I’ve never heard of Ethel Cain, so I’m watching this video by listening to each song and then watching your breakdown and I just have to say. Oof. I’m not trans, I’m genetically female, and the perpetrator was my stepfather, not my biological father, but this is so close to my story. Raised Freewill Baptist in the south, and I don’t have memories before the CSA. I actually “aged out” of his interest around age 10 when I went through puberty. Part of me thinks I’m lucky for that, because my brain really did its best to block out as much as it could, but I still have c-PTSD and need meds to get sleep without screaming night terrors even now (at age 40 and after 2 years of therapy). This album is… weirdly cathartic. I love the sound, but I’m not 100% sure I *like* it if that makes sense. Currently on your analysis of “Hard Times” so we’ll see how the rest of it goes. Just had to pause and comment. Thank you for this video 🩶
the last lines of sun bleached flies are some of the most heartbreaking lyrics ever written. Listening to house in nebraska into sunbleached flies understanding ethel is dead and she never got...a happy ending in her life, for anjything is such an emotionally destroying experience. so so so good. As a trans woman myself, the lines in hard times about praying id be like you, and i still do, and that scares me kind of have this...undercurrent meaning of 'i prayed i would be a boy like you, when i was younger, and part of me now still wishes i could be like you, and that scares me' favorite songs for me are def House in nebraska, sun bleached flies and hard times. american teenager is probably 4th depending on if i feel like headcanoning thoroughfare that day LOL also i love the fact the story is spelled out by mother, but i also like...really like doing personal interpretations. I like to think of thoroughfare as a happy song where after the song before gibson girl she gets separated from the man she falls in love with in thoroughfare and thats how she ends up a gibson girl. Just cause....I DONT KNOW, its like even more tragic? 'oh she found true love but then got separated and now is being horrifically abused' v.s. 'she fell in love and her lover is abusing her' but that's cause I've always been more partial to love-found-then-lost tragedies than love-tricked-and-blinded-me-to-abuse-until-it-was-too-late tragedies, although both are great. Thats the best thing about art too; everyone can make there own interpretations. with some album re-ordering (thoroughfare earlier in the album) you can even create a fan album that kind takes that to heart.
Interesting you interpreted “praying I’d be like you” that way. The way I always think about it is more like her father saying he prayed she’d be like him more so like who he was as a person in every aspect. both as a preacher and a man/father (Idk if any of that makes sense. It’s 4 in the morning and I woke up out of a dead sleep and typed this out 😂)
did i watch this entire video to the very end? absolutely i'm a fibre artist and recently bought all the materials to make a 10 000 stitch cross stitch piece of the cover art of Preachers Daughter. i'll start it when i have more time in between orders for my business and school but i'm super excited!
Televgelism it's like a salesman going door-to-door but instead of selling stuff the person goes around preaching to people that's what that word means and some of them also get on television and do preach on TV as well
Alright, finished and wow. I’ll start with a theory of my own that I felt when listening and then give my “feels” later if anyone is interested. So in Ptolemaea, the entire speech in the male voice “Blessed be the daughters of Cain” all the way to the end, I feel like that’s the voice of God speaking to Ethel. All the Blessed Be’s are reminiscent of Jesus’s sermons. And the “promised to me by a man who can only feel hatred and contempt for you” is him saying that Isaiah sent Ethel to heaven, promised her to god, even though he hates her. God is neither good nor evil (one could argue that he’s both given the text of the Bible) and simply is, and now he has come for her because she’s dead. Could be wayyyy off but just the vibe I got from my one whole listen 😂 Now for my “feels.” This is an interesting view into what I call (even though I’m atheist thanks to my experience) “there, but for the grace of god, go I.” So much of Ethel’s story mirrors my own up to a point, CSA, religious abuse, abusive partners, but somehow I managed to not end up in the situation where I was drug addicted and running from the cops. I can easily see some times, looking back, where I could have, though. And I know fully what she means when she says “the more it hurts the less it shows but I still feel like they all know and that’s why I could never go back home.” I see my mom and abuser still, but I haven’t seen my extended family in years, it’s just too weird. You’re right about the relationship between her and her father being complicated. I know what he did to me, but I still feel this weird trauma bond loyalty to him that kept me from even trying to find out who my bio dad was until last year. He and my mom don’t know that, but I found him. He killed himself right after my 6th birthday (I never got to meet him and was raised to think my abuser was my bio dad until I was in high school). I’ve decided I do like the album, but in the same way that you get embarrassed for people to see art you’ve made even when they say they like it. I don’t want to “get caught” listening to it. There’s no reason for me to feel white hot shame while listening, but I do. Holy shit that was a lot of words I’m sorry.
