottom and circling the drain, I remember he said he wished he had more time to spend with us (me and sis) when we were kids. He was too busy working a million jobs and going to school and his anger was worse, all the things when we were kids. But that comment snapped me out of my stupor; I was just so shocked that he felt that way, I was convinced he hated me. Bc when he died I was just really awful to him. And though I know he loves me and I love him, it haunted me for many years knowing how terrible I was. I’m not perfect but I believe he and I would be having great convos now and I know he’d be obsessed with his grandkids💕 I’m crying as I write this bc hearing a man (the speaker you were referring to) say that about his kids and mean it, especially fathers of older generations (im almost 50) is just so out of the ordinary for me in a sense, for all my friends too. So I’m just touched that you mentioned that, my Dad would’ve been 80 in 2024. Anyways, it just took me back. And I want to echo the sentiment on here Steven, that the man you have fought and blossomed to become is incredible. I know this is the internet lol, but I started following you bc of your sobriety musings, honesty, your compassion and your style ofc. And the airplane career goss is also fun😂 You’re incredible. Your Mother really truly missed out. I wish you all the good things and love in the world bc you deserve that and more ♥️✨Nisha
I was so happy to see your video. It seems to calm me down some. I know what you mean when you wonder where people go for daily if they want to a place to talk it out with a group support. Mostly now with our problems in the WH. I’ve had all these emotions anger, sad, & scared for our country. To have a leader with NO empathy, & compassion for people. To have a narcissist sociopath who has a intelligent of a grade school bully. I try not to pay attention to it much but then I don’t know what’s happening & I feel I need to stay on top of it to know what’s coming & maybe I can do something about it. All these orders are crazy & could affect my healthcare, income, but also seeing people hurt for no reason hurts me deeply. That’s why it be nice to had a group to physically go to on my very bad days. Sure I could go to counseling which cost money & my bank account is already strained but have a group to support you would be awesome. Enough of the sad stuff. I’m always so happy to see Eleanor & Buddy relaxing & being so content & happy with you. They’re so precious. Give them a hug for me. Sorry I always write so much. Have safe flights & a wonderful week! 👍✌️😊🐈⬛🐈🤗💚
Steven, those not in recovery need a support system of some kind for the healing you mentioned having toward your Mom. It could be a loving family, which could be friends instead of biological relations. Or, one might find that in a really super rap group. But, you are right in wondering if the rest of us have this trusted cadre of people with your welfare in mind. I certainly have spent my time alone in this respect many times. Ms Eleanor is so sweet. 😁❤️ Hernan
Your emotional support Canadian here🇨🇦❤️. I too am trying so hard to stay away from all the craziness going on. Trying to find the blessings in life. Staying kind to all others. It’s tough. I’m so glad you can lean on your groups, allow the emotions to flow. Cuddle your kitties. They are the best therapy possible.
I'm thankful that your Grandmother was there for you Steven. Your mom didn't have the tools to love. I had to figure out that with my own father. He didn't have the tools to love. It was always selfishness with him. It was always what someone could do for him and not what he could do for someone else. He was always very hard on my mother. After he died my mother had to let it all go. It was very liberating for her.
Thank you for sharing your deep feelings. We are a family in the ethernet. We care about you, Eleanor and Buddy. We hurt when u hurt and take joy in your laugh. 😊. Take care. Sending a hug…❤️
Wow, this video really resonated with me. Here comes one of my long comments. My mother was not an alcoholic, but children just "happened" to her, and she lost her own mother when she was 7, her father was an alcoholic, so she basically raised herself much of the time and did not have any nurturing whatsoever. So kids were an annoyance to her, I was the first child, the only girl and she doted on her sons, and so I wasn't really nurtured either. Nobody said "I love you" in my house, nobody hugged, etc. TBH, I didn't have children purposely because I was afraid I would be the same kind of mother. Fast forward to 2001, when it became clear to me that something was wrong cognitively with her, I moved back to see what was going on (turned out to be Alzheimer's). Somehow, this disease wiped out her personality and especially after she went to the nursing home, she became this really nice lady - loved hugs, kisses and holding hands, said "I love you" and that was a testament to the loving care she received in the nursing home. I was seeing a therapist by this time to deal with all of this and she said "what if you parented her the way you wished you were parented?" and this blew my mind. I morphed into someone who would hug, kiss, hold hands, say "I love you" to this very nice lady whose disease was progressing. Somehow, by the time she was in her final days and in a coma, I spoke to her for 3 days and nights about good memories I had, how wonderful the recent years had been, and ironically I was the only person with her when she took her last breath. When I walked out of the nursing home, I felt like that big hole I had always felt filled in and any resentment I continued to hold just left me. This was back in 2012, and I am a better person for the experience and as I've gotten older I have become more empathetic and willing to meet people where they are, just as I did with my mother. Okay story is done. I still have spicy moments, of course. Any sandwich on marbled rye is a good sandwich. Have a wonderful day!
