Me too. I cry for everything and I shake cry. I shake like a leaf and cannot stop no matter what I do, after a while though I do tire myself out but I get so embarrassed and nervous about what a spectacle I just made in front of people. Even just my significant other I still get embarrassed, he is very understanding and sweet about it everytime I cry. But it still sucks. 😒
My brother has ADHD and I've been looking at videos to help him find some coping mechanisms. I understand him better when I watch them. Dude, it's not all on you. If we all took some time to understand how we are all nerologically different and process everything differently we would all be a little more patient with each other. I'm sorry if ppl in your life invalidated your feelings because their lack of understanding. You're doing a great job sweetie, we'll get through this together
Everything you said about ADHD is EXACTLY how I feel about recently realising I have ASD - still struggling to 'come to terms' with it - it's a relief in many ways because it validates a lot of my experiences for me but also a weird kind of grief because it feels so final to put a label on myself and say that everything about me is because of that 😒 Also my partner has ADHD and he struggles *all day every day* with compartmentalizing and prioritizing - even as you're talking about it I can see that you're having the exact same frustration, it sucks! 💕
I tried following and sticking with so many different RUclipsrs over the years and I just never could....BUT with you and your channel I always come back and enjoy your vids. My kids love your unboxing vids too
I can appreciate why you wouldn’t feel comfortable talking about your ADHD, but I’m glad you’ve shared what you can. Talking about your struggles to get tested and find out that you have ADHD gave me the courage recently to get tested myself, to receive my own diagnosis, and to get the treatment I need, which is literally decades overdue. Thank you.
I relate so much to what you said about your ADHD diagnosis experience here and on twitter. I got my diagnosis for a different thing around the same time and I've been feeling really similar feelings as you (the identity crisis about what is you and what is your disorder, catharsis knowing you have actual reasons for the way you do things and having it validated by professionals...). I like that you are so open about your experience because I can relate to it very much despite having a very different thing that makes life difficult in a different way. I need to keep my stuff to myself because I couldn't handle being judged for what I have so it's good to see others saying pretty much what I would say about how finally getting diagnosed feels and affects your life and the way you see yourself.
I just have to say I do not watch a lot of other people who do similar content like you do. But I was drawn to you and your channel I find you such an honest and genuine person. You are such a beautiful person thank you for what you do.
Kaya talking about her ADHD or is she a poopy person and I'm here on the other side of the screen like ??? 'What a radiant and beautiful soul this darling has ??? How dare she say that' 💕
Love this look💕 And a video someday on your ADHD diagnosis journey would be rather helpful to those of us who are just starting their journey 🥺. Thanks for being so brave and sharing what you already have shared on this subject so far xx
Even talking a teeny bit about your adhd was super awesome and helpful!!! I've been struggling with it my whole life and it's definitely something I wish was something I felt more comfortable talking about. I think knowing other people who have it is super duper important, and seeing you talk about it has made me feel better today, thank you so much
Thank you for posting this. I just requested an ADHD assessment today and will be on the wait list for a long time, but so much of what you said here is so relatable. I really appreciate your honesty and your sharing your thoughts and experiences.
Get a cognitive test. If you are in the USA most insurance plans cover as a copay. It’s the best! It tells you your possible future hurdles and how to overcome them based on a lot of data.
The way you described your feelings about ADHD and feeling like maybe you’re faking it (even though you have a diagnosis so you’re not) is the way I feel with my agoraphobia diagnosis. It’s nice to have that validation of a diagnosis and not just be like I’m struggling with this and can’t do something. I feel most days like maybe it’s all in my head and not real and people are humoring me with the diagnosis. I honestly didn’t know others might feel that way. It’s kinda nice to know that I’m not alone in that.
I definitely understand the stressful aspects of ADHD, I struggle so much with finishing projects that I start or even being able to choose which one to start in first place . It's so frustrating and makes me feel like I'm being lazy an then I get depressed bc I didn't finish/start them or they just didn't turn out how I planned. It's a mess.
I relate so hard. It's okay to feel overwhelmed or any other feelings. I have to remind myself all the time. I get overwhelmed by too-long lists too. Some days I'm more stubborn about it than others. Starting the list over seems to help when I am frozen in place. What can I do right now? Self-care. I can always brush my teeth and walk my dog or curl up with a blanket. I have also started all kinds of planners that didn't work for me. The one that worked? I went with 'bullet journal' / 'art journal' so it looks nice. I write anything I want to do as a list or am thinking about as stream of consciousness and check stuff off when I get around to it. I can decorate the pages with stickers ahead of time because I do prefer to write on a page that is prepared. Take care of yourself.
I go through waves of wanting old living dead dolls too! I think I got 5 this year 😬😬 I really enjoy your long chatty videos because it's like hanging out with a friend and I really miss doing that 🖤🖤
The entire ADHD thing is so relatable, I have undiagnosed Autism/ADHD, and 100 percent struggle with imposter syndrome. I'm struggling a lot with classic neurodivergent stuff, but I always feel that I'm just making excuses.
Hi thank u so much for being an amazing role model to me, u are such a bubbly happy person and u never bring people down thank u u have gotten me through alot of things with ur content ♡♡
Your phone story reminds me of something that happened to a friend's phone in high school or maybe early university. She had just gotten a screen protector and had dropped the phone shortly after. She was amazed at how scratched the protector had gotten, and she started to peel up a corner of the screen protector to show me how the screen was in perfect condition. The screen was not in perfect condition. And they weren't scratches on the protector she had seen. The entire screen was shattered, being held in place by the protector.
I really can relate to your struggles regarding adhd. Just got diagnosed a couple of months ago and I really struggle with similar things like you. Even with telling the symptoms apart from my personality. It can be quite discouraging and frustrating sometimes :/ But you gotta keep going, never give up
On Instagram when you asked us what kinda video we'd like to see from you I almost put "top ten of the different things that influenced your aesthetic" be it top 10 books or top 10 movies or top 10 toys but then I didn't because as always I second guess myself and was like "she probably won't feel like doing that" and didn't put it. Clearly I was wrong.
Don't feel insecure about what People think about your adhd. It's a part of you after all ;) i love the bubbly hyped up you when you talk about Future plans and project ^^ makes me hyped about crafting again aswell^^ ♥️ *gives you a super big hug*
I'm 33 and got officially diagnosed with what the doctor called a pretty severe case of ADHD about 3 or 4 months ago after fighting for 7 years to get some form of diagnosis explaining why I am the way I am, now knowing why I do things etc is such a trip. I'm having the identity crisis of a lifetime at the min. I get how this feels. Also the over emotional sensitivity is part of that! Hope you start feeling better soon.
