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I have news for you.. :( I thought teenage years would be great.. I thought young adult years would be great.. well.. it’s not turning out that way. It’s getting worse 😔 day by day. You feel trapped, no way out. I just don’t see a reason to carry on. I feel like my life is not my own.
Feel you. I had the same thing, every day got darker and darker and I never thought that it will get better. But believe me, it will get better. You will get through this, no matter how awful it is at the moment. (I came here, because I was looking at videos that I had watched at that time.)
@Jamie Forman I got kicked out of school because I couldn't learn so I became the class clown, it hurts to not be able to start again, we got eachothers back ❤
this made me cry instantly. I want to die and the only thing that's keeping me is the thought of people I love and love me. I just want them to understand and just tell me that it's oke if I die....
@Roberta Mariani Oh my god thank you so much i really needed that because i am just so scared that i dont wanna live but i do wanna live i wanna wach scary movies with my sister, i want to have sleepovers with my friends, but i am scared. I am scared of life i am scared of everything in life and i dont know what to do about it... I am just a kid and i am so scared of everything. I really need help but i dont know how to fix my problem.
@Roberta Mariani thank you girl! I mean, I went to a psychologist and I'm feeling better now and ngl I don't want to imagine what would have happened if I wasn't here. things get better ik and happiness exists on the simpliest stuff. like, these days i am listening to my dad playing the saxophone and I'm reading some books I bought. And yk there is happiness. And not only ofc. I still wouldn't mind if I died but at least I don't really want to. But I still have the tendency to cut myself but I promised not to. And welp ik people care about me, I just didn't want them to. Cause these people were the one thing that kept me going. I'm glad for u girl and I hope u never go through dark periods. We can talk on insta if u like, I enjoyed talking w u ❤️
I'm hungry but can't eat I'm dirty yet I can't clean I'm sad yet I can't frown I'm numb but I cry I'm scared but I smile I'm dead yet I'm alive I know im wrong yet I know I'm right I can't breathe yet im alive I fight but I break
I'm in no way trying to force this on you. I'm just showing you something that seems to be helping me as well The disciples left to follow Jesus in two ways: instantly and completely. They didn’t hesitate in their decision. They didn’t take anything (from their past ) with them Reflect When you think of how the disciples responded to Jesus’s call to follow Him, what do you feel? Do you feel overwhelmed or inspired at the thought of fully surrendering your life to Jesus? Matthew 4:19 AMP And He said to them, “ Follow Me [as My disciples, accepting Me as your Master and Teacher and walking the same path of life that I walk], and I will make you fishers of men.” Matthew 16:24-25 AMP Then Jesus said to His disciples, “If anyone wishes to follow Me [as My disciple], he must deny himself [set aside selfish interests], and take up his cross [expressing a willingness to endure whatever may come] and follow Me [believing in Me, conforming to My example in living and, if need be, suffering or perhaps dying because of faith in Me]. For whoever wishes to save his life [in this world] will [eventually] lose it [through death], but whoever loses his life [in this world] for My sake will find it [that is, life with Me for all eternity]. SURENDER When we surrender to Jesus, we have the ability to agree to forego in favor of His purpose. We get to choose to be a part of His eternal game plan. Jeremiah 29:11 says that His plans are not harmful, but are good, bring hope, and a bright future. Our full surrender to Jesus usually boils down to one question: How much will be required of me? And the answer is simple. Everything. Surrendering to Jesus means setting aside our selfish appetites and allowing Him to live through us. It’s choosing to trust His faultless plan even when we can’t make sense of it. Yes, trouble will still find its way to our doorstep. Burdens will still leap onto our shoulders. Hardship will still stumble in front of us. But through it all, we get... His peace that’s impenetrable. His joy that’s indescribable. His freedom that’s unexplainable. His love that’s outrageous. His mercy that’s generous. His grace that’s undeserving. His presence that’s soothing. His wisdom that’s reassuring. All because we trusted in the plan of the God of the universe instead of our own.
“it hurts so bad I can’t breathe” actual words I said to my parents when I couldn’t stop having panic attacks and all I wanted to do in that moment was die
Maybe if I fall in love with my depression maybe it’ll leave just like everyone else 🙃 for all those people out there sad and lost like me i just wanna say that all you need in life is yourself no one cares other than you believe in yourself and only yourself. others will just let you down...
You know what got my attention? The background pic. Maybe I'm looking too much into it but here's what I think. Souls in the dark, wishing to be set free of such pain that cannot easily be explained through words. We're stuck in our dark thoughts, stuck in chains we let our minds grasp around us. We are running in an abyss without escape.
Just Jazmin interesting perspective! its painted by Elicia Edijanto and it's not the official cover art for 'hearing' by ryan. This painting is the cover art for the song 'Life' and Atlas: year two (also by sleeping at last) in case you wanted to see more! :)
And they know if they say how they really feel, people will walk away from them. And so they never get too close to people, never too close to be true to them.
@@pranitasaboo that's not true. People don't always run away. Yes in the end it will be fine and you'll be happy. That will be hard but you'll have to find your heroic way and your strong self.
Savvas Blackcross me too and for such a long time I thought I was the only one but everytime I hear some of these videos and listen to them and pay attention it almost feels like I'm there like it's me there so exact The Emptiness inside the sorrow without the pain and then when I have a good day it feels wonderful can somebody please help me with this
Telling me “you’ll be fine” “your ok” Doesn’t make it fine or ok it doesn’t do a fucking thing so what about me... what about me is ok or fine or anything what. About. Me.
@@noodlesbruh7211 I typed several messages and erased them cause to be honest I can't say I understand what you might be going through nor do I know the right words to say to you. I just know I would love to be your friend and maybe that person for you someday. You deserve all the love in the world.
Why wont Anyone hate me? I hurt everyone which I love so Dearly. I am the ruin of all that I love. I am a curse which quells the fire of their hearts, I burn into their soul, band take from them. Why wont they hate me? I am true scum, yet I am not hated by them all, I am the epidemic to everyone, so death is the answer, but they will be hurt even more, Shall i disappear, but they keep finding me. I have to be alone but i cant say no, i cant say "Go away and be near me no more." because they deny those facts and get hurt even more. No one understands this pain. and I wish no one ever will. So tell me, Why wont they Hate Me?
