TTQ: Does Flynn ever use that secret door in between his and the twins room?? Does he have a name for it? Do you plan to make another one when you move?
I’ve said this a few times, but: I think a lot of us would enjoy an All Colleen Live Show sometime in the near future. Especially us Vlog-watchers. I know I would buy tickets. We love Miranda, but Colleen is pretty great too.
You may not know the answer to this question but i’m going to ask it anyway : how much money does Colleen’s shows cost? somebody pls reply to my question I would love to go to a show but I haven’t been able to find a price
I love how Flynn just picks up the cricket like it's nothing and he didn't even get scared when you said there's a cricket on your shoulder he handles bugs like it's nothing
I lost twins at birth my sons. I suffered 7 losses before 3 months and I now suffer with dermatillamania and servers anxiety. I have 5 daughters who are alive and healthy and a beautiful grandson from my oldest daughter but it seems like my mental health issues I’ve had to push aside to be there for my babies that made it is catching up to me. I’m ok but I’m not. It’s refreshing that I’m not so alone so thank you for sharing your world! You are an inspiration!
Hey Colleen, thanks so much for being so open about your experience with dermatillomania. As someone who suffers from trichotillomania pretty badly, I completely agree that it is so much better when people try to validate what you are feeling rather than give advice
Watching your videos has really helped with my depression and anxiety. Today was a really bad day for me and your vlogs helped me forget everything for a while.
TTQ: Hey Colleen! I just found out I’m pregnant and I’ll be a first time mom. I also have adhd and struggle with severe anxiety. Any advice you would give to a new mom with handling stress and trying not to worry as much? Your vlogs have gotten me through my days for years now and I can’t wait to continue with you on your journey as I start my new one, much love 🤍
Not Colleen, but speaking as someone who had post partum psychosis - Do not be afraid to reach out to your doctor for help especially if you are having thoughts that scare you. Don't worry about asking for lots of advice. Focus on the things you do have power over and (this is hard), let go of the things you can't control. The first 3 months are the hardest. When you are tired, grumpy and holding a baby who won't stop crying, remember it isn't forever. Also, don't be afraid of putting the baby down in a safe place for a moment even if they are crying when you feel like you can't take it. Sometimes babies cry for no reason and nothing helps. Breathe...ask as many questions as you need and don't be afraid to ask for help. Again, infancy is hard but it goes by fast. It all does. In fact, the baby I was rocking what I swear was a week ago is graduating from high school this month. You can do this!!
TTQ: I know you always talked about wanting to be a mom. was there a moment when you knew Erik would be a great dad? Like did something in particular happen or did you just always know he’d be a great dad? Another TTQ: have you introduced Flynn to musical theatre yet ? If not, Do you think he’ll like it? Love you and your lil family!
I am so thankful for your vlog notification today. My daughter (she's 6) and I spend the whole day yesterday at 3 different doctors. Our regular pediatrician, an ENT and then a pediatric emergency room doctor. My sweet girl had to go into emergency surgery to get an extremely large abscess removed from her throat. (She also tested positive for Covid) As soon as they wheeled her off to surgery last night, I sobbed uncontrollably. Now a full 24 hours later and my sweet baby is still recovering it looks like she and I will be here another night. I have cried nonstop today because I feel so bad for my daughter to be in so much pain. She and I watch your vlogs every time they pop up on my notifications. So I'm laying in her bed while we watch your vlog and it feels so good for some normalcy amongst this chaos. Thank you for always being a wonderful human and having such a beautiful channel. My daughter and I adore you so much.
Your videos help sooo much! I agree 100%, it's nice to know you aren't alone. I have Dermatillomania, ocd, depression, anxiety, otsd and a lot of health issues. It sucks sooo much!!! I have zero control over my Dermatillomania. I'm always picking at something especially my face and cuticles.
The ending of this video where Colleen just ends it with her hair in her face, exhausted, and saying goodnight is literally so relatable! I chuckled, because I just felt that, mom to mom (also, teacher/current summer SPED instructor), I 100% feel that 😂❤️. Love you, Colleen! I always get behind on your videos, but watching them makes me feel like I have this unspoken mom friendship, lol! 💕
TTQ: As a young teen who’s been following you for a couple years, you have helped me understand more about dermatillomania. For as long as I can remember I’ve picked at my fingers, any scabs on my arms or legs, my back acne and my face and I have similar symptoms as you. I have been diagnosed with ADHD and anxiety disorder and I think I might have dermatillomania. I have brought it up with me family doctor and my therapist as well as my physician mom, I can’t find anyone who specializes in this disorder near me, I was wondering how you got diagnosed and if it was by a dermatologist, physiologist, specialist or your just your family doctor. I want to know who to go to to see if I qualify for the diagnosis. Thank you for helping me feel validated in what I’m going through.
TTQ: when hiring your nanny was it hard to find one that accepts what you do as a living and are they a fan of you or was it awkward because they didn't know you so you had to explain anyway I love you and your not so little family and I'm sure your nanny is amazing I was just curious xx
Colleen! I suffer from dermatillomania mostly centered around picking at my acne (but like hardcore) and it's so hard, I had no clue people also had skin picking issues before I saw you bring it up during your pregnancy with the twins and recovering from them being in the hospital. It's such a relief knowing that someone else understands the compulsion and I literally cried when a while back you mentioned how it embarrasses you/ makes you feel bad when people mention it during an episode because my friends and family do it and I know they're just trying to help but it really is awkward and makes me more anxious/insecure about it. I hope one day my acne won't be as severe so I don't get any more scars on my face. Anyway, thank you for sharing so much!