My therapist recently pointed out that some of my troubles could be ADHD related, and so now I’ve been (or trying to)looking into what steps I need to go through to figure out if that’s what’s throwing me off. What I’m trying to get at is, I immediately thought of you! And I really enjoy/appreciate when you open up about that. Love you always!!! 🖤💕
Owning an Annabel doll has been a goal since I was like 10. I love nightmares and fairytales. Love the look :D dead-girl chic is my JAM. Another goal is to own a phone case (because if it doesn't have a cover flap I WILL destroy the screen) that looks like a little leather-bound book- I totally feel the 'phone is not aesthetic' vibes :p
Hi Kaya, thank you for sharing and talking about stuff. I was almost sobbing when you were talking about feeling like an imposter when it comes to your ADHD and how you feel like you´ve tricked yourself and people. That hit so close to home, i feel the same with my chronic illness. Just know, you are not alone, and we see you trying so hard so don´t be too tough on yourself
oh my gawd am i happy you mentioned little apple dolls. i remember them and all the others you mentioned being in the malls when i was young but because that was before i had access to the internet, i could never find them again and eventually forgot about them all together. now i can admire them again!
I was diagnosed less than a year ago at 39 and I have those feelings that you described. Like maybe they made a mistake and I’m just useless. It’s really hard to try and get around. It helps to hear someone else say it though. Because I would never think that about someone else, so it’s probably inaccurate when I’m thinking it about me. Hopefully. You’re ace
I’d love to see a video about ADHD! I have the same problem as you with struggling with knowing if something is you or your ADHD (in my case anxiety and OCD). Love you loads and love your authenticity x
Talking about ADHD would be a great video especially for awareness month. I don’t struggle with ADHD, but I have friends and family who do. I myself struggle with severe social anxiety disorder. And the “scared I’ve tricked myself and I’m faking thing.” Couldn’t have felt more real to me. My whole life I’ve had people tell me to just get over it and that I’m just shy. I worry constantly because of how thrown around anxiety is that people won’t take me seriously. People don’t realize how much it really does affect “everyday” “normal” experiences. Mental health should be taken just as seriously as physical health. (Btw, you look stunning as always!💕)
Thanks for talking about feeling an imposter with your diagnosis. It's awful to doubt yourself because you've been left to your own devices dealing with your condition for so long. It's in the realm of guilt and you feel that way because you're a good person and you don't want to be problematic.
Creative mistakes aren't failures unless you don't learn from them. Working on projects creates motivation, not the other way around. If you have the supplies/materials and don't finish the project out of fear, you've gotta just push through the idea of making mistakes because they will happen, and as Adam Savage says, you can "hide your crimes" (cover up or fix mistakes). As a former art student and a maker/costumer/prop maker/artist....I get it. I have projects half done everywhere because WOO not enough time in the day nor energy in the body. But do some here and there, and if you need help, ask folks! Makers LOVE sharing tips and resources. Making friends with film industry prop designers and makers has been AMAZING for my motivation and confidence. It's why I always chime in when you tweet about making stuff, I always had people responding my posts or DMing me help and it has really helped in so many ways over the years! You can do it, Kaya! DO THE THINGS! Make all the things!! :D Good luck with the studio space, I would DIE for room to build or make full time, so rock that place OUT to the nines! You've got this!! On the identity crisis bit OOF hard relate, but with CPTSD. How much of this insanity is base me and how much is brainwashed response from so much trauma? The world may never know. I can get it being hard to make a video about a personal topic like that.
I get what you mean when you said you struggle to find the line between what's your personality and what's the symptoms of ADHD...I have anxiety & depression for as long as I can remember and I've often wondered this about myself thank you for articulating this 🖤
So much of what you were talking about...just...I feel that luv. I was diagnosed with adhd when I was a child. I haven't really seen anybody for other issues I feel could be there but the wiring...that staring off into the distance or a wall...it's like just going in overload mode but shutting off at the same time then the brain just kinda goes to screensaver mode. I do projects and stop if I get too overwhelmed with the feeling of screwing it up or I need a moment and flip flop between projects. I do alot but it can be frustrating because I'll feel like I have an issue with finishing things always. And due to how I was brought up, I have people tell me I seem so put together, until they really get to fully know me...then they understand I'm kinda struggling (kind of a mess lol) but I try. And that's all one can do is try. I feel like artsy people tend to have their moments anyways heh. I know quite a few artists that go back and forth with their projects. Just remember to take time for yourself and be kind to yourself.🖤💕 I love planners and setting monthly goals with checklists. It helps a bit. Just a little bit each day. Much love!💖🖤💕
I have exactly the same issues with ADHD. What is me and what is the ADHD. Good luck. I still learn every day. Was diagnosed at 40. Totally relate. Don’t be too hard on yourself. I have about 10 hobbies.
Oh gods...Verotica. It...dear lord. That film. Excited to see how the studio is coming along soon though! That's exciting! I've had a lot of issues with that "do I really have this mental condition or have I deceived myself and everyone I know and love?" feeling. It blows!
As a cosmetologist, just keep gel or something strong to keep it down. It shouldn't take to long for it to train to grow down. We had to do that when my husband grew his hair to the middle of his back from a military cut. You got this!
I totally feel you on the ADHD stuff. It’s a struggle to explain to other people and almost harder to deal with on your own. But even just you talking about it for the brief time you did in this video is super important! You’ve highlighted the ways it challenges you and made others with similar struggles feel validated! ✨🖤💕
Executive Dysfunction is also my biggest struggle so I feel you a lot. Combines with when I do planning I am super motivated planning things unless I HAVE to do them :D I understand your thoughts with you thinking "whats ADHD and whats you" but try not to separate both too much because both will influence each other and when your ADHD lets you hyperfocus into something and you do amazing things, then even tho ADHD helped you, it was YOU doing it and you accomplished it. I have been through a lot of self-reflection and self-analyzing after my diagnosis. I try to embrace my superpowers and let me hyperfocus on things I love and be merciful with my weaknesses and respect recharge-times in which I can't get anything done. It's annoying at some times but honestly, I feel better with it accepting me that way.
You're the most relatable RUclipsr I'm subscribed to. Not only do I cry at the drop of a hat, even if I'm perfectly okay but I also feel like I might have ADHD. Partly because of a teacher in the second grade (age 7-8ish) recommending to my mother that I get tested, but also because I've been looking into it and the more I read up on it the more I'm like these people have a secret window into my life because that fits a lot of what I do/experience. I still need to find someone that can actually for sure tell me, maybe get a second opinion just in case, but American health care sucks, let alone mental health care. I currently have a million ideas running around in my head but when I try to put them to action my brain is like, nope, can't decide on one, plus if we do this, we have to do that and if we do that we have to do this first but that's not complete, so just veg-out in front of a screen. And then be miserable that you passed all that time and didn't do shit. 😕I also feel like if I don't do something perfectly I have to scrap the whole thing, so when I actually manage to start something I throw it all out because I tried and failed before I could even release it. It's even worse if I'm making it for someone else because not only is there a deadline but I feel like I have to be extra perfect because it's not for me. If that makes sense?
