Hi Rosalie, It seems like you are moving forward on your grief journey. Feeling the love of God, your husband, your children and your RUclips family is a good start. There always seems to be roadblocks one needs to navigate. You have done so much in the last year. Getting your license and managing your household are big things. I am proud of you. Sending love 💕 Lynne
Lynne, you have been such a wonderful comfort to me this last year. Wish there was something I could do in return to show you my gratitude. Always sending you lots of love back.
I’m too familiar with grief myself and when you suddenly lose a loved one there’s so much you feel is left unsaid. What I did was I wrote a letter to my loved one telling them everything that I wanted to say to them. Then I meditated on the reply they would give to me. I felt so much peace in doing this and knew that they wanted me to continue living the best life possible and to take care of myself. It helped me. I hope you find something that gives you comfort and peace. I’m sure your husband wants you to live a full and happy life and to take care of your children. He will always live on in those children. 😊😊
Rosalie, First, ALL of these thoughts and feelings happen and are a normal part of the grieving process. Some will never heal, some will seem to bypass grieving all together. What everyone has in common is that they are dealing with "loss". Allowing yourself to go through it and to feel the immensity of such a loss while still being a full time, patient and loving mom makes you EVEN MORE AMAZING! Eugene's loss hasn't just resulted in grieving, happy things are happening! Just look at your subscriber count, how many of us commented because we value you dearly and you are pushing through thoughts that would keep me down for months honestly! Please remember, you are more than just a mom! You have shown us all you're a budget queen, kindhearted, funny, pretty, super smart, problem solver, leader and an amazing friend, daughter, wife, aunt, sister, person and mom! Super proud of you as you are setting the best example for your kids everyday...regardless! If you need to know reasons again to stick around...just look in your comment section! You are ahhhmazing!!!
Rosalie it’s very early days, grief can be crippling some days, I know the feeling so well. You are an amazing momma to your beautiful children, they will get you through the dark days sending love always ❤ x
Rosalie, this video is so heartbreaking, I’m glad that you have children that help you get through these difficult times. Grief is so hard, unbearable at times and I’m so sorry you are dealing with it and that August was so hard for you. God Bless you and your children.
Bless you Rosalie 🙏 ♥️ i know at times you don't feel strong but believe me YOU ARE!!!!! And always know EVERYTIME you embrace one of your beautiful children HE is a part of them a physical piece of him dwells within them thats why you felt such a strong love i wish you the absolute best sweet lady and remember everytime you hugs those babies you are hugging a piece of him ...love hugs and blessings ❤❤❤❤
Rosalie, grief can be so hard to navigate. I lost my husband almost 19 years ago, and my Mom just 2 months later. Both were unexpected. Life hits hard sometimes but my faith in our Lord is strong. You had beautiful children together and are blessed to be able to continue raising them. Keep journaling, it truly helps. ❤
❤️🙏🏻 Sorry for your loss your husband It is bad for you It is sad for your children the loss of their dad You're husband is your and your children Guardian Angel up in HEAVEN🙏🏻❤️
I’m so glad you are feeling better. I just wish I could wake up some day without feeling so awful. I don’t have small children to focus on. I do have my disabled granddaughter with me that I raised. She is going through her own grief. I just struggle to get through each day. God bless you and the children. ❤️
As someone who also lost a husband leaving me with kids, I felt it when you said you didn’t feel connected to him after his passing. One of the conclusions I came to is that maybe I wasn’t meant to feel connected to my husband after his passing because God was trying to help me get past the longing and how could I recover from the immense grief if I stayed connected, much like when a 5 year old goes to school and their mom or dad has to leave them for the first time in their lives. I found that once I came to that conclusion, I was able to start picking up all the pieces and rebuild. It’s now been 14 years and I feel ok now. In any case Rosalie, I’m so glad you’re hanging in there and being the best mom you can be.
I’ve always said he’s as close as the nearest star. As close as your nearest thought. To talk to him, to believe in him is love and that is faith and I’m so happy you’ve made it through the darkest days and are here and I’ve gotten to know you as well as I can know you through this app. I’ve always felt you had true faith . I could see it In you and knew in time it would get you through. It’s a wonderful feeling isn’t it? Love you my friend! You are never alone and not just because we are here for you but you have faith. Take care my friend. Keep him close. Keep talking to him and Jesus. They will never fail you.
That is beautiful Luisa! You are so nurturing to my soul. You really are quite a remarkable person! I bet you could write beautiful, meaningful poems and more. It could help people if you wrote a book of it and published it on Amazon. (Just a thought.) Thank you for always being here, you are so special!
Remember if your husband was the tree trunk and your lovely babies the limbs and leaves then you my dear are the roots of that tree. Remember that. Love and light beautiful lady ❤
I personally found that at the anniversary of a loved one dying, its almost like we relive it all over again. especially the first year. Your feelings are validated, he was your world. Your children who are a part of him, and he a part of them and they are what keeping you going. Even when your children are grown, they will still need you in their lives. Eugene gave you the gift of being a mother and I know you will honour him with those gifts. You are doing great Rosalee. Holding God close, and He will give you strength.
Hi. I wish you to find comfort and peace. I cam sympathize with you as my husband passed away in Feb 2024 and my son April 2024. It's terrible and hard to find the strength sometimes to go on. I wish you the best.
I am so sorry Lori, the fact that you are getting through each day means that you are strong. Take comfort in your own inner strength. Thank you for your story and sending love.
I am so very sorry for the loss of your husband and son. I can’t even imagine the pain. You are in my thoughts and prayers. May your husband and son Rest In Peace, Love and Aloha. ♥️🙏🏼♥️
My husband passed away on May 18th of this year, I understand the pain and missing the person that you were sharing life with. He was 25 years older than me and had bladder cancer. We had nine of the most amazing, fun and love filled years. I was in love for the first time in my life.
I am happy to hear from you Heather. I am sorry about the pain you are going through. I am glad that you got to be with the person you love. A lot of people have told me here on RUclips that the love you and your husband shares doesn't just go away after one passes. I have even heard from someone who said they never experienced romantic love. In this way we, Heather, are indeed blessed. When you think of your husband feel the love he has for you. It will bring you comfort as it does for me. I will always be here. Thank you for sharing and sending you love.
I totally understand that pain. You know I lost one of my sons & I wanted to be with him. So I was so close to the S word. If my youngest son hadn’t heard the phone conversation I had with my sister who was going to help me Off myself & gave me a good talking to I would have done it. And yes I have come to realise my sister certainly doesn’t love or care for me. She still to this day does things to try & hurt me. But loosing my Neil was the worst thing I’ve ever experienced that what she does now I just shrug off. It’s coming up to 8 years in November he’s been gone & I still try to get back to the person I was before. Children are our lifeline. I stay for my youngest son. He still needs me & I need him. He’s such a wonderful caring young man. I couldn’t ever break his heart or disappoint him.. ❤❤
You are such a beautiful person Marg. Your caring son is like you, and a testimony to your love. I too would not abandon my kids. I have a sister like you do. I stopped talking to her years ago when I moved in with my husband (I who was at the time my fiancé.) It was the best thing I ever did with her! She doesn't, and can't hurt me anymore! And if I meant anything to her she would have not have treated me the way she did all my life. I feel for the pain you have Marg. Life can seem so cruel at times, and yet it can also be so beautiful. You Marg, are part of that beauty in life. Please take care my friend. Sending love.