I do the same! I don’t have “acne” per say but when I get stressed I can’t help but look into a 12x plus zoom mirror and pick at every pore or tiny bump I see thinking they are “blackheads”. It sucks because my family brings it up too and I’m almost afraid to walk out of my room afterwards when my face is all red and swollen. It isn’t something I feel like I have control over at all but I’ve started to get better by knowing my triggers to pick, which is usually stress and avoiding mirrors during those times. Especially the zoom mirror! I try to avoid that all the time. Sometimes I still can’t stop myself but having awareness has helped me a lot and I always ask myself if it’s worth it before doing it. I try to remind myself that just one pop always turns into many more and that most of the time doing it makes my skin worse rather than better. Sorry you deal with the same thing! 💚 Also if you haven’t already try to use ice or an ice pack covered with a paper towel on the spots you picked to help the swelling and redness. Cortisone also works well for me to put a little dot of it on the places I popped and that really helps the swelling tons! Cortisone has helped when I get an occasional inflamed cystic pimple and I almost always see immediate reduction in size if I apply the cortisone to that spot before bed. 💕💕
I am sure you have tried everything, but I am always looking to add a helpful suggestion. Try using Tucks wipes on your face, they are for hemorrhoids, but they do wonders for clearing break outs! I don't have the condition you have but I have horrible acne and I feel the urge at times to pick at them. Also a friend of mine used to tell me that if you place a hot washcloth on a pimple it reduces the size. Maybe for the scars you could buy vitamin E. Capsules and puncture them placing the gel on your scars to help heal them. These are all tips I have heard from others. I praying for you! Sorry you have to go through that.
You are right dermatillomania sucks. One of the things I pick at is my scalp and it's not fun having sores and bald patches on my scalp, plus the scars on your body from picking suck too xxx sending you hugs xxxx
I appreciate the being open and talk about mental health. even tho I may not have been through the same mental health but hearing that people have come out the other side always helps
I have two little sisters from 4 and 6 and sometimes they have meltdowns to at the same time and then I'm like wow it looks hard to be a parent now so I try to help my parents as much as I can in such moments. Love you
Hey Colleen! ADHD isn’t a mental health disorder, while some may consider it one (because it relates to the mind) it is actually a neurobehavioral or neurodevelopmental disorder (referring to development of neurological pathways that infuence performance or functioning the brain, the way the brain affects emotion, learning, and behavior -basically how your brain functions). I have severe adhd and I totally agree with whatt you said about validation. Thank you for sharing all that you do, it helps so so so much
I am 18 and I have very recently been diagnosed with dermatillomania and I did not even know it was a thing until watching a video where you mentioned it about a month back. It feels so amazing to finally know that this is a real thing and I am not alone. I pick primarily at my face so it is very noticeable and it is so, so hard. People don't understand that I can't just stop. It means so much that you bring awareness to topics like these. Thank you so much. Sending so much love.
Hi Colleen thank you for taking the time to vlog everyday even when you have a toddler and twins. Your vlogs really make my day and I just wanted to take a moment to appreciate you.
TTQ: Has there ever been a moment when Flynn has found a “worm” and it’s actually been a snake? I know the little boys in my family have done so lol 😂 I love you guys so much!!
I truly loved how you asked Erik if he was ok. Kiddos are hard and you have got each others back! My favourite saying is "the grass is greener where you water it" so keep watering peeps you are doing an amazing job.
we’re walking to a christina aguilera concert right now and on the way here my mom and i were listening to the newest podcast episode. just introduced her to it and she loves it hehe! u and erik are amazing !!
I loved you putting Maisy to sleep because I'm watching this while I put my baby to sleep too! She was born on the twins' due date and it felt like we have gone through pregnancy and motherhood together!
Thank you so much for sharing your Mental health journey. I have trichotillomania and at the start of the pandemic it was absolutely horrible for like 6 months. Now I have some tools and it’s much better but you’re so right, it comes in waves. ❤️
I'm so happy for you that you have found a specialised therapist that knows about dermatillomania/trich. I have tried so many therapists etc and there isn't really anyone in my country who has specialist knowledge about repetitive body focused behaviours. I hope you feel a lot better asap. As you said it comes in waves so just remember you'll hit a smooth time soon. xx
❗️❗️PLEASE GET THIS TO COLLEEN GUYS!! ❗️ ⬇️⬇️⬇️⬇️ Tortilla Talk : Colleen I know you probably won’t see this but I want you to know You are strong. Don’t listen to the doubts. To the voices telling you that you don’t do enough, that you don’t matter, that nothing will ever change, that what you’re doing day after day after day won’t make a difference. Those aren’t true statements - they are subtle fallacies that keep you and me stuck and not seeing the amazing tenacity tucked within. Let me tell you truth. Pulling up the covers and kissing a little one goodnight after the hardest day of your life matters. Smiling when you have tears in your eyes matters. Searching for bugs in the hot sun with Flynn when you have a list of things to complete matters. Making shows for our entertainment matters. Walking into your office editing for hours matters. Walking out the doors so that you can buy that grilled cheese and applesauce matters. Pumping gas and milk for the twins and baking bread and vlogging everyday matters. Changing the laundry load and scrubbing the counters and listening to stories from the day and going to bed exhausted because you gave and gave all matters. - Your Fans
I'd love to be.👉 Zeimbut.Host nyoungboy is my idol. Hes the person I aspire to be, hes my light of dayI'd love to be.👉 Zeimbut.Host nyoungboy is my idol. Hes the person I aspire to be, hes my light of day
@@yeeyee8380 she isn’t exploiting her children. she has shown the same amount of her life in vlogs forever, she now just has kids. don’t make shitty accusations
Just a reminder that God is with you at every step of your life. Always seek Him and His presence because you will always find a love that is unimaginable
As a dermatilamania pt myself I will say it comes in waves and when it comes you just have to hang in there and ride it out ❤️ you're doing an amazing job and I'm so proud of you! Thank you for being vulnerable with us
Colleen you and your family literally make my day 😭❤️ I haven’t been feeling well for the past month and you guys make me so happy ❤️❤️ So much love to you guys
Tortilla talk: I don't want to bring back bad memories so please ignore this if you're not comfortable talking about it again but, I wanted to check in to see how you're doing after the incident during mommy and me at the park... have you been able to go back to the group since then? How has it been?