Depression doesn't just "go away" like people tell you it will or say you should "move over it." And if you're having suicidal thoughts, please talk to a counselor. I had to hide mine for a long time and couldn't and still can't afford one, but there are people online who will help you for cheap or even for free. It sucks being in constant emotional and mental breakdowns, panic attacks, hatred for yourself and life and in nothing but pain, and feeling the walls closing around you, believing that you're alone, not listening to people who say you're not because they wont help, but they don't have to be the only ones around you. Talk to someone. Reach out. Keeping it in or keeping it behind the door of your room isn't keeping you here today its setting you up to not be here tomorrow. Don't let yourself go down. There's people waiting for you,now, and there's good things in your future you're going to miss out on if you give up. There _is_ better. ..Depression is never going to leave you, but there is people who will help you fight it.
@@LB-kp7gw but how am I supposed to? I reached out, and they didnt believe me because I smile all the time and just act like im fine when im not- Its like a circle-
@@yazminx Try breaking out of that circle. I understand that its horrible when you manage to open up and noone belives you but there are people that will belive you. I belive you. Maybe try finding people online that you can trust and that support you. Try creating a safe space for yourself where you can be who you are and where you dont need to smile if you dont want to.
@@LB-kp7gw ty for understanding❤️ but the thing is with people online, they never know me like iam- im also wondering, were are save places? Our minds or-?
“I understand” was so relatable. Everyone is depressed these days. It seems even people who are probably in a bad place themselves are left to have to also pick others up.
Yes we are a generation who have never been tought about the risks and pain of life. Yet you can still learn about them and how to go forward by your own.
It’s so true because the only time I was able to pull myself out of my downwards spiral was when I had no choice but to focus on myself because of lockdown
me in a nutshell , yet i still have to pick others up even when i myself am shattered to pieces and am barely able to try and fix myself let alone everyone else , i've become a master at hiding behind fake smiles and feelings of false happiness or any emotion and still move forward . that's just how it is
I see. I understand. We just don’t fit in. You having such great feelings, it’s sth that special. Bless ya for being that special. I know it hurts, but at the end of the day we’re gonna have a peaceful end. We’ll leave. We’ll leave. Just let’s keep this to ourselves in our own rooms or homes. Let’s just keep it for the night we crave for. The night we crave that it’ll come providing us with a strong drink and yet living with each and every pain inside of us till we leave this world. Till we leave it for good. Bless that heart of yours. All love and respect. The word love might hurt cause no one appreciates it so all respect.
Oh no. I'm scared. Are we on the same page here? Are you talking about Supernatural? When season 15 came to an end I took a step back from the fandom to not get spoiled, because I'm in season 9. Ya'll are scaring me ✋😭
That's from a show actually It's called supernatural and I think this scene was somewhere in season 4 (Sry for my bad english I 'm not a native speaker)
I was really holding it together until I heard Dean's voice. That HURT. I remember watching that episode and having to pause it for 5 minutes and take a break. I dunno why, but it was just really painful to hear my favorite fictional character suffering. I once read this post that people choose their favorite characters because they remind them of themselves, but if that's the case, I'm super concerned right now-
I can relate to well but I am scared so scared to tell an adult because i don't know what will happen to me.. I go through so much I ve had so many breakdowns
I just want someone who can listen all my pain, who can understand my feelings, who can be present for me, who can bring me all the attention than i miss. I just want to be happy.
I've be depressed to the point where the pain has been hurting do much im so used to the pain every single day of my life where I've become numb to it and it hurts because it's always every body else around me and im the only odd one out that can't find happiness and everything and everyone hates me im always bullied constantly cyber bullied but do people care no and I don't know what im still fighting for cause the only reason I still live and breathe is because I care to much about other people because the way I feel about myself would hurt them and self love hasn't come first, second or even ever for me
Courtney Simon thank you for shareing bc i couldn’t described it better... Just know if you’ll ever gonna see this that we’ll get through this together ALL OF US WHO ARE HURTING.❤️
im having a conversation with my psychiatrist in a few minutes and im thinking about letting him hear this. because it's just how im feeling right now. It's so hard everything is so hard and everything hurts so much..
Depending on age I don’t tell therapists or psychiatrists anything about my depression or anything because any time I do I get kicked out of wherever I am I get calls about a hospital and getting taken away from my family which is all that really makes me have any sliver of happiness and any time I mention my depression I have to fight to keep all I have left so I vowed myself I’m never opening up I’m not talking because if I got taken from my family I wouldn’t have anything left emotionally and there would be no point be careful what you say to your psychiatrist
I live, but I don't feel alive Nor do I feel dead Just a corpse, a breathing lie I let my tears spread Into a river, running down To places where I'll never be Imprisoned, locked inside A shell I hope you'll never see Blurry lines, making little sense Nightmares and reality, all the same Crying constantly for help But no one heard, no one came…
That first part is so true. They wouldn't understand the pain we go through. They say they want to know what its like, but no, nobody should know how we feel. It is dark and scary. And people shouldn't have to face that.
No body gives a fuck these days unless it's happening to them. And then to be honest (cough cough) what happens to 1 person the next deals with it completely different.
my friend is in the hospital for over dosing on pills. ..he said I had 2 minutes to convince him not too but my phone died. ...I have never cried so much. i wish I could have stopped it. I miss him. He isn't back at school yet....I love him so much.
I know it's late but is he ok now. My best friend is like that and somehow I am trying to convince him not to end it all everyday. It hurts so bad knowing that he could do anything to himself and I wouldn't even know about it
@@bnanaaasbrown9529 her friend was scared he wanted no he needed a reason to keep fighting his demons that tried to overpower him no matter how hard we are fighting we need someone to fight alongside us for us to know that it's worth fighting for ourselves
He is looking over you my man trust me cuz in mine Experience i know my unborn sis is watching over me also there is higher power man just believe in yourself and love yourself
I'm so happy that I'm coming here again after a good time and remember how I was crying on this videos and even cutting. Now with a smile cause' I'm feeling better. Be positive, you're going to feel better too 😊
I want you guys to know that you're worth something, as you may listen to this you think you're not, you think you're worthless, you think that nobody cares if your gone, but love, everybody does, everybody does care, everybody does think you're totally worth it, I'm a 13 year old girl and I'm growing up with 4 years of my fucking silly life full of bullying, I'm clean, I never thought about cutting myself, no, I just took my note books and started writing my feelings down.. It helps me focusing on the people that wouldn't listen to me if I say that I wanna die, my "friends" always ask me for help every little time I smile, but when I need them, they're never there... I just needed ONE person that said you're worth living, you're worth to see EVERY LITTLE DETAIL of what you've never seen before.... you ARE important.. you ARE worth living... you ARE beautiful.. you ARE you.. And you deserve to be here goddammit... don't you dare ever think of that again please because if you do I do too and I don't want that anymore because the one person that understood me with everything and told me that I'm worth everything.... died... I love you stranger.. I really do... And I'm happy you read this and I hope to give YOU a little hope too. stay strong loves.. xo JJ
To everyone out there who is in depression, the bravest thing to do at this moment is to seek help. 2021 is your year. This is your time. I used to be in the same spot for the last 2 and a half years. Alhumdulillah I feel OK now. Slowly trying to get out from it. I thought I was going to fade away, but things eventually got better. I made it better. And you too can ❤️. Much love. God bless. InSha allah... I was thinking that when I be in my own legs, I should start a community for people in depression, totally free, like an online zoom meeting, where we all talk. I know its hard explain our problems, but just talk and cry about what we feel... If there's anyone who is reading this and is capable of doing that. Please start it. God will bless you for what you do.
