I absolutely LOVE that when he asked "When you look at yourself, what do you see?" she started answering about who she is as a person, not how she looks physically. That's actually really big for someone with an ED. For real. And it's really hard to say nice things, the way she initially did, I really hope she started recovery and is doing well because she seems like such a wonderful person and is worthy of happiness and living a life not controlled by those inner thoughts.
I have Anorexia and I am still in recovery. I will always be in recovery. I am 55 years old now, even though, you can't tell I still have to force myself to eat at times. I still have a very poor body image. God bless you and may The Lord help you in your journey.
@@lillywelish3241 Thank you, God bless you as well. I only have Anorexia and not bulimia. I am in recovery from anorexia. I did try to eat and make myself throw up. It made me feel worse about myself. I would exercise for about 3 hours a day and go for about 3 days without eating anything. I was hospitalized due to dehydration and being malnourished. That was over 30 years ago. I am much better now than I was then. I still have tendencies to revert to my old behaviors especially when I am under alot of stress. I have a myriad of health issues including Diabetes. Some of my health issues are from depriving myself the proper nutrients. I also have OCD and Anxiety as well as Anorexia as well other medical issues. I was extremely bullied I believe my Anorexia gave me a sense of Identity and belonging.
@@elizabethschreffler9182 I can relate with you SO much. I started with my disorder (anorexia) when I was 12. I am 49 and still have to fight the pull it still has on me. Good luck and good health.💜🌸
My absolute favorite quote about eating disorders calls back to the all-or-nothing thinking and difficulty of moderation (and addiction- it’s not a commentary about DIFFICULTY of recovery, just the differences that exist within two things that have a lot of similarities): “With addiction, you’re figuring out how to put the tiger in a cage. With eating disorders, you have to figure out how to take the tiger for a walk three times a day.”
I’m in this boat too. On my 11th year of anorexia, just turned 19. She summed it up completely- anorexia is often about feeling undeserving, unacceptable etc. It can get better. You have to uncover your negative core beliefs and refute them. Forgive yourself for anything you did to hurt yourself. I feel so blessed that my compulsive symptoms have improved drastically. I can live kinda normally. It’s good that she has a support system. It’s really helpful in recovery. Hope she is well
@@godislove7500 I respect your faith, but you can't tell people that praying will cure their disorders. People who deal with mental or physical health issues need treatment. You and anyone else is welcome to pray as well, but it isn't a substitute for medical help. Decades of studies have proven modern medicine effective for most. I wish you well.
Wow. You just gave me an a-ha moment. I have binge eating disorder and thought I was just a sugar and salt addict but I realized I think to myself without realizing, "you don't deserve to be healthy and feel good about yourself". I have extremely low self esteem and self- worth. It manifested as binge eating and alcoholism. Self- sabotage. Every compliment us " they are saying that because they are my mother/ sister/ husband" etc
@@davidarmstrong7628 You are so so wrong. A person’s health is NOT determined by how attractive you find them. Please read about anorexia: look at WebMD or testimonials about people who can explain in their own words just how devastating it is to have.
@@davidarmstrong7628 Commenting like this you might well supporting her unhealthy voice. Please don’t comment the body shape or size of those who have an eating disorder. You can't fix them with those comments, instead learn how those comments make things worse. You can comment her personality and who she is. That way you dont feed the anorexia voice. And thats what she also commented in her video. She gave great advice!
I actually really appreciated the "What is counterproductive to say?" Moment. Someone really close to me had anorexia and it was really tough to learn "You look healthy" translated to "You look fat" to them.
She has amazing insight into all of her disorders. I pray for her to have a lifetime recovery. Anxiety disorders and eating disorders definitely carry each other along. I've been a bulimic for 37 years my entire life basically. It's so good to hear Rachael speak so eloquently and acceptingly. There's always hope for recovery!!
I had anorexia for 5 years and a few months ago I finally got free from hospital because I am recovered. She explained everything, honestly, so good and it is a delight to have people that shows the world how it trutly is. Also she is a light in this world. ♡♡
I struggled with a severe eating disorder about a decade ago. The most painful thing to hear was "Why don't you just eat?" I had a medical doctor once ask me in the Emergency Room "Have you tried just eating?" That stings to this day. People clearly do not understand neurobiology, but I would expect a doctor to do so. I did not struggle with dysmorphia, but I do still struggle with dysregulation from C-PTSD, and when my anxiety is bad, I see myself calorie limiting. I really push myself to eat though and to not take my anxiety out on myself. I still fixate about food though and about my nutrition. I think about it a lot, and I fixate on making sure others eat. I love how you described the little voice of anorexia. Awesome interview. I really appreciate your sharing.
I dealt with anorexia and bulimia for 6 years throughout in my teens and have so much compassion for anyone who struggles with this. I've fully recovered from e.d's and am hopeful that everyone who struggles with them fully recovers too.