@@ellahughes22 I’ve heard her say in a live, her EP’s are more so for her to kind of test the waters with sounds and song construction. I think Inbred is the most correlated to Preacher’s Daughter. Not sure if she’s said if it’s related or not…..in my head Inbred was a prelude to the full album but 🤷♀️
Hello Hannah, is someone that was abused by their dad I'm not talking about what the preacher did to his daughter in the song my dad never physically touched me wrongly that way but he did used to hit me when I was younger and I had a lot of mixed feelings for him he is no longer alive and I still kind of hate him but I also love him it's hard to deal with someone that is violent but the older I get I understand some of the reasons why he wants the way he was and I'm not saying it excuses what he did I'm just saying that the more you know the less it hurts for me
Ethel Cain isn't that Eve? The first one before she got into the gypsy wagon?😅 I love her❤ I would love to meet her in person.😊 On that verse two. It's awesome that with that [verse 2] I can learn to understand Eve's perspective on the Adam and Eve situation. I mean. Wouldn't they be wondering. How come you have one of those poky things and I don't?!? O well this makes for some analysis. Well the world may never know.😅
I saw her at all things go in 2023, and heard thoroughfare. i was fucking astonished and listened to it for so long before i ever went through preachers daughter. it ruined the song for me - thought it was about love. i was sorely mistaken lol
It's a shame the music is so so mid. I would have been interested in all these themes if it didn't sound like someone typed "white female mid-western singer songwriter" in a music gen AI
Album is nearly 2 years old so oop on the release date but perverts is releasing Jan 8th so 🫦🫦🫦
I’ve never heard of Ethel Cain, so I’m watching this video by listening to each song and then watching your breakdown and I just have to say. Oof. I’m not trans, I’m genetically female, and the perpetrator was my stepfather, not my biological father, but this is so close to my story. Raised Freewill Baptist in the south, and I don’t have memories before the CSA. I actually “aged out” of his interest around age 10 when I went through puberty. Part of me thinks I’m lucky for that, because my brain really did its best to block out as much as it could, but I still have c-PTSD and need meds to get sleep without screaming night terrors even now (at age 40 and after 2 years of therapy).
This album is… weirdly cathartic. I love the sound, but I’m not 100% sure I *like* it if that makes sense. Currently on your analysis of “Hard Times” so we’ll see how the rest of it goes. Just had to pause and comment. Thank you for this video 🩶
The way I just listened through Preacher’s Daughter for the first time YESTERDAY and then you post this?! Maybe there is a god……
@@danisanders6199 👀👀
MOTHER POSTED! MOTHER IS GIVING US A NEW INTEREST TO BECOME OBSESSED WITH!!
Saw her opening for caroline polachek and when she played the harmonica during Thoroughfare I was like…..wow i am gay and shes so talented
the way you explained this just clicked so well with my brain girl thank u 🙏🙏
You couldn’t have timed putting out this video more perfectly, Queen. Thank you!!
GAGGED I LOVE ETHEL
its so good, iv listened so many times and it just keeps getting better
yessssss!!!!!!!!!! Love love your AHS series! Now Ethel Cain 😱💕
oh i am SITTING. my favorite album ever
Mother has blessed us!!!! All hail Hannah!!! 🙏
the last lines of sun bleached flies are some of the most heartbreaking lyrics ever written. Listening to house in nebraska into sunbleached flies understanding ethel is dead and she never got...a happy ending in her life, for anjything is such an emotionally destroying experience. so so so good.