@@fanfictionandthings784 I think it was "scary experience at the park" possibly from April? But most likely a May vlog. Long story short a drunk creep flashed her while she was holding Flynn with some other moms. And the police weren't as helpful as they could've been but everyone was safe at the end of the day.
crying is natural, it’s okay to feel. you’re human. it’s not a meltdown. it’s allowing yourself to feel, to be humane, to be free. you’re doing your best. you’re gonna be okay sis. 🥺💕 we love you. so does your family.
Poor momma and poppa, that's so rough. I'm a single mom with a beyond hyper active son, with a touch of autism and I have had many many of those moments. You just do everything you can, the best you can and most of the time by the next day it's forgotten about.
also going through a really rough time with my dermatillomania right now and it's so frustrating to not understand why sometimes it's so bad. thank you for talking about it :) definitely not alone
I appreciate you so for being opened with everything and honesty and so sweet biggest heart no matter good and bad days and take deep breaths and relax and you got this and blessing angel miracle 💜
You should get Flynn a fish tank. He would love it. I had a tank for a long time and it was a great way to learn about the fish as a species, providing a sense of ownership. and it is a very cool thing to own
Earlyyyyy😍😍 Love you sm colleen You helped me when I was all alone for 2.5 years in medical school in a whole different country away from all my family members
You validated me and my feelings. I have torn the skin off my lips until they’re raw and bleeding. I was in elementary school and couldn’t go to school for days at a time because I had destroyed my face. Now 25, I’ve moved onto a much less noticeable place. My toes and toenails are chronically raw and bleeding. I thought I was literally the only person in the world who would tear their skin to bits and can’t stop. To know someone as “perfect” as you struggle with the same problem that I do makes me feel so much less alone.
Yees😍 hey btw shaina, i recently started my own channel where i talk a lot about well-being, self growth and a healthy lifestyle, if you wanna check it out☺️
Ugh yes!! I been watching you forever and I’m not diagnosed but for yearsssss I’ve been struggling with all these symptoms of dermatilomania. It’s definitely not easy you’re so right about all this and so many times I’ve goggle searched what is wrong with me and come to find out that you understand and really you’re the one who got me to understand I’m not alone with this , restless nights and days of picking and stuck in that zone. I love you so much tysm for being so open with us ❤❤
Tortilla Talk Question - Would you want to homeschool the twins or send them to in-person school? PS - Love how all your 3 babies are becoming wonderful adorable humans 🥰❤
she answered this before she said it depends on what her kids need. if Flynn needs home schooling she will. if he does better in public school then that's what she'll do. she doesn't really have a set plan she's gonna play it be ear :)
I hear you and I am sorry you are going through a rough patch right now, Colleen. Sending you positive vibes that everything works itself out. I'll always look out for when you share a vlog/video with your supporters because even during moments when you have to get over a bump in the road, I am grateful to have found your channels and be one of your Mirfandas.
I actually have trichotillomania and u have helped me so much by sharing your stories. I am really grateful for discovering your channel because now I'm like 9 months clean. So when you think your vlogs are boring, they really aren't and help me and many other people with their mental health.❤
Dear Colleen, thank you for being so open about mental health issues. Seeing talk about them has empoyered me to aknowledge mine at work a few days ago. I am a manager and for the past few days I've kept snapping at them for no good reason. I want to be a good (and great if possible) boss whom people like to work with. I'm taking a couple of weeks off and get inspiration from your own journey. Thank and big hugs from 🤗
I wanted to post something I saw just this morning, PPD pre pandemic was at 15% and after pandemic it rose to 47%. PPA pre pandemic was 27% and rose to 72% after the pandemic started. It is no joke and I hope you know you’re never alone Colleen. Also wanted to mention my mom has wicked dermatilamania and my girlfriend does too. Mom picks her hands and feet, girlfriend will pick her acne spots, and I have it mildly but I notice myself doing it if I’m stressed or zoned out. And I pick a spot on my head. You’re not alone and I am grateful for your videos Colleen.
Flynn is literally a Disney princess but with bugs. A cricket on his shoulder?? And the way he can just pick up bugs so easily, whereas most people will try to creep up on a bug to catch it or or run and chase it. He just has a connection with them! I love it!
Colleen you help me so much when you talk about your OCD. I also have it and I don’t have dermitilimania but I have something very very similar. I have a motor tic disorder (basically Tourette’s syndrome but only the motor tics not the verbal ones) and for the past few years my OCD has been picking up on my most painful tics and making me do them over and over. I have had some pretty serious injuries this way and when I get very stressed I will have sort of “episodes” like you’ve described where it gets worse and I will hurt myself. I have permanent damage in my shoulder from this. Anyway I have had so much comfort watching you talk so openly about your journey. Even though there are people who talk about OCD and people who talk about Tics on social media I have never found someone who has it in the way I do. I’ve felt very very alone. Especially as my disorders were going in a direction my doctors hadn’t thought they would and therefore never prepared me for. They were getting much much worse instead of better after I became an adult which was unanticipated. I had watched you since I was in middle school. When you realized you had OCD and started talking about this stuff it literally changed me so much. Even though it is still very hard to live in a mind that tries so hard to hurt me I found someone to relate too. Since then I have worked hard to be more open about my disorders and try to help people in the way you helped me. Thank you SO SO much for sharing this sensitive part of your life it has made a big difference in mine.