@@Momof8kids Thankyou so much for your kind words Rosie. I feel you & I have had such similar lives. I am so much of a loner now because I have been hurt by people I loved & trusted. I don’t get hurt anymore as much as they still try. We can go through this journey together even though we are thousands of miles apart. 🥰🥰🥰🥰
Wow… so relieved you are coming out of the shock and grief of losing your husband. Sharing your thoughts will surely help someone. Feeling the love is absolutely true!❤️
Don’t forget you will have down days, weeks sometimes the whole month. It matter how you handle and pick yourself back up. You are doing so amazing. The pain will never go away it’ll just be more comfortable to live with because unfortunately we have no choice. I know it sounds crazy but you need and deserve at least one friend, in person… some one you can hang with and vent to and trust dearly of course. You are not alone. You are doing so amazing and you are so strong. You got this. Please know you got this !!!
Rosalie I am so sorry that you have been going through this pain. I’m glad you have found the comfort of feeling your husband through love. The thought i had was that your children will all become tree trunks too and they can create branches with leaves. All those trees will benefit from you touching them with your love and the love of Eugenes’s that you have been given by him to share. ❤️🔥❤️🔥❤️🔥 These are my hopes for you and the beautiful little forest you two created… ❤️🔥❤️🔥❤️🔥🙏🥰
The human spirit is stronger than anything that can happen to it. They also say that God never gives you more than you can handle. I know that we are always stronger than we think and feel we are. I’m proud of you for choosing to live for your children. The kind of grief you were feeling at that time is the most overwhelming, crushing, just completely horrible. You went through the darkest times and you progressed very well. Journaling is a big part of my life and it’s gotten me through hard times. I know the feeling of not wanting to be here and it’s so hard to go through the day just existing. I can see that you’ve done so much work and you’ve progressed to a much better mindset. The grieving process is always so different for everyone and nobody can say if someone is doing it wrong or anything else about it. From what I’ve seen, I think you are doing your best and you should be proud of yourself bc you really are a beautiful human. Thank you for sharing everything you share with us. ❤ sending you prayers and positive vibes.
Those are wise words CocoNicole. Thank you for sharing and for your kindness. I really appreciate your understanding. I could be wrong, but I don't think many people have experienced that. (Living not for yourself.) Sending you love, take care.
I'm so happy you experienced TRUE LOVE. As much as it hurts that you lost him, feel comfort in knowing that not everyone is given such a great gift. You were and are blessed. ❤
Hi Rosalie, I can feel your grief and relate to what you're saying. I haven't lost my husband, but there was a time when our child was gravely ill, in hospital, and we were fearing for his life. It was the worst experience I've ever had and the thought of losing him let me go down that dark path you described (fortunately, he made a full recovery). What you say about love is so true. It can be a kind of comfort to try and feel the love of our Creator and of our loved ones, whether they are close in spirit or with us physically. You're sometimes so overwhelmed by your grief because Eugene and you loved each other so much and I'm going to say a prayer for you (one that doesn't know any religious boundaries, just like the one you gave us as a gift). You're such a strong woman and have my full admiration for how you have been taking care of your kids, the household and got your driver's license on top of it. You will get through this, as hard as it may sometimes seem. Sending love to you all.
Rosalie, first my thoughts & deepest prayers remain with you. Grieving is such an ongoing process & it sometimes presents unwelcome " surprises" along the way, such as sudden, deep, debilitating sadness over the loss of your loved one. And with that can come dark thoughts. Please remember that you went through one of life's greatest traumas, & it was unexpected. I completely understand your comment about not wanting to DO anything "permanent" but also not feeling like living is a great option either! But you are living & you're strong & I trust my faith which tells me that you will continue your journey with your dear husband in God's time. You're such a loving person & so many of us here our by your side!
I married my husband when I was 19 he was 26. October 27th of 2022 he passed away after a battle with brain cancer. We had just celebrated our 40th anniversary the month before. I relate to so much of what you say. Our son is 40 and our daughter is 38. Right before my husband passed away each of our children had a son, one is 4 now and one is 3. I am so thankful he got to meet them. I can relate to Children / grandchildren being your motivation to keep going thank God for them❣
Thank you for your understanding and for sharing Estee. I am sorry your family had to go through that. I am glad for you that he did see his grandchildren in life, and now he can know them in spirit. You know he still loves you very much Estee. It brings peace that the children you and your husband had together, and now your grandkids have you. Take care Estee, and I wish you and all your family the very best!
Thoughts and good vibes sent your way sweet Rosalie. Your such a sweet and kind human! Virtual hugs to you, I’m very proud of you. We love you. You and your family stole our hearts! 💕💞💕💙💙💙💙💙💙
Rosalie I hear your grief and pray that you will come to understand that God has a plan for all of us. Your children need you right now and your baby is still so little. I pray you get some rest and peace and know that your children love you and will fill that void in time. Most people fear dying because we don't want to leave our loved ones. We don't want to leave our children. Thank you for your message, your helping more people than you know.
This was such a beautiful message there are so many people out there going through or have gone through what you're going through right now and for you to share the perseverance message is so important thank you God bless you you've got this girl
Dear Rosalie, I hope you reconsider talking to a counselor/therapist. I also hope you can see your worth in Christ and He will see you through; you still have a purpose and value in this life, definitely as a mother, but beyond that as well. You are loved by God.
Oh Rosalie I feel for you. Today is the 8th anniversary of my mum passing I just happened to be over in Victoria visiting her and was planning to leave on the Friday my mum was sick on the Wednesday while we were out shopping so I took her home she said she was ok so I left to pick up some photos I was getting copied for her when I got home she was asleep at 3am she got up and said she wasn’t feeling well I offered to take her to the hospital she said no she would be ok I woke at 7 am and thought she was very quiet she was a snorer anyway when I went into check on her she was half off the bed when I took a closer look I knew she was gone when I rang 000 they told me I had to perform CPR until they got there. I’m not sure how long it took for them to get there but it seemed like an eternity. I had never had to perform CPR before I had been trained in senior first aid but I don’t ever want to go through that ever again. I have been suffering depression really bad this year not sure why but the last few weeks have been really hard I couldn’t even get out of bed
I'm so glad you have found your way. Remember, he's still right there with you. He's in every breath you take. When you feel pain he's there- just as if you feel joy he's there. The most important thing you can do for him is to live well, because your happiness brings him happiness. You are a wonderful, loving mum and you need look no further than your children's eyes to see him- but you know this! Be happy, live in joy! Bless !
We all choose the road we go on as adults. This is yours. May you find peace. This is one thing I tell me granddaughters. And I hope any young lady reading this will take heed. Never ever let anyone on this earth mean more to you than life. You are able to live a meaningful life with or without children or a husband. God gives everyone a gift. And like the apostle paul says, it is better to be single and give all your love to God. Don't end up like this lady. Please
Someone once told me that it’s ok to go through your dark times , to be sad, to grieve, etc.. but it’s not okay to dwell there. You have to pick yourself up and know your loved one would not want that for you.