As a trans woman myself, the lines in hard times about praying id be like you, and i still do, and that scares me kind of have this...undercurrent meaning of 'i prayed i would be a boy like you, when i was younger, and part of me now still wishes i could be like you, and that scares me'
favorite songs for me are def House in nebraska, sun bleached flies and hard times. american teenager is probably 4th depending on if i feel like headcanoning thoroughfare that day LOL
also i love the fact the story is spelled out by mother, but i also like...really like doing personal interpretations. I like to think of thoroughfare as a happy song where after the song before gibson girl she gets separated from the man she falls in love with in thoroughfare and thats how she ends up a gibson girl. Just cause....I DONT KNOW, its like even more tragic? 'oh she found true love but then got separated and now is being horrifically abused' v.s. 'she fell in love and her lover is abusing her' but that's cause I've always been more partial to love-found-then-lost tragedies than love-tricked-and-blinded-me-to-abuse-until-it-was-too-late tragedies, although both are great. Thats the best thing about art too; everyone can make there own interpretations.
with some album re-ordering (thoroughfare earlier in the album) you can even create a fan album that kind takes that to heart.
Interesting you interpreted “praying I’d be like you” that way. The way I always think about it is more like her father saying he prayed she’d be like him more so like who he was as a person in every aspect. both as a preacher and a man/father
(Idk if any of that makes sense. It’s 4 in the morning and I woke up out of a dead sleep and typed this out 😂)
did i watch this entire video to the very end? absolutely
i'm a fibre artist and recently bought all the materials to make a 10 000 stitch cross stitch piece of the cover art of Preachers Daughter. i'll start it when i have more time in between orders for my business and school but i'm super excited!
Girly I start my shift in half an hour thank you so much I had a rough ahh night I had needed to hear from the QUEEN
I’ve been listening to every breakdown video since listening to this album 😅
Perfect analysis to listen to before I go to work for the day :)
Televgelism it's like a salesman going door-to-door but instead of selling stuff the person goes around preaching to people that's what that word means and some of them also get on television and do preach on TV as well
The "tele" on televangelism is literally about being on TV. Its not door to door
Oh damn getting ready for work just got better, weirdly good timing!
Let’s gooooo
Have i ever thought about Preachers Daughter? No am i about to watch a 1 hour video on it? Yea
I’ve never heard of Ethel Cain, but this is fascinating!!
i have now heard two people explain Ethel Cain and this album to me and ive never heard it xD but i love all of it
PLSSSS I WAS LISTENING TO IT WHEN I JUST SAW U POSTED THIS
I've never heard of this before. Sounds really cool!
@@maggiebrum6347 I can’t recommend this one enough
Her mic was on from the start 😍😍😍
YES how did you know I've been wanting to do a Ethel Cain deep dive!
I love Ethel Cain bro this rocks
so excited for a new video 😭💗
YES GIRL IM SO EXCITED
loove the fancasts omg
what are ur thoughts on the new song???? i think it is scrumptious and i’m excited to analyze it
Alright, finished and wow.
I’ll start with a theory of my own that I felt when listening and then give my “feels” later if anyone is interested. So in Ptolemaea, the entire speech in the male voice “Blessed be the daughters of Cain” all the way to the end, I feel like that’s the voice of God speaking to Ethel. All the Blessed Be’s are reminiscent of Jesus’s sermons. And the “promised to me by a man who can only feel hatred and contempt for you” is him saying that Isaiah sent Ethel to heaven, promised her to god, even though he hates her. God is neither good nor evil (one could argue that he’s both given the text of the Bible) and simply is, and now he has come for her because she’s dead. Could be wayyyy off but just the vibe I got from my one whole listen 😂
Now for my “feels.” This is an interesting view into what I call (even though I’m atheist thanks to my experience) “there, but for the grace of god, go I.” So much of Ethel’s story mirrors my own up to a point, CSA, religious abuse, abusive partners, but somehow I managed to not end up in the situation where I was drug addicted and running from the cops. I can easily see some times, looking back, where I could have, though. And I know fully what she means when she says “the more it hurts the less it shows but I still feel like they all know and that’s why I could never go back home.” I see my mom and abuser still, but I haven’t seen my extended family in years, it’s just too weird. You’re right about the relationship between her and her father being complicated. I know what he did to me, but I still feel this weird trauma bond loyalty to him that kept me from even trying to find out who my bio dad was until last year. He and my mom don’t know that, but I found him. He killed himself right after my 6th birthday (I never got to meet him and was raised to think my abuser was my bio dad until I was in high school). I’ve decided I do like the album, but in the same way that you get embarrassed for people to see art you’ve made even when they say they like it. I don’t want to “get caught” listening to it. There’s no reason for me to feel white hot shame while listening, but I do.