I collect Living dead dolls too! Lottie was one of my favourites for ages. I've had her for many years now. I've wanted to start collecting again as well! I hope I can finally find Toxic Molly... Sorry for the LDD ramble. Love your videos!
I very much enjoy long, chatty videos! And I feel you on the ADHD xD I learned to basically trick myself into doing the things I have to, and some days, well, the brain just won't cooperate (:
I have aspergers and I've been mulling on this theory that talking about it - or anything else personal/emotional - is just so overwhelming for my brain that it makes me cry instantaneously, even if I felt fine up until that point... I've tried to research it but not found anything yet, but it was interesting hearing you talk about it
I LOVE nostalgia its definitely what I dive into very often and have surrounding me in my home. I would love to see a video on what things strike nostalgia in you 💜 my mind has been very focused on ADHD awareness month and learning more about myself, and the fact that SAD is settling in as well. I feel like understanding all this helps SO much with going through it, I used to be SO confused why I was so sad for no obvious reason that I could work through, always in bed and unable to get out in the winter, why I was so tired and easily overwhelmed with the idea of doing anything and with my ADHD I would get really bad personality crisists and so many other feelings/symptoms. I always thought that had to do with going to work and having to dress the part and I felt like I was loosing myself, that's probably a factor but I recently saw that it's linked to ADHD and I had a " ahhh uh huh" moment where it clicks, and things that's were so confusing make sense now. I'd love to see a video on all this cause it really help us all understand eachother and ourselves. It helps our loved ones understand us as well. I've always loved your chatty videos cause they always mention all the same things I find challenging and it's nice to know that there's people out there that are figuring out ways to help with it all and being so open and honest about it. Thank you for using your voice to shine light on mental health! I'd love to see that video, I do cry really easily and I didn't know that that may also be an ADHD thing as well, so interesting! I'm so excited for if you do end up making that video because I love learning about mental health. Sending love to you as I know how hard ask of this is. 💜
I can relate to what you said... though i dont have ADHD, I was diagnosed with manic depression, general anxiety disorder, and dissociative disorder and for a long time I didnt know how to find me past the suffering... how much was me, who was I and what were these conditions.... and who would I be if not for them. It took a long time and alot of hard work to get to a point that I could start to sort myself out and im still learning day by day, but know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and things will get better. Believe that and it will be so. Im still figuring me out, but now im learning myself without the suffering (i finally accepted the help I needed to work the last bit out of my depression) and it has been an amazing journey that i am thankful for every day. Its not perfect, but im ok with that. Im just happy with how its going so far.
I love cross stitching, check out patterns by The Witchy Stitcher, she’s amazing! Also I recommend getting proper DMC thread as they last longer, the colour doesn’t fade or run. DMC are also widely used by pattern makers :) have fun!
Man, I have been watching you since at least 2015, maybe 2014, and it is always a joy to see a video from you! Motivation has been hard for me to come by too, so I am rooting for you!
I completely relate to what you said about stopping a project while it's going well, because you're afraid of messing it up. I'm making a Baba Yaga house and have hit a point where it's suddenly slow going 😂 definitely sitting on the sofa in a cramped space with movies tho I'm also trying to grow out my undercut, it's not fun!
Absolutely gorgeous as always...speaking of shudder I just watched a movie the other day and it was soooo good. I feel like new movies mostly suck now but this was just Soo good I feel like you and Jake would really like it. Its not really horror more like a thriller teenage angsty kind of movie. It's on Netflix and it's called Super Dark Times. I highly recommend and hope you guys love it 🖤
Hey there! I also have ADHD and have a lot of the same struggles you do with getting things done. I've been able to make some progress, though (it's taking years of trying things and seeing what works and what doesn't, so my biggest advice is to keep trying!). Here is what helps me, take or leave it as you will ♥ Routines: this is the biggest thing. ADHD brains love routines! The hard part is forming them. It takes something like three weeks of doing a thing to become a habit, so this can be extra hard for us who get distracted. I had to try like 3 or 4 times to get some of these routines built that help me get things done (then covid came along and fucked all up, but that's a different thing) Lists: Brains are bad and organizing and managing lists when they are in your head. Write them down! You can move things and organize them and set a priority. I almost never get through everything and often break from the list, but I just get decision paralyzation and get NOTHING done if I don't make a list. Even if you don't end up doing the things on the list initially, making them is an excellent way to train your brain and form a habit that hopefully will help you eventually. But remember to go easy on yourself too. It's okay not to get everything on the list done. It isn't an assignment, just a guide. I used to beat myself up about it, but now if I notice im doing, I just go, "It's my list; I do what I want," and give it the finger or something. I used to have such an issue with planners too. I still have an on-again, off-again relationship with mine. But they really really help me, and there were a few things I had to do to get myself actively using them. I don't buy pre-made planners. I buy blank notebooks and set up the pages based on my needs. I get creative with it. Every month is themed, and I put stickers and washy tape and write with glitter gel pens and just make it fun! I find now that I want to look at my planner not only to see what I have scheduled but also just to see the cute pages I made! Trackers! So I threw in a few trackers, chores, medical stuff, books I've read, etc. that I need to check in regularly to fill out. Thinks keeps me looking in it and helped me build the habit. Now I take it everywhere. On that note... I take it everywhere. If something needs to be done or scheduled, or I have an idea for something, I write it down! Right then! I don't give myself the chance to forget. Do I forget that it's there? Oh, sure, But I'll see it when I check my planner next.
I feel the same way about ‘collectibles’... I love collecting them, but I can’t stand keeping them in the boxes xD I love to chill with all of the homies
I think most of us will agree that we feel like we are having a genuine conversation with you when we watch these videos 🙂 I internally answer you back, get a little teary or want to give you a hug, heh heh... Can't wait till we get to see you in full on crafting mode. You've definitely inspired me to finally finish my painting and start on the paper mache jack-o-lanterns.
I'm autistic and I understand the pain of doing the thing during the day. Sometimes I get some of it done, and other days I overload myself trying to do things and get nothing done.
i’ve been nervous to seek a diagnosis because i’ve just started a new anxiety/depression medication. i’m tearing up watching you talk about and it could basically be me talking but make it mommy problems 😭🖤🙏🏻🖤🥰
I'd love to know about your childhood/teen/young adult gothic inspirations! Maybe you could make like a collage of cutting and sticking things on a big bit of card or paper. Then, you could do a video explaining the different parts to it. What do you think?
