every night i am drunk and i go back to this album, every time i think of my twin sister. the unlucky one, dying from something that i never had. i think about how it should have been me, in the hospice, in the morgue, in the grave. but for some reason i was chosen to stay. perhaps so i can remember how beautiful and how truly awful she was, slowly dying before my eyes. someone with my face, wasting away. every time i think it was a mistake. i should have been the one to go. but still, i am here. a soul without a half. only there to remember her.
This album has helped me through so much. When I was four my mom got diagnosed with stage four breast cancer, so cancer was just something that I lived around a lot. Her cancer had gone into remission a few years back, but last year it went out of remission and we were sure she was gonna die. But we were wrong. Instead it was my dad who had lung cancer that wasn't caught until it was too late. I had to take care of him, lift him up just so he could drink. He went from a strong truck driver who handled fixing everything in the house to just skin and bones... This album really made it easier to get through, every night I would put it on and fall asleep. The day he died I was playing "wake" on guitar in my room. I miss him so much and I wish I could tell him how much he meant to me, even though I never showed it.
I think you showed him through how much you helped him. It takes a lot to be there for people at their lowest and hardest points. It's messy, and hard and important.
Just came in to say this is one of the best records I've ever heard. Truly one to come back to in 20 years time. While I'm writing this I'm reminded of what my Grandfather used to say about his favorite book, "Siddharta" by Hesse. He said that you could read it in every stage of your life and new aspects of the book would reveal themselves to you. No reading would be like the others. I feel the same here. Thank you.
@@zorkk2000 I don't think that, but i think that people should not just listen to this and listen to their other stuff, especially their second album, In the Attic of the Universe, IMO it's a better album than hospice
A friend of mine just told me her old best friend is being moved to a hospice. She has cirrhosis and only family are allowed to visit. I have had the misfortune of knowing many people whose lives were cut short and it never gets easier. I never want to give up or lose empathy. I remember stumbling upon this album shortly after it's release, a dear friend and former lover had just passed away a couple months prior. This album reminds me of so many people now.
oh boy, they finally made an album that makes me cry about my two biggest traumas simultaneously, an abusive relationship AND the death of a loved one via terminal illness. Thank you Antlers! ^_^
Bear hits so close to home it should be a crime. the guilt one feels after such a decision will weigh on them forever. Bear nails that feeling and describes it in vivid detail. Two is another spot on song. the emotions this album goes through are so raw and personal. truly an absolute masterpiece.
man, the way certain lines and melodies are repeated throughout the album tie it all together so well, thematically. the consistency of this album is so magnificent.
A masterpiece beyond words. This is the only album that comes close to, and could arguably beat, In the Aeroplane over the sea. The sadness, the beauty, the joy, the subject matter. The final track especially is so, so wonderful and haunting. It's an album as close to great literature I've heard, and melodies that are just as brilliant as the words they accompany. Sometimes it seems like an absolute miracle that such a work of art could come into existence. It makes you wonder how deeply someone had to feel to write this.
My wife just broke up with me and will leave me soon (taking our 2 kids with her)... this album is just what I need now.. The lines: "Tell me when you think that we became so unhappy Wearing silver rings with nobody clapping When we moved here together we were so disappointed Sleeping out of tune with our dreams disjointed" is so accurate that it kills me everytime...
Ok, wow, didn't think I was gonna cry tonight. I always thought this album was specifically about losing to someone to illness. I guess that's the beauty of it, is we can all find ways to relate. Reading the lyrics, I cannot believe how much I relate in the sense of being in an abusive relationship. God damn. What a timeless record. I hope anybody who can relate to this album in anyway is able to find peace. We're all going through it, but that doesn't mean we can't support each other.
The callback of "His/your face is up against yours/mine and you're/I'm too terrified to speak" is sooooo. Really drives home the point of Sylvia being a troubled and traumatised person and creating another troubled and traumatised person as a result.
I know this isnt really my place to vent, being I saw some comments that were pretty upsetting. But I'd like to just say, the line, "The bone that had abused you" hit harder then how my dad would. I come here and play this nearly every night reminding myself of my past, through the sexual assaults too the suave abuse. And knowing how strong I was to make it ontop, half of the time I think the abuse I've gone through was nothing, being my mom and dad would always tell me, "My mom would've went way harder" just to put the hammer of guilt upon me. But, its songs like these that just open me up like a book, and allows me to just cry my pain out. I've never really vented to anyone, I avoided pills, therapy, being that after years of endless abuse and being put down everytime I tried fighting back. And not too long ago, I tried to take my own life. I've tried 3 times now, and well everytime I try, I just get flash backs and waves of guilt leading me to fail every single time, but to only step foot back on the chair. And wear my necklace of freedom. But I won't say too much being I still think what I've been through Isn't worse then having to take care of your mom and dad with cancer. Or being stuck with emotional abuse. Take care everyone. This road is rocky, but the wheels are only stronger on the flat end.