I’m so sorry this happened ! I can relate to an unhealthy mother, more than you know ! My story is full of trauma, abuse and pain . I’m wishing you peace , health , serenity, healing and blessings !
When you mentioned that it was 2019 when your Mother died I realized how long you've been a profound influence in my life ❤ You have a way of communicating your thoughts and life experiences and opinions into learning tools for me and many others here. The connection with your furbabies is exactly what I experience with mine too. I don't comment very often...sorry, but know that I'm glad you put yourself out there for others. Fly safe ❤
So appreciate you Steven ! We are with you ! Totally can relate to mother dynamic ! Thank you for always posting and keeping us with you ! I just thought I would message you, really interested in your feedback on the most recent ,tragic air industry accidents
Steven, you make my days, sometimes. Today is one of them. I too am afraid of what is going to happen to this country with this madman in charge. I am 80 years old & I have been planning to retire in June this year. Now I don't know what I will do, especially after learning his plans for Medicare & Social Security. I have a little money put aside to make it till the end but it could be wiped out in a heartbeat if I have to be hospitalized. Looking forward, I might make it another 10 years if I don't get cancer again (3 time so far). I don't want to be institutionalized or become a burden to my children so I need to make my funds last; but I also need a different car... Blah, blah, blah (as a wise man says) Have a great day & I will to as I look forward to a bright future. Luv ya
Thank you for sharing your feelings. You are an amazing person. I don't understand how a person with no feelings becomes President. We are going backward in time. OMG. Anyway, have an amazing day! Safe travels. 2025. 👍🛫🛬
Steven, I'm really glad that Ben at your group meeting got through the rough place in your soul and into your heart. When I "feel" deceased people, particularly my parents, are somehow with me, I know that I am loved and that they are keeping watch over me. It makes me more at peace with life. As you continue to let your resentment dissolve I think you'll find peace too. As for the Cheeto man, I can only hope for the success of all these court challenges. I am also proud to be Canadian, with all our political leaders standing up to the grifter-in-chief. Concentrate on the positive things in your life.
0:02 Those are cool specks !! But you know my fav is the black A-frame ones !! You are always interesting!! Yes for some reason our loved ones will come through...it's weird but happens ...nice lunch !!! ❤❤❤❤
I just five minutes ago., Checked to see if you had anything loaded up. I have my boring 1 Hour morning drive to philly airport. Your videos always make it so much better. Thanks Steven
I think we could all benefit from a home group, whether seeking sobriety or just dealing with life. America has been shattered by politics, news organizations, and general distrust of our fellow human beings. I think we all need a home group. ❤
Hello Steven this video really resonated with me as my Dad was an alcoholic my entire childhood and partial adulthood i lost my mom at 14 (her boyfriend killed her and sa’d me and beat me too) and just to give you a little background on our relationship i my dad never took me in but knew about it all and when i was placed in foster care he left me there for 5 yrs and only when my foster parents wanted to adopt me(they were amazing and loving foster parents btw) did he decide to get me move me in with his wretched sister who hated my mom and clearly me as she threw me out a year later But we never spoke about my childhood trama and he didnt help pay for my mom his wife funeral( it took me 4 yrs to finish paying for her funeral to get her ashes my dad told me i should leave them there and let her rest in peace 😳 after her death i sufferd more abuse from various relationships and my dad never helped me once i married and had my own kids i decided that as a kid I had no control over my life, but as an adult, I do so I made the decision to not have anything to do with him or essentially the rest of my family. They felt that I should just get over it, keeping in mind that my brother and sister were both drug addicts alcoholics, and any other craziness that you can think of they’ve done and my dad has always supported them. He told me the reason why I get the least support is because I am the most capable keep in mind. I’ve never drink smoke or done any kind of drugs in my life because I don’t wanna turn out like any of them and when my sister needed a kidney of course they came to me because I’m the only one with healthy organs when I said no three months before my wedding no one showed up to my wedding. The point of this long story is that when I chose to choose myself my peace and because I have a grandson now, and I do not want to pass on childhood trauma to him my life has been so much better by just literally letting go. I hope that you find peace in the letting go.💜