I have an imposter complex with anxiety because I’ve never been diagnosed but I KNOW I have it but always question myself about it eventhough it effects me every day
I relate SO much to how you feel about your ADHD but with my ASD. When I got diagnosed, I was so paranoid that I had managed to trick myself and everyone else. Also with not knowing what parts of me are caused by autism and what parts are just me. Things like ASD and ADHD are just caused by being wired differently so I guess everything is down to that part of your brain being different to the norm. Don't think of it as you are you because of ADHD but just that ADHD is a part of you (if that makes sense)
I asked my psychiatrist about the possibility of me having ADHD since several of my friends with ADHD have described exactly the things I struggle with on top of my depression/anxiety/PTSD, but the psychiatrist said there was no point in getting a diagnosis since the treatment is the same.
I uh... I’m certainly not an expert but I don’t think it is... like even a little bit? For one I’m pretty sure the medication for any of those three things is completely different to ADHD meds, and I can’t even see how any other treatments could be the same 🤨
I am obsessed with cross stitching! I've been doing it for over five years, I have over 500 bobbins of floss. Two different floor stands. I'm 100% boujee in my stitching! There's a really great fb group, it has a super long name, something like "cross stitching group where we don't all act like boomers" they are incredibly nice, informative and... They don't act like boomers 🤣 10/10 recommend. I think you're going to love stitching, it's very calming for my anxiety.
Omg wish we seen the promo 2 days ago watched.the mortuary chronicles defo recommend !!also looking amazing as usual we defo are going to try a tutorial ❤️
Please more ramblings! I love hearing about the different things you talk about arts/crafting/ studio also including your swan friend. I don't have Instagram sadly but would love to hear more about the swan.
Dead Girl but make it Pink aka Haunted Doll aka Cute Corpse makeup is my whole aesthetic and I would LOVE to see more makeup videos like that. 💕🖤🌸🕸🌷🌑👛 Please try not to stress so much, okay? Please give yourself more credit, you are a fascinating and sweet-hearted person and anything you post would be so neat! Gothic inspirations in childhood would be amazing!!
I’m positive I have ADHD but I’m an adult so it’s practically impossible to get a diagnosis. It’s one of those situations where I KNOW something is wrong with me but no one cares lmao. Great... 🙂
I understand the lack of motivation. I have not posted in nearly 2 months on either of my channels. I am behind on my unboxings, have a whole shelf of things to open on camera. I am like I need to do the thing, then look over at the thing and shut down and play minecraft which I record for my gaming channel, then I look at the footage and shut down on editing so nothing gets done on either channel... Depression sucks, got over it, but dealing with the mess that piled up while I was down in the pit of despair.
I have shudder. It's so so. They have some slam dunk new movies, but then also have a lot of misses that are awful. However, I think it's still growing and going to get better! It has gotten much better since it came out!
I love your eye makeup look in this video!!!! As a makeup artist myself, I wish some indie brands would notice you like Black Moon especially!!!! Maybe we need to start a tweet tag Black Moon cosmetics and hashtag it to notice you and your awesome makeup skills. Ugh you stole my heart even more when you mentioned the Michael Hussar paintings!!! A few years ago I did my makeup for Halloween based on one of his painting and everyone that saw it loved it but no one knew who he is. It’s the one with the red and white striped horns. I’ve actually got a picture of it on my IG and I’m planning on doing it again this year for Halloween since I have all the stuff already to do it and I just love freaking out my neighbors. We live in a beautiful subdivision that is out in this little country town(I’m originally from New Orleans so not much phases me) and I tell people that it looks like the Stepford Wives’ should all live here and then my weird ass moved in. The guy that lives next door to us asked my husband if I’m a witch because of all my solid black cats. My husband just laughed and told him “no, she just has this keen sense for finding black cats all the time”. The youngest one is only about 7-8 weeks old and I found her crawling down the middle of a super busy 2 lane road durning rush hour traffic and she was about 10-14 days old, I jumped out the truck and ran back through traffic so knowing that people would swerve to not hit me and that meant they wouldn’t hit her either. Ive bottle fed her and she is now convinced I’m her momma and stays up my butt 24/7. But back to the Michael Hussar makeup/Halloween costume if you would like to check it out my IG is Linny162228. I’m going to love being able to do it again this year just to add to my neighbors thinking I’m not normal
I am trying to grow out my mohawk! So it was down my back, i chopped it up to my shoulders (it was bright red, dyed it brown for cosplay) so now I'm growing out the mohawk undercut because I don't know how far I wan the undercut part anymore, what an ultimate pain! So I feeeeeeeel your pain!
Hey! You should check out The Witchy Stitcher! She has some amazing Cross stitch patterns! I hadn’t stitched in years and the moment I saw her patterns, I was instantly inspired!
I am a crier too. Happy, sad, mad, excited, angry, scared, doesn't matter what the emotion... I will cry.
Same lol x
It's my default setting for any intense emotion. It's so annoying to get raging mad/pissed/livid and then be crying.
Me too. I cry for everything and I shake cry. I shake like a leaf and cannot stop no matter what I do, after a while though I do tire myself out but I get so embarrassed and nervous about what a spectacle I just made in front of people. Even just my significant other I still get embarrassed, he is very understanding and sweet about it everytime I cry. But it still sucks. 😒
🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻 that's me too
I do this to ,I wish that I could at least be angry and mad without crying! But no !
I'd love to see videos of you telling spooky Irish ghost stories
That'd be awesome to watch! I'm for it! Grab some chocolate candy and lets go!!! lol XD
Good Taste
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YES! For all year round, please.
YESSSSS! I have a few in mind
My brother has ADHD and I've been looking at videos to help him find some coping mechanisms. I understand him better when I watch them. Dude, it's not all on you. If we all took some time to understand how we are all nerologically different and process everything differently we would all be a little more patient with each other. I'm sorry if ppl in your life invalidated your feelings because their lack of understanding. You're doing a great job sweetie, we'll get through this together
Everything you said about ADHD is EXACTLY how I feel about recently realising I have ASD - still struggling to 'come to terms' with it - it's a relief in many ways because it validates a lot of my experiences for me but also a weird kind of grief because it feels so final to put a label on myself and say that everything about me is because of that 😒
Also my partner has ADHD and he struggles *all day every day* with compartmentalizing and prioritizing - even as you're talking about it I can see that you're having the exact same frustration, it sucks! 💕
I tried following and sticking with so many different RUclipsrs over the years and I just never could....BUT with you and your channel I always come back and enjoy your vids. My kids love your unboxing vids too
I can appreciate why you wouldn’t feel comfortable talking about your ADHD, but I’m glad you’ve shared what you can. Talking about your struggles to get tested and find out that you have ADHD gave me the courage recently to get tested myself, to receive my own diagnosis, and to get the treatment I need, which is literally decades overdue. Thank you.
