I lost my Apple Pencil and now I'm spiraling

RIP my sanity and my wallet...
Hopefully this clarifies my lack of uploading, especially of audio or reactionary content. I really want to, but it's very hard to do so. Monetization isn't everything, but it would help me a ton, both financially and help me post content more consistently. But even if it wasn't about money, my videos are getting blocked so I'm not sure what to do...
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[@HypothiusPicturehouse]

Literally best video on RUclips change my mind

[@prismarinium]

Came over from the spiderverse video, so I don’t know what to tell you. RUclips is always going to struggle with its copyright system, even if ur appeal goes through, there’s a more than fair chance ur next video will be flagged again anyway. That seems like a loop u don’t want to be caught in. Idk what the solution is but keep posting, if u don’t post again I’ll eat ur other apple pencil

[@icee6431]

I’m trying to figure out how I missed the other videos

[@mNmcookies]

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