It’s ok to admit you can’t just keep being alive for your kids or to be a mom. You are worth much more than that. Don’t spend the rest of your life living just because you’re a mom Rosalie… you need to live to and your husband would want that for you. One day they will be grown and out of the house and you will be so beyond lost and broken and I would hate that for you. You deserve a friend, time for and to you too!!! You’re not just a mom. You have so much purpose and so much to offer on this earth. Live your life up until it’s time and you’ll have a million amazing stories to tell him when you both meet again. You got this ! You matter !!!
Thank you for sharing and helping me, my husband left me 4 months ago and it's the most painful experience ever. I understand the desire to want to just join me husband. He said to me on his death bed that he wanted us to go together... I wanted that too. I'm so sad that it couldn't be that way. I understand you¡!
Debra, thank you for your understanding and kindness. You were there for your husband in the end. That can bring you peace knowing he had you. Life can seem so cruel, but it can also be so beautiful. Life always moves in phases. The good thing about that is the dark phases can reach an end. Your journey in life is not over, and may become brighter still. You can dedicate the rest of your life to a great cause of your choosing. You can still miss him, and that is natural. But you can do something worthy of yourself. I wish you the very best on your journey, Debra. Take care.
Answered prayer. The grief is no intense at the loss of a loved one in the beginning but the waves of it get less and less. It changes as the years pass; God says it is for a season grief. I do not think you ever stop missing them or forget them, but it becomes a point of shall I say gratitude they were with you and helped shape you. So, in a sense they are always with you for a part of the love in in you, the memories too. He would be proud of you, the way you taken charge and done many things you relied on him for. Hard to believe it been a year you have come so far in such a short time. Hang on to the love of God and He will comfort you, give you, His peace. Joy comes in the morning, and it is ok to have joy. I find often when I lose someone real close, I have a much stronger sense of joy over a lot of things. Simple things like watching a butterfly and better appreciation for friendships. Or the coolness in the fall morning air. Anyway, you are doing great and it is nice you are sharing your feelings for others can relate. So, I believe it will help others. Your children are beautiful and happy, and loved. You're doing a great job with them. May God presence always be beside you and in you. No nothing comforts like the Holy Spirit. Peace!
Dear Rosalie :) What you have expressed is very normal. I think many people have dark thoughts and feelings when times in life are so difficult. You are BRAVE to be so open and honest. I'm SO SORRY that August was so difficult! I'm relieved to hear you are feeling better. I think grieving takes tons of time and maybe never ends :( But you will definitely be with Eugene again one day! And in many ways you are with Eugene every day because he lives on in the beautiful children! I will keep praying for you and yours. :) Best Wishes always 🙏
@@Momof8kids It's always nice to hear from you and the kids! I hope you guys have a fun week! Maybe you can make something cinnamony or pumpkiny? Fall is here! :)
Rosalie you’re a beautiful soul. No doubt your husband couldn’t be more proud of you. You’ve come such a long way and you’ll continue to be a great person and a fantastic mom. My thoughts and prayers will continue to be with you ❤🙏
Thank you for your prayers and kindness PurpleRain. I feel ok now, I don't have that emotional pain like I did last August. I appreciate your encouragement, take care.
Loss of a spouse is painful. Answer to one of your questions. There is a pain worse than losing a spouse, parents or siblings. It is losing a child. I hsve lost two infant sons. One Jeremy died at 32 days old on Sept 24 33 years ago. The pain comes back around that day and his birthday August 23 in waves. You just have to learn to live with the emotional pain. Its something that you never get over. I hope you never have to go through the loss of a child it is worse than the loss of a spouse. A parent shpuld never outlive a child.
My deepest condolences for the loss of your children. Their lives had yet to begin. The newspapers are full of terrible things every day. Let us remember in difficult moments, that we are not alone in our sorrow. Unfortunately, the suffering is not fairly distributed.
Hello i just wanted to tell you you are really strong i totally understand what your going through because my kids dad passes away 3 almost 4 years ago and i felt the same way if it wasnt for my kids i wouldnt be here after his passing he was the best dad and he took care of us so well and i have lost so many people in life but this one was the worst and so different to deal with but its because im grieving for me and my kids and i know they have only 1 parent so i have to be both parents and im always thinking i am gonna live this crappy life in this crappy world and live miserably just so they have a parent left
dont forget, your children will still need you even when they are adults! and honestly, anyone who hasnt had ''those thoughts'' after a close loved one has passed, is lying! even if theres no way they'd do it.
Rosalie, Jesus is coming back any moment now to rapture the church.We will all be together soon with our heavenly father.Your husband will be waiting for you. Hold on and finish the race. keep praying and keep watching.much love to you and the kiddos! j
HI Rosalie, I'm sorry you are going through this. I think it would be good for you to join a Bible believing church. This would give you support and community as I believe you have no contact with family. You need support to get through this.
I know the pain of your health failing. I'm sure part of u feels comforted that he's in no more pain. But now I have grandkids and they r young and I want them to remember me and b here for them. But know that when it's my time I can't wait for a everlasting salvation and no more pain.
Thank God you have children to fill your life with love and purpose. I find my three little dogs Cavalier King Charles Spaniels give me love and comfort and companionship. They are good with children too.
You’re probably better off seeing a professional therapist who you can talk through your feelings Too many people are using RUclips comments to see them through difficult situations Instead of laying all your problems to the public you should see a professional counselor to help
I realize I can see someone about it, but I declined the offer. I wanted to figure things out on my own. I know that is not for everybody, just me. I am much better now, having made tremendous strides.
You know, so strange with you. Because I was married to my husband 50 Cent plus years and let me tell you. I dream of him and we were really connected. We knew each other's thoughtstops. Everybody goes through their own grief with children without children. It hits the children hard. But we learn to grow and learn that life changes for everyone. I'd learn to be alone I mean, I have my son but I mean, I have learned to be always love him because the day that I leave this Earth. I will be with him too so. As you all know, right now, a lot of you're grieving right now. Still, it's been a long time since he's been got a nice deal grieved for him and I dream about him. And it's wonderful anyway. God bless, you have a blessed day. You know, but there's not a day that I don't think about him. That's how deep our love was. You're talking about 50 plus years? My whole life with him. So anyway, God bless you again and have a wonderful day and I hope you can get Uber whatever you're going through.Take care🙏🏻✝️
Thank you Rebecca for sharing your story with me. I can definitely understand what you are saying. You are very fortunate to have had so many years with your husband. Sounds like he had a good life and marriage with you. I think you know yourself the best and are making the best choices for yourself. I believe you will be with him again if you have faith. It sounds like you do. God bless you too and my heart goes out to you Rebecca. Sending love.