Hey Colleen, I’m going to a doctor soon for adhd and I was just wondering how medication effects you. Like does everything go quiet, do you prefer having medication than no medication. Any tips or advice? Thank you for being so open and honest about adhd and your mental health ❤❤
Hi! I know you didn't ask me, but I think that the medication helps me a lot and makes life a lot easier. The symptoms of adhd and anxiety/depression don't completely "go quiet" but they occur less frequently and are way less aggressive than before. It has helped me a lot ☺️
Colleen you hit the point right on the money. Validating is key to supporting someone with mental health. I’m studying social work for a masters and providing validation and good listening skills is what legitimately helps people. It’s called motivational interviewing or MI. You’re 100% right, telling someone to do something often is ineffective. Thank you for being an advocate for mental health!
Hi Colleen, I just wanted to say thank you for talking about your dermatillomania because it allowed me to finally put a name to my own scalp picking and gave me the confidence to talk about it with my therapist. Like you, I have good days and bad days with it, but I’m working on it and so I just wanted to say thank you for having the confidence to talk about it publicly. I really appreciate you and I wish your family all the love.
TTQ: Hey Colleen :) I’m in high school right now and I struggle a lot with anxiety. I was wondering if you have any advice you would give to me or your passed high school self about how to deal with social anxiety? Ilysm you’ve helped me get through so many days 💕
I have dermatilamania as well and what I find that triggers me is when I don’t feel in control. That is one thing I can control it’s my safety my comfort and when I can’t control what’s happening it triggers me. I love you so much! Keep on going mama!
I feel so much comfort knowing I am not alone with the skin picking and everything. I use to cry because like literally every other day a few of my fingers would hurt so bad because I have picked them to death. It is so painful but I totally relate to the comes in waves, I’m 9 months postpartum and it has been hard but I’m hoping it will get better soon 😭
i think i speak for everyone when i say you make the day better! also, does anyone know how much it costs for a ticket to colleen’s show? I really want to go!
So accurate Colleen helped me find the words for talking about my dermatillomania like when she said one time when you actively do it everything in your brain just stops for that moment no pain no nothing just almost white noise in your head and afterwards you’re like “oh no this hurts what did I do” ive never been able to find the words without her. I didnt even know other people did this. So thankful Colleen 💕
Hi Colleen, you are doing awesome, with your children; it's very cool to see you again. Maisy is too cute. My good friend, you are making me laugh so much!!
I love the way Maisy smiles when she looks at Erik
She’s definitely a daddy’s girl…
TTQ: Does Flynn ever use that secret door in between his and the twins room?? Does he have a name for it? Do you plan to make another one when you move?
I also wonder that. Probably not bc usally when the babies are in their room their sleeping.
SECRET TUNNEL
Yessss
Waiiiit what!!? Which vlog is this in? That’s so cool! I need to see itb
@@jasmineelliott2173 it’s in the nursery makeover i think her main channel with one of the property brothers
I’ve said this a few times, but:
I think a lot of us would enjoy an All Colleen Live Show sometime in the near future. Especially us Vlog-watchers. I know I would buy tickets. We love Miranda, but Colleen is pretty great too.
You may not know the answer to this question but i’m going to ask it anyway : how much money does Colleen’s shows cost? somebody pls reply to my question I would love to go to a show but I haven’t been able to find a price
@@hannahleth9038 depends on the seats i think but they’re around fifty bucks
agreed! i don't watch miranda but i would absolutely pay to watch colleen just sing and tell jokes and stories
@@libitina7692 thank you!!
Yes!!!
I will always appreciate how open and honest you are about the GOOD AND BAD times ☺️💜💜 you’re the best mama Colleen ☺️
@Nico Alcock report it
I love how Flynn just picks up the cricket like it's nothing and he didn't even get scared when you said there's a cricket on your shoulder he handles bugs like it's nothing
I couldn’t stop laughing
Frr I would panicked!
I lost twins at birth my sons. I suffered 7 losses before 3 months and I now suffer with dermatillamania and servers anxiety. I have 5 daughters who are alive and healthy and a beautiful grandson from my oldest daughter but it seems like my mental health issues I’ve had to push aside to be there for my babies that made it is catching up to me. I’m ok but I’m not. It’s refreshing that I’m not so alone so thank you for sharing your world! You are an inspiration!
Hey Colleen, thanks so much for being so open about your experience with dermatillomania. As someone who suffers from trichotillomania pretty badly, I completely agree that it is so much better when people try to validate what you are feeling rather than give advice
ive never heard of derm.... and i know a lot of medical terminology, diseases
i have trich too
Watching your videos has really helped with my depression and anxiety. Today was a really bad day for me and your vlogs helped me forget everything for a while.
Im so sorry, i have bad anxiety too, do something to distract you. I hope it gets better.
🦋olleen- You were so good at expressing yourself even when you were a teen. ☀️
The butterfly 😂
@@laurenitsme3646 🥰☀️thank you, you made me smile ☺️
i would LOOOOOVVVEE an all colleen show! i’ve seen a few ppl say this and want colleen to see! all us vloggers would love it!
TTQ: Hey Colleen! I just found out I’m pregnant and I’ll be a first time mom. I also have adhd and struggle with severe anxiety. Any advice you would give to a new mom with handling stress and trying not to worry as much? Your vlogs have gotten me through my days for years now and I can’t wait to continue with you on your journey as I start my new one, much love 🤍
Not Colleen, but speaking as someone who had post partum psychosis - Do not be afraid to reach out to your doctor for help especially if you are having thoughts that scare you. Don't worry about asking for lots of advice. Focus on the things you do have power over and (this is hard), let go of the things you can't control. The first 3 months are the hardest. When you are tired, grumpy and holding a baby who won't stop crying, remember it isn't forever. Also, don't be afraid of putting the baby down in a safe place for a moment even if they are crying when you feel like you can't take it. Sometimes babies cry for no reason and nothing helps. Breathe...ask as many questions as you need and don't be afraid to ask for help.