a day will come when you will feel so much, almost too much that afterwards you will not feel anything anymore because you have felt too much before. Nothing hurts anymore and it sounds amazing but believe me you don't want this. I watch videos like this every night with the hope that I will feel something, anything, even if it is just one tear. But I don't feel it anymore and no matter how crazy it sounds, I would do anything to get that feeling back. So don't say you want to stop feeling because you will regret it. I speak from experience, and it's anything but great.
I only feel emptiness I can cry but it like even my tears are empty there’s nothing left in me every I lost. I just want to know when did I lost myself
Whenever I do something right, no body seems to remember. But when I do something wrong no one seems to forget.. I think a lot I notice everything, but I never say a word. Ya know guys.. those people who hide their feelings, usually cares the most. *im brOKen*
Holy crap I didn't know it was gonna hit right away... OUUCCHH Those first lines... are so true. People don't want you to tell them how you actually are
"They ask you express your feelings but they don't mean your real feelings,they mean the ones they want to hear" It's painful how relatable this is...I'm just hopless.Why the fuck do I have to live anymore ? I just wanna end it all.
There are people, who wanna know your real feelings, maybe you haven't meet them yet or maybe they're already there but you don't know, that they wanna know them. There is always someone who wants to hear what you have to say. You can even speak with me if you want to...I'm all ears.
Why do people think it's ok to make others feel worthless for their own benefit. Why the fuck do they break your heart over and over again until you become numb to it. Until you are so used to it that you just..... Break.
that was deep... but really true. I also suffer from depression. and I know exactly how it feels and what those people were saying on that video, explained many things that I couldn't put into words. that I couldn't speak. that I couldn't tell a soul. so thank u.
people tell me they want to feel nothing alot. i have the same response every time. im autistic losing touch woth my feelings. every day i feel less and less and its so close to nothing and its the worst. imagine if your best friend dies and you dont care cause you cant feel or your parents doe and you cant cry or your friends drag you to a party and you can only fake a smile. sometimes feeling nothing seems great but the closer i get tge more i wonder why im needed or important. someone who can cry who dont get mad or sad or happy. theres no black or whote just grey. and even that fades away.
people tell us "tell someone how you feel!" how can you tell the ones who brought you alive that you want to dissapear out of life. it isn't easy to tell the ones you love how you really feel, i can't bare seeing the ones i love suffer because of me. thats why, i suffer alone.
It is so true when say say people just want you to say you feel the way they want you to. When you say your fine you say it because you want to be. You want to be the persona you created because the person you are is not who you want to be seen as. You want to feel like you don’t have to hide but you do because you also are scared of what people might think.
I remember feeling alone in a room full of people who love and care about me. I remember crying myself to sleep and staying up until 2 am every night crying just because of life. I remember as a young child being woken up in the middle of the night by a nightmare of people that I love dying. I remember suffering everyday and telling people I’m fine. I remember everything but I don’t remember living.
2:51 I haven't cried in at least a week, which is super unusual for me. I was starting to believe I was going numb. I was happy about this because I hated feelings, I could kill them. But, this last part that the guy said.. it broke my heart.. the tone in his voice.... you can tell that he's upset.. wow.. good job, I love this.
The worst pain for anyone to feel is that knowing you could of helped and saved someone you loved but you didn't because you were scared how they would react so all you did was just stand there and do nothing
When people cry it doesn’t make them weak. It shows that even the strongest people care and have emotional brake downs. It make them a stronger person because it’s like a glass of water if you hold it for a while it starts to hurt if you hold it for a day your arm will feel like it’s going to fall off but guess what put the glass of water down just like putting your stress down when you put the glass of water down you put down fear, stress, anger,sadness,tears and everything that hurts.
everytime i talk about my feelings, i end up with replies like “oh so relatable” “same though” “me too ngl”, i spoke to you because i needed help...now im at the point where ive stopped speaking to people.
Sad quotes.. The saddest beat is the beat of a heart that doesn't want to beat anymore.. Sleep isn't just sleep anymore, it's an escape. Rose's are dead Violets are dying Outside I'm smiling Inside I'm crying. They say "Follow your heart!"... what if my heart is broken into millions of pieces?. Witch piece do I follow? I like being alone, I just don't like being lonely. I don't know who I am or who I was, all i know is that I'm lost.. Nobody knows me.. nobody knows if I'm in pain, nobody knows if I'm lonely, nobody knows how many times I've faked a smile. Nobody. Knows. Me. "I am the mask" ------- Some of these quotes were made by different people but some made by myself. xx
32 years old and I can’t stop feeling this pain. I try so hard and it seems like everything I work towards ends up being for nothing. I’m trying to provide for my wife and children and it seems like it will never be enough. Not through them, but through life in general. It’s always one step forward with a smile as I slide down 5 steps….
One day I got a call that my Aunty killed herself She had three children... I spent the night with them. The youngest one was only 5 yrs old, the oldest was 8, the other one was only 6. It broke my heart having to explain that their mummy was never coming back. I had to tell my little cousins that she was gone forever. When she died I was only 16, apart of me will be missing forever. I went through a lot of abuse as a child but no matter what my beautiful Aunty was always there for me. No matter how many times I pushed her away she always came back... I miss you Penny 1985-2014
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Instagram account?
I’m ready died
@@katieo6659 I love you.
They said teenage years were the best, but guess what, they lied.