Let me tell you it is not easy some peope may think it is it isnt i lost pretty much my enitre family to cancer it foes not get easier the worst fornne was my mother I toom care of her till her lasr brearh in feb 5 th 2022 my family that i did have left left me alone to take on taking care of her myaelf i jad to watch her stop eating had ro watch her choke on water watch her flesh being eating by the cancer she couldnr eat the day before she passed her legs locked she couldnt move One of the worse things was when k had to call the funeral home & tell them to come get her they came with a red velvet body bag to aee your own mom placed in a body bag is just heart breaking its been 2 years now will be theee in feb i still cant get over it still think what she went thru still think about her last breath still think of all the great times we had together & know it wont ever happen again i miss her so much really i do Me myself i use to ne afraid to die not no more im not inmyself had a heart attack in 2021 a bad one rhat pretty much destroyed my heart they put 2 stents in but they also wanted to out in a pace maker or defibrillator but i said no i said if god decides its mt time to go then its my time to go i will be ready im not afraid no more i feel i have lieced my life im 50 had 3 daughters brang them up there married on there own & do well for themselfs & i feel i have done everything incan in life so whenever it is my time its my time
I really appreciate you sharing this with me. You are amazing to withstand all of that trauma. Your daughters even though you say they are doing well would miss you. I understand that you feel more ready to leave this earth and I am touched by your story. You were there for your mother when she needed you the most and that meant a lot. You did what a loving daughter would have done for their mother. You can feel at peace about that, and knowing how your mother felt that you were with her in her darkest days. She would want you to have peace. Her suffering is over, she wouldn't want yours to continue... When you say it doesn't get easier it sounds as though your sorrow is swallowing you up. Perhaps you could live closer to one of your daughters. If any of your daughters have children they might appreciate your help babysitting. Or perhaps they would let you stay with them awhile in their home. Life can be so painful, but it can also be so beautiful. I am here to listen if you want me to. Take care, and know you did for your mother what others didn't.
My children have been amazing in their resilience. I was the one that took the loss the hardest. I am ok now. The emotional pain is gone. I am sure therapy does help, but I am ok.
@@Momof8kids I am grateful to hear the kids are good. Grief is a wild beast that roars when you least expect it. I pray for continued healing of your heart and peace for your soul.
Im sorry but why do you hold god/jesus in such high esteem? If there is a god which i very much doubt there is, why would he take good people, theres murderers, rapists, child killers, pedophiles that get to live and then someone really good who has never hurt anyone gets taken away, and the people left on earth suffer and grieve the loss of their loved ones ! Im sorry but i don't know how you can believe and hold him so close to your heart when hes basically ripping the world apart and taking our loved ones, i refuse to believe in god/jesus, it doesn't make sense! Theres a channel on youtube called hope paranormal, again wether its real who knows but he appears to connect and talk to spirits, you might find confort from it, i know i have.
I was where you were long, long ago. I was raised to believe in god and everything nicey, nicey. but my life was miserable and I saw so much hypocrisy. The problem is that so much is misunderstood and misrepresented. God doesn't take your loved ones or punish others. God is love, the energy of life. Our world is like a machine that God created and once you push the button there is not stopping. God does not make choices. I know God exists because there is an underlying intelligent energy that is always moving things towards to better. Look back to the bad things that have happened in history. Overall things have always moved towards a greater goodness overall. God is there available for anyone to connect to. One can increase their chances of connecting or not. Meditation, pureness of self, and living truth will increase the ability to connect to God. When my husband and I first came together he showed me all of this and I transformed for the better.
I think there are other people who can relate and benefit from our conversation. I posted it under the community tab on my channel. I assume you wouldn't mind because your comment is already public.
@@Lucy-Wilkinson I understand you and respect your opion. I lost a nephew in a traffic accident. My other nephew, his brother, survived the accident. Why should one innocent child die and not the other? No one can prove that his belief or the absence of it is the absolute truth. As long as we choose the path of least harm or pain in every choice in our lives, there is no problem.
@@Momof8kids I understand your vision of god as "the underlying intelligent energy", but I am not convinced that we are evolving to "better". I find it strange that on our planet one animal eats another. That's very cruel in stead of "love". We too are "animals" who fight for food, land, energy supplies, ... . There is a lot of poverty in the world. Millions of people live in extremely poor conditions. And then I am silent about the wars that are currently taking place. We are making our planet sick, with all kinds of pollution such as plastic. Nature and life can be beautiful, but harsh and violent at the same time.
Don’t forget you will have down days, weeks sometimes the whole month. It matter how you handle and pick yourself back up. You are doing so amazing. The pain will never go away it’ll just be more comfortable to live with because unfortunately we have no choice. I know it sounds crazy but you need and deserve at least one friend, in person… some one you can hang with and vent to and trust dearly of course. You are not alone. You are doing so amazing and you are so strong. You got this. Please know you got this !!!
It’s ok to admit you can’t just keep being alive for your kids or to be a mom. You are worth much more than that. Don’t spend the rest of your life living just because you’re a mom Rosalie… you need to live to and your husband would want that for you. One day they will be grown and out of the house and you will be so beyond lost and broken and I would hate that for you. You deserve a friend, time for and to you too!!! You’re not just a mom. You have so much purpose and so much to offer on this earth. Live your life up until it’s time and you’ll have a million amazing stories to tell him when you both meet again. You got this ! You matter !!!
Hi Rosalie, It seems like you are moving forward on your grief journey. Feeling the love of God, your husband, your children and your RUclips family is a good start. There always seems to be roadblocks one needs to navigate. You have done so much in the last year. Getting your license and managing your household are big things. I am proud of you. Sending love 💕 Lynne
Lynne, you have been such a wonderful comfort to me this last year. Wish there was something I could do in return to show you my gratitude. Always sending you lots of love back.
I’m too familiar with grief myself and when you suddenly lose a loved one there’s so much you feel is left unsaid. What I did was I wrote a letter to my loved one telling them everything that I wanted to say to them. Then I meditated on the reply they would give to me. I felt so much peace in doing this and knew that they wanted me to continue living the best life possible and to take care of myself. It helped me. I hope you find something that gives you comfort and peace. I’m sure your husband wants you to live a full and happy life and to take care of your children. He will always live on in those children. 😊😊
Rosalie, First, ALL of these thoughts and feelings happen and are a normal part of the grieving process. Some will never heal, some will seem to bypass grieving all together. What everyone has in common is that they are dealing with "loss". Allowing yourself to go through it and to feel the immensity of such a loss while still being a full time, patient and loving mom makes you EVEN MORE AMAZING! Eugene's loss hasn't just resulted in grieving, happy things are happening! Just look at your subscriber count, how many of us commented because we value you dearly and you are pushing through thoughts that would keep me down for months honestly! Please remember, you are more than just a mom! You have shown us all you're a budget queen, kindhearted, funny, pretty, super smart, problem solver, leader and an amazing friend, daughter, wife, aunt, sister, person and mom! Super proud of you as you are setting the best example for your kids everyday...regardless! If you need to know reasons again to stick around...just look in your comment section! You are ahhhmazing!!!
