I got PTSD and get overwhelmed and get sensory overload SOOOO easily. My brain gets fried after just a short time of doing/watching/reading/listening to something and I need to rest and sleep a lot - some days up to 20hrs. My brain is completely exhausted from anxiety, tension, hypervigilance and depression. Yay me!
Hello, I have to deal with the same symptoms almost exactly to a tee. I discussed it with my therapist and she pointed out by an analogy, she said think of the sensitivity as being right on your shoulder, somewhat hidden from you, due to trauma reaction it is there now when it wasn't before, it takes just the slightest stressor, it's right there and comes forward to you, accept its there and try and reduce your stress triggers or allow your self to feel it but try not to react on the emotions, because emotions can fool you, try to use the intelligent part of your brain, the new triggering is a trauma response, accept its on your shoulder allways, slowly try to react into your intellectual brain. It takes alot of time to heal, slowly, little things first and it does get better, or it has for me. Your not alone, there are suitable ears to help you, even if it a peer like me. All the best of everything.😮
@@johnruhland9428 Thank you SO much for your kind and thorough response. It feels good to hear that I’m not alone in this and that there are always suitable ears out there - just like yours. I really try to listen to my body and what it needs and take it day by day in small steps, BUT I’M IMPATIENT! 😂 I just want everything to be like it used to be before, but doing my best to accept that this is my new life and that things will slpwly get both better and easier over time. Hearing you saying that you’ve progressed gives me a bit more hope for the future, so thanks for that. It means a lot for me. Take the best of care. ❤️
Thank you Kati for this incredibly helpful video. I am 58 and just started trauma therapy a month ago. Thankful that my pastor and his wife recognized that I needed help and gently talked to me about EMDR. I go on Tuesdays and two big things have been processed but this week has been intense for other memories surfacing and my body is in pain from the anxiety. I will look at your other videos especially the dear younger me as I have been very busy journaling.
56:40 touching me while Im spiraling or is really distressed is one of the worst things you can do to me. I go immediately into mega-fight/flight mode. Definitely always check in w the person and have them guide you, if you want to help. Never just assume.
Such great information. Very helpful for some things I am facing. I have been following your content for a while. Thanks for all you do and all the effort you put into your community.
45 years later and I finally accepted the term childhood trauma no idea what my triggers are I've been going through life without understanding what the problem is. I'm now seeking help.
Serious disassociation has been really rare in my life, although I have severe ADD and am very often in a fog or somewhat in another world, and can very easily be badly startled. But I think I may have had a genuine episode of serious disassociation at the age of four. Is that even possible? It's been a vivid, intense memory all my life, because of the reaction it got. I was in Sunday School, near the end of class, and suddenly aware that I had knocked over some blocks, and that a teacher had me by the arm and was almost psychotic with rage, shouting; her face really twisted in fury; it was startling and scary. The other kids were seated in a half-circle, in a closing prayer, looking at me like I was a freak show as the teacher shook me and threatened me. I had no idea how I had gotten there, or out of my seat; I had no memory of having been in a seat at all. I couldn't really remember the class and felt utterly confused, as if I had dreamed it. Then my dad and one of my brothers arrived and the angry teacher started describing all this misbehavior- really just inattention and failure to respond- about three instances, of which I had no memory at all. It was like she was talking about some other kid. She easily transferred her rage to my dad, who fumed all the way home about how I had embarrassed the family, and I was shouted at, shaken, and given a memorable beating, followed by the inevitable threat: you cry, and I'll beat you again. But I was almost too bewildered to respond. If I had ever tried to bring this up much later, minus the abuse, they'd all remember what a problem child I'd been. (Around this time, my nursery school tested me for hearing problems, due to my bouts of inattention, but my hearing was excellent). If I recalled this episode with any hint of the abuse included, I'd get the precise response I alluded to: didn't happen, you dreamed it. Firm, adamant denial. But it happened, and I've always wondered about it. I've hardly ever sailed into a fog bank like that one since. And it wasn't a coping mechanism, I seemingly just checked out for a bit.
the difference between feeling nothing and feeling empty is feeling nothing just means an there's nothing in the container but it's still a normal box passive and non volatile but feeling empty is more a like vacuum chamber so deeply devoid of everything that it's constantly straining under the pressure of trying to suck in something to fill the void ready to implode and crush itself that constant agitating struggle against it
I'm so grateful you answered my question about hating my inner child/younger self. What you say makes absolute sense, and I will look into doing your inner child course.