True
For the majority of people thats the case
I have news for you.. :( I thought teenage years would be great.. I thought young adult years would be great.. well.. it’s not turning out that way. It’s getting worse 😔 day by day. You feel trapped, no way out. I just don’t see a reason to carry on. I feel like my life is not my own.
@@amethystapex i feel u
Feel you. I had the same thing, every day got darker and darker and I never thought that it will get better. But believe me, it will get better. You will get through this, no matter how awful it is at the moment.
(I came here, because I was looking at videos that I had watched at that time.)
Bet more than half of us are under 18 but feels the pain-
@Jamie Forman get some help make sure your eating and sleeping well don't give up I swear on my whole families life and mine it'll get better
16
@Jamie Forman I'm with you all the way I'm 18 without anything
@Jamie Forman I got kicked out of school because I couldn't learn so I became the class clown, it hurts to not be able to start again, we got eachothers back ❤
I‘m 15 and I feel it since I‘m 8 because I lost my home and my family...
A girl once said:”What if the only way not to feel bad is to stop feeling anything, at all”
Hannah baker I guess
It is ture??😄😄😄
I will give anything to feel something. I felt sad, happy, disappointed, surprised, and now nothing, complete emptiness.
hannah Baker
There is one thing to do ,and that is to end it ,end this life where we are
“If you want to go I just want you to know it’s ok, I understand”
“Thank you”
Thank you😭
Thankyou. I still wanna go
this made me cry instantly. I want to die and the only thing that's keeping me is the thought of people I love and love me. I just want them to understand and just tell me that it's oke if I die....
@Roberta Mariani Oh my god thank you so much i really needed that because i am just so scared that i dont wanna live but i do wanna live i wanna wach scary movies with my sister, i want to have sleepovers with my friends, but i am scared. I am scared of life i am scared of everything in life and i dont know what to do about it... I am just a kid and i am so scared of everything. I really need help but i dont know how to fix my problem.
@Roberta Mariani thank you girl! I mean, I went to a psychologist and I'm feeling better now and ngl I don't want to imagine what would have happened if I wasn't here. things get better ik and happiness exists on the simpliest stuff. like, these days i am listening to my dad playing the saxophone and I'm reading some books I bought. And yk there is happiness. And not only ofc. I still wouldn't mind if I died but at least I don't really want to. But I still have the tendency to cut myself but I promised not to. And welp ik people care about me, I just didn't want them to. Cause these people were the one thing that kept me going. I'm glad for u girl and I hope u never go through dark periods. We can talk on insta if u like, I enjoyed talking w u ❤️
I'm hungry but can't eat
I'm dirty yet I can't clean
I'm sad yet I can't frown
I'm numb but I cry
I'm scared but I smile
I'm dead yet I'm alive
I know im wrong yet I know I'm right
I can't breathe yet im alive
I fight but I break
That's literally me my whole world
Im alive but im dead 😭✨
I feel this
Basically everyone with a form of mental illness.
I'm in no way trying to force this on you. I'm just showing you something that seems to be helping me as well
The disciples left to follow Jesus in two ways: instantly and completely.
They didn’t hesitate in their decision. They didn’t take anything (from their past ) with them
Reflect
When you think of how the disciples responded to Jesus’s call to follow Him, what do you feel? Do you feel overwhelmed or inspired at the thought of fully surrendering your life to Jesus?
Matthew 4:19 AMP
And He said to them, “ Follow Me [as My disciples, accepting Me as your Master and Teacher and walking the same path of life that I walk], and I will make you fishers of men.”
Matthew 16:24-25 AMP
Then Jesus said to His disciples, “If anyone wishes to follow Me [as My disciple], he must deny himself [set aside selfish interests], and take up his cross [expressing a willingness to endure whatever may come] and follow Me [believing in Me, conforming to My example in living and, if need be, suffering or perhaps dying because of faith in Me]. For whoever wishes to save his life [in this world] will [eventually] lose it [through death], but whoever loses his life [in this world] for My sake will find it [that is, life with Me for all eternity].
SURENDER
When we surrender to Jesus, we have the ability to agree to forego in favor of His purpose. We get to choose to be a part of His eternal game plan. Jeremiah 29:11 says that His plans are not harmful, but are good, bring hope, and a bright future.
Our full surrender to Jesus usually boils down to one question:
How much will be required of me?
And the answer is simple. Everything.
Surrendering to Jesus means setting aside our selfish appetites and allowing Him to live through us. It’s choosing to trust His faultless plan even when we can’t make sense of it.
Yes, trouble will still find its way to our doorstep. Burdens will still leap onto our shoulders. Hardship will still stumble in front of us. But through it all, we get...
His peace that’s impenetrable.
His joy that’s indescribable.
His freedom that’s unexplainable.
His love that’s outrageous.
His mercy that’s generous.
His grace that’s undeserving.
His presence that’s soothing.
His wisdom that’s reassuring.
All because we trusted in the plan of the God of the universe instead of our own.
I cried yesterday
I cried today
and I still think tomorrows going to better in some way.
How's it going?
unknownə wruwai¿? Right today is my birthday I’m supposed to be happy buh I’m not
Susiss.
I’m sorry:(
You’re beautiful. Things will get better. Please try, and please have hope.
goofypotatonuts was that tomorrow better x
goofypotatonuts hello love , i hope you are doing better now :) i love you. i know i don’t know you. but i do. be safe. live your beautiful life.
“it hurts so bad I can’t breathe” actual words I said to my parents when I couldn’t stop having panic attacks and all I wanted to do in that moment was die
Your actually beautiful
I hope your doing so much beter
It is true for me as well.... the pain and the hurt is so bad I can't breath. 😔😪
I hope u are better ❤
I am speaking honesty within my souls ... i am feed up living !!!!!
Maybe if I fall in love with my depression maybe it’ll leave just like everyone else 🙃
for all those people out there sad and lost like me i just wanna say that all you need in life is yourself no one cares other than you believe in yourself and only yourself. others will just let you down...
For Real
Maybe just maybe..
That's a good idea imma try it
I smell you dog
Exactly I hav been left alone
The saddest part about this is how relatable it is
Right? Probably why most of us are here
Ooh the edge
Yeah
The Legend Øf Jax yea that’s the saddest part is how much I relate to this
Yeah
"The worst day of loving someone is the day you lose them" 💔
Fetishes as I read this comment it said it this is my first time listening to this
Fuck love?