I had a severe dangerous deadly case of Anorexia for 13 straight years. Just celebrated my 10 year RECOVERY anniversary. You are worth recovery. You got this! I recover from Anorexia with no treatment.
@@davidarmstrong7628 I don't think you understood what was explained in the video. But I get it, she looks very pretty and can speak very articulate. But that's not the issue here.
She's gorgeous! And I mean this in all the best ways that have NOTHING to do with her weight! Her smile, her dimples, her beautiful personality! Hope she's recovered and doing well!
I thank you for being so frank and open. At 46, I still fight with this but I am working on myself and changing the generational trauma that caused it so my children will hopefully see themselves better.
I hope she is doing okay still. I absolutely love how sweet and open she is in this. I myself have an ED (but bulimic) and I can relate in a lot of ways with her pain.
Rachel, you are a pure delight! I appreciate how brave you are . Know that you are an inspiration to so many people who are struggling g with anorexia., and you courage is so empowering ! Thank you for sharing yourself with us, you are a true heroine! Bless your heart!
I had anorexia starting in middle school and high school, and then it turned to bulimia, which I’ve had ever since. It’s been over half of my life now that I’ve struggled with eating disorders. Thank you so much for highlighting this!!
My best friend has anorexia, and it's so hard for me to watch them struggle. This video really helped me to understand a little more how their brain works, and how to talk to them about it and help them. I hope Rachel is getting better.
I've suffered with anorexia over the years and after a long journey trying to change my mindset, I've finally become comfortable in my body again. When people ask about my experiences I never know how to explain what anorexia is from my perspective. I'll recommend this video from now on.
Im so proud of you for getting this far! I relate a lot to the idea of being self aware but also losing control in the moment. So hearing you talk about it really helps me see how far I've come too :) thank you!
Thank you for sharing your story. You seem like such an insightful and compassionate person (literally typed that before you said thats how you want people to see you so you're doing great with that!). I would like to thank you for talking about the control / security factors / the interaction of your OCD. I think so many of us were taught that its just a body image thing. But it's so much more than that. I hope all the comments here can help you feel just the tiny bit more secure that you are totally deserving of love, and so lovely in your dedication to being open with others.
Many young adults are struggling with eating disorder now, especially during the pandemic. This is the best dive into the mind of this amazing young lady.
I can never predict the impact these sort of videos leave until I watch them. I have never struggled with anorexia, and even though I consider myself lucky in that way, I can resonate with her advice about reaching out for help. Sometimes you just find the right thing at the right time. I hope Rachel is doing well
Those big brown eyes ! Smart young lady with a kind personality there. I can see her 🔮as a veterinarian or a teacher for kids, bc she’s got a big heart….I wish her the best in life, & see a survivor here……
She's so cute and her voice is so nice! :D Btw I can't stop being amazed by the questions that are being asked to all those people. So well thought through, sensitive, straightforward, just so... Perfect. Absolutely love all the episodes and interviews ❤️
This really makes me so sad.God bless this sweet lady and please Lord let her know she’s worthy of a healthy happy life and please heal her body and mind🙏🙏🙏
I struggle with it too. I have been in recovery for 15 years. When I feel fat, I feel disgusted that I can no longer control my food. It's not easy. But it's getting easier. I still don't discuss my weight though. It's taking effort. I love that she addresses the control issue. It was a way to have control over something in my life. ( Because I don't have control )
This is very good to know what this is because I am subscribed to a lady that has this illness and she is awesome and trying her best to get threw life
She’s so pretty and sweet inside God Bless her and heal her!Please let her get well and healthy with her nutrition;relieve her anxiety and stress about food.Please ease her mind Lord and give her PEACE!
Thank you for sharing this with us. It helps my recovery process to know that I'm not alone. I'm in my 40s and just learned that I've been battling an eating disorder all my life. Since it's not anorexia, I think it was more difficult to figure it out as I was never hospitalized for my eating disorder. For me, it's not "If I eat, I'll get fat", it's "I'm not allowed to eat" and "If I was thin, nobody would talk to me about my appearance because I'd be like everybody else, therefore I would physically disappear and it would be a bliss". It's very subtle because I want to be acknowledged without being seen. Being connected to my body is a major challenge and my eating disorder can give me physical symptoms to prevent me from eating (nausea, panic attacks, gagging). It's a process, but I'll get through it. Anyway, maybe this will help other people understand that they might have an eating disorder too and seek help. That's what I'm doing right now and it's really hard, but I believe in the process. Thank you for creating this safe space to share.
Thank-you, Rachel, for being so brave to share to us what it is like to be anorexic. I feel that there is so many misconceptions and people respond to loved ones with anorexia out of fear saying things like, "Eat more!" You also felt relatable to my own personal struggles (I tend to have very black and white thinking and a very rigid and inflexible approach to living). Now I know how better to talk to someone with an eating disorder that isn't off putting and recognizes the personal battle in their head. And I also want treat them like a "sick" person or like I "pity" them, but that I value them.