Prayers, Love. Peace be with You and Your lovely Children
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Thank you for sharing your thoughts on grief. Im so happy for you to be doing better. You're a good woman & mom
Rosalie it’s very early days, grief can be crippling some days, I know the feeling so well. You are an amazing momma to your beautiful children, they will get you through the dark days sending love always ❤ x
Thank you so much for your heartwarming kindness. I really appreciate it, and sending lots of love back to you and mom.
Rosalie, this video is so heartbreaking, I’m glad that you have children that help you get through these difficult times. Grief is so hard, unbearable at times and I’m so sorry you are dealing with it and that August was so hard for you. God Bless you and your children.
Bless you Rosalie 🙏 ♥️ i know at times you don't feel strong but believe me YOU ARE!!!!! And always know EVERYTIME you embrace one of your beautiful children HE is a part of them a physical piece of him dwells within them thats why you felt such a strong love i wish you the absolute best sweet lady and remember everytime you hugs those babies you are hugging a piece of him ...love hugs and blessings ❤❤❤❤
Rosalie, grief can be so hard to navigate. I lost my husband almost 19 years ago, and my Mom just 2 months later. Both were unexpected. Life hits hard sometimes but my faith in our Lord is strong. You had beautiful children together and are blessed to be able to continue raising them. Keep journaling, it truly helps. ❤
❤️🙏🏻 Sorry for your loss your husband
It is bad for you
It is sad for your children the loss of their dad
You're husband is your and your children Guardian Angel up in HEAVEN🙏🏻❤️
That is very kind of you Terissa. Thank you. Wish you the best.
Love, light, and prayers to you and your children. We're always hear to listen 💕🙏✨🧸
You are wonderful! Thank you so much for being here. Take care my friend.
This is true! We love to hear from you Rosalie and pray for you and your beautiful kids! :)
I’m so glad you are feeling better. I just wish I could wake up some day without feeling so awful. I don’t have small children to focus on. I do have my disabled granddaughter with me that I raised. She is going through her own grief. I just struggle to get through each day. God bless you and the children. ❤️
As someone who also lost a husband leaving me with kids, I felt it when you said you didn’t feel connected to him after his passing. One of the conclusions I came to is that maybe I wasn’t meant to feel connected to my husband after his passing because God was trying to help me get past the longing and how could I recover from the immense grief if I stayed connected, much like when a 5 year old goes to school and their mom or dad has to leave them for the first time in their lives. I found that once I came to that conclusion, I was able to start picking up all the pieces and rebuild. It’s now been 14 years and I feel ok now. In any case Rosalie, I’m so glad you’re hanging in there and being the best mom you can be.
I’ve always said he’s as close as the nearest star. As close as your nearest thought. To talk to him, to believe in him is love and that is faith and I’m so happy you’ve made it through the darkest days and are here and I’ve gotten to know you as well as I can know you through this app. I’ve always felt you had true faith . I could see it In you and knew in time it would get you through. It’s a wonderful feeling isn’t it? Love you my friend! You are never alone and not just because we are here for you but you have faith. Take care my friend. Keep him close. Keep talking to him and Jesus. They will never fail you.
That is beautiful Luisa! You are so nurturing to my soul. You really are quite a remarkable person! I bet you could write beautiful, meaningful poems and more. It could help people if you wrote a book of it and published it on Amazon. (Just a thought.) Thank you for always being here, you are so special!
@@Momof8kids 😃👍🏻🌹
Remember if your husband was the tree trunk and your lovely babies the limbs and leaves then you my dear are the roots of that tree. Remember that. Love and light beautiful lady ❤
That's a good point, Raven! I hadn't thought of that... Thank you and take care.
I personally found that at the anniversary of a loved one dying, its almost like we relive it all over again. especially the first year. Your feelings are validated, he was your world. Your children who are a part of him, and he a part of them and they are what keeping you going. Even when your children are grown, they will still need you in their lives. Eugene gave you the gift of being a mother and I know you will honour him with those gifts. You are doing great Rosalee. Holding God close, and He will give you strength.
Those are beautiful words Linda! Thank you so much for your understanding and support. I really appreciate it. Take care my friend.
Hi. I wish you to find comfort and peace. I cam sympathize with you as my husband passed away in Feb 2024 and my son April 2024. It's terrible and hard to find the strength sometimes to go on. I wish you the best.
Prayers and Comfort to you🙏✨💕
I am so sorry Lori, the fact that you are getting through each day means that you are strong. Take comfort in your own inner strength. Thank you for your story and sending love.
Prayers for you
Sending prayers to you
I am so very sorry for the loss of your husband and son. I can’t even imagine the pain. You are in my thoughts and prayers. May your husband and son Rest In Peace, Love and Aloha. ♥️🙏🏼♥️
❤️🙏🏻Prayers continue for you and your children
GOD Bless everyone🙏🏻❤️
Praying for you Rosalie ypur in my thoughts and prayers ❤
My husband passed away on May 18th of this year, I understand the pain and missing the person that you were sharing life with. He was 25 years older than me and had bladder cancer. We had nine of the most amazing, fun and love filled years. I was in love for the first time in my life.
I am happy to hear from you Heather. I am sorry about the pain you are going through. I am glad that you got to be with the person you love. A lot of people have told me here on RUclips that the love you and your husband shares doesn't just go away after one passes. I have even heard from someone who said they never experienced romantic love. In this way we, Heather, are indeed blessed. When you think of your husband feel the love he has for you. It will bring you comfort as it does for me. I will always be here. Thank you for sharing and sending you love.
I totally understand that pain. You know I lost one of my sons & I wanted to be with him. So I was so close to the S word. If my youngest son hadn’t heard the phone conversation I had with my sister who was going to help me Off myself & gave me a good talking to I would have done it. And yes I have come to realise my sister certainly doesn’t love or care for me.
She still to this day does things to try & hurt me. But loosing my Neil was the worst thing I’ve ever experienced that what she does now I just shrug off.
It’s coming up to 8 years in November he’s been gone & I still try to get back to the person I was before. Children are our lifeline. I stay for my youngest son. He still needs me & I need him. He’s such a wonderful caring young man. I couldn’t ever break his heart or disappoint him.. ❤❤
You are such a beautiful person Marg. Your caring son is like you, and a testimony to your love. I too would not abandon my kids. I have a sister like you do. I stopped talking to her years ago when I moved in with my husband (I who was at the time my fiancé.) It was the best thing I ever did with her! She doesn't, and can't hurt me anymore! And if I meant anything to her she would have not have treated me the way she did all my life. I feel for the pain you have Marg. Life can seem so cruel at times, and yet it can also be so beautiful. You Marg, are part of that beauty in life. Please take care my friend. Sending love.
@@Momof8kids Thankyou so much for your kind words Rosie. I feel you & I have had such similar lives. I am so much of a loner now because I have been hurt by people I loved & trusted.
I don’t get hurt anymore as much as they still try. We can go through this journey together even though we are thousands of miles apart. 🥰🥰🥰🥰
@@MargDegraaf well said Marg! I am always here.