NO!!Fuck the person who made you think like that
TVD
Joshua Montanez it's hard to let go of someone but you can't hold on to them forever if they're the ones that let go of you. :/
Fetishes elena❤️
who ever made this is dealing with their demons like us all.
"I don't have feelings at all"
Yes that's me.
😖
You know what got my attention?
The background pic. Maybe I'm looking too much into it but here's what I think.
Souls in the dark, wishing to be set free of such pain that cannot easily be explained through words. We're stuck in our dark thoughts, stuck in chains we let our minds grasp around us. We are running in an abyss without escape.
Just Jazmin interesting perspective! its painted by Elicia Edijanto and it's not the official cover art for 'hearing' by ryan. This painting is the cover art for the song 'Life' and Atlas: year two (also by sleeping at last) in case you wanted to see more! :)
Lara S,
Thanks. I appreciate the info.
Who care
Me now and everyday
Jazmin Rodriguez I love this perspective on it. I too was drawn into the background. Thanks for sharing your views 💞
Person “why do people have to fake how they feel?”
Hurt person “because then they won’t get judged and told it’s going to be okay when it’s not”
They don’t want people to have worry about them
And they know if they say how they really feel, people will walk away from them. And so they never get too close to people, never too close to be true to them.
@@pranitasaboo that's not true. People don't always run away. Yes in the end it will be fine and you'll be happy. That will be hard but you'll have to find your heroic way and your strong self.
Not youtube giving me a warning when I clicked this video after recommending it after two years smh💀
“It hurts so bad I can’t breathe I can’t- I can’t do worse ok! I... shouldn’t have to”
I haven't cried in 4 months and I've just felt... nothing. Now I listened this and cried so much I could barely breathe.
So, thank you.
Lauren twistedpeppermint I think you missed the point of his comment :/
RAWRSOFFE same😢
RAWRSOFFE exactly the same thing here
RAWRSOFFE It's been years since i cried about anything other than extreme physical pain, now i just feel numb emotionally and physically
Savvas Blackcross me too and for such a long time I thought I was the only one but everytime I hear some of these videos and listen to them and pay attention it almost feels like I'm there like it's me there so exact The Emptiness inside the sorrow without the pain and then when I have a good day it feels wonderful can somebody please help me with this
"You'll be okay, You'll be fine." "But what about me." 😭😪
what show is this quote from?
Oh god I feel such an ass hole
Omg Andy
Rosa Ramirez greys anatomy izzy Stevens says it to Denny as he signs a DNR
Telling me “you’ll be fine” “your ok” Doesn’t make it fine or ok it doesn’t do a fucking thing so what about me... what about me is ok or fine or anything what. About. Me.
This is recommended to me.. And i frickin cried... I relate so much..
Me too...
"Suicide doesn't end the pain, it passes it to someone else"
Yea it's true if u have people pass it on to but i don't nor do many others
@@patod5392 I'm sorry for your loss
@@noodlesbruh7211 I typed several messages and erased them cause to be honest I can't say I understand what you might be going through nor do I know the right words to say to you. I just know I would love to be your friend and maybe that person for you someday. You deserve all the love in the world.
@@preciousokosiako1289 thank you so much
@@noodlesbruh7211 Nothing to thank for. Sending you lots of love and hugs.
Him: "Why don't you hate me?"
Her: "I could never hate someone I love as much as you..."
Andrea Lee,
Aw crap here comes the waterworks.
Hate never
I was told that then he cheated and started dating my sister
Why wont Anyone hate me?
I hurt everyone which I love so Dearly.
I am the ruin of all that I love.
I am a curse which quells the fire of their hearts, I burn into their soul, band take from them.
Why wont they hate me? I am true scum, yet I am not hated by them all, I am the epidemic to everyone, so death is the answer, but they will be hurt even more, Shall i disappear, but they keep finding me. I have to be alone but i cant say no, i cant say "Go away and be near me no more." because they deny those facts and get hurt even more. No one understands this pain. and I wish no one ever will.
So tell me, Why wont they Hate Me?
Andrea C 1000 like🥺❤️
"yeah im fine. everything's great."
"Hey you okay?"
"No"
"Okay"
In head
Im not okay, comfort me, I need you, stop being blind, I want to die, please, save me
Just like we all lie and say we're fine when we're rlly not. Perfect examples.
Im not okay ( I promise) but seriously thats true. I wont tell them anyway
Depression doesn't just "go away" like people tell you it will or say you should "move over it."
And if you're having suicidal thoughts, please talk to a counselor. I had to hide mine for a long time and couldn't and still can't afford one, but there are people online who will help you for cheap or even for free.
It sucks being in constant emotional and mental breakdowns, panic attacks, hatred for yourself and life and in nothing but pain, and feeling the walls closing around you, believing that you're alone, not listening to people who say you're not because they wont help, but they don't have to be the only ones around you.
Talk to someone.
Reach out.
Keeping it in or keeping it behind the door of your room isn't keeping you here today its setting you up to not be here tomorrow.
Don't let yourself go down.
There's people waiting for you,now, and there's good things in your future you're going to miss out on if you give up.
There _is_ better.
..Depression is never going to leave you, but there is people who will help you fight it.
Does this feeling really never go away?
@@yazminx You will never know unless you fight it. Try finding people that help you. I belive in you.
@@LB-kp7gw but how am I supposed to?
I reached out, and they didnt believe me because I smile all the time and just act like im fine when im not-
Its like a circle-
@@yazminx Try breaking out of that circle. I understand that its horrible when you manage to open up and noone belives you but there are people that will belive you. I belive you. Maybe try finding people online that you can trust and that support you. Try creating a safe space for yourself where you can be who you are and where you dont need to smile if you dont want to.
@@LB-kp7gw ty for understanding❤️ but the thing is with people online, they never know me like iam- im also wondering, were are save places? Our minds or-?
"I wish I couldnt feel a thing!"
🥺
“I understand” was so relatable. Everyone is depressed these days. It seems even people who are probably in a bad place themselves are left to have to also pick others up.
We are not ready to deal too much pain not now we saw and faced too many bad things in a short time .
Yes we are a generation who have never been tought about the risks and pain of life. Yet you can still learn about them and how to go forward by your own.
