I uploaded a second video for the people who couldn't watch the first upload i did (put some music in the background because it creeped me out when it was fully quiet)❤
I’m not sure if I have a binge eating disorder. I’m sad? I eat. I’m depressed? I eat. I eat to cheer myself up and stuff like that. I keep trying to stop eating so much but I just can’t. I eat way to much at once. It’s not healthy.. 🙃
TW- mentions of fainting due to lack of eating. This morning I was getting ready til I felt it. The world was spinning the sound of screeching static Tv played. I felt sick to the stomach even though I have barely ate anything this past week. I liget tired to sit on the tub but I fell on to the floor. I just sat there - the ringing continued as I still felt sick. It took me a while but I evan out my breath and got up. No one could tell that I nearly fainted. As if nothing happened.
I'm an adult relapsing. I gained 50lbs in two years of normal eating. And I mean like very normal no bingeing not any absurd amounts of unhealthy foods. My doctor says everything is normal. But to tell the truth being a very short girl my I look so bulky...my weight is normal for someone much taller than me. I had to have body photos taken for a posture assessment a few weeks ago and my Ed hit me like a truck when I saw them. (I never take photos of my body) and here I am, mid university relapsing. It's crazy.
If I didn’t have to or wasn’t forced I would relapse so hard that I would be lower than my goal weight and I would hopefully die from starvation and I would do my eating problems better and actually look sick. I don’t want to be fat anymore stupid treatment stupid parents I’m done with eating I’m so obese.
I’ve been skipping breakfast and lunch during the week, my energy is basically gone during the day but my parents force me to eat dinner with them even when I’m not hungry…
I honestly relate to the doing it for attention my mom said that i was only doing it for attention and both my parents threatened that they would take away everything I have because I “won’t listen to them and eat food so they won’t listen to me”, like everyday they threaten to stop me from attending school and attending my extracurricular classes, and it makes me feel like shit
⚠️TW⚠️ Idk if I have a eating disorder or not but ever since I started getting bullied I just felt wrong yk? And Idk if if counts as bullying if it's true because I even have a piece of paper saying I'm overweight too. And I try to throw up after eating just a little bit of food if it was an eating disorder it would be bulimia (it won't be anorexia I'm not underweight)
idk what it is but i dont starve myself but i dont eat ENOUGH everyday..like i can eat a snack and dinner and i still feel too overweight. im only 103 lbs and im 14 idk if thats healthy or not but i feel like once i get to 90lb ill finally be happy and comfortable with my body again.
“Watching videos of people trying to get skinny… meanwhile I’m trying to gain some weight … “ -today “A younger girl told yelling at me that she got something stuck in her throat then she got it out… meanwhile she hasn’t known what I’ve been through.. ( separate parents, almost drowning, insure, bullied,yelled at,drama, blame at, staying up all night,unhealthy,”never good enough.) Yes these are all things I’ve been through and I’m better now 😊❤ Thank you for living today ❤
i hate when i get jealous bc it makes me lose my appetite, makes me wanna exercise more till i pass out, make me relapse like sh or alcohol and stay up all night and cry or exercise
3:04 and 4:35 made me cry and it felt like it hit home so bad my mom fr also told me im doing it for attention and at this point i just question so much like what if im faking im not sick enough im pretty mentally stable - im fine ppl tell me im skinny but i dont see it, at times i look back a my heaviest weight and i think abt how i enjoyed food for food and didnt look at calories or at what time i ate it- sometime i wish i was back there until i remember what i was told- and in my head im still the same girl but now i jus cant bring myself to enjoy food or the moment like i used to the best bit is that im gaslight and guilt trip and still heavily commented with my food and eating being told i eat to much or i dont eat enough, im never enough for them and it feels like i never will be and it feels like il never recover and if i try to ignore the calories i have overwhelming guilt and if i cant purge i want to die and if i cant weigh myself and think ive gained weight i feel like a failure and if i gain i dont deserve food for the next day and i cant be bloated or when i grab a plate the overwhelming embarrassment and ppl might think i deserve food or im too big to be eating idk y im ranting so much but it feels better then taking to my friends or family abt it so better for s random stranger to read it than them ig..