Wow… so relieved you are coming out of the shock and grief of losing your husband. Sharing your thoughts will surely help someone. Feeling the love is absolutely true!❤️
Don’t forget you will have down days, weeks sometimes the whole month. It matter how you handle and pick yourself back up. You are doing so amazing. The pain will never go away it’ll just be more comfortable to live with because unfortunately we have no choice. I know it sounds crazy but you need and deserve at least one friend, in person… some one you can hang with and vent to and trust dearly of course. You are not alone. You are doing so amazing and you are so strong. You got this. Please know you got this !!!
Rosalie I am so sorry that you have been going through this pain. I’m glad you have found the comfort of feeling your husband through love. The thought i had was that your children will all become tree trunks too and they can create branches with leaves. All those trees will benefit from you touching them with your love and the love of Eugenes’s that you have been given by him to share. ❤️🔥❤️🔥❤️🔥 These are my hopes for you and the beautiful little forest you two created… ❤️🔥❤️🔥❤️🔥🙏🥰
That's a beautiful way to symbolize the future!! So true!
@@quarantina3593 Thank you, I appreciate you saying that 🥰☀️🫶
The human spirit is stronger than anything that can happen to it. They also say that God never gives you more than you can handle. I know that we are always stronger than we think and feel we are. I’m proud of you for choosing to live for your children. The kind of grief you were feeling at that time is the most overwhelming, crushing, just completely horrible. You went through the darkest times and you progressed very well. Journaling is a big part of my life and it’s gotten me through hard times. I know the feeling of not wanting to be here and it’s so hard to go through the day just existing. I can see that you’ve done so much work and you’ve progressed to a much better mindset. The grieving process is always so different for everyone and nobody can say if someone is doing it wrong or anything else about it. From what I’ve seen, I think you are doing your best and you should be proud of yourself bc you really are a beautiful human. Thank you for sharing everything you share with us. ❤ sending you prayers and positive vibes.
Those are wise words CocoNicole. Thank you for sharing and for your kindness. I really appreciate your understanding. I could be wrong, but I don't think many people have experienced that. (Living not for yourself.) Sending you love, take care.
I'm so happy you experienced TRUE LOVE. As much as it hurts that you lost him, feel comfort in knowing that not everyone is given such a great gift. You were and are blessed. ❤
Prayers and love. You're an awesome mother. Luv that you're driving
Hi Rosalie, I can feel your grief and relate to what you're saying. I haven't lost my husband, but there was a time when our child was gravely ill, in hospital, and we were fearing for his life. It was the worst experience I've ever had and the thought of losing him let me go down that dark path you described (fortunately, he made a full recovery). What you say about love is so true. It can be a kind of comfort to try and feel the love of our Creator and of our loved ones, whether they are close in spirit or with us physically. You're sometimes so overwhelmed by your grief because Eugene and you loved each other so much and I'm going to say a prayer for you (one that doesn't know any religious boundaries, just like the one you gave us as a gift). You're such a strong woman and have my full admiration for how you have been taking care of your kids, the household and got your driver's license on top of it. You will get through this, as hard as it may sometimes seem. Sending love to you all.
Rosalie, first my thoughts & deepest prayers remain with you. Grieving is such an ongoing process & it sometimes presents unwelcome " surprises" along the way, such as sudden, deep, debilitating sadness over the loss of your loved one. And with that can come dark thoughts. Please remember that you went through one of life's greatest traumas, & it was unexpected. I completely understand your comment about not wanting to DO anything "permanent" but also not feeling like living is a great option either! But you are living & you're strong & I trust my faith which tells me that you will continue your journey with your dear husband in God's time. You're such a loving person & so many of us here our by your side!
Thank you Patty, you warmed my heart. I am so glad you are here and understand. I am also thankful for your compassion. Please take care.
Any time at all, Rosalie. I mean it.
I am so proud of you when u see each of your children that love you will see him in them. Much love lois.
I married my husband when I was 19 he was 26. October 27th of 2022 he passed away after a battle with brain cancer. We had just celebrated our 40th anniversary the month before. I relate to so much of what you say. Our son is 40 and our daughter is 38. Right before my husband passed away each of our children had a son, one is 4 now and one is 3. I am so thankful he got to meet them. I can relate to Children / grandchildren being your motivation to keep going thank God for them❣
Thank you for your understanding and for sharing Estee. I am sorry your family had to go through that. I am glad for you that he did see his grandchildren in life, and now he can know them in spirit. You know he still loves you very much Estee. It brings peace that the children you and your husband had together, and now your grandkids have you. Take care Estee, and I wish you and all your family the very best!
Thoughts and good vibes sent your way sweet Rosalie. Your such a sweet and kind human! Virtual hugs to you, I’m very proud of you. We love you. You and your family stole our hearts! 💕💞💕💙💙💙💙💙💙
Kiymee, you already stole mine! I bet when people get to know you, there are a many hearts stolen by you. Take care my friend.
Rosalie I hear your grief and pray that you will come to understand that God has a plan for all of us. Your children need you right now and your baby is still so little. I pray you get some rest and peace and know that your children love you and will fill that void in time. Most people fear dying because we don't want to leave our loved ones. We don't want to leave our children. Thank you for your message, your helping more people than you know.
Thank you Cathy, I appreciate it. Take car.
This was such a beautiful message there are so many people out there going through or have gone through what you're going through right now and for you to share the perseverance message is so important thank you God bless you you've got this girl
Dear Rosalie, I hope you reconsider talking to a counselor/therapist.
I also hope you can see your worth in Christ and He will see you through; you still have a purpose and value in this life, definitely as a mother, but beyond that as well. You are loved by God.
Oh Rosalie I feel for you. Today is the 8th anniversary of my mum passing I just happened to be over in Victoria visiting her and was planning to leave on the Friday my mum was sick on the Wednesday while we were out shopping so I took her home she said she was ok so I left to pick up some photos I was getting copied for her when I got home she was asleep at 3am she got up and said she wasn’t feeling well I offered to take her to the hospital she said no she would be ok I woke at 7 am and thought she was very quiet she was a snorer anyway when I went into check on her she was half off the bed when I took a closer look I knew she was gone when I rang 000 they told me I had to perform CPR until they got there. I’m not sure how long it took for them to get there but it seemed like an eternity. I had never had to perform CPR before I had been trained in senior first aid but I don’t ever want to go through that ever again. I have been suffering depression really bad this year not sure why but the last few weeks have been really hard I couldn’t even get out of bed
I’m sorry for your loss prayers up for you my friend please hang on ,I’m rooting for you
I'm so glad you have found your way. Remember, he's still right there with you. He's in every breath you take. When you feel pain he's there- just as if you feel joy he's there. The most important thing you can do for him is to live well, because your happiness brings him happiness. You are a wonderful, loving mum and you need look no further than your children's eyes to see him- but you know this! Be happy, live in joy! Bless !
We all choose the road we go on as adults. This is yours. May you find peace. This is one thing I tell me granddaughters. And I hope any young lady reading this will take heed. Never ever let anyone on this earth mean more to you than life. You are able to live a meaningful life with or without children or a husband. God gives everyone a gift. And like the apostle paul says, it is better to be single and give all your love to God. Don't end up like this lady. Please
Someone once told me that it’s ok to go through your dark times , to be sad, to grieve, etc.. but it’s not okay to dwell there. You have to pick yourself up and know your loved one would not want that for you.