It’s so true because the only time I was able to pull myself out of my downwards spiral was when I had no choice but to focus on myself because of lockdown
me in a nutshell , yet i still have to pick others up even when i myself am shattered to pieces and am barely able to try and fix myself let alone everyone else , i've become a master at hiding behind fake smiles and feelings of false happiness or any emotion and still move forward . that's just how it is
That was dean explaining his experience in hell😥
Kailey Mcphee supernatural 😍
Kailey Mcphee supernatural 😍
Kailey Mcphee it was RIGHT?! I heard Sammy and then I realised it was Dean but I was crying from the other audios and squealing because SPN
Kailey Mcphee 😭😭
Kailey Mcphee it broke me
"I feel, Elena.
And it sucks."
"I wish I couldn't feel a damn thing."
You hear that? That's the sound of my heart breaking.
I see.
I understand.
We just don’t fit in.
You having such great feelings, it’s sth that special.
Bless ya for being that special. I know it hurts, but at the end of the day we’re gonna have a peaceful end.
We’ll leave. We’ll leave. Just let’s keep this to ourselves in our own rooms or homes. Let’s just keep it for the night we crave for. The night we crave that it’ll come providing us with a strong drink and yet living with each and every pain inside of us till we leave this world.
Till we leave it for good.
Bless that heart of yours.
All love and respect.
The word love might hurt cause no one appreciates it so all respect.
@@therealenglish5862 that was so touching omg🥺
@@xtarduxt
So happy with your reply that’s full of emotions.
Such a pure heart.
dean 💔
Why... To soon
Ouch, I just got punched right in the feels.
Oh no. I'm scared. Are we on the same page here? Are you talking about Supernatural? When season 15 came to an end I took a step back from the fandom to not get spoiled, because I'm in season 9. Ya'll are scaring me ✋😭
Time stamp?
"I wish I couldn't feel a damn thing"
relatable af
Hyun Chan, yes, painfully yes...
Not feeling anything is so much worse
That's from a show actually
It's called supernatural and I think this scene was somewhere in season 4
(Sry for my bad english I 'm not a native speaker)
I felt so much that now I can't feel anything
heyy your comment is 3 years ago.. just checking if you’re still ok and wanted to know how have you been?
"I wish I couldn't feel a damn thing." that was in the thumbnail. and I clicked the video for Dean...he said that when he came back from hell
Rahma haider ali yess
+Sierra Freeman Hey Fandom!!!
Rahma haider ali I started crying when he said that
Rahma haider ali same😭
Yassss
*everyone having depressed moments & flashbacks*
adds: hEY why donT yOu tRy tHis nEw LotiOn
I was really holding it together until I heard Dean's voice. That HURT. I remember watching that episode and having to pause it for 5 minutes and take a break. I dunno why, but it was just really painful to hear my favorite fictional character suffering. I once read this post that people choose their favorite characters because they remind them of themselves, but if that's the case, I'm super concerned right now-
i'm always like "yeah, i'm fine. i can smile so i'm ok, right?"
but i'm not ok and i'm fucking dying inside :)
ephort I know that feeling all to well tho I can't tell an adult because I am scared...
I can relate to well but I am scared so scared to tell an adult because i don't know what will happen to me.. I go through so much I ve had so many breakdowns
same :/
Vickytje XDX it sucks because people think I am a happy or that I have Nonthing to be depressed about
Kaitlyn Zearfoss ikr same here tbh. The things i always smile when i'm with friends or family but deep inside i'm broken.
I just want someone who can listen all my pain, who can understand my feelings, who can be present for me, who can bring me all the attention than i miss. I just want to be happy.
I can and in exchange you have to do the same for me . Please
@@thevibesguide1660 count me in too
@@jasminparmar2853 hii💙👀
Yeah... Feel the same😔.
@@thevibesguide1660 in exchange. you will by my side forever.
I wanna end my pain I cant be here nomore I'm tired of dealing
I dont know you..
But I'm here for u (:
@@jakuzi2667 that's why we are here people come say we're here and leave
I feel the same way too. I'm tired of living in this world. I want wisdom.
Why did RUclips give me a warning that this was offensive and inappropriate...I just want to feed in my sadness in peace
Me 2 man
"You don't have to keep fighting. If you want to go I want you to know it's okay. It's okay. I understand" ....
...i wanna go
alicia gorton if i stay
It's my favourite movie
kxtty heyy I want to let u know that I don't want to keep fighting
This was the saddest part for me for some reason.
Roses are dead
Violets are DYING
Yeah, I'm smiling..
*But on the inside I'm crying..*
Never wanted to repeat history. But just a fresh start was what she determined at the start. But...story goes on episodes..
This comment made me cry...
That's just how I feel...
Thank you
Same on the inside I'm crying but in reality I feel like dying
@After Death if only it was simple
@Maya Vervloet glad it makes u happy, really am happy for u. Enjoy it pls, enjoy every single smile
I can’t cry anymore.
I've be depressed to the point where the pain has been hurting do much im so used to the pain every single day of my life where I've become numb to it and it hurts because it's always every body else around me and im the only odd one out that can't find happiness and everything and everyone hates me im always bullied constantly cyber bullied but do people care no and I don't know what im still fighting for cause the only reason I still live and breathe is because I care to much about other people because the way I feel about myself would hurt them and self love hasn't come first, second or even ever for me
Courtney Simon thank you for shareing bc i couldn’t described it better...
Just know if you’ll ever gonna see this that we’ll get through this together ALL OF US WHO ARE HURTING.❤️
Now how are you? Same shit? Same feelings? Same days? Same people? Same thoughts? 💭 Same thinking? Tell now how are you now? 💫
😷
"i get it, you'll be ok, you'll be fine, but what about me?" I've never heard any song, or qoute(s) describe how i feel better.
Isabella Lamberty,
Sometimes all you have is yourself. So I'm done waiting for people to help me, I shall heal myself.
Isabella Lamberty agreed..it's sad
It is very sad, but from greys anatomy
"The worst day of loving someone is the day you lose then." ....broke down right there
Idk Idc, Its so hard not to feel sad.
(btw I love your profile pic)
watching this on 2020
"I just want the pain to be gone" im sure that's what we all need
"I feel hopeless depressed angry, but most of all scared.." I related to that so much... That's exactly how I feel
the vampire diaries omg❣
milenna cavanaugh im be sad if bonnie is actually dead ☹☹
milenna cavanaugh they have so much sad stuff. And it brings me to know that I can't fight better
Yes I knew I wasn’t the only one 😭
"You'll be okay, You'll be fine but what about me?!" Thats me right there..
Yea me there with you too!!.....I wish I never existed!....