@LavenderAndFreckles ..That is so incredibly sad about your mom. I know what it's like to live with an awesome foster family!! 🥰 I wanted to stay with mine too! What's bizarre is that just like you.... my dad came and got me after they approached him about adoption too. I remember him coming over and hastily retrieving me (I was maybe 7) but as hard as I try.. I can't recall anything about the next few years. Total blackout.. I don't think about him anymore, but I do I still think about that family that were so amazing.. even though they're gone now. ~~~~BTW, Congratulations on your grandson----how SWEET!!! 🤗💙💕 I'll bet you're the best G-ma ever!! 👶 xoxo
20:08 same I'm black queer and positive and im worried they gonna round me up and put me in some type of quarantine camp. I have a therapist so its been helping and Im just doing my best but your videos help
I like your honesty. Memories around anniversary dates seem to circle around and want acknowledgement. It’s best to acknowledge and move forward. It’s a lot of smoke and mirrors with this administration trying to distract everyone while the grift goes on. I have an eye surgeon who is trans. She saved my eye years ago after an injury. I’m concerned for her safety. Very skilled surgeon.
I hear you on the political front. I had to get off all social media...at 65 I no longer come with any filters and am more than happy to set individuals straight on the dire reality we are now facing. One small solace is that midterms are next year...hopefully people will learn to not let the 1% buy our elections and set our laws.
We are very similar. Ive really forgiven my mother and mourn the life that she couldn't have but was force to have as a blk woman. It doesnt hurt any less but the pain and longing has really disappeared. My mom is still with us and i know ill never get that apology and im ok. Ive made my peace we are no contact. Also you get it from therapy and psychiatry and honestly my Buddhist practice. I think you would enjoy SGI Buddhism
I am a naturalized citizen and I am very worried that I will be deported. I just retired. I wouldn't e deported to a scary country but I would like to leave on my terms and when I am ready.
I empathize with you! Personally, I had a toxic relationship with my father who passed in 2018. So many unfinished arguments + don’t speak with my mother -(typical Boston mother = crazy 😂). Then what the incumbent administration is doing- the stress is unbearable. Sad times for our country. Shows how truly fragile democracy is.
You know, some people call it karma, some people call it God, some people call it soul. But I firmly believe ALL of us, even evil glitches of our society like Musk and Bolsonaro and Trump and and and, at some point feel what they are actually worth, what they are actually doing to their world. And I’m not saying your mum belonged in that category, but I bet my life that your mother did feel somewhere deep down that she wasn’t being a good mum to you. Probably she lacked tools and/or vocabulary to express it, even to herself. Even though he’s not our president, most people I know are equally blocking out the vomit inducing executive orders the Lead Ape is destroying civilisation as we know it with. And I wish with all my heart that that helps, which it doesn’t, of course. It amazes me to no end what you share online. I hope you’re aware of that, and also that you’ll be capable of drawing the line you need whenever you need it. Until then: thank you, good soul Steven. You are an inspiration to countless people in countless ways. Thank you.
I know you don’t believe but you can communicate with your parents and she did put her hand on your shoulder. Just say she was sorry that was not your imagination that was her
Your mother never told you that she was sorry but chances are she was sorry! I’m sorry that she couldn’t bring herself to tell you! I feel the same way about these times! I can’t believe our country elected him as our president again! I can’t even watch the news because I don’t want to hear anything about orange man! It makes me sick to my stomach that he is our president!