Holy shit that was a lot of words I’m sorry.
Hayden has said golden age and carpet bed ep aren't related to ethel cain sadly
@@ellahughes22 I’ve heard her say in a live, her EP’s are more so for her to kind of test the waters with sounds and song construction. I think Inbred is the most correlated to Preacher’s Daughter. Not sure if she’s said if it’s related or not…..in my head Inbred was a prelude to the full album but 🤷♀️
babe wake up, another ethel cain lore video dropped
Hello Hannah, is someone that was abused by their dad I'm not talking about what the preacher did to his daughter in the song my dad never physically touched me wrongly that way but he did used to hit me when I was younger and I had a lot of mixed feelings for him he is no longer alive and I still kind of hate him but I also love him it's hard to deal with someone that is violent but the older I get I understand some of the reasons why he wants the way he was and I'm not saying it excuses what he did I'm just saying that the more you know the less it hurts for me
@@nannetteblackwell6214 I’m so sorry you had to experience that and have to figure out how to navigate it. Sending a needed hug 🫂
@@HannahMcKinney13 thank you so much 🤗🥰💞
Hold tf up, how did you know I needed this? What's going on here on this day?
@@royalguillotine9353 👀👀
I’m new here but i love you already
Ethel Cain isn't that Eve? The first one before she got into the gypsy wagon?😅 I love her❤ I would love to meet her in person.😊 On that verse two. It's awesome that with that [verse 2] I can learn to understand Eve's perspective on the Adam and Eve situation. I mean. Wouldn't they be wondering. How come you have one of those poky things and I don't?!? O well this makes for some analysis. Well the world may never know.😅
Hannah McKinney is America's Next Top MOTHER.
Have I listened to this album? No.
Do I know who Ethel Cain is? Barely.
Did I watch this entire video? Absolutely.
Break-down video or breakdown video? Cause I will watch both….
Depends on the day😂😂
YES I WAS RIGHT
I just shit myself
Go clean up and wash your hands
I saw her at all things go in 2023, and heard thoroughfare. i was fucking astonished and listened to it for so long before i ever went through preachers daughter. it ruined the song for me - thought it was about love. i was sorely mistaken lol
👍🏼🍿
Soooo finn whitrocks new movie, are you gonna react to ittt
I KNOW 😫 currently on vacation and I'm trying not to watch it till I get back
the way i knew in my BONES you weee about to pull out Woody
@@saragarrison7755 😅😅
This might be a stretch but a white or pale horse is often associated with death itself who rides upon one. So do with that what you will.
I was waiting all video for you to notice you spelled family wrong 😭
@@lilaclover1018 I was today years old when I realized I did that 🤮🤮
@@lilaclover1018 you shut your mouth lol
LFFGGGGGG
is there confirmation that the character of ethel is trans from hayden?
she's said that it's up to the listener iirc
FINALLY! I love Ethel Cain, his music and aesthetics are amazing and I'm happy to see a deep dive into the lore behind his music.
It's a shame the music is so so mid. I would have been interested in all these themes if it didn't sound like someone typed "white female mid-western singer songwriter" in a music gen AI
I think it sounds fantastic tbh. Unlike anything else I've heard. I just don't think it's for you
@@zerebusgarago I don’t think I can agree with you there lol