I relate so much to what you said about your ADHD diagnosis experience here and on twitter. I got my diagnosis for a different thing around the same time and I've been feeling really similar feelings as you (the identity crisis about what is you and what is your disorder, catharsis knowing you have actual reasons for the way you do things and having it validated by professionals...). I like that you are so open about your experience because I can relate to it very much despite having a very different thing that makes life difficult in a different way. I need to keep my stuff to myself because I couldn't handle being judged for what I have so it's good to see others saying pretty much what I would say about how finally getting diagnosed feels and affects your life and the way you see yourself.
I just have to say I do not watch a lot of other people who do similar content like you do. But I was drawn to you and your channel I find you such an honest and genuine person. You are such a beautiful person thank you for what you do.
Kaya talking about her ADHD or is she a poopy person and I'm here on the other side of the screen like ??? 'What a radiant and beautiful soul this darling has ??? How dare she say that' 💕
Love this look💕 And a video someday on your ADHD diagnosis journey would be rather helpful to those of us who are just starting their journey 🥺. Thanks for being so brave and sharing what you already have shared on this subject so far xx
Wow your finished look is beautiful your skin looks amazing. The pink theme looks so good on you it's so pretty.
Even talking a teeny bit about your adhd was super awesome and helpful!!! I've been struggling with it my whole life and it's definitely something I wish was something I felt more comfortable talking about. I think knowing other people who have it is super duper important, and seeing you talk about it has made me feel better today, thank you so much
"I had a tuft of hair that looked like someone cut it..."
Faeries.
Definitely.
Thank you for posting this. I just requested an ADHD assessment today and will be on the wait list for a long time, but so much of what you said here is so relatable. I really appreciate your honesty and your sharing your thoughts and experiences.
Get a cognitive test. If you are in the USA most insurance plans cover as a copay. It’s the best! It tells you your possible future hurdles and how to overcome them based on a lot of data.
@@voloantiquemalls4217 thanks, I’m in the UK so this isn’t an option for me however.
aww i love your hair and makeup, cant wait to see your art room
The way you described your feelings about ADHD and feeling like maybe you’re faking it (even though you have a diagnosis so you’re not) is the way I feel with my agoraphobia diagnosis. It’s nice to have that validation of a diagnosis and not just be like I’m struggling with this and can’t do something. I feel most days like maybe it’s all in my head and not real and people are humoring me with the diagnosis. I honestly didn’t know others might feel that way. It’s kinda nice to know that I’m not alone in that.
I definitely understand the stressful aspects of ADHD, I struggle so much with finishing projects that I start or even being able to choose which one to start in first place . It's so frustrating and makes me feel like I'm being lazy an then I get depressed bc I didn't finish/start them or they just didn't turn out how I planned. It's a mess.
I relate so hard. It's okay to feel overwhelmed or any other feelings. I have to remind myself all the time. I get overwhelmed by too-long lists too. Some days I'm more stubborn about it than others. Starting the list over seems to help when I am frozen in place. What can I do right now? Self-care. I can always brush my teeth and walk my dog or curl up with a blanket. I have also started all kinds of planners that didn't work for me. The one that worked? I went with 'bullet journal' / 'art journal' so it looks nice. I write anything I want to do as a list or am thinking about as stream of consciousness and check stuff off when I get around to it. I can decorate the pages with stickers ahead of time because I do prefer to write on a page that is prepared. Take care of yourself.
You’re videos always put me in such a good mood!
I go through waves of wanting old living dead dolls too! I think I got 5 this year 😬😬 I really enjoy your long chatty videos because it's like hanging out with a friend and I really miss doing that 🖤🖤
The entire ADHD thing is so relatable, I have undiagnosed Autism/ADHD, and 100 percent struggle with imposter syndrome. I'm struggling a lot with classic neurodivergent stuff, but I always feel that I'm just making excuses.
Hi thank u so much for being an amazing role model to me, u are such a bubbly happy person and u never bring people down thank u u have gotten me through alot of things with ur content ♡♡
Your phone story reminds me of something that happened to a friend's phone in high school or maybe early university. She had just gotten a screen protector and had dropped the phone shortly after. She was amazed at how scratched the protector had gotten, and she started to peel up a corner of the screen protector to show me how the screen was in perfect condition.
The screen was not in perfect condition. And they weren't scratches on the protector she had seen. The entire screen was shattered, being held in place by the protector.
I really can relate to your struggles regarding adhd. Just got diagnosed a couple of months ago and I really struggle with similar things like you. Even with telling the symptoms apart from my personality. It can be quite discouraging and frustrating sometimes :/ But you gotta keep going, never give up
On Instagram when you asked us what kinda video we'd like to see from you I almost put "top ten of the different things that influenced your aesthetic" be it top 10 books or top 10 movies or top 10 toys but then I didn't because as always I second guess myself and was like "she probably won't feel like doing that" and didn't put it. Clearly I was wrong.
Don't feel insecure about what People think about your adhd. It's a part of you after all ;) i love the bubbly hyped up you when you talk about Future plans and project ^^ makes me hyped about crafting again aswell^^ ♥️ *gives you a super big hug*
I'm 33 and got officially diagnosed with what the doctor called a pretty severe case of ADHD about 3 or 4 months ago after fighting for 7 years to get some form of diagnosis explaining why I am the way I am, now knowing why I do things etc is such a trip. I'm having the identity crisis of a lifetime at the min. I get how this feels. Also the over emotional sensitivity is part of that! Hope you start feeling better soon.
My therapist recently pointed out that some of my troubles could be ADHD related, and so now I’ve been (or trying to)looking into what steps I need to go through to figure out if that’s what’s throwing me off. What I’m trying to get at is, I immediately thought of you! And I really enjoy/appreciate when you open up about that. Love you always!!! 🖤💕
Owning an Annabel doll has been a goal since I was like 10. I love nightmares and fairytales. Love the look :D dead-girl chic is my JAM.