I look at it this way, our Lord above knows and sees all that is happening; He will take care and provide for us. I know how you feel. Just keep trusting and believing. It doesn’t seem real but it’ll all be all right. 🙏🏻❤️
Probably best to avoid talking about politics indeed, at least until your life and identity are directly at stake. Unless it doesn't bother you too much to read opposite or even contrarian opinions. But life is hard and full enough as it is, one can't always have the energy to debate online. Plus it's always better to debate IRL, in person. Completely off-topic, and a bit personal (you don't have to answer), but have you ever thought of coparenting? Just based on your caring nature, you give off nurturing and dad vibes.
I like that Steven shares his political views with us. I've only seen one person (recently) on here who told him she was all for the orange idiot.. so unless there are some closet magats, that's not too bad.
@ I am not American but based on my observations, it's very likely Republicans (and people who voted for Trump) watch Steven's channel as they are the majority of voters this time and they now tend to watch a more diverse array of people than the Democrats ironically.
The world needs more people like you.
What a compliment😊 And I agree ❤✨
Your my home group. You have helped me so much. Im grateful to know you.
Awwwwee! Thank you love.
Love you just the way you are, Steven. Can’t even watch, listen, read news anymore-too awful. Take care.
Hearing you talk about your meeting is so nice.
I sort of have meetings too. But they're with myself. I sort of turn on a nice ambiance video and just sort of hangout with myself. Sort of talk to myself. And a good reason for this is because I make the best company!
Hearing you share the troubled childhood is nice. Not that yours was nice! But I can relate. Maybe not as extreme as yours but certainly carries the pain.
Anywho, I stopped in the middle of this video so I'm going to watch the rest.
You're a great guy. Big heart. I like to think my heart is good. Sometimes I think my heart is the only good one around :P
Peace & TY :)
I am sober from alcohol and self harm for 13 years this February 2025 (by the grace of HP), and right before my Father died and I was already at bottom and circling the drain, I remember he said he wished he had more time to spend with us (me and sis) when we were kids. He was too busy working a million jobs and going to school and his anger was worse, all the things when we were kids. But that comment snapped me out of my stupor; I was just so shocked that he felt that way, I was convinced he hated me. Bc when he died I was just really awful to him. And though I know he loves me and I love him, it haunted me for many years knowing how terrible I was.
I’m not perfect but I believe he and I would be having great convos now and I know he’d be obsessed with his grandkids💕
I’m crying as I write this bc hearing a man (the speaker you were referring to) say that about his kids and mean it, especially fathers of older generations (im almost 50) is just so out of the ordinary for me in a sense, for all my friends too. So I’m just touched that you mentioned that, my Dad would’ve been 80 in 2024.
Anyways, it just took me back.
And I want to echo the sentiment on here Steven, that the man you have fought and blossomed to become is incredible. I know this is the internet lol, but I started following you bc of your sobriety musings, honesty, your compassion and your style ofc. And the airplane career goss is also fun😂
You’re incredible. Your Mother really truly missed out. I wish you all the good things and love in the world bc you deserve that and more ♥️✨Nisha
Thank you love. You sound pretty amazing yourself!
I was so happy to see your video. It seems to calm me down some. I know what you mean when you wonder where people go for daily if they want to a place to talk it out with a group support. Mostly now with our problems in the WH. I’ve had all these emotions anger, sad, & scared for our country. To have a leader with NO empathy, & compassion for people. To have a narcissist sociopath who has a intelligent of a grade school bully. I try not to pay attention to it much but then I don’t know what’s happening & I feel I need to stay on top of it to know what’s coming & maybe I can do something about it. All these orders are crazy & could affect my healthcare, income, but also seeing people hurt for no reason hurts me deeply. That’s why it be nice to had a group to physically go to on my very bad days. Sure I could go to counseling which cost money & my bank account is already strained but have a group to support you would be awesome. Enough of the sad stuff. I’m always so happy to see Eleanor & Buddy relaxing & being so content & happy with you. They’re so precious. Give them a hug for me. Sorry I always write so much. Have safe flights & a wonderful week! 👍✌️😊🐈⬛🐈🤗💚
Steven, those not in recovery need a support system of some kind for the healing you mentioned having toward your Mom. It could be a loving family, which could be friends instead of biological relations. Or, one might find that in a really super rap group. But, you are right in wondering if the rest of us have this trusted cadre of people with your welfare in mind. I certainly have spent my time alone in this respect many times. Ms Eleanor is so sweet. 😁❤️ Hernan
"forgiveness is letting go of the Hope that the past could be different"
I forgot to put in my ridiculous long comment to say how much all your videos help me feel better. You are awesome! Much love & respect to you! ✌️🥰💚
Know that you’re loved❤
Your emotional support Canadian here🇨🇦❤️. I too am trying so hard to stay away from all the craziness going on. Trying to find the blessings in life. Staying kind to all others. It’s tough. I’m so glad you can lean on your groups, allow the emotions to flow. Cuddle your kitties. They are the best therapy possible.