You are not only smart and beautiful, but you have a personality that I love. I know you are a strong person and I feel in my heart you will overcome anything that you are struggling with.
Very articulate, just one aspect of you that's greater than the topic on hand today. We see your compassion and your want to help others ...we can see you are so much more than the voice in your head. Look at how great a reward your dog is and if you want something that will be a reward X 1000000. Your disease can harm or take away your ability for a family and you need to be able to sustain yourself through pregnancy and providing adequate food and nutrition for the baby growing(organs will increase in size due to the demands of the baby so more sustainance needed), that being said, you have plenty of time to get there. Once the baby is born, it takes much more that the ability to run or look a certain way ...it takes physical strength, initially the baby will be plastered to either you or your partner a lot of the time, having some healthy fat to provide cushioning is more ideal than a toned surface. You can do it, you realise what the voice is trying to do, you realise that it is being negative even when there is a gap in a song. Your best friend and comfort is actually your nemesis and as a warrior you are fighting it every day. It's good to realise that your OCD is only limited to measurements and actions you can control or are available ....in reality 0.2 grams difference is a massive amount in terms of the cosmic scale. What I'm trying to state,that may help you, is that you have been living,thinking you're controlling everything when in actually... Youve been as controlling as throwing a ball at a target after being blindfolded and spinning around with no frame of reference... This comment may help you realise what specifics you already have no choice but to let go, which means letting go further should mean less ... Your goal is to be healthy .....and being ill (a weakened immune force) (less fuel to battle a virus for instance) or close to death (where you need a hospital, I don't need a hospital for living and I'm sure you could run further than me) and with no muscle or healthy fat mass is not healthy. All in all...you are much more than this battle you're fighting and it will not stop you from getting what you want in life X
I stuggled with anorexia as well, yup, you read it right, STRUGGLED, in THE PAST. RECOVERY. IS. POSSIBLE. Just keep fighting, I know it is the f*cking hardest thing in the world but I swear recovery is worth it. You deserve to live a happy life, you deserve to heal, YOU ARE A WARRIOR.
I feel bad that she probably cannot enjoy food now. I hope she develops a normal relationship with food, eats mindfully, and enjoys it. I know there is so many things more important than enjoying food, but that part hurts me.
😊😊 I would love to do a interview on this channel😊😊 I had a dangerous severe case of Anorexia for 13 years straight. I ended up fighting for my life for one month in the hospital in 2012. One December 5th 2022, I celebrated my TEN recovery Anorexia anniversary. It was not easy, however it was worth it..
Girl, you need to be around to inspire the next generation, Tell that to your anorexia please? Talk to her, let her know that you actually know that she wants what She thinks is the best for you... But You should invest in being healthier and more fufilled... Hold hands with it and find a solution with her, see what your anorexia actually needs ( why she actually does what she does), negociate, and please... Stay healthy and around so YOU CAN INSPIRE OTHERS. You seem really amazying! keep up, Amazying progress!
ED roads are painful roads to walk and stumble and struggle upon... so much energy and time and life is lost to ED, she is brave to have made it thus far, not all do
still love this video we need to talk about this lonely disorder more, we have the highest mortality rate & it’s currently rising in the USA as i write this .. thank you for spreading awareness, especially this woman she’s so incredibly brave to speak about this 🙏🏼
Unfortunately, I relate to her with regards to the struggle to find treatment that feels safe, meaning supportive and encouraging so that challenge meets skills. My experience is the higher levels of care treatment system follows a cookie cutter track and it’s all-or-nothing. I’ve been trying to engage a holistic community-based OT / sensiormotor / somatic / mind-body / creative approach for 6+ years. OT for adult MH seems grossly underutilized! Hold on girl!
Pray to God, "God please save me!!" Pray every day, He is always with you. You can talk to Him about anything and ask Him anything in Jesus' name. Do daily bible reading out loud, it's so healing. Look up healing scriptures online or read any of the bible out loud, it's all good to read. I believe you will overcome the battles you face each day. God is strengthening you, He loves you so much.
My life is consumed by food thoughts too. But I'm not too thin or too thick, I just look normal so whenever I ask for help, because it's so tiring living with these thoughts, people just look at me thinking I'm searching for attention, which isn't the case at all. However, when I wake up, the first battle for me is not having breakfast and making an appointment with myself which time I'm aloud to eat. People see me and assume everything is okay, but it's not... I've learned to pretend tho. You telling your story, actually helps me a lot. So thank you, honestly thank you both.