0:34 you know whats weird? i have had this conversation with almost all my friends, tho i dont have many, but not once did they think it was concerning in any way, not once did they care, theyd just move on with their other conversation. i know its not their job to look after every move of mine, but it just feels bad when the only few ppl who youre close too and care about dont care about you.
I dont know whats wrong with me honestly ill binge and then i wont eat for days just to repeat it and i workout to the point im dizzy idk what to do when i think about wanting to eat or not eat i just cry
0:39 this is so real. I just want to get help but im too afraid to ask because im scared of everything. I entirely rely on body language and i want to just pass out during school so people will just notice.
Anyone reading you are beautiful and make this world way better, there is so much to life, it’s not worth missing out on, you are so much more than your ed
I think I might have an eating disorder cause like I only ever eat half portions of food and no matter how hungry I am if I’m able to I won’t eat and I starve myself when I can and I’m obsessed with the idea of being “ skinnier “ even tho I’m already under weight for my age
I think I might have anorexia. I skip meals whenever I can. I do 100 sit ups every morning and night and count my cals, obsessing over them. Do I show signs?
@@inMyVillainArc69 I'M SORRY I THOUGHT I RESPONDED!! But i had math, English and geography and some others. Have you gotten the results from the tests yet?
i really hope to get support from anyone. i just need someone to tell me im valid. someone to tell me to speak with my therapist about this. someone that cares. im 2 kilos above underweight. i always fluctuate, sometimes i feel good again to eat but the thoughts always stay. every time i get my period i feel like i failed. because i know i ate too much. im not underweight. so im not anorexic. but the thought have been in my mind since july last year. sometimes the starving leaves for binges or for a few weeks, but then comes back. i just want someone to validate me and give me brave words. i just cant support myself to tell my therapist. im scare of the consequences...
@Thistooshallpass-ny5kl I am so sorry that seems like a lot to deal with l I know loosing a pet can be very hard, poor baby birds having a ed can be very challenging and rough but I wish you luck to over come it nobody's body is perfect but I'm sure nobody's gonna judge you they are probably busy dealing with their own insecurities I don't think ppl should be judged by their body, society is cruel I wish you the best in life
Being fat is what I want, or at least being normal, because you have to eat and eat and eat and eat and eat for just one pound and oh now your arms look ugly great , wtf is with ppl wanting to be a stick I wanna be normal. But I’m not even that
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I uploaded a second video for the people who couldn't watch the first upload i did (put some music in the background because it creeped me out when it was fully quiet)❤
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@BILLIEMYHEART are you okay? I’ve seen you commenting on a lot of vent videos. ❤
She ain't good
I was healing from an ED and my friend said "your really going to eat all that". I literally only ate two cookies :(
That’s fucking shitty:/ I’m so sorry mate/gen
Eating
I’m not sure if I have a binge eating disorder. I’m sad? I eat. I’m depressed? I eat. I eat to cheer myself up and stuff like that. I keep trying to stop eating so much but I just can’t. I eat way to much at once. It’s not healthy.. 🙃
oh? i do that to! :D
I def can't diagnose you but that sounds like BED to me
I do that to and I also don't know if it's an eating disorder or not so please someone tell me
TW- mentions of fainting due to lack of eating.