I hope you're doing well or at least still alive, but, like, y'know I hope about you in a caring way Your pain deserves to be, it's still just as valid as other's I've suffered through medical neglect, sexual, physical and of course emotional abuse done to me by my family On top of that, I was forced by circumstances to take care of my dying father and watch him go through all the stages of abuse that happens in my family To me, personally The death of the most loved person in my life was way easier to accept and live through than all the neglect and unjustice done to me and people I loved, I am fine with death to the point of trying to take my life dozens of times- I feel you. You deserve love and help like all of us do and I hope you'll get better.
it is soothing to cry with people - even if we cry for different things. The road to recovery is the road back to you and who you ought to be, and deserve.
Hey. You are a living, breathing, work of art. Don’t give up on yourself and remember that your light is a star in the darkest night, inspiring all of us.
I loved this album but listening to it after breaking up from not so happy relationship still feeling a lot of guilt and grief, it hits different. Too much even
I know why this album was written; I just cut my arm tag; coroner called it. Unfortunately for them Im a repeat customer. Love and life are both a complex clusterfuck of awful to deal with sometimes.
This album encompasses my first 8 year relationship experience to an alcoholic. To those who resonate with the “unsaveable” side, just remember that it takes time and the right people who understand you. Don’t give up on yourself just because one person doesn’t get you. You are worth it and you are good enough.
@Dante Snyder i respond to you 'live' while listening to snl boys dance party lol :p 'eclectic' taste Also, me commenting 'swagalicious' on this vid will be one of my 'life moments' i see flash before my eyes lol :)
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every night i am drunk and i go back to this album, every time i think of my twin sister. the unlucky one, dying from something that i never had. i think about how it should have been me, in the hospice, in the morgue, in the grave. but for some reason i was chosen to stay. perhaps so i can remember how beautiful and how truly awful she was, slowly dying before my eyes. someone with my face, wasting away. every time i think it was a mistake. i should have been the one to go. but still, i am here. a soul without a half. only there to remember her.
This album has helped me through so much. When I was four my mom got diagnosed with stage four breast cancer, so cancer was just something that I lived around a lot. Her cancer had gone into remission a few years back, but last year it went out of remission and we were sure she was gonna die. But we were wrong. Instead it was my dad who had lung cancer that wasn't caught until it was too late. I had to take care of him, lift him up just so he could drink. He went from a strong truck driver who handled fixing everything in the house to just skin and bones... This album really made it easier to get through, every night I would put it on and fall asleep. The day he died I was playing "wake" on guitar in my room. I miss him so much and I wish I could tell him how much he meant to me, even though I never showed it.
I'm so sorry for your loss...
shuddup
Ditto
I think you showed him through how much you helped him. It takes a lot to be there for people at their lowest and hardest points. It's messy, and hard and important.
Just came in to say this is one of the best records I've ever heard. Truly one to come back to in 20 years time.
While I'm writing this I'm reminded of what my Grandfather used to say about his favorite book, "Siddharta" by Hesse. He said that you could read it in every stage of your life and new aspects of the book would reveal themselves to you. No reading would be like the others.
I feel the same here.
Thank you.
i think its good but its over rated
Well said
Inspiring comment. Thanks.
Yeah who's to rate anything anyway?
@@zorkk2000 I don't think that, but i think that people should not just listen to this and listen to their other stuff, especially their second album, In the Attic of the Universe, IMO it's a better album than hospice
This is the only album that I've ever cried from.
viklepikle a crow looked at me is suicidecore straight up
Oh wow.
bruh moment right there
Huh, I'm not sure rather to laugh or not.
Same, and it gets me every single time.
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Tracklist:
0:00 Prologue
2:34 Kettering
7:38 Sylvia
13:00 Atrophy
20:37 Bear
24:33 Thirteen
27:35 Two
33:27 Shiva
37:08 Wake
45:53 Epilogue
MVP
A friend of mine just told me her old best friend is being moved to a hospice.
She has cirrhosis and only family are allowed to visit.
I have had the misfortune of knowing many people whose lives were cut short and it never gets easier.
I never want to give up or lose empathy.
I remember stumbling upon this album shortly after it's release, a dear friend and former lover had just passed away a couple months prior.
This album reminds me of so many people now.
oh boy, they finally made an album that makes me cry about my two biggest traumas simultaneously, an abusive relationship AND the death of a loved one via terminal illness. Thank you Antlers! ^_^
Bear hits so close to home it should be a crime. the guilt one feels after such a decision will weigh on them forever. Bear nails that feeling and describes it in vivid detail. Two is another spot on song. the emotions this album goes through are so raw and personal. truly an absolute masterpiece.
Couldn't have spoken those words any better myself.
man, the way certain lines and melodies are repeated throughout the album tie it all together so well, thematically. the consistency of this album is so magnificent.
A masterpiece beyond words. This is the only album that comes close to, and could arguably beat, In the Aeroplane over the sea. The sadness, the beauty, the joy, the subject matter. The final track especially is so, so wonderful and haunting. It's an album as close to great literature I've heard, and melodies that are just as brilliant as the words they accompany. Sometimes it seems like an absolute miracle that such a work of art could come into existence. It makes you wonder how deeply someone had to feel to write this.