@@samantharoger1673 dont say that..
@@xiao4017 well, I understand I shouldn't say all these but I feel so horrible!
Hey, you'll be fine one day too! I believe in you.
Roses are red
Violets are blue
Sugar is sweet
And so are you
The roses have wilted
Violets are dead
Sugar bowl is empty
My wrists stained red...
anyone else lose it when they heard dean 😭❤
mee omg me
Joyce Human i tottally lost it when i heard dean 😔
Joyce Human same
which Dean?
Alvin So Winchester
im having a conversation with my psychiatrist in a few minutes and im thinking about letting him hear this. because it's just how im feeling right now. It's so hard everything is so hard and everything hurts so much..
90's kid Did you let him hear it?
Arkana Veltink no i didn't, i was too nervous to say anything at all. so all i did was crying 😅
Joëlle Vdb are you okay?
Depending on age I don’t tell therapists or psychiatrists anything about my depression or anything because any time I do I get kicked out of wherever I am I get calls about a hospital and getting taken away from my family which is all that really makes me have any sliver of happiness and any time I mention my depression I have to fight to keep all I have left so I vowed myself I’m never opening up I’m not talking because if I got taken from my family I wouldn’t have anything left emotionally and there would be no point be careful what you say to your psychiatrist
RaiiDz FN same 😄
I live, but I don't feel alive
Nor do I feel dead
Just a corpse, a breathing lie
I let my tears spread
Into a river, running down
To places where I'll never be
Imprisoned, locked inside
A shell I hope you'll never see
Blurry lines, making little sense
Nightmares and reality, all the same
Crying constantly for help
But no one heard, no one came…
I just want to disappear n sometime feel like go and never comeback
Hey xan we talk about it ?
Like I wanna die but I'm scared
That first part is so true. They wouldn't understand the pain we go through. They say they want to know what its like, but no, nobody should know how we feel. It is dark and scary. And people shouldn't have to face that.
No body gives a fuck these days unless it's happening to them. And then to be honest (cough cough) what happens to 1 person the next deals with it completely different.
my friend is in the hospital for over dosing on pills. ..he said I had 2 minutes to convince him not too but my phone died. ...I have never cried so much. i wish I could have stopped it. I miss him. He isn't back at school yet....I love him so much.
I know it's late but is he ok now. My best friend is like that and somehow I am trying to convince him not to end it all everyday. It hurts so bad knowing that he could do anything to himself and I wouldn't even know about it
I lost my bestfriend bc of an overdose 🥺🤧
That's terrible for him, but so cruel to you too - making you responsible for his wellbeing. I hope you can recover from it.
@@bnanaaasbrown9529 her friend was scared he wanted no he needed a reason to keep fighting his demons that tried to overpower him no matter how hard we are fighting we need someone to fight alongside us for us to know that it's worth fighting for ourselves
He is looking over you my man trust me cuz in mine Experience i know my unborn sis is watching over me also there is higher power man just believe in yourself and love yourself
"It hurts so bad I can't breathe" this hit straight to my heart...
I'm so happy that I'm coming here again after a good time and remember how I was crying on this videos and even cutting. Now with a smile cause' I'm feeling better. Be positive, you're going to feel better too 😊
omg dean talking to Sam makes me cry very time I hear it :(((
Bridget SpookyJim same😭
I want you guys to know that you're worth something, as you may listen to this you think you're not, you think you're worthless, you think that nobody cares if your gone, but love, everybody does, everybody does care, everybody does think you're totally worth it, I'm a 13 year old girl and I'm growing up with 4 years of my fucking silly life full of bullying, I'm clean, I never thought about cutting myself, no, I just took my note books and started writing my feelings down.. It helps me focusing on the people that wouldn't listen to me if I say that I wanna die, my "friends" always ask me for help every little time I smile, but when I need them, they're never there... I just needed ONE person that said you're worth living, you're worth to see EVERY LITTLE DETAIL of what you've never seen before....
you ARE important..
you ARE worth living...
you ARE beautiful..
you ARE you..
And you deserve to be here goddammit...
don't you dare ever think of that again please because if you do I do too and I don't want that anymore because the one person that understood me with everything and told me that I'm worth everything....
died...
I love you stranger..
I really do...
And I'm happy you read this and I hope to give YOU a little hope too.
stay strong loves..
xo JJ
Thanks I really needed it
I AMAZED BY YOU
‘you ARE you’ exactly and that's the whole problem
Thank you
🤗❤️
"a part of me wants to end it, i feel like im about to die"
To everyone out there who is in depression, the bravest thing to do at this moment is to seek help. 2021 is your year. This is your time. I used to be in the same spot for the last 2 and a half years. Alhumdulillah I feel OK now. Slowly trying to get out from it. I thought I was going to fade away, but things eventually got better. I made it better. And you too can ❤️. Much love. God bless.
InSha allah... I was thinking that when I be in my own legs, I should start a community for people in depression, totally free, like an online zoom meeting, where we all talk. I know its hard explain our problems, but just talk and cry about what we feel... If there's anyone who is reading this and is capable of doing that. Please start it. God will bless you for what you do.
a day will come when you will feel so much, almost too much that afterwards you will not feel anything anymore because you have felt too much before. Nothing hurts anymore and it sounds amazing but believe me you don't want this. I watch videos like this every night with the hope that I will feel something, anything, even if it is just one tear. But I don't feel it anymore and no matter how crazy it sounds, I would do anything to get that feeling back. So don't say you want to stop feeling because you will regret it. I speak from experience, and it's anything but great.
I only feel emptiness I can cry but it like even my tears are empty there’s nothing left in me every I lost. I just want to know when did I lost myself
I overcame this and sometimes I want to come back to the moment when there was nothing
Whenever I do something right, no body seems to remember. But when I do something wrong no one seems to forget..
I think a lot I notice everything, but I never say a word. Ya know guys.. those people who hide their feelings, usually cares the most.
*im brOKen*
Holy crap I didn't know it was gonna hit right away... OUUCCHH
Those first lines... are so true. People don't want you to tell them how you actually are
"They ask you express your feelings but they don't mean your real feelings,they mean the ones they want to hear"
It's painful how relatable this is...I'm just hopless.Why the fuck do I have to live anymore ? I just wanna end it all.
There are people, who wanna know your real feelings, maybe you haven't meet them yet or maybe they're already there but you don't know, that they wanna know them. There is always someone who wants to hear what you have to say. You can even speak with me if you want to...I'm all ears.