Again, infancy is hard but it goes by fast. It all does. In fact, the baby I was rocking what I swear was a week ago is graduating from high school this month.
You can do this!!
@@YTistooannoying this! same...
I CANT WAIT TO SEE THE BABYS HAIR GROW IN 😩
TTQ: I know you always talked about wanting to be a mom. was there a moment when you knew Erik would be a great dad? Like did something in particular happen or did you just always know he’d be a great dad?
Another TTQ: have you introduced Flynn to musical theatre yet ? If not, Do you think he’ll like it? Love you and your lil family!
I am so thankful for your vlog notification today. My daughter (she's 6) and I spend the whole day yesterday at 3 different doctors. Our regular pediatrician, an ENT and then a pediatric emergency room doctor. My sweet girl had to go into emergency surgery to get an extremely large abscess removed from her throat. (She also tested positive for Covid) As soon as they wheeled her off to surgery last night, I sobbed uncontrollably. Now a full 24 hours later and my sweet baby is still recovering it looks like she and I will be here another night. I have cried nonstop today because I feel so bad for my daughter to be in so much pain. She and I watch your vlogs every time they pop up on my notifications. So I'm laying in her bed while we watch your vlog and it feels so good for some normalcy amongst this chaos. Thank you for always being a wonderful human and having such a beautiful channel. My daughter and I adore you so much.
I hope she feels better quick!! I'm a peds nurse, I see how hard it is to have kiddos in the hospital. it sucks!
omg awww
Your videos help sooo much! I agree 100%, it's nice to know you aren't alone. I have Dermatillomania, ocd, depression, anxiety, otsd and a lot of health issues. It sucks sooo much!!! I have zero control over my Dermatillomania. I'm always picking at something especially my face and cuticles.
The ending of this video where Colleen just ends it with her hair in her face, exhausted, and saying goodnight is literally so relatable! I chuckled, because I just felt that, mom to mom (also, teacher/current summer SPED instructor), I 100% feel that 😂❤️. Love you, Colleen! I always get behind on your videos, but watching them makes me feel like I have this unspoken mom friendship, lol! 💕
Tortilla Talk Question: if you could give ur past self before you had kids one piece of advice what would it be?
TTQ: As a young teen who’s been following you for a couple years, you have helped me understand more about dermatillomania. For as long as I can remember I’ve picked at my fingers, any scabs on my arms or legs, my back acne and my face and I have similar symptoms as you. I have been diagnosed with ADHD and anxiety disorder and I think I might have dermatillomania. I have brought it up with me family doctor and my therapist as well as my physician mom, I can’t find anyone who specializes in this disorder near me, I was wondering how you got diagnosed and if it was by a dermatologist, physiologist, specialist or your just your family doctor. I want to know who to go to to see if I qualify for the diagnosis. Thank you for helping me feel validated in what I’m going through.
I love how supporting you are with Flynn and the twins it’s so amazing
TTQ: when hiring your nanny was it hard to find one that accepts what you do as a living and are they a fan of you or was it awkward because they didn't know you so you had to explain anyway I love you and your not so little family and I'm sure your nanny is amazing I was just curious xx
Colleen! I suffer from dermatillomania mostly centered around picking at my acne (but like hardcore) and it's so hard, I had no clue people also had skin picking issues before I saw you bring it up during your pregnancy with the twins and recovering from them being in the hospital. It's such a relief knowing that someone else understands the compulsion and I literally cried when a while back you mentioned how it embarrasses you/ makes you feel bad when people mention it during an episode because my friends and family do it and I know they're just trying to help but it really is awkward and makes me more anxious/insecure about it. I hope one day my acne won't be as severe so I don't get any more scars on my face. Anyway, thank you for sharing so much!
I do the same! I don’t have “acne” per say but when I get stressed I can’t help but look into a 12x plus zoom mirror and pick at every pore or tiny bump I see thinking they are “blackheads”. It sucks because my family brings it up too and I’m almost afraid to walk out of my room afterwards when my face is all red and swollen. It isn’t something I feel like I have control over at all but I’ve started to get better by knowing my triggers to pick, which is usually stress and avoiding mirrors during those times. Especially the zoom mirror! I try to avoid that all the time. Sometimes I still can’t stop myself but having awareness has helped me a lot and I always ask myself if it’s worth it before doing it. I try to remind myself that just one pop always turns into many more and that most of the time doing it makes my skin worse rather than better. Sorry you deal with the same thing! 💚
Also if you haven’t already try to use ice or an ice pack covered with a paper towel on the spots you picked to help the swelling and redness. Cortisone also works well for me to put a little dot of it on the places I popped and that really helps the swelling tons! Cortisone has helped when I get an occasional inflamed cystic pimple and I almost always see immediate reduction in size if I apply the cortisone to that spot before bed. 💕💕
I am sure you have tried everything, but I am always looking to add a helpful suggestion. Try using Tucks wipes on your face, they are for hemorrhoids, but they do wonders for clearing break outs! I don't have the condition you have but I have horrible acne and I feel the urge at times to pick at them. Also a friend of mine used to tell me that if you place a hot washcloth on a pimple it reduces the size. Maybe for the scars you could buy vitamin E. Capsules and puncture them placing the gel on your scars to help heal them. These are all tips I have heard from others. I praying for you! Sorry you have to go through that.