This Is the very first time I find this video and I'm so Happy. I have chronique anorexia too and anxiety, and with therapy I'm pretty much better... that voice in my head is still there XD, but Now I can recognize if my acts or thoughts are a product of ANA (that's how I refer to anorexia). But ANA IS more than no eating. I used to enjoy pain, darkness... I think that I tried to being suicide but so slowly and enjoy It... It's so difficult to explain It clearly, so sorry. But I'm so proud of your work and how you expose our beautiful souls. Thanks from Spain
I accomplished so much before this illness destroyed everything and you can never make up the losses. But to live in a state of regret is not a way to live so what? I WANT TO SCREAM "IS THERE ANYONE OUT THERE WHO CAN HELP ME BEAT THIS THING?"
OMG she's so beautiful. I'm happy she's recovering. I think I might have a tendency for an eating disorder but I don't know yet... Sometimes I think I'm creating this thing in my mind about food. That's why I don't open up to anyone. My mom is making me eat a snack every afternoon and I feel I'm gaining weight because of that and I feel bad about it. There are other restrictions I'm doing. I don't know why I'm saying this here but okay bye.
I’ve lived with eating disorder for around 10 years now, I’m 18, I have never been underweight and for the most time I’ve actually been overweight, my bloods have never been bad either and because of that every time I’ve asked for help I’ve been dismissed, when I told them the problems (it has been restricting and compensating) I’ve been told by medical professionals that “well, you are losing weight so that’s good!” And meal plans I’ve gotten has been more of a diet since “I need to lose weight anyways”. Because of this I sadly have a very warped way of what’s normal, healthy, and not dieting or even starving because from a young young age I was told dieting was good for me by medical health professionals
I absolutely LOVE that when he asked "When you look at yourself, what do you see?" she started answering about who she is as a person, not how she looks physically. That's actually really big for someone with an ED. For real. And it's really hard to say nice things, the way she initially did, I really hope she started recovery and is doing well because she seems like such a wonderful person and is worthy of happiness and living a life not controlled by those inner thoughts.
I have Anorexia and I am still in recovery. I will always be in recovery. I am 55 years old now, even though, you can't tell I still have to force myself to eat at times. I still have a very poor body image. God bless you and may The Lord help you in your journey.
@@lillywelish3241 Thank you, God bless you as well. I only have Anorexia and not bulimia. I am in recovery from anorexia. I did try to eat and make myself throw up. It made me feel worse about myself. I would exercise for about 3 hours a day and go for about 3 days without eating anything. I was hospitalized due to dehydration and being malnourished. That was over 30 years ago. I am much better now than I was then. I still have tendencies to revert to my old behaviors especially when I am under alot of stress. I have a myriad of health issues including Diabetes. Some of my health issues are from depriving myself the proper nutrients. I also have OCD and Anxiety as well as Anorexia as well other medical issues. I was extremely bullied I believe my Anorexia gave me a sense of Identity and belonging.
All the best in your recovery. 😇🤗
Pray to God, "God please save me!!" Pray every day, He is always with you. You can talk to Him about anything.
@@elizabethschreffler9182 I can relate with you SO much. I started with my disorder (anorexia) when I was 12. I am 49 and still have to fight the pull it still has on me. Good luck and good health.💜🌸
@@stephanieann8115 Thank you. I have been anorexic since I was 12 as well. I have to work on getting better every day. I take it one day at a time.
My absolute favorite quote about eating disorders calls back to the all-or-nothing thinking and difficulty of moderation (and addiction- it’s not a commentary about DIFFICULTY of recovery, just the differences that exist within two things that have a lot of similarities): “With addiction, you’re figuring out how to put the tiger in a cage. With eating disorders, you have to figure out how to take the tiger for a walk three times a day.”
Well said!
I’m in this boat too. On my 11th year of anorexia, just turned 19. She summed it up completely- anorexia is often about feeling undeserving, unacceptable etc. It can get better. You have to uncover your negative core beliefs and refute them. Forgive yourself for anything you did to hurt yourself. I feel so blessed that my compulsive symptoms have improved drastically. I can live kinda normally. It’s good that she has a support system. It’s really helpful in recovery. Hope she is well
Pray to God, "God please save me!!" Pray every day, He is always with you.
@@godislove7500 thats not it
@@godislove7500 I respect your faith, but you can't tell people that praying will cure their disorders. People who deal with mental or physical health issues need treatment. You and anyone else is welcome to pray as well, but it isn't a substitute for medical help. Decades of studies have proven modern medicine effective for most. I wish you well.
Amy tips on how to discover what your negative core beliefs are?
I don’t think I stand a chance against ED until i understand where it stems from…
Wow. You just gave me an a-ha moment. I have binge eating disorder and thought I was just a sugar and salt addict but I realized I think to myself without realizing, "you don't deserve to be healthy and feel good about yourself". I have extremely low self esteem and self- worth. It manifested as binge eating and alcoholism. Self- sabotage. Every compliment us " they are saying that because they are my mother/ sister/ husband" etc
Rachel seems to have such a bright, intelligent air about her. She's so self aware which is amazing I really hope you get well!