I'm thankful that your Grandmother was there for you Steven. Your mom didn't have the tools to love. I had to figure out that with my own father. He didn't have the tools to love. It was always selfishness with him. It was always what someone could do for him and not what he could do for someone else. He was always very hard on my mother. After he died my mother had to let it all go. It was very liberating for her.
Thank you for sharing your deep feelings. We are a family in the ethernet. We care about you, Eleanor and Buddy. We hurt when u hurt and take joy in your laugh. 😊. Take care. Sending a hug…❤️
Wow, this video really resonated with me. Here comes one of my long comments. My mother was not an alcoholic, but children just "happened" to her, and she lost her own mother when she was 7, her father was an alcoholic, so she basically raised herself much of the time and did not have any nurturing whatsoever. So kids were an annoyance to her, I was the first child, the only girl and she doted on her sons, and so I wasn't really nurtured either. Nobody said "I love you" in my house, nobody hugged, etc. TBH, I didn't have children purposely because I was afraid I would be the same kind of mother.
Fast forward to 2001, when it became clear to me that something was wrong cognitively with her, I moved back to see what was going on (turned out to be Alzheimer's). Somehow, this disease wiped out her personality and especially after she went to the nursing home, she became this really nice lady - loved hugs, kisses and holding hands, said "I love you" and that was a testament to the loving care she received in the nursing home. I was seeing a therapist by this time to deal with all of this and she said "what if you parented her the way you wished you were parented?" and this blew my mind. I morphed into someone who would hug, kiss, hold hands, say "I love you" to this very nice lady whose disease was progressing. Somehow, by the time she was in her final days and in a coma, I spoke to her for 3 days and nights about good memories I had, how wonderful the recent years had been, and ironically I was the only person with her when she took her last breath. When I walked out of the nursing home, I felt like that big hole I had always felt filled in and any resentment I continued to hold just left me. This was back in 2012, and I am a better person for the experience and as I've gotten older I have become more empathetic and willing to meet people where they are, just as I did with my mother. Okay story is done. I still have spicy moments, of course. Any sandwich on marbled rye is a good sandwich. Have a wonderful day!
Judy, that is so beautiful.. sad yes, but so beautiful. 🤗 xoxo
I’m so sorry this happened !
I can relate to an unhealthy mother, more than you know !
My story is full of trauma, abuse and pain .
I’m wishing you peace , health , serenity, healing and blessings !
Kat Nesbitt swears by Beam Dream powder for sleep
When you mentioned that it was 2019 when your Mother died I realized how long you've been a profound influence in my life ❤ You have a way of communicating your thoughts and life experiences and opinions into learning tools for me and many others here. The connection with your furbabies is exactly what I experience with mine too. I don't comment very often...sorry, but know that I'm glad you put yourself out there for others.
Fly safe ❤
Thank you love. You're very kind.
❤
So appreciate you Steven ! We are with you ! Totally can relate to mother dynamic ! Thank you for always posting and keeping us with you ! I just thought I would message you, really interested in your feedback on the most recent ,tragic air industry accidents
Steven, you make my days, sometimes. Today is one of them. I too am afraid of what is going to happen to this country with this madman in charge. I am 80 years old & I have been planning to retire in June this year. Now I don't know what I will do, especially after learning his plans for Medicare & Social Security. I have a little money put aside to make it till the end but it could be wiped out in a heartbeat if I have to be hospitalized. Looking forward, I might make it another 10 years if I don't get cancer again (3 time so far). I don't want to be institutionalized or become a burden to my children so I need to make my funds last; but I also need a different car... Blah, blah, blah (as a wise man says) Have a great day & I will to as I look forward to a bright future. Luv ya
I'm sorry honey. Nobody deserves to have those fears at this time in their lives.