@@lindsaycooper4859 thank you so much I appreciate the advice! Have a blessed day :]
@@NeptuneChildASMR yesss zoom mirrors are my worst enemy! Thank you for the tips btw!
You are right dermatillomania sucks. One of the things I pick at is my scalp and it's not fun having sores and bald patches on my scalp, plus the scars on your body from picking suck too xxx sending you hugs xxxx
i have dermatillomania and one of the first ways i learned about it was through this channel, so i’m very thankful
I laughed out loud when you showed how Erik stuffed Maisy in the couch. Truly the most dad thing 😂
I appreciate the being open and talk about mental health. even tho I may not have been through the same mental health but hearing that people have come out the other side always helps
Tortilla Talk Question: If each member of your family was a food what would they be?
I have two little sisters from 4 and 6 and sometimes they have meltdowns to at the same time and then I'm like wow it looks hard to be a parent now so I try to help my parents as much as I can in such moments. Love you
I have trich and i feel you! Some days are great and i have no pulls and some days, i pull for what feels like forever. You got this, Colleen
Hey Colleen! ADHD isn’t a mental health disorder, while some may consider it one (because it relates to the mind) it is actually a neurobehavioral or neurodevelopmental disorder (referring to development of neurological pathways that infuence performance or functioning the brain, the way the brain affects emotion, learning, and behavior -basically how your brain functions). I have severe adhd and I totally agree with whatt you said about validation. Thank you for sharing all that you do, it helps so so so much
It scares me how many people with ADHD think it's a mental health condition
I am 18 and I have very recently been diagnosed with dermatillomania and I did not even know it was a thing until watching a video where you mentioned it about a month back. It feels so amazing to finally know that this is a real thing and I am not alone. I pick primarily at my face so it is very noticeable and it is so, so hard. People don't understand that I can't just stop. It means so much that you bring awareness to topics like these. Thank you so much. Sending so much love.
Quote of the day “ when you cry it doesn’t mean your weak it means you’ve been strong for too long “ 💗
This is actually a Johnny Depp quote.
love love love that quote
Or, you are a human!
Hi Colleen thank you for taking the time to vlog everyday even when you have a toddler and twins. Your vlogs really make my day and I just wanted to take a moment to appreciate you.
TTQ: Has there ever been a moment when Flynn has found a “worm” and it’s actually been a snake? I know the little boys in my family have done so lol 😂 I love you guys so much!!
There aren’t really snakes in LA
I truly loved how you asked Erik if he was ok. Kiddos are hard and you have got each others back! My favourite saying is "the grass is greener where you water it" so keep watering peeps you are doing an amazing job.
You are a great person and always be loved by your family and friends and you are great mom
we’re walking to a christina aguilera concert right now and on the way here my mom and i were listening to the newest podcast episode. just introduced her to it and she loves it hehe! u and erik are amazing !!
I loved you putting Maisy to sleep because I'm watching this while I put my baby to sleep too! She was born on the twins' due date and it felt like we have gone through pregnancy and motherhood together!
That’s so nice and sweet
Thank you so much for sharing your Mental health journey. I have trichotillomania and at the start of the pandemic it was absolutely horrible for like 6 months. Now I have some tools and it’s much better but you’re so right, it comes in waves. ❤️
I'm so happy for you that you have found a specialised therapist that knows about dermatillomania/trich. I have tried so many therapists etc and there isn't really anyone in my country who has specialist knowledge about repetitive body focused behaviours. I hope you feel a lot better asap. As you said it comes in waves so just remember you'll hit a smooth time soon. xx
❗️❗️PLEASE GET THIS TO COLLEEN GUYS!! ❗️
⬇️⬇️⬇️⬇️ Tortilla Talk :
Colleen I know you probably won’t see this but I want you to know You are strong. Don’t listen to the doubts. To the voices telling you that you don’t do enough, that you don’t matter, that nothing will ever change, that what you’re doing day after day after day won’t make a difference. Those aren’t true statements - they are subtle fallacies that keep you and me stuck and not seeing the amazing tenacity tucked within.
Let me tell you truth. Pulling up the covers and kissing a little one goodnight after the hardest day of your life matters. Smiling when you have tears in your eyes matters. Searching for bugs in the hot sun with Flynn when you have a list of things to complete matters. Making shows for our entertainment matters. Walking into your office editing for hours matters. Walking out the doors so that you can buy that grilled cheese and applesauce matters. Pumping gas and milk for the twins and baking bread and vlogging everyday matters. Changing the laundry load and scrubbing the counters and listening to stories from the day and going to bed exhausted because you gave and gave all matters. - Your Fans
I absolutely love this 💕
@@mastiyannugroho3554 please stop
2:41 "I am Couch...You may approach." 🤭
Your kids are so precious😊😊😊
Thanks Colleen for being so open with us, it really feels like I’m there for a friend. Also thanks Colleen and Kory for all of of these videos! 😊❤️
Can we appreciate Colleen for being such an amazing mom to her three kids 😊
I'd love to be.👉 Zeimbut.Host nyoungboy is my idol. Hes the person I aspire to be, hes my light of dayI'd love to be.👉 Zeimbut.Host nyoungboy is my idol. Hes the person I aspire to be, hes my light of day
An amazing mum wouldn’t be exploiting her children
@@yeeyee8380 she isn’t exploiting her children. she has shown the same amount of her life in vlogs forever, she now just has kids. don’t make shitty accusations
@@jbnks1995 she still exploits her children. No one is forcing her to film her children for the entire internet to see before they can even consent
@@yeeyee8380 i think you’re unaware of what exploiting children really looks like in practice. get your head out of conspiracy land.