Another goal is to own a phone case (because if it doesn't have a cover flap I WILL destroy the screen) that looks like a little leather-bound book- I totally feel the 'phone is not aesthetic' vibes :p
I’d be so down for a video about things you find nostalgic!! I’ve never seen these little Apple dolls but they’re so cute
Hi Kaya, thank you for sharing and talking about stuff. I was almost sobbing when you were talking about feeling like an imposter when it comes to your ADHD and how you feel like you´ve tricked yourself and people. That hit so close to home, i feel the same with my chronic illness. Just know, you are not alone, and we see you trying so hard so don´t be too tough on yourself
oh my gawd am i happy you mentioned little apple dolls. i remember them and all the others you mentioned being in the malls when i was young but because that was before i had access to the internet, i could never find them again and eventually forgot about them all together. now i can admire them again!
I was diagnosed less than a year ago at 39 and I have those feelings that you described. Like maybe they made a mistake and I’m just useless. It’s really hard to try and get around. It helps to hear someone else say it though. Because I would never think that about someone else, so it’s probably inaccurate when I’m thinking it about me. Hopefully. You’re ace
I love listening to you speak.Your voice calls me when I'm upset.
I’d love to see a video about ADHD! I have the same problem as you with struggling with knowing if something is you or your ADHD (in my case anxiety and OCD). Love you loads and love your authenticity x
Talking about ADHD would be a great video especially for awareness month. I don’t struggle with ADHD, but I have friends and family who do. I myself struggle with severe social anxiety disorder. And the “scared I’ve tricked myself and I’m faking thing.” Couldn’t have felt more real to me. My whole life I’ve had people tell me to just get over it and that I’m just shy. I worry constantly because of how thrown around anxiety is that people won’t take me seriously. People don’t realize how much it really does affect “everyday” “normal” experiences. Mental health should be taken just as seriously as physical health. (Btw, you look stunning as always!💕)
Thanks for talking about feeling an imposter with your diagnosis. It's awful to doubt yourself because you've been left to your own devices dealing with your condition for so long. It's in the realm of guilt and you feel that way because you're a good person and you don't want to be problematic.
Creative mistakes aren't failures unless you don't learn from them. Working on projects creates motivation, not the other way around. If you have the supplies/materials and don't finish the project out of fear, you've gotta just push through the idea of making mistakes because they will happen, and as Adam Savage says, you can "hide your crimes" (cover up or fix mistakes). As a former art student and a maker/costumer/prop maker/artist....I get it. I have projects half done everywhere because WOO not enough time in the day nor energy in the body. But do some here and there, and if you need help, ask folks! Makers LOVE sharing tips and resources. Making friends with film industry prop designers and makers has been AMAZING for my motivation and confidence. It's why I always chime in when you tweet about making stuff, I always had people responding my posts or DMing me help and it has really helped in so many ways over the years! You can do it, Kaya! DO THE THINGS! Make all the things!! :D Good luck with the studio space, I would DIE for room to build or make full time, so rock that place OUT to the nines! You've got this!!
On the identity crisis bit OOF hard relate, but with CPTSD. How much of this insanity is base me and how much is brainwashed response from so much trauma? The world may never know. I can get it being hard to make a video about a personal topic like that.
Cross stitch is SO fun! I took it up during lockdown and now I'm obsessed with gathering patterns to make ❤
I get what you mean when you said you struggle to find the line between what's your personality and what's the symptoms of ADHD...I have anxiety & depression for as long as I can remember and I've often wondered this about myself thank you for articulating this 🖤
So much of what you were talking about...just...I feel that luv. I was diagnosed with adhd when I was a child. I haven't really seen anybody for other issues I feel could be there but the wiring...that staring off into the distance or a wall...it's like just going in overload mode but shutting off at the same time then the brain just kinda goes to screensaver mode. I do projects and stop if I get too overwhelmed with the feeling of screwing it up or I need a moment and flip flop between projects. I do alot but it can be frustrating because I'll feel like I have an issue with finishing things always. And due to how I was brought up, I have people tell me I seem so put together, until they really get to fully know me...then they understand I'm kinda struggling (kind of a mess lol) but I try. And that's all one can do is try. I feel like artsy people tend to have their moments anyways heh. I know quite a few artists that go back and forth with their projects. Just remember to take time for yourself and be kind to yourself.🖤💕 I love planners and setting monthly goals with checklists. It helps a bit. Just a little bit each day. Much love!💖🖤💕
Now I want to get into embroidery again!! Yours looks great!!! I hope you post pictures of future embroidery projects you do 😊
I am LIVING for this freckled look!!! So darling!!
Yes! Shudder is awesome and so are those dolls! 😁. Love your makeup btw. Gothic and gorgeous as always! 😊
I have exactly the same issues with ADHD. What is me and what is the ADHD. Good luck. I still learn every day. Was diagnosed at 40. Totally relate. Don’t be too hard on yourself. I have about 10 hobbies.
Oh gods...Verotica. It...dear lord. That film.
Excited to see how the studio is coming along soon though! That's exciting! I've had a lot of issues with that "do I really have this mental condition or have I deceived myself and everyone I know and love?" feeling. It blows!
As a cosmetologist, just keep gel or something strong to keep it down. It shouldn't take to long for it to train to grow down. We had to do that when my husband grew his hair to the middle of his back from a military cut. You got this!
I totally feel you on the ADHD stuff. It’s a struggle to explain to other people and almost harder to deal with on your own. But even just you talking about it for the brief time you did in this video is super important! You’ve highlighted the ways it challenges you and made others with similar struggles feel validated! ✨🖤💕
*YES! I would call mine "My Gothic Interests" and do one for childhood/still love and adulthood/present!*
the look is beautiful and i can never get over your hair! pretty x
Executive Dysfunction is also my biggest struggle so I feel you a lot. Combines with when I do planning I am super motivated planning things unless I HAVE to do them :D
I understand your thoughts with you thinking "whats ADHD and whats you" but try not to separate both too much because both will influence each other and when your ADHD lets you hyperfocus into something and you do amazing things, then even tho ADHD helped you, it was YOU doing it and you accomplished it. I have been through a lot of self-reflection and self-analyzing after my diagnosis. I try to embrace my superpowers and let me hyperfocus on things I love and be merciful with my weaknesses and respect recharge-times in which I can't get anything done. It's annoying at some times but honestly, I feel better with it accepting me that way.
You're the most relatable RUclipsr I'm subscribed to. Not only do I cry at the drop of a hat, even if I'm perfectly okay but I also feel like I might have ADHD. Partly because of a teacher in the second grade (age 7-8ish) recommending to my mother that I get tested, but also because I've been looking into it and the more I read up on it the more I'm like these people have a secret window into my life because that fits a lot of what I do/experience. I still need to find someone that can actually for sure tell me, maybe get a second opinion just in case, but American health care sucks, let alone mental health care. I currently have a million ideas running around in my head but when I try to put them to action my brain is like, nope, can't decide on one, plus if we do this, we have to do that and if we do that we have to do this first but that's not complete, so just veg-out in front of a screen. And then be miserable that you passed all that time and didn't do shit. 😕I also feel like if I don't do something perfectly I have to scrap the whole thing, so when I actually manage to start something I throw it all out because I tried and failed before I could even release it. It's even worse if I'm making it for someone else because not only is there a deadline but I feel like I have to be extra perfect because it's not for me. If that makes sense?