Thank you for sharing your feelings. You are an amazing person. I don't understand how a person with no feelings becomes President. We are going backward in time. OMG. Anyway, have an amazing day! Safe travels. 2025. 👍🛫🛬
Steven, I'm really glad that Ben at your group meeting got through the rough place in your soul and into your heart. When I "feel" deceased people, particularly my parents, are somehow with me, I know that I am loved and that they are keeping watch over me. It makes me more at peace with life.
As you continue to let your resentment dissolve I think you'll find peace too.
As for the Cheeto man, I can only hope for the success of all these court challenges. I am also proud to be Canadian, with all our political leaders standing up to the grifter-in-chief.
Concentrate on the positive things in your life.
0:02 Those are cool specks !! But you know my fav is the black A-frame ones !!
You are always interesting!!
Yes for some reason our loved ones will come through...it's weird but happens ...nice lunch !!!
❤❤❤❤
I just five minutes ago., Checked to see if you had anything loaded up. I have my boring 1 Hour morning drive to philly airport. Your videos always make it so much better. Thanks Steven
I think we could all benefit from a home group, whether seeking sobriety or just dealing with life. America has been shattered by politics, news organizations, and general distrust of our fellow human beings. I think we all need a home group. ❤
Eleanore, is so precious! I used to have a cat that looked like her.
good message!!! needed to hear you this morning.
Thinking of you ❤
Thanks for sharing Steven . Time soothes our pain .😢
Hi Steven, it's me, Patti, and I just love your channel!!
Hello Steven this video really resonated with me as my Dad was an alcoholic my entire childhood and partial adulthood i lost my mom at 14 (her boyfriend killed her and sa’d me and beat me too) and just to give you a little background on our relationship i my dad never took me in but knew about it all and when i was placed in foster care he left me there for 5 yrs and only when my foster parents wanted to adopt me(they were amazing and loving foster parents btw) did he decide to get me move me in with his wretched sister who hated my mom and clearly me as she threw me out a year later But we never spoke about my childhood trama and he didnt help pay for my mom his wife funeral( it took me 4 yrs to finish paying for her funeral to get her ashes my dad told me i should leave them there and let her rest in peace 😳 after her death i sufferd more abuse from various relationships and my dad never helped me once i married and had my own kids i decided that as a kid I had no control over my life, but as an adult, I do so I made the decision to not have anything to do with him or essentially the rest of my family. They felt that I should just get over it, keeping in mind that my brother and sister were both drug addicts alcoholics, and any other craziness that you can think of they’ve done and my dad has always supported them. He told me the reason why I get the least support is because I am the most capable keep in mind. I’ve never drink smoke or done any kind of drugs in my life because I don’t wanna turn out like any of them and when my sister needed a kidney of course they came to me because I’m the only one with healthy organs when I said no three months before my wedding no one showed up to my wedding. The point of this long story is that when I chose to choose myself my peace and because I have a grandson now, and I do not want to pass on childhood trauma to him my life has been so much better by just literally letting go. I hope that you find peace in the letting go.💜
@LavenderAndFreckles ..That is so incredibly sad about your mom. I know what it's like to live with an awesome foster family!! 🥰 I wanted to stay with mine too! What's bizarre is that just like you.... my dad came and got me after they approached him about adoption too. I remember him coming over and hastily retrieving me (I was maybe 7) but as hard as I try.. I can't recall anything about the next few years. Total blackout.. I don't think about him anymore, but I do I still think about that family that were so amazing.. even though they're gone now. ~~~~BTW, Congratulations on your grandson----how SWEET!!! 🤗💙💕 I'll bet you're the best G-ma ever!! 👶 xoxo
You're amazing and deserve every moment of peace.
20:08 same I'm black queer and positive and im worried they gonna round me up and put me in some type of quarantine camp. I have a therapist so its been helping and Im just doing my best but your videos help
We are in a horrible time right now. Very scary. Just know YOU are loved by many!