It’s ok to admit you can’t just keep being alive for your kids or to be a mom. You are worth much more than that. Don’t spend the rest of your life living just because you’re a mom Rosalie… you need to live to and your husband would want that for you. One day they will be grown and out of the house and you will be so beyond lost and broken and I would hate that for you. You deserve a friend, time for and to you too!!! You’re not just a mom. You have so much purpose and so much to offer on this earth. Live your life up until it’s time and you’ll have a million amazing stories to tell him when you both meet again. You got this ! You matter !!!
Thank you for sharing and helping me, my husband left me 4 months ago and it's the most painful experience ever. I understand the desire to want to just join me husband. He said to me on his death bed that he wanted us to go together... I wanted that too. I'm so sad that it couldn't be that way. I understand you¡!
Debra, thank you for your understanding and kindness. You were there for your husband in the end. That can bring you peace knowing he had you. Life can seem so cruel, but it can also be so beautiful. Life always moves in phases. The good thing about that is the dark phases can reach an end. Your journey in life is not over, and may become brighter still. You can dedicate the rest of your life to a great cause of your choosing. You can still miss him, and that is natural. But you can do something worthy of yourself. I wish you the very best on your journey, Debra. Take care.
Answered prayer. The grief is no intense at the loss of a loved one in the beginning but the waves of it get less and less. It changes as the years pass; God says it is for a season grief. I do not think you ever stop missing them or forget them, but it becomes a point of shall I say gratitude they were with you and helped shape you. So, in a sense they are always with you for a part of the love in in you, the memories too. He would be proud of you, the way you taken charge and done many things you relied on him for. Hard to believe it been a year you have come so far in such a short time. Hang on to the love of God and He will comfort you, give you, His peace. Joy comes in the morning, and it is ok to have joy. I find often when I lose someone real close, I have a much stronger sense of joy over a lot of things. Simple things like watching a butterfly and better appreciation for friendships. Or the coolness in the fall morning air. Anyway, you are doing great and it is nice you are sharing your feelings for others can relate. So, I believe it will help others. Your children are beautiful and happy, and loved. You're doing a great job with them. May God presence always be beside you and in you. No nothing comforts like the Holy Spirit. Peace!
Thank you for sharing💙
You are so welcome! Thank you for being here to listen! Take care!
Dear Rosalie :) What you have expressed is very normal. I think many people have dark thoughts and feelings when times in life are so difficult. You are BRAVE to be so open and honest. I'm SO SORRY that August was so difficult! I'm relieved to hear you are feeling better. I think grieving takes tons of time and maybe never ends :( But you will definitely be with Eugene again one day! And in many ways you are with Eugene every day because he lives on in the beautiful children! I will keep praying for you and yours. :) Best Wishes always 🙏
You are so kind Jennifer, thank you for your prayers. It warms my heart to hear from you. Thank you for your understanding and please take care.
@@Momof8kids It's always nice to hear from you and the kids! I hope you guys have a fun week! Maybe you can make something cinnamony or pumpkiny? Fall is here! :)
Rosalie you’re a beautiful soul. No doubt your husband couldn’t be more proud of you. You’ve come such a long way and you’ll continue to be a great person and a fantastic mom. My thoughts and prayers will continue to be with you ❤🙏
Thank you for your prayers and kindness PurpleRain. I feel ok now, I don't have that emotional pain like I did last August. I appreciate your encouragement, take care.
Prayers for you Rosalie!! Thank the Lord for your children ♥️
Thank you for your prayers Jeanie. I appreciate your kindness. Take care!
Hi Rosalie, you are doing great Eugene would be very proud of you.❤
You are so inspiring this is one of my favorite videos bless you all
Loss of a spouse is painful. Answer to one of your questions. There is a pain worse than losing a spouse, parents or siblings. It is losing a child. I hsve lost two infant sons. One Jeremy died at 32 days old on Sept 24 33 years ago. The pain comes back around that day and his birthday August 23 in waves. You just have to learn to live with the emotional pain. Its something that you never get over. I hope you never have to go through the loss of a child it is worse than the loss of a spouse. A parent shpuld never outlive a child.
My deepest condolences for the loss of your children. Their lives had yet to begin. The newspapers are full of terrible things every day. Let us remember in difficult moments, that we are not alone in our sorrow. Unfortunately, the suffering is not fairly distributed.
God bless you Rosalie ❤️ persevere in prayer, you will see your husband again
Thank you Meya. That is very nice of you, God bless you too!
Hello i just wanted to tell you you are really strong i totally understand what your going through because my kids dad passes away 3 almost 4 years ago and i felt the same way if it wasnt for my kids i wouldnt be here after his passing he was the best dad and he took care of us so well and i have lost so many people in life but this one was the worst and so different to deal with but its because im grieving for me and my kids and i know they have only 1 parent so i have to be both parents and im always thinking i am gonna live this crappy life in this crappy world and live miserably just so they have a parent left
dont forget, your children will still need you even when they are adults! and honestly, anyone who hasnt had ''those thoughts'' after a close loved one has passed, is lying! even if theres no way they'd do it.
We seem to be going through the same thing at the same time. Sending you my love 😢
I am always here. This is a tough path we are on, but you can come through. Sending you love back.
Praying for you guys 🙏
you are doing amazing with the children ❤
Every year is hard Rosalie, I am widowed twice and feel I have two sets of dates xxx
You are beautiful inside and out. ❤
Thank you Marilyn. You are a beautiful person too! 😊
I’m so glad you have peace now. ❤❤❤❤
Finally after a year, I feel him. Perhaps I needed to grow more spiritually to be able to connect.
YOUR TRULY LOVED ❤
Rosalie, Jesus is coming back any moment now to rapture the church.We will all be together soon with our heavenly father.Your husband will be waiting for you. Hold on and finish the race.
keep praying and keep watching.much love to you and the kiddos!
j
You look like you feel love...I'm so glad your suffering has lessened. 🙏♥
It certainly has... I feel ok now. No more emotional pain. Thank you so much Laura for your kindness, I appreciate it. Please take care.
Sending you a huge hug Rosalie!! ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Thank you Olive!
HI Rosalie, I'm sorry you are going through this. I think it would be good for you to join a Bible believing church. This would give you support and community as I believe you have no contact with family. You need support to get through this.
I know the pain of your health failing. I'm sure part of u feels comforted that he's in no more pain. But now I have grandkids and they r young and I want them to remember me and b here for them. But know that when it's my time I can't wait for a everlasting salvation and no more pain.
Thank God you have children to fill your life with love and purpose. I find my three little dogs Cavalier King Charles Spaniels give me love and comfort and companionship. They are good with children too.
They like to cuddle with you and keep you warm at night.
❤❤❤🙏
❤❤ you are inspiring
I am honoured Brenda, thank you. Wish you the very best. Take care.
You’re probably better off seeing a professional therapist who you can talk through your feelings Too many people are using RUclips comments to see them through difficult situations Instead of laying all your problems to the public you should see a professional counselor to help
I realize I can see someone about it, but I declined the offer. I wanted to figure things out on my own. I know that is not for everybody, just me. I am much better now, having made tremendous strides.