It is to me the greatest concept album of all time - better than Pink Floyd's The Wall.
Epilogue and Sylvia really hit different after losing someone
Epilogue absolutely broke me after losing my mum to cancer.4 years on and the first 5 seconds ruin me.
My wife just broke up with me and will leave me soon (taking our 2 kids with her)... this album is just what I need now..
The lines: "Tell me when you think that we became so unhappy
Wearing silver rings with nobody clapping
When we moved here together we were so disappointed
Sleeping out of tune with our dreams disjointed" is so accurate that it kills me everytime...
And possibly all your fault.
Fucking Karen give the kids back you harlot
@@shannonharvey8300 twat
I hope you are doing alright now, friend.
@@shannonharvey8300 damn, you're kinda a piece of shit, huh?
Ok, wow, didn't think I was gonna cry tonight. I always thought this album was specifically about losing to someone to illness. I guess that's the beauty of it, is we can all find ways to relate. Reading the lyrics, I cannot believe how much I relate in the sense of being in an abusive relationship. God damn. What a timeless record. I hope anybody who can relate to this album in anyway is able to find peace. We're all going through it, but that doesn't mean we can't support each other.
YOU GUYS NEED MORE RECOGNITION OH MY GOD THIS WERE THE BEST MINUTES IN MY LIFE.
The callback of "His/your face is up against yours/mine and you're/I'm too terrified to speak" is sooooo. Really drives home the point of Sylvia being a troubled and traumatised person and creating another troubled and traumatised person as a result.
best discovery during covid19 isolation
Believe that shit homeboy
I know this isnt really my place to vent, being I saw some comments that were pretty upsetting. But I'd like to just say, the line, "The bone that had abused you" hit harder then how my dad would. I come here and play this nearly every night reminding myself of my past, through the sexual assaults too the suave abuse. And knowing how strong I was to make it ontop, half of the time I think the abuse I've gone through was nothing, being my mom and dad would always tell me, "My mom would've went way harder" just to put the hammer of guilt upon me. But, its songs like these that just open me up like a book, and allows me to just cry my pain out. I've never really vented to anyone, I avoided pills, therapy, being that after years of endless abuse and being put down everytime I tried fighting back. And not too long ago, I tried to take my own life. I've tried 3 times now, and well everytime I try, I just get flash backs and waves of guilt leading me to fail every single time, but to only step foot back on the chair. And wear my necklace of freedom. But I won't say too much being I still think what I've been through Isn't worse then having to take care of your mom and dad with cancer. Or being stuck with emotional abuse.
Take care everyone. This road is rocky, but the wheels are only stronger on the flat end.
I hope you're doing well or at least still alive, but, like, y'know I hope about you in a caring way
Your pain deserves to be, it's still just as valid as other's
I've suffered through medical neglect, sexual, physical and of course emotional abuse done to me by my family
On top of that, I was forced by circumstances to take care of my dying father and watch him go through all the stages of abuse that happens in my family
To me, personally
The death of the most loved person in my life was way easier to accept and live through than all the neglect and unjustice done to me and people I loved, I am fine with death to the point of trying to take my life dozens of times- I feel you. You deserve love and help like all of us do and I hope you'll get better.
it is soothing to cry with people - even if we cry for different things. The road to recovery is the road back to you and who you ought to be, and deserve.
Hey. You are a living, breathing, work of art. Don’t give up on yourself and remember that your light is a star in the darkest night, inspiring all of us.
This still hits deep in 2024. Cheers!
This album is brilliant
this album is badass
absolutely phenomenal album
I loved this album but listening to it after breaking up from not so happy relationship still feeling a lot of guilt and grief, it hits different. Too much even
you guys are way to underrated!!!!
Atrophy is really good
Merci Sense 8 !
Yeah Sense 8 helped us find Kettering, so much grateful
merci
This is the fucking album of my LIFE. ♡
Gracias a dios los volví a encontrar
Oh Thanks a lot.
Underrated af
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I know why this album was written; I just cut my arm tag; coroner called it. Unfortunately for them Im a repeat customer. Love and life are both a complex clusterfuck of awful to deal with sometimes.
This album encompasses my first 8 year relationship experience to an alcoholic. To those who resonate with the “unsaveable” side, just remember that it takes time and the right people who understand you. Don’t give up on yourself just because one person doesn’t get you. You are worth it and you are good enough.
#2019
Lvl me mate 2020 :p
@Dante Snyder swagalicious *cringes* :)
@Dante Snyder i respond to you 'live' while listening to snl boys dance party lol :p 'eclectic' taste
Also, me commenting 'swagalicious' on this vid will be one of my 'life moments' i see flash before my eyes lol :)
@Dante Snyder Good wishes to you friend :) was good to interact with a nice person on the internet for once :)
truly this is a boy dance party (I need to get a sex change first but whatever) :D