I like your honesty. Memories around anniversary dates seem to circle around and want acknowledgement. It’s best to acknowledge and move forward. It’s a lot of smoke and mirrors with this administration trying to distract everyone while the grift goes on.
I have an eye surgeon who is trans. She saved my eye years ago after an injury. I’m concerned for her safety. Very skilled surgeon.
I hear you on the political front. I had to get off all social media...at 65 I no longer come with any filters and am more than happy to set individuals straight on the dire reality we are now facing. One small solace is that midterms are next year...hopefully people will learn to not let the 1% buy our elections and set our laws.
Wow.
I live in Philadelphia, PA😻
We are very similar. Ive really forgiven my mother and mourn the life that she couldn't have but was force to have as a blk woman. It doesnt hurt any less but the pain and longing has really disappeared. My mom is still with us and i know ill never get that apology and im ok. Ive made my peace we are no contact. Also you get it from therapy and psychiatry and honestly my Buddhist practice. I think you would enjoy SGI Buddhism
Another good video.. I hope you are feeling better..
Omg of course I am aligned with you politically. You are the antithesis to the current 'situation'. ❤
I am a naturalized citizen and I am very worried that I will be deported. I just retired. I wouldn't e deported to a scary country but I would like to leave on my terms and when I am ready.
And his supporters don't even have a clue as to why we are so worried.
18:43 i really hope to do lunch with you in Philly soon
I empathize with you!
Personally, I had a toxic relationship with my father who passed in 2018. So many unfinished arguments + don’t speak with my mother -(typical Boston mother = crazy 😂).
Then what the incumbent administration is doing- the stress is unbearable. Sad times for our country. Shows how truly fragile democracy is.
You know, some people call it karma, some people call it God, some people call it soul. But I firmly believe ALL of us, even evil glitches of our society like Musk and Bolsonaro and Trump and and and, at some point feel what they are actually worth, what they are actually doing to their world. And I’m not saying your mum belonged in that category, but I bet my life that your mother did feel somewhere deep down that she wasn’t being a good mum to you. Probably she lacked tools and/or vocabulary to express it, even to herself.
Even though he’s not our president, most people I know are equally blocking out the vomit inducing executive orders the Lead Ape is destroying civilisation as we know it with. And I wish with all my heart that that helps, which it doesn’t, of course.
It amazes me to no end what you share online. I hope you’re aware of that, and also that you’ll be capable of drawing the line you need whenever you need it. Until then: thank you, good soul Steven. You are an inspiration to countless people in countless ways. Thank you.
Is the back seat in your car always down?
When it's so full of crap, yes. LOL!
Did you go to GINOS for a Cheesesteak Sandwich?
Nope! I'm going to hibernate.
I know you don’t believe but you can communicate with your parents and she did put her hand on your shoulder. Just say she was sorry that was not your imagination that was her
Your mother never told you that she was sorry but chances are she was sorry! I’m sorry that she couldn’t bring herself to tell you! I feel the same way about these times! I can’t believe our country elected him as our president again! I can’t even watch the news because I don’t want to hear anything about orange man! It makes me sick to my stomach that he is our president!
I look at it this way, our Lord above knows and sees all that is happening; He will take care and provide for us. I know how you feel. Just keep trusting and believing. It doesn’t seem real but it’ll all be all right. 🙏🏻❤️
Guess you decided to take off the rant video???
Probably best to avoid talking about politics indeed, at least until your life and identity are directly at stake. Unless it doesn't bother you too much to read opposite or even contrarian opinions. But life is hard and full enough as it is, one can't always have the energy to debate online. Plus it's always better to debate IRL, in person.
Completely off-topic, and a bit personal (you don't have to answer), but have you ever thought of coparenting? Just based on your caring nature, you give off nurturing and dad vibes.
I like that Steven shares his political views with us. I've only seen one person (recently) on here who told him she was all for the orange idiot.. so unless there are some closet magats, that's not too bad.
@ I am not American but based on my observations, it's very likely Republicans (and people who voted for Trump) watch Steven's channel as they are the majority of voters this time and they now tend to watch a more diverse array of people than the Democrats ironically.