I collect Living dead dolls too! Lottie was one of my favourites for ages. I've had her for many years now. I've wanted to start collecting again as well! I hope I can finally find Toxic Molly...
Sorry for the LDD ramble. Love your videos!
LOVE THIS LOOOOOK!!! Super cute yet has a vampy sophistication 🖤 🦇
I still love the Living Dead Dolls. I only bought the House of 1000 Corpses dolls of Baby and Otis. I want more. They're all so adorable and creepy 🖤
I very much enjoy long, chatty videos! And I feel you on the ADHD xD I learned to basically trick myself into doing the things I have to, and some days, well, the brain just won't cooperate (:
What a lovely soft makeup look, feeling super inspired now too! I dont visit your channel enough 😅 what a wholesome person you are 🖤🖤
I have aspergers and I've been mulling on this theory that talking about it - or anything else personal/emotional - is just so overwhelming for my brain that it makes me cry instantaneously, even if I felt fine up until that point... I've tried to research it but not found anything yet, but it was interesting hearing you talk about it
I love the spooky cross stitch that you made! It’s so cute 🥰
I LOVE nostalgia its definitely what I dive into very often and have surrounding me in my home. I would love to see a video on what things strike nostalgia in you 💜 my mind has been very focused on ADHD awareness month and learning more about myself, and the fact that SAD is settling in as well. I feel like understanding all this helps SO much with going through it, I used to be SO confused why I was so sad for no obvious reason that I could work through, always in bed and unable to get out in the winter, why I was so tired and easily overwhelmed with the idea of doing anything and with my ADHD I would get really bad personality crisists and so many other feelings/symptoms. I always thought that had to do with going to work and having to dress the part and I felt like I was loosing myself, that's probably a factor but I recently saw that it's linked to ADHD and I had a " ahhh uh huh" moment where it clicks, and things that's were so confusing make sense now. I'd love to see a video on all this cause it really help us all understand eachother and ourselves. It helps our loved ones understand us as well. I've always loved your chatty videos cause they always mention all the same things I find challenging and it's nice to know that there's people out there that are figuring out ways to help with it all and being so open and honest about it. Thank you for using your voice to shine light on mental health! I'd love to see that video, I do cry really easily and I didn't know that that may also be an ADHD thing as well, so interesting! I'm so excited for if you do end up making that video because I love learning about mental health. Sending love to you as I know how hard ask of this is. 💜
I can relate to what you said... though i dont have ADHD, I was diagnosed with manic depression, general anxiety disorder, and dissociative disorder and for a long time I didnt know how to find me past the suffering... how much was me, who was I and what were these conditions.... and who would I be if not for them. It took a long time and alot of hard work to get to a point that I could start to sort myself out and im still learning day by day, but know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and things will get better. Believe that and it will be so. Im still figuring me out, but now im learning myself without the suffering (i finally accepted the help I needed to work the last bit out of my depression) and it has been an amazing journey that i am thankful for every day. Its not perfect, but im ok with that. Im just happy with how its going so far.
I love cross stitching, check out patterns by The Witchy Stitcher, she’s amazing! Also I recommend getting proper DMC thread as they last longer, the colour doesn’t fade or run. DMC are also widely used by pattern makers :) have fun!
Man, I have been watching you since at least 2015, maybe 2014, and it is always a joy to see a video from you! Motivation has been hard for me to come by too, so I am rooting for you!
I'm excited for future Crafting and Doll related content. Good luck with the studio!!
Living for this look. Wish i could pull these off
I completely relate to what you said about stopping a project while it's going well, because you're afraid of messing it up. I'm making a Baba Yaga house and have hit a point where it's suddenly slow going 😂 definitely sitting on the sofa in a cramped space with movies tho
I'm also trying to grow out my undercut, it's not fun!
Absolutely gorgeous as always...speaking of shudder I just watched a movie the other day and it was soooo good. I feel like new movies mostly suck now but this was just Soo good I feel like you and Jake would really like it. Its not really horror more like a thriller teenage angsty kind of movie. It's on Netflix and it's called Super Dark Times. I highly recommend and hope you guys love it 🖤
Hugs sweetie, hope you come to terms with your ADHD, it isn't separate to yourself it is part of who you are, and you are loved just as you are.
How to ADHD is a RUclips channel that is actually helpful with something's, explains so much of why we do the things we do
Hey there! I also have ADHD and have a lot of the same struggles you do with getting things done. I've been able to make some progress, though (it's taking years of trying things and seeing what works and what doesn't, so my biggest advice is to keep trying!). Here is what helps me, take or leave it as you will ♥
Routines: this is the biggest thing. ADHD brains love routines! The hard part is forming them. It takes something like three weeks of doing a thing to become a habit, so this can be extra hard for us who get distracted. I had to try like 3 or 4 times to get some of these routines built that help me get things done (then covid came along and fucked all up, but that's a different thing)
Lists: Brains are bad and organizing and managing lists when they are in your head. Write them down! You can move things and organize them and set a priority. I almost never get through everything and often break from the list, but I just get decision paralyzation and get NOTHING done if I don't make a list. Even if you don't end up doing the things on the list initially, making them is an excellent way to train your brain and form a habit that hopefully will help you eventually. But remember to go easy on yourself too. It's okay not to get everything on the list done. It isn't an assignment, just a guide. I used to beat myself up about it, but now if I notice im doing, I just go, "It's my list; I do what I want," and give it the finger or something.
I used to have such an issue with planners too. I still have an on-again, off-again relationship with mine. But they really really help me, and there were a few things I had to do to get myself actively using them.
I don't buy pre-made planners. I buy blank notebooks and set up the pages based on my needs.
I get creative with it. Every month is themed, and I put stickers and washy tape and write with glitter gel pens and just make it fun! I find now that I want to look at my planner not only to see what I have scheduled but also just to see the cute pages I made!
Trackers! So I threw in a few trackers, chores, medical stuff, books I've read, etc. that I need to check in regularly to fill out. Thinks keeps me looking in it and helped me build the habit. Now I take it everywhere. On that note...
I take it everywhere. If something needs to be done or scheduled, or I have an idea for something, I write it down! Right then! I don't give myself the chance to forget. Do I forget that it's there? Oh, sure, But I'll see it when I check my planner next.