This morning I was getting ready til I felt it. The world was spinning the sound of screeching static Tv played. I felt sick to the stomach even though I have barely ate anything this past week. I liget tired to sit on the tub but I fell on to the floor. I just sat there - the ringing continued as I still felt sick. It took me a while but I evan out my breath and got up. No one could tell that I nearly fainted. As if nothing happened.
i was never good enough... sitting in the bathtoom crying all by myself nobody even notices im gone
I'm an adult relapsing. I gained 50lbs in two years of normal eating. And I mean like very normal no bingeing not any absurd amounts of unhealthy foods. My doctor says everything is normal. But to tell the truth being a very short girl my I look so bulky...my weight is normal for someone much taller than me. I had to have body photos taken for a posture assessment a few weeks ago and my Ed hit me like a truck when I saw them. (I never take photos of my body) and here I am, mid university relapsing. It's crazy.
If I didn’t have to or wasn’t forced I would relapse so hard that I would be lower than my goal weight and I would hopefully die from starvation and I would do my eating problems better and actually look sick. I don’t want to be fat anymore stupid treatment stupid parents I’m done with eating I’m so obese.
I understand you soo well, after i came out of hospitalization i came out heavier then before i had an ed
I’ve been skipping breakfast and lunch during the week, my energy is basically gone during the day but my parents force me to eat dinner with them even when I’m not hungry…
Hey just for a recommendation can you please do vents about "never good enough" or something like that
Sure, I can do that
@@Lacolets thank you
I honestly relate to the doing it for attention my mom said that i was only doing it for attention and both my parents threatened that they would take away everything I have because I “won’t listen to them and eat food so they won’t listen to me”, like everyday they threaten to stop me from attending school and attending my extracurricular classes, and it makes me feel like shit
⚠️TW⚠️
Idk if I have a eating disorder or not but ever since I started getting bullied I just felt wrong yk? And Idk if if counts as bullying if it's true because I even have a piece of paper saying I'm overweight too. And I try to throw up after eating just a little bit of food if it was an eating disorder it would be bulimia (it won't be anorexia I'm not underweight)
idk what it is but i dont starve myself but i dont eat ENOUGH everyday..like i can eat a snack and dinner and i still feel too overweight. im only 103 lbs and im 14 idk if thats healthy or not but i feel like once i get to 90lb ill finally be happy and comfortable with my body again.
im 12 and 106 so i idk if im healthy or you are
I'm 11 and 98 pounds
“Watching videos of people trying to get skinny… meanwhile I’m trying to gain some weight … “ -today
“A younger girl told yelling at me that she got something stuck in her throat then she got it out… meanwhile she hasn’t known what I’ve been through.. ( separate parents, almost drowning, insure, bullied,yelled at,drama, blame at, staying up all night,unhealthy,”never good enough.)
Yes these are all things I’ve been through and I’m better now 😊❤
Thank you for living today ❤
i hate when i get jealous bc it makes me lose my appetite, makes me wanna exercise more till i pass out, make me relapse like sh or alcohol and stay up all night and cry or exercise
3:04 and 4:35 made me cry and it felt like it hit home so bad
my mom fr also told me im doing it for attention and at this point i just question so much
like what if im faking
im not sick enough
im pretty mentally stable - im fine
ppl tell me im skinny but i dont see it, at times i look back a my heaviest weight and i think abt how i enjoyed food for food and didnt look at calories or at what time i ate it- sometime i wish i was back there until i remember what i was told- and in my head im still the same girl but now i jus cant bring myself to enjoy food or the moment like i used to
the best bit is that im gaslight and guilt trip and still heavily commented with my food and eating being told i eat to much or i dont eat enough, im never enough for them and it feels like i never will be and it feels like il never recover and if i try to ignore the calories i have overwhelming guilt and if i cant purge i want to die and if i cant weigh myself and think ive gained weight i feel like a failure and if i gain i dont deserve food for the next day and i cant be bloated or when i grab a plate the overwhelming embarrassment and ppl might think i deserve food or im too big to be eating
idk y im ranting so much but it feels better then taking to my friends or family abt it so better for s random stranger to read it than them ig..