Just a reminder that God is with you at every step of your life. Always seek Him and His presence because you will always find a love that is unimaginable
As a dermatilamania pt myself I will say it comes in waves and when it comes you just have to hang in there and ride it out ❤️ you're doing an amazing job and I'm so proud of you! Thank you for being vulnerable with us
Tortilla talk question: Do you ever think about if the kiddos will ever watch these videos while you’re vlogging?
that would be awesome! about 10 years from now and seeing who are at that time -> in the 'right' -> WOULD BE AWESOME
Colleen you and your family literally make my day 😭❤️ I haven’t been feeling well for the past month and you guys make me so happy ❤️❤️ So much love to you guys
@Doctor Fate report it
🌸 The way Flynn fearlessly grabs at any insect. What a mad lad 😂♥️⚘️🌠~♡☆
I love the way that she makes her eyes big when something exiteing happens. collen the humur queen 👑✨
Truee😍
@@HannahMarieee lol Colleen mrs. Queen
Tortilla talk: I don't want to bring back bad memories so please ignore this if you're not comfortable talking about it again but, I wanted to check in to see how you're doing after the incident during mommy and me at the park... have you been able to go back to the group since then? How has it been?
Wait, what happened? I don't think I saw that vlog...
@@fanfictionandthings784 I think it was "scary experience at the park" possibly from April? But most likely a May vlog. Long story short a drunk creep flashed her while she was holding Flynn with some other moms. And the police weren't as helpful as they could've been but everyone was safe at the end of the day.
@@Simone2K1 Oh, yikes! Glad to hear everyone was okay!
Just listening to this while doing something else and hearing "he stuffed Maisy into the couch" is TERRIFYING. LOL.
crying is natural, it’s okay to feel. you’re human. it’s not a meltdown. it’s allowing yourself to feel, to be humane, to be free. you’re doing your best. you’re gonna be okay sis. 🥺💕 we love you. so does your family.
you’re so so amazing! i admire the way you can do so much with twin babies and a toddler!
Love you Colleen!
Poor momma and poppa, that's so rough. I'm a single mom with a beyond hyper active son, with a touch of autism and I have had many many of those moments. You just do everything you can, the best you can and most of the time by the next day it's forgotten about.
also going through a really rough time with my dermatillomania right now and it's so frustrating to not understand why sometimes it's so bad. thank you for talking about it :) definitely not alone
I appreciate you so for being opened with everything and honesty and so sweet biggest heart no matter good and bad days and take deep breaths and relax and you got this and blessing angel miracle 💜
You should get Flynn a fish tank. He would love it. I had a tank for a long time and it was a great way to learn about the fish as a species, providing a sense of ownership. and it is a very cool thing to own
you’re one of the best moms, seriously! we all love your fam and you and erik are doing so great raising your kiddos! 💛💛we love y’all
Earlyyyyy😍😍
Love you sm colleen
You helped me when I was all alone for 2.5 years in medical school in a whole different country away from all my family members
You validated me and my feelings. I have torn the skin off my lips until they’re raw and bleeding. I was in elementary school and couldn’t go to school for days at a time because I had destroyed my face. Now 25, I’ve moved onto a much less noticeable place. My toes and toenails are chronically raw and bleeding.
I thought I was literally the only person in the world who would tear their skin to bits and can’t stop. To know someone as “perfect” as you struggle with the same problem that I do makes me feel so much less alone.
Hanging out while putting the baby down felt so fun 😍 I know it’s not something that can happen all the time but it was so sweet.
Yees😍 hey btw shaina, i recently started my own channel where i talk a lot about well-being, self growth and a healthy lifestyle, if you wanna check it out☺️
you are the best vlogger frrrr
Ugh yes!! I been watching you forever and I’m not diagnosed but for yearsssss I’ve been struggling with all these symptoms of dermatilomania. It’s definitely not easy you’re so right about all this and so many times I’ve goggle searched what is wrong with me and come to find out that you understand and really you’re the one who got me to understand I’m not alone with this , restless nights and days of picking and stuck in that zone. I love you so much tysm for being so open with us ❤❤
Tortilla Talk Question - Would you want to homeschool the twins or send them to in-person school?
PS - Love how all your 3 babies are becoming wonderful adorable humans 🥰❤
she answered this before she said it depends on what her kids need. if Flynn needs home schooling she will. if he does better in public school then that's what she'll do. she doesn't really have a set plan she's gonna play it be ear :)
I hear you and I am sorry you are going through a rough patch right now, Colleen. Sending you positive vibes that everything works itself out. I'll always look out for when you share a vlog/video with your supporters because even during moments when you have to get over a bump in the road, I am grateful to have found your channels and be one of your Mirfandas.
I actually have trichotillomania and u have helped me so much by sharing your stories. I am really grateful for discovering your channel because now I'm like 9 months clean. So when you think your vlogs are boring, they really aren't and help me and many other people with their mental health.❤
Hey Colleen!!! A show that I watched when I was going through hard times was Reba. I think it’s a show you might enjoy and you might find hilarious
@@30nash30 yes I’m actually binge watching it on hulu right now!!!!!
Dear Colleen, thank you for being so open about mental health issues. Seeing talk about them has empoyered me to aknowledge mine at work a few days ago. I am a manager and for the past few days I've kept snapping at them for no good reason. I want to be a good (and great if possible) boss whom people like to work with. I'm taking a couple of weeks off and get inspiration from your own journey. Thank and big hugs from 🤗
I wanted to post something I saw just this morning, PPD pre pandemic was at 15% and after pandemic it rose to 47%. PPA pre pandemic was 27% and rose to 72% after the pandemic started. It is no joke and I hope you know you’re never alone Colleen. Also wanted to mention my mom has wicked dermatilamania and my girlfriend does too. Mom picks her hands and feet, girlfriend will pick her acne spots, and I have it mildly but I notice myself doing it if I’m stressed or zoned out. And I pick a spot on my head. You’re not alone and I am grateful for your videos Colleen.