I feel the same way about ‘collectibles’... I love collecting them, but I can’t stand keeping them in the boxes xD I love to chill with all of the homies
I think this is the most beautiful make up you have ever worn. Its STUNNING!
I think most of us will agree that we feel like we are having a genuine conversation with you when we watch these videos 🙂 I internally answer you back, get a little teary or want to give you a hug, heh heh...
Can't wait till we get to see you in full on crafting mode. You've definitely inspired me to finally finish my painting and start on the paper mache jack-o-lanterns.
I'm autistic and I understand the pain of doing the thing during the day. Sometimes I get some of it done, and other days I overload myself trying to do things and get nothing done.
i’ve been nervous to seek a diagnosis because i’ve just started a new anxiety/depression medication. i’m tearing up watching you talk about and it could basically be me talking but make it mommy problems 😭🖤🙏🏻🖤🥰
I'd love to know about your childhood/teen/young adult gothic inspirations! Maybe you could make like a collage of cutting and sticking things on a big bit of card or paper. Then, you could do a video explaining the different parts to it. What do you think?
Dont worry about putting out repeat content. I am a casual viewer and I love your GRWM videos ❤
I have an imposter complex with anxiety because I’ve never been diagnosed but I KNOW I have it but always question myself about it eventhough it effects me every day
I have never heard of shudder and omg am i glad i have been told about this. Me and my friends will love this
I relate SO much to how you feel about your ADHD but with my ASD. When I got diagnosed, I was so paranoid that I had managed to trick myself and everyone else. Also with not knowing what parts of me are caused by autism and what parts are just me. Things like ASD and ADHD are just caused by being wired differently so I guess everything is down to that part of your brain being different to the norm. Don't think of it as you are you because of ADHD but just that ADHD is a part of you (if that makes sense)
I asked my psychiatrist about the possibility of me having ADHD since several of my friends with ADHD have described exactly the things I struggle with on top of my depression/anxiety/PTSD, but the psychiatrist said there was no point in getting a diagnosis since the treatment is the same.
I uh... I’m certainly not an expert but I don’t think it is... like even a little bit? For one I’m pretty sure the medication for any of those three things is completely different to ADHD meds, and I can’t even see how any other treatments could be the same 🤨
I am obsessed with cross stitching! I've been doing it for over five years, I have over 500 bobbins of floss. Two different floor stands. I'm 100% boujee in my stitching! There's a really great fb group, it has a super long name, something like "cross stitching group where we don't all act like boomers" they are incredibly nice, informative and... They don't act like boomers 🤣 10/10 recommend. I think you're going to love stitching, it's very calming for my anxiety.
I really love your style so I'll love to see a video on things that make part of your style
i would love to see videos of you making decoration for your new working place
I Love your hair! It is so beautiful and long!
Living dead dolls! vids with your cat so sweet! can't wait for creative vids in your new space!🖤❤️🌱
Omg wish we seen the promo 2 days ago watched.the mortuary chronicles defo recommend !!also looking amazing as usual we defo are going to try a tutorial ❤️
This look! Always love your videos
Please more ramblings! I love hearing about the different things you talk about arts/crafting/ studio also including your swan friend. I don't have Instagram sadly but would love to hear more about the swan.
I LOVE that look!
I think it would be cool to see videos of you reading those nightmare books!
I have adhd too and u describe my experience EXACTLY wow.
I 100% get the imposter syndrome too with bipolar disorder, PTSD, and GAD. You're not alone.
Dead Girl but make it Pink aka Haunted Doll aka Cute Corpse makeup is my whole aesthetic and I would LOVE to see more makeup videos like that. 💕🖤🌸🕸🌷🌑👛
Please try not to stress so much, okay? Please give yourself more credit, you are a fascinating and sweet-hearted person and anything you post would be so neat! Gothic inspirations in childhood would be amazing!!
I’m positive I have ADHD but I’m an adult so it’s practically impossible to get a diagnosis. It’s one of those situations where I KNOW something is wrong with me but no one cares lmao. Great... 🙂
I understand the lack of motivation. I have not posted in nearly 2 months on either of my channels. I am behind on my unboxings, have a whole shelf of things to open on camera. I am like I need to do the thing, then look over at the thing and shut down and play minecraft which I record for my gaming channel, then I look at the footage and shut down on editing so nothing gets done on either channel... Depression sucks, got over it, but dealing with the mess that piled up while I was down in the pit of despair.
I have had a Mohawk for a few years and I just recently have started trying to grow the sides out. Lol it’s frustrating
I have shudder. It's so so. They have some slam dunk new movies, but then also have a lot of misses that are awful. However, I think it's still growing and going to get better! It has gotten much better since it came out!
I love your eye makeup look in this video!!!! As a makeup artist myself, I wish some indie brands would notice you like Black Moon especially!!!! Maybe we need to start a tweet tag Black Moon cosmetics and hashtag it to notice you and your awesome makeup skills.
Ugh you stole my heart even more when you mentioned the Michael Hussar paintings!!! A few years ago I did my makeup for Halloween based on one of his painting and everyone that saw it loved it but no one knew who he is. It’s the one with the red and white striped horns. I’ve actually got a picture of it on my IG and I’m planning on doing it again this year for Halloween since I have all the stuff already to do it and I just love freaking out my neighbors. We live in a beautiful subdivision that is out in this little country town(I’m originally from New Orleans so not much phases me) and I tell people that it looks like the Stepford Wives’ should all live here and then my weird ass moved in. The guy that lives next door to us asked my husband if I’m a witch because of all my solid black cats. My husband just laughed and told him “no, she just has this keen sense for finding black cats all the time”. The youngest one is only about 7-8 weeks old and I found her crawling down the middle of a super busy 2 lane road durning rush hour traffic and she was about 10-14 days old, I jumped out the truck and ran back through traffic so knowing that people would swerve to not hit me and that meant they wouldn’t hit her either. Ive bottle fed her and she is now convinced I’m her momma and stays up my butt 24/7. But back to the Michael Hussar makeup/Halloween costume if you would like to check it out my IG is Linny162228. I’m going to love being able to do it again this year just to add to my neighbors thinking I’m not normal
I am trying to grow out my mohawk! So it was down my back, i chopped it up to my shoulders (it was bright red, dyed it brown for cosplay) so now I'm growing out the mohawk undercut because I don't know how far I wan the undercut part anymore, what an ultimate pain! So I feeeeeeeel your pain!
Hey! You should check out The Witchy Stitcher! She has some amazing Cross stitch patterns! I hadn’t stitched in years and the moment I saw her patterns, I was instantly inspired!