She is "fine" as-is. She is perfect!
@@davidarmstrong7628 Of course she's perfect in terms of who she is, but her disorder is causing her pain and therefore needs to be treated
Many times it’s the people that are self aware” as me as well about my mental illness,generally have a better outcome, than those that do not.
@@davidarmstrong7628 ? Perfect? Nobody is mate.
@@davidarmstrong7628 You are so so wrong. A person’s health is NOT determined by how attractive you find them. Please read about anorexia: look at WebMD or testimonials about people who can explain in their own words just how devastating it is to have.
She's so self aware. Extremely bright.
Hope she's recovered!
No, she looks perfect and beautiful, as is!!!!
@@davidarmstrong7628 Commenting like this you might well supporting her unhealthy voice. Please don’t comment the body shape or size of those who have an eating disorder. You can't fix them with those comments, instead learn how those comments make things worse. You can comment her personality and who she is. That way you dont feed the anorexia voice. And thats what she also commented in her video. She gave great advice!
@@davidarmstrong7628 idiotic comment
@@davidarmstrong7628ew you sound like a ana fetishist tbh
Her eyes are stunning. So bright and wide and alert. Kinda hoping that is inner happiness and energy from eating better.
She has the cutest mannerisms and personality.
So cute
Keep it in pans . Not the place
Not really necessary to say here
@@davidarmstrong7628 she's gorgeous
@@davidarmstrong7628 Not thin = lack of self respect? That’s the gag of all gags, lmao.
when she said she was diagnosed with anorexia at 8, i got so sad. i hope she's doing well now
I actually really appreciated the "What is counterproductive to say?" Moment. Someone really close to me had anorexia and it was really tough to learn "You look healthy" translated to "You look fat" to them.
She has amazing insight into all of her disorders. I pray for her to have a lifetime recovery. Anxiety disorders and eating disorders definitely carry each other along. I've been a bulimic for 37 years my entire life basically. It's so good to hear Rachael speak so eloquently and acceptingly. There's always hope for recovery!!
I had anorexia for 5 years and a few months ago I finally got free from hospital because I am recovered.
She explained everything, honestly, so good and it is a delight to have people that shows the world how it trutly is.
Also she is a light in this world. ♡♡
I struggled with a severe eating disorder about a decade ago. The most painful thing to hear was "Why don't you just eat?" I had a medical doctor once ask me in the Emergency Room "Have you tried just eating?" That stings to this day. People clearly do not understand neurobiology, but I would expect a doctor to do so.
I did not struggle with dysmorphia, but I do still struggle with dysregulation from C-PTSD, and when my anxiety is bad, I see myself calorie limiting. I really push myself to eat though and to not take my anxiety out on myself. I still fixate about food though and about my nutrition. I think about it a lot, and I fixate on making sure others eat.
I love how you described the little voice of anorexia. Awesome interview. I really appreciate your sharing.
This was and still is a struggle going through as well and it was also caused by ptsd and anxiety.
I dealt with anorexia and bulimia for 6 years throughout in my teens and have so much compassion for anyone who struggles with this. I've fully recovered from e.d's and am hopeful that everyone who struggles with them fully recovers too.
I had a severe dangerous deadly case of Anorexia for 13 straight years. Just celebrated my 10 year RECOVERY anniversary. You are worth recovery. You got this! I recover from Anorexia with no treatment.
You are so strong.
That’s so awesome 😊 Congrats! I’m so happy for you
I’m in recovery. All those struggling with the same or different eating disorder, well done. You’re doing well, keep trying to get better. Keep going.
hi! my sister has a severe eating disorder and seeing others with eating disorders be positive like this gives me hope for her. Thank you
God, I hope Rachel has recovered well. She seems like such a sweet girl who doesn’t deserve all this.
Deserve what? She is perfect now, as is....
@@davidarmstrong7628 I don't think you understood what was explained in the video. But I get it, she looks very pretty and can speak very articulate. But that's not the issue here.
@@davidarmstrong7628 mmm you didn't understand what all this is about.
@@davidarmstrong7628 Shut up
Rachel! I hope you're doing good! You are inspiring to so many people!
so much light in Rachel’s eyes ❤️
She's gorgeous! And I mean this in all the best ways that have NOTHING to do with her weight!
Her smile, her dimples, her beautiful personality! Hope she's recovered and doing well!
Agreed, but her body weight is perfect. She should stay at her current weight.....
@@davidarmstrong7628 don’t mention an anorexics weight.
@@davidarmstrong7628 who are you to tell?
@@davidarmstrong7628 you fool! Get educated on eating disorders!