Working through trauma is so hard with depression I get self hatey when I get overwhelmed in therapy beat myself up for weeks after dissociating or diverting topics 🤣🤷♀️ it’s quite frustrating 😂😂 also find it really hard to differentiate between ADHD overwhelmed, trauma overwhelmed or Anxiety overwhelmed sometimes it feels like them all 🤣
Thanks. i do under stand what you are saying. i live my whole life one day at a time, i am not wanted . and was never wanted, I'm a senior and just trying to figure out who i am and why i am not wanted. i am a very kind and giving person. but no one stay in my life. i was in talk therapy but that made me very angry. i don't feel like repeating the same sad story over and over, well thanks
Wow! 1st Question happens to me alot, I thought it was my ADHD! I also have Terrible Time Blindness, late for almost everything, but also, weeks seem like days, years way quicker. For example, I talked to someone and I had thought a year or 2 passed.. he pointed out it was 6 years! I wonder how much of my life I have some sort of disassociation. Also have anxiety and CPSTD. Would love a video or feedback on this! TY ❤
I had an abusive mother. She was manic and possibly bi-polar as well. I do not share with many people as I feel everyone is dealing with their own issues. She attempted to take my life. She took her own as well. As a super empath, it is sometimes crippling to feel everything everyone else is feeling along with dealing with past trauma and in a narcissist relationship.
Hi thanks for the podcast, I was recently made aware through a few different circumstances which led me to now know my horrifying nightmares as a “toddler” wasn’t nightmares. It have now been 23 days since “this” happened, I’ve C-PTSD, adhd and autism, and my psychiatrist has been made aware this happened and have written a referral for the ptsd psychologist to help evaluate me, but now I’ve changed my mind! Is it alright for me to think that I’m actually better without therapy? I’m asking because a very close friend (who know) asked how I was doing and I said it’s getting better, but I’ve been crying almost the rest of the day. Had my friend not asked, then had I continued to block it out! I feel so close to blocking it back out where it needs to be! Because I really really really don’t want to deal with this. I was not prepared! I ask you because you don’t know me, and I therefore hope to get a constructive answer. I really feel better blocking this out. I felt great before and I feel time will get me there again. I hope that make sense? With kindness and respect, Grace
About depression determining empty vs nothing. >In my mind, it seems as if there are negative symptoms (as described with schizophrenia) like something was taken away. (That was once there) Nothing would be described as something that never was. Yet we miss it somehow anyways.
Can you discuss for a topic about childhood emotional abuse or neglect and the affects it has towards both psychological and physiological health? I was severely emotionally abused as a child under constant stress so I do not handle stress well at all in fact I show clear physiological signs of stress and PTSD.
Recently, when I began to consider my future, I saw and felt mouthing. It meant I had no reason to live. I'm 67. I can contemplate my death. I still struggle.
To my mind, emptiness is like a vacuum, wanting for something to fill it, and we may not have any idea what would fill it, just that haunting feeling something's missing. Feeling nothing, or feeling numb, is an experience with a couple of meds that left me with the thought that feeling nothing is better than the negative feelings that depression brings, even if that meant sacrificing any positive feelings.
You just need to go to the Community tab of this channel on Sundays - when Kati posts a call for questions, you put your question in the comments. It helps to get your question in as soon as possible after she posts the post, as most of the questions are chosen based on how many people thumbs-up it! One question every week is chosen randomly. Alternately, if you can afford it, joining her Patreon at $20 a month lets you ask her one question every month to be answered in a Patreon-only livestream.
AKA & OTDM. Kati hello only just catching up and watching and listening to new AKA podcast you looked beautiful here nice top sutes you and nice lipgloss .I am lucky to have had a week away on holiday to 1 of my favourite places .my mental health was mangable my mood and emotions was calm and relaxed for a week. I didn't feel very depressed. but I was getting anxious and anxiety though .due to the amount of people that were around me and the environment I was In .I just returned home yesterday Friday.anyway there was a lot of good important mental health questions on this podcast I can relate to question 2 😢and question 5 😢❤❤❤
Well that’s lame you only answer Q’s to people who are paying $20 to you monthly ? I def won’t be subscribing to you bc let’s not forget you get paid for ALL VIEWS!
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I got PTSD and get overwhelmed and get sensory overload SOOOO easily. My brain gets fried after just a short time of doing/watching/reading/listening to something and I need to rest and sleep a lot - some days up to 20hrs. My brain is completely exhausted from anxiety, tension, hypervigilance and depression. Yay me!