My mom also thinks I am doing for attention like why tf would I starve for attention🫠🫠
@@SwitchaccountsLol thank you it just doesnt make any fking sense 🔪
@@-_....-stars-...._- just know that I will be here for you feel free to vent♥♥♥♥
@@SwitchaccountsLol thank you
@@SwitchaccountsLol same for you
0:34 you know whats weird? i have had this conversation with almost all my friends, tho i dont have many, but not once did they think it was concerning in any way, not once did they care, theyd just move on with their other conversation. i know its not their job to look after every move of mine, but it just feels bad when the only few ppl who youre close too and care about dont care about you.
I dont know whats wrong with me honestly ill binge and then i wont eat for days just to repeat it and i workout to the point im dizzy idk what to do when i think about wanting to eat or not eat i just cry
its so hard when you know youve ate a reqgular sized meal and tomorrow when you look in the mirror youll look differnt then today
0:39 this is so real. I just want to get help but im too afraid to ask because im scared of everything. I entirely rely on body language and i want to just pass out during school so people will just notice.
Anyone reading you are beautiful and make this world way better, there is so much to life, it’s not worth missing out on, you are so much more than your ed
I think I might have an eating disorder cause like I only ever eat half portions of food and no matter how hungry I am if I’m able to I won’t eat and I starve myself when I can and I’m obsessed with the idea of being “ skinnier “ even tho I’m already under weight for my age
these two girls know i struggle with eating, but today at theatre somebody said i looked tired and then they YELLED out how i didnt ever eat
Friend: Why aren’t you eating?
Me: Oh I had an Almond before I got here
Friend: what the fu-
0:41 why is this so real.
I think I might have anorexia. I skip meals whenever I can. I do 100 sit ups every morning and night and count my cals, obsessing over them. Do I show signs?
@Lacolet, how are you doing my dear? I‘ve missed you already ❤
I'm doing fine mate, how about you?❤️
@@Lacolets really stressed because of school… we‘re in an exam phase right now
:( and you?
@@inMyVillainArc69 we are also doing a lot of exams at the moment. What exams do you have?
@@Lacolets geography, english, literally all subjects 😩😩😩 and you?
@@inMyVillainArc69 I'M SORRY I THOUGHT I RESPONDED!! But i had math, English and geography and some others. Have you gotten the results from the tests yet?
bruh got hungry just by watching this but im too afraid to eat 😶
That. one. classmate. 🤬
No bc the 1st one was so real
I don’t have an ed but my nan said ‘yeah she eats more’
and I wanted more if smthn once and she said ‘another one?’
She is nice and I love her but yk
i really hope to get support from anyone. i just need someone to tell me im valid. someone to tell me to speak with my therapist about this. someone that cares. im 2 kilos above underweight. i always fluctuate, sometimes i feel good again to eat but the thoughts always stay. every time i get my period i feel like i failed. because i know i ate too much. im not underweight. so im not anorexic. but the thought have been in my mind since july last year. sometimes the starving leaves for binges or for a few weeks, but then comes back.
i just want someone to validate me and give me brave words. i just cant support myself to tell my therapist. im scare of the consequences...
Wath is the name off the song att the Star
Does anyone know the first song
Y'all someone tell me if anyone opens up to me abt their ed then how do I react?
how are you
Ummm well not good
@@stingray-gm1wk I'm sorry do you want to talk about it
@Thistooshallpass-ny5kl are you okay?
@Thistooshallpass-ny5kl im sorry
do you wanna talk about it?
@Thistooshallpass-ny5kl I am so sorry that seems like a lot to deal with l
I know loosing a pet can be very hard, poor baby birds
having a ed can be very challenging and rough but I wish you luck to over come it
nobody's body is perfect but I'm sure nobody's gonna judge you they are probably busy dealing with their own insecurities
I don't think ppl should be judged by their body, society is cruel
I wish you the best in life
Being fat is what I want, or at least being normal, because you have to eat and eat and eat and eat and eat for just one pound and oh now your arms look ugly great , wtf is with ppl wanting to be a stick I wanna be normal. But I’m not even that