The light in Rachel's eyes is so pure. She is a lovely young lady. Stay strong!.
You have so much compassion for all the people you meet, it's touching and inspiring.
I thank you for being so frank and open. At 46, I still fight with this but I am working on myself and changing the generational trauma that caused it so my children will hopefully see themselves better.
I hope she is doing okay still. I absolutely love how sweet and open she is in this. I myself have an ED (but bulimic) and I can relate in a lot of ways with her pain.
Rachel, you are a pure delight! I appreciate how brave you are . Know that you are an inspiration to so many people who are struggling g with anorexia., and you courage is so empowering ! Thank you for sharing yourself with us, you are a true heroine! Bless your heart!
31 years for me with my eating disorder. I've been in this since I was 6.
This is a good video for others trying to understand.
I had anorexia starting in middle school and high school, and then it turned to bulimia, which I’ve had ever since. It’s been over half of my life now that I’ve struggled with eating disorders. Thank you so much for highlighting this!!
I know that this is an older comment but I just wanted to say this; never give up. You will win this.
I will keep you in my prayers. 🙏
@@hasiajackson-un7zb this is so sweet, thank you!! Every day is a hard work but this made my day :))
My best friend has anorexia, and it's so hard for me to watch them struggle. This video really helped me to understand a little more how their brain works, and how to talk to them about it and help them. I hope Rachel is getting better.
I've suffered with anorexia over the years and after a long journey trying to change my mindset, I've finally become comfortable in my body again. When people ask about my experiences I never know how to explain what anorexia is from my perspective. I'll recommend this video from now on.
Im so proud of you for getting this far! I relate a lot to the idea of being self aware but also losing control in the moment. So hearing you talk about it really helps me see how far I've come too :) thank you!
Rachel is so articulate in explaining ... thank you for this insight! Wishing the best for your future, sweet girl!
She’s very intelligent and well spoken!
Thank you for sharing your story. You seem like such an insightful and compassionate person (literally typed that before you said thats how you want people to see you so you're doing great with that!). I would like to thank you for talking about the control / security factors / the interaction of your OCD. I think so many of us were taught that its just a body image thing. But it's so much more than that.
I hope all the comments here can help you feel just the tiny bit more secure that you are totally deserving of love, and so lovely in your dedication to being open with others.
Oh my gosh she is so beautiful, her voice is so beautiful too. I really hope she's in a good place now ❤️
She has such a beautiful and contagious smile!
really want to see a update of her. what a great and loving person
Many young adults are struggling with eating disorder now, especially during the pandemic. This is the best dive into the mind of this amazing young lady.
so brave of her to talk about this so openly. so much strength and vulnerability
I can never predict the impact these sort of videos leave until I watch them. I have never struggled with anorexia, and even though I consider myself lucky in that way, I can resonate with her advice about reaching out for help. Sometimes you just find the right thing at the right time. I hope Rachel is doing well
What a sweet and wonderful girl!
Those big brown eyes ! Smart young lady with a kind personality there. I can see her 🔮as a veterinarian or a teacher for kids, bc she’s got a big heart….I wish her the best in life, & see a survivor here……
She's so cute and her voice is so nice! :D
Btw I can't stop being amazed by the questions that are being asked to all those people. So well thought through, sensitive, straightforward, just so... Perfect. Absolutely love all the episodes and interviews ❤️
This really makes me so sad.God bless this sweet lady and please Lord let her know she’s worthy of a healthy happy life and please heal her body and mind🙏🙏🙏
As someone who has delt with anorexia and atypical anorexia the one thing that is the hardest thing about eating disorders is they never truly go away
I struggle with it too. I have been in recovery for 15 years. When I feel fat, I feel disgusted that I can no longer control my food. It's not easy. But it's getting easier. I still don't discuss my weight though. It's taking effort.
I love that she addresses the control issue. It was a way to have control over something in my life. ( Because I don't have control )
Her voice is so soothing :O
Rachel was so cool and brave to share her thoughts with us!
People struggling in silence with an Ed, I am so sorry. I feel you and try to ask for help slowly but surely❤️❤️
Rachel, thank you for being so honest! I learned alot from you sharing your story.
She is truly the sweetest.
Incredible video, as all the others. I hope she's doing awesome
She has said everything so beautifully, I love to still those still struggling such as myself saying the truth , she’s amazing
This is very good to know what this is because I am subscribed to a lady that has this illness and she is awesome and trying her best to get threw life
I wish you peace Rachel. x
is there an update video? i’m so curious to know how she’s doing and how OT school went and all the things
She’s so pretty and sweet inside God Bless her and heal her!Please let her get well and healthy with her nutrition;relieve her anxiety and stress about food.Please ease her mind Lord and give her PEACE!