Hello, I have to deal with the same symptoms almost exactly to a tee. I discussed it with my therapist and she pointed out by an analogy, she said think of the sensitivity as being right on your shoulder, somewhat hidden from you, due to trauma reaction it is there now when it wasn't before, it takes just the slightest stressor, it's right there and comes forward to you, accept its there and try and reduce your stress triggers or allow your self to feel it but try not to react on the emotions, because emotions can fool you, try to use the intelligent part of your brain, the new triggering is a trauma response, accept its on your shoulder allways, slowly try to react into your intellectual brain. It takes alot of time to heal, slowly, little things first and it does get better, or it has for me. Your not alone, there are suitable ears to help you, even if it a peer like me. All the best of everything.😮
@@johnruhland9428 Thank you SO much for your kind and thorough response. It feels good to hear that I’m not alone in this and that there are always suitable ears out there - just like yours. I really try to listen to my body and what it needs and take it day by day in small steps, BUT I’M IMPATIENT! 😂 I just want everything to be like it used to be before, but doing my best to accept that this is my new life and that things will slpwly get both better and easier over time. Hearing you saying that you’ve progressed gives me a bit more hope for the future, so thanks for that. It means a lot for me. Take the best of care. ❤️
Timestamps!
Q1 - 0:45
Q2 - 19:57
Q3 - 27:57
Q4 - 45:12
Q5 - 50:33
Q6 - 54:36
Q7 - 58:29
Q8 - 1:02:44
You’re my favourite human today. 🙌😍 Thank you so bloody much.
@@MrBungle900 You're welcome!🥰
I'm planning on doing this timestamps as soon as I can after Kati releases new videos.
@@Lemonady Godamnnn you, beautiful human. I’m eternally grateful. 🤗
Thank you Kati for this incredibly helpful video. I am 58 and just started trauma therapy a month ago. Thankful that my pastor and his wife recognized that I needed help and gently talked to me about EMDR. I go on Tuesdays and two big things have been processed but this week has been intense for other memories surfacing and my body is in pain from the anxiety. I will look at your other videos especially the dear younger me as I have been very busy journaling.
56:40 touching me while Im spiraling or is really distressed is one of the worst things you can do to me. I go immediately into mega-fight/flight mode. Definitely always check in w the person and have them guide you, if you want to help. Never just assume.
This podcast should get more likes. It's so good. 🎉
Thanks!
Wow this vid has been deeply profound for my growth, subscribed
Such great information. Very helpful for some things I am facing. I have been following your content for a while. Thanks for all you do and all the effort you put into your community.
45 years later and I finally accepted the term childhood trauma no idea what my triggers are I've been going through life without understanding what the problem is. I'm now seeking help.
Hello people spreading support -care and love ❤❤
Serious disassociation has been really rare in my life, although I have severe ADD and am very often in a fog or somewhat in another world, and can very easily be badly startled. But I think I may have had a genuine episode of serious disassociation at the age of four. Is that even possible? It's been a vivid, intense memory all my life, because of the reaction it got. I was in Sunday School, near the end of class, and suddenly aware that I had knocked over some blocks, and that a teacher had me by the arm and was almost psychotic with rage, shouting; her face really twisted in fury; it was startling and scary. The other kids were seated in a half-circle, in a closing prayer, looking at me like I was a freak show as the teacher shook me and threatened me. I had no idea how I had gotten there, or out of my seat; I had no memory of having been in a seat at all. I couldn't really remember the class and felt utterly confused, as if I had dreamed it. Then my dad and one of my brothers arrived and the angry teacher started describing all this misbehavior- really just inattention and failure to respond- about three instances, of which I had no memory at all. It was like she was talking about some other kid. She easily transferred her rage to my dad, who fumed all the way home about how I had embarrassed the family, and I was shouted at, shaken, and given a memorable beating, followed by the inevitable threat: you cry, and I'll beat you again. But I was almost too bewildered to respond. If I had ever tried to bring this up much later, minus the abuse, they'd all remember what a problem child I'd been. (Around this time, my nursery school tested me for hearing problems, due to my bouts of inattention, but my hearing was excellent). If I recalled this episode with any hint of the abuse included, I'd get the precise response I alluded to: didn't happen, you dreamed it. Firm, adamant denial. But it happened, and I've always wondered about it. I've hardly ever sailed into a fog bank like that one since. And it wasn't a coping mechanism, I seemingly just checked out for a bit.
the difference between feeling nothing and feeling empty is feeling nothing just means an there's nothing in the container but it's still a normal box passive and non volatile but feeling empty is more a like vacuum chamber so deeply devoid of everything that it's constantly straining under the pressure of trying to suck in something to fill the void ready to implode and crush itself that constant agitating struggle against it
THANK YOU ❤
I'm so grateful you answered my question about hating my inner child/younger self. What you say makes absolute sense, and I will look into doing your inner child course.
3:47 first step is becoming aware of disassociation 🙏📿
Working through trauma is so hard with depression I get self hatey when I get overwhelmed in therapy beat myself up for weeks after dissociating or diverting topics 🤣🤷♀️ it’s quite frustrating 😂😂 also find it really hard to differentiate between ADHD overwhelmed, trauma overwhelmed or Anxiety overwhelmed sometimes it feels like them all 🤣
Love your shirt !