“i just need the pain to be gone”...same...same 😔 😢
When I heard Dean, I just started crying. I couldn’t hold those tears back anymore...
God I love this... I love this so much it hurts.
The fact you used the twilight music makes it even better
Why do people think it's ok to make others feel worthless for their own benefit.
Why the fuck do they break your heart over and over again until you become numb to it.
Until you are so used to it that you just.....
Break.
I honestly used to get hated by myself.... it's just,I'm not good at anything...... I'm just good at being the worst.
@@demnica9021 let me say. Just because the stupid one makes 2 bad deciscions i doesnt mean they are bad People. You must learn how a human beeing is
@@krystlehooff4490 i guess you are right
Dean.😭😭😭😭
that was deep... but really true. I also suffer from depression. and I know exactly how it feels and what those people were saying on that video, explained many things that I couldn't put into words. that I couldn't speak. that I couldn't tell a soul. so thank u.
I haven’t cried in years. Watching this, I’m not feeling it. It’s sad but it doesn’t make me cry. I can somewhat relate to this.
Yeah
Oh the supernatural one brought me to tears ❤😣😣
yessssss supernatural and greys anatomy
people tell me they want to feel nothing alot. i have the same response every time. im autistic losing touch woth my feelings. every day i feel less and less and its so close to nothing and its the worst. imagine if your best friend dies and you dont care cause you cant feel or your parents doe and you cant cry or your friends drag you to a party and you can only fake a smile. sometimes feeling nothing seems great but the closer i get tge more i wonder why im needed or important. someone who can cry who dont get mad or sad or happy. theres no black or whote just grey. and even that fades away.
I can I feel this all the time it goes through my mind daily and it gets worse
people tell us "tell someone how you feel!" how can you tell the ones who brought you alive that you want to dissapear out of life. it isn't easy to tell the ones you love how you really feel, i can't bare seeing the ones i love suffer because of me. thats why, i suffer alone.
I do
1:40 that time when u recognize from the first breath that is going to be Dean Winchester, as u have watched this scene like a million times:/
As soon as I heard Dean talking to Sam I could picture that episode and I started crying 😢
Time stamp?
Me: *listening to this and crying my heart out on the bathroom floor* My family: “you will be fine”
It is so true when say say people just want you to say you feel the way they want you to. When you say your fine you say it because you want to be. You want to be the persona you created because the person you are is not who you want to be seen as. You want to feel like you don’t have to hide but you do because you also are scared of what people might think.
I remember feeling alone in a room full of people who love and care about me. I remember crying myself to sleep and staying up until 2 am every night crying just because of life. I remember as a young child being woken up in the middle of the night by a nightmare of people that I love dying. I remember suffering everyday and telling people I’m fine. I remember everything but I don’t remember living.
Hey how are doing? If you want to talk i am here been through I am stranger. Keep your head up
“I feel like I’m never going to be happy again” so relatable💯💯
Hi how are you it has been 2 years is everything okay how is life now I hope you the best
it is js me or is anyone else tired of hearing , “be positive, stop being so negative”
Oof yeah.
I am tired of everything
@@Sunflower_that_loves_you hi army ! 💜
@@livitrujillo47 hello ami ! How are you?
@@Sunflower_that_loves_you im good , how are you ? :)
The saddest part is how real this is.
2:51
I haven't cried in at least a week, which is super unusual for me. I was starting to believe I was going numb. I was happy about this because I hated feelings, I could kill them. But, this last part that the guy said.. it broke my heart.. the tone in his voice.... you can tell that he's upset.. wow.. good job, I love this.
It's new year eve, and I just realised, i'm going to walk another year in this lonely and dull life. 👣
This could also be the year that your life stops being lonely and dull
The pain being gone is the problem. I can’t feel anything. I just want to feel again
The worst pain for anyone to feel is that knowing you could of helped and saved someone you loved but you didn't because you were scared how they would react so all you did was just stand there and do nothing
Sleeping At Last.
"It hurts so bad I can't breathe..." "The worst part of loving someone is the day you lose them" 💔💔
When people cry it doesn’t make them weak. It shows that even the strongest people care and have emotional brake downs. It make them a stronger person because it’s like a glass of water if you hold it for a while it starts to hurt if you hold it for a day your arm will feel like it’s going to fall off but guess what put the glass of water down just like putting your stress down when you put the glass of water down you put down fear, stress, anger,sadness,tears and everything that hurts.
"You don't want to know how we feel" relatable... we feel empty, depressed, no one cares, no one loves us, alone and so more😪
This is beautiful 😭👌 How do you make your video's? They're so good. You stay true as well, well done!
“The worst day of loving someone is the day that you lose them” .. 💔
everytime i talk about my feelings, i end up with replies like “oh so relatable” “same though” “me too ngl”, i spoke to you because i needed help...now im at the point where ive stopped speaking to people.
"I'm never gonna be ok, It hurts, Love hurts, it's the biggest drug out there, I need everything to stop.😣
omg 😫😫 if i stay 😭
Sad quotes..
The saddest beat is the beat of a heart that doesn't want to beat anymore..
Sleep isn't just sleep anymore, it's an escape.
Rose's are dead
Violets are dying
Outside I'm smiling
Inside I'm crying.
They say "Follow your heart!"... what if my heart is broken into millions of pieces?.
Witch piece do I follow?
I like being alone, I just don't like being lonely.
I don't know who I am or who I was, all i know is that I'm lost..
Nobody knows me.. nobody knows if I'm in pain, nobody knows if I'm lonely, nobody knows how many times I've faked a smile.
Nobody. Knows. Me.
"I am the mask"
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Some of these quotes were made by different people but some made by myself. xx
32 years old and I can’t stop feeling this pain. I try so hard and it seems like everything I work towards ends up being for nothing. I’m trying to provide for my wife and children and it seems like it will never be enough. Not through them, but through life in general. It’s always one step forward with a smile as I slide down 5 steps….
One day I got a call that my Aunty killed herself
She had three children... I spent the night with them. The youngest one was only 5 yrs old, the oldest was 8, the other one was only 6. It broke my heart having to explain that their mummy was never coming back. I had to tell my little cousins that she was gone forever. When she died I was only 16, apart of me will be missing forever.
I went through a lot of abuse as a child but no matter what my beautiful Aunty was always there for me.
No matter how many times I pushed her away she always came back...
I miss you Penny 1985-2014