Thank you for sharing this with us. It helps my recovery process to know that I'm not alone. I'm in my 40s and just learned that I've been battling an eating disorder all my life. Since it's not anorexia, I think it was more difficult to figure it out as I was never hospitalized for my eating disorder. For me, it's not "If I eat, I'll get fat", it's "I'm not allowed to eat" and "If I was thin, nobody would talk to me about my appearance because I'd be like everybody else, therefore I would physically disappear and it would be a bliss". It's very subtle because I want to be acknowledged without being seen. Being connected to my body is a major challenge and my eating disorder can give me physical symptoms to prevent me from eating (nausea, panic attacks, gagging). It's a process, but I'll get through it. Anyway, maybe this will help other people understand that they might have an eating disorder too and seek help. That's what I'm doing right now and it's really hard, but I believe in the process. Thank you for creating this safe space to share.
Three years on, how is she doing? Hopefully she's still around. Audience wishes her all the best. Cheers!
I’m 15 and anorexic and it’s so hard when people are forcing recovery when you don’t want to recover
Thank-you, Rachel, for being so brave to share to us what it is like to be anorexic. I feel that there is so many misconceptions and people respond to loved ones with anorexia out of fear saying things like, "Eat more!" You also felt relatable to my own personal struggles (I tend to have very black and white thinking and a very rigid and inflexible approach to living). Now I know how better to talk to someone with an eating disorder that isn't off putting and recognizes the personal battle in their head. And I also want treat them like a "sick" person or like I "pity" them, but that I value them.
You are not only smart and beautiful, but you have a personality that I love. I know you are a strong person and I feel in my heart you will overcome anything that you are struggling with.
What a brilliant young lady. 👏
thanks for sharing your story your kind and worthy of love
I really wish she recovered and perfectly healthy now ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I wish we could get an update and she's doing great now.
Very articulate, just one aspect of you that's greater than the topic on hand today.
We see your compassion and your want to help others ...we can see you are so much more than the voice in your head.
Look at how great a reward your dog is and if you want something that will be a reward X 1000000.
Your disease can harm or take away your ability for a family and you need to be able to sustain yourself through pregnancy and providing adequate food and nutrition for the baby growing(organs will increase in size due to the demands of the baby so more sustainance needed), that being said, you have plenty of time to get there.
Once the baby is born, it takes much more that the ability to run or look a certain way ...it takes physical strength, initially the baby will be plastered to either you or your partner a lot of the time, having some healthy fat to provide cushioning is more ideal than a toned surface.
You can do it, you realise what the voice is trying to do, you realise that it is being negative even when there is a gap in a song.
Your best friend and comfort is actually your nemesis and as a warrior you are fighting it every day.
It's good to realise that your OCD is only limited to measurements and actions you can control or are available ....in reality 0.2 grams difference is a massive amount in terms of the cosmic scale.
What I'm trying to state,that may help you, is that you have been living,thinking you're controlling everything when in actually... Youve been as controlling as throwing a ball at a target after being blindfolded and spinning around with no frame of reference... This comment may help you realise what specifics you already have no choice but to let go, which means letting go further should mean less ...
Your goal is to be healthy .....and being ill (a weakened immune force) (less fuel to battle a virus for instance) or close to death (where you need
a hospital, I don't need a hospital for living and I'm sure you could run further than me) and with no muscle or healthy fat mass is not healthy.
All in all...you are much more than this battle you're fighting and it will not stop you from getting what you want in life X
I hope she’s doing okay now! Would love an update video. 💜
She is perfect. as is....
@@davidarmstrong7628🤢🤢🤢 get help dude
@@davidarmstrong7628 no, if she is starving she is not perfect. she should gain as much weight she needs to be content
@@adam0cles No, she is stunningly beautiful, as is. She is a godess!!! A perfect "10"....
@@davidarmstrong7628 GET OUT OF THIS COMMENT SECTION. Did you not watch the video!?
I stuggled with anorexia as well, yup, you read it right, STRUGGLED, in THE PAST. RECOVERY. IS. POSSIBLE. Just keep fighting, I know it is the f*cking hardest thing in the world but I swear recovery is worth it. You deserve to live a happy life, you deserve to heal, YOU ARE A WARRIOR.
She is so beautiful
She absolutely described that horrible voice perfectly, well done you gorgeous girl
Rachel, you have huge expressive eyes!
I love her I hope she is doing ok. 🧡
I would love to chat with her! She seems so great
Only if she's open to that as well of course
Very nice interview
Hope you are doing OK you have such a good understanding off your illness that's good
What a mature young lady - such beautifully articulated insights. I wish you all the happiness in your life.
I feel bad that she probably cannot enjoy food now. I hope she develops a normal relationship with food, eats mindfully, and enjoys it. I know there is so many things more important than enjoying food, but that part hurts me.