Thanks. i do under stand what you are saying. i live my whole life one day at a time, i am not wanted . and was never wanted, I'm a senior and just trying to figure out who i am and why i am not wanted. i am a very kind and giving person. but no one stay in my life. i was in talk therapy but that made me very angry. i don't feel like repeating the same sad story over and over, well thanks
Wow! 1st Question happens to me alot, I thought it was my ADHD! I also have Terrible Time Blindness, late for almost everything, but also, weeks seem like days, years way quicker. For example, I talked to someone and I had thought a year or 2 passed.. he pointed out it was 6 years! I wonder how much of my life I have some sort of disassociation. Also have anxiety and CPSTD. Would love a video or feedback on this! TY ❤
I had an abusive mother. She was manic and possibly bi-polar as well. I do not share with many people as I feel everyone is dealing with their own issues. She attempted to take my life. She took her own as well. As a super empath, it is sometimes crippling to feel everything everyone else is feeling along with dealing with past trauma and in a narcissist relationship.
Hi thanks for the podcast, I was recently made aware through a few different circumstances which led me to now know my horrifying nightmares as a “toddler” wasn’t nightmares. It have now been 23 days since “this” happened, I’ve C-PTSD, adhd and autism, and my psychiatrist has been made aware this happened and have written a referral for the ptsd psychologist to help evaluate me, but now I’ve changed my mind! Is it alright for me to think that I’m actually better without therapy? I’m asking because a very close friend (who know) asked how I was doing and I said it’s getting better, but I’ve been crying almost the rest of the day. Had my friend not asked, then had I continued to block it out! I feel so close to blocking it back out where it needs to be! Because I really really really don’t want to deal with this. I was not prepared! I ask you because you don’t know me, and I therefore hope to get a constructive answer. I really feel better blocking this out. I felt great before and I feel time will get me there again. I hope that make sense?
With kindness and respect, Grace
Thank you Kati,, I'm learning more and more from you about my childhood trauma. ❣️😀👍
About depression determining empty vs nothing. >In my mind, it seems as if there are negative symptoms (as described with schizophrenia) like something was taken away. (That was once there)
Nothing would be described as something that never was. Yet we miss it somehow anyways.
1:37 trigger happens in 1,000th second according to one study😊
Can you discuss for a topic about childhood emotional abuse or neglect and the affects it has towards both psychological and physiological health? I was severely emotionally abused as a child under constant stress so I do not handle stress well at all in fact I show clear physiological signs of stress and PTSD.
Recently, when I began to consider my future, I saw and felt mouthing. It meant I had no reason to live. I'm 67. I can contemplate my death. I still struggle.
Just love you you are soo down to earth your the best
Thanks, Kati
To my mind, emptiness is like a vacuum, wanting for something to fill it, and we may not have any idea what would fill it, just that haunting feeling something's missing.
Feeling nothing, or feeling numb, is an experience with a couple of meds that left me with the thought that feeling nothing is better than the negative feelings that depression brings, even if that meant sacrificing any positive feelings.
Good work.
Great video!!! :D
The first question is 100% me.
I was wondering how I could send a question to Kati? Can someone help me?
You just need to go to the Community tab of this channel on Sundays - when Kati posts a call for questions, you put your question in the comments. It helps to get your question in as soon as possible after she posts the post, as most of the questions are chosen based on how many people thumbs-up it! One question every week is chosen randomly. Alternately, if you can afford it, joining her Patreon at $20 a month lets you ask her one question every month to be answered in a Patreon-only livestream.
Here is the Community tab link: www.youtube.com/@OTDM/community
Ahh I was on a device which doesn't support community posts, thanks:)
Love the shirt
There's protein in salads if you put it there =P Legumes, nuts, seeds, etc. :)
In my experience dissociation feels like you're under water.
Too much happened. Too much loss. Every day is a marathon.
AKA & OTDM. Kati hello only just catching up and watching and listening to new AKA podcast you looked beautiful here nice top sutes you and nice lipgloss .I am lucky to have had a week away on holiday to 1 of my favourite places .my mental health was mangable my mood and emotions was calm and relaxed for a week. I didn't feel very depressed. but I was getting anxious and anxiety though .due to the amount of people that were around me and the environment I was In .I just returned home yesterday Friday.anyway there was a lot of good important mental health questions on this podcast I can relate to question 2 😢and question 5 😢❤❤❤
Me and my children have that from being best by ignorant liars
🤍🤍!!!
Me and my kids never had a gun
34:37 I’m filled with cracked antique china and poorly packed nitroglycerin. Stay away from me for your own safety 😰
Well that’s lame you only answer Q’s to people who are paying $20 to you monthly ? I def won’t be subscribing to you bc let’s not forget you get paid for ALL VIEWS!