You know, so strange with you. Because I was married to my husband 50 Cent plus years and let me tell you. I dream of him and we were really connected. We knew each other's thoughtstops. Everybody goes through their own grief with children without children. It hits the children hard. But we learn to grow and learn that life changes for everyone. I'd learn to be alone I mean, I have my son but I mean, I have learned to be always love him because the day that I leave this Earth. I will be with him too so. As you all know, right now, a lot of you're grieving right now. Still, it's been a long time since he's been got a nice deal grieved for him and I dream about him. And it's wonderful anyway. God bless, you have a blessed day. You know, but there's not a day that I don't think about him. That's how deep our love was. You're talking about 50 plus years? My whole life with him. So anyway, God bless you again and have a wonderful day and I hope you can get Uber whatever you're going through.Take care🙏🏻✝️
Thank you Rebecca for sharing your story with me. I can definitely understand what you are saying. You are very fortunate to have had so many years with your husband. Sounds like he had a good life and marriage with you. I think you know yourself the best and are making the best choices for yourself. I believe you will be with him again if you have faith. It sounds like you do. God bless you too and my heart goes out to you Rebecca. Sending love.
Rosalie, God bless you and your family. I think you're doing an incredible job with all of your responsibilities. ❤
I hope you find new love again. You're too young.
Let me tell you it is not easy some peope may think it is it isnt i lost pretty much my enitre family to cancer it foes not get easier the worst fornne was my mother
I toom care of her till her lasr brearh in feb 5 th 2022 my family that i did have left left me alone to take on taking care of her myaelf i jad to watch her stop eating had ro watch her choke on water watch her flesh being eating by the cancer she couldnr eat the day before she passed her legs locked she couldnt move
One of the worse things was when k had to call the funeral home & tell them to come get her they came with a red velvet body bag to aee your own mom placed in a body bag is just heart breaking its been 2 years now will be theee in feb i still cant get over it still think what she went thru still think about her last breath still think of all the great times we had together & know it wont ever happen again i miss her so much really i do
Me myself i use to ne afraid to die not no more im not inmyself had a heart attack in 2021 a bad one rhat pretty much destroyed my heart they put 2 stents in but they also wanted to out in a pace maker or defibrillator but i said no i said if god decides its mt time to go then its my time to go i will be ready im not afraid no more i feel i have lieced my life im 50 had 3 daughters brang them up there married on there own & do well for themselfs & i feel i have done everything incan in life so whenever it is my time its my time
I really appreciate you sharing this with me. You are amazing to withstand all of that trauma. Your daughters even though you say they are doing well would miss you. I understand that you feel more ready to leave this earth and I am touched by your story. You were there for your mother when she needed you the most and that meant a lot. You did what a loving daughter would have done for their mother. You can feel at peace about that, and knowing how your mother felt that you were with her in her darkest days. She would want you to have peace. Her suffering is over, she wouldn't want yours to continue... When you say it doesn't get easier it sounds as though your sorrow is swallowing you up. Perhaps you could live closer to one of your daughters. If any of your daughters have children they might appreciate your help babysitting. Or perhaps they would let you stay with them awhile in their home. Life can be so painful, but it can also be so beautiful. I am here to listen if you want me to. Take care, and know you did for your mother what others didn't.
Please seek therapy for you and the children. It really helps wonders.
My children have been amazing in their resilience. I was the one that took the loss the hardest. I am ok now. The emotional pain is gone. I am sure therapy does help, but I am ok.
@@Momof8kids I am grateful to hear the kids are good. Grief is a wild beast that roars when you least expect it. I pray for continued healing of your heart and peace for your soul.
@@lnewbury1 thank you, that is very kind of you. Best wishes and take care.
Just wanted to say that you have some really great knockers. Always remember that. They keep everyone happy lol.
Are you trying to be a jerk or does that just come naturally for you?
@@Momof8kids it was a compliment.
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You need some therapy!!
Im sorry but why do you hold god/jesus in such high esteem? If there is a god which i very much doubt there is, why would he take good people, theres murderers, rapists, child killers, pedophiles that get to live and then someone really good who has never hurt anyone gets taken away, and the people left on earth suffer and grieve the loss of their loved ones ! Im sorry but i don't know how you can believe and hold him so close to your heart when hes basically ripping the world apart and taking our loved ones, i refuse to believe in god/jesus, it doesn't make sense!
Theres a channel on youtube called hope paranormal, again wether its real who knows but he appears to connect and talk to spirits, you might find confort from it, i know i have.
Sorry comfort
I was where you were long, long ago. I was raised to believe in god and everything nicey, nicey. but my life was miserable and I saw so much hypocrisy. The problem is that so much is misunderstood and misrepresented. God doesn't take your loved ones or punish others. God is love, the energy of life. Our world is like a machine that God created and once you push the button there is not stopping. God does not make choices. I know God exists because there is an underlying intelligent energy that is always moving things towards to better. Look back to the bad things that have happened in history. Overall things have always moved towards a greater goodness overall. God is there available for anyone to connect to. One can increase their chances of connecting or not. Meditation, pureness of self, and living truth will increase the ability to connect to God. When my husband and I first came together he showed me all of this and I transformed for the better.
I think there are other people who can relate and benefit from our conversation. I posted it under the community tab on my channel. I assume you wouldn't mind because your comment is already public.
@@Lucy-Wilkinson I understand you and respect your opion. I lost a nephew in a traffic accident. My other nephew, his brother, survived the accident. Why should one innocent child die and not the other? No one can prove that his belief or the absence of it is the absolute truth. As long as we choose the path of least harm or pain in every choice in our lives, there is no problem.
@@Momof8kids I understand your vision of god as "the underlying intelligent energy", but I am not convinced that we are evolving to "better". I find it strange that on our planet one animal eats another. That's very cruel in stead of "love". We too are "animals" who fight for food, land, energy supplies, ... . There is a lot of poverty in the world. Millions of people live in extremely poor conditions. And then I am silent about the wars that are currently taking place. We are making our planet sick, with all kinds of pollution such as plastic. Nature and life can be beautiful, but harsh and violent at the same time.
Don’t forget you will have down days, weeks sometimes the whole month. It matter how you handle and pick yourself back up. You are doing so amazing. The pain will never go away it’ll just be more comfortable to live with because unfortunately we have no choice. I know it sounds crazy but you need and deserve at least one friend, in person… some one you can hang with and vent to and trust dearly of course. You are not alone. You are doing so amazing and you are so strong. You got this. Please know you got this !!!
It’s ok to admit you can’t just keep being alive for your kids or to be a mom. You are worth much more than that. Don’t spend the rest of your life living just because you’re a mom Rosalie… you need to live to and your husband would want that for you. One day they will be grown and out of the house and you will be so beyond lost and broken and I would hate that for you. You deserve a friend, time for and to you too!!! You’re not just a mom. You have so much purpose and so much to offer on this earth. Live your life up until it’s time and you’ll have a million amazing stories to tell him when you both meet again. You got this ! You matter !!!
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