😊😊 I would love to do a interview on this channel😊😊 I had a dangerous severe case of Anorexia for 13 years straight. I ended up fighting for my life for one month in the hospital in 2012. One December 5th 2022, I celebrated my TEN recovery Anorexia anniversary. It was not easy, however it was worth it..
Well done, keep going!! 🙏🌟🎉
Girl, you need to be around to inspire the next generation, Tell that to your anorexia please? Talk to her, let her know that you actually know that she wants what She thinks is the best for you... But You should invest in being healthier and more fufilled... Hold hands with it and find a solution with her, see what your anorexia actually needs ( why she actually does what she does), negociate, and please... Stay healthy and around so YOU CAN INSPIRE OTHERS. You seem really amazying! keep up, Amazying progress!
I have anorexia too, and I kind of think it's my "best friend" who will always be with me.
ED roads are painful roads to walk and stumble and struggle upon... so much energy and time and life is lost to ED, she is brave to have made it thus far, not all do
I’m so proud of you
still love this video we need to talk about this lonely disorder more, we have the highest mortality rate & it’s currently rising in the USA as i write this .. thank you for spreading awareness, especially this woman she’s so incredibly brave to speak about this 🙏🏼
the only take i have is that ED’s are mental disorders not a disease 🦠
Unfortunately, I relate to her with regards to the struggle to find treatment that feels safe, meaning supportive and encouraging so that challenge meets skills. My experience is the higher levels of care treatment system follows a cookie cutter track and it’s all-or-nothing. I’ve been trying to engage a holistic community-based OT / sensiormotor / somatic / mind-body / creative approach for 6+ years. OT for adult MH seems grossly underutilized! Hold on girl!
Pray to God, "God please save me!!" Pray every day, He is always with you. You can talk to Him about anything and ask Him anything in Jesus' name. Do daily bible reading out loud, it's so healing. Look up healing scriptures online or read any of the bible out loud, it's all good to read. I believe you will overcome the battles you face each day. God is strengthening you, He loves you so much.
My life is consumed by food thoughts too. But I'm not too thin or too thick, I just look normal so whenever I ask for help, because it's so tiring living with these thoughts, people just look at me thinking I'm searching for attention, which isn't the case at all. However, when I wake up, the first battle for me is not having breakfast and making an appointment with myself which time I'm aloud to eat. People see me and assume everything is okay, but it's not... I've learned to pretend tho. You telling your story, actually helps me a lot. So thank you, honestly thank you both.
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I don’t think 💭 this is a good thing but I have a sibling that needs help because of bulimia.
She is so smart and insightful.
Hi everyone: It's so nice to see you all again on RUclips. I want to meet you all one day. Take care and stay safe.
This was really good interview
having really bad OCD i relate with the something bad will happen, mine is even numbers.
I hope she is doing ok
I hope you can make a catch up video about her
It’s good to feel like I’m not alone for once
Practicing acceptance. ACCEPT. ACCEPT. ACCEPT.
This Is the very first time I find this video and I'm so Happy.
I have chronique anorexia too and anxiety, and with therapy I'm pretty much better... that voice in my head is still there XD, but Now I can recognize if my acts or thoughts are a product of ANA (that's how I refer to anorexia).
But ANA IS more than no eating. I used to enjoy pain, darkness... I think that I tried to being suicide but so slowly and enjoy It...
It's so difficult to explain It clearly, so sorry.
But I'm so proud of your work and how you expose our beautiful souls.
Thanks from Spain
I accomplished so much before this illness destroyed everything and you can never make up the losses. But to live in a state of regret is not a way to live so what? I WANT TO SCREAM "IS THERE ANYONE OUT THERE WHO CAN HELP ME BEAT THIS THING?"
She is so beautiful!!
OMG she's so beautiful. I'm happy she's recovering. I think I might have a tendency for an eating disorder but I don't know yet... Sometimes I think I'm creating this thing in my mind about food. That's why I don't open up to anyone. My mom is making me eat a snack every afternoon and I feel I'm gaining weight because of that and I feel bad about it. There are other restrictions I'm doing. I don't know why I'm saying this here but okay bye.
Are you okay? Are you speaking to anyone in your life about this? I hope you're getting help ✨💕
I hope you are doing okay, and I hope you have someone you can talk to and someone who can help you though this❤️
She's freaking gorgeous and so charming and intelligent.
I’ve lived with eating disorder for around 10 years now, I’m 18, I have never been underweight and for the most time I’ve actually been overweight, my bloods have never been bad either and because of that every time I’ve asked for help I’ve been dismissed, when I told them the problems (it has been restricting and compensating) I’ve been told by medical professionals that “well, you are losing weight so that’s good!” And meal plans I’ve gotten has been more of a diet since “I need to lose weight anyways”. Because of this I sadly have a very warped way of what’s normal, healthy, and not dieting or even starving because from a young young age I was told dieting was good for me by medical health professionals