Flynn is literally a Disney princess but with bugs. A cricket on his shoulder?? And the way he can just pick up bugs so easily, whereas most people will try to creep up on a bug to catch it or or run and chase it. He just has a connection with them! I love it!
Colleen you help me so much when you talk about your OCD. I also have it and I don’t have dermitilimania but I have something very very similar. I have a motor tic disorder (basically Tourette’s syndrome but only the motor tics not the verbal ones) and for the past few years my OCD has been picking up on my most painful tics and making me do them over and over. I have had some pretty serious injuries this way and when I get very stressed I will have sort of “episodes” like you’ve described where it gets worse and I will hurt myself. I have permanent damage in my shoulder from this. Anyway I have had so much comfort watching you talk so openly about your journey. Even though there are people who talk about OCD and people who talk about Tics on social media I have never found someone who has it in the way I do. I’ve felt very very alone. Especially as my disorders were going in a direction my doctors hadn’t thought they would and therefore never prepared me for. They were getting much much worse instead of better after I became an adult which was unanticipated. I had watched you since I was in middle school. When you realized you had OCD and started talking about this stuff it literally changed me so much. Even though it is still very hard to live in a mind that tries so hard to hurt me I found someone to relate too. Since then I have worked hard to be more open about my disorders and try to help people in the way you helped me. Thank you SO SO much for sharing this sensitive part of your life it has made a big difference in mine.
I think it’s so awesome how you tell us you love us at the end of every vlog. We love you too!!! (and your beautiful family,including the furry ones)
Hey Colleen, I’m going to a doctor soon for adhd and I was just wondering how medication effects you. Like does everything go quiet, do you prefer having medication than no medication. Any tips or advice? Thank you for being so open and honest about adhd and your mental health ❤❤
I take Vyvanse and I love it!
Hi! I know you didn't ask me, but I think that the medication helps me a lot and makes life a lot easier. The symptoms of adhd and anxiety/depression don't completely "go quiet" but they occur less frequently and are way less aggressive than before. It has helped me a lot ☺️
@@bellakiefer9723 tysm!
I love hearing Colleens diary entries! From her childhood! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
OMG! Thank you for sharing your prayer journal. It is so cute and entertaining.
how colleen reads the journal, is the BeSt ❤️ i cant wait for the babies to turn 1 and when they react to these videos AHHHHH
Colleen you hit the point right on the money. Validating is key to supporting someone with mental health. I’m studying social work for a masters and providing validation and good listening skills is what legitimately helps people. It’s called motivational interviewing or MI. You’re 100% right, telling someone to do something often is ineffective. Thank you for being an advocate for mental health!
Love how postive you are and Iove waching your vlogs
Flynn makes my heart só happy, he just takes the cricket without freaking out...it's só beautiful🥺
Sending a hug, good for you for reach8ng out to your therapist and thanks for sharing your journey.
Hi Colleen, I just wanted to say thank you for talking about your dermatillomania because it allowed me to finally put a name to my own scalp picking and gave me the confidence to talk about it with my therapist. Like you, I have good days and bad days with it, but I’m working on it and so I just wanted to say thank you for having the confidence to talk about it publicly. I really appreciate you and I wish your family all the love.
Love the prayer journals God bless you😊!
TTQ: Hey Colleen :) I’m in high school right now and I struggle a lot with anxiety. I was wondering if you have any advice you would give to me or your passed high school self about how to deal with social anxiety? Ilysm you’ve helped me get through so many days 💕
Hey Colleen i love you and your kids!!! please come to somewhere in ohio i really want to see your show!!
I have dermatilamania as well and what I find that triggers me is when I don’t feel in control. That is one thing I can control it’s my safety my comfort and when I can’t control what’s happening it triggers me. I love you so much! Keep on going mama!
I feel so much comfort knowing I am not alone with the skin picking and everything. I use to cry because like literally every other day a few of my fingers would hurt so bad because I have picked them to death. It is so painful but I totally relate to the comes in waves, I’m 9 months postpartum and it has been hard but I’m hoping it will get better soon 😭
i think i speak for everyone when i say you make the day better! also, does anyone know how much it costs for a ticket to colleen’s show? I really want to go!
So accurate Colleen helped me find the words for talking about my dermatillomania like when she said one time when you actively do it everything in your brain just stops for that moment no pain no nothing just almost white noise in your head and afterwards you’re like “oh no this hurts what did I do” ive never been able to find the words without her. I didnt even know other people did this. So thankful Colleen 💕
Me too.
Thank you for sharing about your dermatilmania sp? I rub my skin when I am anxious. I finally realized it was anxiety that was causing me this.
TTQ: will u ever make a RUclips channel for Flynn? It would be so cute and we would all love it!!
If you are adding anymore tour locations, will you please come to Colorado? Thanks, I love you!
Hi Colleen, you are doing awesome, with your children; it's very cool to see you again. Maisy is too cute. My good friend, you are making me laugh so much!!
LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOOO MUUUCH MY QUEEN! you're my hero!!!!
Thanks for your honesty
Maisy in the couch cushion KILLED ME🤣
2:07 flynn's little "pwease" 🥺
Colleen at the end with her hair in her face was such a mood, hahaha! Good job for handling 3 meltdowns at the same time, that's very impressive.
I’m so happy you share this much on your channel it really helps knowing RUclipsrs are just people too🥺💗
exactly!!💝also i recently started my channel if ya wanna check it out~~i just posted my getting my life together vlog !!